I am not happy with this.

She is not one of those people that deserves to have something like this happen to them. She's smart, fun, witty, creative...one of those amazing people that you rarely meet. Seeing the state that she is in now pisses me off beyond belief.

I do believe in karma...so he will get what he deserves. One day he will find someone so great that he would marry her in a heartbeat...but she'll play him. And he'll see how it feels. And it will hurt. A lot. And it will hurt for as long as for every girl that he's done this to.

Kittay, I don't know what to say to you because I'm still young and naive. But do know this.

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.

You are the most amazing person that I have ever met. You became one of my role models. You're so independent and intense and passionate...it's beautiful. Every part of you is beautiful. Those that fail to see that are blind.

And you will find someone who will rock your world...and his words will be true. Every word that will come from his mouth will be said from the bottom of his heart.

I hope you feel better...

*143 John 637*

And George Harrison died today. --;;;; But he lived a good life...lived it to the fullest. I hope I can do that before I go...

SCORE~

And I finally went back to Tae Kwon Do. I kept messing up my form...I keep mixing up down block and in-to-out block...hehe you people in Tae Kwon Do will know what I'm talking about. xD It felt great to be back. I found out Jocelyn had a foot problem and might be out for a while...I was glad to see her though. I was glad to see everyone. hehe I almost died in class...so many push-ups and drills. x___X I was practicing my one-step sparring nonstop for 10-15 minutes with Instuctor O...we were both hella tired by the end...I'm so out of shape...I'm really gonna miss that dojang when I head off to college. --;;;;

Now to study some bio. -_______-

And then I look at my college application (photocopy)...AND I FUCKED UP PART OF IT. Now I gotta go to my counselor and tell her that she needs to tell the college about my screwup...and that's not gonna look good to the college. >_______<

This day started out so well...it really did...

Rutgers is calling me for a scholarship. But the thing is that all I need is my admissions application's income tax things...apparently John didn't have to send in those things? I have no idea what's going on. @__@ What I am concerned about is the Dec. 1 deadline...if it gets there any later I'm eligible for jack shiet...I'm so nervous...

It's the absolute kyooooootest movie ever! I loved it, even though the book is still better.

Sad to say, but I think the actor who plays Harry Potter is so kyoooote! ^^;;;; Everyone was just like how I imagined them to be...except for Snape and Hermione. I thought Snape would look a little bit more menacing, and Hermione needs to look a little more nerdy...

The movie stuck to the plot of the book very well though. My favorite part still has to be the Quidditch match. xDDDD

Now I just want to go read Harry Potter. hehehehehe~

And Jaline will have a problem with DAT.

Some other shit went down with some other peepz...don't really want to say here what happened, but in the end (hehe, that's a great song. Linkin Park.) someone said some things that I never thought I would hear. Never ever. And basically, I can't relate, so I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I can't relate...but that's just who I am. And what makes people think that I don't have problems myself? Sure, everything looks good on the surface, but deep down there are a lot of issues that need to be resolved. A LOT. So please spare me the "you've got it so much better than me" speech, but in reality, I don't. No one really has it any better than anyone else. Even those people that seem like they have it going on for them...NO ONE.

Dah! I'm rambling...sorry. ^^;;;

I saw Vet Pinoy today. I was hella suprised to see him...he looks a lot better with his hair highlighted. It was nice seeing him again. Brought back some good memories over the summer...too bad he got fired/quit. I dunno what really happened there though.

Kuya is off at a party in Edison. Lucky boi. I wanna party! I've also been having the urge to drink. The funny thing is that I've never drank before. --;;; Dunno what's going on there with that one...o____O;;; Maybe Kang Ta is having some influence on meeh? HEE HEE HEE~

I NEED MONEY, DAMMIT!

I spent Thanksgiving at my aunt's house. It was a nice, cozy, family thing. ^___^ I wanted some more people and more socializing though. Like last year.

The downside was that we spent it in NY and I couldn't help but cry when I didn't see the world trade center. All those memories flooded back...so that just sucked. A lot.

We had to leave early because I had work. The cool thing was that the boss had her family help out in the kennel, so it wasn't too hard. I just fed the cats, did treatments, and fed the dogs. SCORE. XD

And now I'm here. We won against Summit at the football game. SCORE. =D

Who might see Harry Potter tomorrow? MEEEEEEEEH~ Sweet deal. ^_____________^

My dad yelled at me about my driving. I dunno why, but I get hella fucking pissed off when my dad yells at me when I drive. I guess because I think I drive relatively well. And then later today, I almost got into two car accidents thanks to Little Pinoy.

