Saturday, August 13, 2005

ah. i'd planned to like play music till 11pm, but halfway wanted to get some lyrics and now it's 11.01pm! haha.
just came back from caregroup today. it was a great message. humility. but i feel qt wretched, or felt, just abt 5min ago. and now. cos i was really irritated with my brother when he just barged into my room to get smthg, then later he switched off the comp when i wanted to use it, even though i didn't really tell him that so technically it wasn't his fault, but i had to go thru switching it on again, and it takes so ever long. but i did feel wretched, like oh lord i've just sinned. and another thing as well, not abt sin, but about worry abt a current relationship with a friend.
well, God says, cast your cares unto him. even worry. when you've done that, all you find is joy and peace in your life. our message at cg today was humility. i rmbed discussing abt the pride of someone just yesterday. and here there's humility! what i did learn, in application.. is that i realised i was judging someone else for his pride. but u noe, i myself, it's not like i don't have pride in myself.but God says:

God esteems the humble. and humility, it's not just saying, i know i can't do it, but recognise that you know you can't, but Jesus can. and cast all your anxiety on him. it's like, when you are stressed, when you fear, that's actually you looking towards yourself, in things done by your own hands. cos when u really cast it on God, you know that God can only do a perfect work, what more do u need to fear?
i want to be humble, in myself.. but i will boast in and of the Lord =) haha yay. God is forever good.. can u believe he loves you ever so much, so so so so much, i can't even imagine how much. and maybe when i like fall in love next time i can feel like an inch of it, his love and romance for you is prob like a million times more..

10:59 p.m.

Saturday, August 6, 2005
Biblical perspective of work

November 16, 2004 - by Crown Financial Ministries --

Over a 50-year span, the average American spends about 100,000 hours working. A major part of adults' lives is involved in work, but often with the job comes some degree of dissatisfaction. Perhaps no statistic demonstrates dissatisfaction more than job-hopping tendencies. A recent survey discovered that the average American man changes jobs every four and one-half years, the average woman every three years.

To find satisfaction in our work and to be placed in a position where God can prosper our work, we first need to understand what Scripture teaches about work in general, as well as the responsibilities of both employer and employee.

General biblical principles From the beginning, God instituted work. "Then the Lord God took the man and put him into the garden of Eden to cultivate it and keep it?" (Genesis 2:15). The very first thing the Lord did with Adam was to put him to work for his own benefit. It was not a curse.
However, after the fall of Adam, work was included in the curse and was made more difficult.
Work is so important to our daily lives that God commanded us to, "work six days" (Exodus 34:21).
In the New Testament, Paul was even more direct concerning work: "If anyone is not willing to work, then he is not to eat, either "(2 Thessalonians 3:10). God's Word implies that there is dignity in all types of work. It does not elevate one honest profession above another.
Jobs are not merely tasks whereby workers can earn money; they are also a means by which workers can use their talents and abilities to develop character - godly character. God's part
The Word of God reveals three specific responsibilities that God has in connection with work.

1. God gives talents and skills. "Every skillful person in whom them Lord has put a skill and understanding to know how to perform all the work" (Exodus 36:1). God has given each worker unique skills and abilities.
It is not a matter of one person being better than another; it is simply a matter of having received different abilities.

2. God gives success. "The Lord was with Joseph, so he became a successful man" (Genesis 39:2). Although we all have different talents and responsibilities, God is the one who is ultimately responsible for our success.

3. God controls promotion. "God is the Judge; He puts down one and exalts another" (Psalm 75:7). Your boss is not the one who controls whether you will be promoted. God controls promotions based not only on workers' abilities but also on workers' faithfulness to the tasks and responsibilities given to them and whether they were good stewards of the responsibilities God had given them.

"You were faithful with a few things, I will put you in charge of many things" (Matthew 25:23). One of the major reasons people experience stress and frustration in their jobs is because they do not understand God's part in work.

