Jenchan's Pitas ver. 5.0- SPRING! Layout is Card Captor Sakura- honey milk is the cure-all!


hmm... Wednesday, March 28, 2001. 01:36 p.m.

Currently listening to : my wind chimes

It's a lovely day today, which makes me happy! ^_^ I am sick of the cold.

Ger, I am almost positive that your tape is not missing the last ep, b/c I rewound the last bit of vol. 11 before I taped the movie to make sure that it was there, and that I was starting the tape at the right place. If it's missing, then it was some sort of weird act of dark magic or something.

And about the movie- those are good questions. This is my take on them:

1. Yes, I think that Touga does exsist, but it's on a supernatural level, like he's there as a guardian angel or something like that.

2. I don't think Miki died. He's in that last scene with Juri, Saionji, and the Wakaba car.

3. I think that Akio/Dios is dead, but is existing in the same way that Touga is existing, and I don't think Anthy is exactly dead, I just think that you have to sort of give it up to her being like she was in the TV series- a sort of immortal being.

Yes, Saionji was a prick in the movie, wasn't he? *snicker* And I am positive that the movie is meant to be an allegory to adolescence- hence the name, Adolescence Mokushiroku. Or that could be my lack of sleep as well. ^_~

Ok, all of that above stuff was my personal interpretations and observations. They are not neccessarily correct or anything.

I didn't finish my paper last night *sheepish grin*, so I have to do it tonight. I will try to finish it early and come back online later, if I finish it before 10:00 p.m. or so.

Laurelchan, let me know what you think about that thing I sent you. I know I can always trust that you'll give me an honest opinion, and for that, I'm immensely grateful. *hug*

Anyway, gotta go write this paper, and at some point learn the kanji I need to know for my quiz tomorrow. Bai bai minna! *waves*


my day thus far... Tuesday, March 27, 2001. 05:01 p.m.

Currently listening to : Samain Night, Loreena McKennitt

Uneventful sums it up. I went to work, class, then more class, and then work again. I did find out a few good things- my Japanese prof is postponing our oral exam to next week. Yay! And I got an A on my history of the Holocaust exam. When I left lecture today, I wasn't sure if I wanted to be happy or puke. (We were covering extermination camps today.) I spaced out a lot in most of my classes, and took an essay exam in American history. It was easy... I just hope I put enough detailed crap in my first one. *sigh* Whatever. It's over. I have to write a paper tonight about how art in Germany in the 1920's reflected the political controversies of the era. Bully for me. At least it's interesting material, that's a plus.

I am also glad b/c I actually get a day off tomorrow! I don't have to go into work b/c Wed. are my days off, although I haven't gotten one off in about a month b/c we are so behind in the office. But I DO get tomorrow off, and I don't have history discussion, either b/c Prof. Katz always cancels disussion on exam weeks. ^_^ So, if I can do most of my paper tonight, then I'll have a lot of time tomorrow to do NOTHING. And it will be glorious.

I had an odd dream last night, and I won't relay the details here, but I will say 2 things about it. 1)I REALLY didn't want to wake up this morning, and 2)it has succeeded in ruining most of my day... damn me and my stupid ideas. *grumble*

Ger, I love the new layout. Is that quote from 'The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock'? I swear that's what it reminds me of, but it's been awhile since I read it. And no problem about the tapes at all- it's my fault that they're messed up for not checking them closer.

I most likely won't be on to talk to people tonight b/c of the paper, so only IM me if it's an emergency, k? *hugs minnna* Mata ne!


weirdness... Monday, March 26, 2001. 07:33 a.m.

Ger- What episode are you on? There shouldn't be any missing b/c I have them all. Can you tell me which eps you are missing? I can remake the tapes if any of the volumes got cut off. That is super weird. IM me later tonight, like around 5 or so, and we'll figure out what's going on.

This is short b/c I have to go finish some homework. Talk to everyone later! Ja ne!


random stuff... Sunday, March 25, 2001. 11:18 a.m.

Ohayou! Sorry I missed the rest of the chat Sat. night... damned AIM. It's such a POS, as I am sure you saw me rant in yesterday's entry. Last night I went out w/ Amanda and we saw Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, and I find myself still contemplating the end. I came to the conclusion that there are 2 ways to interpret it. And I won't divulge that here b/c I don't want to spoil it for those who haven't seen it. ^^;;

Oh, and I went to dinner w/ Amanda AND Bethany- didn't want to leave her out! ^_^

My roomie is out of town, but she should be getting back in today. I need to clean the mess I made of this room this weekend too. *sigh*

I added my Hogwarts Student Profile to my blog under my archives section- you can get Sorted at that website, and you can find out your parentage, your wand type, and your pet type. ^_^ It's fun!!

