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Why am I so tired?
OMG I've been hella tired lately...yesterday I went to bed at 10:00pm sharp. And it's not even 10:30 tonight and I'm passing out.
This is not me.
Ever since I went to the funeral I've been like that. I dunno what's going on, really...but tomorrow's Halloween, so I'm gonna have fun with that. ^^
In Tae Kwon Do news, I'm loving my form...Taeguk Oh Jang...so fun. ^^ And it looks pretty too. And my kam sai yung...I finally get to perform a spinning hook kick! Of course, it looks really bad, but at least I can try it now!
SCORE~
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Tuesday, October 30, 2001 | 10:17 p.m.
*hangs blue belt on wall*
I tested for my purple belt today. I didn't do as well as I thought I would though. I messed up on my form both times that I went up and performed it...=T
And as for my board break, it took me like six tries to get it. Turns out I didn't get a jump back kick, it was just step forward back kick. It was aite...I just kept screwing up. >_< I want to redeem myself now~ I practiced so hard a few days ago, and I couldn't get it on the day of the test...well, at least I pulled through. The Master wound up holding the board for me...I didn't know what to think because someone else was before he came up.
And my belt is a little long...but that's okay. ^^
This morning I thought I wasn't going to make it because I was the only one walking the dogs. It turns out Dan was supposed to come later...and he did. ^^
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Saturday, October 27, 2001 | 02:47 p.m.
R.I.P.
John's funeral was beautiful. His mom has so much strength that it is just amazing. Me and Caiti were talking about it, and she thinks that it probably hasn't fully sunk in yet. But I dunno. I think some people can be hella strong like that.
We all shared memories of John...like when Steve and I tried to drop stuff on him from the catwalk...and Cait's stories cracked me up.
For example, John and some of his friends were at this soccer game and the ref was making some pretty shitty calls, right? So John runs up and shouts, "Hey ref, get off your knees cuz you're blowing the game!!!" And the ref took off her hat and it was A WOMAN. Deng.
Heh...it's funny to think that I had a crush on John for a little while. I told Caiti, "If he came back, I would tell him what a fine mutha he was." And she's like, "NO~ Don't do that. His head will explode because his ego would get so big! Either that or he'd be like, 'I know.'" And she added, "Then he'd be like, 'Get on your knees' whenever he sees you. He'd never let you live it down," and made the appropriate gesture that goes along with it. LOL~
We somehow thought that he was making the wind blow...because there were leaves blowing and it was getting in people's hair, and Cait was like, "Could ya quit it John?!" and all of a sudden a big gust of wind blew and all these leaves got in people's hair!
And then I was like, "Yanno, I would probably tell him I was crushing on him, but I wouldn't go that far..." to my friend Josh. Then I look out the window and it's gusting! Then I look up, and said, "Well, when I get to heaven, I'll think about it." And you know what? The wind died down!
Gosh~ I wish I was able to break through his barrier. Sometimes when I was alone with him, he would turn out to be a really nice and cool guy. But that didn't happen very often...and I hella wish it did.
I want you back, John. But I'll see ya when I get there. And yes, I will think about it...lol~
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Thursday, October 25, 2001 | 07:30 p.m.
Tomorrow...
I'm going to John's funeral. I still don't really believe it...I dunno why, but I need to see the person actually being buried for it to sink in...but the burial is private.
I went to the wake again. Caiti went with me...I'm very proud of her for going.
In Tae Kwon Do today, I got my paper for my purple belt...which means I need to do some hella stretching and mad practice on back kicks for my board break. @__@
I believe it's a jump back kick...@__@
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Wednesday, October 24, 2001 | 10:14 p.m.
Death
Aites, I'm hella pissed off...but I'm not sure why I am...aites, here goes.
As you may know, my friend John passed away a few days ago. Now, me and my friend Caitlin have two disagreeing viewpoints on death. I honestly believe that John came here for an experience, or to learn some lesson, and it was his time to go. So yes, I am saddened by this, but then again I understand why he left us...and I'll see him again along the road.
Caiti believes that it wasn't his time to go and he had it stripped away from him. That is also an understandable viewpoint, but that's not the part that frustrates me.
The part that frustrates me is that she wants to go to the wake, but she doesn't want to admit that he's dead.
