...Saturday, January 17, 2004
happy birthday, zachy-chan! ^_^
i had a really good entry, but then IE froze.
but the point is, i actually cleaned my room. it looks nice now. its actually coordinated! (i moved around some pillows.) and i set up the fountain my dad made me. and i fixed the splashy-part. ^___^ i'm so proud of me! i went downstairs, and my cousin was like, "where have you been the last 3 hours?" and i was like, "i...... uh..... cleaned my room...." and everyone was like, "OMGOMGOMGOGM!!! ::runs upstairs to see if it's true::" -_-; i guess that means that i dont clean my room enough....
04:25 p.m.
...Thursday, January 15, 2004
lmao. we have another 2 hour delay tomorrow. making it even MORE worthless to be there.
found the inspiration i was looking for for a new layout ^_^ so i'll start working on that now.
08:27 p.m.
...Tuesday, January 13, 2004
this blog is so pretty. and i'm obsessed with that song.
05:56 p.m.
...Tuesday, January 13, 2004
=_= sleep is addictive. i was trying to read my phsyics book today, but i got bored, so i was just like, "hm... naps are nice..." and i laid down on my bed and fell asleep. i woke up about 1 1/2 hours later, and i tried to start studying again....... but now.... i'm so tired.... i can barely keep my eyes open. >< it sucks. i read all of my physics stuff, but now i need to look over my articles for government.
i think i'll go to bed reeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaally early tonight. like maybe around 8:30. yep. that sounds good.
04:17 p.m.
...Tuesday, January 13, 2004
GR. maybe, before bitching me out about something, my dad should try THINKING. or maybe actually listening to what i'm telling him.
i'm going to go construct a death-barricade outside of my room and around the computer.
gr.
12:33 p.m.
...Sunday, January 11, 2004
just got home about 10 minutes ago... stayin' out late on a school night, i know, its not like me! of course, i was at church...
we watched "bowling for columbine." it was really good. definitely recommend it.
mm.... today has definitely been thought-provoking. now i'm going to research unitarianism.
09:56 p.m.
...Friday, January 9, 2004
woooooh, i realized today how much i've been slacking off in the music department. tried to remember how to play "b.t."..... i had to break out the sheet music >< it was bad. reeeaaaal bad. but now that i've reaquainted myself with the piano, i can work on some guitar. gotta find a good song to learn that will keep me occupied for a while. any suggestions?
got hit on in study hall. also completely ignored jason trying to talk to me because i was too busy tuning everyone out and working on my crim midterm. oops ^_^;; it was funny though, because he kept talking louder, and i was just like, "geez, he's being so annoying! why does he have to talk so loud?!" but i didnt pay attention to what he was saying and the fact that he was trying to get my attention. heh. oh well. eventually he realized the talking-loud thing wasnt working and just came over and stood right in front of me. i guess it's just a habit i've developed after eating lunch with taberis all the time. tuning everyone out is the only way i can keep my sanity....
going out for wings tonight ^___^ should be very yummy.
05:22 p.m.
...Wednesday, January 7, 2004
oooooooooooooooomg. angels and demons is SO GOOD. its so cool how dan brown incorporates all these real things into a fictional plotline... it just makes it seem so much more real. it makes you want to believe it.... and really, the illuminati is a really cool idea. i think it was better back at the beginning though, the way brown describes it. XD everyone has to read this! (and the davinci code, too, if you havent already.)
03:39 p.m.
...Monday, January 5, 2004
so, feeling kinda better today. not really though. i'm home (obviously, if you look at the time of my post)... and i finished whispers this morning (and jane eyre last night!), so i think i'll work on angels and demons for the remainder of the day while i finish off the chicken noodle soup.
couldnt sleep much last night. tried to go to bed at 9, but i just laid there thinking and hurting. zach called at about 9:45, and i felt better after talking to him for a few minutes. at least enought to let myself fall asleep.
kept getting woken up this morning by my parents coming in to check on me though. not like it was a bad thing... my mom came in to see if i was going to school (no), my dad came in to take my temperature (fine) and give me some pain killers (much needed), and then he left me alone until i was awake enough to drink some tea.
so now i'm kneeling on the floor in front of my computer. -_-; see, the cat took my chair... and she's sleeping... and she just so... cute~! *_* i mean.. she rarely stays in the same room as me. i dont wanna ruin this. >< however, it is kinda uncomfortable...
10:50 a.m.
