Chasing time on Tuesday, February 14, 2006...
January summarised by pixels, and the occasional word
31st Dec: A gift of chocolates from aunt, supposedly Xmas present but got it in new year :)
1st Jan: After the extended family gathering at aunt's place, popped off to the Esplanade to catch fireworks with chris and fengrun. Ended up meeting licheng and junjie too; almost all of us were linked to each other somehow. my primary sch friend is his jc first intake, etc :)
4th Jan: Taken while getting out of camp; squeezing in a minibus on a rainy day out of camp
6th Jan: And the hwachong 06 orientation begins, day 1 :) with weird games, undoubtably, managed to catch this couple with a falling straw that they were supposed to pass by scrunching up parts of faces and getting into close proximity.
And then collected the presents, which i initially believed was plural, for distribution. Like things, like the pair of sia plastikbags, have a uncanny ability to be present together.
7th Jan: Crashers managed to organise a lunch for them on Saturday; and passing on the tradition of class games in the neverending lineage from 00.
Then met up with Yankai, from 46 but disrupted for studies, PSC/ChemEngine/Cornell, back for holidays.
Had to siam early for I'm starting on meditation classes haha :)
9th Jan: Continued orientation, day 2, on Monday. Joined in for all the stuff, a first in crashing, but mainly stayed out and took photos. More games are taught and played while waiting in hall. Birthdays were celebrated with cake bought at Serene Centre, some icecream pie thingy. And to top it all, the expressions of shock that one gets to see annually on revealing.
11th Jan: Bookout and went to eat to celebrate our impending discharge from the army.
13th Jan: Orientation Campfire night.
Centrepiece. Lightsticks recycled from, um, camp. The song/dance sessions. The train chain weaving through the crowds. Of sparkling juice handover and sharing to end off orientations for 06. Last group shot probably, no more 16, 20 welcomes me back.
Went for a briefing at remote camp, but only to be told that the meeting has been cancelled; message wasn't passed down properly growl. But made use of the opportunity to meet up with my BMT buddies; somehow met a sec4 friend who reminded us that it's our enlistment anniversary, and then we decided to meet up and celebrate later on. Taxied back home and rushed to school to join in the orientating fun, already beginning to feel out of place ;p Suppered opposite Beauty World, then taxi-ed to City Hall to meet BMT buddies...
14th Jan: Last minute "turn out" for buddies haha. Managed to get 6 people despite the last minute nature of the bugle call; went to a pub where I had a coffee, and sampled their drinks. Some nice angmohs gave us their Absolute Citron leftover, and I think it taste great with 7up-tasting-thingy (seltzer?) that they too provided :) Ended up in Mac @ tanjong rhu, when zh drived us there, and stuck around till 4am before cabbing back again. A day of cabbing :)
14th Jan: Yet another 60 tradition, class birthday originally on 15th since 98s60; songs, cakes, photos, games. 02ers sat around and sang "never forget", while 05/06 ran about the place in their catching and musical chairs.
26th Jan: Played erhu at old folks home with chunhoo's violin, since it's all just improvisation had a lot of fun haha. passed about oranges and food, area cleaning; played erhu standing find it more expressive haha, but leg had to be propped up, and it suffered from stage fright by vibrating intriguing.. Went for dinner at NYDC with some of them, where I realised that there are even scandals in army. Not JC, not uni, of all places ARMY. WTH. Glad i've spent most time buried in books and phone to have noticed back then. Chocolate Cheese Cake IS WONDERFUL.
27th Jan: HC CNY celebrations! Saw goh and chia having tea. Surprising large turnout from our 02 of FIVE :) WZ ran off early to have breakfast with her celebrity friend michelle something and her sports car haha. Saw Mrs Tan with DYED hair, brought her child along but din manage to find her after that. New year stall, hmm we dealt with satays back then did we? They did milo dinos, kaya toast and ice kachange; profit of $30. Laoed Yusheng too with their senior class, ie 05s. Then went out with them for lunch; they then went to watch inotstupid2 while i stayed with the 04s and chatted till 6pm, before meeting bmt buddies at PS. Had fish&chips at this fish place, forgot name haha; they used portable flame throwing butane torch thingy to scorch the food O_O burnt the fries, we asked for an exchange. then just sat around and talked before homeward bounding.
