++Tuesday, March 18, 2003, 09:21 p.m.++
Five details about you...
[x] i love jrock (gackt and l'arc en ciel)
[x] i like anime
[x] i'm planning my future on the sole fact that i want to go to japan
[x] i like drawing
[x] the only seafood i eat is in sushi

Five details about your appearance right now...
[x] my hair is slightly damp
[x] it was wrapped in a towel, but it got too heavy and just recently fell off
[x] i'm wearing a bathrobe
[x] my skin is lotion-ized
[x] i have nothing on my feet (and they're cold)

Five things you did yesterday...
[x] woke up... kinda
[x] stayed home from school
[x] stayed up until 12:30
[x] reformatted my hard drive
[x] finished my euro sg

Five memorable things you did in the last year...[2002]
[x] made a sumomo costume and went trick-or-treating in it
[x] kidnapped danielle from work on her birthday
[x] worked as a lifeguard for the first time
[x] actually *hated* sunlight
[x] talked to underclassmen... ::shudders::

Five favorite groups...
[x] L'arc en Ciel
[x] Glay
[x] Malice Mizer
[x] X Japan
[x] Pierrot

Five favorite musical artists...
[x] Gackt (no, really???)
[x] Hyde (another *big* surprise)
[x] Boa
[x] Maaya Sakamoto
[x] Yuki Kajiura (not only does she write all the music, but she performs some of it, too!)

Five favourite songs...
[x] Dears (Gackt)
[x] Stay Away (L'arc)
[x] Forever Love (X Japan)
[x] Survival (Glay)
[x] Yubiwa (Escaflowne Movie)
and a not-so-famous one i just had to include... the beautiful song ^_^

Five favorite movies...
[x] Monty Python and the Holy Grail
[x] the Escaflowne Movie
[x] Ringu
[x] Grave of the Fireflies (so sad! ;_;)
[x] The End of Evangelion (i know, i'm weird like that...)

Five things that make you happy...
[x] making other people happy
[x] making food (and NOT being made fun of for it!)
[x] arguing (for fun, not REAL arguments)
[x] figuring out math problems (i know, i'm a math geek, but really, who doesnt love square roots and matrices?!)
[x] fixing my computer ^.^

Five things that impress you...
[x] talents in art and music
[x] politeness
[x] when guys act all gentleman-like
[x] having the courage to wear makeup and skin-tight snakeskin pants... and then go on stage with them on. ¬_¬
[x] openness to new ideas or things different than what you believe

Five things that don't impress you...
[x] intolerance
[x] those who make fun of other people
[x] lying
[x] not shutting up when i've dropped every hint possible (except for a smack upside the head followed by screaming "SHUT UP!!!")
[x] prejudice

Five things you cant live without... [other than the essentials]
[x] my music
[x] people who care about me
[x] my sketchbook (and a pencil)
[x] my mind... i'd go insane without that... not like i'm not already... ^_^;
[x] a piano or guitar

Five things you'll do when you complete this...
[x] say bye to everyone i'm talking to
[x] take all dave's money again (on kings of chaos) [x] shut down my computer
[x] go to my room
[x] sleep

++Tuesday, March 18, 2003, 05:10 p.m.++
LOOKIE!! i got my camera working! here's a pic of my dog and cat!
click here

++Tuesday, March 18, 2003, 03:44 p.m.++
woohoo! today is a good day ^_^ its SO nice out!! and i just found out that teru's wife had a baby girl on march 9th! congratulations, teru! (he's from glay, for those of you who dont know) and guess what i'm doing RIGHT NOW??? no, well, i am writing on my blog. but i'm also eating iced animal crackers!! XD they're so YUMMY! and i'm going to be at karate tonight while danielle has her intro lesson... >:} heeheeheeheehee...... but yeah... um... what else? selling daffodils for service club on thursday from 6-8:30, so if anyone wants to go visit us, danielle and i will be at sears ^_^ so come see us!! i think it would be really cute if we dressed in white and yellow and green ^_^ heehee! i love dressing to match the occassion! but anyway, i gotta call danielle and tell her that i'll be there tonight. bye!