...Sunday, January 4, 2004
You are water. You're not really organic; you're
neither acidic nor basic, yet you're an acid
and a base at the same time. You're strong
willed and opinionated, but relaxed and ready
to flow. So while you often seem worthless,
without you, everything would just not work.
People should definitely drink more of you
every day.
Which Biological Molecule Are You?
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06:19 p.m.
...Sunday, January 4, 2004
ok. ::takes a deep breath::
i am very disappointed in some people right now. i mean, these are people who i consider to be some of my best friends. people i cared about and looked up to. people who i thought were smart enough to make good decisions. apparently i was wrong.
so now, not only do i feel like crap phsyically, i also feel like crap emotionally.
thanks guys.
12:30 p.m.
...Saturday, January 3, 2004
'kay guys, check your profiles. if you have something in there that you didnt put in, you have a problem. anyway... click here and it'll give you instructions to get rid of it. you're welcome. ^_^
07:27 p.m.
...Saturday, January 3, 2004
i passed my driver's test!
11:36 a.m.
...Saturday, January 3, 2004
A - Act your age? occassionally....
B - Boyfriend? ha!
C - Chore you hate? anything that i'm asked to do after i just did it and someone messes it up again.
D - Dad's name? Robert
E - Essential makeup item? uhhh.... chapstick?
F - Favorite actress? ::shrugs::
G - Gold or silver? mmm... both. but not together.
H - Hometown? wyo
I - Instruments you play? piano... guitar... and one of these days i'll find bass music thats actually worth learning.
J - Job title? during the school year, student. during the summer, PT lifeguard.
K - Kids? i have a few i keep under the bridge in reading
L - Living arrangements? in my room in a house with my mom, dad, oma, and supposedly my brother, even though he's never here.
M - Mom's name? Doris
N - Number of people you've kissed? um..... 6, i think.
O - Overnight hospital stays? none
P - Phobia? zombies. even though they dont exist, i cant stand thinking about them. THANKS.
Q - Quote you like? i like jill's.... ("I wanna be the girl he looks at, then turns to his friends and smiles saying 'that's her.'") but there are so many other good quotes, especially from songs >< augh! i cant decide!
R - Religious affiliation? UCC ^__^
S - Siblings? brother, jason, 20
T - Time you wake up? for school, 6:15. on the weekends, anywhere from 8 to 12 depending on where i am and when i go to sleep.
U - Unique habit? my uncanny ability to only enter relationships that will hurt me....
V- Vegetable you refuse to eat? brussel sprouts.
W - Worst habit? see U.
X - X-rays you've had? i had to get one when i fell off the top of the big slide when i was little.... i think i hit my head on a rock. ^_^;
Y - Yummy food you make? cake! XD
Z - Zodiac sign? Leo >^..^< ~roar
09:48 a.m.
...Friday, January 2, 2004
::takes a deep breath::
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH--
::takes a quick breath::
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that felt good. ^___^
10:18 p.m.
...Friday, January 2, 2004
been using jason's computer.... it has dead aim, which is cool, and if i get bored i can watch a movie (i finally saw the end of the green mile last night..).. although his adware is really annoying.
so i think my mom and i are going shopping today. we're gonna pick up a new dvd player, and hopefully i can convince her to buy some more dvds to go along with it >:}
aaaaaaaaaaaaand.. let's see.... i tried making a new layout this morning, but i couldnt find an image hosting site that actually works (curse you, village photos!), and i was just going to upload whatever i needed onto zach's server.. but i forgot that i had the password and all that saved on my other computer, not either one of these, so that foiled my backup plan. then i just got too lazy.
now i'm trying to figure out if i actually want to eat real food today. so far i've been feeding off of the remains of the apple gummy candies (so yummy.. : 9) and the chocolate covered cranberries. i could go upstairs and make lunch... but i'm not sure if we have real food.
crap >< that just gave me a craving for mac & cheese, but we dont have any normal cheese! geez. i always get cravings for food that i should have, but dont. i swear, i'm subconsciously trying to hurt myself. just setting myself up for disappointment in another area of life..
02:34 p.m.
...Wednesday, December 31, 2003
well, i got a webcam yesterday (and a new mouse and a lot of chocolate), but it's not working. at least not for anyone else. i can view everything perfectly fine. ^_^; zach said he'd come over later today to set everything up for me ^.^ i love having friends who are good at stuff like this.
09:39 a.m.
...Monday, December 29, 2003
so, "to heart" was so good!! i was going insane at the end, with all the suspense. that and i was really hyper. ahh, then there's the flower cart....
