Friday|May 24, 2002|6:59PM|new layout soon
Agh* Lots to tell. explain it in my new layout then. bye bye
Saturday|May 18, 2002|3:32PM|Always be my baby
Eylo! Well, it's a new day and umm.. Watched two new movies.Star wars episode II andIce Age. Both of the movies were good. Damnit, I don't like how i am after I watch movies. Spiderman got me depressed, Ice Age got me crying, and Star wars got me love hungry. I can't seem to get it, what the hell is wrong with me? I guess this is why I never really get excited to see movies anymore. Usually after I see some previews I keep saying to myself that I have to see that movie. Not anymore. LOL! Ice age made me cry like a baby. the movie is good. I have to admit that, it's really good. But there's one thing that I don't like about it. What happened to that woman? That man didn't even care. Grr!!!! other than that, it was good. Atleast the man cared about his child. Good movie. Now for my rating thingy.
10 being the highest and 1 being the lowest
Starwars episode II=9 1/2 ( good movie, but somewhat boring)
Ice Age=10
Yesterday was.. Umm... It was ok. I stayed up late waiting for Lee to be online. When he finally did he had to go eat. So I waited a little longer to actually talk to him. There wasn't much conversation between us. It's like our relationship is becoming boring. I don't know. I've been so depressed lately and always wanting love stories to keep me happy. Most of the love stories have sad endings. OK, I should put the pictures I've been drawing. I haven't yet finished it yet. hahaha, not like I will finish it though.
Yesterday I stayed up pretty late. Mother was yelling about the house. I didn't mind because she always does. Then she starts pounding my head. After that I started crying whle I was walking to the kitchen. Not because it hurted like hell, but, i was angry. She didn't have to hit me for that. I already cleaned last weekened, meaning that I will clean this weekened. Jeeze! she didn't have to fucking do that. Just at that point it makes me want to be suicidal again like how I was last year. My life just keeps getting worse and worse and there's some gaps of happiness, but it always comes back to where I was. But then, I'm not going to lower my own grades like what I did before. That will only hurt myself. I just can't really focus at this point.
Aceangel2k (2:00:30 PM): lol, you seem to be out of it a lot lately
its Jenearly (2:00:47 PM): really?
its Jenearly (2:00:49 PM): =\
Aceangel2k (2:02:52 PM): lol, yeah, lol, always saying "huh?"
Aceangel2k (2:02:52 PM): lol
its Jenearly (2:03:05 PM): lol
it's true. Just like the break Lee and I had. I was pretty much saying huh every other way. I really need to focus. My head seems to be elsewhere. All I've been doing is daydreaming and fantasizing of a life that I really want. I don't want to leave it, because I don't want to live without Lee. if you want to see how much someone means to you. Picture a clone or something. hahhaa. it's not the same even if this person looks exactly like Lee. The memory with him and everything will be gone. *sigh* That is what our relationship is based on, memories. One day we'll look back at everything together and laugh at the misery we once had. WOW! It's already 4:22 and I havent done anything yet. I'm sending vichetht mariah carey-always be my baby, since he likes Mariah. I don't reallly like her, but I love that song. The song is so romantic. I should really change my layout now. bye bye!
Friday|May 17, 2002|9:26PM|Um. I don't know
I have a lot to tell, but don't know where to start. I don't know why I haven't been updating. It isnt' because I've been lazy or busy. I just don't know why. I can never seem to figure out what I'm feeling, but this time I did. (for something else though) I was watching spiderman a few minute ago. I paused it so I can go online, and then I decided to finally type in my journal. I watched it twice already. LOL!! YEAH, it's one of those bootleg or whatever you call it. Sister's boyfriend brought it over.
Well anyways, the story was ok. Sad ofcourse. It's always good the first time you watch it. What got me the most was the ending. The part when Mary tells Peter that she loves him and stuff. And peter, ofcourse, loved her ever since the beginning. Now I thought that, once she tells him that she loves him, they'll be together. That isn't how it turned out to be. He says that he'll always be there, and that they'll be friends. *sigh* The only reason it touched me is because I've been through that. I know exactly how she feels at that point. Egh* It's not real ^_~
Just after I saw that part, I felt... I don't know.. empty. It just reminded me of those times and how depressed I was. If only I started a diary then, so then I could remind myself how I got through that and happy again. Ok, now, I should rate the movie spiderman.
