Thursday, October 27, 2005
Now playing:Drama,love & lationship~Baby Face
I WANT TO KILL MY SELF!!! SOMEBODY JUST SHOOT ME PLEASE.....GET THIS THING OFF ME..ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, October 24, 2005
Now playing:3T~Anything
Hahahaha thank you guys for all the support..i know that my earlier entry is a lil' bit gloomy and sound frustrated..but i guess that is why i wrote that probs in my blog anyway..to express my deepest feeling in my very own blog! hahaha..sometimes i cherish this blog so much...thank you guys..i'm okay now..already reach a very good deal with my bf..and hopefully it will work just fine!
Lately i've been dying of having my very own Digital Camera..after a long..long wait..then i found the perfect Digicam...which is so very afordable but yet with a very good quantities! i can't wait to have that baby..finally the waiting moment is over..hahahahaha!
Oh by the way i took this cool quiz about Which The OC member are you..and guess what? i'm Summer huahahahha
Also i took another quiz..wow so much fun....
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Now playing:Pop star~Ken Hirai
I just had a big fight ever with my bf..fight like this made me thinking about the future..the future that maybe i'm not belong to have someone to love with! i hate that..i know that i can not control my emotion and god knows how much i try to control it..but then again i can't! things got even worsen when that particular thing came up all over again..i hate that! i know that i can easily snapped when it comes to that stuff!!! i don't know what will happen with my relationship rite now....i just felt so uneasy and lost! blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Now playing:Alicia Keys~Unbreakable
Geeez in the past few weeks my days was like sooooo boring..but the good thing is..i'm able to deal with that..rite now! i know that things might actually sux already and will be that way for good, but at least rite now i'm preapared and ready to step my foot down...in a good way!
The raining season is here..i was like sooo not ready but as i watch the rain fallin from my window it was sooo good, and the weather...i always love rainy season weather..the chill and breezy wind gives certain of cool feeling inside!i was soo ready to go outside this afternoon, but then it's raining hard outside..so i just sit there in my couch and reading magz,and listening to mp3..i have to say i enjoy that serene yet short moment so much! i love that moment.. i wish that i can share that precious moment with my bf...seriously re the moment sooo great love it!!!!!
As i grew up i began to realize that things are not that simple..but i can only hope that me as an adult can go through all that obstacle with open heart and lot's of kindness..haha whatever that means!
My family planning to spend Lebaran in my mom's home town..Jambi to be exact! even thou i'm not so thrilled about the whole goin away trip, especially the idea of being apart with my bf, i still cherish the excitement that my family share! my sis, mom and dad..can not wait for this trip..i must say this trip to be the first trip we all together as a family...we never actually do this kind'a stuff! well i must say..pretty amazing!
Just hope everybody will have agreat holiday..i do hope soo!!
Monday, October 10, 2005
Now playing:Freak on lish~Korn
Hahaha major influenced of hard core music thanks to my bf...just wanna do something for fun..recommended by Gi-chan!..here goes....
7 THINGS ABOUT ME
7 things that scare the hell outta me
1. freaky place
2. alone in a room
3. ocean
4. high way
5. my parents health condition
6. ran out of money
7. not working
7 things/people I love most
1. my family
2. my boy friend..love u re..
3. my cousins
4. my friends
5. my dear online friends..that change the whole perspective of friendship
6. my oldest friend..
7. my relatives
7 important stuff in my room
1. pc
2. dvd's collection
3. my mags..(mostly teen mags)
4. my cd's,mp3's
5. my paper work stuff
6. bags
7. my 'heavenly loeaded' old stuff under my bed
7 random facts about me
1. mature woman but sometime act like 17 year old gal..
2. love to eat lately
3. always thought that i'm too fat
4. out loud
5. moody
6. independent
7. highly creative
7 things I plan to do before i kick the bucket
1. gives a true happiness to my parents
2. visit japan,new york and london
3. working in a very high profile yet hip broadcasting company
4. married woman with 2 children
5. experinced a slim body like a super model
6. be rich
7. able to drive
7 things that I can do
1. online
2. movies,music
3. hang out with my bf
4. chit chat with all my girl friend
5. cleaning my room
6. appreciate good sitcom
7. willing to try something new
7 things I can't do
1. drive a car
2. cooking
3. sleep alone
4. swimming
5. math
6. speaking,writing japanese
7. kissing ass
7 things I say the most
1. sumpe loe?
2. eeeh
3. masaka
4. tau gak seh
5. whatever
6. tuh kan..
7. makasih ya
7 celeb crushes
1. yoshikuni dochin
2. Morita Go
3. Joe odagiri
4. Eita
5. Matt damon
6. Clive owen
7. Topher grace
7 People who have to do this
1. dianne
2. Thina
3. siska
4. Juju
5. irini
6. anyone who wants to
7. you!
Friday, October 7, 2005
Now playing:Orange~V6
I dunno why i just love V6 new song called Orange..the melody so different and refreshing! i always adore V6 and i think they're music have becoming more mature and sophisticated..yay bravo V6!
Anyway i think i already at the point where all the negative aura is no longer holding me back! i know that i'm not what they called a very lucky human being after all, but at least what i have rite now..is no easy! i gain all the benefit,stuff and all that mostly cause of my strong will and good chance! i blessed all that with all my heart..is good to know that i can feel a true happiness among my family and love one! maybe we never realise what we already achieve in front of us, until we found out that this is enough..more than enough hahaha..so anyway i just hope that i can maintain this positive feeling and just continue with what i'm doin, cause god knows how much i love my life rite now!
I always love fasting month! the atmosphere and the people just gives certain feeling, that only in holly month we can feel it!Watching all the poeple went to mosque sure is create a smile in my face haha..i love this month! may god bring more happiness and luck for me and my family..especially my bf....more power for you re!!!
Thursday, October 6, 2005
Now Playing: Bad Day~Daniel Powter
Whoaaaaa what a day.. i thought that the trip from my home to the office is gonna be like a normal day..just like the usual..but not today..apperantly all the public transportation in my area is on strike..which is i didn't see it coming and just made me not in a very good position really! so i had to take taxy, which is not in my expenses list rite now, but i have to do it anyway..geeez i hate that! well now that i already in my office, but still so pissed with the way things worked out! i just wish i can be more aware about the street situation, at least i'm ready for it! gahhhhhhh...
So anyway my bf is sick again...arghhhhh..i hate this situation..not able to help him totally frustrating moment for me..just hope that he will get better soon, and just back to normal..love you re...