Monday, December 13, 2004

09:08 p.m.

Sunday, December 12, 2004
wow i didn't know yanner would come here, haa.. i love yanner! the forever bright bubbly funny person. actually i wrote abt her long ago but she never come ahah.. when i told her in sch, oh, yanner, your smile brightens up my day! haha. (and i mean it!)

sunday. haha. went to church! the message was awesome, about the favour of God on us, and we should apply it to specific areas in our life. and like we have undeserved favour aka grace.. and it's undeserved. the only way we disqualify ourselves from it is when we try to justify ourselves.. like, either too superior; i'm smart, i can do all these cos i have the natural ability to etc.. or inferior, which is i'm too lousy etc, but both are believing in self-effort.
like ruth, though a gentile and so poor, still looked not at them but towards God and asked for his favour, that she might have favour with the person whom she gleans from.. and the Lord blessed her, and she even got married to Boaz. and the bible also makes no mention abt her looks haha, so she is probably not pretty.. so ordinary pple can also find undeserved favour! and pastor also said abt hmm like if we try to punish ourselves for our wrongdoing right.. we can't, cos we can't punish one for the same crime twice. (it's the law) like Moses.. first time he asked God for water.. God asked him to strike the rock with his rod.. that was the age of Judgement. so he striked the rock and water flowed out.. forty yrs later he asked God again and God told him to use aaron's rod, and SPEAK to the rock, for the waters to come out. but Moses used his own rod instead and striked the rock again. (that was the 40th yr, they were abt to go to the promised land) so bcos of Moses's sin.. even though they still got the water, that generation didn't live to be in the promised land.. yup.

today i was also imagining for a while how heaven is like. is it like totally like now, office, shopping, working etc? just that everyone is praising God! and there'll be no crime, no cheating.. joy and happiness all ard? i really don't know how it's gonna be like but i don't think we're gonna sit ard on clouds and play harps like the angels haha. reminds me of the song i can only imagine.

10:14 p.m.

Saturday, December 11, 2004
very happy today! haha. went for band once again.. but i brought along a marble cake which i baked yest.. first time i'm baking a cake. much help from my mum though. i helped her make a tiramisu cake too! haha. anws just before i baked mine, i realised, since we're gonna celebrate jy's bday on sat, so might as well bake it for him! so i did, haha, and they say it's qt nice =)) yay.

anw band prac.. was a bit sian at first, but after that it became better, cos i talked qt a lot to yongchee which actually isn't very gd, we're supposed to be listening lol. after that yanner and miche gave jy his present, which is this box with a soft toy turtle inside, the box is actually plastic, but has a cardboard frame.. they stuck lots of stuff inside, cut from magazines, drawn, notes etc.. to represent most pple from the band, and even alwyn's sister! joel is a mermaid.. john is a whale.. i am a fish. lolz. cos it's the turtle tank. after we sang him the bday song at ny! then all the boys jumped on him and wanted to strip him.. hahaha but i think they didn't really dare, cos it's at ny, so many pple looking.. so they went inside the bandroom to continue.. carried him right in front of mr leng.. but somehow they ended up pouncing on mr leng instead lolz. very funny, super fun! i love today. after that we went to j8.. lunch was mos burger, kfc and a bit of cake ahah. where john koped food as usual. but nvm, hope jy has a great bday!

thurs night went to see a piano concert. hmm i shall continue later, i'm going off at 6pm to caregroup gathering, prob need to practise keyboard yupz. haha.

okays next.
i've just come home from the caregroup gathering.. played the keyboard there. first part of worship qt screw up, cos dunno how to link the songs together, then the tempo a bit fast too. but anws their games were enjoyable, gd food too. house is very nice. one phrase i rmb which mr robert said, use money to love other pple. not use pple for money. and he talked abt celebrities and how even if they have these material things.. they really have nothing.. the 3 greatest blessings are:
greatest: to have salvation
2nd greatest: to have the holy spirit in you
3rd greatest: to have a wonderful spouse
yup, the 3 greatest blessings. so we're like really blessed.. blessings don't really have to be material things. and must keep reminding ourselves the greatest blessing, we have salvation in Christ Jesus.

