layout - house of leaves and poe inspired.

haunted : adj. (hônt ed, hänt ed) inhabited; frequented; obsessed; pervaded


Nihon he ikimashita!!.... Wed. Mar. 26, 2003. 7:11pm

Ok, so I FINALLY blogged about my trip to Japan. I posted it on my lj, so click the link to read my ramblings about how much I LOVED JAPAN! *HAPPY SUNSHINE RAINBOW GLITTER HEARTS OMG!!!11!*

Also, I hope to change my blog layout to something more spring-centric this weekend.

On a more serious note, thank you S for the very thought provoking quote of the day:

"An Evil exists that threatens every man, woman and child of this great nation. We must take steps to ensure our domestic security and protect our homeland."

~ Adolf Hitler, while creating the Gestapo

Just think about that for a minute, people.


Baaaaack!.... Mon. Mar. 24, 2003. 1:08pm

This is my "HI EVERYONE! I'M BACK!" post letting you know that I am alive and well and had an amazing time in Japan.

I promise I'll post more later, but right now I'm so jet lagged that I... have no idea where I was going with this.

In seriousness, I do know that you all want DETAILS of the trip, so look for them soon!

Oh, and I hate men.

He had it comin’
He had it comin’
He took a flower in its prime.
And then he used it.
And he abused it.
It was a murder, but not a crime.

~"Cell Block Tango", Chicago OST

P.S. Any of my guy friends who read this, it's probably not you I'm hacked at, so never fear. I would at least give you wanring if I wanted to casturate you. *evil grin*


Headlights.... Wed. Mar. 12, 2003. 7:14pm

Headlights. There are some outside my window, startlingly bright against the twilight sky, and I'm listening to "Duvet"...

I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning
Help me to breathe
I am hurting, I have lost it all
I am losing
Help me to breathe

Why do I feel so apprehensive?

I should be excited. I am going to Japan tomorrow.

It's spring break.

I survived my paper draft night from hell.

...So where's my genkiness gone?

I don't understand.

Anyway, have a wonderful break for everyone is on it! Relax, kick off your shoes, watch trashy brain-sucking television. We've earned it.

I love you all! I'll update when I return with trip details. ^_^


How come it's a house of leaves?.... Tues. Mar. 11, 2003. 10:45pm

"I have... thought a great deal about the house. Each part of the house occurs many times; any particular place is another place... The house is as big as the world—or rather, it is the world."

~Jorge Luis Borges, “The House of Asterion”

"I am convinced Minos’ maze really serves as a trope for repression."

~Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves


Freedom... Toast?!.... Tues. Mar. 11, 2003. 6:26pm

Ok, so we've heard about freedom fries, everyone. Now it's time to introduce... FREEDOM TOAST!

*dies laughing*

Thank you Ri-chan for sharing that disturbing bit of political propoganda.

That's it. Ly, prep the Amazonian warrior gear. Who wants to join us?!


FUCKING PAPERS.... Tues. Mar. 11, 2003. 4:33pm

It's going to be another all-nighter. ARRRRRRRRRRRRGH. *runs around screeching and pulling out hair*

I AM SO SICK OF DAMNED PAPERS!! *stabs*

I can't even get excited about my fucking Japan trip b/c I have so much other stuff to do in the next 12 hours regarding frantic paper bull shitting.

I know, so it's my own fault. But that doesn't keep me from hating it.

S, that book series sounds interesting. I may have to check it out. I have been wanting a few non-class related books for my long ass plane ride. Maybe I'll look at it at the book store.

*sighs* Yeah, so I'll probably post again later at some point bitching more about the paper from hell.


*dies laughing*.... Mon. Mar. 10, 2003. 3:06pm

Ok, now I have seen it all.

I am a huge Dan fan, we all know this (ok, so maybe 'fan' isn't the right word).

But even I would not buy Dan... PANTIES!!

*ROTFLMAO*

What's REALLY scary is that there is a listing for thongs too. However, there aren't any actually there. It's just a blank page.

And you all thought that I am sick?!

...I really have to wonder what his reaction would be to the fact that there are a bunch of crazy fangurls out there wearing his face on their asses.