++Monday, March 17, 2003, 07:53 p.m.++
I've walked so long
I can't remember - where was my home?
Their distance faces fade away
I'm always on my own.
I can show a smile
It's not hard to do.
I can have the strength to go on
But sometime I wanna let go of everything.

When thoughtfulness is not their game
I teach by giving love.
High mountain seems higher endlessly
when they're pebbles at your feet.
And if you should still fall into despair,
there is one thing left to believe
I lie in your heart always.

Nothing is braver than honesty
My life is your faith in me.

I'll be there when you need
you don't have to hide from me.
What you are feeling now
I fill your soul.
We will seek together destiny
troubles have an end.
we'll carry on hand in hand
you're not alone.

People searching desperately outside themselves
caught up in thinking of whatever helped.
And I'd forgotten too that love exists inside me as in those I wanted from
I feel you now.

I'll be there when you need
we will live together.
Nothing is in our way
with trust in our soul.
We will seek together destiny
troubles have an end.
We will carry on hand in hand
We won't forget we have each other.
Never!

Love is in the hearts of all men
you're not alone.

~"You're not Alone" (Vision of Escaflowne)

++Monday, March 17, 2003, 03:38 p.m.++
::waves:: i stayed home from school today. didnt feel so great this morning. : so i stayed home from school. i feel really bad though, because adrian had to do the german presentation by herself... :( but i dunno. um..... i'm bored. >< been sleeping/watching tv/trying to find new sheet music ALL DAY. and that gets old. so here i go again...

++Sunday, March 16, 2003, 06:22 p.m.++
so i reformatted my hard drive...... took me only about an hour and a half.... of course, i still havent installed wordpro and my zip drive and stuff.... but i got the ethernet drive to work! XD i'm so proud of myself! so yeah..... hopefully my camera will work this time >< but at least i got my sound back! unfortunately, i made the stupid mistake of not saving the mail in my folders on outlook express, so all the things i was saving are gone ;_; that's the problem with pop3 accounts. >< oh well. but i saved all my word documents! which i didnt do last time! and i put them on my one cd-rw disc, so i can reuse it. ^_^ i am so smart, s-m-r-t!! but yeah, time to eat and *finally* start on my german diorama. heh ^_^; but i have a good idea for it now!!! i really do!!! i just hope it'll work... eheh......

++Sunday, March 16, 2003, 04:29 p.m.++
today was SO FUN!!!!!!!! and yesterday was too!!! andrew drove down to visit me! but he got lost because of stupid mapquest directions. but thats ok! it was fun, we watched the ring, and then we took my dog for a walk, and then we played ping pong and watched tv. i hadnt seen him in like a year, so it was fun ^_^ but he was wearing a dbz shirt! o_O eeeeeeeeeeeviiiiiiiiiiil....... but yeah, my mom made wings that night, and they were SOOOOOOOO GOOD! and hot. VERY HOT. but ohhhhh, i was so mad when my dad made me stop eating them. ya know how it normally takes at least a dozen hot wings to make your eyes start to water?? well, i was crying on my second one. but they were SO YUMMY! my dad made me stop on my fifth. i would have kept going, too. and i put extra sauce on. mmmmmmmm it was so YUMMY!

so saturday night i went over to danielle's, and we watched "beauty and the beast" with the commentary on, and it was so funny! but i was tired cuz i had to wake up at 7:30 that morning to get breakfast and then get my hair cut (i got a free parrafin wax for my hands! ^.^ they're so soft!) and so yeah... not much sleep. but then we watched all of the extras on the Escaflowne Movie dvd, and it made me wanna watch the whole series again!! and now i'm looking for the sheet music for "hikari no naka e" and some other pretty escaflowne songs, especially "yubiwa"!!!! and i keep trying to warm up my voice enough to get that high note at the end. i must reach it!!!!!!!!! gaah!!!!!!

