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Quote of the day: Never argue with something that can bleed for more than three days
Thursday, April 4, 2002
02:29PM|So sick
Grr, I'm sick of this layout, i don't like it anymore. Say bye bye. BYE!!! New layout coming soon, real soon, like right now. ok, that'll be all. bye bye
Tuesday, April 2, 2002
08:11PM|Achy, Achy feet.
I just got back from the real disneyland. hehehehe. WE went to Disney California, nobody wanted to stay there because it wasn't much of a fun. Alrighty well, i kept on stopping Lee to make me not go there, and when I got done with it I wanted to go there again. Ofcourse, I didnt tellhim that, then that would be wrong. Ok well anyways, the day was OK, UNTIL I SAW JAMES!!! The fuck is he doing in Disneyland. It was so unreal, i mean, what are the chances of us finding each other in disneyland, someone you know. He said something to Lee and that's when I got so fucking pissed. I didn't want Lee to talk to him because I know that JAmes is going to fucking start something so I made Lee walk the other way. Well anyways I told Lee who he was and it seemed like Lee didn't want to do anything and he was definately bummed and tired from all the walking. THe lines were freaking long, the longest was the space one. Yeah, it was fun, but it wasn't worth 1 hour of waiting.
The movie Cowboy Bebop, I gave back to Gee. I hope Gee burns me a copy. Lee's birthday is this saturday, I have to pick up the carrot cake so I can give it to Lee. Ihope Gee will help me through everything. That reminds me, DARN BIRTHDAYS! James' tomorrow, that sucks, Idon't really care about him anymore, I'm pissed off. I know Lee is going to start asking questions about him once he gets home. grrrr. y'know, I should change this layout now. It's getting pretty full. hehhe. Strange, Angel isn't online, I wonder if he was there with James, I would be pissed off at him also. Today was a tiresome day, it was fun but I keep on getting tired then later on hyper. LOL! I know for sure that I annoyed Lee, i didn't exactly do it on accident nor on purpose. I can tell I was annoying him but I somehow just didn't care. I guess it was because i was having fun. Don't know, I'm sick. Blah! I hope merry gives me that present tomorrow. hehehe. that i bought. The shirt that says "Lead me not to temptation, I can find it myself" and the car freshener and the easter cookie. It's passed easter but oh well. =) I hope Lee likes everything that I buy him. I l ike the things that he buys me better though, he's much more umm.. whatcha ma call it. wEll thoughtfull. I'ma go print out Lee a card. heheh. maybe tomorrow when I'm home alone. Darn, i doubt sister is going to work tomorrow, but I'm sure she's not on friday, saturday, and sunday because that is when she is going to catalina. Alrighty, that'll be all. *waves bye* BYE BYE
Sunday, March 31, 2002
08:05PM|Happy Easter
Ok, today I went to disneyland, yeah, it was fun. hehhee. ok, ima go backwards. On friday I was waiting for Merry to call back cause she was planning on going ot the mall and bring me back at around 5. darn, i gotta cook rice. Alrighty, I'm back. now where was I. Oh yeah, I was waiting for Merry to call and then someone knocked on the door and I thought it was merry. I said "hello?" and Lee popped up. =D even better but if osmeone sees him, then that wont be good. And yeah, he came over, went straight to the point. ^_~ Alrighty, now for saturday. I went online, Merry Imed me and ask if I could go to the mall. I said maybe, who's going. She said only her and i said I'll call her back when sister is gone. and yeah, sister left, and waited a while cause i was doing Lee's drawing which I messed up in all of them. Later, I was bored and so I called Merry. She persuade me to go to the mall with her, so i said um. bring me home at around 8 or 9. so we went shopping and the first store we went to was some of her stuff. But the first store that I wanted to go to was "Hot topic". There was this asian guy in there, he was cute. I know Merry really wanted to talk to him, cause she just went straight to him and she wasn't even making sense. She should know that Lee wouldn't like his stuff, the only reason I went to hot topic was to choose those wacky T shirts. So yeah, after that we went to some other stores of hers. Shopped and dropped by at Forever 21. I knew everybody in the cashregister, except for that white girl. Icouldn't find a good gift for Lee though, the shirt was cheap so that was cool. Then the last shop we went to was bath and body works. I bought him one of those air fresheners for his car. =D it'll smell like a girl's car, but atleast it will be fresh. heehee. =D agh. oh yeah, at starbucks, I bought him an easter cookie. Darn, I think it's like spoiled by now. I don't know, it's with Merry. ok, umm. NOw about today. woke up on time, or just alittle bit early. I thought I was late so i didn't take a shower. Grabbed some pants and a shirt and then a sweater. Wondered why Lee was taking so long so I called him, he was on his way. Then mother woke up and went outside to do something to the plant. Lee did that Cambodian greeting thing. hehehe. =P Later Gee came by with some bad news saying that he doesn't have the free tickets so we ended up just eating at a restaraunt. I was with Lee for a while then we went to my place and went straight tothe point. Then, i started feeling empty. agh* i'll edit this later and finish this later. I want to watch my cowboy bebop. BYE!