28th Jan: CNY Eve's Reunion dinner with paternal side of extended family.
31st Jan: Chu 3, visited Ms Moh's house, saw our comp juniors there. Carded, mahjonged, angpaoed, and was treated to a spectacular lunch. Yum :) Went to Thomson Plaza for lunch and cards, saw grandseniors there haha.
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 01:29 am
January summarised by pixels, and the occasional word
31st Dec: A gift of chocolates from aunt, supposedly Xmas present but got it in new year :)
1st Jan: After the extended family gathering at aunt's place, popped off to the Esplanade to catch fireworks with chris and fengrun. Ended up meeting licheng and junjie too; almost all of us were linked to each other somehow. my primary sch friend is his jc first intake, etc :)
4th Jan: Taken while getting out of camp; squeezing in a minibus on a rainy day out of camp
6th Jan: And the hwachong 06 orientation begins, day 1 :) with weird games, undoubtably, managed to catch this couple with a falling straw that they were supposed to pass by scrunching up parts of faces and getting into close proximity.
And then collected the presents, which i initially believed was plural, for distribution. Like things, like the pair of sia plastikbags, have a uncanny ability to be present together.
7th Jan: Crashers managed to organise a lunch for them on Saturday; and passing on the tradition of class games in the neverending lineage from 00.
Then met up with Yankai, from 46 but disrupted for studies, PSC/ChemEngine/Cornell, back for holidays.
Had to siam early for I'm starting on meditation classes haha :)
9th Jan: Continued orientation, day 2, on Monday. Joined in for all the stuff, a first in crashing, but mainly stayed out and took photos. More games are taught and played while waiting in hall. Birthdays were celebrated with cake bought at Serene Centre, some icecream pie thingy. And to top it all, the expressions of shock that one gets to see annually on revealing.
11th Jan: Bookout and went to eat to celebrate our impending discharge from the army.
13th Jan: Orientation Campfire night.
Centrepiece. Lightsticks recycled from, um, camp. The song/dance sessions. The train chain weaving through the crowds. Of sparkling juice handover and sharing to end off orientations for 06. Last group shot probably, no more 16, 20 welcomes me back.
Went for a briefing at remote camp, but only to be told that the meeting has been cancelled; message wasn't passed down properly growl. But made use of the opportunity to meet up with my BMT buddies; somehow met a sec4 friend who reminded us that it's our enlistment anniversary, and then we decided to meet up and celebrate later on. Taxied back home and rushed to school to join in the orientating fun, already beginning to feel out of place ;p Suppered opposite Beauty World, then taxi-ed to City Hall to meet BMT buddies...
14th Jan: Last minute "turn out" for buddies haha. Managed to get 6 people despite the last minute nature of the bugle call; went to a pub where I had a coffee, and sampled their drinks. Some nice angmohs gave us their Absolute Citron leftover, and I think it taste great with 7up-tasting-thingy (seltzer?) that they too provided :) Ended up in Mac @ tanjong rhu, when zh drived us there, and stuck around till 4am before cabbing back again. A day of cabbing :)
14th Jan: Yet another 60 tradition, class birthday originally on 15th since 98s60; songs, cakes, photos, games. 02ers sat around and sang "never forget", while 05/06 ran about the place in their catching and musical chairs.
26th Jan: Played erhu at old folks home with chunhoo's violin, since it's all just improvisation had a lot of fun haha. passed about oranges and food, area cleaning; played erhu standing find it more expressive haha, but leg had to be propped up, and it suffered from stage fright by vibrating intriguing.. Went for dinner at NYDC with some of them, where I realised that there are even scandals in army. Not JC, not uni, of all places ARMY. WTH. Glad i've spent most time buried in books and phone to have noticed back then. Chocolate Cheese Cake IS WONDERFUL.