Thank Yoo, Karma. -__________-

It was fun driving him and his friends around though. ^^;;;

Powderpuff was okay. I only got to see the Frosh/Soph game though. --;;; That sucks. It was fun shouting out random things w/ da Little Pinoy though. XD And Ichigo Toko-San...OMG he's hilarious...tried to jump the bar between the field and the bleachers and he fell...LOL!

I got to see some of my senior friends today. It was nice seeing them all, too! They all look so good...and so grown up and mature. I hope I will look that cool (I know, looks shouldn't matter, but sometimes I can't help it) when I go through the college experience.

Vet boy wanted me to come in later so that he wouldn't get in trouble for not showing up earlier...lol it was cool. Him and I are becoming more comfortable around each other, which is great. He's a funny guy. ^^

Kuya doesn't know when to quit. I was watching the sports/mujick festival on MTV and he wouldn't stop bothering me. --;;; It was funny at first, but then it got old and I kept yelling at him everytime he bothered me. >___<

Oratory gave me a weird vibe when I first went in though. And the guys. *puke* They were so weird! It was hella freaky.

Having no homework is great. All I have is a Japanese assignment...oral quiz. It's about the family members, and I think I have it down. I think. I also got Spanky's s/n in that class. I hella love that class. XD

*sniff* I got hella jealous when I saw this picture.

credit goes to wowses for the pic.

Taya oppa...and Eugene?! That's supposed to be MEEEEEH~

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Then I went to Summit w/ Caiti and Fluffy-san, and we drove around and had mad fun. Then we went to Oratory to find Daven, but he wasn't there. --;;; That kinda sucked, but we're going back tomorrow! XD

Then I thought I was gonna get in trouble with my parents for not calling sooner, but check this: they weren't even home! So I got away with it!!!!!!! XDDDDD

Tae Kwon Do was aite. I wasn't feeling to hot around the middle of class, but I didn't pass out. And that's always good. I got to spar with Tae Kwon Do boi~ I seriously want to think I'm over him, but I honestly think the feelings are buried. --;;; He's just too sexy, dammit.

And everyone's just been so cheerful that it's great. AAAAND Fluffy-san gave me some Tagalog and Hangul fonts for tomorrow. SWEET~

::very content sigh::

I spent most of the day in the car listening to Eve 6, Prevent Falls, Incubus and Sum 41...and yes...Britney Spears. I can't help the fact that I like pop along with rock. --;;;;

Speaking of rock, my dad rocks. He likes Staind and Incubus! Now that's pretty cool~ Even though he's more into their mellower songs, he still likes them!

The van got damaged. We ran over a tire or something and it damaged our car...when we ran it over I was hella freaking out. --;;;;

I have a Bio quiz tomorrow! NOOOOOOOO~~

I can't say much about the place though.

Why?

Because I've been in the hotel the whole time. My dad is at a Kryon event and I'm just here so that I can watch my little brother. And it's been aite so far...the food in the hotel is good. ^^;;; *shrugs*

My dad got lost for a little while and we wound up in the Bronx for a little while. *sighs* Fordham is in the Bronx...and we passed by BC. I wanted to visit Hyesung's Wife, but I don't think I'll be able to. And Hyesung's Wife is probably with Dongwan right now. --;;;;

At my voice lesson I sang...and I guess I sang well. Except that I have no control when I switch to my head voice. And half my song is in my head voice. --;;;; But my instructor said I was doing pretty well. ^___^

I think what made it so great also was that I feel like I'm improving in Tae Kwon Do. I thought I had plateaued, but I'm actually improving. And I LOVE spinning hook kick. It's soooooooo fun. XD

The Golden Sex Kitten brought something to my attention. People don't know how to romanize well. My Korean friends give me like 294576 different ways as to how to romanize something...it's hella confusing~ I personally think that you should just learn at least their characters and so forth so you wouldn't have to worry about stuff like that...

A visual example for you all.

Thanks to The Golden Sex Kitten for the gif.

Now, there should be only ONE romanization of that word. Ramyeon. But I have friends that say "ramyun" and others that say "ramen"...but those are my non-Asian friends...the "ramen" people...I must admit, I say "ramen" myself. But yeah. So there's my point.

