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Sunday, April 28, 2002
06:01 p.m.
Goal for today: Do something productive. I've just been playing with Penny and watching the Lifetime Movie Network Channel. Oh lord...one movie about this lady's daughter being a hooker, this one about a chick being stalked by an umpire...this is crazy shit.
Oh, did I mention I'm going to marry Wylie. UGHHH! I'm a stalker. This sucks.
Sunday, April 28, 2002
03:32 p.m.
Wylie said he'll get in touch with Jessica and look at apartments that allow dogs. I know she is trying. But I know that she's not going to want Penny. I know that she's just glancing and going in with a closed mind about the other apartments. Okay, check this out:
The apartment that she wants is 757/month, its a townhome (up and downstairs). It's exactly how Kate's and my apartment was. It's nice, but I duno. You can see it at oldtownsq.com and then click on residential, and then on bridges. What I like: The Village. But, I believe that Justin (this guy that used to be in love with her, she blew him off and then he started to like Wyndi (her current roomate/best friend) and then she got pissed off..yaddayadda) is going to be living there. BUAH! indeed. But it's CHEAPER, allows dogs AND is closer to campus. SOOOOOOOO....we'll see.
But I'll go ahead and let you know what's going to happen, because I know Jessica so well: She's going to have it her way, we'll get a Bridges Apartment, Penny will not be coming to Colorado with me, and I'll just have to deal with, because well- I'm not going to fight over this. I'm going to pick my fights well. And this will not be one. But I will stress my preference strongly.
Sunday, April 28, 2002
01:46 p.m.
eMail from Jessica:
Hey...well, thank you for understanding and all that jazz. You know that I am
trying to find a place and it is hard I promise...all the other places suck
and are the size of my closet and cost more for some reason! Anyway, I really
don't want the dog and you know that, but I am trying to compromise and I know
that I will love the dog when it doesn't have to be in my house. I don't
know...I just don't like dog hair, barking, chewing on stuff, and shit like
that. You know that I can't pay for anything which I know that you know, but
I just want to make sure. I am seriously trying and have been to a couple
different housing services, but a lot of the places just suck my balls. Like
you said, we can look until Wed. and then make a choice...I will do the best
that I can...promise, I already left 3 messages on peoples answering machines
today and so I might get to look at some more soon. I have class from 9-12
and 2-5 on Monday, 9-5 on Tuesday, and 2-5 on Wednesday, so I will do what I
can when I can. Promise. I know that you are being supportive and I really
thank you for that. I promise that I have been doing a lot even though I
can't really prove it! I hope that we can find something that isn't too bad
for both of us. Talk to you soon...love ya babe
Jess
UGH! So, I'm going to go ahead and warn you. Be prepared to hear alot (and that's an understatement) of bitching because of living with Jess. Hell, if I could, I would just say fuck it. I'm staying in Murfreesboro. Okay, so that's drastic. But I wouldn't move in with Jess.
Saturday, April 27, 2002
08:40 p.m.
HRmm. So, I don't feel loved. AT ALL.
Okay, so I've been online looking for damn apartments in Fort Collins. I finally found one, West Collins, that accepts dogs (YAY!) and is cheap (YAY!) and is close to campus (YAY!) and is pretty (YAY!). BUT!!!! Jessica's current roomate Wyndi and her new roomate Amy are going to be moving in there as well. So, that means Jess doesnt want to move in there. (BOO!)
I'm going to be ALL for West Collins. I like them muchly. Hopefully we will be moving in there.
Today has been VERY unproductive. I have done absolutely nothing. Jon and I woke up at 2 this afternoon, watched the rest of our movie and then I came to my parents and he went to work. Tonight we will: drink a few beers, watch a movie and then go to bed. We don't have a very exciting life. The sex is good though. Oh yeah.
Wylie told me that he's not going to come down to Tennessee. He said that his sister (the one that lives in Arkansas) is coming up to Denver the same time he was planning on going down there. (His sister and I live 6 hours away from each other.) Oh well. I told him I wasn't that dissapointed. I mean, really, who thought he was going to actually come down? Yeah, no one. That's alright though.
I have, now, come to the conclusion (even though in my heart I want something else) that we will not date when I move up there. I know that we are both just too different. He is cocky, full of himself, a complete asshole, yet I still want to see the good in him. He's a good guy, but he hides behind this wall. I guess...I duno. I want to be the one that he falls for and then becomes this great guy again. BLAH. Doubt that will happen, though. Oh well. Oh friggin well.
I NEED MONEY! Next weekend is the big M-Day. Moving back in with my parents. Oh dread. Oh well, 3 months of hell for 10 wonderful (I hope) months of Fort Collins.
Friday, April 26, 2002
01:32 p.m.
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Yeah, it sends a copy of this form along with all my answers to him!!! All night long when we talked lastnight it was, "So, who'd you sleep with?"
Thursday, April 25, 2002
08:59 p.m.
I LOVE HIM DAMNIT.
Thursday, April 25, 2002
08:17 p.m.