27th Jan: HC CNY celebrations! Saw goh and chia having tea. Surprising large turnout from our 02 of FIVE :) WZ ran off early to have breakfast with her celebrity friend michelle something and her sports car haha. Saw Mrs Tan with DYED hair, brought her child along but din manage to find her after that. New year stall, hmm we dealt with satays back then did we? They did milo dinos, kaya toast and ice kachange; profit of $30. Laoed Yusheng too with their senior class, ie 05s. Then went out with them for lunch; they then went to watch inotstupid2 while i stayed with the 04s and chatted till 6pm, before meeting bmt buddies at PS. Had fish&chips at this fish place, forgot name haha; they used portable flame throwing butane torch thingy to scorch the food O_O burnt the fries, we asked for an exchange. then just sat around and talked before homeward bounding.
28th Jan: CNY Eve's Reunion dinner with paternal side of extended family.
31st Jan: Chu 3, visited Ms Moh's house, saw our comp juniors there. Carded, mahjonged, angpaoed, and was treated to a spectacular lunch. Yum :) Went to Thomson Plaza for lunch and cards, saw grandseniors there haha.
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 01:29 am
Chasing time on Friday, February 10, 2006...
Guard dutying now. Blogging's really a kind of inertia that you'd lose, the more you don't write the more you don't feel like it. Procrastinated much as I've been trying to reorganise my blog layout; think shall just dump photos in and conclude January 06 soon.
Supposed to have come up with a timetable of sorts, but obviously didn't schedule it into my todo list. Been planning and preparing for the Aussie trip, of which you can the result of my labours here. If dreams could come true I'd probably end up brandishing a dozen gadgets as I tramp about the Oz; gps, folding bike, pda with net access, portable drive for dumping photos, etc :p Meanwhile I've been dreaming up a local payment gateway, as well as a soho solution for processing mobile input data; and in the meantime a webgramming project awaits the design from my friends.
Scary, now it's February already; where has January gone! Somehow the fact that I've yet to ord just lends a bit of slackness into my life, since everyone else is still in army anyway. But come March, and it's a whole different ball game, no longer in the force, string cut free, and then all the time I waste is.... mine. Brr.
One more month to go, of freedom and ignorance I know I'd never have again.
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 04:25 pm
Guard dutying now. Blogging's really a kind of inertia that you'd lose, the more you don't write the more you don't feel like it. Procrastinated much as I've been trying to reorganise my blog layout; think shall just dump photos in and conclude January 06 soon.
Supposed to have come up with a timetable of sorts, but obviously didn't schedule it into my todo list. Been planning and preparing for the Aussie trip, of which you can the result of my labours here. If dreams could come true I'd probably end up brandishing a dozen gadgets as I tramp about the Oz; gps, folding bike, pda with net access, portable drive for dumping photos, etc :p Meanwhile I've been dreaming up a local payment gateway, as well as a soho solution for processing mobile input data; and in the meantime a webgramming project awaits the design from my friends.
Scary, now it's February already; where has January gone! Somehow the fact that I've yet to ord just lends a bit of slackness into my life, since everyone else is still in army anyway. But come March, and it's a whole different ball game, no longer in the force, string cut free, and then all the time I waste is.... mine. Brr.
One more month to go, of freedom and ignorance I know I'd never have again.
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 04:25 pm
Chasing time on Monday, February 6, 2006...
Drawn to the rain
Carthartic release; I plugged my earphone
Turned away from the monitor
Immersed myself in it; along with
the strongest emotion evoking song i could find
Tried to lose myself at the keyboard
The falling rain, the empty streets
The windows and changes of it all
Wouldn't you like to in the rain
Be the rain?
The silvery orbs of heaven fall;
Freewheeling and carting they go
Carefree and unknown they fall
To their fates.
Like us.
Drawn inexorably to our fates;
down, why struggle?
Buffeted by the wind-laden vicissitudes.
Emptiness abound;
The passing train on the railway track
The roads, the sky and the air
Abound with a mystic silence calling.