Employers' responsibilities Godly employers usually need to perform a balancing act. Employers are to love, serve, and encourage their employees, but they also are responsible to lead their employees and hold them accountable for the completion of their assigned tasks. According to God's Word, employers have five primary responsibilities.

1. Serve employees. The basis for biblical leadership is servanthood. "Whoever wishes to become great among you shall be your servant" (Matthew 20:26). Employers need to balance efforts to make a profit with an unselfish concern for their employees and treat their employees fairly and with dignity.

2. Communicate. "Behold, they are one people, and they all have the same language. And this is what they began to do, and now nothing which they purpose to do will be impossible for them" (Genesis 11:6). When employer and employees are committed to accomplishing a particular task and have good communication between them, nothing - within the will of God - will be impossible.
Communication is a two-way street. Employers not only need to speak to their employees, they also need to listen to their employees with sensitive and understanding ears.

3. Hold employees accountable. Employers are responsible for the employees knowing what's expected on the job.
Employers regularly need to evaluate employees?performance and communicate this to employees.

4. Pay a fair wage. "[The Lord will judge] those who oppress the wage earner in his wages" (Malachi 3:5). You shall not oppress a hired servant ... You shall give him his wages on his day before the sun sets" (Deuteronomy 24:14-15). Employers must pay fair wages promptly when they are due.

5. Pray to have godly employees. This is not a command; it is a principle. However, employers would be wise to pray that God would send them employees of like faith and belief.
Although employers are forbidden to discriminate based on religious belief, employees with like faith eliminate a lot of potential problems that might arise.

Employees' responsibilities
The life of Daniel as recorded in the biblical book of Daniel illustrates eight characteristics that made him a good and godly employee. The following are those eight characteristics.

1. Work as if working for the Lord. We actually are serving the Lord in our work; we are not serving people. In essence, we work for the Lord. If employees know and believe this, slothfulness can be greatly diminished.

2. Work hard. "Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might" (Ecclesiastes 9:10). In Scripture, hard work and diligence are encouraged; laziness is condemned. "He also who is slack in his work is brother to him who destroys" (Proverbs 18:9).
However, hard work must be balanced by other primary priorities of life: relationship with Christ, spouse, and family. If work interferes with any of these three relationships, you are working too much.

3. Be honest. Employees should not give cause for their employers ever to question or doubt their honesty.

4. Be faithful. Godly employees need to establish goals of being faithful and excellent in their work and work habits. Then they work hard to attain those goals.

5.Be a person of prayer. Godly employees are people of prayer. If employees do not pray daily regarding their work, the work will suffer.

6. Honor employer. Godly employees always honor their employers and those who have been placed in authority over them (1 Peter 2:18).

7. Honor fellow employees. Wherever there are employees there will inevitably be office politics. However, a godly employee will avoid backbiting and slanderous talk about other employees.

8. Verbalize his or her faith. Daniel verbalized his faith in God to those around him. Even so, godly employees will openly declare their faith on their own time and live their lives according to what is pleasing to the Lord and according to the principles of His Word.

Conclusion
The most important question people can ask every day is, "For whom do I work?'" If the answer is anything or anyone other than the Lord, the biblical principles of work are not being applied. God'S Word has given some very direct principles concerning work that all Christians should know and observe.

11:56 p.m.

Saturday, July 30, 2005
i shall recount my gd day.
but first thing, happy bday to jingmin!

anw yes my day. i think i'm gonna get qt longwinded from here haha. anw i slept super early last night, abt 930. so i decided must do work early today.. so started at like 730am.. then did work till abt 1015, then went to meet amanda and some of her friends at suntec, to have lunch then see the university exhibition at the convention centre. it was not bad, then useful thing i picked up was abt music, more music info in uni then i've ever found out so far, even though it isn't a lot. i'm still debating whether to study music nxt time anot, as a core, or not. i think most prob i'll take 2 subjs though.
the exhibition was really short, but saw lots of pple there, from ij tp.. saw audrey, then sarah (khui) and chingjoo msged me to say they were there! too bad by that time i'd already left, cos i didn't go for the seminar, it's like 4 hrs long haha. lots of hc pple there too. but i went to starbucks at raffles city to study, left amanda and her friends at the seminar. study study.. it's boring. and like, telling myself i'm gonna study till 545! so many hours. it was qt a dreading feeling.

