Took to the pen on Saturday, May 29, 2004...

So we did get to book out today :p though today morning's parade was tiring and the rsm was like so thorough with everyone's attire that we spent like hours just standing there O_o and a company standby bed! Ack they almost found the phone sigh went rifling through my clothes and stuff in search of ammunition that shouldn't be there. Reached home and rushed through everything due to sudden change of plans to go to my granddad's house to celebrate his birthday :) and hmm will be on a phone hiatus haha cos wun be bringing in this phone until vesak so cya everyone :)

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 06:05 p.m.


Took to the pen on Thursday, May 27, 2004...

Din do much the whole day other than just miscellaneous stuff like carry cupboards around, clean stuff and read books cos being the lost and unwanted child of the battalion we weren't really assigned roles in a platoon yet, so had no fixed weapon and is unable to participate (thankfully) in the skills challenge. Well guess things ain't too bad yet, i'm sure it could get a lot worse, just tt i'm just jealous tt some people get to slack so much in army and the indistribution unsettles me ... Well i suppose it's good tt i'm too healthy to be downgraded to desk job, for health is money, no? Though miracles and fairytale endings are hard to come by in today's world i guess i have always been harbouring a hope that my post here has been a mistake, or it's just part of the grand plan (like stories, eh) and i'd be saved from monotony the army life and the 24/7 enforced dedication of my life to a organisation that has probably forgotten my existence and given a nice slack and useful meaningful job. Yeah, yeah, dream on. But i guess i will :p

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 10:57 p.m.


Took to the pen on Wednesday, May 26, 2004...

Is there no limit to how far one can fall, no earth to break the plunge, to comfort one that things can't get any worse, any MORE longer? Is there no depths to the endless tracks towards despair, no sign boards replacing the curse of the empty landscape, serving as beacons of passage however dim, to the lost souls blown downwards by the winds of fates and change?! Distraught, dismayed, stunned, shocked; this words are perhaps MERE euphemisms to our feelings, no single word can cunningly replace the emotions that are churning; just when we've all just gotten used to the status quo, with soothing wind caressing our wounded hearts and souls and whispering without words that all will be better soon, our worse fears once banished has now revived in full force to haunt us; taunting us, welcoming us into their icy grips, ever tightening and never letting go ...

ok i admit, maybe it isn't that bad la, but anyhow that does illustrate a little of what fate has in store for we poor 6 AI troopers, and it's playful tugs twisting our future from skyhigh euphoria to the nadir... Don't even feel like writing it, maybe some other day.

anyway back from the NAVigation EXercise, it was quite fun actually other than abrasions on my thighs; we still got lost most of the time even with 2 pairs of eyes skimming 2 maps while scrutinising our prismatic compasses. Luckily we had a sect commander who was rather slack and also afraid of the dark so we had him save us from wandering the entire night away and finished our objectives pretty fast to finish first(!) and got a restful 9 hours of sleep plus four more hours of rest back in bunk. Well we did cheat a little getting assistance finding some points here and there so a little guilty haha but well!

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 02:42 p.m.


Took to the pen on Monday, May 24, 2004...

Going on NavEx, otherwise known as navigation exercise, tmr. It will be a 2 day 1 night UNguided tour of lim chu kang area, tossed into wilderness with nothing more than maps, compasses, protractors and our wits. we'll be set on a series of challenging "Find The Marked Tree!", involving us finding the figurative needle in a hay stack, a tree with an A4 stucked on it in well, a forest. Multiply tt by 9 trees, with 3 at night where the only source of light is the lonely torch, and it equates to... well a new and interesting experience to be blogged about when i return :D off to sleep now, nights all! :)

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 11:29 p.m.


Took to the pen on Sunday, May 23, 2004...