To me, denial is a form of being ignorant. It's not healthy. Sure, some people say ignorance is bliss, but it's a dream~ You have to face the reality of things sometimes. Honestly, if I didn't go to the wake, I would never have closure on this whole experience, and I think closure is a good thing.
And to top it off, we're both stubborn people, so we'll never see each other's point. Or we will, but we just won't buy what each other has to say.
I don't know why I'm so passionate about this...I guess because I believe that death is as much a part of life as life itself is...honestly...what would life be like if no one died? No one would learn how to cherish it...we'd just sit around and waste our years away because we know that we'd have 948573085423987+ years left...
Gosh~
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Tuesday, October 23, 2001 | 07:04 p.m.
I wanted this day to be over before it even started.
Today was one of the longest days that I have experienced so far in my life.
School was horrible...everyone was a wreck...no one could get any work done. I was sobbing during homeroom...just about everyone was there except for John...the teachers were crying about it too...I never thought I'd see some of them cry...but I did.
Rest in peace, John. We'll miss ya.
On to happier news...I'm testing for my purple belt in Tae Kwon Do! How cool is that?!?!?!?! It was funny...the Master had called me because he forgot to give me my test papers today in class...I thought I lost something or left something in the dojang when he called. *^^* For a little while, I was kinda sad that I didn't get the paper because I had been a blue belt for a while. But then again, I've learned to trust his judgement. So I was hella suprised when I got that phone call. *^__^*
Now I've got to study some Japanese and Pre-calc. @_______@
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Monday, October 22, 2001 | 09:47 p.m.
Spirit Dreams Inside~
Spirit Dreams Inside
words & music : Hyde
arranged by L'Arc-en-Ciel & Hajime Okano
credit to e-larc-en-ciel LOVERs
I wake from a nightmare now
In the day it haunts me
It slowly tears me apart
With dreams of a distant love
I'm a wandering satellite
Somewhere in the wasteland
I see you smiling at me
A vision out of my dreams
Will everything change?
Take the pain away
Lead me with your light
Heading for the sun
Leave the sadness behind
Crossing oceans dry
Yeah
My world spinning out of time
Won't somebody stop me?
I may be losing my way
Will you make it right?
Take the pain away
Hear me as I cry
Heading for the sun
Leave the sadness behind
Crossing oceans dry
Deep inside I go
Spirit dreams inside
Spirit dreams inside
What can I do, I ask?
There's nothing left to say
What can I do, I ask?
There's nothing left to say
Why am I here?
Why am I lost?
Where is love?
Lead me with your light
Heading for the sun
Leave the sadness behind
Crossing oceans dry
Deep inside I go
Heading for the sun
Leave the sadness behind
Crossing oceans dry
Deep inside I go
Spirit dreams inside
Spirit dreams inside
Spirit dreams inside
Spirit dreams inside
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Sunday, October 21, 2001 | 08:34 p.m.
John O' Neill.
John O' Neill passed away today...I don't know what to say. I wasn't the best of friends with him, and I've even had my moments where I despised the guy.
BUT I NEVER WANTED HIM TO DIE.
He was just too young for that...and he had a lot of potential...
My message to John:
Hey John, I know you and I weren't the best of friends, but I still wish you were here. It doesn't seem like your time to go, but I do know that God or whoever is working up there has their reasons for taking you...maybe you had enough of this experience...and just wanted to try something new. I hope you had fun and enjoyed yourself while you were here...and hey, when I see you when it's my turn, maybe we'll chat sometime.
Rest in peace John. You will be missed.
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Sunday, October 21, 2001 | 07:26 p.m.
Closure...
Well, the thing with me and Ben has finally been resolved...it turns out that he was just flirting because he's just like that with girls.
It's funny...I had a feeling he was like that all along...but I guess I wanted to deny it because of that slim chance that he liked me...but whatever...it's done and over with and I can move on.
Closure is such a nice thing.
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Saturday, October 20, 2001 | 10:28 p.m.
Survey Time~
1)Starting time: 18:15pm
2)Name: Jaline
3)Nicknames: Yes. I do have some. Most people call me...Jane. Or Matt.