*groan*.... Mon. Mar. 10, 2003. 9:48am

No, this is not about my papers. That groaning will take place later tonight.

I have discovered you do not know true pain until you join an HP actors message board that is almost exclusively populated by girls (or gurls, as they call themselves).

THAT is true torture. Forget the jet lag disorientation, Dubbya! Torture they terrorists by forcing them to join HP message boards!

Here are a few samples:

re: MORE MEMBERS FOR H.P.N
HErmionekanobe - 24th post - 9 Mar 2003 21:42
WELCUM 2 DA CLUB LUV HERMIONEKANOBE UR IN SLYTHERIN

????????????
the_russian_girl - 3rd post - 10 Mar 2003 12:42
hei-hei--hei........... people.... At you what that of a problem????? In what she(it) consists??? Tell me???? All of you from England???

re: maybe cbbc can help oliver
haarvatat - 42nd post - 10 Mar 2003 09:49
i agree totally. oliver needs to be in da film. has cauron even read da book. quidditch is vry important. specly da bit with da dementors. wot is he thinkin?? plus the last 2 movies were almost 3hrs long, so Y R dey saying dat it has to be cut down 2 2hrs. who can we write to about this. afterall dey R makin da movie 4 da fans in da 1st place. grrrrrrrrrrrrr. luv surferjane

*dies* I did NOT make these up. And these aren't even CLOSE to the worst I have seen, they're just typical of the really bad posts... which make up about 99.9% of all the posts.

On that note, I forgot to link an article to my blog that Ly sent to me about this subject. It's here.

BE AFRAID. BE VERY AFRAID.


Good weekend!.... Sun. Mar. 9, 2003. 8:23pm

Back in town, and I had a good weekend!

I got some rest, which was nice. Needed it!

My fam celebrated my "un-birthday," as we called it. My diamond earrings were finally paid off! *.* They are SOOOOOO PURTY!

And I got Tori Amos's new CD, Scarlet's Walk. I very very much recommend it. It is SO GOOD! I am totally obsessed w/ the song 'Wednesday.' Listen to it- buy the cd, download it, whatever.

And got my money for my trip to Japan! I can't believe I am leaving on Thursday! O.O

On mildly sad thing (not in comparison to war or anything XD), but Sean Biggerstaff is not going to be in the 3rd HP movie. ;_;

Anyway, that's all of my news. Back to paper writing. -_- *dies*


Another brick in the fucking wall.... Fri. Mar. 7, 2003. 10:16pm

We don't need no education
We don't need no thought control
No dark sarcasm in the classroom
Teachers leave the kids alone
Hey teacher leave us kids alone
All in all it was just another brick in the wall
All in all you're just another brick in the wall

*******************************

Mother do you think they'll drop the bomb
Mother do you think they'll like the song
Mother do think they'll try to break my balls
Mother should I build a wall

Mother should I run for president
Mother should I trust the government
Mother will they put me in the firing line
Ooh ah, is it just a waste of time...

*******************************

Did you see the frightened ones
Did you hear the fallings bombs
Did you ever wonder
Why we had to run for shelter
When the promise of a
brave new world
Unfurled beneath a clear blue sky


TRALALALALALA.... Fri. Mar. 7, 2003. 8:46am

You know in Fight Club when Edward Norton says, "When you're an insomniac, you're never really asleep and you're never really awake," and he just lays there on the couch with his eyes glazed over and his mouth hanging open? Yeah, that's me. Zombie girl. Greenish skin, skanky hair, and gray circles under my eyes from not sleeping in 3 days.

And guess what! *insane grin*

MY DRAFT ISN'T DONE!

TRALALALALALALALALA.

And it's due in like an hour. ^_________________________^

*twitch*

I didn't realize how long it would take me to go through the entire Irish studies section of the library. Because that's what my bedroom is at the moment. I swear to god, if anyone else on campus is writing a paper on this subject, they'd have to come check the books out from my bedroom.

I hate my life.

When do I graduate again?

Whenever it is, it's not soon enough, that's for damned sure.