I am so beyond infactuated with this boy!! WHY? He's not anything too special. He isn't "oh-my-god-i-want-to-jump-him-right-now-he's-so-fucking-hot" cute. But there's just something about him. Something I just have yet to put my finger on. Maybe it's that he's so far away. Maybe it's that I can't have him. Maybe it's just...hell, maybe it's because it's meant to be. HA!
but I do like him very much. I am very excited about moving out to Colorado.
My little Brooktar was looking at a map today and asked where "Coloraoo" is at. I pointed to Nashville and then to Fort Collins, "That's how far apart we'll be." She just looked at me with sad eyes and told me she doesn't want me to go. I will miss her most of all.
I'm scared she'll forget me. I'm scared she won't love me anymore. She has been a HUGE part of my life. For the past 4 years and 2& 1/2 months she has been my world. My absolute everything.
I'll tell you a secret. A long time ago, I used to wish that Jason and Amy (Brooke's parents) didnt want anything to do with her, so I could adopt Brookey and take care of her myself. I love her with all my heart and soul. Of course, I know that she needs her parents and they love her. I can't imagine loving my own more. She is my everything. I would do anything in the world for her.
Uhm. Yeah, so I'm really liking the pink. I'm such a girl. AND, you know what one good thing about moving in with my parents? I'll have money to buy really cute house stuff. YAY!
Thursday, April 25, 2002
05:51 p.m.
Ahh. Like the new layout? I do. Thanks to yaya for this lovely design.
So, we have no hot water at my house. What kind of messed up shiznit is that? Exactly. I'm moving back in to my parents house next weekend. Lord help me. I'm going to really TRY to be my best and not be such a brat. This is, after all, their house, and I will be a guest in it.
Penny will be coming to live with me, so yay. I'll have her with me. She'll go and stay at Jon's too. We do, afterall, have joint custody. I may, if they can't find another roomate soon, stay a few more weeks and only pay 1/2 of my rent for this month. Hopefully I'll be able to save up atleast 3grand. Wanna help? You can email me and give me money. I really don't mind.
Jess and I have been looking at apartments in Fort Collins. Well, she's done more of the looking, I only can comment on what I've seen online. Which isn't all that much. I need a two bedroom apartment that is close to campus and allows medium sized beautiful pups named Penny. Jess wants to be difficult though. She doesn't want a garden level, she doesn't want to be more than four blocks from campus. She wants it to be super super nice. HELLO! We're in college, it's not supposed to be super nice. We are broke college students, lets look like we are too!.
Oh, I need a car, too. Hopefully, I'll be able to buy something. Otherwise, I'll be screwed. In the tush, at that!
Sunday, April 21, 2002
09:26 p.m.
will someone look at my html and tell me how on earth i can get this whole block to be text. if you can, i'll send you a hug.
Sunday, April 21, 2002
09:15 p.m.
holyshit. i like to update all of the sudden.
brian is doing better. so good for him. i don't believe i said anything about him earlier. a good friend of the family was in a really bad motorcycle accident. he hit a suburban head on and is in ICU and has been since Tuesday night. He's made it this far, though, so I'm glad. He's still in a induced coma and will be for a while. they finally were able to do a spinal tap and he does not have any spinal injuries. thank god. tomorrow they are going to do surgery on his jaw so it won't set back wrong. please keep him in your prayers.
Saturday, April 20, 2002
04:47 p.m.
ahhh, pink.
Sorry, tasha, i had to get jon's car back to the house. love you and we WILL talk sometime!!
Saturday, April 20, 2002
04:38 p.m.
I hate this layout.
Okay, so my mom took me to kohls to do some shopping. Yay. Ours just opened up the other week, so now I have clothes. Whoo. Plus, to Old Navy so I could get some running pants.
Speaking of running. I need to, because I'm the heaviest I have ever been in my life. I'm fat. Really, I am. I'm 5'4" (on a good day) and I weigh alot. I just cant say it. So, I've been working out, mom is going to buy me some "fat girl pills" as I like to call them, and I'm going to get back down to my normal 120-125. I'm so chubby. I refused to try on shorts because I cannot fit into my size and I will die before I go a size higher. What up- I'm shallow. Atleast I'm secure with my shallow-ness.
I'm FAT. It's depressing. But ALL I do is eat. We don't have cable anymore, so I eat. We don't do anything active, so I eat. I'm such a big fat heifer cow. Yup yup, that's me.
MUST BE THIN BEFORE WYLIE COMES DOWN!
oh god. I'm so one of those girls.
Friday, April 19, 2002
07:22 p.m.
I'm in a very bitter mood. Just to warn you.
Guess what? 2/3 of my roomates are the devil. 1/3 just annoys me on a regular basis.
Why?, you may ask. One has stolen money out of my wallet twice now. One has called me a bitch repeatedly and I just want to stragle him. All the time.
UGHHHHH! So, what is my resolution? I'm moving back in with my parents. Oh, GOD! Is, right. I need to save the money, I to get a new car, and I cannot do these things with my bills that I have at this time.
It won't be that bad, though. I'll just be gone alot. And everything will be free. Whoo.
That is all. Tons is going on right now, but I'm just not up to talking about it. Right, so what's the point?
xoxox
Sunday, April 14, 2002
08:19 p.m.