(yuji is shown driving the little flower cart)
Meg: "Ah, my fantasy!"
good times... yeah. it was so good XD and now i'm all giddy. i just wish that something good would have happened to toko's one friend.. he was so nice and supportive! but yeah, i still would have liked to see kaori with a black eye. *seethes*
so um............ slept over at danielle's last night, played lots of perfect dark today @_@ i realized when we were eating lunch that my hand was all cramped up from pressing buttons on the controller for so many hours. and we still didnt save the alien! all that work for nothing ;_;
dentist tomorrow X_X
10:18 p.m.
...Saturday, December 27, 2003
finished reading feed today. read almost the whole thing in one sitting. it was really good! at first i was like, "wow, this is annoying." then it changed to "omg, these people are so STUPID." and i got so angry! and then i started crying, and i was like, "this book is really good."
so yeah. one down, 50 million to go. ahh, good stuff.
03:07 p.m.
...Friday, December 26, 2003
omg... i was looking to see if i could download any new gackt songs, and i found this one... "hoshi no suna".. its so sad, and *gasp!* it fits so perfectly into "moon child"! i mean, really. here's the translation:
Amid a stillness profound as death... enshrouded in the sky and the sun that burns the flesh, you
are vanishing as you go.
What is it that I seek amid this wandering? What for myself, all alone--
Even if you despise yourself from within the depths of frigid eyes still clutching at the hatred,
the pain will not, cannot be stifled.
Embracing that eternally living sorrow,
I cannot help still remembering that vanished person whom once you were,
and my unwavering, unchangeable feelings toward you:
So deeply, so very deeply, even now...
yes... I love you still.
Illumined by the moonlight, even the feel of your name, hummed beneath my breath, is snatched away and extinguished by the wind.
I kept singing that song for you, the one you taught me as you smiled at the dawn;
and I kept on counting the tears that returned to the starry sky;
again and again and yet again, the nights merely repeated themselves--
ah, so deeply, so very deeply, even now...
yes... I love you still.
ok. really. i think it fits best coming from kei's point of view over his friend who decided to die... but sun that burns the flesh? eternally living sorrow inside of because of the need to feed off of other people? the song? and its so sad... ;_; i can just imagine kei standing there while this song is playing.... ;_;
anyway, i wanna try to play it, but my parents are in bed -_O i hate that! whenever i find a really good song i wanna play on piano, its always after they go to bed. i mean, guitar songs arent bad because i can play softly and they wont be able to hear unless i'm on that floor.. but the piano is very loud. maybe i'll go down and try the keyboard if i feel like it. but then i still have the problem of getting this song down there. *sigh* why does this ALWAYS HAPPEN?!
10:52 p.m.
...Friday, December 26, 2003
well, so far, this vacation has kinda sucked. i mean, really. i should be taking advantage of the no-school thing and going out and doing stuff every day and hanging out with my friends every night... and well, danielle and reuben came over yesterday... but still. its just been so normal and mediocre.
i woke up at 10:45 today and babysat addi from 1 until 9. (i had a break in between when my mom was home where i took a shower and actually changed out of my PJs..) i mean, it was amusing, because she's just so adorable.. but its a lot more fun if there's someone there with you to talk to. i got so bored that i applied the laws of classical conditioning to teach her how to fetch her toys. of course, it was incredibly easy. i got bored pretty quickly. eventually i just took the laptop up to the kitchen and played adom while she chewed apart one of her toys.
so now i'm just kinda sitting around doing nothing. i have a feeling this is going to be happening a lot. -_-;
10:05 p.m.
...Friday, December 26, 2003
*sigh*
12:20 a.m.
...Thursday, December 25, 2003
ha... just got back from church. had to sing the first verse of "oh holy night" for a solo... and i forgot the words halfway through. >< i was just like, "AH!!! ::frantically looks around::" but then mrs. luyben mouthed the words quickly enough for me to remember and get back on track before anyone noticed ^_^; i was surprised that my voice didnt spaz out at me... (although my stomach did later, haha... -_-;) i hadnt warmed up at all that night, hadnt sung (real songs) at all within the past month, aaand i hadnt sung that particular song for over a year before today. so yeah. then, surprise! we had to sing the halleluia chorus along with our other anthem! so yeah.... that was fun though ^_^ forgot i could reach those high A's...
so, someone closed my away message! ::spazzes:: i hate it when i specifically tell someone not to do something, and that if they do, they should tell me right away so i can fix it... and they do it, but DONT TELL ME. so i came home and there were all these IMs from people.. happy at first, but then complaining because i wasnt responding. -_-; oh well. its christmas. i cant be mad ^_^
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
12:31 a.m.
