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Wednesday, March 24, 2004 ~ 06:57 p.m.
*sigh*
i am, as danielle described it, in a general state of unrest. i keep thinking that i wish i had more stuff to do, so i think of a whole bunch of things i could be doing, but i'm just not motivated enough to do them.
my hair seems to be turning more orange, which sucks. it'll keep getting lighter, which will eventually be good, because it'll reach something that looks natural, but in the meantime its just going to hang around at this strange not-normal shade. -_-;
i'm surprised. the heat is actually working down here, and i'm exceptionally warm. hmmm... this is a new feeling...
Tuesday, March 23, 2004 ~ 07:35 p.m.
omg, my dad is the best. i came home from my hair appointment (did i mention its red now? temporary, though!!) and there was this printed email on my computer... omg... its hilarious.
SERENE JAPANESE COMPUTER MESSAGES
Here are 16 actual error messages reportedly seen on the computer screens in Japan, where some are written in Haiku. Aren't these better than "your computer has performed an illegal operation"?
~ The Web site you seek cannot be located, but countless more exist.
~ Chaos reigns within. Reflect, repent, reboot. Order shall return.
~ Program aborting: Close all that you have worked on. You ask far too much.
~ Windows NT crashed. I am the Blue Screen of Death. No one hears your screams.
~ Yesterday it worked. Today it is not working. Windows is like that.
~ Your file was so big. It might be very useful. But now it is gone.
~ Stay the patient course. Of little worth is your ire. The network is down.
~ A crash reduces your expensive computer to a simple stone.
~ Three things are certain: Death, taxes, and lost data. Guess which has occurred?
~ You step in the stream, but the water has moved on. This page is not here.
~ Out of memory. We wish to hold the whole sky, but we never will.
~ Having been erased, the document you're seeking must now be retyped.
~ Serious error. All shortcuts have disappeared.
~ Screen... Mind... Both are blank.
i love those XD
so right now i'm waiting for the dough for my country cinnamon buns to rise.. then i can make the inside and roll it up and cut it and put it in pans so i can stick them in the oven tomorrow morning ^_^ yum! can't wait!
Saturday, March 20, 2004 ~ 07:24 p.m.
guster/john mayer concert was awesome XD except for the stupid people in front of us who kept standing.. they were dumb. got 2 shirts and a cd (wearing my guster llama shirt right now)... carrie and danielle slept over, and it was fun ^_^ i missed carrie!
today...... today danielle and i did massive amounts of errands and failed miserably at trying to find a dress. i did buy a shirt, though. its cute. i wanted a dress, though. or at least a skirt. -_- oh well.
omg... danielle and i watched "romeo and juliet" (the one with dicaprio in it) and i was crying at the end ;_; i was in denial of the fact that they both die. stupid romeo.
reuben came over to get danielle, and when we opened the door i looked at it and i was like, "O. M. G." and i just stood there and i was so scared, and they were confused, so i pointed out that someone wrote "DIE" on my door. i was so scared!!! that is, until i came downstairs and told alex and he burst out laughing... wondered why i didnt notice it before... he had written it when they came over for the mafia party. but seriously, i was freaked out. its really scary when someone does that ><
alright, time to clean up the kitchen a bit. bye~! -_^
Thursday, March 18, 2004 ~ 06:49 p.m.
my english essay is now due monday, and i forced myself to work my butt off this afternoon doing calc, so all i have left is the psych journal. thank God. of course, my brain is now fried from trying to do problems that i just dont understand, so yeah.. it was funny, i was trying to talk to my mom when i was in the middle of doing my math..
me: "i'm so exhausted from doing all this calc that it's impend-- um... imp.. ::thinks:: impehhh... im..pairing my ability to think straight."
mom: "...did you do that on purpose?"
me: "::holds face in hands:: not at all. is this over yet?"
it was really depressing.. i seriously could not think of the word "impairing"... >< see what calc does to you?!?!
anyway, i should probably work on my psych journal so i can sleep. i need sleep. i got up this morning and i felt like i got hit by a truck. it sucked.