Spiderman: (10 being the highest, and 1 being the lowest) I give spiderman a 8!!!
Why I give spiderman an 8 is because.. well, it's good. the whole story is good, how it fits and everything. I definitely like the love story. *sigh* Well anyways, why I give it an eight is because it went too fast. I mean, the part when "he" knows, how could he have been so sure it was him. If I was him, I would never think peter as someone like spiderman. And everything went fast. Half of the stuff weren't explained. It should be like star wars and the matrix. Y'know, when they make sequals as episodes. Everybody says that sequals sucks, but they don't say series sucks. It'll be like series, except way better than series(qualities and such).
Oh yeah, enough about movies. Lee and I have been fighting for a couple of days. Ever since... wednesday night. Yeah, that's it. I'll post the conversation up in a bit. when I upload it. I think I was talking about Merry's conversation a while back in my diary? .. hehe yeah, I was about to, but I accidently closed the window so id idn't get save it. The whole thing got me really mad. I just couldn't take it because it happened so many times, and I wasn't thinking. I was sleepy and tired. It was my fault for bringing that up, but he just didn't admit that he was jealous. and it was the whole subject that he brought up. Like what would make me dump him.
*sigh* I think it's over, I hope it's over. OK, here's the conversation.
http://liquid2k.com/dementeder/05_15_02.htm
Ok, I still feel exhausted and tired and empty. I don't know why. Maybe it's the stuff that we just went through or maybe it was the thinking. I don't know what it is. We keep fighting over and over again over the same things. We notice that ourselves. It's not that he's not worth all the nonsense. Heck, i'll argue with him anyday, even for the hell of it. Sometimes, i like fights because.. umm, i get bored. but everytime someone always gets hurt. Some of our fights last for a couple of hours while we talk things through. But most of our fights doesn't end up like that, we have to wait till we calm down then we can actually talk civilly, like human beings. (regular, nice human beings.. I take that back, like feathers) well yeah. We talk better when we're both happy or just.. normal. We never go anywhere when one of us is mad or both of us. Definitely not when both of us is mad. I do notice it when he tries to help. NOt right away ofcourse, but I always know when he does try. Like for this fight we had. When I first read that first reply, I was boiling mad still. It's because of the first part of what "he thought". I was only mad at the part when he said that I never made any sacrifice. That was the only part I was mad at. But after I calmed down and reread his emails. i did notice that he tried to make me smile like surprise me by coming. he did that once before. I remember. It was this year too. We were mad at each other but he surprised me by coming and we weren't mad at each other anymore. We still didnt fix that problem we were fighting about before. I kidn of forgot what we were fighting before. Oh well.. Well yeah, in that email he was sweet, only at the bottom part. *sigh*
it's because my mom was talking on the phone the other day with her friend saying that I'm this useless daughter. Damn her. It makes me want to scratch myself again or kill myself. she doesn't realize how much I've changed for her. She just doesn't and I can't believe it, why? i got all As. I mean, a straight four point O. Four class, As. English=A, Math=A, Science=A, History=A, and Office Aide=A. For my extra classes, maybe not a four point O'. Wilson highschool, English=A. Poly highschool, Drivers Ed., B. *sigh* oh well. Not a complete 4.0 if that was all combined. But still, I tried really hard to get those grades and my mother doesn't even care. I knew I owe her, that's why I did that. She doesn't seem to notice. She still thinks I was the same person from last year and the year before. How could she not see that I've changed for her? Ofcourse, she didn't see me crying. I think it was the same day Lee and I had that fight. yeah, it was. I wasn't in a bad mood that made me want to fight Lee. It's just that.. When he said that, I just snapped and wondered why people think this way. Once I got to bed, I cried myself to sleep. I didn't wnat my sister to know that I was depressed over the whole thing, even when she came downstairs to tell me to go to sleep.
