Took to the pen on 4-30-2004...
190404: miss home loads. Guess it must be the feeling of being taken care so well when i'm home. i've never thought myself particularly prone to home sickness, but well apparently it doesn't seem so now. Well i guess emotional outburst are healthy on the whole eh, redefines us n stuff :/ anyway i'm grateful in a sense that army has allowed me to feel the importance of home and family. Plus the dreary long days perhaps help lengthen the approach to Some inevitable stuff and worries of life; a child's world is the best eh, ignorant of the future and living only for the moment, maybe we do need to return to that state of innocence and not worry too much unnecessary. Ack talk about speaking too much unnecessary, don't know what urged me to talk so much about the phone, out of worry or pride of the features, i don't know, but i guess It's a lesson on its own eh, to not offer too much info
wrote zjunyi @ 04-25-2004 18:46:51
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dunno what kind of luck is shining on me, after nearly a week of mc, i returned with a heavy heart, but lets see shant we go find the doc and hopefully get excuse for the more strenuous activities? So off i went, hoping to keng a while more by going to med centre, and... Against all odds I got a medical review booked and 4 more days of mc :D whee! Getting the ngage too this sunday, more time to play around and maybe write a few programs for it ·^_-
wrote zjunyi @ 04-16-2004 17:29:34
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hmm i can't exactly remember where i left off, but yeah essentially i'm in for lots of dirty cheonging n stuff :p but oh well, heard there ARE actually worse jobs than this, gotta make myself feel better :D sigh. Think would have lost myself if not for a book that kept me distracted. Am lucky i can be so easily entertained by the company of books. Plus the two weeks of uniform free to help me regain my marbles and everything... :/
wrote zjunyi @ 04-07-2004 22:23:58
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armour, day one: Got kicked out of driving course cos rashes excused me from 2 weeks of uniform, or about half of the course time :p ack so there goes my driving practice sigh! Worse don't dun know what's ahead, like a lost sheep. Anw the view's great here! Nice clouds and pretty moon haha ·^_·^
wrote zjunyi @ 04-06-2004 07:06:10
...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 09:38p.m.
Took to the pen on 290404...
Slept early today for once yet woke up besieged by torrents of yesternight dreams. Not exactly nightmares, but not at all pleasant... Rose with a headache and bleary eyes from exhaustion, and yet had seven hours when i make do usually with merely six hours. Mind's unrested, having enacted scenes that are the stuff made of nightmares... Well ok it really ain't that bad, just... Hmm.
on the brighter side, though i was in not much mood to run, still managed gold timing for 2.4 km run... Perhaps it could be the fact that the only guy faster wasn't around :p
...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 10:36a.m.
Took to the pen on 280404...
Learning sharp shooter's scope now. Hmm though had quite a bit of time to start on my grand mugging scheme haha, was too lazy, and very overwhelmed when i tried to... Just don't understand some stuff, maybe i shall be less lazy some other day and try to obtain references to the alien terms...
been eating loads, like a loaf of raisin bread in two days just when i was reading, bleargh have to get more food! Cookies, biscuits, bread and maybe even spread like nutella or peanut butter! -drool-
hmm have been besieged by several insane ideas like making a hand powered fridge, by manually compressing and evacuating the air to condense the coolant, perhaps alcohol?... Or a solar powered handphone charger to sell to recruits who cannot charge their phones heh! ;)
have to learn the art of refusal perhaps, how to properly phrase my words... Always have a tendency to be frustrated at my inability to express myself fluently and lash out instead.
...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 09:24p.m.
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Excuse uniform ran out and i found myself wearing the uniform i've not touched for nearly a month :p eeps itching all over though perhaps it's better than proning on the ground with the dirt irritating the skin haha. Slack day today, passed the rifle test decently, and was so free as they were preparing for the armour 35th anniversary, managed to finish destiny, the last book of the Rhapsody series... Haha was nice how everyting fits back neatly, mourning the loss of the characters from my life now haha, something that has always have to happen when you delve into the realm of fantasy, someday it'd have to end and the characters that has gripped you for weeks, just as you've developed some feelings from them they're gone... And somehow rereading it doesn't evoke the initial emotions as you follow through their adventures, gone to you but a wisp of the memory of a mental journey into someone's realm..,
sky's nice here with the vast expanse of sky afforded by SAF's large land plots and low buildings... It's almost inspiring just to look at the skies :)
heh and was bathing today when they had a fire drill !*@"(% so i rushed to don everything then made my way down in record time but forgetting everything :( hurhur hope wun be punished...
...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 10:10p.m.
Took to the pen on 270404...
Well learning the sar weapon today... Good news is that we have friday off because they screwed one of our saturday (one which i wasn't around:p), a short week to look forward to haha.
planned to do much, yet so little time... After finishing the Rhapsody series i guess i shall stop reading books for a while and attempt learning some useful stuff haha. Hope this might turn out useful or beneficial for whatever the currents of future is tugging us to, still feel mightily inadequate with the swamping mass of knowledge waiting...
optimism gradually picked up as the unchanging unflappable truth is cast in solid die; ain't so bad being where i am, there are advantages and disadvantages of everything, two sides of the 2-D coin... Might as well fully utilise the time i have and prepare to be born again; live begins after ns... Though in retrospect no much point since we're all heading for death, born to wait for it's touch. Heh feeling v worried as we all inch towards adulthood and picking up new infinite burdens while tossing away the dusty worn cloak of childhood innocence... :/
...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 06:32a.m.