Tuesday, March 16, 2004 ~ 02:29 p.m.
must hold off new layout until end of month....
i'm going insane with anticipation! ><
i spent the entire afternoon working on a pic for it and making it less scary looking... the girl looked posessed because her eyes were bright teal. ::shudders::
so yeah. we got out early today because it was snowing a lot. apparently, the conditions outside were (in a deep, serious voice) "horrible, at best." (according to our principal)
right.... i'm gonna go play piano for a bit and look at the snow. i thought it had stopped, but i just looked outside again and its precipitating like crazy out there. -_- i want spring. now.
Monday, March 15, 2004 ~ 03:29 p.m.
today was actually pretty amusing. it was mrs. y's bday today, so we had cake for breakfast in english ^_^ we were supposed to finish reading the great gatsby for today, but i COMPLETELY forgot about it @_@ lucky for me, we're having the test tomorrow instead.
i've been so used to slacking off lately.. now i have to read 1/3 of a book tonight, do all my physics, and start my psych journal.. there's so much crap to do at the end of a quarter! (it ends friday) i'm not even going to bother trying to do calc outside of class. it takes way too much time to do one problem, and i havent been getting them right lately x_x so i figure it's better for me to spend my time doing other stuff.
like updating my blog -_- i should really reorganize my list of priorities.
so. john mayer concert friday XD carrie's coming down, too! i'm excited, but not nearly as much as i was when we bought the tickets. ¬_¬ how does that work?
i really like the song "elias" by dispatch.. i've been listening to it a lot more lately, and its very addictive. i kept singing parts of it last night while i was practicing rolling, because i had to move my hips at the same rhythm, and no one knew what i was doing ;_; it was sad. of course, i was amused, so it was worth it.
the laptop is dead again. not like that's news. right now i'm just running a virus scan and then i'm gonna let it rest a while... thats what i did last time and it seemed to fix it. temporarily. actually, i just really like using jason's computer because it has awesome sound *_* i love it.
ahh! i have to remember to order duct tape when my mom gets home! i would make a mental note, but everyone knows how well that works for me.. so i'm hoping that by mentioning it here, someone will remind me sometime tonight. i have to start working on the dress asap, and then i need to find a time when nate and meg can come over so i can work on his stuff and i wont kill it completely. ^_^;
right. time to be productive. or just eat. i'm kinda hungry. hm... i dont think i'm gonna get much done tonight...
Sunday, March 14, 2004 ~ 09:19 p.m.
^_^ today was so fun!! and so was last night. that was a massive mafia party, and it was so fun! XD i love playing with two mafia and a lot of people. it's so much more exciting. and ryan, scott, and jarrod came over too, so it was fun to hang out with them again ^_^ ryan let me wear all his cool stuff, like the wallet chain and his watch and nintendo belt and the like. i didnt wanna give it back (or give him back for that matter. i never see him now that he's at college so far away ;_;) but i eventually had to let go and i was sad. :|
so today. youth sunday (last one! ;_;) and it was pretty amusing. but not as fun as this late afternoon/evening! i spent the time after church rummaging around my house for food and starting to read the Dante Club, and then i went out to dinner with zach to panera (yummy!) since danielle was making-- i mean hanging out with reuben all day (and all the rest of the weekend, for that matter :P)... i had fun ^_^ i miss hanging out with him, so it was nice to be able to talk with him in person a bit, and i got to see his new car, too. of course, its the same kind of car that jason wants to get, so when zach dropped me off later he stopped in and my dad and jason went outside to look at the car for a bit. they were all excited and talking about it, and it was cute ^_^
after that, my dad and i went out to body zone for the kayak/canoe club... rolling sessions in the pool XD it was really fun. i was scared at first, but he helped me with it a lot and i started to get it. hopefully i'll master a roll on my own next weekend. it's the last session, so i'm hoping i'll be successful ^_^;
geeeeeeez, zach is harassing me to finish so he can see his name mentioned on my blog :P way to rush me zach.