this morning i went to church with danielle, which proved to be one of the most amusing things i've ever done. hey, its not every day that you get to hear two guys (*cough*REUBENANDZACK*cough*) talk about different types of soaps and moisturizers.... heh. it was so SILLY! they were talking, and zack was like, "this soap i use really dries out my face!" reuben:"you should you (insert name of soap here)" zack:"yeah, i use (insert name of different soap here) now." rueben:"you could always try a good moisturizer." and danielle and i just looked at eachother and started cracking up, and zack was all like, "what??! did i miss another joke?!?" it was silly. and we were sooooooooooo late for the service, we even missed communion. >< its all zack's fault, for making us stand around and try to not let him steal rueben and go to panera. but we made it in eventually. then after church, reuben got picked up by a guy. *snicker* then the three of us went to golden crystal buffet for lunch, and reuben dropped me off. so here i am. ::waves:: but now that i've updated everyone on my life, i'm going to find sheet music and make a diorama for my german presentation. byeee~!

++Friday, March 14, 2003, 11:03 p.m.++

Which are you?
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++Friday, March 14, 2003, 10:15 p.m.++
GAH! japanese movies are scary o_O danielle and i just watched "ringu." it was freaky!! but not as freaky as the american version. i didnt see it, but danielle said it was more suspensful and bloody and stuff. but yeah. it was still really freaky. freaky enough to almost make me pee my pants when danielle decided to kick a tennis ball against the door 4 feet away from me when i wasnt looking. >< so yeah. then i came upstairs and all of the stuff around my computer desk was MESSED UP, and covered in GERMS from my brother being there all day! o_O do you know how much i HATE it when someone messes up my stuff??? i mean, its fine if i do it, but GAH! especially when the cleaning lady does the bathroom, and all of my soaps and lotions and hair stuff gets moved to different places..... i'm half asleep in the morning! do you know how ANNOYING it is to reach for soap and have it be a makeup brush?!! AHHH! its like, "what? wait? think? ah!! where is it?!?!" and it really angers me. grrr.... so a note to everyone i know, dont go into my bathroom and mix around my stuff just to be funny, or move things around on my computer desk, because i'll probably just banish you from my house for all eternity. and never speak with you again. no, i wouldnt do that, but i'd get pretty angry. and i hold grudges, too. so dont even try. ::glares:: but here's a cool site. its fun. see if you can get the secret.

++Friday, March 14, 2003, 08:59 a.m.++
YAY! i finished abhorsen last night, and it only took me until 11:00!!! XD its so great! but not like i hadnt been reading constantly since that afternoon.... heh. ^_^;; jason came home yesterday, but he's really sick. he has bronchitis. i'm making him stay as far away as possible from my stuff. i must stop them from becoming infected -_O ~GERMS!!!! but yes. i had a really weird dream last night. it was one of those that left me with this feeling of helplessness... i knew what was going on, and i knew people were going to die, but i couldnt stop it because the opposing force was too powerful. >< it really sucked. but i'm better now ^_^; and i get to go shopping today!!!!! but i need to go to the bank first. get some money. and send it out for all the auctions i won ^.^ heehee! stuff! for my walls! and for myself! heeheehee! i cant wait! i just want to find a really cool pair of boots today. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i cant wait!

++Thursday, March 13, 2003, 08:22 p.m.++
God, this night has sucked massively. why dont people understand by now that if i'm sitting by myself reading for 3 hours that i dont want anyone to talk to me?! it really pisses me off. and my mom kept harassing me all the time, and i was trying to be nice and explain that i didnt want anyone to talk to me, but then she just got really mad and told me to leave. so yeah, here i am, sitting at my computer. feeling very much like a piece of crap.

