{ Friday, August 13, 2004 }

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i don't care anymore. whether i have friends or not ..

life .. sux ..

and it's all cause of you. i see how you are! you never care.

**song
{ matsu takako ~ honto no kimochi }

izu @ 09:45 p.m.

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{ Tuesday, August 10, 2004 }

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i need more ice-cream ^_^;;

went to help my dad along with alice ^^; paint newspapers @_@v took our shoes and socks off >.<" {{ naked feet }} they got dirty lol!

invited alice for dinner. dont want her to just drink soup for dinner -______-" {{ u wont get full, u'll just want to pee XD }} then we got her to watch honger dramas with us ^_^b {{ ho ho ho }}

she bought pens for us ^_^"'" {{ thxie ^^v }} so cute!~ she got the cherry one, and i got the coffee bean one XP, they look like dimsum HAHAHAH >.>" but cute .. i'm hungry now -_-"

test tmr T__________________T"

----> i need a host for music T_T

**song
{{ aiko ~ hanabi }}

izu @ 01:12 p.m.

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{ Sunday, August 8, 2004 }

-->lazi izu =]

everything went well. so me happy *^_^*

something is poking my eyes .. x_0

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wednesday july 28 ~ china
saturaday july 31 ~ sweden
wednesday aug 4 ~ spain
saturaday aug 7 ~ grand finale

the grand finale wasn't as good as i thought it would be .. there was no wind. so there were white smoke everywhere which ruins the whole show. i couldn't take any good picture without that smoke blocking the fireworks -_-"

beginning weird .. dont want to talk about it ..

ate icecream with alice. ^_^b that was just .. crazy x_0 {{ note to self ** never get 2 scoops of pink grapefruit }} alice was nice ^_^'' she trade her fre-fre->.>" "chocolate" one wit my pink grapefruit .. oh the sour pain T_T it would be ok but i havent eaten dinner yet .. x.x

quote**
mr.r : people are born stupid

HAHAHA so true!!! i always wonder wat is inside their head!! hays? LOL!! >.>" they ar so dumb and likes to step on our blankets =.= oh those asses =.=

leaving was the hardest part -_-" and harder for me .. since i'm small .__." people were like pushing for no fucking reasons -_-" dumbasses .. when we reach to the exit, some ASSES pushed me and alice against the garbage can. omg the corner was like stabbing into me =.= and then i pushed back out onto those asses =.= {{ u deserve it!! }} *mummbles* but it was exciting kekeke. cuz i want to bitch at ppl XPP omg those drunk dumbasses were walking across the intersection where MANY PEOPLE are trying to walk up davie st. *mummbles* got separated from alice, mom, dad, sis. terri, her bro and me were walking forward, backward, sideways. lots of drunks. i want to punch them >.>" if only i was bigger .__." then we got out of davie st. and walked parallel to it on another street. doot doot.

i regret =.= i should have spit my gum onto those people >=] that would be fun!! muhahahaha!! especially in their hair >=]!

by the way .. lots of chubbby people XD but since it acts like a cushion. it's all good =]

next year i'm bringing a tweezer with me >=] since guys are vunerable both and back and with my height. it's all perfect ^_^b!~ all you do is stick it out and pull HARD and i bet they wont even have time to scream XP!!! muahahahahhaa >=]

i feel so evil

cant study .. trying to .. but .. cant ..

**song
{ F.I.R ~ fly away }

izu @ 08:28 p.m.

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{ Friday, August 6, 2004 }

-->mad frustrated tired

i told you so many times. but you never listen. you're not trying anymore. i don't understand you anymore .. you never tell me anything anymore. you accuss me. you dont trust me anymore. i lost faith in you.