I did get my boi's s/n. ^_________^ That was great. It happened towards the end of the Fire Escape too. I just saw him as I was leaving and we talked for like two seconds and then I asked him for his screename. Funny how things work out...I've had several opportunities to ask him and just when I'm about to just trash the idea it all comes together.

Then I saw this other guy there...I think he was checking me out and would've gone up to me and talked to me except for the fact that I was holding Fluff's hand during the time (so I wouldn't lose him in the crowd). XD Sokay...I got my boi. ^_____^

But that was a while ago...as for today, Tae Kwon Do was fun. ^^ I got confused with my forms though...so hard...@___@ But we got to do nunchaku work...I'm more of a fan of the bo, but nunchaku work is still the shit. =D

I guess I have to be more patient. What else can I do? I've been waiting for them and for H.O.T...

I talked to T.P. today. ^______^I miss her soooooo much. It's been what...3 years since I last saw her. And she's my best friend, dammit. She's been there for me since I very first met her. And she's such a wonderful and beautiful person, inside and out. If anything happens to her, Imma punch someone and walk away hella casually.

I got that phrase from Fresh. Salamat Fresh. You rawk mah sawks. ^___^;;; And I got that phrase from the Golden Sex Kitten.

Yes, I do realize I'm very unoriginal like that. T_T;;;; But whatever. I'm happy. ^^

Caiti says I should go to BC. Well, I thought about it, and I think it'd be cool, but I don't think my parents want me going to BC. Or anywhere for that matter. =T I mean, I understand their point, but I need to be free...maybe that's why I want to go to Japan so badly sometimes...

That and the fact that I can go play stalker on Larc en Ciel and Siam Shade and Gackt and then take a boat to Korea and then play stalker on Ahn Chil Hyun.

But that's beside the point.

It's funny, really...how dependent females are on males and vice versa. I don't mean that we need them to survive or anything, but I mean...the companionship that comes from having a boyfriend/girlfriend. Nothing can really come close to it. I guess having seen everyone start to hook up with everyone else makes me realize how "alone" I am in that sense...

But don't get me wrong. I'll keep my guard up...or I'll try to. Unless the guy goes by the name of Ahn Chil Hyun...then that's a different story altogether. I'll try not to make the same mistake I did last time...

*pats self on back* ^^;;;

And then I had to go pick up my dad today, but I had to bring my little brother. He's such a pain in the ass. I do realize that I should be more patient with him, but I cannot help the fact that he is so fucking stubborn. Sometimes I just do not want to deal with him, but I am forced to because my brother is in college and there is no one in the house to take care of him.

Then my dad was yelling at me about my Japanese assignment. All I wanted was a picture, but I guess it's too much or something. I wanted a digital picture so I wouldn't have to worry about cutting an actual picture and all that fun shit, but he said it's too late and it's too much work, and then he says that I always wait until the last minute. I FUCKING GOT THE ASSIGNMENT TODAY.

And as for the icing on the cake...MY STUPID LAYOUT FOR THIS DAMN BLOG WON'T WORK. I can't seem to figure it out either. Tables suck. Pain in the ass....

Ideas anyone?

If that happens to me, I will punch someone and walk away hella casually.

Baby called. It was nice talking to her, but sometimes I'm just not in the mood. I can only take her so much~ But it's all good.

Did some work on my website. How does it look? It's still under construction. --;;;;;;;; But I got inspired, so it should be up soon. ^^

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF...
41. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?: I think it's quite possible. It's more of a lust thing, but that doesn't mean that it's not love...I think. I dunno.
42. ABORTION: I'm pro-life, but I want my options open.
43. TEENAGE SMOKING: What am I supposed to think of it? I think it's kinda gross and a little sad...
44. EATING DISORDERS: Blah~ BAD MEMORIES.
45. RAP: Depends on my mood, and who's rapping.
46. MARILYN MANSON: Haven't heard too much from him.
47. GUY BANDS: lol...Asian. 'Nuff said.
48. DEATH: >_< I'd rather not comment about this one now.
49. TITANIC: It was a sad sad event...
50. JERRY SPRINGER: Funny stuff, but sometimes it's just too much.
51. RAPE: Rape is horrible. Anyone who forces someone into that act is just disgusting.
52. SUICIDE: It'd sadden me greatly to see someone I love commit suicide.
53. SOUTH PARK: lol I don't watch that show too much.
54. GOD: ^____________________^