however, at abt 510.. i needed to go to the bathroom, and for some reason i forgot there was a toilet at there itself i think. but i packed up and went to the outside one.. when i'd intended to leave at 545. so i had nothing to do for qt some time, so went to ps early, like abt slightly more than half hour early. actually planned to stroll ard and waste time, maybe browse at clothes, but i felt like going to trumpet praise for some reason, and stayed there reading for the rest of the time.
i read mainly 2 bks, one was by the author of i kissed dating gdbye. abt dating the church.. are u a church dater or are u committed to it. it was not bad haha. but it was the other book which got me more hooked.. it was abt fasting. and made me rmb, me milton jy and kwanghan fasted a few days before syf. but we didn't really know the meaning. so here was a book which could tell me. and actually there're lots of things that could come from it.
one thing i realised was that he gave many excerpts from the bible, and like, Jesus, esther, david etc, lots of pple fasted. the reason i rmb most vivdly is that thru weakness, all ur faults come out.. cos like u're physically denying ur flesh, which is ur hunger, and saying that Lord i depend on your strength. a fault would be like getting grumpy and irritable cos of ur hunger. which was what i experienced too hahaha oh yay. i think Christians may be the only pple that can say, i want to be weak, for when i am weak then I am strong.
other reasons are that u clense ur body. u get revelations. and oh yes. it's like a conscious move on your part to show that u want to do smthg to rely on Jesus.. so God will reward u for that.. like he'll give u the extra blessing, protection u need, whatever u need, whatever blessings or abundance..

anw the great thing was that. after that short half hr read, i surprisingly felt rather rejuvenated. before that i was really really tired and sian, i didn't even feel a spark for reading God's word, but somehow He led me to there, and to read that bk. that book also contained a lot of testimonies abt healing la. casting out demons, from homosexuals, healing of a old blind woman.. it was really gd. i feel like buying it! maybe if i go life bookshop tmr oh yay.
anw after that, yes energized. and i went for piano. now usually i feel qt tired by the time piano lesson comes, and moreover i hadn't had time to practise much. but today i greeted mrs hong much more heartily than i've ever done the entire year. really. and we almost started on the piece. but somehow i never even got to the third bar haha. we talked abt music, abt university, abt composers beethoven and all, abt wow, what is it abt them that makes their music evergreen? like, pop culture now, these songs come and go, but classical music.. professors and so many learned pple are crazy over bach and beethoven, all his symphonies. and why? there's really no explanation. not the harmony or the chords or the melody or whatsoever. that they can churn a simple tune that every single person till now knows. i was qt touched by it somehow. like, why ah? just cannot find the explanation. and talked abt how in music in uni, u study music literature. and if u take on performance, u have to prac hard, like perhaps 6-8 hrs a day for some pple. just talked la. and i learned a lot of things. till 715pm! we didn't even touch the pieces. which might be lucky cos i only practised them once and i told her too. so yea. i think it's qt supernatural, maybe cos yes revelations from just receiving from God a half hr before haha.
the most awesome thing is that i wasn't even seeking God, or didn't feel anything. but God was the one who looked for me. isn't it great that whatever God does, it doesn't depend on what u feel, or what things look like? there was one example in the book, the pastor prayed for this woman who had cancer, and he felt no annointing on her at all. but the next day they told him she was completely healed! so it's like, yea, u don't need to feel it, but God is still working there.
there were others, like this woman who had this tumour at her throat there, they prayed, she threw it up, she went for check up like 18 times and they couldn't find an inch of that tumour again. and that old woman i mentioned earlier who was blind. he prayed for her 7 times in church, each time she fell when he touched her head, but when he tried to lift her up later, she said no, and she said i still can't see. but the 7th time she fell, God told him to lift her up. and when she looked up, she could see! later God showed him in his mind, smthg like a dream, then when each time she fell, this tentacle like thing on her eye.. one fell off.. and each time he prayed one fell, till on the last day, the last one fell, and she could see again. same thing for the demon in the homosexual person, homo for 18 yrs, and later he went to the house to rebuke that demon, commanded it to say 'the blood of Jesus', and it couldn't say it.. and after that it left the body of that man.. and now he's married.

