yay! it was rally day today ^_^ church was fun. we had a big picnic afterward. so.... this afternoon... i dunno. my parents arent gonna be back until like, 2:30 or 3, and then they're leaving again. so i think jill and elise might come over and we can watch anastasia. for some reason, i just really want to watch it. so yeah. its a beautiful day out, so i feel kinda bad sitting inside, but i cant leave because my parents will be gone and i need to stay with my oma :- oh well. its ok. i guess i'll try to come up with a new layout idea now. bye!

just a little lullaby...
Sunday, September 7, 2003, 01:22 p.m.

hai! i'm exhausted. =_= but today was awesome. i had so much fun. when we were leaving, it felt like i was leaving mensch or something ;_; yeah, i ended up doing candle stuff the whole day. got kinda burnt on my face, and now i have new tan lines on my shoulders, so that's kinda of annoying. but yeah. it was so much fun XD didnt see anyone i knew, but wow, during my breaks, i would meander over to the civil war encampment, and wow, i cant believe the war took away so many good-looking guys -_^ it was fun. this one kept coming over with his friends, and he was like, "can i make another candle?" and he kept talking to me, and i was just like, "... when are you gonna leave me alone?" but not like i minded. it was entertainment, and he was pretty cute. ^_^ yeah. i cant wait until the apple festival!! fresh apple cider... yum... ^.^ but anyway, i think i'm gonna take a nap. *yawn* bye!

click here to see a pic of me and my dad in our costumes ^_^

just a little lullaby...
Saturday, September 6, 2003, 08:25 p.m.

wow. the secret life of bees was really good. its definitely a girl book, though, so if you're a guy, you probably wouldnt like it. but wow. i was crying sooo much, especially at the end. there was this one part near the beginning though that was really sad, and i was like, "hey wait! this isnt fair! i cant be almost crying already!!!" but yeah. awesome book. i started it last night and read it for 2 or 3 hours, and then i just finished it today... i was reading from 5 until about 5 minutes ago (with a break for dinner in there). i just couldnt put it down! and it's not too long, either, so thats good. yeah. just wanted to share that. and the fact that I NEED TO GO SOMEWHERE! >< i hate not having a life. or a driver's liscence. or having a friend (or a guy) who can drive and wants to take me someplace. -_-; i need to get out more. anyone wanna take me?

just a little lullaby...
Friday, September 5, 2003, 09:50 p.m.

ok, i thought i had all my homework done for the weekend until i talked to danielle and she told me that i had psych homework!!! >:O stupid mr. u not giving it to us before today. i could have had a nice weekend! and now all i'm gonna do is procrastinate. maybe. unless i get bored, which is probably what's going to happen as soon as i get done with my post. i dunno. unless someone tells me they wanna do stuff tonight. but yeah. everyone should come visit me at the hay creek festival tomorrow!! its down route 10, halfway to morgantown (from here). it takes about... 20 minutes to get there. unless you drive like my brother, in which case it will take you about 5. -_-; but yeah. i'll probably get bored. so come visit me at open-fire cooking! and if i'm not there, just wander around a bit. they have an awesome breakfast there, so if you go in the morning you can get some (even though it'll be a really long line) or you can just go later and wander around the various other places there. but if you cant visit, or you just dont want to, thats ok too. so yeah. i'm gonna stop rambling and go... i dunno. i guess i'll do my psych. bye!

just a little lullaby...
Friday, September 5, 2003, 03:12 p.m.

sooo... not much to do today. some english lit terms i have to look up, that about it. oh, right, i have two test tomorrow. not like i'm going to study for them anyway... my math test is just on review stuff, and my physics test is on all the crap i learned last year in trig about vectors. and all the other info i can just b.s. my way through. i was thinking today in crim, wow, this is a lot of info. i wonder when we're going to have a quiz? but really, there are freshmen in my class, so its not like the quiz/test will be hard anyway. otherwise they'd all fail. haha ^_^; i guess there's one advantage to having underclassmen in your class.... but only one!! actually, what i hate most about that class is in the form of a few seniors. -_-; but i'm not gonna rant about that now.