(Aurally overwhelmed, I lowered the volume)
To try catch the sounds of falling rain,
Of wheels over water, of people
Going about their lives.
Of buildings, the global thrum of life -
Midnight arrives. Lights adorn empty frames.
Something attractive, strangely.
Focus, and lose it.
I drift silently, and welcome the breeze.
Or is it welcoming me?
A foray into automatic writing.
Or might I say automatic typing.
... unwritable thoughts.
They fled as I probed.
- - -
Somehow even in dreams I see the jeers; you know
Of people around me, who panaroid I believe
That they are ready to laugh at my every mistake?
"I" don't want to believe that I'm insignificant!
A sad reflection of reality. But I try to ...
change? ("I" do)
Egotism prevails.
change? (Do)
change? (Om.)
But shh, I'd let you in on a quiet secret:
Of dreams; do you know that even in it I can't escape.
Why can't I let myself do something right,
ever the bungling clumsy fool in front of you.
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 12:05 am
Carthartic release; I plugged my earphone
Turned away from the monitor
Immersed myself in it; along with
the strongest emotion evoking song i could find
Tried to lose myself at the keyboard
The falling rain, the empty streets
The windows and changes of it all
Wouldn't you like to in the rain
Be the rain?
The silvery orbs of heaven fall;
Freewheeling and carting they go
Carefree and unknown they fall
To their fates.
Like us.
Drawn inexorably to our fates;
down, why struggle?
Buffeted by the wind-laden vicissitudes.
Emptiness abound;
The passing train on the railway track
The roads, the sky and the air
Abound with a mystic silence calling.
(Aurally overwhelmed, I lowered the volume)
To try catch the sounds of falling rain,
Of wheels over water, of people
Going about their lives.
Of buildings, the global thrum of life -
Midnight arrives. Lights adorn empty frames.
Something attractive, strangely.
Focus, and lose it.
I drift silently, and welcome the breeze.
Or is it welcoming me?
A foray into automatic writing.
Or might I say automatic typing.
... unwritable thoughts.
They fled as I probed.
Somehow even in dreams I see the jeers; you know
Of people around me, who panaroid I believe
That they are ready to laugh at my every mistake?
"I" don't want to believe that I'm insignificant!
A sad reflection of reality. But I try to ...
change? ("I" do)
Egotism prevails.
change? (Do)
change? (Om.)
But shh, I'd let you in on a quiet secret:
Of dreams; do you know that even in it I can't escape.
Why can't I let myself do something right,
ever the bungling clumsy fool in front of you.
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 12:05 am
Chasing time on Sunday, January 29, 2006...
I've no idea why do people just forward received greeting messages through their contact lists, haha it's like pointless if so little effort is put into it!!
But guess at least they do make the effort haha, so I do try to spend time crafting each greeting for everyone so that I could do a bit of catching up with everyone, or at least make my season greetings appropriate to the recipient :p
Oh yes, happy new year to all too :) May the passing days grant you wisdom and increase, and every step the right foot forward on your journey through life.
Ach, January ending soon and so much undone, not because there's so much but rather I've been doing so little O_o
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 11:21 am
I've no idea why do people just forward received greeting messages through their contact lists, haha it's like pointless if so little effort is put into it!!
But guess at least they do make the effort haha, so I do try to spend time crafting each greeting for everyone so that I could do a bit of catching up with everyone, or at least make my season greetings appropriate to the recipient :p
Oh yes, happy new year to all too :) May the passing days grant you wisdom and increase, and every step the right foot forward on your journey through life.
Ach, January ending soon and so much undone, not because there's so much but rather I've been doing so little O_o
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 11:21 am
Chasing time on Monday, January 16, 2006...
December in pictures
At Neptune, 081205, ORD Function
Max Brenner Lunch, 101205, with Mi'er and Xiquan
Macritchie Run, 121205, nearly died running for the first time
Sister baking!, 161205, yummy muffins
Crazy Malaysia trip, 211205 to 231205, cheap food, lan and endless games!