okay anw that was my great day, praise God haha. but i must go off now, 1045 already, must do at least an inch of work before i go to bed!

10:47 p.m.

Thursday, July 28, 2005
woohoo i went to cut hair with charmaine today! had a great time, we went to fareast to cut.. and 20buck student price, cheaper than what i usually have at sabrina's, and it's not bad either. char got a total new hairstyle la. with fringe now! super different. when we went to the toilet later and she came out from the cubicle after i did, wouldn't have recognised her at first if i didn't know it's her. den had to buy like pins for her, and more rubber bands for myself after that.. i dunno, i think it's just the excitement of smthg new. cos that new haircut was REALLY new. v different. brought her to that turkish ice cream place later, and after that she went for tuition. haha well in all, had a great time =)

also listened to pastor prince's cd, a life worth living, this morning. it's great. ah i need to listen more and put myself more into the word. like nowadays so much sch, you may forget God as u go abt the daily routine.. and the other stresses of having so much work, and feeling totally slack. for me at least, i slept so early yesterday la. ah anw i have just received a weird reply from derrick on msn. it's weird and was disturbing but i shall put it behind me, shud be replied by prob a 'funny' friend of his. and yea, i'm in a gd mood and of gd spirit cos of a gd day. thank God for the joy within me, and may i have sufficient energy later, and for this weekend to complete more work and sudy well!

08:31 p.m.

Sunday, July 17, 2005
haha i wonder what i'm doing online.
anw it's been a great weekend.. sat went for tokyo kosei concert at esplanade. needless to say, it was qt excellent though the songs qt chim.. the encores were more to our tastes.. but they played really really well la, almost qt flawless.
when we left we saw tim reynish! but nv say hi cos he was talking to an impt other person haha.
outside there were brilliant fireworks for the NDP preview. we also heard the pledge, some patriotic songs and then the anthem.. sang along with it. i was thinking that when we leave sch i'll miss all that. it would have been cool if everyone standing there had stopped what they were doing and said the pledge and sang our anthem too. haha.
and i didn't mention, sat morning had college day, saw qt a few seniors. on the way back from esplanade also saw gordon, he looks like he's in gd shape haha. saw jiade, debra and griselda at the suntec food court too =) as we were having dinner there. qt sad couldn't go for both the music prac and for campus, but i think TKWO concert was too gd to miss. qt a once in many years opportunity.

church today,msg was really gd. i feel like getting the tape.. i just uploaded lots of new christian songs into my mp3 player mwahaha. anw it was abt having Christ in us.. when we look into the mirror, we should behold Christ in it.. and just be conscious of Christ working in us throughout the day, for me, esp in sch when it's not v common to talk abt God.. that's what i rmb right now haha. i think there's a lot more.. but now's qt late so i won't try to rmb everything. but God is the provider of all things.. our all in all, and as the word says, the Lord is my shepherd, there is nothing i shall want.. yep. even like our own faith, or .. we say we trust in Lord.. but we must know that we mustn't trust in our trust in the Lord. cos that'd be trusting in ourselves again.. yea.

