{ Monday, November 29, 2004 }

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got a new scanner yesterday ^_^ it's epson something something and is able to scan in slides and negatives ^^b! was thinking of exchanging it for the canon one =P cept it doesnt have the automatic negative feeder >.>' now i just need a new desktop to go with it .. *cough* 500 giggggg *-*!!

i finally did it .. i talked back to my mom during an argument. i guess my reasons sounds .. right haha. cuz she didnt say anything to defend herself. lol =P then afterward she tried cheering me up by feeding me food .. -_-" during the argument, i kept thinking .. wat would happen if i stab her with a knife or stab myself with a knife >.>' or get really agressive and strangle her by accident? i'm thinking too much -_-'

burn discography of maaya sakamoto!~ weeee surprisingly she fits into one cd haha =P

very tired ~_~' gonna burn another disc for tmr .. still dont kno whether we're doing candy floss or lolita

happy > found out wat my path is ..
sad > ai ..

**song
{ do as infinity ~ raku(sp) } <- new single

izu @ 01:04 a.m.

{ Saturday, November 27, 2004 }

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got a huge bruise on my foot .. stupid gimpy =.=" now everytime i move my toes it hurts ><'

stagecraft time!~ have to stay afterschool .. bleh and yah! haha >.>' *cough cough*

got our grad pictures back too .. wah .. everyone is so pretty .. and mine .. bleh .............

**song
{ f.i.r ~ fly away }

izu @ 12:16 a.m.

{ Sunday, November 21, 2004 }

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felt so annoyed .. very very annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. annoyed .. -_-"

i am not talking back, i'm giving you reasons. if you say practicing makes everything perfect. well i dont see it coming out from you. i listened to that cd too. and i'm working to play at that speed. let's see you try playing that speed.

you're sucha bitch .. bitch .. bitch .. bitch .. bitch ..

i hate you and i wish you will stay away from me. you can die or watever. i dont give a damm. dont you dare to ask me anything anymore.

**song
{ mika nakashima ~ hi no tori }

izu @ 10:03 a.m.

{ Tuesday, November 16, 2004 }

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listening to futatsu-boshi kinenbi by otsuka ai over and over again. it's so cute because it has a summer feel =] now i kno why ariko likes her songs =P

sent it to lg, he was " what what? love song? " haha so funny XP

i know i'm not really looking and stuff just wondering when i will meet him <<-- haha =P

oi -_____________-" havent receieve any presents .. felt kinda sad .. guess no one will ever know what it feels like. ~_~'that's why i want to get out of high school as soon as possible. i dont even feel like i belong anywhere anymore .. *headache* *-*

got my new printer all plugged in and ready to print XD! it's sooo nice and pretty. {{ canon pixma ~ ip 5000 }} so cute, so shiny, so boxy~! wat i like about it can print both side. it's so cute ^^b! but everytime while it's printing it looks like it's gonna fall off the lil box ~_~'

i wanna move ~___________~' it was weird when my mom asked me if i want to move. but .. to where? ofcourse, as far as possible. i want a new start. now i really want to backpack around the world. there's so much things i want to see. i want to learn more, know more .. but there's school *mummbles* -_-' ai ~__________~"

boomball tmr >____________<" gonna fall on my ass again .. got a bruised-buttcheek last time T______T"

**song
{ otsuka ai ~ futatsu-boshi kinenbi }

izu @ 12:31 a.m.

{ Saturday, November 13, 2004 }

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wahh so cold today =<

went to future shop after chinese school. yay! gonna get a new colour printer ^^b and a new scannner too ^^b! but have to get it on monday tho o.o" some a-hole bought the last one -_-' {{ booo }} but it's pretty ^^b lots of functions with 6 colours cartitage {sp sp sp >.<"}. as for the scanner, was thinking of getting the one with scanning negatives functions. sounds pretty cool =P

so tired ~_~' still dont know if i should drop piano, but i cant .. need to finish it .. >.<' but my mom and i had a talk another day about wat i should do. i told her that i want to help my dad edit his films. she said it's a good idea and i can gain experiences .. blah blah. and i can get my desktop with 500 gigs =P {{ my desktop .. ho ho ho ^^b }} so many to learn now .. composing music, photography, make-up, hairdressing, editing, filming, cello, drums, guitar, designing .. o.o"" that does sound like alot .. now just have to finish university .. but just wonder if i can get in first >.<''

maybe a few years after university, gonna start a commerical company =P sounds so easy .. but still so many things to do.

sometimes i feel so bad .. how i'm such a failure -_-" my dad is so successful in so many things. almost everyone in hk knows who he is -_-" have to work hard .. >,<'

i find my piano teacher very annoying .. she always compare the education in hk (in her days .. ) to the education here .. u cant really do that. especially since you never experience any edcation here. *mummbles*

might start wearing my glasses again .. my sister said i look smart with glasses on o.o" i think it's the hairstyle >.>' lol ^^;

time to organize my files and free some spaces =P

**song
{ aiko ~ kaban }

izu @ 06:37 p.m.