Played with mel's expensive flash
Gokarters
Innovation ok, telephone wire as clothesline
Used torchlight to light up a longexposure shot of well, the sleepers
Lunch and movies with buddies, 231205, Chronicles of Narnia and feast at Jack
Xmas Dinner at Mi'ers, 231205, Turkey and sushi and awfully chocolate cake!
More to come... when I come back from 4 days of outfield :(
At Pasir Ris Park, 241205, maternal side's XMas extended family outing haha
At Aunt's house, 311205, maternal side's New Year extended family outing haha
Ending the year with a bang, 311205, New Year countdown at Durian
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 06:00 a.m.
December in pictures
Max Brenner Lunch, 101205, with Mi'er and Xiquan
Macritchie Run, 121205, nearly died running for the first time
Sister baking!, 161205, yummy muffins
Crazy Malaysia trip, 211205 to 231205, cheap food, lan and endless games!
Played with mel's expensive flash
Gokarters
Innovation ok, telephone wire as clothesline
Used torchlight to light up a longexposure shot of well, the sleepers
Lunch and movies with buddies, 231205, Chronicles of Narnia and feast at Jack
Xmas Dinner at Mi'ers, 231205, Turkey and sushi and awfully chocolate cake!
More to come... when I come back from 4 days of outfield :(
At Pasir Ris Park, 241205, maternal side's XMas extended family outing haha
At Aunt's house, 311205, maternal side's New Year extended family outing haha
Ending the year with a bang, 311205, New Year countdown at Durian
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 06:00 a.m.
Chasing time on Monday, January 16, 2006...
Bouts of spontaneous irrationality shall adorn this post; unprocessed by the logician's light to root out the base causes, what transpires in the entry might be flights of fancy, analogies working out in the mental gym, and other essential whimsical mental noise. In other words, it ain't suppose to make sense; it's a memory dump.
Dead, so dead; can't get anything done I just feel like sleeping all the while; rotted mostly in front of the computer, sapping in random knowledge as i webhop, bloghop and wikihop all over. coded on whim, scripted here and there. utter lack of discipline, wild horses running rampant. felt burnt out from the crazy idea nights of the past months tt ended the creative streak through the army days; to archive the 2 notebooks filled page to page in army, to filter through and pick out the workable ideas and plans.
No motive, slackness. Perhaps it coincided with the periods of lull and just made everything so uselessly ... useless. But it's ok, I can take a break, there's plenty of time, 60+ years most probably.
so inept sometimes; difficulties communicating; scattered thoughts; not properly indexed memory banks keep losing track of words and names. crashed o1 again; do treat it as a chance to practise social skills too; to see and to learn responses; find it easier to piggyback and follow others indeed need to find means to kill the fear of making mistakes; horribly inept in explanation which kinda explains my hesitation to go for paid jobs; would really love to teach and mould those little containers to believing that it's within their hands to change their size; money is so troublesome and so necessary yet; most likely going for volunteering then to pick up experience and def to improve explanatory skills. i know but i cannot describe. nvm. more experiences. more to learn. slow fire.
just when i dare believe, it doesnt matter and yet it does. doesn't make sense but tts probably the law of nature of inherent neutrality, no good and bad to come out. but of course, perhaps i can answer the question now, if i do ever have to make the choice to go for it again.
to drift i've decided; not fight but to observe what opportunities comes by. perhaps i shall just play the strongest suit in my deck this time, rather than train the other suits. to shine. it doesn't matter what you know, it matters what others see you as. no not egotic, but rather, wayang, we gotta put up a show, just like how i got build a facade in 46. yes. i've drifted for 20 years, been very lucky all the while, cant hurt to wait and play my deck; keep options open.
crashing always ends with melancholy; wanted back then to textify random memories that happened to pop by for a visit, then sort and preserve; how come the past seems so much more attractive? i dream of days bygone, the unknowing innocence of preteens, the braindead freedom of secondary sch, and the awkward awakening in jc.. ineffectual grasping at mist and clouds of past, calling out... perhaps i can explain why jc is the way it is, but i love the romantised view tt its just the sch and class spirit and so shall dissect no further into the deeper workings here. it just tugs deeply; the nights of mugging; of endless activities and lectures and always more to look forward to. of love. again, logical explanations either fall short or ends off ugly, so i shall look at the roses and ignore the soil tt sustains it. the attachments to class and school, and to everyone. love isn't that difficult after all.
yet. so. empty.. undocked. unknown destination. but yes, part of the fun.