Friday, March 29, 2002
11:30AM|Just thought of a gift
Well, I just thought of a gift for Lee(my boyfriend). Let's see a chocolate carrot cake or whatever flavor he wants it but who doesn't like chocolate? Hmmm? Who? Alrighty and I'm going to draw another picture of us together in the future. I really really hope he likes it. michael told me to bake him a cake but I don't know how. he says to buy the accessories and that is about it but I'm still clueless. I don't know how like how to put the frosting inside the cake and stuff. =D I'll just continue on the scarf, i know it won't be done and stuff. alrighty well there is nothing to do. i'll be back to thislater. that'll be all. c ya
Thursday, March 28, 2002
1:04PM|Bringing my acoustic
Well today was an OK day. I was talking to Kenny and he is definately having serious girl problems. I really don't know how to help him, actually I can but it's harder. His girlfriend is in the stage that I went through with Lee and I can help that, but she has this other friend that is making her go to this one path. She said she needs some time to herself away from him. HOw is he going to convince her one way when the other person is making her go the other way. It's a lose-lose situation for him. The only way to win her back is to forget what she said and just take her away. That's the best thing to do, well there are many other choices like kill that other girl that is brainwashing his girlfriend.
Alrighty well anyways, boyfriend is mad at me. You may be wondering why I put a password set in this page, it's because I was talking about Owen and Angel. Big deal, I wasn't even talking much about them. I haven't seen Owen in a long ass time and who would blaim me if I miss him. He's a really good friend of mine and I haven't seen him in a long time. grrr. And Angel, yeah I'm going to meet him on the 12th at LUNCH! Like at 11:30-12. That isn't even much but we're going to meet anyways. He thinks that I forgot about our anniversary, whatever. I didn't forget, we're just going to meet each other for the first time and then leave. He thinks that all I think about still is Angel, yeah ahuh whatever. That's definately not true. He should know that I love Lee and nobody else, I don't even like Angel anymore. hahaa.
Ok well anyways, where was I. Oh yeah, Kenny is going to teach me how to play the acoustic. I'ma bring my guitar and Kenny is going to teach me the basics. =\ I hope he's not too caught up with his girlfriend, I really do want to help him. He seems so stressed out, it reminds me of two months ago or something like that. His mind isn't even focused right. =\ Well, this might go through the wrong path if I say the wrong thing. Alrighty. I gotta go now. bye bye
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alrighty, the fight between me and my boyfriend is over with. ok, here is the stuff...
From: "I LOVE LEE"
To: siulonggt4@hotmail.com
Subject: HI SWEETY!
Date: Tue, 26 Mar 2002 14:46:40 -0800
I MISS YOU OH SO MUCHY! =D i'm at home and it's 2:46pm and mother is here also. grr. oh well, i gotta get ready for evening class. I just wanted to say that I missyou oh soooo muchy. I wanna see you again.=( alrigty well nothing new happened today. so hw about you/ anything new? how are you today? well um. i'm ok. =D i gotta get going.bye bye sweety. *muah* I LOVE YOU
From: "Lee H Kim"
To: winejar5@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: HI SWEETY!
Date: Wed, 27 Mar 2002 08:05:51 -0800
i don't wanna hear you miss me "oh so muchy" if you use it with all your other guy friends..look who's the hippocrit now..i don't like what you're doing to me..and i know you don't care wat i feel or how i think, i know i'm not that special to you..so i'll do the same..just don't blame me if i make u unhappy in any way what so ever
From: "I LOVE LEE"
To: siulonggt4@hotmail.com
Subject: huh?