{ Tuesday, November 9, 2004 }

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wahhh 17 already >.<'

pe : was so lonely in the beginning of the class .. had no partner so was kicking the ball by myself .. T_T" then was put into teams. alot of ppl didnt really show up o.o" first we had 6 teams, but that didnt work out so end up with 4 teams. i guess i was really bored .. since i was kicking the ball back and forth. i actually did more than i normally would do =P and that includes ramming into ppl ^^; william, tom, kyle, jen are in my teams. william had some problems kicking the ball in the beginning but we did better. it's actually pretty fun with 6 teams. =P less ppl to worry about o.o" i ended up being a goal keeper >_<' it was hard work .. got hit on the leg so many times >.<' but mr.p joined our team =P cuz he was wearing a red shirt that matches with our bibs! now where did they get that idea that i'm vicious. that's ricidious! >.>' didnt really beat gimpy up by that much >.>' it's ALL his fault for making me kick the ball out <.<' lol =P

eng : michael or john suks at cheating =P did english vocab quiz .. omg took the whole period hahah =P she seriously cant control the class >.<"

lunch : ate cake! thxie thxie ^^; kinda confused tho .. ._." not sure who bought the cake >.>' but very very happy and embarassed {{ cuz they sang happy b-day so loud >.<' }}

math : ._." stupid math test T_T

jap : it was pretty ok. not really that hard. ^^;;

i'm so tired ~_~' *dies*

from now on .. gonna bring camera to everywhere i go =P

**song

{ the pillows ~ good dreams }

izu @ 04:44 p.m.

{ Monday, November 8, 2004 }

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yay! b-day tmr! but also in a way .. not good? friends arent really celebrating with me .. i guess it's more like another day -_-" i dont know why but i really care about my bday. when that day comes, i'm amazed that i'm still alive >.>' {{ no i didnt try to suicide >.>" }} but also in a way how i still havent accomplish anything yet. {{ kinda disappointed }} everybody is busy .. so not going to go out with friends? T____________T" {{ RURURU'ing }}

yay^2! finished applying to all the univerities/college that i want to go. end up applying for ubc, sfu and langara. screwd up my application for ubc T_T" already sent them an email .. hope they'll reply >.>'

was kinda disappointed how alot of ppl doesnt know it's my "special" day tmr >.>' lol! even more disappointed when they didnt see my new haircut i got the other day with terri and alice. oi -_-' but it's ok. i like my haircut alot =P $8 is not too bad too. took my mom a while to figure out that i had a haircut =P {{ yessss "project" }} hahahhaha =P

bio test today isnt too bad .. -_-" manage to finish everything in time ^^; mr s = a hole >.>'

english quiz, math test and japanese test. ooooo .. on my bday too o.o" i should tell them and maybe they'll give me an A as a present XP!

present .. ai -_-" gonna receive presents late o.o" cuz havent told ppl wat i want? o.o" i cant help it .. even i'm not sure myself o.o"

suggestions : useful, pretty, cute, eletronic? {{ hahah }} plushy is ok .. but if everyone gets me plushy = o.o"! anywayz .. yea .. ._."

**song
{ the pillows ~ sono mirai wa ima }

izu @ 07:32 p.m.

{ Sunday, November 7, 2004 }

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wahhh so bored today o.o" went to chinese school then buy pizzza ^^b then went home. i was so bored .. i studied my bio.

2 more days till my b-day. very excited. even though i have a math and japanese test and a english vocab. quiz on my bday T_T" and a bio test before my bday.

. . . -_-"

stupid teachers o.o"

tried to apply for universities since i finished studying .. found out that .. most sites are down -_-"

heard 2 loud boom sound from sexsmith .. i kept thinking that it might be a gun. >.>' maybe cuz it was all those hk-drama i watched >.>' hahaha. after that, heard ppl going into a van and drove away <.<'

ahh stupid application fees ><'

izu @ 12:37 a.m.