4)School: NPHS
5)E-mail: Which ones do you want? Yes...I do have more than one...hahahahahaha~ janey_327@hotmail.com
6)Eyes: brown
7)Height: 4'10"
9)Siblings: A kuya...and I'm an ate. ^^
10)Been so drunk you blacked out? no...I wonder what it's like though.
11)Taken any illegal substances? not to my knowledge. ^^;;;
12)Gone out in pajamas? Pajama day is great.
13)Missed school b/c it was raining? Ummmm...once...a few years ago. It was because it was something like a tropical depression or something. =T
14)Set any body part on fire for amusement? hmmm not yet...don't you do that with hairspray?
15)Kept a secret from everyone? Ummm...yes?
16) Had an imaginary friend? No.
17)Wanted to hook up with a friend?LOL - friends with benefits!
18)Cried during a Flick? Yes...
19)Had a crush on a teacher? No...
*what happened to # 20 &21?*
22)Planned your week based on the TV Guide? I don't have the time to watch tv anymore...--;;;
23)prank called someone? Not yet.
24)Been on stage? Yes...twice. Once for a play in the fifth grade, and last year. It was fun. ^^
------------------FAVORITES------------------
25)Shampoo: Pantene Pro V...good stuff. ^^
26)Soap: Oil of Olay...hahaha~
27)Colors: BLOO*
28)Day/Night? Day...but I like night with a boi. *^^*
29)Summer/Winter? Both? Winter is nice and calm...but you can go swimming and go to the beach in the summer...
30)Online Smiley? ^^ ^^;;; ^___^ @__@ =T =D
32)Cartoon Character? HIMURA-SAN!
33)Do you have a bf/gf? Ahn Chil Hyun. *runs away*
34)Do you like anyone? Yes and no.
35)Who have you known the longest of your friends? Tanya
36)Who's the loudest? Gosh~ That's kinda hard to choose just one. Probably Riis?
37)Who's the shyest? ME!!!!!!!!!
38)Who do you go to for advice? If I could, I would go to Tanya and Patrick...but they're kinda far...but anyways. Tanya, Patrick, Caitlin, Fluff, the 1tym krew...yeah.
39)Who do you get the most surveys from? I dunno...a lot of people. I think maybe Kim unnie.
40)Who do you cry to? Tanya.
41)Who's body is the sexiest? OMG...JunJin!
-----------------IN THE Last 8 Weeks-------------------------
42)Cried? Yes...a lot of shit was goin' down...
42)Cut your hair? Couple of days ago, actually. ^^
43)Worn a skirt? No. I'm strictly pants.
44)Been mean? FUCK YEAH!
45)Been sarcastic? Me? Sarcasm? What?
46)Met someone new? Yeah...lots of froshies. ^^;;;
47)Talked to someone you have a crush on? Uh-huh.
48)Missed someone? I'm always missin' someone...
49)Hugged someone? Fluff hugged me todai. ^___^
50)Fought with your parents? Ummm...not really fight...
51)Wished upon a star? No...
52)Laughed until you cried? Yes...I do that almost everydai. ^^;;;
53)Played Truth or Dare? lol - I watched some friends do that a few days ago.
54)Watched a sunrise/sunset? No~
55)Went to the beach at night? No...--;;;;
57)Read a book for fun? HARRY POTTER!
58)Ate a meal? Yes...I have to eat to live.
59)Are you lonely? *sigh*
60)Are you happy? Frustrated, but happy.
61)Are you talking to someone online? Ummm...I -was- until I started filling out this survey (wassup Kimmay?)...
-------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN-----------------------
62)God/Devil? Yes/No?
63)Santa? I did...
64)The Closet Monster? LOL I remember those days...
65)The Big Bang Theory? Never really thought about it. I care more about the here and now.
67)Superstitions: Some.
68)Love? Yeah...
-------------RANDOM QUESTIONS--------------
69)What is your full name? Ahn Jaline *runs away*
70)Who named you? My parents...who else would name me? o__O;;;
71)Backstreet Boys or N Sync? H.O.T.!!!!!
72)When was the last time you showered? Yesterday.
73)What song are u listening to right now? "Exit" - Click B
74)Britney or Christina? Christina
75)What is right next to you? air?
76)What is your computer desk made of? wood?
77)What are the last 4 digits in your phone number? HEEEELLLLL NO.