Speaking of, we got some good news, ne Amanda?! The 5th HP book is due out in November of this year, to coincide with the movie release!! WAAAAAAIII! *dances around happily like a big moron*

Ger, I guess I should have warned you about where exactly volume 7 began... gomen. I thought that you had seen Utena before. Is the quality ok? (Be honest with me ^^;;;)

Anyway, gotta clean and go eat something. I am starving.

Ja ne!


DAMN AIM... Saturday, March 24, 2001. 12:03 a.m.

Gomen about the chat minna... AIM picked a shitty night to go ballistic on me. I tried to sign back on tons of times, and it only connected once, to only kick me off again a minute later. *grumbles and kicks aohell*

I'll im someone tomorrow and have them fill me in on the details, ok? *weary hugs to minna* Oyasumi... I think I'll just head to bed b/c I can't get back on this damned thing.


crack... Thursday, March 22, 2001. 09:15 p.m.

S, you are right. That fic is like crack. But not. ^_~ I've reread my favorite parts at least three times. I am such a dork.

Speaking of crack...*chokes back laughter*, Subsub has found an... interesting- well, maybe not interesting, but it's something- picture. And it just goes to show that no matter what man it is, he most likely will look horrific in a Speedo. *dissolves into snorts of laughter*

*coughs* Anyway, back to studying for my Japanese test tomorrow.


I felt it... March 21, 2001. 11:48 p.m.

Today has been really... odd. It's the best way to describe it. The weather was beautiful, and sort of uplifting. Sunny, strong breeze, cool but not at all cold. It was gorgeous. I wanted to put it in a box and stow it away for the next time it snows.

But all day, I had this bizarre increase in some sort of disorientation. I felt out of place, and desperate for something. I can't explain it better than that. I know what my problem is, but I can't put it in words.

It's not been a bad day, just sort of taxing. Especially dealing with my damned schedule for next semester. I register soon, and I have to meet my advisor before I go to register, so I had to figure out my schedule tonight, and it was pain in the ass that took me about 4 hours to figure out. *sigh* But I've done it, and even though it's going to kick my ass, at least I know it will work. Unless one of my classes fills b4 I go to register, but I really don't want to think about that possibility.

Anyway, I'm exhausted, so I think I'm heading off to bed. And a confession... yes, Laurelchan, I started an HP fic, in spite of my better judgement, and of course, I have about 4 more ideas for other ones floating around in my head. *sigh* It never stops. I swear, I will never manage to finish any of them.

Oyasumi minna!

I feel it... it boils and stings and moves me.
I feel so violent, and so moved, and so desperate.
What can I do for catharsis?
Churn, churn, watery emotion
Help me... I want to feel pain.
Abandonment in the things that will destroy me,
But taunt me with their elusiveness.
My heart aches and throbs in a wild, paganistic streak
Physical pain, it’s so deep
Something happened, I know it...
Long ago, when I danced under the moon
And shrieked
And lost myself in the heat and light and darkness
I need it, whatever it is I know I’m missing.
I am empty, anxious, nauseous, crying, aching
I’ve never felt it so strongly before...
It’s pulling me into the abyss.
My mind... I think it’s on the brink of (in)sanity
I want to taste blood
To scream until my vocal chords snap
To hit and kick and bite and break something
The shell around me, or the clip on my wings
The bars of my cage
What am I?
What have I become?
What’s missing.... there’s a key somewhere
I am not what I seem
Who is?
Excuses really, for I frighten even myself sometimes.
What is this boiling, bursting to come out
In a scream so bloody and deafening that is wracks my dream world?
I want to be consumed by fire, intensity and madness
I need it, before I get pulled in, unable to keep myself separated.


O.O... March 21, 2001. 03:14 a.m.

I know most of you don't give a shit about Harry Potter, so this is one more message you can ignore. However, if any of you are interested, I just came across the most amazing fic I have ever read. I mean EVER, not just Harry Potter, but out of all the anime and SW ones too. It's called The Paradigm of Uncertainty, and you can find it here. It's got a sequel. And oh my god, I have been so mind fucked. And if the author doesn't get more of the sequel out, I'm going to die of agony. It's rated R, as a warning. Don't expect cute and cuddley.