Sunday, March 14, 2004 ~ 01:45 p.m.
so.
i dunno. i feel... different, somehow. life has been progressing like normal, but i recently realized that, hey, things have changed. i guess they've just been so gradual that i havent noticed until someone pointed them out to me. and then there's me reverting back to things i did a while ago.. things i felt a while ago.. i dunno. i really have no clue what to make of all this, and i dont really know what to do besides just go along with it all and hope that it all turns out ok in the end. which i'm sure it will.
i hope.
Friday, March 12, 2004 ~ 05:21 p.m.
O@U$)(&!@#%)(*&)(*#Q@&@
i had a really big entry and then i hit the wrong key and now i'm mad.
destinee's was fun.. it was amusing getting to spar with nick :| and it was great because even if he was holding onto me with all his strength, i could get him to let go within 15 seconds. ^_^ so yeah, it was amusing, except the part where duggan told me that mrs. geer wasnt going to be at the pool anymore!! >:O wtf! now i need to find a better job. it's gonna be horrible there now.
kristi and elise and i got together today to do calc, but we failed miserably, even after calling mr. z at home and having him explain stuff to us. -_-; this chapter sucks.
hmm.. food sounds good now.
Thursday, March 11, 2004 ~ 03:55 p.m.
ok, i should be back on the laptop, but i didnt hook it up yet and i dont think i'm going to tonight... i have karate from 7-8-ish and then jason's gonna pick me up and take me to destinee's sometime after that, and i'm spending the night. should be fun ^_^
tomorrow... calc at kristi's... i forgot to bring my book home though ^_^; oops. good thing other people will have one i can hopefully use.. of course, now i dont know where i am in the homework (not far though, ha.) but that should be ok. supposed to watch eva with tab/etc that night, but i dont think we're going to do that anymore.
hanging out with nate saturday, and playing mafia in the evening! XD its gonna be great! i love this weekend..
i need to finish writing the script for the sermon for sunday... i'll work on that tomorrow before the calc session.
so. :| i'm sorry to say that i'm liking livejournal better than pitas. i mean, i love the fact that with pitas you can do sooo much more with design, but eventually i'm going to end up switching completely to lj because it's lower maintenance. and there's a community. i mean, there's a community on pitas, too, its just more... hidden. but anyway. i love pitas because of its individuality, so i'll keep this as long as i can.
Wednesday, March 10, 2004 ~ 03:02 p.m.
so... my dad's computer is weird to use because 1) the moniter is so far away, 2) the mouse is on the wrong side and wont quite reach all the way over, and 3) the keyboard is tilted and half covered.
-_- i should stop complaining and just be thankful that i have a computer to use. ^_^; i just need to wear my glasses because i cant read the stuff on the moniter... x_x i think my eyesight is getting worse..
babysitting at the church tonight from 7-8... kind of a last minute thing. it should be fun though. getting out of the house on a weeknight is nice once in a while.
Tuesday, March 9, 2004 ~ 03:08 p.m.
;_; danielle's all stressed out and i dont know what i can do to help her!! right now i'm just trying not to do or say anything really dumb, because that would just make her more mad... but this sucks. i hate it when she's not happy, and it makes me want to destroy everyone who's not helping her mood. of course, right now, thats pretty much the entire world, so that might take a while and get me in a lot of trouble. better not. ><
steph (my youth leader) came to school today during 2nd period today to meet with us about youth sunday... she also got phil out of school (cuz he goes to exeter)... it was fun and exciting. we got some more stable ideas for the sermon and now it ties in a little better. this should be fun... i just hope that the whole not-having-a-bulletin thing wont throw people off too much ^_^;;
in other news... using jason's computer because dad took the laptop to delaware with him. this keyboard is messing me up.. its so high.. and the keys are so loud and... different! >< ah, i hate this adjustment period. i cant type at all... ::dies:: x_x
there are so many people i've felt the urge to hang out with lately... good thing i have friday off. that'll be another day i can fill with stuff. i just need to talk to everyone and make plans... ah, it'll be awesome if i can see everyone! XD i cant wait!