Date: Wed, 27 Mar 2002 18:52:38 -0800
what are you talking about in this email?
From: "Lee H Kim"
To: winejar5@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: huh?
Date: Wed, 27 Mar 2002 19:48:43 -0800
i read your pitas page..u can't blame me from being upset..and if u wanna "grow up" in this relationship, start trying to make me trust you instead of expecting me too..your pitas page exposes everything that goes on in your mind..and it's not making me happy to see what you put yesterday..i don't care if you mention me one bit..i know you used to like angel and he's been your best friend since i don't know when..and i know u want to meet him so bad that it hurts..he chose a good day to come too..on our 18 month anniversary..i bet you fogot all about our anniversary when he said the 12th..all u could think of is that's the date u finally get to meet your lovely angel..and who knows how you think of him behind my back..but the way you talk about him and pay attention to him makes me think you've been into him eversince you were with me...and u know owen likes you..and u said urself that it's not right to talk to sum1 who likes you..i don't care if u talk to him..but sayin you miss him "oh so muchy"..wow..no wonder he likes you so much..i don't wanna hear that phrase again..i know i'm not special...don't worry i'm not gonna ask for you to change or whatever the hell with it..i'll just treat you the way you treat me, instead of me thinking of different ways to try to please you everytime i think of you and you thinkin of other guys while i'm missin you..i guess that's the way you want it to be so i'll give it to you..unless of course u some how change my mind which i highly doubt, since you're so independant and rebellious against me..i don't think you'll ever listen to me anymore..oh..and you can bring food in the bus as long as you don't eat in there..u didn't have to go through the trouble of comforting james..that's in case if you don't wanna stay out in the dark too long or wait too long for the next bus...keep the bag closed or put it in your purse back pack thing i forgot what you call those...o well, i'm gonna go do my job and clean up now..oh i might not be on tonight..i'm gonna be thinking of better things i can do instead of having you in my mind everyday..g'nite, don't miss me too much now
love you
**LEE
From: "I LOVE LEE"
To: siulonggt4@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: huh?
Date: Wed, 27 Mar 2002 21:36:27 -0800
What? So you still don't trust me. Ok, i don't care. I believe you are over reacting. I'm not going to explain anything cause it's nothing bad between our relationship. I reread it and you definately are over reacting. Say goodbye to my pitas page because you won't be seeing it anymore. OH yeah, I gotta change my passwords for everything because I dont' trust you with my private stuff.. You know that You know all of my passwords right? See how much I trust you with my thoughts?, I know that you've been reading my pitas page, i really thought those stuff won't bother you. And so what if i miss someone? So what if I'm going to meet someone? Forget Angel, he's just a normal friend, not a bestfriend. You do have access to my hotmails account, and you have access to my imtoosexy and also my diaries and my aa and areyoukhmer. but say goodbye to them now cause you won't be touching them. I don't want you going through my private stuff anymore cause I knew this would have happened. I know I'm not wrong this situation, you're over reacting. That's what I fucking hate about you. You look for those little piece and blow it off when it's not even a big deal. Sorry for the swear words but I'm just trying to make a point. And yeah, no need toread the diary again. but if you wish. just keep entering the wrong password. it'll work. oh wait, I'ma try and get a new one so the site won't let you in. hehe. or i can just get antoher one. alrighty that'll be all. *muah* I LOVE YOU BUB BYE
From:"Lee H Kim"
To:winejar5@hotmail.com
Subject:Re: huh?