guess what!! i'm volunteering at the hay creek festival this weekend! wow, and ya know what else? unless your mom loves crafts or fleamarkets or your dad is obsessed with the civil war, i bet that you dont even know what it is!! haha... -_-; but anyway, when my family was there last year with some of our friends, i was talking about how fun it would be to dress up in the costumes and help out. and one of them happened to know the guy who recruits volunteers! so i'm gonna be there from 10-5 on saturday, and i'll almost definitely be doing open-fire cooking. it might get a little hot, but i'm used to being in the heat ^_^;; so, the point is, come visit me!! seriously! i mean, talking with the people there and running around will be fun, but its only amusing for so long. and if anyone wants to go up on sunday, tell me, because i need a ride in the afternoon. i can get a ride back at 5, but i need a ride there after church... like between 12 and 1. so if you're interested, contact me ^_^ if not, thats fine. just come visit me on saturday!!! >:O but anyway.. i think i'll get my lit terms done so i can fix the skirt i'm gonna be wearing. bye! -_^

just a little lullaby...
Wednesday, September 3, 2003, 03:50 p.m.

i get to start up with karate again!! XD its gonna be fun, except not as amusing since danielle wont be there... and i'm gonna suck, because i havent even stretched since i was last there ^_^;; wow. and my right shoulder is really sore for some reason. ::thinks:: maybe its from my bookbag? thats the shoulder i always carry it on... but there's never anything in it, so that shouldnt matter that much. oh well. i just hope we dont have to do anything like break falls or roll falls, because that would hurt a lot. where's someone to give you a massage when you need it? >:O

in other news... um... i got an A on my psych quiz! XD hahaha! i seriously didnt know half of the answers. ^_^; oh well. and i found jrock mix volume 2, which is the best one. such addicting songs! right now i'm listening to "rosier," but i might switch it to "magnet holie" soon. or "labyrinth." both are really cool. ::sings along:: yume no nai... kono sekai...

just a little lullaby...
Tuesday, September 2, 2003, 04:15 p.m.

if anyone knows of a site where i can find the translation to "Haruka" (Pierrot), please please please email me (tigerlily02@comcast.net) or IM me (jenchan8) or something! i've been searching for hours ;_;

just a little lullaby...
Monday, September 1, 2003, 09:19 p.m.

so i was looking at pictures of rubber duckies (trying to find some random inspiration for a new page layout), and you would not believe how many hits i got of pictures of rubber duckies in toilets. i mean, really. who does that? who posts pictures of their toilet on the internet? especially with a rubber ducky in it! well, ok, i must admit, that's something i would do. but still. there were so many! -_O

just a little lullaby...
Monday, September 1, 2003, 07:04 p.m.

hahaha, i got this great link from Genious' Blog. it's called Project Genesis... go read it ^_^

just a little lullaby...
Sunday, August 31, 2003, 09:06 a.m.