anws thurs went for piano concert, arcadi volodos. i dun think i really know how to appreciate fully piano music.. i onli noe that his tone is really gd, fingers light but strong.. and all the fingers, same strength for running notes..very steady.. makes things look simple and light.. he composed his own version of another song too, the harmony's nicer. hmms went with yangkai charmaine and seekpeng. i finally meet this yangkai in person, my si xiong, same piano teacher. haha i dunno what to say abt him, but learnt qt a lot abt him that night. of course, along with char and seeky. after we watched the concert, went to this choc restaurant down at 1st level.. had this sakao thingy, where u mix melt and suck choc and milk out.. u can play with it. he treated me! lol. haha. hmm ya okay.

i think i very sleepy now! arghs. i shall go sleep and may edit this if i'm in a better mood haha. this blog entry except for the 1st 2 paras, so dead haha.

05:36 p.m.

Monday, December 6, 2004
this morning was rather screwed up, realised that our ny prac was supposed to be 830-1 and not 1-6! morning shock.. but we quickly called up everyone and ended up just moving our stuff there.. we'd just go for the next thurs prac. it's qt bad, but well it's done, we can onli learn from it and be more careful in future! on the bright side we went to alwyn's house, yanner yanting me junyang joel shien yinhow and alwyn himself. the guys went to play soccer on his xbox.. and we girls and shien! went to raid his room-full of board games. played a few till we decided it was sian.. then took out this polly pocket castle thingy.. ahha, shien's palace. was qt interesting, mostly spent on finding out how to open the castle, then that was it. we also looked thru an entire cookbook! the dessert part was the best, too bad had no ingredients and couldn't cook there and then. rounded it off watching mr. bean then playing kung-fu heroes. and i've just gotten off watching this movie on channel i! U-521? smthg liddat, it's super exciting. haven't seen this type of show in a while.

had band tune in on fri.. a small turnout only, but at least it was rather enjoyable. no trombonists yet! haha. onli val, who's not even planning to come hc. qt a few of our seniors dyed their hair.. adrian's is ash-grey and blue :) hahah. kk's is so beng! but makes him look like lukawa from slam dunk. nice, but doesn't seem to reflect his personality.. that's why it was rather a lrg surprise.
oh, went to watch mama mia on fri night too. with my mum. it's gd. it was at esplanade theatre, at the bottom of the stage, there was the music team. 3 keyboardists, i think an electric guitar, some perc like xylo, maybe a mini choir. the one in the centre was the music director, playing the keyboard and conducting at other parts. everything was super precise. very zai. nice story and singing, at the end even had a long long standing ovation, and the audience danced and clapped as they performed a few of their songs again.

i've discovered webitunes from mich's blog haha. it's nice, i can finally put songs up here again.. my radioblog is malfunctioning.

my to do list has changed a bit.. haha. i wanna bake a cake, or bake cookies. cake better though. hmm. still haven't finished jason's book. watch friends. i've just finished most of my band admin, but still got some to round up tmr! and my hw, haven't even started ack. no mood to do at all.. this two weeks will be really busy. band concert's called 'tim reynish with college winds'. corwin thinks it shud be called 'tim reynish with the browns'. it's 16dec, 6bucks, 7pm at hc audi.

oh ya, had cip yest.. which is sunday. at the expo, selling raffles tickets. we went to the airport tho we aren't supposed to, but it's not bad. sold all except two tickets! haha. finally got chased out of there after abt 4hours. it's tiring work though, aching legs and arms(?) at the end of the day. maybe plus cos i was qt exhausted from the whole week. i shud sleep more.. then will enjoy more stuff. think mama mia and the band fest could have been better if i'd had more energy! haha. kaez shall go now.

lastly, i love charmaine! :) (though she wun be here to see it ) and still boo and mich. i wanna go bake cake with them ahha.

11:28 p.m.