78)What was the last thing that you ate? Bananas and evaporated milk. Yum~
79)Where do you want to go on your honeymoon? Japan? I dunno...I'll talk about it with Kang Ta. ^^;;;
80)Where are you going on vacation? KOREA~
84)What did you do last night? Ummm...I can't remember. No, that does not mean I got wasted.
85)What's the best thing that you find about the opposite sex? I dunno...Kang Ta? lol~
86)How are you today? I'm hella tired!
87)How do YOU eat an Oreo? The "normal" way.
88)Fave CD(s): I'm feelin' the "Staind" CD...
89)Dream car? Hrmz...corvette!
90)Have you ever won any special awards? In what? Tae Kwon Do?
91)What do you want to be when you grow up? Ummm...happy.
92)What are your future goals? Finish high school and college and get a job and go to Korea and go find Kang Ta and go marry him and go have 187364 kids with him...lol~ Well, the high school and college part is the truth...and maybe the Korea thing...
94)Favorite food? RICE!
96)Favorite day of the year? Christmas
97)Favorite guys cologne? Whatever Kang Ta's scent is...lol~ But I like Ralph Lauren...
98)Do you like to dance? hehe...DDR!
99)Fast or slow? What are we talking about here?
100)Are you too shy to ask someone out? Depends on the guy. I'll definitely hook it up with Kang Ta. XDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
101)Favorite name brand? Of what? Cheese?
102)If you could change your name, what would it be? Ummmm...Mai Lin. =DDDDDDDDDDDD
103)Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? Yes.
104)Have you ever slept over at the opposite sex's house? No. --;;;;;
105)What is the stupidest thing you have ever done? Uhhhhh~ I dunno. I do a lot of stupid things.
106)What will your first son's name be? Son? I'll let Kang Ta name our first kid...lol~ But I really don't know. I guess it depends on the last name. I like Jacob though. And Kylan.
107)First daughter: Hrmz...again, depends on the last name. I like Melody.
108)Favorite drink? Nestea Iced Tea. It's gotta be Nestea.
109) You like scary or happy movies better? If there's a guy with me...then scary movies. But generally happy movies. ^^
110) On the phone or in person? In person...everything's better in person. XD
111)Lust or Love? LoVe
112)If you could change something about yourself, what would it be? I'd be taller and thinner.
113)Do you consider cheerleading a sport? Sometimes. When I'm drunk enough. But I don't drink. ^_~
114)Do you want your friends to do this survey? I really don't care.
*****~~~~~PERSONAL~~~~~~*****
128)What would you change in this world? Kang Ta would be right next to me...and I'd want peace.
129)What do you think of yourself? Huh? I guess I'm aite.
130)Do you think your pretty/handsome? I'm better looking than some, and uglier than others.
132) Who was your last crush? Ummmmm...hehe~
133) Did you love him/her? No...it was more of a lust thing.
134) Are you still in love with him/her? I really don't know. I mean, I think I'm not, but I think the feelings are just buried...
135) What do you think of the person who sent this to you? Talk to me girl!
136) Are you glad you are done filling this out? OMG YES!
137) What time is it now? 8:52pm
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Saturday, October 20, 2001 | 08:14 p.m.
We Are the Future!
I just listened to that song a few minutes ago...and I can't help but feel a little sad...so more karaoke!
"We Are the Future" by H.O.T.
-Lyrics taken from http://www.solid07.net
10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!
Hey everybody (body) look at me! Ee jae neun moh deun sae sang ae teu reul bah kkwuh buh ril kkuh yah! Nae gah ee jae joo in ee dwaen guhn yah! Uh reun deul ae sae sang eun ee mi gaht ddah Nahl gah ppah jin guht mahl doh ahn dwae neun soh rin ji buh chi wuh (The) future is mine 1, 2, and 3 and 4 and go!!
Ah jik kkah ji oo rin uh reun deul ae geu neul ah rae ee ssuh jah yoo rohp jji ah neun dae Ee ruhn juh reun gahn suhp deul loh hah rool ji sae oo ni pi gohn hahl soo bah kkae Uhn jae kkah ji oo ril jah shin deul ae teul ae maht chwuh yah mahn jik sung ee pool li neun ji Hah roo ee teul nahl ee gahl soo rohk oo rin ji chyuh sseu ruh jil kkuht gah tah
* Nahn nae sae sang eun nae gah seu seu roh mahl deul kkuh yah! Ddohk gah teun sahl meul gahng yo hah ji mah Nae ahn ae suh kkoom teul dae neun sae roh oon sae gae Nahn ki wuh gah gae ssuh! We are the future!