jenchan8: ok, this is just annoying.
jenchan8: my aunt refuses to sleep in my brothers bedroom, i dont know why.
CailatanVerus: ...
CailatanVerus: weird
jenchan8: so she's down here on the air mattress she brought with her
CailatanVerus: um
jenchan8: and i cant listen to music
jenchan8: i cant run to the kitchen and back for sustinence
CailatanVerus: I wonder what she's got against your brother's room
jenchan8: and it SUCKS
jenchan8: i dunno
jenchan8: she made up some lame excuse before
jenchan8: and i was like, "i stay up pretty late online, so my typing might wake you up, and i keep the light on" jenchan8: and she's like, "thats ok!"
CailatanVerus: hmm
jenchan8: but i know she's just thinking, "stupid dirt child... i hate you! go to bed!"
CailatanVerus: well, it is her own fault
jenchan8: i know
jenchan8: so i'm like, making as much noise as i can without the possibility of being accused of doing it purposefully
CailatanVerus: hehehehehe
jenchan8: and i wanna get food so bad!
jenchan8: actually, i want to make noodles and cheese
jenchan8: but we have no noodle-cheese
jenchan8: only icky-cheese
jenchan8: so i'm stuck
CailatanVerus: that's quite the pickle
jenchan8: and i really really want noodles and cheese!!
CailatanVerus: carbo craving. mm.
CailatanVerus: you could make spaghetti
jenchan8: i think its the cheese thing
CailatanVerus: ohh
CailatanVerus: hmm...I take it you have no mac&cheese...
CailatanVerus: there's grilled cheese
CailatanVerus: what else has cheese...
CailatanVerus: well, you could just eat cheese. yup.
jenchan8: but we only have icky cheese
CailatanVerus: oo, oo, I know
CailatanVerus: you could make your own cheese!
jenchan8: um, hello? jenny=lazy
CailatanVerus: aw come on! all you need are some curds
CailatanVerus: or is it whey
CailatanVerus: and some cheese-making equipment, and knowledge of the cheese-making process
jenchan8: oh dear
jenchan8: seeing as that i lack all of the above, i dont think this little plan of yours is going to be successful
CailatanVerus: darn...I'm not good at cheese strategies

jenchan8: maybe cheddar goldfish will satisfy me...
CailatanVerus: worth a try
jenchan8: and they're conveniently located nebend mein komputer
CailatanVerus: maybe you should rustle the carton loudly while you eat
jenchan8: i am
jenchan8: and she's stirring >:}
jenchan8: hahah
jenchan8: mmmmm, cheddar
CailatanVerus: happy now?
jenchan8: yes ^_________^

just a little lullaby...
Saturday, August 30, 2003, 10:55 p.m.

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Saturday, August 30, 2003, 09:39 p.m.

wow, ya know what's scary? it just occurred to me that i have a phone. i can call people if i want to talk to them. i mean, not like i could last night, because danielle was out with reuben, but now i could! ....if she's not at work. damn. oh well, i'll try anyway.

just a little lullaby...
Saturday, August 30, 2003, 10:21 a.m.

wow, i was so tired last night!! i went upstairs at 9:30 or so to read, and i was asleep by 10:15. it was nice, being able to get to sleep so fast ^_^;; then this morning i woke up at about 6:30 and just laid in bed and watched my room get brighter. it was kind of amusing. omg, the book i'm reading, Life of Pi, is SO GOOD! i mean, it was a little slow at first, but i had no trouble getting through it, and i was surprised when i stopped to see how far i was and i was a third of the way into the book. i definitely didnt think i was that far. but anyway, its really good. i stopped reading at 9:30 and i'm a little less than halfway through. i wanna read more! XD haha! and my mom called... it stormed there last night, so the tent is a bit damp. and it's still raining. i was just like, "wow, it thundered a bit yesterday, but now its really nice and sunny outside! what beautiful weather we have here!" just rubbing it in how nice it was ^_^ although, i admit, i would rather there be good weather for their camping than for me... at work... >< oh well ^_^;; i guess i'm just gonna hang out and listen to music and wish that people would check their email and actually write back!! ::glares at whoever i recently wrote mail to::

just a little lullaby...
Saturday, August 30, 2003, 10:14 a.m.

so, today wasnt all that bad. i got up, cleaned the bird cage, mowed the front lawn, came inside and saw how late it was, quickly showered, and went to work. it was kind of really boring for the first half. but then nate came and it started thundering. apparently God didnt want him to work for a bit... we just sat around until 6 waiting for the thunder to pass or the pool to close. unfortunately, the thunder passed, and the pool didnt close. so we community guarded until like... 7:50, when all three of us (all three of us being me, nate, and kelly) finally determined that the flashes of light in the sky above the football field were NOT just our eyes being dumb. lightening ^_^ yum. i love storms.

just a little lullaby...
Friday, August 29, 2003, 08:21 p.m.

the words or jarrod 2's away message spoke to me tonight:

I have some good news and some bad news. The good news is everything is fine. The bad news is the good news is a complete lie....

yep. ::nods:: so i talked with ryan tonight. if i wanted you to know the details, you got the email.

in other news, the pool tonight was actually... well... fun. and it's all elliott's fault!! way to go, elliott. we had a decent conversation. i was scared. but it was amusing. we talked about people we liked, tried desperately to remember what happened in 10th grade.... couldnt think of ANYTHING significant besides the fact that i printed out that nice pic of serge to put in my locker. haha. you know that year was a waste when all you can remember is a locker decoration. but anyway, it was fun. i told him about the blackmail picture i have. >:} heeheehee. then there's that bet we made. that's pretty good. go me! *evil laugh* the thing is, i dont really care if he wins or i win. either way, it's very entertaining.

just a little lullaby...
Thursday, August 28, 2003, 09:49 p.m.

remember that one survey with the question, "if you could rename yourself, what would your new name be?" or something like that? well, i like this one.

Yoshimi - "Happy Beauty"

What would your Japanese name be? (female)
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but in other news.... i dunno. today was kind of boring. had to work and it was dumb because there was no one fun to talk to. but really, there's only like... three people at the pool who i really enjoy talking with. and if you know me at all, i'm pretty sure you know who at least one of them is, if not all three. but yeah. it was boring. and we dont open until 6 tomorrow because SOMEONE *cough*nate*cough* couldnt get out of working at his other pool. hahha. i love harassing him about that. its really amusing. how do i keep changing the subject like that? wow, it must be really annoying for anyone reading this. what was i talking about? oh, right, boring day. at least i got some amusement out of letting a kid off the bench as long as he promised to vote for me (and get his friends to vote for me) as a german club officer. heehee ^_^ that was great. after that, he was good, too!! and i also convinced berlin boy to do german club again. i just need to talk to matt... and give him back his video game!! its taking up room in my bag!! >:O i mean, not like i dont love zelda and all, but still. umm.. what else.. oh yeah. i was all like, shakey and lightheaded at the pool... i think it's because my blood sugar was too low. so i came back and ate an oreo and i felt so much better! it was really weird. but anyway, i'm gonna go get some water to go with these goldfish i'm working on, and then i can get started on some serious studying for psych! XD

just a little lullaby...
Wednesday, August 27, 2003, 08:05 p.m.

so, the first day of school wasnt so bad. my classes should be fun, and not too hard if i remember not to get lazy and actually do my work. ^_^;; heh. doubt that's gonna happen. but i think i'll enjoy my senior year. i have 11 study halls a week first semester, and 6 a week second semester. yaaay! also, my locker is actually in a good spot! *gasp!*

the pool was actually amusing today. i thought it was going to be death, but then nate came. we were talking a lot because we were next to eachother in theh rotation, and he is so amusing! i definitely wish we could talk more. i was harassing him about how he never worked here, and he was like, "well, i have a meeting, and i get beads for my rescues!" and he explained the significance to me of the 5 beads he had on his whistle... 4 for saving people, 1 for saving... a rabbit. yes, thats right. a rabbit. apparently it was wandering around the pool and decided to go for a swim, but it couldnt get out. so he got a skimmer and rescued it... and then he wrapped it in a towel and put it in a safe place until its mom came to get it. i was like, "you wrapped it in a towel?" nate: "yeah! it was going through shock! i had to treat it!!!" and i just cracked up more. but isnt that adorabley silly? heehee ^_^

just a little lullaby...
Monday, August 25, 2003, 08:36 p.m.

good things that happened today:
~went school shopping this morning, got some comfy clothes
~took the laptop to the pool, got my paper done
~got to the snackbar right before they closed and got free food
~tricked people into thinking the pool was closing by getting off the chair to community guard
~closed the pool early because everyone left
~found out that we cant open the pool with only 2 guards, which is probably what will happen on wednesday and thursday.