went to michelle's house in the evening, met mich and wuhui, v nice like last time we went to each other's houses to study liddat, and we can still talk so much.. saw huiyi and val tey too.. studied for a bit, then went to pow seng for dinner and later to coffee bean for dessert. haha how extravagant. but i care less abt the money than my weight, ack i must start to lose weight haha and lose what i gained during the hols.

oh one last thing. the new crea pple in hc, jac set up this small prayer session, fri morning was the first time. it was qt gd, just short sharing abt what God has done for u recently.. and a morning prayer. it's gd to rmb Him in the beginning of the day.. a reminder in the rather secular life of HC. but we will be different haha cos of what our Lord has done in us. i rmb last cg.. abt an issue of sickness, daniel said sorry but no disease is gonna stay in my body man.. and Amen to that haha. God is good.

11:58 p.m.

Tuesday, July 5, 2005
went to sentosa with the class today! i'm SUPER burnt.. my face is red haha. went kayaking, swimming across to lie and tan a bit on the other side, playing pool, and running away from a persistent hornet.
the hornet was super funny! somehow it liked yenzhi and seb. then when a hornet approaches u u shouldn't move.. not an inch, and just wait till it flies a bit off then run away! then yenzhi was like so scared but she didn't dare move and inch.. like some stone statue. it was ony the girls and seb ard that area, where our bags were.. amanda screamed and screamed.. and we all ran ard that umbrella shade for qt a long time.. the hornet really kept coming after us haha, or at least them.
okay then it's my second time playing pool, played with amanda.. and i suck! yea haha. nvm more practice will do the trick nxt time.
hmm kayaking is fun.. nice to just laze about, though the area is really qt small. we swam over to the other side of the beach though there was a bridge, but it wasn't really far la. the sun was scorching! our feet got qt burnt haha. there were many other classes there.. hmm us 62, 63, 64, 71, 77.. so many hc pple la.
we had dinner at the food centre at the bus interchange there.. the food is qt gd, esp since i haven't eaten that kind of hawker centre food for qt some time.

was qt tired today.. kept yawning as i waited for waiyin and janie at the mrt station.. was better after getting into the water though. perhaps cos exercise yest, ran in the morning, then in the afternoon my sister pulled me to swim cos i haven't swum with her for almost a year.. and since it's youth day holiday.. yea. then today ran with my mother again. ah so tiring.
amanda's lent me her korean vcd.. cool guy i think. i'll watch it either later or tmr! yay =) i wanna catch that other korean drama serial too.. abt some woman becoming the imperial physicist and cook. i'll borrow from shaun nxt week..

currently i'm reading the book 'heaven is so real'. started out rather dubiously.. as in, it seemed like, wow, out of this world man. unbelieveable. but i'm continuing to read it.. makes me think qt a bit more. i'm still at like the 5th chapter only, not the crux yet, so the impact hasn't hit me, but i'll continue.. it really reminds u of his great love. and shows in different depths and describes more of his love.. it's like some romance. but i haven't got a v gd picture yet, not yet.. yes, the rest of the book awaits.

10:16 p.m.

Monday, July 4, 2005
block tests over! enjoying a three day break now.. or at least from last sat till wed.. that'd be 5days. went to malaysia over the weekend right after blocks, celebrating my grandparents' 50th anniversary.. a really big event, almost like a wedding itself. haha. it's a family event, so was formal and yet informal.. qt a few items and presentations including powerpoint slides and kids singing songs. i love the song 'jin jia hor'.

haha i'm now listening to the bengen camp recordings of praise and worship!! super nice. i'm listening to the thurs night one and the last night.. it sounds really gd. mm derrick was saying that God was really great that night, somehow as they played and into the slow section, their playing sounded more mature and more like an adult band, less than a student band. cos all of them had the same focus, on God, that night.. so He really did wonders and hightened their skill.. yea. it's really fantastic.

oh when i went to malaysia. the whole dinner was so evangelistic haha, every single person on stage talked abt God.. and i realised that now, compared to the last time i went malaysia, a lot of them end their sentences with praise God.. even like, oh no pls dun let her sing! and then end with praise God haha.. but so joyous. a lot of pple were qt touched at wow, 50th anniversary! it's really long. when my mum has her 50th wedding anniversary she'll be 72. a lot of pple came, abt 90? yea. anw been eating lots of durians! must drink lots of tea haha. there's an abundance of REALLY gd durians, jackfruit, pineapple, longans, mangosteens.. hmm that's abt it. my grandaunt grows them.