More on the anti-French attitude.... Thurs. Mar. 6, 2003. 8:35pm

*snicker* Thanks S. Interesting editorial, by the way.

What pisses me off about America's current anti-French attitude is that they are protesting France because it's AGAINST A WAR THAT SHOULDN'T BE FOUGHT ANYWAY!!

Ok, fine. I will admit that is a personal opinion only. But geez, people! If you're going to hate the French, at least choose a good reason for it, like the fact that their current president is an ANTI-SEMITE. Jewish children are being forced into separate lunch lines right now.

But who cares?! Let's drain our last 25 bottles of 1941 burgandy from Burgandy into the sewer because *gasp* those big bad Frenchmen have the nerve to want to keep the U.S. from causing the world's impending doom!

That makes SO MUCH SENSE, OMG!11!!!1

*growls*

Personally, I am a bit more concerned about the lessons of the Holocaust (do the words FASCISM and GENOCIDE ring a bell?!) being completely IGNORED by everyone in the whole fucking world at present, rather than changing french fries to "freedom" fries.

P.S. Woohoo! Dissidents of the world (or at least of Eudiometers Anonymous) unite!


*snicker*.... Thurs. Mar. 6, 2003. 9:01am

Ok, this is really awful, I know, but I couldn't help but snicker about it.

"You know why the French don't want to bomb Saddam Hussein? Because he hates Americans, he loves mistresses and wears a beret. He is French, people!"

Courtesy of the one and only (thank god) Conan O'Brien

P.S. I can't help but wonder if some FBI or CIA agent is keeping tabs on my blog b/c buzz words keep appearing on it, like 'bomb', 'hates Americans', 'Sadam Hussein', and 'Bush is a fuckwit who hasn't passed the Neanderthalian evolutionary stage yet'. *waves to all the happy government agents*

Muwa.


No, I am not procrastinating. I swear.... Wed. Mar. 5, 2003. 9:36pm

It's not my fault that I happened to check my e-mail and that someone sent me the MOST ADORABLE PIC EVER!!!!

*hearts*

Seriously, this is the sweetest thing I have ever seen. *__*

Can I quit my day job and be Emma please?

Daaaaaaaaaaaaaan.......... *spaces out into Happy Land, then remembers paper that she is supposedly not procrastinating on*

*coughs* Right. Back to work. ^^;


PANIC!... Wed. Mar. 5, 2003. 7:24pm

Ok, so I am majorly fucked. Have MASSIVE paper draft due on Friday morning, and I'm just now getting to it (and no one say anything to me about the Procrastination gods *glare*).

See the problem is, like I stated in my lj, this topic has not been very thoroughly researched. This would be a great thing if I were a PhD student writing a 200 page dissertation. But I'm not. I am a senior trying to write a 25 page honors paper in 2 nights.

The little that has been written is all contradictory, with Historian A saying "Look at these documents! They prove blah blah blah," then Historian B saying "*snort* That guy is a fuckwit, don't listen to him. They REALLY mean yadda yadda yadda."

*pulls hair out and bangs head repeatedly on desk*

WHY ME?!

...Don't answer that. >.<


Sin & Virtue... Tues. Mar. 4, 2003. 9:15pm

Neesan posted a survey of the 7 sins and virtues, so I took it.

Here are my answers.

Interesting survey.


*parties*... Tues. Mar. 4, 2003. 9:02am

Joyeux Mardi Gras, chacun!

^_^


Quick admin note... Mon. Mar. 3, 2003. 7:12pm

Just letting you know that I alpha'ed all of my lists *points to the side*, and renamed a few of my headings.


By the tree in Ennis where we used to hang around... Mon. Mar. 3, 2003. 1:05pm

Ok, so I went to bed relatively early last night (11:45ish) because I was really tired and I wanted sleep. Right?

And of course, I couldn't sleep.

Why?

Because I was hit with the worst wave of Ireland homesickness EVER. I was just laying there, thinking about our Dublin flat, and the weekend trips my friends and I would take away to the Southwest.

I longed for the green, and the ocean, and the hills, and the dramatic coast of cliffs and beaches and rare birds. The sleeping giant of the Basket Islands. The feeling that if the world were flat, you were surely standing on its edge.