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 03:06 am
Bouts of spontaneous irrationality shall adorn this post; unprocessed by the logician's light to root out the base causes, what transpires in the entry might be flights of fancy, analogies working out in the mental gym, and other essential whimsical mental noise. In other words, it ain't suppose to make sense; it's a memory dump.
Dead, so dead; can't get anything done I just feel like sleeping all the while; rotted mostly in front of the computer, sapping in random knowledge as i webhop, bloghop and wikihop all over. coded on whim, scripted here and there. utter lack of discipline, wild horses running rampant. felt burnt out from the crazy idea nights of the past months tt ended the creative streak through the army days; to archive the 2 notebooks filled page to page in army, to filter through and pick out the workable ideas and plans.
No motive, slackness. Perhaps it coincided with the periods of lull and just made everything so uselessly ... useless. But it's ok, I can take a break, there's plenty of time, 60+ years most probably.
so inept sometimes; difficulties communicating; scattered thoughts; not properly indexed memory banks keep losing track of words and names. crashed o1 again; do treat it as a chance to practise social skills too; to see and to learn responses; find it easier to piggyback and follow others indeed need to find means to kill the fear of making mistakes; horribly inept in explanation which kinda explains my hesitation to go for paid jobs; would really love to teach and mould those little containers to believing that it's within their hands to change their size; money is so troublesome and so necessary yet; most likely going for volunteering then to pick up experience and def to improve explanatory skills. i know but i cannot describe. nvm. more experiences. more to learn. slow fire.
just when i dare believe, it doesnt matter and yet it does. doesn't make sense but tts probably the law of nature of inherent neutrality, no good and bad to come out. but of course, perhaps i can answer the question now, if i do ever have to make the choice to go for it again.
to drift i've decided; not fight but to observe what opportunities comes by. perhaps i shall just play the strongest suit in my deck this time, rather than train the other suits. to shine. it doesn't matter what you know, it matters what others see you as. no not egotic, but rather, wayang, we gotta put up a show, just like how i got build a facade in 46. yes. i've drifted for 20 years, been very lucky all the while, cant hurt to wait and play my deck; keep options open.
crashing always ends with melancholy; wanted back then to textify random memories that happened to pop by for a visit, then sort and preserve; how come the past seems so much more attractive? i dream of days bygone, the unknowing innocence of preteens, the braindead freedom of secondary sch, and the awkward awakening in jc.. ineffectual grasping at mist and clouds of past, calling out... perhaps i can explain why jc is the way it is, but i love the romantised view tt its just the sch and class spirit and so shall dissect no further into the deeper workings here. it just tugs deeply; the nights of mugging; of endless activities and lectures and always more to look forward to. of love. again, logical explanations either fall short or ends off ugly, so i shall look at the roses and ignore the soil tt sustains it. the attachments to class and school, and to everyone. love isn't that difficult after all.
yet. so. empty.. undocked. unknown destination. but yes, part of the fun.
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 03:06 am
Chasing time on Monday, January 16, 2006...
Sad to say, I've given up the struggle for the past month and just drifted along, putting all plans on hold, and just letting the whimisical winds buffet me about wildly. Well, almost, I've intended to realign my goals for 2006 at the dawn of the new year, but inertia is strong and the mind and flesh is weak.
Discovered that my body refuses to work properly unless I spend at least 1/3 of the day unconscious to the world, and without a plan I just ended up in bed more often than needed. Utter indolence, half-heartedly tried out several daily schedules to be implemented in the new year. Spent most the time reading about, all work in progress suspended and done on whim than schedule.