S, believe me, if you thought that one was good... OMG

And Ger, your art isn't crappy!

Oyasumi minna.


First Day of Spring... March 20, 2001. 05:06 p.m.

Today is the first day of spring. Unfortunately, it is so gray and dreary that I want to cry. It's also cooler than yesterday. Not cold, mind you, but cooler... I am scared that it's going to get cold again. I do NOT want more snow. (Btw, ha ha to you S. Now you know what it feels like :-P)

Anyway, despite the depressing weather, today has been ok. About average. Work, class, more class, some more work. The highlight of my day was when my Japanese prof told us that our test is being postponed b/c class is cancelled Thursday- she has to go out of town. Yay! No test on Thursday! It's on Friday instead. -_-;;

I've gotten to the point in the semester where all I want to do is sleep and live in my little fiction world. Only... 5 weeks and 3 days left... not counting finals week. *sigh*

Ger, it was great to talk to you too!! ^___^

Amanda and Bethany (and Jimmy is you happen to read this. You probably were frightened away the minute you saw my blog pic. :-P)- just wanted to say I had fun at dinner, as usual!

Laurelchan, I hope we get to chat soon!

Love everyone! Mata ne!


Whoa... March 20, 2001. 01:08 a.m.

Uh, disregard this message unless you're into Harry Potter. I just read this totally mind-blowing fic called Bryter Layter. Amanda, if you haven't read this- READ IT. It is wonderful. I was crying and laughing most of the way through it, and those are both marks of good fics. The sequel, Three Leaves Left, isn't finished yet. (Damn it all.)

Anyway, oyasumi, minna!


New Layout!... March 19, 2001. 02:21 p.m.

Konnichiwa minna!

Here is my new layout, pretty and genki for spring! It was actually warm enough out for me to wear sandals today!! ^_^ *knocks on wood*

The very beginnings of Midnight Revolution.Org are up here. For those who don't know what that is, it's a website that me and a few of my online cronies are making for our fanfic and other creative works.

For anyone who is into Harry Potter, the offcial website has the trailer to the movie up, both the US and the British versions. Also, the Harry Potter Lexicon has some hilarious filks posted. My favorite has to be the Death Eaters' Anthem to the tune of the Mickey Mouse Club theme. Gotta love it.

Anyway, I have to go bask in the nice weather... er, and try to do some homework... -_-;;

Ja ne!

Me

Name : Jen chan
Birthdate : March 31, 1981
Gender : Female
Occupation : Full Time College Student
Major : History and Japanese
Email : yohji@weisskreuz.net

Random Thought

"We had the experience but missed the meaning,
And approach to the meaning restores the experience
In a different form, beyond any meaning
We can assign to happiness..."

~T.S. Eliot,
Four Quartets

Image Song

Honey
Romanji courtesy of Cardcaptor Sakura

Madohen ni hitori hozuetsuite
Yamanai ame o jitto meteru
Kyo wa zutto hitori
Imagoro nani o shiteru no kana
Hiroi atsumeru kioku takaramono
Kyun to shichau

Ah fushigi da ne
Omoi dasu dake de yasashiku nareru

Atatakai miruku ni
Amaku hirogaru hachimitsu mitai dane
Kokoro tokasu yo
Sono hohoemi wa sou totte oki no Honey

Miageru sora Orion no rubii
Watashi dake no puranetariumu ni ne
Youkoso konya mo
Issho ni iru to mitsumerarenai
Ima wa hyaku man bai no zoomu appu de
Sora ni egakou

Ah suteki da ne
Donna toki datte soba ni iru mitai
Kanashii namida ni
Hiza o kakaete nemurenai yoru demo
Yuuki o kureru yo
Sono hohoemi wa sou totte oki no Honey

Tsubasa o hirogete
Maii oritekuru hoshi sora no youdane
Tsuyoku nareruyo
Sono hohoemi wa sou watashi dake no Honey

Friends' Blogs

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Sub Sub
Laurel chan
Gerald
Mearl
Quicksilver
Lyra
Moonsong
The Bishounen Diaries

Archives

3/1/01 to 3/16/01
2/20/01 to 3/1/01
2/6/01 to 2/19/01
1/28/01 to 2/6/01
1/17/01 to 1/25/01

Hogwarts Student Profile

Courtesy of The Unofficial Harry Potter Fan Club

House : Gryffindor

Family : Muggle-born, both parents Muggles

Wand : willow, contains single hair from the tail of a unicorn; gentle and whispy; perfect for performing enchantments