No, I'm not like her. I never want people to know how I feel, or how depressed I am. It's strange. Everybody knows me as this happy, laughy girl, always. I noticed that myself also. I know why ofcourse, and I'm free to tell anything at this point. It's because ( like I said before) that I never want it obvious to let people know how I'm feeling. I don't know why I see it that way. I dont want people to see me as depressed, but, I crave attention. I don't even get it myself, I should consult a psyciotrist or however you spell it. Damnit, I don't deserve a 4.0, I can't even spell. Ok, continueing. The next day I recieved an email from Lee that was just terrible. I didn't like it. it's not that I was mad that he used cuss words on me, it's just that he's told me to don't use cuss words at me again, but he used it at me. Even after he said not to, that's why I watched what I was saying. I didn't want to use it because I know that he doesn't like that. Instead, he goes and do that. But then, i did tell him to not come or I'll use cuss words at him. hehe, I haven't yet said any cuss words to his face yet.
We're ok now, now that we fixed our problem. Yesterday, Merry Imed me and asked me to go out. I was pretty much suffering, whether I should send him an email or not. I kept telling myself not to because what he said was so mean. So then, I agreed and we went to cerritos mall. Her homeboy Kim was driving. It was that same car that picked her up uh.. Monday or was it wednesday. Oh yeah, wednesday. Yeah, that was the same car that picked her up to bring it to her new boyfriend's place. All we did at the mall was shop around for that guy's ex girlfriend. Merry and I was talking about stuff. I know Lee still thinks that all she does is try to seperate us two. She says that she isn't, but.. I think so also. But i can think for myself. There's a lot of stuff that I don't like about merry, but she always turns out right in the end. It's pretty funny. I can see why so many people dislike her, she's too loud. and what was that thing her ex boyfriend said.? Oh yeah *All talk, and no action*
Ok, now about today. Chris Cortez, and uh.. uh.. Samuel Shelby got into a braul out fist fight. I didn't see it happen, and I've been banging on my head for the past ten minutes because I couldn't see it. bummer. hhaha, i'm only kidding. I feel horribly bad, seriously. Why did it have to be Chris Cortez. Chris is the guy that i talk to when Kenny isn't there. He's fun to talk to. Um, i don't know what's so fun, but.. um.. Iono, just someone to talk to. You know what I mean. Samuel, is a butt crack. I don't really know him know him. But he has tried to flirt with me but I don't care about that. He's just too annoying. He looks like a little baby that tries to be hard. chris should've knocked his teeth out. MAN!! Oh well, it's not my problem. Either way, he could've been kicked out. The saddest part was when La Sharon was kicked out, and then Jennifer just disapeared, and later Daniel just.... I don't know, dropped out?? I guess so. Jennifer used to go everyday, and then one day, she just disapears. La sharon got kicked out because she complains too much. Lucas didn't want to let her borrow his cd player and then she just blew off. That was the end of that story. Daniel just never came back. She walks around sometimes. She tell us weird stories about her getting high and stuff. hehe, it gets funny sometimes. Actually, all the cool people left. The coolest person was Michael. He got kicked out for a stupid reason that happened months ago. That he brought some kind of knife that was in his backpack, then they finally took action and kicked him out. And um.. That other guy, i forgot what his name is. I forgot what his name is. WEll anyways, he's pretty cool. He left to somewhere else because of the problem he had with that girl. He later realized that none of those people were there for him. All they did was snitched, lied, and backstabbed him. HOw sad, but atleast he realized that sooner than everybody else.
i think this wrapps it up, there is ntohing to talk about anymore. Actually, there's still a lot. I'll save that for tomorrow. Oh yeah. I was also watching Monster's, Inc. I didn't watch all of it yet, still at the beginning. I'm still reading Lakota Woman. Good story so far. =D I love it. I'm on page 30 something right now. =\ and i started it days ago. I sometimes get lazy, I only read it when I get the chance. Oh yeah, and I did say that I was going to change the layout and add this to my archives haven't I? Ugh* maybe over the weekened. Strange, that one guy isn't back yet. How am i going to do his page if he isn't online. He's supposed to tell me what he wants. Oh well. bye bye oh yeah, by the way, i want to watch unfaithful. My friend was giving me a brief summary of the movie, and I really want to watch it. =D he pretty much told me everything about the movie. *sigh* I gotta see the movie.
Friday|May 12, 2002|6:56PM|I'm tired of cleaning!