07:27 p.m.

Wednesday, June 8, 2005
haha long time since i blogged.. hmm. last week, had chalet! lasted wed to fri.. i only went late wed night though, and left late thurs night. had church servers meeting/seminar on wed.. yup, a night with buddy bell! he teaches on the ministry of helps. he's v funny, and looks a bit like fred flintstone.. the way he says his stuff, v inspiring.

i'm listening to the instrumental songs from my sassy girl btw! it's v beautiful and sad.

okay anw chalet was great. hmm. most pple came for the 1st night, and stayed over.. we mostly sat ard and talked and occassionally walked downstairs looking for food haha. oh it was at aranda, at pasir ris, downtown east. right nxt to it was wild wild wet.. which we went to the next day. thurs morning, went for early, or perhaps not so early breakfast at macs.. then later went to slack at the country club which milton's a member of.. that's why we could bluff our way in haha. we were actually sitting at the lobby there.. but later milton persuaded us to go to the games room.. which was better! cos there was more air con, it was an enclosed area so no one could hear us.. there were 4 big comfortable chairs.. and there we slacked and talked and had a good chat for abt 2hrs. then.. afternoon, went to wild wild wet! it was fun, i didn't bring a swimming suit so we went in in our usual clothes.. me yanner miche, and the guys jy joel milton yinhow samuel.. i think we went from like 1plus to 6.. i became darker! and surprisingly my body ached 2days after that.. hmm haha yea. not that many rides and all, but it was enjoyable.

hmm what's been going on since then. sat. went for church.. then oh yea. i came abt an hour early.. then derrick, one of the better and most experienced keyboardists ard, came to.. share his principles abt playing and all.. was v helpful haha. oh u noe, the thurs night when i came home.. it was really late, past twelve! cos we only left the place at 11plus. but anw i came home.. and was really tired, but somehow i felt like going online, so online i went.. and that was abt 1am plus after bathing and all.. and he was online! then talked to me abt playing and a lot of stuff la, a lot abt daniel in the bible as prob a role model. but anw i realised that if i never went online that night, i would not go for my extra lesson sat morning.. and i'd never talk to him, cos i never see him online animore! i think he goes in the wee hours of the morning onli.. that night he talked till like almost 3am.. then i was half asleep already.. and decided to just let him carry on and i'll read the msg history another day haha. but hm perhaps it was God who led me to go online that night eh?

qianyi's bday on monday.. the band exco went to sch in the morning first cos got some handover stuff.. turned out only 5j2s came down haha, me jj jy joel corwin. in the end the j1s did most of their own discussion and cleaned the room while we all did work and briefed them on whatever we needed to hand down.. later went over to ps where we met qianyi and most of her section pple, except john i think.. yep, went pizza hut for lunch! oh man i spent away the remaining of my allowance haha.. but well my mother says dun worry abt money, so i've just got to budget for the rest of the week.. it was a gd meal though. i didn't really prepare her anything except a postcard letter abt 6 postcards long. had a gd time. then later me and jj went over to long john silvers to study.. till abt 6pm! it was.. not bad. yea.