Date:Thu, 28 Mar 2002 01:46:07 -0800
oh wowie you took away all ur private shit from me that i never even look through..that's gonna make me feel bad..what the fuck? i have no access to any of your shit but that stupid pitas page..i didn't even sign in or type a password...so go ahead change the passwords and be safe..and not like i don't trust you..it's just not the right thing to do..it's just what you said and the way you say it..and that's fucked up how u're being the hippocrit missing sum1 who likes you...admit it want more attention from other guys than just mine..that's fucked up..and go ahead go meet and have a great time with your lovely angel on OUR anniversary..matter of fact why don't u have sex with him shit! watch i'm gonna make you regret saying all these things you say and doing these things to me...you are all wrong ..you're not doing anything to please me or make me feel happy..and u act like i'm the nosey bastard who go through your stuff i didn't know any password, and i never got into any of your lame ass private shit..i just simply read ur stupid pitas page..talkin bout other guys and how much u love them..i don't give a shit..u supposed to earn trust not take it as a gift...everyone knows that..but i guess u're late..fuck this, i'm goin to bed before i lose my temper even more..what a way to start the spring break..and it's not little piece..how would u feel if i say i wanna meet a girl that i used to like...and i miss this girl who likes me "oh so muchy" that's so stupid! so logical that you're doin the wrong thing and that it would piss any guy who love you off..and u did forget all about ur anniversary it's not our anniversary no more..it's the day that you're gonna meet angel..now you're gonna celebrate that day with hom not me..but yeh trust is not always given to you..you earn it..like i did with you..i know i did...i know u can't just trust me the moment u met me..jus think why i don't seem like i trust you..cuz u know too many guys and u treat them like they're so special in your life..i disregard any girl for you..and u know u can say that's just me and that you're not like that...but any girl would at least appreciate it...why don't u..u act like i dont' do shit for u..but being loyal and trustworthy..that's gold to me..and i'm sure i would LOVE it if you even give it a try once...i mean..all that shit u say and do that makes me feel like shit..i'm gonna get you back for that..just watch..see how u like it..
**LEE
PS: this might be contradicting myself..but i know it's obvious i trust u and i know that u don't be doing anything mushy and shit..just that it's not right to be thinking the way u do and saying those things..i mean..on our anniversary? what if i wanted to do sumthin with you would u come with me? or take your golden chance to meet him? and just think..what if i started thinking of all my past crushes..and talked to them and wanting to meet them..how would u feel? and if u don't care, then what's the point in keeping me in your life? i know u trust me..but knowing that i'm out there with them enjoying my time with them..not thinkin of you at all..how would u honestly feel? can't anwer huh? cuz if u ok with it..i'm gonna get my old phone list and start calling..i mean i know you're gonna do it to me anyways..when u get your license and your freedom you're gonna start goin out and havin fun with other guys..even tho no mushy stuff is involved you're still enjoying your time with them..so i should start now huh? to make sure things even out in the future..see how good our future will be when we both act like you..tell me watcha think..this time i'm remaining firm..cuz if i end up begging you to not be mad so things get back to normal, then it's gonna be me as the weak one..i still believe i have a point..and you're just not regarding it..i see your point too..and what i'm askin u is at least not make them so special in your life cuz there'll be no room for me..cuz i wanna be special too..and like that one entry really fucked me up..u didn't even think of writing "oh the 12 is my 18th month anniversary with lee...wonder how he would feel about this.." and "i'm gonna miss owen oh so muchy" i thought i was the only one hearing that phrase..i hear it all the time..and u know what i fucking hate about you? is that you never use words to give me security..and when u do u do it like it's such a drag and it only makes me not believe you..that's another thing that keeps me from trusting you..can't u just happily say something that still makes me feel like i'm number one and that i'm still your first priority? ok i'm out muah i love you g'nite
>From:"Lee H Kim"
To:winejar5@hotmail.com
Subject:delete the previous email
Date:Thu, 28 Mar 2002 02:10:30 -0800
fine fine i was thinking about it..and i did over react..but still it did't make me feel special at all..but all of a sudden..i'm in love with you all over again..grr but o well this is the way i feel now...but keep ur diaries away from me..do what you wanna do..i'll do what i wanna do..we'll both have faith in eachother and lets just hope all this duz not become a disaster..ok? bye *muah* i really love you
**LEE
PS: did i tell you i have a bday coming up? i hope you can be there with me..or at least see me turn 19..hehe ok bye
Alrighty, that is how it ends. ta-da. bye bye.
Wednesday, March 27, 2002
7:09PM|New computer
Well, I just got a new computer. Sister's boyfriend brought it here just today after I got back from my Teacher's aide class. Well anyways today was awfully boring. I think my boyfriend is mad at me, but I'm not quite sure about what. =\ hmmm.. I don't like this feeling, I never liked this feeling. I want our relationship stress free, I dont' like it the way it was before, I want to grow up from this relationship. =\ I love him though, I really don't want to lose him again. I'm willing to work this out over and over again, but I just dont' like it when he's giving me weird feelings. Ok umm. This computer is a lot faster than my previous computer so it's cool. a 56k. My boyfriend bought me a 56k but this one came with it. Looks like I won't get to use the modem that he bought me. We can actually watch movies in this computer. LOL! I'm surprised none of my friends was laughing at me when they knew my computer was slow as heck. i could hardly see the the flash that Angel has sent to me. Ok, someone is home, I wonder who. ok, i think i gotta go. bye bye now.