Mother left around 12 something, or was it 1 something. I don't know. That's when my day really started. I think first I was cleaning the shoe place, or was it the kitchen. I don't even know. While I took the "fake" carpet to wash at the back with soap and everything. The man came and looked over the fence and told me to plug those holes because it was killing his flowers. I always thought those holes had a pipe or something, I mean.. atleast! No, how careless these people are in making these houses, it had to be to ruin his precious little flowers. I tried reasoning with him but I guess he didn't want ot listen. He kept repeating the same things over and over agian. "Plug those holes right now". Jeeze, i heard you the first time, don't you want an apology?
That man looks like someone u see that owns a porno website or abuse little childrens. Walking around with skimpy shorts and just watering his precious little flowers. (not that i know or anything)Everytime I see him he's wearing those shorts. Eew! Like, cover up, that's nasty. agh* My eyes! After I cleaned the carpets (which was right after he popped up) I just put it out in the front to dry. The rest I started mopping the floor and clean the table and oven. My hands are soo.. dry, especially cleaning with that scrub.
Cool! Mary Thai just Imed me. Wow, it's been so long since I've heard from her. I'll put the conversation in here when our conversation is done.
Right now I'm so annoyed by the music that is in there. That's the flowers I just made for Lee. For our 20th anniversary. hehehe, i have a feeling that he forgot. I almost forgot yesterday, then I was thinking of our 19th anniversary then.. I was like.. Hey, it's going to be the 12th tomorrow, and the 12th is our anniverary. =D hehe, well, Im happy. yesterday was weird. I said I'll love him always. I mean that, but I expected him to say it back. argh! He didn't. it's because when we got back together, he said that to me and i thought it was sweet. NOw he can't even say it? *sigh*
it's 7:20 now and uh.. I'm eating cambells or however u spell that can. blah. I hate the smell of my hands right now. I washed and washed it, repeatedly, and it still smells like this. bleh. Oh well, it'll go away. I think I should shower. we're going to a restaraunt tomorrow for mother's day. That one place near the beach that sells lopsters. hehehe. My sister thought of it. She was thinking about the time we were near there and mother said "Some day, we'll go there." Now! We get a chance to. isn't that neat? Er, Mary and me's conversation isn't going anywhere. It's dead----blagga. haha. Blagga is another word for bleh/blah. I heard that sister uses it that's why. I have to admit, my sister is thoughtful in her gifts to people. heheh, it's funny. why can't my boyfriend be like this? hehee, i think it's because he's saving up his money for his car. Oh well. I'ma make some more cambells.
The time has come.
I am going to change my layout.. once again...
when?
right now. Ok bye!
Friday|May 10, 2002|9:39PM|a Good and Bad day
I kind of have a hard time deciding if it was a good day, or was it a bad day. Ok, I'll start from the beginning. I went to school and hardly anybody came. 19 in all came to school today. *sigh* After that class, I finished my office aide stuff pretty early. Alittle too early. I started writing Lee a letter and just walked in and out of the class, to the bathroom and stuff. After I finished the letter and had nothing to do, I just reread my diary. It's pretty much some conversations I have up with Lee with our break ups and stuff. I don't have them saved in my computer, it's all thrown away. good thing I printed them out. One day I'll scan them and post them up in pitas. They're very touching, I almost cried rereading them and I keep wondering, why does Lee hurt me so much then? I learned from my mistakes and his own mistakes to try not to hurt him. I know what's going to happen between Lee and I because we've been through them already. I try to make it better by knowing what the circumstances will come. It doesn't work sometimes because, it's sometimes new. But I do notice what happens, the same thing. It repeats itself. I'm not saying that I'm sick of it, but when the next time comes, i'll be more prepared.
Ok, after I got tired of reading it, well sick of people walking in and out of the class, I closed it up and started folding the letter. 15 more minutes till I get to go out to see Lee. It seemed like it took forever, though. Ok, anyways, I was almost done till Lee came in. At
first I thought it was just some T9er coming in or osmething, then I noticed it was Lee. I was shocked. LOl! Really shocked, but I was happy. Kind of nervous though because Mr Mcdonald is a grumpy guy and he kind of humiliated me. So after that, i just said bye to everyone. hehehe. We first went to lakewood mall to go play in the arcade, BUT he didn't bring money. WE didn't get to go play so I was pretty bummed about that.