^_^ ~glee!

just a little lullaby...
Saturday, August 23, 2003, 08:29 p.m.

so... danielle and i worked on our senior tshirts today. they're really cool. very "us". haha! then i helped her on her secret project until my dad came. ^_^; but yeah, in other news, i need to write a research paper and i'm not gonna have much time to do that. so when i feel sick of playing guitar (or when too many people are talking to me for it to be worth it), i'll switch comps and print stuff to read tomorrow morning and at work. -_-; yay.

just a little lullaby...
Thursday, August 21, 2003, 09:53 p.m.

wow, long day at work! 12-10:30!! it was fun, though! moonlight swim! i got really wet... but thanks to berlin boy, my towel stayed dry and i had something nice and warm to wrap around me when they stopped splashing me ^_^ but then later when caitlin and i threw erika in, matt came up behind me and i got pushed in the diving well with my towel. >< but thats ok, because even though i was cold and wet, i had a really good weapon ^.^ heeheehee! it was really amusing. those guys are great. too bad they're not older! -_^ haha, just kidding :P but anyway, i need to print out lots of stuff tomorrow morning so i can read it and start writing my psych paper. hm... thats gonna be tough to do on my breaks at the pool, but i'll manage ^_^ at least it wont be like, all at once and killing me. that would suck. but anyway, time to go! bye! -_^

just a little lullaby...
Wednesday, August 20, 2003, 11:22 p.m.

konbanwa! today we went down to jason's house to clean it up. it was such a mess >< but we worked really hard, and now its habitable ^_^ its actually not too bad if its clean... but i dont think it's gonna stay that way ^_^;; oh well. we tried. so jason, destinee, dave, and little jen went to the john mayer concert tonight. i was sooo hoping that little jen wouldnt go and i could go instead (she and dave were fighting). haha, my mom mentioned that, and jen was like, "well, we might have to fight for that ticket, then!" and i was all like, "ok.." and i got into a sparring stance, and she just laughed at me. i was serious. i could have beaten the crap out of her! >:O it was sad. then i was making fun of dave, because i suggested that they put some plants in to brighten things up, and i was like, "oh! wait! plants are living things... are you sure you guys could handle that???" and he just glared at me and complained to my mom that i was making fun of him. ^_^ it was silly. then karate tonight... it was really long! we stayed until 7:45! and class is supposed to be over at 7:15.. oh well ^_^; we worked on my drill, so it was worth it. i guess i'll stay up pretty late tonight... i really want to talk to ryan. when he's there. this afternoon, i talked to his away message. -_-; thats not very interesting. well, i guess i'll go... play solitare? i dunno. not much to do. oh right! i need to look up pysch stuff! bye! -_^

just a little lullaby...
Tuesday, August 19, 2003, 08:40 p.m.

using my dads laptop now instead of my dead comp ^_^;; just to see what its like. i like it ^.^ i think i'm gonna end up getting one of these. the only thing that sucks about this one is that it doesnt have a cd drive, so i cant install the printer!! ><

just a little lullaby...
Monday, August 18, 2003, 05:27 p.m.

hi! i'm at carrie's now! its been really fun so far. read her entry from today first, though, cuz i'm not going to repeat it. :P but SHANE came over (happy now?) and he hung out with us and we beat him massively in 007 ^.^ it was fun. then he did a skit for us and a little dance ("with no words. ::dances:: FAERIE! oh wait! thats a word! ::continues dancing::") yeah.... good times. and cooking shrimp bisque was fun, too! especially afterwards, when carrie had to take out the trash, and i asked her for a bag...
Me: "where are the bags?"
Carrie: "in the top pantry"
Me: "ummmm"
C: "wait... uhh.. oh, yeah, wait.. no... um.. here they are!"
yep. good stuff there too. oh, and i want digital cable ;_; (anime network) and.... in other news, ryan got his comp set up, so i can talk to him again ^.^

just a little lullaby...
Sunday, August 17, 2003, 11:23 p.m.