Pet : snowy owl; gift from a secret admirer at Hogwarts; she is affectionate and reliable, but has a bad habit of eating the snacks my mother sends me in the post

Favorite Mangas

Fushigi Yuugi
Card Captor Sakura
Ayashi no Ceres
Shoujo Kakumei Utena: Adolesence Mokushiroku
X
Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon

Favorite Animes

Fushigi Yuugi
Shoujo Kakumei Utena
Card Captor Sakura
Weiß Kreuz
Ayashi no Ceres
Mononoke Hime
Vampire Princess Miyu (TV series)
X (movie)
Kodoma no Omocha

Favorite Bishounen

Tasuki : Fushigi Yuugi
Nuriko : Fushigi Yuugi
Hotohori : Fushigi Yuugi
Syaoran : Card Captor Sakura
Nephrite : Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon
Yohji : Weiß Kreuz
Touga : Shoujo Kakumei Utena
Alec : Ayashi no Ceres
Omi : Weiß Kreuz
Larva : Vampire Princess Miyu
Yukito : Card Captor Sakura
Yue : Card Captor Sakura
Hayama : Kodoma no Omocha

Favorite Anime Girls

Shuro : Ayashi no Ceres
Makoto : Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon
Juri : Shoujo Kakumei Utena
Soi : Fushigi Yuugi
Utena : Shoujo Kakumei Utena
Tot : Weiß Kreuz
Sakura : Card Captor Sakura
Ceres : Ayashi no Ceres
Tomoyo : Card Captor Sakura
Miyu : Vampire Princess Miyu
Sana : Kodomo no Omocha
San : Mononoke Hime
Kiki : Kiki's Delivery Service

Fun Anime Villians

Farfarello : Weiß Kreuz
Nakago : Fushigi Yuugi
Akio : Shoujo Kaumei Utena
Tenkou : Fushigi Yuugi
Nephrite : Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon

Favorite Seiyuu

Koyasu Takehito
Seki Tomokasu
Sakamoto Chika
Miki Shin'ichiro
Megumi Ogata
Hayashi Nobutoshi
Shinohara Emi
Araki Kae
Sakura Tange
Hiro Yuuki

Favorite Music

Winter, Again : Glay
The Highwayman : Loreena McKennitt
Do What You Have To Do : Sarah McLachlan
Mizu Kagami : Seki Tomokasu [Fushigi Yuugi]
Missing You : Glay
Rinbu-Revolution : Masami Okui [Utena]
Samain Night : Loreena McKennitt
Winter : Tori Amos
Torn : Natalie Imbruglia
Driving Sideways : Aimee Mann
I Dreamed A Dream : Les Miserables
Run to the Water : Live
Easily : Red Hot Chili Peppers
Sleepy Maggie : Ashley MacIsaac
Sora no Soko : Koyasu Takehito
Seasons : Hamasaki Ayumi

Favorite Musicians

Glay
Lorenna McKennitt
Tori Amos
L'arc~en~ciel
Sarah McLauchlan
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Live
Dave Matthews Band
Hamasaki Ayumi
Aimee Mann

Favorite Novel Series

Anne of Green Gables : L.M. Montgomery
Harry Potter : J.K. Rowling
Chronicles of Narnia : C.S. Lewis
Star Wars Thrawn triology : Timothy Zhan
Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy : Douglas Adams
North and South : John Jakes

Favorite Other Literature

Wuthering Heights : Emily Brontë
Sense and Sensibility : Jane Austen
Wide Sargasso Sea : Jean Rhys
And Then There Were None : Agatha Christy
Little Women : Louisa May Allcott
A Wild Sheep Chase : Haruki Murakami
Twelfth Night : William Shakespeare
Kitchen : Banana Yoshimoto
Gone With the Wind : Maragret Mitchell
Snow Falling on Cedars : David Guterson
A Wrinkle in Time : Madeleine L'Engle

Favorite Movies

Anne of Green Gables
Sense and Sensibility
What's Up Doc?
Star Wars Triology
Before Sunrise
Snow Falling on Cedars
Dirty Dancing
Monty Python and the Holy Grail
Tampopo
Vertigo
Magnolia
Schindler's List

Favorite Non-Manga Paintings

Old Guitarist : Pablo Picasso
Un Soir de Carnaval : Henri Rousseau
Wild Poppies : Claude Monet
Dance in the City : August Renoir
Café at Night : Vincent Van Gogh
The Rose : Salvador Dalì
The Lovers II : René Magritte