Monday, March 8, 2004 ~ 09:39 p.m.
Your Existing Situation
Having difficulty in standing up to the demands imposed on her. Finds a great effort is involved and wishes to have the situation eased.
Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and to bridge the gap which she feels separates herself from others. Anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to explore all its possibilities, and to live it to the fullest. She therefore resents any restriction or limitation being imposed on her and insists on being free and unhampered.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Has high emotional demands and is willing to involve herself in a close relationship, but not with any great depth of feeling.
Feels that she is receiving less than her share and that there is no one on who she can rely for sympathy and understanding. Pent-up emotions make her quick to take offense, but she realizes that she has to make the best of things as they are.
Your Desired Objective
Her need to feel more causative and to have a wider sphere of influence makes her restless and she is driven by her desires and hopes. May try to spread her activities over too wide a field.
Your Actual Problem
Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations.
Your Actual Problem #2
The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.
the color quiz
Monday, March 8, 2004 ~ 03:19 p.m.
yesterday was very amusing. went to church to plan for youth sunday, ended up not actually going to the service... i went home to work on the sermon instead. it was really funny, because my mom and aunt were leaving and she was like, "hey jenny, do you wanna go shopping with us??" me: "no, i'm reading the Bible." mom: "oooooooooooook..........." ^_^;
that afternoon i went on a bike ride with elise around the trails and through the highlands and such. it was fun, and so beautiful outside ^_^ i cant wait for it to get warm again!!!
put together some random stuff for dinner and hung out with my mom and destinee (ha! you got mentioned! dont complain now!) until nate came over. we ate the caramel delites that had been taunting me for the past week or so, and then he beat me in chess in 4 moves. ::shakes fist:: i'll beat you some day!! although.. considering my chronic disorder of forgetting that pawns can capture, probably not.
ugh. i've been slacking off way too much in calc lately x_x i havent even bothered to try more than 3 disc method or shell method problems..... probably because i always screw them up anyway >< this chapter is killing me.
Sunday, March 7, 2004 ~ 04:39 p.m.
Which Elemental Goddess are you?
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Saturday, March 6, 2004 ~ 11:13 p.m.
heehee! ^_^ mafia was fun!! i would have lots of moments on here... but i dont remember exactly how they went. it was really fun though. we decided that instead of ordering, we would just drive down to Jade Garden and eat there, so i wrote a note on the menu danielle and i stole earlier today and taped it to the front door. so we came back.. and then taberis showed up... i have no idea what happened to meg... i hope she didnt die or something..
but yeah, it was fun. we had a few different versions... mad scientists.. freak soccer accidents.. biological warfare.. gotham city... yeah. good times -_^ we had a really scary cd that danielle bought today (collection of scary movie themes) and it was fun when it was all dark and songs from psycho were playing in the background... ^_^ ahh, i cant wait for the next time! i hope we have more people... it'll last longer and we can have more real roles..
i should probably sleep.
meh.
Friday, March 5, 2004 ~ 03:17 p.m.
From Jung on Christianity:
"The French could just as easily, and with just as little success, importune Charlemagne to inflict a great defeat on the wretched Germans and liberate Alsace-Lorraine."
"... we are already seeing signs that eventually we will be driven to employ Salvation Army techniques, encumber religious services with all sorts of tricky devices, decorate churches inside and out with pretty frippery, install baptismal fonts and communion tables which rotate to the sound of music and come equipped with periodic changes of scenery, and set up, at appropriate spots, automatic sermon-machines which simultaneously function as altars and which, upon the insertion of a dime, will reel out a sermon no more than ten minutes long on any topic desired-- all simply in order to ward off, with this din, the deadly boredom that is quietly but surely taking over religious life."
so there's that, and some footnotes that take up a half a page of text, and the random greek text and untranslated latin phrases... its a fun book. very interesting. he makes good points with a lot of resources to back up the theories he talks about. that's probably why i like him so much. i dont know why... i've always gravitated toward jung... if he was alive today, i'd probably seek him out and force him to teach me or something. ^_^; so yeah. good book.
fun stuff this weekend... i'm excited. life is great.