北風と太陽

あの夏 僕は彷徨える旅人
取り囲むのは 夏なのに北風
登る階段が消えかかった時
心のコートを剥ぎ取ってくれたのは
君の灼熱の太陽だったんだ

自分だけを信じていた あの頃
生意気だけがidentity
だけど ヒタヒタと迫り来る現実と対峙したら
ジメジメと夢に蓋をしようとしていた

揮(はばか)らす苦悩 露知らず不・BR> 僕のエゴ 神の御加護を
あの夏 僕は彷徨える旅人
取り囲むのは 夏なのに北風
登る階段が消えかかった時
心のコートを剥ぎ取ってくれたのは
君の灼熱の太陽だったんだ

自分だけを守っていた あの日々
ため息だけで哀願、危機…
だけど キリキリと突き刺さる朝焼けを凝視できず
ユラユラとすぐ瞼 閉じようとしていた

舌足らず苦情 恥知らす不動
僕の溝 神のみぞ知る

あの夏 僕は身勝手な旅人
すり抜けるのは 夏なのに北風
渇く汗さえも舐め始めた時
最後のローブを引き上げてくれたのは
君の唇と太陽だったんだ

ああ 無情…
おかまいなしに陽はまた昇る
時に残酷な太陽
だけどそれには意味があったんだね…

あの夏 僕は彷徨える旅人
取リ囲むのは 夏なのに北風
登る階段が消えかかった時
心のコートを剥ぎ取ってくれたのは
君の…君の…太陽だったんだ

さあ 旅を続けよう
あの夏と君がくれた道標
僕は変わったんだ 変われたんだ
伝えたい 今は何処にいるのか
太陽の君 僕の北風へ

izu @ 12:21 a.m.

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{ Monday, August 2, 2004 }

-->zZz

didnt want to update cuz .. i just want to sleep but somebody named alice { i'm not going to mention any names here } made me update. haha XP

went to fireworks again XP this time with alice, my dad + sis. mom was sick .. she looked so pale x_0 and she said she always feel like she's going to pass out .. i kinda wanted to stay home .. but fireworks .. but .. {{ guilty x.x }}

{{ latenesss .. }} got out of the house late .. hahaha .. ha .. >.>" i was cooking food for mom and forced alice some food =] that was the fun part ^_^v my cooking isnt that bad .. beside, tofu miso isnt that hard to make >.>" haha ..

dad drove .. btw first time driving since he returned to vancouver. but he had a lil .. practiced in the morning ^^; i was so scared .. but he drove pretty well and annoyed me to get my L hahaa. anywayz ..

the parking adventure
OMG if it wasnt for me MUAHAHAA {{ just kidding XP }} we would have gotten rip off x_x
the sign said " all day" but it just mean daytime and it's only till 6pm. the hell .. and fricking dollar per hour. =.= and when that stupid guy just kept standing there and kinda "forced" us to buy the tickets. yeaaa right. =.= we're not that stupid!! then we moved to the next parking lot. pretty fair ^^; beside it's an underground parking lol {{ safe }}

the almost got trap inbetween two doors adventure
i think i'm cursed hahaha. when we got out of the car, my dad asked us if we want to walk up the stairs, then i said no. then when we walk up a level, i led them to a doorway to a stairway to howe st. lol! first there was a green door. my dad jus kept pushin and pushin it >.>" then i found a button and pressed it. and it opened =] then there was another door to the outside. my dad was fiddling with the lock and suddenly the green door closed!!!! AHH x.X!! we couldnt open any door at ALL!! the elevator doesnt work either .. X__X we can see the ppl outside the glass door .. then my dad got it open hahaha. phew x.x our hearts were beating so fast hahaa. that was cool XP, i kinda dont mind doing it again >.>"

walked down davie st. saw alot of {{ rainbow }} i cant help it, since i actually know wat it means o.o! i kept pointing it out to alice XP

blah blah blah

found a super sweet place at english bay. and the fireworks looks so big! it was so fun =] took alot of pictures .. or try to o.o" timing was off by so much -_-" and had to switch between cameras XP omg, there was this asshole. in the beginning he was like "this SUX" then he kept saying sick stuff. a lady told him to shut up and he said "make me blah blah" i said "shut ur hole" but he didnt hear it phew >.>" then he said something about "ur finger gettin all wet blah blah" .. stupid asshole. i think he was saying something about the lady doing him or something. but i think he's jus imaging it while doing it with a STICK!! >.>" that damm ass .. hope he die >.>"

so many ppl when it ended. i kept holding onto alice. then we { alice and me } got separated with my dad and sister. >.<" alice kept wavin her hands and my sister waves her to keep in contact hahaha .. tall ppl *mummbles* >.>" OMG there was this fat guy .. this tummy was like hittin us .. it was soft .. but .. *shrudders* .. lots of ppl, we took pictures of the head. the moon was big, we took picture of that. lots of drunk ppl, we avoided them =] *thinks smirnoff >.>"* hahaa ..