I cried myself to sleep just thinking about it.

Isn't that silly? And yet, I couldn't help it. Something about Ireland gets into your blood and never leaves you.

I thought it was funny when you missed the train
When I rang you at home they said you left yesterday
I thought it was strange when your car was found
By the tree in Ennis where we used to hang around

~Dido, "Isobel"


Archived!... Sun. Mar. 2, 2003. 8:40pm

I archived! Yay me! And if you didn't see my post about how awesome my little sis is, it's here.

I am feeling better today than I have in a long time. I feel focused, less stressed (still stressed, but not to the point of hyperventilating), and more productive. I've gotten some work done toward re-doing my paper draft. I have been scanning documents I have to return to the library this week.

I got to talk to my mom for a long time tonight on the phone. Moms are seriously like the greatest people on earth. They always know what to say to make you feel better, and to help you put things in perspective. Yay moms!

I found out that my parents are planning a family vacation to Seattle and Vancouver for this summer. I am excited- I have never been to Canada! (Europe three times, yes. Canada, no. XD) And we haven't been on a family vacation in a few years. I think it'll be really cool- both of my siblings have grown considerably more tolerable since the last vacation we all took together.

Can you believe I leave for Japan in 10 days?! I'll write what I wrote on my lj- I will take orders if anyone has anything they MUST HAVE, and canNOT find online or something. I only have limited suitcase space, and I have big plans to hit the used manga shops for myself. ^_~ Anyway, no promises, but I can try.

I probably won't be online much for the next few weeks, because I have 2 HUGE drafts to do before spring break, and then I'll be gone *for* spring break.

I love you all! Take care!

About Me

Name : Jen
Aliases: Jenchan, Morgaine, Makochan, coconut!spleen
Birthdate : March 31, 1981
Signs: Aries, Rooster
Gender : Female
Occupation : Full Time College Student
Majors : History and East Asian Studies
Minors : International Studies and E. European Studies
Email : yohji@weisskreuz.net
Sites : Midnight Revolution.org and My Live Journal

Harry Potter, Li Syaoran, and Kiryuu Tougaare my Boy Slaves!!

Quote

"True love is like ghosts, which everybody talks about and few have seen."

~François La Rochefoucauld

Image Song

POE
Haunted

Ba da pa pa ba da pa pa...

Come here
Pretty please
Can you tell me where I am?
You won't you say something
I need to get my bearings
I'm lost
And the shadows keep on changing

And I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
I'm haunted
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head

Ba da pa pa ba da pa pa...

Don't cry,
There's always a way
Here in November in this house of leaves
We'll pray
Please, I know it's hard to believe
To see a perfect forest
Through so many splintered trees
You and me
And these shadows keep on changing

And I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
I'm haunted
By the promises I've made
And others I have broken
I'm haunted
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head

Hallways... always

I'll always want you
I'll always need you
I'll always love you

And I will always miss you...

Ba da pa pa ba da pa pa...

Come here
No I won't say please
One more look at the ghost
Before I'm gonna make it leave
Come here
I've got the pieces here
Time to gather up the splinters
Build a casket for my tears

I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
I'm haunted
By the promises I've made
I'm haunted
By the hallways in this tiny room
The echos there of me and you
The voices that are carrying this tune

Ba da pa pa ba da pa pa...

Father :
What is it Annie?

Daughter :
You think I'll cry? I won't cry!
My heart will break before I cry!
I will go mad.

Friends' and Fun Blogs

Anne
Arion
Avani
Cassandra Claire
Gerald Tarrant
Laurel Gand
The Leaky Cauldron
Lori Summers
Lyra's Live Journal
Lyra Stormrider
MR.org's HP Round Robin
Moonsong
Ogawa Tetsuya
Practical Magic
Quicksilver
Radnet
Ri-chan
Slyflame
Stephanie
Tsubasa

Archives

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Hogwarts Student Profile

Courtesy of The Unofficial Harry Potter Fan Club

House : Gryffindor

Family : Muggle-born, both parents Muggles

Wand : willow, contains single hair from the tail of a unicorn; gentle and whispy; perfect for performing enchantments

Pet : snowy owl; gift from a secret admirer at Hogwarts; she is affectionate and reliable, but has a bad habit of eating the snacks my mother sends me in the post. I decided to name her Blodeuwedd, after the Welsh Celtic goddess of flowers, lunar mysteries, and wisdom; her symbols are the owl and the moon.