...Wednesday, December 24, 2003
^_____^ i'm at danielle's! we watched "to heart" last night and ate chinese food with meg. right now the piano tuning guy is over and he's playing, and danielle's just like, "*_* this is so cool!" anyway, we gotta go. bye!
10:44 a.m.
...Tuesday, December 23, 2003
so... zach's page hasnt been working for me lately, which makes me sad :(
on the other hand, josh has been updating regularly, and christmas is soon, and i'm watching "to heart" tonight, so i think the happiness outweighs it.
um... not much else to say. very tired. dont think i'll be able to do a noir marathon tonight. =_=
05:12 p.m.
...Sunday, December 21, 2003
waiiiii~~! i watched "moon child" today! it was SO GOOD! i mean, yeah, a bit of a strange plot.. and it was hard to take gackt seriously when he looked so pretty... but it was so good... i was crying at the end... ;_; anyway. good movie. just wanted to mention that.
10:14 p.m.
...Sunday, December 21, 2003
so.. this morning i was all like, "......." i almost just stayed home and laid in bed the whole time.. but then i went to church instead, where i continued to be like, "......." and just kinda sat in a corner (what the hell is all this beeping i'm hearing?!) by myself and acted very introverted. there was a baptism today... ryan ashley. and then the kids did their xmas play. it was cute. after the service i had agape... only the second time we've rehearsed the song that we're singing on xmas eve, but thats ok.. then she gave us the option of singing another song (that we havent ever heard or seen before, i might add) with the chancel choir... i might do that. she also hasnt gone over the "oh holy night" solos with andrew and lauren and me yet... i mean, not like its hard, but i'd like to know what part i have to sing for the chorus... i guess i'll find that out on christmas eve then.
i got in the car to come home, and my dad just started talking about the bird, being like, "oh, he'll be happy there, with all these people around to play with him and with other birds. blah blah blah blah its not a big deal blah blah blah.." and i was just like, "thats nice. ::changes the subject::" but he KEPT TALKING ABOUT IT. and i was just thinking, "look, i know you're trying to help, but bringing it up and not letting me think about anything else isnt going to make me feel any better. now get the point and lets MOVE ON."
and now i'm just in a bad (but not really mad) mood.. my mom keeps wanting to hear about what i did last night and what i wanna do over break and stuff... and all i'm doing is giving her one word answers in the tone of voice that screams "leave me alone!" and i can see that she's hurt by it... but i cant help it. i feel like if i do start talking, i'm just gonna go insane and start crying and yelling at people and all that crap, which i havent done in a really long time... and i really dont want to. :- this sucks. why cant i just be happy like i normally am... be optimistic about everything... even though i keep trying to tell myself that everything's fine and everything's good and everything will turn out ok... it just sounds so stupid, and i cant seem to make myself listen.
in other news... i have these bruises on my arms... they look like 3-day-old hickeys (not that bad, but still pretty conspicuous). -_-; i think they're from doing self-defense at karate, although i dont understand why i just noticed them this morning and why the one on my right wrist hasnt hurt until today. ::shrugs:: oh well. not a biggie.
gotta call the lady about the bird and clean all his stuff up.
12:34 p.m.
...Saturday, December 20, 2003
^_^ today was our xmas party. it was fun ^.^
and i still dont have anything for my youth council xmas party tomorrow ><
11:10 p.m.
...Friday, December 19, 2003
got bored... started playing around with my tarot cards for the first time in a while. it was pretty cool.. i didnt have very much bad stuff. everyone i did it for had a favorable summary card, even if their distant future card showed some trouble. ::nods:: i did one for jason and destinee... it was pretty cool, because it was all like, "recent engagement! perfection! happiness! lovers! marriage!" and all that kinda stuff ^_^ which was cool. there was only one negative card in the entire thing, and that was distant future... it was just a warning for bad advice.. but they had so many good cards (sun, star, lovers, ace of cups, etc.) that it wasnt even that significant. and their environment was all supportive, and the inner emotions card was all like, "yay! happy!" and it was so cool! XD and the one i did for me was so weird.. it didnt have like, really good cards, but it didnt have any bad ones... except for the whole i'm-surrounded-by-deceit thing... and it sure got it right that my inner emotions were indifferent ^_^;; these are so amusing. i wanna do more, but i ran out of people to do them for.... at least the ones i thought would be interesting. did one for danielle and reuben, and one for zach, too. (if you guys wanna know what it said, ask me.. i'm not gonna post it up here ^_^;)
um... man! XD i wanna play with them more!