Sam walked by us and just tried to see who I was. LOL!that was also humliating. Lee questioned, he seemed kind of Off because of the whole thing, but oh well, he shouldn't. He atleast knows who the girl is. Anyways, while we were still walking in lakewood mall and back to the car, we went into spencers to check out lubricant. I was kind of embarrised to walk in and look at "sex" stuff. I mean, c'mon, i look like i'm in middleschool. We didn't buy it though, though, because he didn't bring money. he said "next time". Ok, i'll hold him to that. After the mall we went to skyline villiage. All we did there was just kiss our hearts out. I didn't want to go at first. I never wanted to go to skyline villiage. But whenever I'm there, I never want to leave. Strange, wouldn't you say?
Once I got home my mom was looking at me. I thought of an excuse ready. About the whole grade thing and I went to my teacher and found out that it was a mistake. She believed me ofcourse then she later gave me this comment that I should be like this unlike "before". I HATE IT WHEN SHE TALKS ABOUT THE PAST!!! It pisses me off. It makes me want to be suicidal again. The whole day today, I just wanted to kick her behind. I really hate it hwen she stays home the whole day. She either is going to find out about something, or she's going to bitch about the house. Actually, everytime she always bitches about the house. it sux! WE got the new mattress that she was talking about. It's not exactly new though, theres like stains and everything on it. LOl! OH well, not my bed, I get my mom's bed. ugh* still not new, but oh well. Good enough. Then I mention to her that I want a digital camera. She said no ofcourse, then she keeps on adding in Lee that he should get it for me because he loves me. Well, blah!!! I was so pissed that she said that, I really wanted to kick her ass. She keeps on mentioning Lee because she found out that we kiss and stuff like that. MAN!!! Ok, continueing. She later says that I should clean up everyday then she'll give me the digital camera. What she means is that I clean up every single day and she'll give it to me in two or three years. Bullshit, I hate her. I'ma get my own job. Later, I'll think of when. Then, i don't even have to see her. Who the hell is going to pick me up though? i don't even know, I hope it's Lee that is going to pick me up or something. I don't want my mom picking me up then she's going to give me this lecture and
"so how's work? Tough, ey?"
and I'll reply "Not exactly, it's so fun, i want to go back to work. " and give her a big smile. Then she'll say "ok!"
Ugh* Ok, well anyways. mom was rambling all day about the house being messy. hehe. Not that I care, not that I ever cared. I drew some pictures. I'll put it in here in a few more minutes. first I gotta upload it. ok bub bye
OK, back, now I'm ready to show the pictures. IT's in here. The two of the pictures are of me from prom and the guy is my boyfriend from prom. It's the same picture. I would have done something to lee's picture, but.. What can I do toa guy?
Thursday|May 9, 2002|5:18PM|Periods suck!
It's thursday and today was ok. Yesterday I got my reportcard for drivers Ed and it says that I got an F and an N as my conduct. I was kind of worried. But anyways, today, Lee came over and we first went to Mc Donalds and I ate some of his fries and juice. he brought his digital camera. I got to look at it and he explained to me on how it works. =) I told him what I'm going to do with it and at first he was disapointed that I didn't really want ot tell him. I mean, i'm going to do stuff that he might think is stupid and stuff.
So, I told him the reason why and later he was happy again and we went to barns and noble. I was looking through the pictures of blade of the immortal. the new volume. volume 8. I already know a little bit of what happens. I've been reading the summary in z-builder.com, they have some pretty cool summaries. WEll, atleast until I know what is happening. It's a good manga. This month's summary is may and june.
Oh yeah, about my day. I didn't finish. After Barnes and Noble we went to WOW and talked about what I put in my journal that he read and questioned me and I told him that I didn't like what's happening at that point of him bringing it up. I think he understood, cause, i said it to his face. I mean, c'mon. Well anyways, after that, we went to poly (the reportcard thing) I wanted to atleast see someone I know because Lee was driving his tight ass celica and so many people seem to be envious. I saw mrs. Shwarz walking by and I knew she's going to be there. Came to her, she knew what I was talking about right away and then seh questioned about Carear guidance. I told her it's because my counciler wasnt there to sign it so I just forgot about it. After that, I thanked Lee for the whole thing. The day and for the ride and everything. I think I slammed his door when I came out. Idon't know.