wow. this past week, life has been like, life: "::hurls stress and emotions at jenny:: hahahahhaha! :P" @_@ its crazy. and then i woke up this morning, really early, and i was like, "crap! i had to write an article for the church newsletter by today!" so of course i had to run down here and write it. and of course, that woke me up. so naturally, i cant fall asleep again. gr. but its ok. i should be up anyway. :- i'm going to carrie's this afternoon. i REALLY need a change of scenery, and phoenixville seems to be the best place to go. i hope ryan gets his comp set up soon and goes online so i can talk with him :(

*edit* on a more positive note, i finally got the picture to line up with the background...

just a little lullaby...
Sunday, August 17, 2003, 09:12 a.m.

i tried making some really cool recipe from one of my cookbooks today. it failed miserably. i was leaning up against the sink, like i normally do, and i got up to get the phone and i pulled off the cabinet knob because it got stuck in my back pocket. then i couldnt open the cabinet because it was stuck and there was no knob. so i bent a knife trying to pry it open. then i decided that i was starving, so i made a grilled cheese sandwich. only, i completely burnt it. so i leaned my head on the fridge and cried, "i'm sucking at life again..." and my brother just laughed.

just a little lullaby...
Saturday, August 16, 2003, 03:14 p.m.

when scott asked this morning, "if i didnt say goodbye, and i went up to his room, would he still be there?" i just wanted to start sobbing. its the first time i've ever seen him show a hint of emotion. it'll probably be hardest for them, seeing as that they've been together their entire lives, being twins and all. then when my mom came to pick me up, i gave scott a hug, and he told me, "ya know, ryan really appreciated you being here this morning.." and i looked at him, and he looked like he was about to cry. i probably did, too ^_^; and ya know, i thought i was ok, but then i was cleaning my room (*gasp!*) and i picked up these lyrics, and i read them....

To you who will be so dear to me...

Both of my legs are caught in the sand
I can't move
The sky looks so far and high
The aimless clouds roll by
And no one's there
Even the sun has become dimmed to me
I hear the song of the wind
And gently it wrapped itself around me

I know for certain that it is you

The waves crashing on the shore
Are they trying to tell me something?
Is it your words they are trying to say?
Reality has become ripped to pieces to me
I don't understand but I want to know
I want you to wrap around me so gently

I know for certain that the loneliness you know is the same as mine

Take to heart
Only you will always linger hotly behind my closed eyes
Take to heart
Only for you, I will wait for
I don't care if this sand buries me

You will come to this place and I will be born
Everything up until now will be forgotten
The moment we kiss...

Take to heart
Was it just a dream?
No, it couldn't have been real
You are just a phantom I have yet to see
Take to heart
You are an angel I have yet to see
And you cried from the sky

Rainy day
Only you will always linger hotly behind my closed eyes
("Rain" by Luna Sea)

and this one... even worse...
It has been said that I would never be able to love anyone
I met you, so timid and gentle,
And I've finally come to see the meaning in our encounter
It's too sad to think
That we had only met to hurt each other

I want to tell you from my heart
That I only want your true self

Still laughing so awkwardly with one another, aren't we?
Still sadness seems to suit so well
If I was only born to have you in my life,
I wonder, could I prove them wrong...?

I want to tell you from this heart of mine
That though we've hurt each other so much, it's still not too late
I love you with all my heart
And I want to wash away all the pain that has fallen upon you

I for you

I want to tell you from my heart
What if I were able to forever stare at your smiling face...?
From my heart, I love you
I want to gather for you all the light that falls

I for You
("I for You," also by Luna Sea)

those just made me start again ;_; but i'm gonna go clean my room and stuff, and then i have work later, so hopefully that will get my mind off of it.

just a little lullaby...
Saturday, August 16, 2003, 09:21 a.m.

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You are Storm! You are very strong and very protective of those you love. You are in tune with nature and are very concerned with justice and humanity. Unfortunately, certain apprehensions and fears are very hard for you to overcome, and can often inhibit you when most need to be strong.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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Friday, August 15, 2003, 11:31 p.m.