Heh back on the lorry again... Hmm the dark clouds brewing above seem to be taunting our lack of preparations in the event of rain. Wanted to blog the normal way today but it's yet another story to be told :p

went to watch troy yesterday! Haha well looks like singapore censors are quite lax nowadays even on the pg rating, though heh it was quite a good show, well filmed and paced, which however seemed to have changed much of the actual story to sensationalise it :p must go do some reading to see if i'm right haha

went with parents to see the buddha relic exhibition or something today, but when we reached there the queue was insane; it wrapped around itself like a mortal coil, stretching and squirming as it inches slowly ahead, round and round, length never reducing, enriched by each passing train. Reminded me of the even worse original creative sales haha :p In fact when we all saw the queue we just decided it's not worth the effort and might as well instead go to changi airport for a walk and buy some groceries from the ntuc at the basement heh :p was 2pm when i was about to do some regular fiddling with the comp when the bed seemed vv enticing and i just plopped down and went to dream land for ack ack three hours! Woke up with a start and hastily rushed to pack bag get dad to cut hair add songs to player lyrics to phone, and AS usual ran out of house in a rush, seemed to be a bad habit but now i see it as practising for 2.4km run haha! :p

oh and i got my april gprs bills hey wasn't that bad it was only around 8 bucks! Was shocked when dad told me my bill was 50!, but heh apparently half of that was for the charity show so phew!

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 07:34 p.m.


Took to the pen on Friday, May 21, 2004...

Well it was all good and stuff that we had a day to ourselves but as usual it was tainted with having to do all kinds of stuff the whole day... Oiling guns, cleaning it and oiling it again... Washing stuff they brought back from the firing range... Always a trade off, living is :p time of my life now though doing nothing lol. Have some tot on what do i really want, revised some old tots, read classifieds- and still equally uncertain of everything.

anw gonna go call home and bath first... Heard those poor firers only fired their first shot at 2pm despite leaving for there early at like 4.45 in the morning -_- and we have to help them pack up everything when they come back!

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 10:03 p.m.


Took to the pen on Friday, May 21, 2004...

Feels weird to look so lost in orchard lol esp when you know, it's the heart of the city etc etc, so tried to look nonchalant as i confidently walked into closed shops and dead ends while looking for the paragon. Hey at least i'm not a bad map reader, got to it pretty soon aided by a rough memory of what this place looks like. Imagine my horror when i realise that the building, which was supposed to have at leapst 9 floors, had only 6 visible. Looked around haplessly, coincidently ran into mildrid rushing off to some unknown destination, before finding a lift lobby tt leads to Medical Floors or something ... Should at least put bigger signs around ma heh! :p

oh and hmm i've got some red-green colour deficiency or something, do remember having "doubtful" colour vision in primary school as the doctors put it, but thought nothing of it as it ain't really bad right. Doc was nice and slowly-so slow and thorough tt perhaps painstakenly might describe it better-went through the possible problems of colour blindness, though din put it down in the report as it was mild perhaps. (just nearly ran into a wall while walking and blogging heh)

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 09:40 a.m.


Took to the pen on Friday, May 21, 2004...

Going for some medical checkup now, perhaps to ascertain if i'd survive long enough to a worthy investment heh. Maybe i should have requested to go on saturday instead, then i'd get to poof early from camp too heh.

bet today's gonna be a slack day anyway... Company only has a few left cos most went for the 84mm eat and night live firing, and l ain't learning tt but another so whee!

been clocking up obscene amounts of data transfer heh, one msn session talking to three or four ppl simultaneously could result in nearly a dollar worth of transfer an hour... Which is a lot ever since starhub churned out it's unlimited data plan at just... 15.75! Sigh... Singtel sucks man lol.

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 07:36 a.m.


Took to the pen on Wednesday, May 19, 2004...

For some reasons or others our bunk have a tendency to leave the oreo in the pack untouched, which could sometimes sit forlornly there waiting for someone to end its lonely existence. We do snap up the pieces fast, but perhaps guilt of eating too much and being targetted for killing all the poor biscuits lol.

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 10:38 p.m.


Took to the pen on Tuesday, May 18, 2004...

Woah had a full day of lecture yesterday on voice procedures over signals and all sort of assorted stuff that are meant to be forgotten after a test. Just sat freezing in the lecture room and my lips are cracking up all over again ack.

maybe it ain't tt bad/good, just what my mind is conjuring up, and the bias no doubt put in place by the 'different' lifestyle now :p i sought but found no particular event, maybe one or two, but mainly general feelings tt has resulted in seeing things thus. Maybe things wun seem so good after a few years when life gets back on track?

heh talked to my sis over msn, quite a weird feeling for one whom i've always talked thru normal means of propagating vibrations in the air. And no fun one, apparently she haven master the techniques of idle chatter over typed words :p

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 09:17 a.m.