++Thursday, March 13, 2003, 03:15 p.m.++
so i'm buying a lot of stuff on ebay. ¬_¬ addicted? why would you say that? there's just lots of good stuff up right now. -_-; i dunno whether or not to get hyde's star ring. its so cool, but i dont think i would wear it. ok, that settles it. no ring. but i'm getting pretty high on the bracelet, and it still has 2 days left. prolly gonna be in the 70's again. ;_; i can't pay that much for it! i want this poster, just because its scary. ::evil grin:: my parents would be sooooooooo scared if they saw it. heeheehee... too bad i dont wanna spend $10 on a poster. ^_^; however, there is a very nice Kirito (from Pierrot) one. ^_^ but i'm still so obsessed with gackt's "Vanilla" advertising poster!!! >< ~G'AH! i want it! ;_; well i'm gonna browse more, bye!

++Wednesday, March 12, 2003, 09:47 p.m.++

French Guard I'm French! Why do think I have this outrageous
accent, you silly king-a?!

What Monty Python Character are you?
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++Wednesday, March 12, 2003, 09:34 p.m.++
guys are such assholes. they think they can get away with stuff, but later it just stabs them in the back. oh well. no harm on my part.

++Wednesday, March 12, 2003, 04:25 p.m.++
1. The road represents your attitude towards falling in love.
You chose the long road--you take your time and do not fall in love easily.

2. The number of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return.
You give 75% and expect 25% in return.

3. This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems.
You like to get the person yourself--you are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately.

4. The placement of the roses determines how much you like to see your boy/girlfriend.
You want to place the roses by the windowsill--you are alright with not seeing him/her much.

5. This represents your attitude towards his/her personality.
You prefer the person to be asleep--you love the person as the way s/he is.

6. The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone.
You chose the short road--you fall out of love easily.

++Wednesday, March 12, 2003, 04:17 p.m.++
meh, nothing really to talk about today. i went to this world affairs luncheon thing with my dad. it was yummy ^.^ oh yeah, the speaker was good too. you could tell that she knew what she was talking about. it was very informative. but.... i'm gonna go loathe about my computer now. still not working with the camera's USB cable. bah.

++Tuesday, March 11, 2003, 04:47 p.m.++
so here's this personality test thing that was on danielle's page...

Extraversion: Your score on Extraversion is low, indicating you are introverted, reserved, and quiet. You enjoy solitude and solitary activities. Your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends. (apparently, i dont seek excitement whatsoever....)
Agreeableness: Your level of Agreeableness is average, indicating some concern with others' Needs, but, generally, unwillingness to sacrifice yourself for others. (i was really high on trust, morality, altruism, and modesty. preeeetty low on cooperation and sympathy though. heh.)
Conscientiousness: Your score on Conscientiousness is average. This means you are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled. (heh. score of 99 on cautiousness. wow. and 78 on dutifulness! i'm such a LOSER!)
Neuroticism: Your score on Neuroticism is average, indicating that your level of emotional reactivity is typical of the general population. Stressful and frustrating situations are somewhat upsetting to you, but you are generally able to get over these feelings and cope with these situations. (it says i'm self-concious, and i dont resist temptation very well. ¬_¬ why would i get stuff like that???)
Openness to Experience: Your score on Openness to Experience is average, indicating you enjoy tradition but are willing to try new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual. (man, i'm not an intellectual ;_; oh well. i scored really high on imagination and artistic interests, but pretty low on adventurousness. man, i sound so boring. how can people stand hanging out with me?!)

yep, i'd say that's pretty close. except i think i'm more willing to sacrifice myself for others than they say. i tend to do that a lot. ::shrugs:: oh well. but.... i dont really have much to talk about today. i'm going to this world affairs luncheon tomorrow with my dad... i get out of math and english for it. not like i want to, but still. ah well... i think i'll go eat more now. bye!