07:18 p.m.
...Friday, December 19, 2003
so i called tracey today (someone who works with my mom) and she said that she would be able to take sunny on monday, or sunday if i found time when i was free. yes, that's right. no more bird. i've finally found a good home for him.. its not like i dont want him anymore, its just that i dont have enough time to take care of him like i should. and i know that he deserves better than what i can give him right now ;_;
um, in other news, i'll be having an insane, party-filled weekend, so i probably wont be posting. so no, i havent died. i just actually have a life now. *gasp!* um... i think that's it. nothing else exciting to talk about right now. bye!
03:31 p.m.
...Thursday, December 18, 2003
ah, there. image fixed-ish. i can actually stand it now! *gasp!*
seems like everyone is having a sucky day except for me. i feel kinda bad about that. i mean... why cant i make it better? ;_; maaan, i hate it when my friends arent happy.
in other news... i got to read jane eyre while addi was sleeping on my lap ^_^ its so cute! she would just kind put her paws on my leg and look at me until i lifted her up, and she would just curl up and go to sleep and keep me all nice and warm ^_____^ maybe thats why i'm in such a good mood.....
08:45 p.m.
...Thursday, December 18, 2003
ah, just got done making a new layout for josh's blog. i'm happy with it.... actually, i like it better than mine. :- ohhhhhh well. i'd like it better if it was darker. probably made it too light because the brightness was turned down so much on my other computer.... ¬_¬ hahaha....
um.... lets see... whats new... been listening to dashboard every morning because i realized that i can burn cds on windows media player.. ^_^; took me long enough.
i'm babysitting addi tonight!! XD they'll get here soon. i cant wait! they just have to get back before 7, because i have to go to karate. of course, i could just take her with... that'd be so fun!!! but knowing my luck, she'd probably make a mess on the mats ><
::sings:: look at this stuff, isnt it neat? wouldnt you think my collection's complete? wouldnt you think i'm a girl, a girl who has everything?
*cough* of course i'm not listening to disney songs. why would a 17 year old girl be doing something like that?! really!
soo... ADDI'S HERE!
05:34 p.m.
...Wednesday, December 17, 2003
well, we'll start of with another quizlet ^_^
Which flock do you follow?
this quiz was made by alanna
so... i FINALLY found the mp3 of "Life" (the opening theme for "To Heart") yesterday! XD it distracted me from my government homework... and for those of you who really wanna hear the song that doesnt quite make sense and is really dumb but insanely cool at the same time, click
here and you can download it. ^_^
right. so.. i need to read now. i have a test on
jane eyre tomorrow... so i guess i should stop listening to "can you feel the love tonight" in french, then.. its a bit distracting.
oh... "inaudible melodies" (by jack johnson) is a really good song.
03:47 p.m.
...Tuesday, December 16, 2003
@_@ geez, danielle. so many quizlets! i dont really agree with all of these.. but i'm too lazy to do anything but copy and paste exactly what i got.
What Anime Legend Are You?
What Anime Mech Are You?
What Anime Type Are You?
What Anime Stereotype Are You?
What Magical Girl Are You?
What Shoujo Mascot Are You?
03:09 p.m.
...Monday, December 15, 2003
ah, i hate it when people are mad and there's nothing i can do ><
09:54 p.m.
...Monday, December 15, 2003
You are a fencer.
You fight honerably, you try not to kill your
oponents, but only disarm them, to force them
to surrender. Once in a duel, you will go all
out, and kill your oponent. You use a rapier.
What type of Swordsman are you?
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fencing rocks.
07:39 a.m.
...Monday, December 15, 2003
bah! we have a 2-hour delay! i even got up early to listen to the radio, and they didnt say anything about bad weather... so i got up and took a shower, and i came downstairs to get tissues and my dad was like, "you have a 2-hour delay..." and i was just like, "WTF! I'M ALREADY AWAKE!"
so you'd think that i would be smart and use this extra time to do the homework that i didnt get done last night... but no. i'm slaving away on the computer trying to hook up my printer. -_-;
ah, today sucks and i havent even been up for an hour!
07:20 a.m.
