Jen's Pita - Look everyone! It's me! Or rather, Jen Morgaine Ashford, my doppelganger. (If only I really looked like my doppelganger...XD) The theme of my blog is rr!Jen, and portrait was done by the oh so talented Lyra Stormrider. *hugs* THANK YOU! *.* (Note: If you want to see all of the rr portraits, go to my link for the MR.org HP Round Robin)
Ok, it has been my personal tradition every year for the past... oh, I guess 7 or so years (aka when I stopped getting gifts from my parents) to bitch on Valentine's Day. Why stop now? (Which is a warning. Don't read this if you are one of those disgustingly cute people who is all bubbly and shit on Valentine's Day.) I would have even changed by blog layout in honor of it, but I decided that I didn't care enough. That and I'm too lazy and have better things to do with my time. It's a holiday even worse than Christmas for commercialization simply due to realtive importance. At least Christmas is an excuse for a vacation. And you get to rely on your parent's wine cellar for good old family fun. But Valentine's Day... was there ever a time when it didn't revolve around a dozen red roses, ugly heart-shaped diamond necklaces, or cheesy sayings on chocolate boxes? It must have, at some point, been a legit holiday. After all, at some point in time it was *Saint* Valentine's Day. So I know what you're thinking... oh, look, just one more loser who can't get a date, so she feels the need to wear black and try and kill the joy of those who might have someone to fuck on Valentine's Day. And you know what- you'd be right. So sue me. So sue me for hating all the damned red and pink heart shit everywhere. So sue me for seeing a bunch of men who are happy because they can get in some chick's pants just because he paid 50 bucks for a dozen roses and took her to some restaurant so she could play "dress up". So sue me for resenting those who are happy and in good relationships when half of them don't even deserve it. They take it for granted. I hate Valentine's Day. And you know what? IF I ever find a man who will actually date me, and he gives me a dozen roses and a fucking heart-shaped box of chocolates, I'd chuck them in his face and call it over right there. Romance is not a standard set by society. It's something that comes from a deep, creative connection between people. And if you are content with that standard, then you deserve it. And on that note, here are some Jack Off Jill lyrics guaranteed to brighten your day. When I Am Queen
When I am queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists
When I am queen sweet girlscout's face and not a one will fall from grace
Drown drown drown myself
When I am queen on royal thrown made out of parts of broken bones
When I am queen I'll have my way I'll make it drowning dollie day
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Hush baby hush baby
When I am queen I will not wait my body type will still be great
When I am queen they all will see the patron saint of self-injury
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself note: Thanks Ly for the rec! Watch for the Return of the Supa-Genki in a few days... or weeks... but it WILL come, I promise!
S, I am glad that I helped. Like I said, ANYTIME you want to talk, you know where to find me. I'm sorry that the situation is worse, but just follow your heart. It sounds cheesy, but what's meant to be will be, no matter how you get there. I believe that. On the flip side S, thank you about what you said to *me*. You're support means so much to me. And thanks to Anne and Ly and Bethy and everyone else who's been so great to me while I try to work through my confusion. I love you all!! I feel pretty good today for some reason. I am happy, which is something I haven't felt in awhile, so it's nice. I think part of it's the weather- it's been chilly, but SUNNY and grogeous for the last 2 days. *.* Oh, and I found out one of my history profs plays electric guitar in a band. Isn't that fun?! He's so cool!
Hey everyone. Let me start out by saying this has been a rough week for me. That may turn you off from the rest of the message, and maybe it won't. I don't know. But not all I'm going to say is bad, so hear me out. First of all, I can now tell a little about my aforementioned family problems because they are now mostly resolved. My sister hadn't been to school in 3 weeks. Is she sick?, you ask. No. Unless you count sick at heart. She was heartbroken, saing that people didn't like her, and they didn't include her, that they teased her. All of you know me (or you wouldn't be checking my page!), and let me assure you that if you don't know my sister, she is my oplar opposite. I am loud, obnoxious, out-going, and very few things phase me. I'm also a bitch at times. She's none of those. She's shy and withdrawn, and very sweet and sensitive, and I might add one of the most precious people in the world to me. Call it over-protective big sister complex, or whatever. Anyway, she refused to step a foot back in her school. I mean that literally. She stayed in bed all day and my mom called her into school, complained of health problems so went to the doctor 3 times in the last 3 weeks, went to therapy... nothing helped. My mom and brother were beside themselves to get her to school, and my dad was nuts with worry. Jason (my bro) was even afraid she'd go too far and do something really stupid. But luckily, she has, as of yesterday, transferred to a small private school, and she went to the salon and had a hair makeover and she is extraordinarily happy now. I called her yesterday because it was her 16th birthday, and she loves her new school, and everyone asked her to join in their groups, and so life at home is now back to what it was before- stable chaos. Yay! I can breathe easy on that score now. But today I got word I didn't make it into one of the programs I applied for. The guy sent me an e-mail with the typical PC bullshit... oh, you know 'it was a tough choice', 'you can always try again next year' (even though I'm a senior next year and the idiot knows it), 'it was nice to meet you anyway'... yeah yeah. Whatever asshole. Still haven't heard about Dublin yet, but I honestly doubt that I'll have any problems getting into that one. They accept as many students that apply as fit the criteria and I definitely fit the criteria. I just haven't gotten notification yet, so that's *something* good, anyway. Next- Christina, you rock babe! I am SO proud of you! Congrats on being one of FOUR to get to go to Nagoya next year! You will have an awesome time. Ditto to you Jules! Canterbury! All of my friends are becoming world-class travellers! Congrats!! You'll have a blast. And finally, I am having issues with my religious views, which has been occupying my mind for days now. But Anne and Lyra, especially, have been super supportive of me, which I appreciate SO much. I love you guys, and I'll let you know more about this later, when I've sorted some things out. There have been other things I've been dealing with, but they are positive... I just dropped a class I HATED, I am taking up an officership in Phi Alpha Theta (which is the history honor society) and I'll be helping get our very dead chapter some life back! I'm also starting a research paper for one of my classes, and my super cool prof is overseeing it, so that's kind of neat. Anyway, so even though I sound like I'm in the 'depths of despair', I'm not. I'll make it through everything just fine. I've made it through worse, and I'm actually in a pretty good mood right now. That which doesn't kill us makes us stronger, right? I love you all, and take heart!