Thursday, December 2, 2004
hmm what's new?
taufik's won singapore idol! and rightly so =)
best thing on sing idol last night was when they sang, and they sang this song, sting's all for love. super nice.
went to kap early, met peh and ivan there for a macs breakfast. halfway this ntu guy came along and did this macs drinks survey with us haha, qt interesting, he's very easy to get along with too. anw then ard 10am went to sch. junyang yanner and corwin were there! they'd come at 7am to prac and later play basketball. so qin lao, and so nice la. was very happy to see them, yanner esp when she first answered the phone, made my day haha. so, was qt excited to see them today, even though i see them like every other day! jy a bit quiet though.. i dunno leh. corwin's just the same ole corwin. haha.

we jammed outside at peh's class bench there.. mainly seal's kiss from a rose. got it mostly down, now at home i've just gotta do my hw if i'm diligent haha, and listen out for the different sounds that need to come out. this is the first time we've started jamming so early, and ended early too.. cos peh got a job interview and ivan needed to go for cip at pasir ris.. so we after that we just anihow zham a lot of songs like accidentally in love, you and i both, 5 colors in her hair etc. then went for lunch at coro, no azhar for a change lol.

came home, super tired for some reason. now too. even though it's onli before 11pm. still gotta go sch tmr for band again.. i realise too that i'm more excited to see band pple on non-band days than on band days. haha. er, it's prob a natural phenomena, for everyone not onli band pple, but it is a sudden realisation.

10:40 p.m.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004
i have this strange sense of freedom.

band today! once more. very short though.. ended with bbb and me and john in the band room talking for abt an hour plus.

church, was on being blessed, and in turn blessing others. i am a blessing to others! and like, band's blessed too, cos i am a blessing to it, as well as junyang! we are blessed people man in the name of Christ! haha. Abraham's calling was to be a blessing to many nations and people, and God blessed him richly, becos he had great faith! i'm still reading the case for creator book! ahh. why it take so long to finish, i got so many books i wanna read haha.

and i finally know what gangbang means! argh! jason is an idiot..hahaha. corwin says he's talking crap and i agree man.

i think i wasted time today leh online, and watching tv every night. tmr i must do band stuff!
i shall write out:
- band.. all admin
- hw! a lot. gp, econs
- read the case for a creator, to the end!
these are the main things i MUST accomplish, esp the band one haha.

God loves me.

I'm in a really gd mood tonight. or today. it's 12:03, and i can't sleep cos i got a full stomach, eating kim's bday cake just now, haiz shudn't have eaten so many. i ran 6km today! like, wow. really jogged very long. why am i in a good mood anw. haha. i dunno. i think band pple very nice, very normal, pple all themselves, siao siao, i dunno leh. maybe i'm in a good mood cos i played with my siblings, watched tv, stella they all came over to visit, i had a nice talk with bbb and john, listened to beautiful happy jumpy music on the way home, talked to lots of pple on msn! wah today really lots of pple, some of which i started, which isn't very usual, i haven't been online for a while!

12:14 a.m.

Saturday, November 27, 2004
i had a great dream the other night. it was a combined result of playing RISK at corwin's house, and reading abt astronomy.

the dream had a real sequence, and it's sci-fi. it's like a movie, i can't really describe it well down here but anw. we go to this hi-tech place, robots, machines and all. rush to this room with metal auto sliding doors, the pro type, and have to key in some password and some stuff to be able to get this airplane thingy and other equipment out. and it had to be done really fast cos there were these robot things that try to stop us from doing so once we go into the room. of course, we succeed! (it's a good dream anw) then once we get the computer stuff done, the robots just stop and retreat.. it's all programmed. we collect our gear and equipment, which is basically some life-jacket-lookalike thingy that you have to wear. it's for flying. haha. super hi-tech la.

we pair up; there're only four of us, 2girls 2boys.. so we pair up girlboy girlboy, and fly ard just with ourselves, the vest thing we wear.. and i assume some rocket thingy at our feet? otherwise how we fly lolz. at first i thought we were flying thru the galaxy! those stuff were like the stars or planets.. it was super cool.. the background was blue like the sea though, so after we got nearer i realised they were actually continents and not stars. and this is the part that i'm influenced by RISK. the continents had the name of the continent imprinted on them, like EUROPE, or ASIA, CHINA etc.. Europe and Asia were surprisingly and inaccurately the same size. I saw China! but it was only for a few seconds, we didn't have much time and decided to swing over from there to Singapore. Singapore's really really small. and it's surrounded by water, pure clear glistening water. and guess what, we saw diyang! lolz. he didn't wave, wouldn't expect him to, but he looked different, standing straighter in the water, smiling nicely and normally. haha. then i was like, hey that's diyang! diyang! lolz.