Ji buh chyuh nahn ji geum boo tuh nae in seng ae joo in eun nah rah mahl hah gae ssuh Ddoh mit kkae ssuh mit kkae ssuh jahl hae nah gahl kkuh rah nah neun mit kkae ssuh Hey hey ee jae dah shi nae in seng ae chahm kkyun hah ji mah rah jwuh yo I don't need you, I don't wanna help you. We want it Woo Hyuk ee Let's go!
We are the future!
Hahn buhn jjeum nah doh seng gahk hae ssuht jji Nae gah uh reun ee dwae myun uh dduhn moh seup il kkah Hahng sahng ee ruhn moh seup euh roh sahl soo ee sseul kkah oh baby
* repeat twice
CHOTI JJANG~
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Friday, October 19, 2001 | 09:15 p.m.
Princess Mononoke~
I watched most of Princess Mononoke with Cait and Carol...it was pretty fun. ^^
Bah~ Ben is avoiding me. I was pretty pissed off about that...but like Caitlin said...he is a frosh~
I wonder if its worth it.
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Friday, October 19, 2001 | 05:15 p.m.
Eusha Eusha!
HEEEE~ I finally got "Eusha! Eusha!" It's such a kyooote song. ^^V I just love it. Karaoke time!
"Eusha! Eusha!" by Shinhwa
-Lyrics taken from http://www.solid07.net
Rap 1) We're on a train in the middle of the night, in search of the beach from my childhood. I want to go back to those times when I had no worries, no stress. Ah! I'm tired now I want to stop working! Can't we all just put everything aside and go play in the water!
Verse 1) The cool crashes of waves, sunlight, sand beach¡? I love the beach I like the watermelons that I never get sick of even better. I who waited for this wonderful summer for so long feel so good (dum dee dee dum)
Verse 2) When the summer nights rolls along, let's all light a bonfire and site around. We'll talk about this and that, and nothing fun in particular. We'll forgive even the lamest stories on a night like this. (dum dee dee dum)
Rap) Me-me! Back where I lived when I was little, we all were so happy when summer arrived. Friends by the banks of the stream ( splash splash) even the little doggie (jump jump) don't just sit there, come with me.
There's nothing that'll get done if it won't work in the first place just because you sit and think about it
Chorus) Don't waste your life. If yoo keep living on like that you'll get worn out. Even just once, let everything go, forget everything and enjoy life!
Verse 3) All day if there are too many boring or frustrating things going on, don't try to weight everything out but just take a vacation. Take a train, and a bus and let's go!
Rap 2) Hey! Come on everybody swimming in the sea~ saying doo waa diddy diddy dum dee ree dum! Hey! Come on everybody walking down the sea~ saying doo waa diddy diddy dum dee ree dum!
Chorus (repeat)
Verse 3 (repeat)
I know, I know...the song is in Korean...I just gotta find a good Hangul program so I can type it all out. ^^;;;
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Thursday, October 18, 2001 | 06:33 p.m.
I've been played. >=T
Aite, I'm pretty pissed off about this. >_<
So I think Ben likes me, right? He's acting all flirty and shit (see below) and so I think he likes me. Logical, right?
I ask him if he wants to go see a movie at my house and he's like, "No, I can't, I've got a football game...and I can't because I've got a date...jealous, huh?"
The asshole.
I can't believe that I led myself to believe that he really liked me. I swear. All the shit I've been through is making me wonder if guys really are worth it.
But I can't let something like that ruin tomorrow. Tomorrow is going to be fun...we're all gonna watch Mononoke at my house...so yeah.
I wonder if it's my karma or something. I must reflect on past events and see if I played anyone or something...
It's kinda funny, really. Caiti and I were talking about how "nice guys finish last" in zero period today.
How true is that. --;;;
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Thursday, October 18, 2001 | 03:52 p.m.
Bois...
Caiti wants me to tell Ben how I feel about him. But I need to know a few things first.