{ Friday, November 5, 2004 }

-->UZY desu!! >.<"!

in just .. 4 {{ counting got screwd up o.o" }} it's a very very very special day =P!! a day where i'll be old T_T wahh i feel the wrinkles already o.o"

mr.s is gayy!! so gayy!! stupid tRNA and mRNA. he talked about it but never showed us how to do it!! so stupid =.=" *mummbles* surprisingly i actually did pretty ok on the test.

got bitch by my piano teacher again. maybe it's telling me that music is not really the thing for me. i'm really slow in doing the theory questions .. but she cant really compare herself to me. i hate the part how she said that i have a bad attitude. like wtf .. if i dont care, i wouldnt even do the hw .. i wouldnt even go. old people and their traditional way of thinking. at least .. that might provoke (?) me to do better .. >.<'

so so so sorry lg .. have to do hw and stuff. sorry T_T"

**song
{ stefanie sun ~ the moment }

izu @ 12:58 a.m.

{ Wednesday, November 3, 2004 }

--> toki-doki

Long time no blogging since .. oct 27th o.o"

Oct 30th : Chinese school, finished my essay in 10 min less. At least got that out of the way, except ms.wong gave us another essay to write. Dont really know what to write .. maybe the monkey will die at the end =P
Went to Terri's house at around 9? Sorry that i got there late ><' Had to practice piano for a few hours so the teacher will stop bitching at me. {{ Sometimes i want to quit piano .. I want to learn cello and drums. It's kinda my dreams, I know I will do a good job and will practice. Even if I get my teacher's licence for piano .. will i teach anyone? My sightreading is so bad at some points .. always wonder why my mom doesnt force me to practice everyday before .. but I know that my interest went down because I don't like the old piano teachers at all. Some are showy off and some are just old. I still remember how this old hag was saying to my mom that my sister cant play the piano because her hands are small. ok .. i dont think small hands does matter that much. geez .. }}
Went to eat sushi wit terri's family along with alice. It was fun =P Cause I ended up talking too much instead of thinking about what to eat =P Since it was terri's mom b-day, we went to the front desk and ask for dessert =P. The ice-cream came and we all sing happy b-day song to her ^^
Stayed up real late and i mean .. late alice passed out first, then terri kicked me off the computer at the end =P so then slept at around .. 5 in the morning >.>' After fixing my little bed on the floor, i passed out. Suddenly the radio went on, at first I didnt really care that much but it after like 10 min it still wasnt turned off {{ haha XD }} then it started talking about the pne fright night with a person going " MUHAHAHAHA " in the background .. kinda freaked me out >.>' cause i sleep right beside the closet .. >.<' Couldnt figure out what button to press when i tried to turn it off o.o" found the remote beside terri and started pressing random buttons. I have absolutely no idea what i pressed XD! Just as long as it was turned off. It's either 7 or 9, heard vibrating sounds and saw alice's cell phone vibrating off the table { i was under it .. >.>' } caught it and chucked it at alice. then passed out again .. *-* Alarm went off, saw terri's foot and flicked it >.>' terri twitched XD!! then passed out again .. >.>' The alarm went off a few more times, we didnt bother to wake up hahaha.

Oct 31 : Went to Richmond mall and walked around, tried on some dresses. They actually fits want to buy them .. but didnt bring enough money .. T_T" It was actually fun trying on clothes =P Then went to Yaohan and saw my old friend Daisy. blah blah ..
Got home around 7 something. Then went to get alice and went to michael's house to meet up with everybody for the fireworks. Fireworks was soooo fun and pretty .. but didnt bring camera .. o.o" still want to chuck sparklers at people XD!

today : Played boomball for pe at Sunset Ice Rink. It was so fun =P even though I fell on my ass a couple of times T_T" I bruised my hand .. T_T" Thx Chris for lending me his gloves otherwise my hands will be even more bruised o.o" Gave william a ride back, but gimpy and michael went to gimpy's house to study history. but at the end of the day, they got caught by our english teacher. I could tell she was a bit disappointed .. almost half of the class skipped .. >.>"
Damm i didnt present today, was a bit .. disappointed. Felt kinda bad cause lin went and i didnt T_T" I know .. I chickened out >.>' I know i can do it .. but i'm just not sure if i can say the sentences fluently .. gonna practice in front of my mom =P she said my sentences were pretty good. I think i added a little too much, but I know sensei would expect more from us if we present it next day u.u" well practice makes perfect =P
gonna work hard ^^b!
bio test quiz tmr .. T_T"

sorry lg for not talking to you alot these days, i guess i'm just getting distracted by alot of things. you know i want to work hard. and you have to work hard too kay? ^^ *poke poke* {{ 1437 }}

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**song
{ flow ~ life is beautiful }

izu @ 10:35 p.m.