Jenearly
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Ok, i didn't get to end it properly, but oh well. I'll just continue it. hmm. From now on, I am putting a password on this. Bye bye~!
Tuesday, March 26, 2002
1:08PM|I'm oh so tired
Today was really boring, i was tired all through the day. I gave Kenny back his X tape. And yeah, I wanted him to bring some more movies so I can record it. I like anime movies now, anything is good. Well, um.. not everything or anything, just uh.. something with a good rating, I'll soon like it. hehehe. Ok well anyways while I went to poly I saw Christine. Christine use to go out with Chris Bederio back in Huges, we use to kick it back at that fieldtrip but I know she totally forgot. But anyway, not like I really care. Ok, going on, today was boring. I've been tired the whole day, nothing new happened. Except that Angel is going to visit on the 12th so then I'll finally get to meet him. Let's see anything else new? no, i might get a new computer on thursday, thursday is the latest when we get it. I know this isn't a good thing because it's going to be sisters and I won't get to use it much. That super sucks, actually, I know I can use it but when she's made at me she's going to make these passwords again and then i can't use it. Grr, I hate it when that happens, that is why I want my own computer. Better yet, I want a laptop. OOOOH YEAH! =D That would be oh so cool!!! I can go online without a telephone wire or I can just get a cellphone and connect it to my laptop and I can go online. Oh man, this is oh so rad. and he said at some places you don't need to do all of that, it connects it to the internet when it has this some kind of stuff. I forgot what he said. Oh yeah, Owen isn't coming back to Cali at spring. Darn, I'm going to miss him oh so muchy. Ok, well I think I need to go now. bye bye
Monday, March 25, 2002
8:12PM|Weird day
Ok.. Today was surely odd. Nothing went how I expected. Regular school was ok, i already told how it went so anyway, i went home and got ready. I chatted with Marcos and he got even more weird, like.. he likes me or something. NOt good, he goes out with Merry and I'm going out with Lee. I don't like marcos anyways, he's cool and all but it's just not right to talk to someone that likes you. Especially someone that goes out with my best friend. He pretty much tells me everything, that he doesn't like Merry anymore and that he's only with her until he gets to talk to her mother again. Hmm.. that's kind of cold. Alrighty well i'm recording X again because the other one wasn't good. and yeah. hehehe. =) hehhe. Well anyways I miss my boyfriend so much. I mean, I really really miss him, i can't wait till I get to see him.
my gosh, it's just strange how much I LOVE HIM, i Love him very much. Just a few weeks ago i still felt insecure about the whole thing, and now I'm back to being sprung or I think it's alot more. hehhe.
Oh yeah, continueing, I was walking to the bus. I was wearing a long skirt with a slit and this lepored looking kind of shirt. This asian guy drove by and just stared at me. oh yeah, I was wearing shades too. Alrighty well yeah, he just drove by and then later he parked infront of me. That's when I knew he was up to something. and so I just walked on and he said HI, and I said a quick Hi that showed a sign that I need to go somewhere. And yeah, while I was walking towards the bus, another guy from across the street said "aleehoo". I'm like.. The hell? What does that mean. i looked and he asked for my number. i said no way. I just walked on and he said "aleehoo" again, I looked and he said, he's giving me his number. And so I just told him that I need to go, and he said ok. and yeah I just walked on. Three people complimented on the skirt I was wearing. It's sister's really, but I just felt like being beautiful today.