Took to the pen on Sunday, May 16, 2004...

Sigh was back in school for soiree and at the end when the sch was dark and quiet and nice and all i strolled around and wished desperately tt somehow it's all a dream and i'd wake up on monday morn to don my desert camouflage then troop off to school bag slung one side while complaining about the year long dream tt was just broadcast into my mind ... Need to let go at some point and live in the present. Envied those with such forward looking attitude when nothing but more troubles and worry and in for us. Perhaps a little too pessimistic, i am?

on the back of the truck now being ferried to the camp by my friends. Have this unbreakable tendency to wait and dawdle till the last possible moment before rushing out of the house to my destination, wonder if it had somehow contributed to my running endurance somehow :p the slow but onward moving pace of the army takes some getting used to now, but i guess i've gotten used to it now a little and ain't really looking forward to ord as much now, happy with the status quo of slow days and trying to learn new things when the smart ones are mostly busy in ocs and the lazy ones are slacking must must make use of my time and not slack and come out prepared with more skills and confidence to take on the world lol.

somewhat reaching the camp liao... Wanted to like spend some time every day for sometime (heh) to dredge up all the remnants of buried memories and write em somewhera neatly, yep everything then let the ink-crystallised thoughts signify the irrevocable past, and try to smile content and not wistfully...

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 07:34 p.m.


Took to the pen on Friday, May 14, 2004...

Heh yep just as the title says... Hmm scary how fast time is just flying by, not really looking forward to ord as it wud have meant the passing of two years gulp. Gonna finish trade course soon and shift over to hq company, hmm wonder if it's the beginning of slacking or endless work O_o

Yay 200 more bucks this month, part of the gold ippt package hehe, hope less physical training too haha! :p

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 01:11 p.m.


Took to the pen on Wednesday, May 12, 2004...

Eeps the inevitable has come; been seen using my ngage (which is a big grey area) and so would be placed under greater scrutiny next time, perhaps. Deciding to use a decoy for now though which mean i'd not bring in for a week and use other phones... And nearly attempted suicide today at declaring no phone at the gate. I've two suspicious bulges in my pockets; my bad i should have like hid em or something. He then asked what's in the pockets, and i made a big fuss over opening my pockets and took my time while shifting the other pocket from sight. It worked and i survived, could have turned out v v bad indeed...

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 10:42 p.m.


Took to the pen on Wednesday, May 19, 2004...

Yay! Booking out for specialist appointment now :D it be a while but it's a whole lot while of enjoyment :p somehow brain has been a lil more receptive to new things today and has been easier to put all the weapon drills into action pretty fast... Tt did help me get out a lil swifter, but they forgot to sign my out pass! Wasted a few minutes waiting before settling everything heh booking out in the middle of the week is best... Breaks the sianzness into two! :p

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 02:43 p.m.


Took to the pen on Tuesday, May 11, 2004...

My loyal watch strap broke, sigh it has accompanied me through much of my jc life, would be sad to see it no longer there when i glance down on my wrists... Feeling somewhat sentimental i shall devote this entry to the memory of the timeless time piece who has faithfully been by my side reporting time whenever i need it...

alright... Maybe just half an entry. Weather's been so horribly got nowadays, while we slog in the weapons shed learning the intricacies of guns and grenade launchers on tanks. And today's morn's drizzle did little to alleviate the heat, made it a bit more stifling instead grr. Well tmr's book out will be a nice break from all this... Whatever. Got a skin centre app, haha yes! 5 hours out only, but well every moment will be great :p

i dreamt of the past, where events from all over time seem to freely intermix, where things that happened were relieved in a somewhat different setting, and things that were missed reminisced...

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 10:50 p.m.


Took to the pen on Sunday, May 9, 2004...

Heh now poofing to camp on my friend's dad's truck. No roof separating us from the sky, according us a great view of today's cloudless skies. You could see several exceptionally bright stars adorning the might sky, with some twinkling hard as if trying to make up for their relative lack of luminousity. There was a colour gradient somewhere above the horizon, the setting sun bequeathing on us it's final gift of lights and colours before retiring for the night. The cold evening wind, it's lull disturbed by our passing, brushes and snaps angrily at us, a comforting breeze yet stinging on the eyes when they meet. Bumps on the road amplified by the insufficient damping, ain't it worrying if a hump appears somewhere and sends us flying out heh. Excessive sodium lights lining the road causes the eyes of inquisitive skygazers to shy away instinctively, and the expansive yellow glow obscures most of the night view except the more determined stars and some early to rise planets.