Thursday, March 4, 2004 ~ 08:26 p.m.
ok, i'm obsessed with this guy... his name is yo-yo ma and he's a 14-time grammy award winnig cellist! XD i'm listening to his cd right now, and it's so good!! i was blasting it on the way home from promotions tonight.... and i had my windows open... and the few people out walking gave me really weird looks when they heard it coming from my car... ^_^ it was fun!
ahh, i'm in such a good mood! good music does that to ya... ^____^ mmm... a bubble bath would go so nicely with this mood...
^_^ ~glee!
Tuesday, March 2, 2004 ~ 04:00 p.m.
so i'm thinking duct tape for prom... i need some design ideas though because meg wants to order tape on friday... and i need to coerce a guy into coming with me... hm... i should get on that.
i just realized that whenever my mom comes home, i'm on the computer. she probably thinks that i'm on here all the time.. but i'm really not! i swear! its just that after i take my snack/reading break and play piano... its time for the computer... and thats usually around 3:30 or 4... and thats when my mom gets home... >< oh well. its not like my grades are suffering or anything, so there's no reason for them to be mad that i'm on the computer.
think i'm gonna make a cd of dispatch and jack johnson songs... i like listening to that kinda stuff around this time of year.
Monday, March 1, 2004 ~ 04:00 p.m.
so not much to do today... i like this nice break from homework. i wont have any psych to do for a while because the module outline i did last night was 4 pages long. that'll take us a while to cover in class unless mr. u goes insane. wednesday is the junior class trip to nyc, so i'll have a study hall or something in most of my classes. well, physics and psych, at least.. no 2nd half of the day for me!! ^_^ english we're doing presentations all week.. thats not hard.. do i have any other classes? oh.. econ.. ha.
meg told me today that she'll be off the next few fridays, so we might be able to put together a mafia party.. >:} i love mafia.
after our lab today, john and i were talking and he looked at my bookbag, and he was like, "is that...." me: "kenshin? yes." john: "as in rurouni kenshin?" me: "YES!!!" it was fun ^_^ so we talked about it for a bit, and i was ranting about the time i was watching it on cartoon network, and someone had just gotton wounded and yahiko looked at his hand in fear and disgust, and it cut to his hand, and-- it was perfectly clean. -_- i was like, "d00d! what happened to the blood?" proof that even adult swim cant leave the good stuff uncut. anyway, that was a fun and exciting part of my day.
i wanna do stuff this weekend!! and i might actually have a car..
something's wrong with my stomach. i just finished a bowl of spaghetti and meatballs 20 minutes ago, and now it's doing that hunger-pang thing again. ::hits stomach:: baka mono.
Sunday, February 29, 2004 ~ 08:59 p.m.
saw "the passion" this afternoon... had a discussion afterwards over dinner...
i dont know. i dont think i liked it. i think it was because i went in there with such big expectations over the emotional impact it would have, and then i was like, "..." i just didnt feel it. some parts were good, but at the end, i just felt so apathetic. from an intellectual standpoint, it was good, and it was cool in the fact that there were lots of little things that most people dont catch but have signifigance...
so that's my take on it. i dont really have an opinion. i didnt really feel anything. i dont know how to comment on it or review it... i'm just sitting here feeling that there's so much more.
Saturday, February 28, 2004 ~ 04:06 p.m.