When I arrived at evening class the lady caught me with flip flops. She said it was allegal and I had to go in the office and stay there until the day was over. =( that sucked. bwahahha. ok, continueing the day ended and I was at tomys waiting for the bus. I ordered fries and noticed the bus, I was like. DARN! It's here, now I have to wait till the next bus comes. Then, I saw James right away. I called out his name and so we kicked it for a while. he was still depressed, but what can I do? I don't know. I offered him some fries, he took alot so whatever. Ok, just got home and I'm chatting with Angel. For a while he was being an asshole, but after I got my online back, he was back to being the way that he was. So that was cool. Day was good and bad. hahaha. =P But I miss Lee so much, I miss him so so so so much. Did I mention that I love him very much? NO? Ok, well I do. I can't wait till I see him again. I want to feel beautiful again. hhahah. Oh wait, i gotta think of a birthday present.It's coming up very soon. darn, mother wants me to make some food. Ok, just had to take out the trash. I just threw away the used condom. LOL! =P oh man, I say alot of secret stuff in here. I hope nobody that I know is reading this. =X I should put a password in this soon, and I will. ^__~ Alrighty, that'll be all. C ya
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Oh yeah, i got a new winamp skin, I'ma update the left side. It's now.
Well, i was just looking around, and I SAW THIS!!! I'M GOING TO GET THIS ONE NEXT!!
Monday, March 25, 2002
12:37PM|Sleepy Jen
Ok.. Well today was extremely boring, I finished all my work so that was cool. I wanted to finish it really quick so I can take a short nap. I think after this, I'ma go straight to sleep. No wait, I have evening class. I'ma hurry up and see merry and give her her things that she left at my place. Hopefully she brought my tang top. My crappy tang top. bwahahha! Well anyways, it's a new day and it's very boring. hehe. Kenny didn't come, I don't know why. I wanted to give him the tape back but oh well, I'ma record the movie again. I hope it doesn't mess up the whole tape. =\ This time I'ma put it in SLP mode, so it will be good. I think that was the good one, Is it? I don't know. OH well, ok well anyways did i mentioned today was very boring. I went to go visit James today and he seemed very depressed about Linh. When I first met Linh I always thought she was this annoying whinning little girl and I still think that. Now he's hurtingg James. Not like I really care about James but he just seems very very depressed and so I tried my best to cheer him up. The beginning I wasn't helping but I said some stuff saying that he doesn't deserve to be hurt like this by that girl. And so he seemed to be a bit happy, I know I iddn't help much, but oh well. Mr G wants his copies really soon so I said I'll make those copies later. =\ I hate going to the book room. OH YEAH, i got this thingy for when I go to poly they know that I'm from reid. it's says Will J. Reid High School Poly satellite Campus Teachers Aide. Cool~! yeah? I think it should be a bit more prettier.. hehehe. Ok, that'll be all. I'ma go end this now. bye bye. *waves bye*
Sunday, March 24, 2002
4:38PM|Days are moving in fast
ai yai, it is going fast. well this morning I was having a nice sleep till sister brought her boyfriend home. And so i just went online. When I loooked at my buddylist LEE was online. The first few questions was where has he been? And yeah he explained to me that he has been very busy and it's understandable. =\ coming home late and such, it's all understandable so I wasn't worried nor mad anymore. Gosh, but today I've been very bored. There is nothing to do, I really need a job or something. Online is getting very boring. Oh yeah, on thursday we're getting a new computer. We're trading this computer for a newer one so that would be cool. But for now, I have to transfer most of my stuff to a website. yeah, just upload it and junk, that would be cool. Well lately i've been reading manga scans translation. It sucked that tokyo babylon got shut down and now i'm so happy that they scanned X! =) Subaru Sumeragi mostly of his story which awsomely rules. =) everybody knows that I love subaru sumeragi. =D one day, when I get a job, I'ma collect most of his stuff. Oh yes, oh yes. heehee. ok, i'ma go finish cooking my vegetable cake.
Saturday, March 23, 2002
1:45PM|One thing solved, another thing to worry
Well.. I got the internet back, as you can tell. Hmm. Well it isn't that obvious, but I'm online on the weekeneds. hehehe. Now that I'm back online I'm really mad about my boyfriend not emailing me anything. I emailed him through school trying to get to him to help me fix the computer. Since I couldn't get in touch with him i asked so many of my friends to help me. I told Lee to do all this stuff to get in touch with me like... telling him my pitas password so he can say what he wants to say on my page. I can't email anybody through thte school's computer, but I can see my own page. =D y'know, so that's somewhat cool. But what sucked was that Lee didn't even go online. That just shows that he doesn't even fucking care. Well I don't need the 56k modem anymore that Lee gave me. So I'll give that back to him. well, that will be all for right now.