Now, about yesterday. I came home after Office aide and noticed my bed, my shirt, and my bags outside on the floor. I knew there was something going on. I went inside and she gave me this look. I went straight to take a shower and then she came upstairs and asked me to clean up because we're getting a new bed. That's when I felt releaved. Before I took a shower, my diary was on top of everything, that was when I thought someone must have read it. During the shower and she was still talking about cleaning up, she then questioned me if I had sex. I told her no and she pulled out the diary and read that part to me. My mother doesn't know much english so I can easily use that to my advantage and switch those words around and make it seem like I'm agood person and that Lee is a wonderful human being. She was still confused at that point. I printed out my essay and went straight to my evening class. She was kind of happy, not much in her head. Bought me a french sandwich.
Actual mother/me convo|translated
Mother: I don't want to give u money anymore because you never clean the house (hands me money for the bus)
me:
Mother: Are you hungry? I'll go get you a french sandwich.
Me: Um, ok
Mother: Ok, here's some extra money just incase you get hungry
the end
Well yeah, that's about it. Once I got home I moved my mother's bed into my room. She said that she's going to keep the new bed. She came home and ofcourse, she doesn't have anywhere to sleep yet. She started questioning me about the diary again. ok, here's an actual conversation.
Convo bout diary|translated
Mother: So *a* Lee tried to force you to have sex?
Me: No!
Mother: Well, that's what it said
Me: No! It just means that we were talking about it
Mother: So he did try to push you to sleep with him
Me: No, we were just talking about it and that I don't want to do it
Mother: Talk about what?
Me: YOu know..."IT"
Me: And he agrees
MOther: Agrees with what?
Me: Agrees that we shouldn't.
I can tell my mom gave a slight smile. Almost like she was proud of who I chose to be with. Someone that she wants my lover to be like.s he's always complaining that we shouldn't kiss and bla bla bla. it's only because she doesn't want me to be with someone that is going to take full advantage of me. Lee won't take advantage of me, I love him too much. And Lee loves me too much. We're bound to be together. =)
WEll anyways, that was the end of yesterday. bye bye
Oh yeah, that reminds me. I need to post up some links that I may forget later.
an azn saint sent me this
It's a holiday game. Snow fighting that is. It's really cute. Then I later on checked this when I went to this one in there. I checked out nerdolympics. I sent it to Angel, and he liked it. =) nerdolympics.com LOL! Well anyways, that's about it. *sigh*!
Tuesday|May 7, 2002|12:11PM|........
Ugh* lately, everything has been so boring. Jose (the guy that actually looks cool in the school) got a ticket for bringing weed into the school. His other friend, Sergio (the guy that's always flirting) is getting kicked out for bringing weed also. I think he was caught before, that is why he's getting kicked out. today was uh. good. got to see Lee. gave him a hand job that I think had to be good. not trying to perfect it. I gotta take a shower. have my period. Lee banged me on my period which was sick. agh* he gave me back the nin but I don't have the digital camera. wah. i want to see it. hehehe. the digital camera. well anyways. blah. still have nothing to talk about. Ok i gotta go. sorry, this doesn't make sense what so ever. i just want to update almost everyday.
Sunday|May 5, 2002|12:11PM|a headache is growing
Well, I went online around 10 or 11 today. I was playing V-force and I just thought i'd look at my buddylist just incase Lee was online. And he was. But, he was away. I didn't bother to look at his away message because I know he's doing something.Laundry maybe. And then at 11 something, he just signed on. *sigh* OH wait, at this time:
RyCeCuBe signed off at 11:16:55 AM
Today started off pretty boring. Actually, it's still morning. NOthing has happened yet. I dried the clothes outside and noticed a crow on our fence. That was so cool. Never saw a crow that close before. It was so nice, I wanted to catch it. So I put some bird seeds on the fence just incase it comes back. I don't know if crows like bird seeds though. Oh well. Anyways, I sent thist o Lee yesterday. I really like it. It's one of those flower builders, almost exactly like www.flowerbuilder.com except, a lot better. much more beautifuler. Here's the copy.
117654860020. Heheh, i think it's pretty cool. Ok, I'ma take the password out. It takes too long to load and it's taking too much space in here. I'll take it out later. don't know when.