And a new goal is to formulate a lifestyle that I'd want to lead after ORD, a time table of sorts, that'd effectively spread out the hours evenly into fields that require maintenance or even development.
Bodywise: exercise, flexibility and meditation schedule, pill regime, eye relaxation exercises like Bate's method with own method of progressive contact lenses dioptre reduction and acupunture. to reduce sleep dependence.
Mental (passive): improve memory by practising memory techniques like roman room, improve working memory by writing programs to train long term (power tables, constants) and short term (rapid arithmetic techniques), discipline to fight the evil ego and work off many ill habits that are too gross to list here.
Mind (active): computer-related: schedule time to do different research and programming; to maintain a list of project ideas and research topics; prepare plan/program sheet for systematic filing, partly for tt tangible feeling that might boost enthusiasm more, and otherwise for use in future; to find out what cross-module knowledge (maths, physics, electronics) needs to be learnt; language: to improve chinese via lyrics, books, notes; english vocab and grammer as well as essay writing. music: guitar and erhu, to revise and to maintain skills and to learn at least several songs to the "listenable/performable" standard. to change handwriting for speed and legibility.
Broadly divided into the above categories, taken from scribblings scattered all over books filled in during the 2 years in army. But as usual, the problem is not finding out what to do, but how/when to do, and when the time comes, to DO it. Need time to plan and schedule appropriately, starting from now of course. I do want a working prototype out by February, tweaked to eventual perfection hoho.
Mainly, to make sure there's a mechanism for keeping all aspects working out even when not doing anything actively, as well as a system to capture scattered ideas into a queue to be processed and not lost :)
Ok, now with that out of place, lets get back to the filling in the things I've missed out for a month.
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 03:02 am
Sad to say, I've given up the struggle for the past month and just drifted along, putting all plans on hold, and just letting the whimisical winds buffet me about wildly. Well, almost, I've intended to realign my goals for 2006 at the dawn of the new year, but inertia is strong and the mind and flesh is weak.
Discovered that my body refuses to work properly unless I spend at least 1/3 of the day unconscious to the world, and without a plan I just ended up in bed more often than needed. Utter indolence, half-heartedly tried out several daily schedules to be implemented in the new year. Spent most the time reading about, all work in progress suspended and done on whim than schedule.
And a new goal is to formulate a lifestyle that I'd want to lead after ORD, a time table of sorts, that'd effectively spread out the hours evenly into fields that require maintenance or even development.
Bodywise: exercise, flexibility and meditation schedule, pill regime, eye relaxation exercises like Bate's method with own method of progressive contact lenses dioptre reduction and acupunture. to reduce sleep dependence.
Mental (passive): improve memory by practising memory techniques like roman room, improve working memory by writing programs to train long term (power tables, constants) and short term (rapid arithmetic techniques), discipline to fight the evil ego and work off many ill habits that are too gross to list here.
Mind (active): computer-related: schedule time to do different research and programming; to maintain a list of project ideas and research topics; prepare plan/program sheet for systematic filing, partly for tt tangible feeling that might boost enthusiasm more, and otherwise for use in future; to find out what cross-module knowledge (maths, physics, electronics) needs to be learnt; language: to improve chinese via lyrics, books, notes; english vocab and grammer as well as essay writing. music: guitar and erhu, to revise and to maintain skills and to learn at least several songs to the "listenable/performable" standard. to change handwriting for speed and legibility.
Broadly divided into the above categories, taken from scribblings scattered all over books filled in during the 2 years in army. But as usual, the problem is not finding out what to do, but how/when to do, and when the time comes, to DO it. Need time to plan and schedule appropriately, starting from now of course. I do want a working prototype out by February, tweaked to eventual perfection hoho.
Mainly, to make sure there's a mechanism for keeping all aspects working out even when not doing anything actively, as well as a system to capture scattered ideas into a queue to be processed and not lost :)
Ok, now with that out of place, lets get back to the filling in the things I've missed out for a month.
...panting, staring bleakly ahead at the dust trail, and gave up at 03:02 am
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