went to eat afterward, got amused by this beeping thing hahaha .. ha. ate and taught alice cantonese =] i wish for some ba fan juu >.<" there's always next time =] i love ba fan juuu XP

today, went to alice's house to study =] hmm "study" lol. got distracted. -_-" it's kinda sad x.x we got distracted SOOO easily .. XP surprisingly, we didnt get distracted by the pc o.o! but tv, her ham ham {{ benben }}, food .. }} got oreo icecream from cheveron. kinda felt bad cuz alice bought them x.x next time i pay >.<" we watched cartoons =] and lots of shows ^^" then we eat icecream. and i gave benben a haircut =] {{ welcome to salon'ro'kay~ }} =] her ham ham is cute =] didnt bite me *phew* then went home .. showered .. ate blueberries!!

bleh .. i'll let alice upload all the pictures instead =] muhahahahahahahhahahahahahahah.
clickhere

**song
{ twins ~ you are my UFO }

izu @ 01:15 a.m.

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{ Saturday, July 31, 2004 }

-->bleh ..

last night my mom told me something that i dont really want to know .. i just realized that she didnt want to yell at us .. but she got treated really bad ..

i feel so guilty ..

{ 旧゚芟ヲイサニ .. }

last night i uploaded the pictures .. but the the stupid server .. *mummbles* .. i'll post it up later >.>" meanwhile .. go to alice's

**song
{ a tale of two sisters ~ ost }

izu @ 10:17 a.m.

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{ Friday, July 30, 2004 }

-->* speechless *





i am super duper annoyed



**song
{ tm revolution ~ web of night }

izu @ 02:46 p.m.

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{ Thursday, July 29, 2004 }

-->... { chinese + english }

stupid mom likes to stand right beside me and look at everything i do.
mom: it's because you're doing something wrong, something that other people cannot see. {{ ュィ」アo・ }}
seriously, everyone have their ways of working, some people doesn't mind, but some people really mind. it's because whatever she's doing involve screwing up the computer, so i have to watch over. cant i do something without her standing beside me like some prisoner? god .. stupid fucking bitch. then she started saying that i keep exaggerating and shiet, like how i did just one little thing and make it sound like it's the world biggest thing. the hell, i never said that. then this one time, when i was watching tv, and in the middle, she told me to wash dishes. come on, at least let me finish first before washing those dishes. then she went in and start banging the dishes. seriously, it's not like i said i wont do it.

enough of her, ruining my night ..

went to the vancouver light festival {{ fireworks }} with alice, her mom and her mom's bf. it wasnt that bad ^^; with some embaressing moments. hahaha {{ evil camping mats + bright blue blanket XPP }} it was funni ^^"'" kekeke. we ate sushi + drank bbt while her mom and her bf went to eat dinner. then we got attack by bee .. then beeS =s i got freaked out so badly .. that i got cramps hahaha and tumbled off the mats a couple of times >.>" but alice should be more freaked out ~.~ cuz it was attacking her >.>" and i just .. scared myself @_@ hahaha. that was very very fun >.>" the oily salmon skins attracted mr.bee.
izu's magnificant plan =] { >.>}"
: first we'll use that piece of oily salmon skin as bait >=] then we'll lure mr.bee to buzz on it. when he's doing that .. {{ BAM }} we'll close the lid MUHAHAHA!!! ofcourse, we'll have to shake the bee after =] and make sure the salmon hits him!! then we chuck him into the garbage can ^^v

izu's magnificant plan #2 { >.>}"
: BUTT POWER!! ^_^b

went down to the beach and took a bunch of pictures ^_^ {{ will upload them later ^^; }}

saw people in yukata o_0!! i want a light color one -_-" anywayz .. tummy growling @_@ .. so me will sleep .. ^^;

**song
{ offline }

izu @ 05:40 p.m.

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