...Saturday, December 13, 2003
^_^ danielle and i went shopping tonigt, and it was so fun! we got almost all of our xmas presents taken care of (she still needs stuff for her aunts, i need something for my dad), and we got stuff for ourselves, too. we were gonna go see timeline, but then it wasnt at the wyomissing theater and it was too late to go anywhere else... so we were gonna see the last samurai, but then we thought that certain people might not like the fact that we did that... we ended up going to target, the grocery store, and ulta, and then we headed back to danielle's to wrap a few presents and watch 2 episodes of "to heart" (a jdrama). its really good, but kinda scary. the girl is such a stalker.
but anyway. i'm gonna go sleep and hope that i'm not still dying in the morning x_x
11:15 p.m.
...Saturday, December 13, 2003
>:} i FINALLY got my computer working. right now i'm on the laptop because i'm installing windows xp on it... but... it seems like it just got an error. greeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaat.... ok, it ALMOST worked. -_-; at least it starts up now.
anyway, i found a really good recipe for coffee cake (i offered to make it for my mom's party tonight), and after i modified it a bit, it came out very yummy ^_^ of course, the first batch isnt nearly as good as the second one... i adjusted the ingredients and topping a little bit, and now it looks nicer. it should stay moist longer, too. i'm happy ^_^ maybe i'll make it for english one day this week.
OH CRAP. wtf does my computer think it's doing?! do i have to reformat the hard drive AGAIN?! i swear, this is the most times i have ever had to reformat a hard drive before.. i'm probably doing something wrong. i have to be, because there is absolutely no reason for this machine's behavior. ugh. -_-; i guess i'll let it rest a bit. i should have just been happy with windows 98 and let xp go for a while... too much for it, i guess.
wow, its really quiet without the buzzing of the computer o_O and i broke out the escaflowne cds, so in the background i have these chanting men singing "eeeeeescaaaaflooowneeeeee"... its really weird. not something i've heard recently.
anyway... i guess i'll go... oh! do laundry! i really need to. i dont have any clothes left ^_^;;
01:59 p.m.
...Friday, December 12, 2003
::spazzes:: i mention one thing about maybe reformatting the hard drive eventually, and my computer decides to revolt my making that the only thing i can possibly do, and then refusing to install windows correctly, whether it is 98 or xp. so.. right now i'm reformatting it for, what, the 8th or 9th time tonight? yeah, that sounds about right. maybe it will actually install CORRECTLY this time and not be all like, "::whines:: i'm really old so i cant comprehend any of this information on the disc!" gr... i really hope this works. i dont like jasons computer as much... and i really did want to get windows xp on there. *sigh*
in other news, in between hitting keys and smashing my computer, i helped put up lots of xmas decorations (including the tree) and we also roasted marshmallows and ate chinese food. i have a feeling that i'll be finishing it up tomorrow for lunch. or breakfast, ya know. that works too. although it might be too early because i wanted to eat before i chop off all my hair at 8:30. ^_^ yay. less hair.
anyway, my computer will be demanding a response soon. bye!
10:01 p.m.
...Thursday, December 11, 2003
KAWAII YO~~!!!! jason and destinee brought over their little puppy, addi, for the afternoon. she's soooooo adorable. i only put up the 5 best pics. anyway, click here to see her!!!
05:12 p.m.
...Tuesday, December 9, 2003
What color are you? (Anime Pictures)
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04:42 p.m.
...Monday, December 8, 2003
^_^ i got a really good email from reuben today. it was exactly what i needed to hear. go reuben! you win!
other than that... nothing really exciting has happened... although i did discover that i have this tendency to leave places 10 minutes before the event is actually over.
i have lots of random stuff to do today. the only thing i have to do for school is outline the next module for psych... but i have a long list of other stuff that needs to get done. so i should probably do that. eventually.
but for now... the foccaccia bread calls to me...
03:41 p.m.
...Sunday, December 7, 2003
i'm SO COLD. and when i came home, i found that my computer had been restarted......... i was expecting a message from someone, and now i dont know if i got it! >:O this is so not cool. and everyone's saying that they didnt go near it. but really, if all i have up is AIM, and the power didnt go out, why would it just randomly decide to restart itself?! ah, and my feet hurt ><
i think i'm gonna watch pirates of the carribean with my mom tonight. i have nothing else to do....
05:16 p.m.