Is he a player? This is very important. Because if he is just flirting, I don't want to be led on and therefore will immediately drop all my feelings for him. He seems like the kind to flirt, but that's just me.
And...if he does like me, does he want to be with me even though he's moving? Because that could be another reason.
Bah! I'll just lay out all my cards and get it over with.
Tae Kwon Do was fun. ^^ I got to practice tumbling! I need to get better at it though. ^^;;;; Yay~ Sometimes I don't feel like going to Tae Kwon Do, but when I'm there, it's totally worth it. ^__^
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Wednesday, October 17, 2001 | 09:20 p.m.
I'm so paranoid.
When I went into the vet today, I was expecting to see some weird apparition...I'm so weird like that. It's interfering with my work...=T
Tana had to go to the doctor today. I hope she's alright. She says her mom was freaking out and thinks that she has anthrax...but I dunno...I hope she feels better though.
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Sunday, October 14, 2001 | 10:18 a.m.
Corrections.
Okie, here's some things that my friend said needed clarification. Sorry for the misunderstanding. And props to JoOliE for the corrections. *^^*
-Fire Escape - This is a party held at a church. It's not a "fire drill" or anything like that. It's called "Fire Escape" because you enter the fire escape. How ingenious! ^^;;;
The cemetery - it's right next to the church where the Fire Escape is held.
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Saturday, October 13, 2001 | 09:37 p.m.
Deng...
Okay, now that my world has officially turned upside down, I guess I better let everyone know what's been going on.
First, the fire escape was hella fun. All the dancing and the social thing...it's great. And the greatest part of all is that I semi-picked up two guys...how wonderful is that? And they're both pinoy too! Well, not that race matters, but I just find it amusing that they're both the same race. Not just Asian, but pinoy. Anyways, I enjoyed waiting in line the most. Why? I was always near my boi the whole time we were waiting. I have so much fun with him...it's crazieee~ But I dunno how he feels..because he was like, "What the fuck are you doing? I'm a fucking freshman!" But he still flirts the same way nevertheless. So confusing. @_@ As soon as we entered the Fire Escape we got separated. --;;; But I had a nice fuzzy feeling when I was dancing with another guy and he was like, "YO! GET OFF MAH GURL!" Of course, the guy I was dancing with was one of his friends, but it still felt nice nevertheless.
After a while, we went outside. This time, "we" refers to me and my group of friends, not me and my boi. Anyways, we were walking through the cemetery, and I was getting kinda scared. It doesn't help either when Osh was telling me all these freaky things while we were in there. So I chickened out.
AND I'M FUCKING KICKING MYSELF FOR IT.
But I dunno why...cemeteries freak me out.
Oh! I forgot to write about the other boi. His name's Alex, and he's just mad hot. Fluffy-san said that he was checking me out. SCORE.
I can't wait until the next fire escape. XD
And finally, at work today...Tana says that the vet is haunted...that there was all this freaky shit that's been going down there...like her and Paolo see these weird figures...and they don't resemble the dogs. >_<
Just my luck.
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Saturday, October 13, 2001 | 09:00 p.m.
Sean oppa!
Whew. I finally finished posting those pics of Sean oppa for Cathy...hehe. He's my brother. ^.~ Well, long lost, but that's beside the point.
Here's a pic for you curious folks.
NOH SEAN.
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Tuesday, October 9, 2001 | 10:08 p.m.
Tests. @_@
I had a couple of tests today...it went by aite...I think my hardest by far has to be math...it's a two day examination...@_@
I'm being raped by pre-calc, unnie! Save meeeee~
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Tuesday, October 9, 2001 | 09:24 p.m.
Arghible...
I hate it when my dad criticizes my driving...I dunno why. I don't care if it's school, or Tae Kwon Do, but I get hella pissed off when he criticizes my driving. And whenever he says anything, that's when I screw up. So he thinks I'm bad...kasdhfkalshjdfklasdhfklsadjhflasifgha;sfhd;sadlkfh...
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Sunday, October 7, 2001 | 09:41 p.m.
NOOOOOO~
I didn't get to meet up with Trina and Julie...sucks. But I have a license now so it'll be somewhat easier...I hope. ^^;;;
Driving by myself is so fun! But it doesn't feel any different from driving with my parents since the car isn't mine. =T
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Saturday, October 6, 2001 | 10:29 p.m.