++Monday, March 10, 2003, 08:33 p.m.++

Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
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++Monday, March 10, 2003, 08:22 p.m.++
right. so. i know what the problem is with my camera, i just dont know how to fix it. -_-; which is a bigger problem. but hopefully the tech support people can help me. they've been so nice! ;_; it brings me to tears. so my dad picked up a memory card for me today, and i can hold up to 300 pictures on it O.O its amazing! but really, i was in a bad mood before, but now i'm better, because vince and i had a "lets see how hard i can take you down contest" in karate today. ^.^ it was SO FUN! i won, but i think it's cuz vince didnt want to hurt me. ::rolls eyes:: not like i'm gonna break that easy.... but my arms are a bit sore now. ^_^;;; oh well. its all miss jess's fault. she knows she wont break me. >< but yeah.... DANIELLE is going to join me THIS WEEK, RIGHT??? exzachtly-in! heeheehee! ^_^ thats so fun! well, i'm gonna go do... erm... stuff.... now. right. "study" for german. heh. -_-;

++Sunday, March 9, 2003, 04:46 p.m.++
::explodes:: alright, i was perfectly fine until about the 8th time. that's right. 8 is the magic number. it went far past that, but i started to lose it at 8. oh, that's the number of times i had to restart my computer because it FROZE. yeah. i installed the programs and plugged in my camera, and BOOM! >< it wont work. all the programs freeze.... it sucks. so i'm just gonna wait for jason to come home and maybe he'll fix it for me.

its friggin' cold down here... i have so many blankets wrapped around me, and my fingers are frozennnn......

so we're doing this really cool fundraiser for habitat for humanity at my church. its called flamingo thingo. you pay $5 to have a flamingo sent to someone's house (within the congregation), and then they have to pay $5 to remove it. or you can buy $20 "insurance" so you wont have any flamingos put on your yard. heehee, its great, because 20 people can send 1 flamingo each to someone's house, and then they'll have to pay $100 to get them removed! ::evil grin:: not like we'd all gang up on someone like that..... heeheehee... well i'm gonna go play around more with my desk. i rearranged it today. ^_^ just so i could actually reach the back of my computer without ripping all the cords out. i'd send you the pic i took with my camera, but IT DOESNT WORK. ::seethes::

++Saturday, March 8, 2003, 07:46 p.m.++
I GOT A DIGITAL CAMERA! its so great! it was half off tonight, so i got it for only $75!! its pretty nice, too! a bit slow, but nice for my first one ^_^ it can also hold lots of pictures! heehehehehehe! i'm so HAPPY!! except my mom just pointed out that she just bought me 3 rolls of film..... so i have to use that up first.... but i have a digital camera! yaaaaaaaaaaaay! oh, and i also got clover 4 ^_^

++Saturday, March 8, 2003, 04:59 p.m.++
so... i'm all recertified for cpr ^_^ and we got to learn how to use an AED, too. not like that was very exciting.. just put the pads on and wait and see if it tells you to press a button. -_-; i was disappointed. but anyway, i got to talk to kelly makaroy, who's going to be guarding with me at the wyo pool this summer. there was another girl there too, a senior at SV, and she's a guard also. the rest of the people there were girls going to nursing school. but yeah, it went pretty fast, even though i was there from 8:20 until 3:50. -_-; 7 1/2 hours of cpr stuff. its craaaaaaaazy. but yeah. besides that, there's not much to talk about. so, i'll stop now. bye!

++Friday, March 7, 2003, 10:01 p.m.++
weeeeeeeeee! new layout! it's haido-san! hehe ^_^ isnt he so adorable??? the lyrics are from "okashi no uta" from card captor sakura. it means "song of sweets." kawaii, ne? so anyway, i'm kinda mad cuz i forgot to archive my entries before i changed the page around, so there's no record of my asuka layout ;_; which is really depressing. danielle's here now, we finished pita ten tonight!! i was almost crying ;_; the end was so sad! well, the part before the end was sad. the actual end was happy.
d: hi!
hehe ^_^ i made her say hi. actually, she didnt actually say hi, it was kind of a yawn. so next time you see danielle, encourage her to sleep.... it will make her very happy ^_^ unless she gets to paranoid to fall asleep.... ::glares at danielle:: but anyway... we watched 2 more eps of ceres, also. it was good. confusing, but good. so that's what we're working on now. and noir. well, i'm gonna go now, bye!