Took to the pen on Sunday250404...
Heh technologic marvels, eh. Haven't had much time to write, or perhaps too swamped to do so. Lets see... Er ok since my last post i've gotten an eleven day mc, survived some rash, got very bored in camp, finished five books or so... That's about it :p oh yes, perhaps going on msn and net from my phone counts as something happening, eh^^ sigh made a mistake that day when i connected thru wap instead of gprs, felt suicidal... It counts by minute rather than data transfer!
anyway, on the train to camp right now. Carrying so much stuff in i look like a packed mule haha, books drinks food everything in fact.
hmm just dun like loaning out the phone to others, i mean they prob wun take care of it that well given the risky regimental environment of the camp... Battery wise i've gotten myself another of it so it aint that bad this week probably, but i wonder if it gets wrecked stolen or whatever, or when i need to use it... Dunno how to reject or retrieve it back without saying it inappropriately, sigh. K shall cut loss and only write to here in case it doesn't work... :p
...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 07:04p.m.
Took to the pen on 4-4-2004...
Eeps and an blink of e eye, a week has passed; rather, 9 days. Much defining stuff did happen this week, like being put on waiting list of cmu, going into armor against all odds, my first (or maybe 2nd) polyclinic visit (which happens to be frreee!)
You know, I was with the BHCO bunch going into an armor camp to perform for them, and somehow one told me, as I stood staring at the giant statue with its big gun pointing outwards, that I've got the going-to-be-in-armor look. Then proceeded to tell me the statistics of expected casualties, which means that if a war did break out I better put a bicycle or motorbike on the tank, cos I'd be needing all the speed I can muster to escape from a 90% kill rate in the first hour :D Attacked from... the land, air and sea. Eeps.
And I always thought I'd be going signals. But well, makes life more interesting eh; might as well learn to slack whenever possible, got a few books to help plug the boredom gap :D
I've never paid or heed much notice to the warning labels on medicine; perhaps it's because I've never consumed any western medicine beyond panadol nor dabbled with anything beyond antiseptic cream and benzoyl peroxide; but the warning on my anti-itch medicine (which also happens to be able to stop flus; wonder whats the connection) make me do a double take...
...May cause drowsiness. caution if driving
Hey wait a minute. I'm gonna drive a tank!
Oh well, I don't exactly know my job scope anw. Nor know what to bring. They told me to bring my PT kit along only, hmm wonder whats gonna happen tmr. No more tekong, now... some weird remote isolated place instead. Plus it's perhaps twice as far from home... thanks MINDEF O_O
Tired and lazy. Hope don't have to stay in or something; maybe they're then gonna send me to some where closer to home :D
...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 10:27p.m.
Took to the pen on 4-2-2004...
YESH finally fixed the irritating IE bug that has been stalking my computer since... whoknowswhen but yep it's gone! Got fedup with alternative browsers whu dun display my pages and host of others (alright i design webunfriendly pages BUT... :p) so went on a hunt to find the problem. Turned out to be just some lousy adware PLEH, but oh well all's wells ends well and I can finally use IE without all that lagging yays! :)
Don't know what got into me but had a strong urge to poof down to compasspoint, rushed there just 10 minutes before library closes and tried to borrow some more books. din manage to find the last book of the crucible series sigh, so non-closure right hor... borrowed a buncha books den slowly strolled back, somehow alone in the vast fields removed from civilisation with grass underneath ur feet velvety dotty skies above and spirited air moving about no longer gives the feeling of ... disconnection with the world and all the associated negative tots, but rather a sense of finally being part of it and liberation ^^ somethings have changed, hope it isn't a figment of my imagination. i still wan to bend tt spoon :p
ack din get accepted by cmu yet but no worries so far i'd just wait and seeee (oh reminds me to add the stripslashes they're getting exceedingly irritating whee), dun like the idea of priority waiting list so im staying put for the regular one... sigh, now i'm hoping even more tt miw sends me to some nice it job so i can even write in some supporting stuff to assist mee ... kinda lazy to apply again 2 years later, but gives me excuse to go take sat over and over again wheeee :D me wan take chem and lit sat II for fun lol ^^
ack i realised im spending lotsa money on me mortal... maybe giving someone else what i wud have wanted v much myself is somewat comforting to meself... always wanted like someone older to be always there like an elder bro or sis or anything... but hmm tink im getting xceedingly naggy with em hahah ^^ but yesh im still glad for without it i've learnt perhaps to be a wee bit stronger and to stand up on my own to be helping n not needing help :)
Ack tired, better sleep now :D
...contemplated yet another facet of life's mosiac at 03:03a.m.
...Finally managed to bring myself to do another layout :p Since I've yet to get TurnLeftTurnRight, I couldn't scan in the umbrellas for the layout I wanted to do :) So instead, I doodled a few lines in Photoshop and experimented with dozens of filters and combinations, before getting those funny effects that adorn my site :p I'm not as interested in the design, but rather it's the new scripts I implemented :) Yep! Look at the Entries section, now you can scroll directly to each of the individual entries! Have been wanting to do that for a long time, now that I figured out how, have new inspiration lots of more layouts, that just require more time... Sometimes it's these technical stuff that keeps me attached to my blog and makes me keep blogging :)...