...Saturday, December 6, 2003
finished firesong this morning... just woke up and started reading ^_^ it was really good.
right now i'm supposed to be clearing things off of the top of my computer desk so my parents can take the stuff off. problem: i NEED it. she's trying to convince me that i "dont need 90% of all that junk," but really. i DO. i just organized everything, cleaned it all out, and i still have a lot of stuff. it is NOT going to fit. especially with the lack of storage space around this desk. the bookcases really are necessary. i dont get why we have to change it. its worked perfectly fine all these years we've had it. gr.
and it DOESNT HELP the fact that every time i try to do something, i get interrupted every second. "jenny, come here!" (me: ::stops everything, walks over::) "oh, thats alright, we got it." (::walks back, gets back into cleaning::) "jenny, i need your help!" (::stops cleaning, walks over::) "just kidding!" (::explodes::) geez, i'm seriously just going to not get up anymore. its really annoying.
on the bright side, i reorganized the bottom half of the pantry this morning.... my section now takes up almost half of a shelf! it started out as a small basket, and it just keeps growing.... hey, its not my fault that my marshmallows and pretzels dont fit! haha! ^_^ i also took some other stuff that no one else eats anyway.
speaking of which, i'm hungry. i hope my parents actually finish the fireplace today. right now it looks really bad because its part good brick, part old brick, and part in-between brick. -_-;
so....... i'm gonna go do stuff now. bye!
02:02 p.m.
...Friday, December 5, 2003
so i just got done with LOTR 2... extended version. i started watching it around 4:30 because i had nothing else to do, and... i only paused it for about 5 or 10 minutes. it was VERY LONG. but it made a lot more sense with the cut scenes in it. and it was more amusing. especially when they found the best weed they'd ever seen sitting in two huge barrels on a shelf and just started smoking it all.... hahah, that was great.
anyhow, i'm gonna go watch "joan of arcadia" before i miss any more. bye!
08:17 p.m.
...Friday, December 5, 2003
i was really sad when i woke up and there was no snow... but then we got out of school early! XD hahaha, i'm happy. we're making a fire tonight, and it's gonna be great. i have marshmallows, too....... *evil grin* i'm gonna make so many s'mores! XD this is great.
01:08 p.m.
...Wednesday, December 3, 2003
i've actually been getting some good chain letters recently. i mean, i dont do them, but they are really nice... and wow, so true. anyway, i wanted to share part of this one.
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much... for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
What would you do if you never got the chance to say "I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?"
just something to think about, guys...
07:29 p.m.
...Wednesday, December 3, 2003
so i actually started reading jane eyre today, and i like it so far. alright, i'm only on chapter 3 out of God-knows-how-many, but still. its pretty good. and firesong is good, too. i've had to make set times for each book.... jane eyre for free time during/after school, firesong for before bed. it's been working out quite nicely so far. i still need to finish whispers and meg's book, though... but my first priority right now is my school book. i need to have half of that read by next week, and its kinda thick, but i can do it. if all else fails, i'll spend my entire afternoon and evening the day before its due finishing it up. that's what i did for gulliver's travels....
so i was talking to my mom, and i asked her if she was reading life of pi yet, and she was like, "no, i just couldnt get into it..." and i was like, "TOO BAD! read it anyway!" because yeah, i'll admit, the beginning is really slow. but if you just keep reading, you'll be surprised at how much you get through, and then the ending is awesome. its definitely worth it.
haha, i feel like such a dork, talking about books so much. ahh, it seems like all i do nowadays is go to school, play guitar or piano, talk online, or read. well, there's that sleeping and eating thing, too, but thats a given. and three days a week i go to karate. ¬_¬ ok, maybe i do have some variety. but still! i feel like i should be doing more... maybe like doing homework at home? nah, i like the whole getting-it-done-in-the-library thing i do now. thats very nice.
anyway, i'm getting hungry. i think i'll go upstairs and see what i'm making for dinner. funny how i'm pretty much in charge of that now... how did that happen?!
04:32 p.m.
...Tuesday, December 2, 2003
ah, this is great. its from my psych book.
or maybe i'm just too easily amused... ¬_¬
06:51 p.m.
...Tuesday, December 2, 2003
so............... today almost sucked, but then i realized that it was snowing during lunch, and then it didnt suck anymore!... until the snow stopped the next period and it all melted by the time school was out. -_-;
so all the good parts of my day lasted about 2 hours total. part of lunch, physics, gym, and a little bit of after school. the rest has just kinda been blah. and then theres the whole bit where i forgot to bring home my crim stuff..... and i have a big test tomorrow....... and its gonna SUCK because i dont even have a study hall anymore to study in. so all that i'm gonna be able to do is review a little bit before school and during homeroom... maybe i'll just not do my work during math. we'll have a sub anyway.
mm. sub. i'm hungry >< and i just ate. that's kind of annoying......
oh, cameo apples are the best. i'd just like to mention that.
i guess i'll go get some pretzels now... bye!