XD famine was so fun!!! i'm happy that i can eat now.. although i've noticed that my urge to eat isnt as great this afternoon... i think i killed my stomach with the break-the-fast feast. ^_^;; oops.
so yeah. definitely awesome. too bad next year at this time i'll be in college ;_; that'll suck.
other than that... nothing else. its a beautiful day today, and i feel so energized ^_^ i wanna go out and do something! maybe i'll just read in the backyard a bit. hmm..... yeah, sounds good. call if you need me.
Friday, February 27, 2004 ~ 03:23 p.m.
so i'm ok right now. physics was hard because my stomach kept growling and i was just like "SHUT UP AND LET ME FIGURE OUT THIS PROBLEM!" but i got some water and pretended it was food, so my stomach stopped yelling at me...
apparently people are more willing to give me a dollar for a hug than to feed a starving child for a day. ¬_¬ is it just me, or is something strange there?
leaving for community in an hour or so... i'll be back tomorrow afternoon 2-ish.
Thursday, February 26, 2004 ~ 08:19 p.m.
so tomorrow at 7 AM i start famine-ing. lucky me! i bet people are gonna taunt me at lunch.. oh well. i need to get some sponsors, though.. hmm.... at least i get to wear my famine t-shirt XD
funny story about that... talking to jill online this afternoon, and we decided that we needed to get our t-shirts. so i picked her up and we drove over to the church, assuming that it would be locked and we wouldnt be able to get in, but trying anyway.
so we get there, and there are NO cars outside. but we go up anyway, and we get in because there's little-kid-choir practice. then we go upstairs to the dark hallway that holds steph's office... we both figured it was locked, because it always is, but just for kicks and giggles, i tried the knob. and it turned. *gasp!* what luck! we thought we wouldnt even get in the church, and here we got into steph's office, too! we take our shirts (and i take some chocolate... yum..) and leave steph a note explaining that we broke in and stole 2 shirts from her, and leave with our treasures ^_^
i thought that was pretty amusing. its wonderful how sometimes things turn out completely opposite of how you expect them to be...
psych test tomorrow... 8th period... after no lunch. x_x i'm gonna die.
Wednesday, February 25, 2004 ~ 09:15 p.m.
ok, i've been thinking... (i know, i know, i update way too much, but i really dont feel like sleeping yet and i have nothing else to do)
so i was thinking that the site that taberis sent me when i was looking for a small silver cross is DEAD. i keep spamming them with emails and i havent gotton one back... so guess who's job it is to make things right? yep, its all you, tab.
and i still dont have a small silver cross. -_- i should just break down and go to a real store... but then i'll probably have to pay more. :- but wait! if i file my taxes soon, i should get money back, and i can buy one then! XD
needless to say, my taxes arent getting done tonight. maybe tomorrow. or not.
Wednesday, February 25, 2004 ~ 07:12 p.m.
ooh, first entry on a new layout... exciting!
of course, i did it again. i had a good post this afternoon, and now i archived my entries... you'd think that i'd remember to save my post for later if i was making a new layout, but i never do. oh well. if you're really that interested, you can go to the archives. they're at the bottom of the sidebar thingie.
so in case you're blind, this layout is pink. a little bit more cheerful, i think. i also think that danielle used this pic for a layout before, but i dont remember. i kept wanting to break out the old layouts that i havent used in forever, but... that seems like cheating. i love the one of hyde eating, though ;_;
anyway. must do taxes tonight or i probably won't get them done. ever. ^_^;;;
my mom was talking to me while we were deciding what to make for dinner, and she was like, "so, can you stay home saturday night?" (me: "ok") (because they're going out with friends. -_- my parents go out more than i do!!) so now i have 30 hour famine this weekend (that takes up my friday night) and i have to stay home on saturday (anyone wanna join me?) and my mom is making my dad and i do housework...
the weekend after this one, apparently, my parents are going to virginia. they're leaving thursday night, so they wont see my promotion ceremony. not like its a big deal. my aunt's coming down that day to stay with me while they're gone so i dont have to take care of oma by myself and it wont be so scary at night. i hate being home alone. kowai ><