TrInA and JoOLie!!!!!!
Whooohoo! I might be able to meet up with Trina and JoOLie today!!!!!!!
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS~~
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Friday, October 5, 2001 | 04:45 p.m.
WHOOHOO~
YEAH! I PASSED MY ROAD TEST!
I was supposed to take it earlier today but I forgot my ID...so I had to go all the way back home...>.<
The proctor, thought I was a pretty good driver...I failed parallel parking though. =T I didn't mind that, but what I did mind was that my proctor gave me a lecture about it...
BUT I PASSED MY ROAD TEST!
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Friday, October 5, 2001 | 02:47 p.m.
Ahn Chil Hyun.
Kang Ta is just so hot! When I first got introduced to H.O.T, I thought Hyukie oppa was the best looking...
But then I saw Kang Ta and that was the end of that.
He's just a wonderful performer who really loves to do what he does...I have so much respect for him...and he's so sensitive and caring...and he seems nice...
And what a voice. OMG. WHAT A VOICE.
Sometimes I think I have this attraction under control...but I see pics like this and I just fall for him all over again...^^;;;
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Thursday, October 4, 2001 | 04:59 p.m.
What a day.
First, I'm hella bummed out about this whole conflict...
And then I have to tell it all to Cait...which scared the shit out of me because I didn't know how she would react...and my pride got in the way. -.- Yes, I have A LOT of pride. I can't help it!
I dunno what's gonna happen now...but I'm kinda glad that I got it off my chest...even though my pride would be permanently damaged. ^^;;;
And Tae Kwon Do was just crazy. The Master was having us do all sorts of crazy stuff...and I got through it all...which I was very proud of...because we had to do all these running things...like suicides...and jumping exercises...
And as soon as class ends, I almost pass out.
ALMOST. I didn't fully, but I was on the verge of it because I was almost on the ground...@.@
My road test is in two days...I'm hella excited...but I gotta get rid of all these bad habits. =T
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Wednesday, October 3, 2001 | 07:41 p.m.
Envious.
I can't help but feel envious of some people...*sigh* I dunno...it's just weird. They've got so much going on for them at the moment that its crazy...and they're so happy...I dunno. I guess I'm lonely or some stupid shit like that.
And everyone's got their own edge or something like that, but I don't really have any of that going on for me...well, at least I don't think so.
*sigh*
But yeah...I can't help but be jealous...sucks, no?
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Tuesday, October 2, 2001 | 09:16 p.m.
Being melancholy sucks.
I'm so sad today...and fucking pissed off...but I can't seem to figure it out. So I'll just rant on and maybe you guys can figure it out.
Actually, I think people in general are getting to me. I dunno why, but I cannot stand the people that are closest to me right now. And no...it's not any of you online buds of mine...I lub you guys. ^^ You know who you are...so for now...just stay away.
I guess it's because my morals are so old-school that I'm just so fucking pissed off right now.
Gosh, it's so fucking stupid that I can't believe I'm fucking pissed about it.
Thank God Lance is online...I think I would have a breakdown if he weren't here.
Tanya, where are you...
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Monday, October 1, 2001 | 02:03 p.m.
Gosh~
It's 10:22, and I'm still doing homework.
Help me. Someone.
I saw Kimmay's page...it's so kawaii!!!!!!~ *gives thumbs up of approval* She's got the mad html skillz...which I wish I had...well, I'm getting there, but I'm still not as good as she is.
I tried to do some more work on my AA page, but I'm just not getting inspired...
And Trina, we are so gonna dorm together at Rutgers...hehe...our posters of Minwoo...XD I can't wait. Actually, I think half the room would be Minwoo oppa. The other half (mine) would be Kang Ta!
And for those of you who don't know who perfection...I mean, Ahn Chil Hyun is, here's a pic. But remember, he's mine...and others...we share...but he's more mine than others. ^^;;;
AHN CHIL HYUN.
*sigh* It can't get much better than that, kidos...oh, and if you want to know who Minwoo is...just look at this picture.
LEE MINWOO
...hehehe...such hotties. ^^
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Sunday, September 30, 2001 | 10:22 p.m.
Bio sucks.