Sigh reaching the place soon, on the brightest side that i can find i'd be getting back my pink ic and my life in about 734 days time. Went with chris to eat prata at jalan kayu, going there cos it's just between our houses. Omg i waited for the bus at the wrong busstop! :p so... Lame lol. Then told chris to leave his house thru msn but for some reasons he din leave until it was like quite late had to wait for him... And he cycled there! -_-'' went home late and rushed thru lots of stuff before running ALL the way to e bus stop. I'm there! -poof-

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 07:36 p.m.


Took to the pen on Saturday, May 8, 2004...

Sianz wasted half a day at sentosa doing little heh just sat around, played bridge, ate ice cream which was exorbitant, gorged ourselves in 711, then ... Waited to go home heh. Tobecontinued...

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 08:40 p.m.


Took to the pen on Saturday, May 8, 2004...

Haha got quite a few people intrigued by the ngage enough to go want to get one for themselves :) Looks like would be having some multiplayer fun soon haha! :p

Spent most of Thursday morning in bunk slacking happily, no activities planned for the day it being games day, and we booked out early to celebrate a host of reasons, one sadly being that we are forced to go to sentosa to celebrate some armour family day sianz.

And ack wasted like so much time at home doing so little, well at the very least I got sims:busting out beta on my ngage, and got a interesting new layout up haha :D

And the tiny subatomic bubble floated about, bumping into others (apologising of course, for it was brought up in a well-mannered bubb-mily), occasionally clumping together - london forces, perhaps - and just as often floating about alone. It knows neither why it's there, nor what it's here for, nor why is such a small thing capable of sentient thought, but it wishes to be happy.

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 01:17 a.m.


Took to the pen on Tuesday, May 4, 2004...

Luck of the draw, now am stuck in the middle of nowhere watching some kind of competition between the armour units. Took a tonner there and the exceedingly bumpy ride made me suddenly wonder if my insurance coverage is enough. For the moment just roasting away under the hot sun while waiting for the comp to begin...

no matter how i can psyche myself that the life ain't that bad, meeting em and hearing about their exploits and whatever they've done does somewhat makes me a little disappointed in where i've landed... Feels a bit of like being a second class soldier heh which makes me a lil indignant of being consigned to this...

well yeah yeah, advantages and disadvantages will balance out in the end etc, just have to remember not to give in in resignating and to fully utilise the time i have...

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 06:35 a.m.


Took to the pen on Sunday, May 2, 2004...

Decided to take sometime off from sitting in front the comp and go for a stroll around the neighbourhood... (1)(2)(3)(4) It's really quite relaxing to just walk aimlessly with no particular motives, at your own pace and your own destination.

hmm the candlewax still remained, and the place looks unkept. Snapped a few photos, then sat down and tried to think about nothing and see what thought defies orders to stay put.

once i'd have probably never thought i'd want to just be inactive for a few moments; now i seem to be enjoying it. Shunned the great expanse of open air and silence then, now it seems like instead of being alone and detached, there is a sense of being at one with the environment around. No signs of life in all directions, except an occasional passing car, though it's pretty noisy with all the nature sounds around. Hmm maybe i shall move on to somewhere else now..,

bashed(5)(6)(7) through the grassy patch to the cleared site for the upcoming construction, and stood around there for a while singing along to the mp3s in the midst of muddy ground, construction equipment and trodden grass... Then walked (8) (9)(10)(11)(12) to compasspoint next, intending to buy something from 7-11 for my sis but it's sold out. Stopped by at starbucks for a cuppa heh, tried out the caramel coffee jelly, which is quite nice haha. Hmm i just dun seem to appreciate the idea of saving money yet :p

one and a half hours have passed, gotta in back soon. Caught a silky thread of yesterday's dream, and for a moment had a glimpse of what went on in my mind yesterday's night, but as sudden as it came it was gone, lost...

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 03:08 p.m.


Took to the pen on Saturday, May 1, 2004...

Test test :) Ok haha now changed the page to blog using gprs instead whee!

...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 12:42 a.m.