Friday, March 22, 2002
1:06PM|AAAGH!! THE HUMANITY
=*( This is horrible, i can't get the internet back. It's horrible, I want it back. I need to reinstall windows 98. That's all. so if lee is getting the message, palleeeze bring those cds and disks and all that stuff. =( come over soon. and try and get out that 56k thingy. It's stuck, i can't get it out. I know there's another screw in there but Icannot find it. grr, i suck,i know. =( gosh man. I hate this. =*( I'm suffering here. waaah and all i can think about is the internet and the only person i can think of that can fix it is my boyfriend. I hope he gets this message SOON!!! yeah. LEe just come over. fiday or the weekeneds.whenever you can. grrr. are you even getting my emails? It seems like you're not. waaah. this sucks. I'm using the school's computer. it works good but I want mines back. Sister is complaining how she wants to go online. =\ darn. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. =( alrighty i'ma go now. *muah* I LOVE YOU LEE!!
Thursday, March 21, 2002
2:46PM|I feel so empty
well yesterday was a good day. Went out with Lee to asian garden mall and got to do some naughty stuff. Well anyways. =) Lee bought me a 56k modem, he did the beginning and then I wanted him to leave. I didn't want my mom to see him, that was why. Well anyways, that was a big mistake. I shouldn't have made him leave because i didn't know what to do. I read the manual but it didnt even explain much. I tried to uninstall and that didn't work. My computer was too screwed up. Now, I want to reinstall windows 98 or make it to windows 2000. =P iono. LEE IF YOU'RE READING THIS:
If you're reading this, could you bring the CDs, disks, and whatever that could help on the computer. I don't care if everything disapears. It doesn't matter.
Well yeah, =( I MISS THE INTERNET OH SO MUCHY~!!
Monday, March 17, 2002
2:46PM|I'm so sick
Well anyways, yesterday I could hardly type so I'm sorry if I didn't update this for two days. =\ I've been quite lazy. Sometimes it's hard to tell if I'm either just lazy or exhausted. Like for instance, right now. when I'm lazy, I still have the energy to go online. When I'm exhausted, I still have the energy to get online, it gets confusing sometimes. I'm making some honey tea right now for my throat. I didn't go to school today because I'm sick. bleh! Yesterday, I was so horribly sick, all i did was sleep. I have never been that sick before. =\ Damnit, I missed one day of school, there goes my perfect attendence. LOL! Oh well, it's just one day and I really needed the day off today or I would've thrown up in the classroom. =\ which isn't a good sight. alrighty, i'll leave this be.
Oh yeah, you're probably wondering why I'm sick in the first place. hmm. I blaim it on the alcohol. =\ my other alcoholic friends tell me it's because i drank alcohol in an empty stomach. even my mom said that.. hmmm, yeah, i'll go by that. I drank alcohol in an empty stomach. alright, that'll be all.
Saturday, March 16, 2002
6:51PM|Look what boredom has caused
egh* Boredom; i hate the word. Boredom is also a good thing, it opens you up to a new horizon. I'm drinking wine coolers right now. It's not getting me drunk, i want to know how drunk feels like. =D well anyways, I made something new. At first I was trying to make this for my profile. But it didn't work. =\ Darn! y'know one of those subprofile thingys. and inifinity profile for aim. i wanted to make one of my own, but it wouldn't work. Here, if you want to look at it
Since I later on got bored, I made another one just for pitas. it's something about me. here if you want to see it
Normal people scare me
Friday, March 15, 2002
9:19PM|way too many
Well, I finally finished my layout, what do you think? good ey? right? well? What do you think? eeer, fine! Alrighty well anyways, I passed out my site to some people, i didn't want to give it to too many people because I will be talking senseless crap about them. *looks down* well,it's true. hehehe. Well, I just helped a girl with her page. agh, atleast she said thank you, that was all I was looking for after I helped her. ^___^
There was three messeges that I missed.
A z NxB o I 66 1 (8:27:29 PM): caca
A z NxB o I 66 1 (8:27:35 PM): how old u bE?