I keep screwing up on this lab I'm doing...but oh well. I'll just make paper cranes in the meantime. It's cool to see the people in the school come together to make cranes and everything...it's just great.
Kuya went back to Rutgers today. I kinda miss him...it's so much fun to joke around with him, and he's such a good guy...even though he'll kick my ass every now and then. =T
*sniff* Colds suck. Everyone seems to be getting sick lately...Tana didn't come to work today and I wonder if she's okay. She was hella sick yesterday...
My eye is getting better! Whoohooo~
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Sunday, September 30, 2001 | 10:02 a.m.
Chatting on AIM is so fun...but I want my hero to get online! LOL...
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Friday, September 28, 2001 | 10:17 p.m.
Something to think about...
I got this from my friend Patrick, and it got me thinking. Mahal kita Patrick!
Read Slowly & Think Long on Each Sentence...
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends
with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and
impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push.
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love,
love
somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the
good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while
you might miss it.
A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover, HARD TO FIND
and LUCKY TO HAVE.
Some people make the world SPECIAL just by being in
it.
BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look
ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND
will be there.
TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS.
Friends are FOREVER.
Good friends are like stars....You don't always see
them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown. You never know who is falling in love
with your smile.
What do you do when the only person who can make you
stop crying is the person who made you cry?
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then
it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life, but only
friends leave footprints in your heart.
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Friday, September 28, 2001 | 09:24 p.m.
I went through the whole day thinking that it was Tuesday...when it was really Wednesday. Which is probably a good thing, no? Actually, I probably thought it was Wednesday since I knew I had to go to Tae Kwon Do but then the thought crossed my mind that it could possibly be Tuesday.
And that's what started this whole mess.
I'm getting addicted to making paper cranes. I can't help it! I was making some in English and in Psych...it's a good way to pass the time. ^^;;; But to think...making 6,000+ of them...for every victim that passed on...>.<
We watched a clip about King Arthur in English. He's actually somewhat interesting. It's better than hearing our teacher go on about trolls and rainbow bridges...@.@ I always wind up doodling my Hiragana and Kanji on my English notebook.
I'm sure he'll appreciate that. --;;;;
Tae Kwon Do was fun. ^^ Some other students tested...and one hadto do a jump back-kick...and he pulled it off! Was hella cool. I dunno why I think this, but if my belt isn't on right, I'm always off balance...I kept losing my balance on everything. @.@ We also did some nuchaku work. I love that stuff. ^__^ And oppa looked so cute when he was doing it! He also appeared that he would be a good dancer. But then again, that's just me...I also thought he would say yes to me when I asked him to the prom...--;;;
And speaking of guys, everyone seems to be having their guy woes. It just sucks. All the guys I hella enjoy hanging out with are FRESHMEN. Not that I have anything against freshmen...it's just that it feels weird hanging out with guys that aren't even 16...and you can't like them and such...=T
My eye has been bothering me for a while. I look like this: -.o
Stupid stye...hehe...but I tell everyone I got into a fight...and they're like, "REALLY?!" And I'm all, "Nope...j/p." XP
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Wednesday, September 26, 2001 | 09:15 p.m.
Well, now I'm using this site again for my journal entries. ^^;;;
Why?
Because I feel like it.
It took me a while to get this page done...I hope I like it long enough so that I won't have to do anything like this again. ^^;;; I know, I know, I'm being hella lazy.
I'm hungry. I had like 10 rolls for dinner, but I'm still hungry.
And I'm also feeling kinda melancholy. I dunno why. I think it started once I found out that I couldn't go to Tae Kwon Do today. But I dunno why that's making me sad. I think it's because now it's such a hassle for me to go practice one of the simple things that I love to do. It seems now that Tae Kwon Do has become more and more rare for me...which hella sucks.
I remember I wanted to become a black belt, but now I just want to learn as much as possible from the Master before I have to leave for college...
I had absolutely no homework today. Well, a little Japanese assignment. I pretty much got all my hiragana down, I think. I like katakana so much better than hiragana...it's so much easier to read. ^^;;; I love my Japanese class though. It's so fun. ^^V
Oyasuminasai!!! Hehe...
Kaoru longed for Himura-san on Monday, September 24, 2001 | 08:50 p.m.
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