after that we returned to that hi-tech place once again. put back the equipment same way we took them.. avoiding those robot things, had to really push the now plastic/metal door to stop them from coming in. and the door was like already out, i was just trying to push and shield them against coming thru it, with help.. haha. but once the 'transaction' was done, they just stopped.. i opened the door and saw this dusty India-like deserted place with a few children and an old man sweeping the floor. and the dream ended.

it's just a dream though, i wish it'd occur again! fantastic dream man. super cool. the next day i was all on abt the astronomy thing. cos i'd just read the astronomy part in the book 'the case for a creator'. it's really zai. that part super interesting. i never thought i'd find the astronomy interesting, but turns out it's not only abt stars and their shapes and what they mean, but it's actually the whole universe. the 3 diff types of galaxies. the black hole, the edge of the galaxy, the amt of elements available at each part, the rotation of the earth, the specific angle at which the Earth is tilted at rotates at, the moon and how it affects our tilt so specifically, the shape of our orbit ard the sun. our position, not too far, and not too near the black hole. why we're ard the SUN and not other stars. how Jupiter and Venus and other planets actually shield us from so many comet blasts. we're in such a narrow habitable location. and the Earth is specifically this size and diameter, contains the suitable elements that are so hard to find elsewhere. we're in our specific type of galaxy to promote living, there're so many planets out there that just couldn't be habitable. life is rare. and that's just the astronomy chap of the book, not like i actually said lots of stuff in it haha. still got the physics part, and evolution part. very zai.

09:15 p.m.

Monday, November 22, 2004
had band today!!!
band prac is great, great PEOPLE.
came to sch at abt 7am.. qt a lot of them in sch! cos of a level exams. lucky joel was already there.. cos his dad fetch him.. then he wanted to jog.
but 1st i went to the general office.. my main purpose for coming so early. to book the music room! and guess wad, it was booked by chior! and lt5 booked by SO. it was so cham. then God provided another way out, an even better alternative. we called uncle chong to open the audi basement for us. he relayed it to another uncle who must have gotten a wrong msg, cos he switched on the aircon in the audi for us! and we used the great nice air conditioned auditorium for a 5-hr band prac. super good la. we are blessed abundantly.

then went to jog ard duchess road with joel.. well, not with him cos he's faster. hahaha. mine is a slow slow pace. but my eye acting up, the left one is swollen for some reason that i dunno. well, nvm.. God will handle it in his own time. yup. so that's why i ran only one round, cos the other eye suddenly was tearing a bit dotz. otherwise might have ran 2 rounds.. if i got stamina. wah. okay then jy came too! budden our band punctuality super bad la. at 9.03, only 5 pple were present. alwyn just woke up.

anw, mr leng came for band prac. for some reason he seems to have a good impression of me suddenly. haha, i dunno why but nvm. the favour of God is on me. yay. Praise God! hahaha. he thinks i'm very guai and everything. maybe after he saw the tim reynish concert details i typed out? maybe. well anw. it was a FIVE-hour prac. very long, qt tired in the end.. but it was good. i realise i always have to play qt long then my tone will sound nice. i can't get the right tone once i start.. haiz. i think i need loads of practice.

after band, we went for lunch at orchard cineleisure.. half went to cafe cartel and the other who was more broke went to a--- something. some jap restuarant. akiyoshina.. ayoshina..??? haha. it's nice, like long john silvers in jap style, w/o fries. but i think i prefer long john silvers.. cos of the chilli! u don't really eat chilli with jap food. had a gd time there.. eveyone guessed the names of each other's bro or sis. or parents. that took qt some time.. but it was fun, interesting. haha. the chinese one was rather challenging. lolz. with lots of hints of course. well then, after that joined the others.. they were comparing heights. haha. by milton's theory.. enough said. i'm corwin's ideal height lolz. too bad he's taken by michelle already! haha. =))

then went home with the pple who stay ard my area. namely corwin jy shien alwyn. i'm going alwyn's house tmr! play piano. i think corwin might go too. alwyn's alone at home cos his whole family go for holiday and he has this oboe concert coming up. was an enjoyable bus ride, they're all very lame. with corwin later, i talked abt the case for creator book. corwin doesn't believe in a God at all.. mostly due to his upbringing.. his dad always asks them to believe in themselves. then i was going thru all the evolution theory, big bang, darwin.. all that with him. and he also realises the flaws in them, but he believes in the evolution theory. as well as time travel.. he read a lot abt them, he says they do sound a bit far fetched but when u read the book it's very convincing. too bad we reached his house very fast, the bus ride on 13 was short.. otherwise can discuss more, these kind of stuff are interesting haha.