Ok, ok, I know it's been ages since I've blogged. Life has been nuts. Between problems at home (sorry folks, not going into details- just know I've been beside myself), applying to 2 major programs at school, becoming an officer in 2 clubs, and helping my friends with their issues, it's been nuts. S, you made a good point on your blog about marriage. I talked to Anne-girl on the phone today and we discussed that very subject. I'm not so sure I really want to get married because of that very issue. Laurel, Ly... *snicker* great chat the other night. Hogwarts is so not ready for us. XD McGonagall: Are you girls alright? That must have been traumatic! Jen: What Astronomy Tower incident?! Er, I mean... *cough* fine! Bethany, congrats with Jacob! I am glad that you're happy! Can't wait to see you this weekend. Amanda, we miss you! Come visit!!! Random bit of HP trivia sent to me by my friend Melanie at work: "You know how Norbert's a Norwegian Ridgeback? Well, that name's actually a play on words-there's a type of dog called a Rhodesian Ridgeback (so named because there's a strip of fur on its back that grows in the opposite direction)!" I'll let everyone know whether or not I get accepted to these programs. *hugs* I love all of you, and miss you! Oh and a brief p.s.- if you haven't seen Amelie, SEE IT. It's definitely one of the best movies I've seen in ages (er, with the exceptions of Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings, of course ^_~).
Happy New Year everyone! ^_^ I meant to put a Christmas message up too, but I was busy and didn't get a chance to blog. XD Ly, thank you for the Remmy pic! I loved it! And I know Laurel did too. Laurelchan, you spent to much but you know I love it! XD And Ger, thanks for the HP coloring book and the homemade frame for our RR pic. I loved it! *hugs minna* I hope everyone's vacations are going well. Anne-girl, you know you and your mom and Sarah H are in my thoughts. Let me know how things work out for everyone, and I love you! S, Kim, Jo- I'm sorry we haven't been able to visit. Maybe spring break or something? We'll figure it out. *hugs* I love you all too! I saw the LOTR movie the other day. My opinion is split between disappointment and impressed XD. I think it's hard to do justice to the books, and I think they cast it well, but they did change some things that I think were important. *sigh* Ah well. It's funny, but I think the LOTR movie was closer to its book than the HP movie, but I liked the HP movie better. Or maybe it's just Daniel Radcliffe and Sean Biggerstaff. XD I know, laugh it up, I'm a sick individual. *sigh* Anyway, vacation will be over far too soon, but it's been great while it lasted.
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Name : Jen
"The marvelous richness of human experience would lose something of rewarding joy if there were no limitations to overcome. The hilltop hour would not be half so wonderful if there were no valleys to traverse." ~Helen Keller
Sittin' Up In My Room
Seems like ever since, the first day we met
How can one be down, tell me where to start
Be sittin' up in my room
Pray that you'll invest, in my happiness
Tell me what is up, you see I need to know
Be sittin' up in my room
How can one be down, tell me where to start
Be sittin' up in my room
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Courtesy of The Unofficial Harry Potter Fan Club
House : Gryffindor
Family : Muggle-born, both parents Muggles
Wand : willow, contains single hair from the tail of a unicorn; gentle and whispy; perfect for performing enchantments
Pet : snowy owl; gift from a secret admirer at Hogwarts; she is affectionate and reliable, but has a bad habit of eating the snacks my mother sends me in the post. I decided to name her Blodeuwedd, after the Welsh Celtic goddess of flowers, lunar mysteries, and wisdom; her symbols are the owl and the moon.
Bathwater : No Doubt
Lorenna McKennitt
Anne of Green Gables : L.M. Montgomery
Wuthering Heights : Emily Brontë
Anne of Green Gables
Old Guitarist : Pablo Picasso
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