Good Songs

Anarchy in the U.K. : The Sex Pistols
Another Brick in the Wall Part II: Pink Floyd
Bathwater : No Doubt
Beautiful Girl : Poe
Cell Block Tango : Chicago OST
Crucify : Tori Amos
Demon Lover : Einstein Savage
Do What You Have To Do : Sarah McLachlan
Driving Sideways : Aimee Mann
Duvet : Lain OST
Easily : Red Hot Chili Peppers
Friday I'm in Love : The Cure
Haunted : Poe
The Highwayman : Loreena McKennitt
Hunter : Dido
I Dreamed A Dream : Les Miserables
Mrs. Robinson : Simon & Garfunkel
Run to the Water : Live
Samain Night : Loreena McKennitt
Sleepy Maggie : Ashley MacIsaac
Step on My Old Size Nines : Stereophonics
Torn : Natalie Imbruglia
Winter, Again : Glay

My Favorite Musicians

Aimee Mann
Dave Matthews Band
Dido
Floggin Molly
Glay
JJ72
Live
Lorenna McKennitt
No Doubt
Pink Floyd
Poe
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Sarah McLauchlan
The Sex Pistols
Stereophonics
Tori Amos

My Favorite Novel Series

Anne of Green Gables : L.M. Montgomery
Chronicles of Narnia : C.S. Lewis
Emily of New Moon : L.M. Montgomery
Griffin and Sabine : Nick Bantock
Harry Potter : J.K. Rowling
His Dark Materials : Philip Pullman
Hitchiker's Guide : Douglas Adams
Lord of the Rings : J.R.R. Tolkein
North and South : John Jakes
Star Wars Thrawn triology : Timothy Zhan
A Wrinkle in Time : Madeleine L'Engle

Books You Should Read

Abarat : Clive Barker
And Then There Were None : Agatha Christy
Book of Shadows : Phyllis Curott
Collected Fictions : Jorge Luis Borges
A Goddess is a Girl's Best Friend : Laurie Brockway
Gone With the Wind : Maragret Mitchell
House of Leaves : Mark Z. Danielewski
Little Women : Louisa May Allcott
A Midsummer Night's Dream : William Shakespeare
The Mists of Avalon : Marion Zimmer Bradley
Sense and Sensibility : Jane Austen
South of the Border, West of the Sun : Haruki Murakami
Thus Spoke Zarathustra : Friedrich Nietzsche
Wicked : Gregory Maguire
Wide Sargasso Sea : Jean Rhys
Wuthering Heights : Emily Brontë

Movies You Should See

Amélie
Anne of Green Gables
Before Sunrise
Bridget Jones's Diary
Chicago
Dead Poet's Society
Fight Club
The Graduate
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's/ Philosopher's Stone
Magnolia
Monty Python and the Holy Grail
Moulin Rouge!
Roman Holiday
The Royal Tenenbaums
Schindler's List
Sense and Sensibility
Star Wars Triology
Thelma & Louise
Vertigo
What's Up Doc?

My Favorite Anime/ Manga Series

Ayashi no Ceres
Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon
Card Captor Sakura
Fruits Basket
Fushigi Yuugi
Kareshi Kanojo No Jijou
Kodomo no Omocha
Kyuuketsuki Miyu
Mononoke Hime
Shoujo Kakumei Utena
Slayers
Weiβ Kreuz

Inspiring Paintings

Café at Night : Vincent Van Gogh
Luncheon of the Boating Party: August Renoir
The Meditative Rose : Salvador Dalì
Old Guitarist : Pablo Picasso
The Rose Garden : Paul Klee
Un Soir de Carnaval : Henri Rousseau
Wild Poppies : Claude Monet
The Young Martyr : Paul Delaroche