04:03 p.m.
...Sunday, November 30, 2003
^_^ tonight was the shelter meal. it was so fun!! it felt great to be helpful... we were running around getting plates together and cutting up desserts, and handing stuff out, and it was... wow, it was great. i gotta do that more often. we were done at like... 7:45, so we decided to go to friendly's and hang out. that was insane. jill and i sat with the confirmands (mindy and lindsay), and we were laughing hysterically the entire time. ahhh, good times. ^_^
09:29 p.m.
...Sunday, November 30, 2003
so i havent gotton changed from church yet ^_^;; i kinda like walking around in nice clothes. but yeah, i got back after agape and my dad was like, "lets go driving! XD" and i was just like, "X_X gimme food!" so i ate lunch and then we practiced parking (did i ever mention the fact that the more i do something, the worse i get?).. and then we visited my grandmother and came back. so here i am.
i'm going to the shelter tonight XD it should be fun. i have to (get to) bring food. i've never done a shelter meal before... so i'm really excited. i think i'll write an article about it for the december newsletter! XD
weird dream last night...... apparently i joined softball, and miss vicky was the coach. and we had practice in the back of the dojo. it was really fun XD and then we were playing games, and it was so cool! but they kicked us out because little kids in face paint were putting on a really awesome show for their parents. so 2 girls and i went to hang out in the changing room, but it was like... a loft. and there was all this stuff in the corner, and there was this bag (it started out as a wallet, but it got bigger..) and it was made of out duct tape, and it had all this schools stuff in it, and i was like, "what the heck? whose stuff is this?" so i was going through it, and it had the most random stuff in it... and it had a whole bunch of homework and tests in it, but all the names were different, and they were these really dumb code names, and then i got to one where the name was like, "zach the lien exzachlien!!!" and i was just like, "LMAO! this is zach's?!?!?! i am SO using this for blackmail!" so i put it with my stuff and took it with me, and i got into the car, and my dad was driving, and i was like, "haha, i found this great thing at karate tonight!" and i told him the story, and he was completely unamused. -_-; but thats ok, because i woke up then. and i was like, "yes! i cant wait to tell zach i found his old school stuff!" and then i realized that i was holding a pillow, not a folder, and it was only a dream. dont you hate it when that happens? its really depressing. i was very disappointed.
my dad finally took me seriously when i told him that i had off tomorrow ^_^;; he wants to go look at lehigh, so right now i need to see if they even have tours. but i wanna hang out with my friends! i mean, its thansgiving break, and i havent seen danielle once since school on wednesday. i mean, how wrong is that?! so maybe i can convince him not to go...
02:34 p.m.
...Saturday, November 29, 2003
philly was so fun last night! we all went to a japanese restuarant for dinner (genji, the one we were at last time), and it was really good ^.^ then we went to see a blues show, which was less of an actual musical than i thought it was. it was more of a concert with some dialogue in between. but it was good.
my dad coerced me into painting with him today. we did the living room, the entranceway, and the upstairs hallway. @_@ it was insane. then after that i walked down to the browns and got to hang out with ryan. ^_^ it was fun, i really missed him! but now i have to wait until next break to see him again :(
and my mom asked me if i wanted to go out to the brass lantern tonight, and i was like, "Ok!" and then she just kinda left it at that. i dont know if we're going or not. and i'm getting hungry! hm. jetzt will ich uber es fragen. wiedersehen! -_^
06:02 p.m.
...Friday, November 28, 2003
^_^ new layout! css hasnt been cooperating with me... again... why do i even bother trying to make it work? ^_^;; anyway, i woke up at like.... 10 this morning. it was nice. then i sat in bed and drew pictures for a little, and now i'm just kinda sitting around doing nothing. i mean, i have my layout up, and thats the only thing that i wanted to get done today.
so tonight i might be going to philly to eat japanese food and see a show with my family. i dont know if we're doing that yet, though. my dad kinda likes to do last-minute things... i probably wont find out if we're going or not until we actually have to leave.
i heard it was supposed to snow tomorrow... that should be fun. ^_^ i hope it does, but i dont think it will. i dont have all that much faith in the weather anymore after it betrayed me over the summer with the lack of storms! >:O stupid weather. and its not even nice out today for everyone who actually goes shopping on black friday... darn.
12:26 p.m.
help?