Saturday|May 4, 2002|10:26PM|OH MAN!!! IT'S SO BORING
Well, today was horribly boring. Nothing went on at all. Checked out a cool page. the one that i went to a long time ago. I really liked it because it looks so pretty. But then I found out that it's made by a guy. Orisinal
It's really cool!!! I like almost all the games. The only one I have a chance of winning is V-force. all of them are cute. Lee is washing his car and he's taking forever. Ugh* I'm eating and I'm really stuffed. blah!!!! I basically did nothing online but just play around. I'm waiting for Lee to be back so we can play pool. Ugh* why did he go wash the car today. oh well. I'ma go now. bub bye
Friday|May 3, 2002|6:37PM|boring
Well, this pita page is getting boring. Knowing that nobody isn't reading this. Er, It should've been like this from the beginning. ugh* mother is talking about kissing people. That i should never kiss or hug people, because she says that we should od that when we get married. or else he'll brag about it and stuff.
Anyways, today was good. I had fun, I actually did. I especially like the finger banging. hahaha. I liked it, as always. I hated when everybody started walking. My favorite part was when we just sat on the bench and he just held me tight at skyline park. Er, anyways, he's sweet, even if he made me uncomfortable at sometime, but I wasn't afraid to say whatever I wanted.
I found out why Michael is gone. He went to Juvy again. They think he's the one that wrote onthe walls putting "Teachers must die." He said that he didn't do it, but I dont think they believe him. So yeah, Kenny told me that they literally pushed him into the car. It didn't really matter to me because, I would think Kenny is telling the truth, then he would laugh at the way the polices push him, wouldn't he?
Website of the day:Rabbit
I got it from Angel. I thought it was cool, so I showed it to everyone. hehehe. I updated my danswebcam. LOL!!! It's a... It's an aim profile thing. Click here
It's actually, umm, boring. hehehe. Er, once again, i had a good time today. Though, it was a normal day, I had a good time. we talked and stuff, ate, or watched him eat. He was thoughtful about buying the chips. heheh, i have to give him points on that. Alright, I'll post again later.
UGH!! All day today, I've been trying to search for remy. This is the school's address: International Children's Institute 330 E. Carson St., No. A
And this is something I found abut Island foods. The place I worked at for a while but barely got paid.
330 E. Carson St.
Carson, CA 90745
phone 310-830-3773
9/25/99 - Saturday about noon I went over for a look. They say it's Samoan and Hawaiian food. Steam table a la carte items from $1 to $3, but today's lunch specials were $10 and $12 for ordinary food. I told them their prices were much too high for the area, and I could get lunch with soup, rice, and one item for $2.50 on Main St. I bet they'll be out of business in a few months unless they lower their prices. PS - I was the only customer/looker.
9/20/99 - I called today, and they've been open for about three weeks. They were closed today, Monday, but they answered the phone. I'll try the food or at least check the menu. Hours are unstable but given as Tue - Thu 11 a.m. to 7 p.m., Fri 11 a.m. to 8 p.m., and Sat and Sun 7 a.m. to 3 p.m. Closed on Monday, and always call first. At 7 a.m. on Sat and Sun they do breakfast.
Original info - They're closed for remodeling, may open mid 9/99 with Hawaiian food, maybe some Filipino dishes. It's back from the street, behind a fence, and it's very hard to find. They have a tall sign, but it's blocked by a tree. Call for directions, or walk a few blocks to the east of Main St. It's just west of an auto repair center which is painted pink. There are only a few parking spaces inside the fence, it might be easier to park elsewhere.
I started searching some more. then, I found this:
Remy Pascual, (619) 264-7765, San Diego, CA 92101
I ONly hate two people in this world. And that is my dad and Remy. It's because they both owe us money. I think my dad owe us money more than Remy. Remy owes us more than 2000 dollars and my mother doesn't even care. SHE DOESN'T EVEN CARE. CRAZY!!! Oh well, I guess. I don't know. I'll kill her. Darn you REMY PASCUAL! You're going to pay. I HATE YOU REMY PASCUAL!
OH yeah, this. I know that if I said this, Lee would bitch at me. But, um. Lee said it. what a hypocrite.
supakhmai on 10/5/2001 hey hey sup sup, i like ur car..but i'm too much into mitsus i love GTOs...but i'm gonna get a eclipse soon..wanna race? =P haha i don't even know how to stick shift right yet..well it's cool to see your message here's my reply, your page is nice. i'm out k peace!