WHEN YOU HEAR THIS NAME, WHAT DO YOU THINK OF?
55. MATT: Beautiful Singing.
56. FRED: Estaire.
57. ZACK: Zach?
58. MEGAN: Farmington.
59. DREW: Carey?
60. STACEY: Malibu Stacey, from the Simpsons.
61. GRETCHEN: Some old woman.
62. DAVID: heeee~ New Mexico...by my house...rockets..hahahaha~
63. JUSTIN: Timberlake.
64. BRAD: Pitt
65. ZANE: Cool name.
66. HEATHER: Feather
67. MIKE: Froshie buddy!
68. CHAD: The Machine God~ I never met him, but Kimmay mentioned him a few times.
69. ASHLEY: o______O
70. JOSHUA: Fluffy!
71. DANIEL: Johns...*drools*
72. HOLLY: Christmas
73. CHRISTOPHER: Coumbus
74. CHARLOTTE: Web
75. JONNY: JohnnyS!!!!!!!
76. NIKKI: Taylor
77. DO YOU HAVE A JOB?: Yes
78. WHAT COLLEGE DO YOU GO TO OR WANT TO GO TO?: 1tym University~ lol...Fordham, NYU.
79. RELIGION: Roman Catholic
80. DO YOU BELIEVE IN HEAVEN AND HELL?: Somewhat.
81. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ANGELS?: I do.
82. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS?: Yep.
83. DO YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF?: Of course!
84. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?: I already am married! XPPPPPPPPPP
85. WHAT DO YOU DO THAT MAKES YOUR FRIENDS MAD?: I’m too stubborn…and sometimes I can’t keep my mouth shut. =X
86. DO YOU HAVE ANY STUFFED ANIMALS?: Who doesn’t?
87. DO YOU HAVE ANY BAD HABITS?: lol – Swearing? It’s all Fresh’s fault, I tell ya… 88. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE RESTAURANT?: No clue.
89. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE HANGOUT?: My house. Lol
90. PEPSI OR COKE?: COKE(AINE)…I mean…WHO SAID THAT?!
91. LETTERMAN OR LENO:? JaaaaaaaAaAAAAaaaaY~
92. MTV OR VH1: ? MTV2~
93. SPICE GIRLS OR ALL SAINTS?: All Saints
94. BEVERLY HILLS 90210 OR DAWSONS CREEK: Dawson’s Creek
95. ANGEL OR BUFFY: Angel
96. DIET PEPSI OR PEPSI ONE: WTF IS DIET ONE?!?!?!?
97. APPLES OR ORANGES: apples AND oranges.
98. CHOCOLATE OR FLOWERS: Chocolate flowers.
99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LOVE SONG?: “Right Here Waiting.” *^^*
100. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BREAKUP SONG: “So Good” – Destiny’s Child
101. IF YOU COULD BE ANYWHERE RIGHT NOW, WHERE WOULD YOU BE?: Japan? Or in the arms of Kang Ta….HEEEEEEEEEE~
102. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING AT THIS VERY MOMENT?: “Where’s my Japanese drama?”
103. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE SONG "PRETTY FLY FOR A WHITE GUY"?: It’s hella funny!
104. ARE YOU A VEGETARIAN?: Not really.
105. FAVORITE KINDS OF CLOTHES: Clothes that I like. ^^;;;
106. THE LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED: Tomu’s. ^^
107. THE LAST TV SHOW YOU WATCHED: Ummmm...o____O;;;

