state of mind

Tuesday, April 4, 2006

Now playing: You're the universe~Incognito

Obnoxious!

Good gwad talk about lame action that i did in the past few days..i thought that i'm playing cool but in the end i kept on screwed things up..bad! gosh you have no idea how fustrating it is..and i just trying to live the day with lot's of possibilities and optimistic haha..

So anyway i kind'a think that everything always running not so smoothly when it comes to my mood or thing that i wanted to be..i have to admit thou' he's making me wiser and cooler each in every day..i'm aware of that..now..eventhou' i can't take all the critics in the beginning but i begin to realise that he's doin that for my own good..and cause he care about me! kind'a shocked when he said that "i kept covering you up honey"..gosh sorry dear..i'm flatered and shocked at the same time..so anyway i really am trying to be the best i can be..that work for both of us..it's good to found out that i have the same situation goin on with my friend..hahaha..really helps me a lot..at least i can share and just express this feeling outloud!

Love my life,love my job and love everything that i do..just hope more luck for me in the future..

07:20 p.m.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Ingnorance

Blahhhh what a day..some attituide i received in the past few days..nothin but some ignorance from someone who's been making a very important role to me! i dunno what it is that caused him that way? is it cause of me? or he just didn't have the time to just say hi or call me? gahhh...i know that we've been discussed about this earlier and we pretty much making a conclusion that whoever feel want to call first, do not hesitate to do so..and i think starting from monday, i'm the one who kept making the call...gahhhh..and when it come to he's turn, he asked me to go out with him on my working day..bummer..i'm pretty sure that i already informed him about my new job and how important it is to me, i think he just didn't care about that isn't? well i gave up..i totally lost it dunno why but i feel like he's sooooo unbeliveable annoying! now it show's that i really into him badly and apperantly not him..gahhhh i want to shoot my annoying mind...

07:39 p.m.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Now Playing:The Moment~Stephany Sun

Posessive

Well i said it..finally all the burden that's been troubling in my chest is finally wide open! gosh i feel relief and annoying at the same time, i guess i'm not the kind of girl that can keep certain things inside..i just need to let it out..i dunno where this is going to lead me..i mean i know that i did something bad..it's just that it all made sense really..i dunno..i'm just playing innocent dumb i guess hahaha whatever that means...

I feel like a lost duck..waiting for something amazing to happen..even thou it seems like my lovelife is like a clueless situation..i'm glad that my job is working pretty well..i've been assigned to be working on this criminal program..for good..hahaha..the good thing i work with a great people and the job pretty much okay..i can make my self busy again..yeepee...and if things turn out great i could get a raise..according to my new task of course..is that good or what?? hahahaha..so anyway..at least one thing in my life working smoothly..well let's keep it that way!

08:54 p.m.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Now playing:If you really love me~Stevie Wonder

Pusink..with the capital "P"

Kind'a lame when u think about the future and just keep on blabbering about how pathetic your life is..when you don't have something to do..that annoying thought keep on haunting me soo bad! gahhh...i miss my old activity, you know the old me with ton's of stuff goin on,probably that day is kind'a over but still i always hope that someday i can be that busy gal all over again!

My love life well okay i guess..i'm trying to avoid all the lame things that can easily started the fight, just trying to be more focus and simple..whatever that means..but still the future thingy still hangin' in my head..i guess it's okay once in awhile you chat with your friend about your love life..it's just that when they started to say something so annoying..just ignore it and believe your self...something good will happen anyway..note to my self!

Starting to watch Korean movies again..i dunno i just wacthed this hot review about one particular Korean movies called The Art of Seduction in cable, and making me want to watch that movie so bad..so i bought it and yesh it's good!so hillarious and very entertaining hahaha...oh i also watched Shinobi..gosh Joe Odagiri so yumiee..just love the haircut, and the story so powerfull..perfect..eventhou' the ending kind'a lame..but still one good movie..and i love the fighting scene..soo cool!

Job still sux big time..thank god i have such a great friends around..at least when i'm down i can just have fun with them...gah i just wanna be happy for the rest of my life...

07:00 a.m.