Auto response from ItsJenearly (8:27:35 PM): please sign the petition
http://www.chickenhead.com/features/animal/homeless.html
another missed message:
Bloodydragon1234 (8:19:36 PM): hey
Auto response from ItsJenearly (8:19:36 PM): please sign the petition
http://www.chickenhead.com/features/animal/homeless.html
Bloodydragon1234 (8:20:31 PM): y
and here's a conversation I didn't want to be in:
AzNLOvErbOI584 (8:14:36 PM): hey]
AzNLOvErbOI584 (8:16:44 PM): hey baby girl
Auto response from ItsJenearly (8:16:44 PM):
please sign the petition
http://www.chickenhead.com/features/animal/homeless.html
AzNLOvErbOI584 (8:39:34 PM): hey abby girls
AzNLOvErbOI584 (8:39:36 PM): sup
ItsJenearly (8:41:50 PM): what do you want?
AzNLOvErbOI584 (8:42:20 PM): :-[
AzNLOvErbOI584 (8:42:32 PM): your a girl rite
ItsJenearly (8:42:47 PM): no, I am not a girl
Friday, March 15, 2002
12:25PM|Late do-over
Well the day is new and there is nothing to do. How can I summarize this in a short period of time. Ugh* It's like 12:23 right now and I'm in my office aide class. Well actually I'm not inside it, I'm at my other teacher's class so I can use the computer. Well I have alot to talk about, but I can't find exactly the right words. ummm.. let's see... eer. There's people surrounding me, blah, can't think. Oh yeah, yesterday was somewhat of a good day. Can't really remember what happened in the day time but when I walked home I KNOW I saw Doug. So he really is back and he didn't email me? GRRRRR!!! Well that's because he thinks I'm mad at him. Well, I was mad at him, but not anymore. Well yesterday in my evening class I was being quiet and rolled my eyes at everybody that was giving the teacher a hard time. At the end of the class period the teacher handed me this behavior thingy that I signed along time, that I forged my mother's signiture. I was like.. OH NO, DOES SHE KNOW? she came to me crying and saying thank you for being such a good student. I was like.. ooooh. =\ aaaw man, she's crying, what should i do? Give her a hug? What to do? And then she just walked away and I said Thank you. Egh* I feel like a dumb ass, i should've gave her a hug, it seemed like she needed it.
While I was walking home I noticed this weird guy walking my way, well, alittle bit passed me. Then he came up infront me and said I looked familiar. I was like.. uh huh, who are you? And then he introduced himself and asked me what was my name. I told him my name and we shook hands. then he told me why he came infront of me like that. He said I was "cute". LOL! then he asked if I had a boyfriend and I replied yes, I have a boyfriend. And later he just started saying other stuff which i didn' really get and so he asked for my phone number. I told him I can't use the phone and so I just gave him my email address and screen name since I don't like to talk on the phone, besides, i can't use the phone anyways. Looks like this is getting pretty long, i have to get some copies when it hits one o'clock. Alrighty well, as I was saying, yesterday wasn't exactly a good day, but it somewhat made me feel better. A teacher saying that I was an excellent student and crying because of that? And also a guy saying that I'm cute? Heehee, i hardly get that anymore, especially from strangers. Surely, I only want that from my boyfriend, that's the only thing I should hear from my boyfriend when I need comfort or just want to feel beautiful. I guess that's really important nowadays for girls. Well for me especially, I always want to have atleast something as a good feature. Maybe that guy yesterday was just trying to show off infront of his friends saying "hey, i can get that girls' number, just watch.". hmm, I wouldnt know and I dont think I care. I just hope I will never see that guy again. When I get back online I will block everybody that is not on my buddylist and never walk that way again. Grr! He did say that he goes to poly, oh no what to do? agh* ooh well. agh* today was extremely boring, Kenny got suspended for two days for not giving up his cellphone. His grandmother already picked up the CD player and cellphone. Kenny said he was going to drop off the X tape and Vampire hunter D tape. Sadly, I didn't get to see him. =( we were both talking about that movie yesterday cause he seemed to be amused by that movie that he saw. "X". He said it was violent but it was really good. I was like, huh? X? OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!! X/1999! and I told him that was the movie I was talking about a while back. =D ok, that'll be all for now. well I have like 23 minutes left to go pick up the copies, I'll go look at some other stuff online.
Thursday, March 14, 2002
03:05AM|Renew Pitas
My pita page was getting pretty full, so if you want to read my previous entry, just go to my archives. This page is still under construction. I want to change everything.
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