I want to start yoga. It's expensive though.
Saturday, April 13, 2002
08:08 p.m.
The tumor is 3% active cancer cells. This is a great thing. As long as it's active it cannot grow. Steve is going to be okay. Atleast right now he is.
Jessica has found an apartment. However it does not allow dogs. We're going to work on this. She's not too thrilled at all about Penny, but she'll just have to deal. Penny is my baby. And I told her it would only be until December. So, maybe that will help on things. Let's hope we can somehow find a way for Penny to stay in the apartment with us.
Wylie is supposed to come down before his summer sessions begin. Oh, I hope so. I don't know why exactly that I love him like I do, but I do.
Sorry for the lack of updates, but I really just cant get to a computer that often.
Send money to: 1575 Chariot Drive
Murfreesboro, TN 37130
They will forward it to my house.
Tuesday, April 9, 2002
01:32 p.m.
hey. hey. hey.
life is crazy right now. As usual. My roomate has a tumor on his brain. He had a byopsy done today. We'll find out more information about it on Thursday. Keep him in your prayers.
Wednesday, April 3, 2002
07:42 p.m.
Josh came over lastnight. I haven't seen him in a very long time. Nearly two months. He bough a new S10, fixed it up and it's so pretty now. He's trying to sale me his beatle, but no thanks, it's a lovely little car, but I can't afford 10,900. He has this other little "perfect Jillian car" for me that he'll sale for 7,800. Maybe. I havent a clue what kind of car it is though. I totally need a car though.
Mom is doing well. She's in bed right now, feeling sick. She's been really good with the pain so far. I hope she has a fast and easy recovery.
Work has got me just absolutely tired right now. I'm just run down. I should be at the house right now getting Penny ready for bed, or cleaning, or doing laundry, or anything but sitting at the computer typing pointless things.
I'm so glad that Kiala is doing better. I never went into detail about what was going on there. She's just had a hard time lately, and I hope things will smooth out perfectly, soon.
I deffently should try to get ahold of mr. Chad Frey. I havent talked or heard from him in months.
Penny is slowly coming out of her shell. She's getting friskier everyday and slowing begining to sleep longer at night. She had her first accident in the house today, though. My fault. I didn't wake up to take her outside. whoops.
okay, so this is two entries in two days. I'm so impressed with myself.
Tuesday, April 2, 2002
12:26 p.m.
This is what I've been up to: WORK, WORK, WORK.
Saturday, Jon and I got a 6 week old female blue tick beagle. She's more than adorable. We named her Penny. She'll be moving with me in August. In December I'll bring her back to stay with her dad, on Easter holiday I will take her back to Colorado with me. We have joint custudy, and we'll be sending each other Penny Support when the other has her. If I still had my digital camera, I'd take a picture, but maybe I can still get one up here soon. She's my love.
This morning my mom had surgery on her shoulder. She's laying on the couch right now. This is the reason that I'm home right now and actually updating. I hate to see her feeling so badly. I cannot stand to see her in pain. Her pain pills make her sick, so she's having to lay their in agony. Please keep your prayers with her and our family for a while. Thank you.
I'm still planning on the move to CO, but money has still/ and probably will be an issue for a while. I'll work something out, though. I tend to usually.
I don't miss updating anymore, but I do miss just journaling. I havent even kept up with my paper journal. It seems like I have no free time anymore, not to exclude any type of life outside of work. Here is my usual weekly scedule:
monday&wendseday- YMCA 8:00am-1:00pm
Bassett's 2:00pm-6:00pm
tuesday&thursday- classes 8:00am-5:50pm
Bassett's 6:00pm-close
friday-(a)2:00pm-6:00pm Bassett's
7:00pm-4:00(or)5:00am NFL Club (Nashville)
(b)6:00pm-4:00(of)5:00am NFL Club (Nashville)
saturday- 10:00am-4:00pm Bassett's
7:00am-4(or)5:00am NFL Club (Nashville)
SUNDAY!!!- OFF!!! OFF!!!
So. you can plainly see that I have no life. Occasionally I'll get to go out to dinner with Jon, but more than likely when we both get home from work or school we play with Penny, then go to sleep. We don't have an exciting life anymore.
Speaking of Jon and I. We are not together. We are not sleeping together (in the sexual sense) anymore. We are just back to being roomates that have happened to fall slightly for each other. He's my comfort, I am his as well. We have this psuedo relationship that's keeping us from seeing other people, seeing what else is out there, and keeping us in this "safe zone". We are both well aware of this and we're okay with it. We're free, however, to date anyone we'd like to, but we do have a rule in bringing someone else home. Call first. It's fair, but it hasn't happened yet.
Jon still know that I'm wild and crazy over wylie still. Don't even ask why, because I can't tell you. I'm excited to move to Colorado to see what can happen between the two of us. But but believe for a second he is the reason I'm moving out there. You live in Murfreesboro for 19 years and see if you'd move to anywhere else in a heartbeat. That's what I thought.
Well, it's almost 1, so I need to do somethings around the house, make sure mom is okay and comfortable, fix some lunch and do other things like that.
There possibly will be another update today...wooow..creepy, huh?
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