HAVE YOU EVER... 108. BEEN ON A PLANE: How do you think I went to the Philippines?!
109. WENT SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: Hella salty~
110. CRIED IN PUBLIC: Uh-huh…
111. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yeah…--;;;;
112. FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: I almost did.
113. FELL ASLEEP WHILE EATING: LOL YES! I was hella embarrassed…*^^*
114. GONE TO CHURCH: Yes~
115. CLIMBED A TREE: Yep.
116. WATCHED DAWSON'S CREEK: No…
117. GONE SKIING: Yeah!
118. GONE SNOWBOARDING: No~ =T
119. FELL ASLEEP DURING A SCARY MOVIE: I fell asleep during “Hunt for Red October”…does that count?
120. GONE ALL NIGHT WITHOUT SLEEP: Yeah…hella trippy the next day.
121. BEEN TO CAMP: One time at band camp...no.
122. PLAYED SOCCER: Not on a team.
123. BEEN TO A MAJOR LEAGUE BASEBALL GAME: YEAH YANKEES!!!!!!!!!
124. SEEN A PRO BASKETBALL GAME: On tv?
125. KISSED A GUY/GIRL: No…--;;;
126. SAT IN A RESTAURANT WITHOUT ORDERING ANYTHING: Yes.
127. EATEN SUSHI: Yummay~
128. EATEN FISH: Ya think.
129. WANTED TO DIE: A couple of times…=T
130. MET A CELEBRITY: Nope.
131. MET THE PRESIDENT: No…
132. DRIVEN A CAR: Who has their license!?!?!?! Damn right~
133. DIDN'T WASH YOUR HAIR FOR A WEEK: EWWWWWWWWW NO.
134. BROKEN SOMETHING VALUABLE: I don’t know if it was valuable.
135. BOUGHT ICE CREAM FROM AN ICE CREAM TRUCK: Yes! I miss those days.
136. BEEN SCARED TO GET A SHOT: Yeah…o_________O
137. GOTTEN A CAVITY: Nope. ^_______^
138. SHOPPED AT ABERCROMBIE & FITCH: No. I’m hella poor dammit.
139. SHOPPED AT OLD NAVY: =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
140. THOUGHT YOU WERE IN LOVE: Don’t think so. Never liked a guy that much.
141. HAD AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: lol
142. WATCHED MTV AT 4 IN THE MORNING: Yes.
143. TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: LOL Who saw Jackass?!?!?!
144. MADE PRANK PHONE CALLS: Nope.
145. CAUGHT A FISH: Nope.
146. SNUCK OUT OF YOUR HOUSE: Never had to.
147. GONE TO ANOTHER COUNTRY: The PHILIPPINES~
148. WET THE BED: Nope.
149. ROBBED SOMEONE'S HOUSE: I’m not THAT poor.
150. HAD YOUR HOUSE ROBBED: My car’s been vandalized a few times, but my house is okay. ^^
151. BROKEN THE LAW, WHICH ONES: Stealing?
152. KILLED SOMEONE IN YOUR THOUGHTS: kasjhfialsudjf;sanhilaussjfaslht no. Maybe kick their ass, but not kill them.
153. BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT: Yeah. @__@
154. BEEN BEAT UP: Not yet.
155. BEATEN SOMEONE UP: Heck no.
156. SKIPPED SCHOOL: Nope.
157. BEEN MAD ENOUGH TO PEE IN YOUR PANTS: No.
158. BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK BY A "FRIEND": Yes…it hella sucks.
159. STABBED SOMEONE IN THE BACK: I probably did.

WHO... 160. HAVE YOU CRIED TO OR WITH?: Lots of people.
161. IS YOUR FAVORITE PERSON TO TALK TO ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX: Ummm…T.P.
162. IS YOUR FAVORITE PERSON TO TALK TO ABOUT LIFE?: Kimmay.
163. DO YOU HATE?: No one.
164. MAKES YOU ANGRY?: Depends.
165. IS THE LAST PERSON THAT YOU SAID "I LOVE YOU" TO?: I dunno…
166. IS THE LAST PERSON TO TELL YOU THAT THE LOVE YOU?: Bee~
167. IS THE LAST PERSON YOU KISSED AND WHEN?: LOL
168. WOULD YOU WANT TO MEET?: AHN CHIL HYUN.
169. DO YOU MISS?: John…my grandpa…H.O.T…everyone in NM…
170. DO YOU WANT TO DIE?: No.
172. IS THE NICEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: Junie-ya~
173. IS THE MEANEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: People at the DMV. That place breeds evil.
174. IS THE UGLIEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: LOL
175. IS THE CRAZIEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: Fresh, Riis, Corky’s bro.
176. WAS THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SMILE?: Mommy.

ESSAY QUESTIONS

177. WHAT DO YOU THINK THE MEANING OF LIFE IS?: The meaning of life? Gosh~ What a question. I guess you should experience as much as you can and don’t waste any time since you don’t know when it’s your turn to move on.
178. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS MEAN TO YOU?: I would not be the person I am without them. They mean so much to me.
179. WHAT DOES GOD MEAN TO YOU?: alksuhyfioudsanhfklasjdhfasldknhf;ksadjhsd Where would I be without Him?
180. WHO ARE THE TOP TEN PEOPLE THAT YOU LOVE?: I can’t pick only ten. It’s impossible. And I don’t rank my love. I think love is love…just different kinds.
181. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH? Lol
182. WHATS HIS/HER NAME? C’mon…I’m married LOL~