state of mind

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Now playing:You learn~Alanys Morisette

One thing i learn from this relationship..everything is brand new and need some understanding! it's a good thing that i shared so many good thoughts with lot's of friend of mine..and cause of that also bring me more faith and good point of view about my relationship! been blessed with all that sure is made me more wiser and willing to take all the challange and obstacle with open heart!

I know that sometimes i can be so snob and just ignore all the benefits around me..and sometimes it making my dear bf so annoyed..but then i learn that he loves me for who i am...despite of all the past i know that he appreciate me with his very own special way! and i adored that...i really have to control my self and just be positive with everything..i know that it's so freakin hard when things doesn't work out the way we wanted..but then at least i have someone who love me and cherish me for who i am..with no hesitation..and that's my friend what i called good luck! hahahaha....

I know that i'm not what you called "simple" girl, after all there's a lot of things that's been goin on in my mind..and sometimes it can get a little carried away...that's why all my friends opinion and point of view is making a very important role in here..just give me the good insight and also people that can say to me "snap out of it" hahahaha...

I'm gonna be 28 very soon..blah something that Citta said "c'mon yen it's only number" yeah rite cit..hahaha..i know that it's only number but to me also a warning that i'm getting old and must do something wise and right for the next future hahaha...i know that i'm doin well so far..and i do hope it's gonna continue..for good!

05:16 p.m.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Now playing:bedtime stories~Bonie Pink

Hemmmm obviously my life is kinda messy rite now! i feel lousy and unhappy! what's goin on? blahhh i need to think this through and just be patient...so help me gwad...

07:37 p.m.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Now playing:Milikmu selalu~Andien

Kangen berat sama my bf..yang akhir-akhir ini jadi super sibuk sama kerjaannya! in a way gue rada happy karena doi jadi super semangat sama kerjaanya..tapi di sisi lain waktunya dia buat gue jadi semakin berkurang..arghhhhhh..i miss him so much! i miss his 'asal' hair, i miss his funny nose,i miss his cute smile, i miss his warmth hug, and i miss his cuddle so much! can't wait for weekend to come..beneran deh weekend ini adalah saat-saat yang paling gue tunggu..miss u reeee..so much!!!

Kerjaan so far so good..tanggung jawab udah rada berkurang..tapi tetep annoying aja sama all the small things! blah...bought my self a new Ipod nano last weekend..so far so good lah...keep plugging it in my ears hahahaha..so anyway must back to work...i miss my babe so bad!

04:52 p.m.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Now Playing:Super duper love~Joss Stone

As my friend browsing around on the net to find a good pix of wedding dress..here i am feeling oh wow..i wish it was me..hahaha..been having this feeling lately and i starting to get used to it..a lot! i know that i'm so lucky having a great bf rite now..it's just that i dunno..as the time passes me by..i just want to go into a new step that's all..and i know that my bf is not ready yet..and hey don't get me wronk..i'm willing to wait, it's just that so freakin hard sometimes

Just having a regular, nice lunch with my best old friend..and like always he's always giving me a good site that just brighten up my point of view! it's good that i already have a great bf..i have to stick with him no matter what! and just pray and wait for good thing to happen! thank's pall..you the best!

So anyway just trying to live my life by praying and living it naturally..i just hope all my good dream will come true!

04:42 p.m.

Monday, January 16, 2006

Now playing:You are the universe~Brand New heavies

OMG...in the past few weeks i've done nothing but fighting all the time with my bf! it's like every single thing can be such a lousy topics and made us very unpleasant with each other! and after a long and exhausted nite of fighting...it happened again last nite..such a bummer! i love my bf so very much..it's just that we can't stop fighting! my friend said probably i'm having a rough time in my relationship..it happens..just try not to make a big deal of it...so i just hope we can over come this annoying phase and just back to normal...man oh man i love my bf so very much..just give me the strength and blessing to overcome this and just continue our journey..together!

08:56 p.m.

Friday, January 6, 2006

Now playing:The Drill~the Drill

I just want to say this...ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*Jenn's head exploded*

09:29 p.m.

Thursday, January 5, 2006

Now Playing:I like the way u move~Body Rocker

Sumpe matiiiii...awal 2006 tuh emang beneran banyak masalah banget sama gue..dan semuanya numplek..blek masalah kantor..sempet stress juga sih tapi thank god semuanya udah beres sekarang..ahhhh thank god..well let's just hope that everything just running smoothly...so help me gwad...beneran deh masalah kantor ini emang bikin stress dan keriting!

Makin cinta sama my bf hehehe...gak tau kenapa kayaknya kok sekarang bawaannya kangen mulu..udah gitu kita jadi semakin jarang ketemuan karena kesibukan gue ini..sorry honey..gak maksud sok sibuk kayak gini tapi yah mau gimana lagi! Just hope that he mature enuf' to understand my thing..so far so good lah!

Never underestimate the small thing..cause you never know that those small thing can turn into a big thing sometimes! one thing that i learn from my last experience so far....so just a reminder to my self..for next time..remember this wise thought!!!

08:27 p.m.

Tuesday, January 3, 2006

Now Playing:Till there was you~Rachel Star

I had a great nu year..spent that wonderful day with my bf and friends in Citos..so hillarious really! at first i was soooo weak cause of bad cold and terrible caugh, so i decided to take a rest and drinks a lot of fluids and medicine, and just rest in my bf cribs..so sweet really my bf is concerned about my health so he played on lot's of cozy song's from his pc and just let me enjoy all that song..why am i saying that is so sweet? cause my bf doesn't like melow song, so the fact that he turn it on just to make me comfy soo sweet really! so anyway after a few hours resting, my body is begining to feel 'genki' again..hehe..and after that just eat dinner and prepare for the wonderful nite!i'm telling you i had a blast..the place so packed with people and i enjoy that nite sooo much!!despite of all the bad thing's that happened with my office thingy..blah...so anyway that's my nu year story..and that is one of those moment that i will cherish for good!

09:19 p.m.