Thursday|May 2, 2002|2:27PM|Password
Well, I made a password for this page now. Just incase lee tries to read it again.I like this picture, just incase Lee tries to access my pita page.
naughty.jpg
LOL!! I call myself a genius for making it. Even though my grammar is horrible. Anyways, today was ok. The test was pretty hard. My nose was still causing me a lot of trouble. Grr! I drew something for Lee during class. It was this paper that just says LEE with all these decorations, and then another letter with uh.. a letter. There. I was hoping that Lee would come to pick me up sO i can hand it to him. But, he didnt come, but oh well. I dont' care. If he did pick me up, I would've not rode in his car because he was complaining about it. Ugh* This is the point where he loves his car more than me. What a freaking idiot. I can't believe I'm with someone that isn't thoughtful. Man, I really thought he was sweeet, but nope. *sigh* I was hoping that those flowers was from Lee, then Iwould've hugged him and never let go. ehhehe, but nope, it wasn't by him. It was by Merry. Man!!! All this thinking is making me hate Lee. a sweetless boyfriend. He doesn't do anything sweet anymore. He says that he might do somethings spontaniously, hahha, my butt. I know he won't, and he screwed up my birthday horribly.
NOw that I have a password, I don't have to hold anything back. I can say whatever I wish to.
3:57pm
Well, I just got into a big arguement with Lee. At first, I did't think it was that big. I mean,c'mon, I'm not the one that's mad in the first place. He was, he's the one that's mad. and now he's starting all this stuff. Man, my head isnt' even working straight. Man! This sux! I can't even think of an comeback, I have to really think about it. ER, anyways. He's calling me ungreatful and stuff. damnit. bla bla bla. my head hurts.
Here to read the conversation
blah, my convo.
I can't really think right now. i'll go do my friend's page and when I get back here, i'll stat complaining again. hehe.
Wednesday|May 1, 2002|2:06PM|All Fired Up
Well, yesterday I didn't get to finish my diary. Ugh* And Lee was complaining that I didn't get to talk about our day together yesterday in my diary.
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I don't know what the hell is going through his mind. It's like all he can do is complain now and he has the nerve to say that he doesn't complain anymore. bla bla bla bla bla. atleast he knows that he's getting tired of it. Well anywho,t he day just started and uh, SAT9 was oh so hard. We were taking the history one and I have no clue what the hell most of the question was about. The only question I was familiar with was the one about John D. Rockefeller. Unfortunately, it was the sample question. GRRR!!!! If that was one of the questions, I'm sure Ill get it right.
Sister is here with her bla boyfriend. She's taking me to school. I don't know who's going to pick me up, i hope it's going to be my mother. My teacher didn't get to read my essay yet. if he did, he would email me or something.
Nothing really new happened today except that Mr. Mcdonald now knows why I'm in the school. Damn, chatting with Lucas is horrible. So horrible. His spelling is....WEll, worse than mines. I'm so hungry. I'ma go get a bite to eat. Ugh* I'll talk about yesterday when I get home or something. Blah, since he's complaining about it, then I guess.
Tuesday|April 30, 2002|5:48PM|Fresh N' Clean
Hello everybody!!!!! =\ The old layout was getting really full. It deleted the ones on the bottom so, it looked pretty messed up, so I had to change my layout. I didn't have to, but.. I just chose to change my layout. I could've just emptied out everything and started all over. But I got bored and changed my layout. I say that this is one of my best that I made myself. What do you think? You like? Er, I know it's just a bunch of pictures and junk, but. =D
http://www.princ3oftear.cjb.net
Aah, ok, I'm not doing everything that is on his page. He made that banner in the beginning. I really like it.
Oh yeah, this morning. I opened the door and found a dozen of flowers. I was so happy. My first thought was: Aaw how sweet, Lee is so sweet, he gave me flowers. As I read on, it says that he apologized for not giving me a present and stuff, and I was like.. aaaaw, that's so sweet and I started to really smile. Then as i read on, I see "Sister"... Now, that isn't right. LOL! NOw, i know that it wasn't He that gave it to me.