i'm going for piano concert on 9dec! with seekpeng, charmaine and yangkai. haha.

i rmb what charmaine they all said abt pple in band having common interests and i dunno, treating pple like how u treat others. we're all the same kind, talk liddat.. same wavelength. and it's true! music isn't the only thing we have in common. it's really various stuff.. something u can't really always find within the class. cos class has the common thing of .. LECTURES. and that isn't really an interest lolz. like in band, i can find pple who will wanna watch sleeping beauty on ice! and music concerts, piano, tchaikovsky. i can go listen to alwyn play his piano. and appreciate his oboe playing, even though it isn't as good as he sounded in sec3. corwin and i can talk abt these science evolution stuff haha. the bbb and i have same views on certain stuff.. i think we're more conservative pple, and sometimes as i'm getting thru this year, there're times when i know this is what i shud do, but i'm tempted to just, relax.. go for it, and.. after asking miche, she pulls me back and says no! don't go! haha. i think like, there're dufferent groups of pple.. glad i know both, lots of perspectives.

06:55 p.m.

Sunday, November 21, 2004
i sometimes feel irritated due to the simple reason that i'm a girl. and it's not safe to be at a place with few pple alone at an ungodly hour. is 7am in the morning in sch considered that? if i were a boy, this qn woulnd't probably be even brought up. ahhaha.

didn't really have a good weekend. i'm the sort of person who will worry abt something until it's totally cleared up. totally. i'm a worrywart i think haha. so, was a little irritated by smthg over sat.. and it lasted even to sunday cos i went thru it again with a rational mind on sunday morning.. to look thru it and see if i misjudged anything when in a not so good mood the day before. and, still felt that i had qt some right to be mad leh. but oh well, didn't think abt it the rest of the day completely.. on and off, until sunday night, it was much much better after some things are cleared up.

haha. budden i think the reason why i didn't really have a good weekend might be bcos i was supposed to go m'sia, then i'm now actually in s'pore cos i have band.. and the car has not enough space if my grandma and grandaunt wanna come to S'pore. it's like, king David was supposed to be at battle with his soldiers but he chose to remain at his kingdom there.. then he saw the Queen of Sheba and committed adultery. it's saying that things go wrong when u don't go according to God's plan, or doing what you're supposed to do.. but doing something else instead, following your own directions. yep.

08:31 p.m.

Friday, November 19, 2004
i just realised i'm a moderator for the 04s62 yahoo groups thingy. haha. or maybe, i just recalled. hmms. went to watch the incredibles yesterday. it is INCREDIBLE. haha. i wouldn't mind watching it in the cinema again. that one, watched with my bro and sis. today, met the 4W pple, we watched bride and prejudice! it's qt funny, it's a bollywood movie. the girls from india are super super pretty haha. lots of dance.. hmm i'm going to m'sia tmr. at least i think i am, not confirmed if i'm like gonna stay in singapore by myself.. argh, and just now while we were having dinner at fish and co, found out that olinda got kicked out!!!!! what the.. it's qt unfair to her la, cos performance wise i think sylvester really screwed up yesterday night. taufik must win singapore idol! he's the most consistent and improved singer in this show. haha. even if olinda were in, i'd still want taufik to win! yea.

and my dad keeps scolding abt the darn aircon control. relax la. what to do when u have only two controls and 4 aircons? of course u gotta move them from room to room.........

okay shadn't let that spoil my mood. will run with wuhui tmr morning.. haha. i just realised today that the tiger that funny person keeps, is rumoured to be in 6th avenue.. haha. so maybe we run there tmr will meet up with it.

11:21 p.m.