oh no it's like block test coming. this hols is a study time period.. and i'm afraid my productivity v low. every time i'm at home studying, i slack my hours away.. yesterday jj wasn't feeling well so we stayed home and studied. i hardly did anything! except like half of trigo.. half of a chapter when i'm supposed to like complete at least 3 a day! ack ahha. cos halfway i switched on the tv.. and it was left on for a like a few hours.. and i realised there're so many nice comedies on hallmark la, mad abt you, who's the boss, and the nanny! the nanny's the best.. v witty and funny. anw today decided to go sch! much more productive.. i finished my three chaps early and slacked after that haha. btw cereal is now my favourite food/snack. okay it's 11pm! i think...i will try to read some notes.. otherwise i'll be behind schedule. haha. oh, i'll do that after copying my songs into the mp3 player, the songs there have been stagnant for abt 2weeks, they're really outdated.

10:25 p.m.

Wednesday, June 1, 2005
went for praise and worship session for jc pple at church today! they asked us to come at 6pm... and gues wad, it actually started at ard 7pm cos everyone was late haha. and ended at 1015! but that aside, it was really enjoyable and meaningful and everything and yep, i'd like to go again haha. hmm. ronnie led, and li en played the keyboard.. started out with ronnie giving a testimonial of his own life story of how he came to find Jesus.. it was really touching! and v supernatural. i want to tell milton and jy tmr at the chalet haha. anw yea now v late so i wun write it down here.. hopefully i rmb everything. then had prayer session.. and a wave of healing and cleansing.. and a deep sense of peace. smthg like what i felt when i did yoga.. that kind of peace, and different of course, it's a different source.

several things touched me.. i cried le haha even though i dun cry that much during church but this time the tears really came down for qt a while. when it came to me that God loves you so much more than u ever noe.. that he wants u blessed and have everything good, more than u want it yourself. that He initiates everything.. even when we dunno he's there, He is. and sin.. sin actually means the imperfection of everything, anything that is short of God's standard. and Jesus suffered and died for our failures.
instead of people sacrificing for their God.. as seen in the past where u noe, pple brought animal sacrifices and burnt offerings, and now i think some religions also do that.. sacrifices. but at the cross, now God sacrificed for us. for our sakes.. he took the first step. didn't wait for us to call him, but He called us. He really loves us so much.
i thought abt the phrase, 'He is the reason we live'. there're many ways of seeing it and interpreting it.. or at least 2 main ways. one can be that he is the source of all things, without him, we can do nothing. the other interpretation is that, when we don't know he is there, He protects us and saves us from everything. when we do stuff but somehow we escape from harm.. how we're able to enjoy a good life all along, how we're like sometimes so lucky and all.. it's all Him u noe, our life isn't by luck. and yes, the grace message .. where sin abounds, grace much more abounds! He can turn your greatest weakness into your biggest strength. He's a supernatural God.

anw it ended.. and i asked li en some stuff abt the keyboard haha. how to operate and everything. anw i think she played really well today.. different from when i last heard her at the rehearsal studio. i really believe that when you're doing this and serving God in praise and worship and all.. He annoints u.. everything u do seems/sounds/looks better.. the music u play, He gives the inspiration. even like caregroup, when Debra played.. can really feel the presence of God in the room.. and yep, her playing also, suddenly sounded different .. v good. anw i learnt smthg.. wow they're even qt particular abt the tones of keyboard and strings they use.. they like which sound, or whatever.. which was brighter, or acoustic.. i know there's a difference, i wonder if i can pick it up as easily as they can... abt the suitability of different tones for different songs. so much to learn! it's exciting.

oh yea smthg i suddenly rmbed. u noe it is written, He is the vine and we are the branches? pastor went to check out the plant.. our picture of it is the vine, with branch sticking out. but in actually fact, what it looks like is a thick vine.. and v v little things sticking out.. it's even smaller than perhaps the normal branches.. it's really all the vine. and we're the members of his body! formed together to be a part of Him. smthg abt.. we are in Him, and He is in us.. we don't do anything except to feed on Him.. yep. yay. come and dwell in my heart Lord.

12:28 a.m.