Monday, August 30, 2004
05:43 p.m.


Well, it's starting to look like I WILL be in charge of the High Point University Delegation to NCSL. Hah...and mom complains that I've withdrawn from society...

Mark is thinking about joining NCSL...he aspires to be a politican, but I want him to see how politics really is...with its muted gray tones and fuzzy blurs that make up reality. People get a heavy does of reality when they join politics...I just hope this new delegation is up to the task...

In other news, Raf came into the caf and got all nasty with Sarah, Mark, and Jason because they didn't keep him up-to-date...I swear, mental disablity or not, that boy needs to learn some respect. Although Sarah says that Mark and Jason could use an attitude adjustment as well. I personally think that Jason needs to stop taunting Mark about hooking us up...THE BOY HAS A GIRLFRIEND FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY...and Mark can't take a joke. And THEY call me square...-_-;

Friday, August 27, 2004
08:41 p.m.


Well, the first week of school passed by without to much real life drama. I wish I could say the same for all the drama on the internet, but I need to stay on topic.

This Sunday I'll be going to the Oak Hollow Mall to do some shopping. Hopefully, I can get a parasol, paper fan, some pocky, and...if I have enough money...the third Manga of Hellsing. I've been collecting the Hellsing Mangas, and I love everyone of them.

Still no word on Neko Con 7, but I'm keeping my mouth shut so I won't be egging my friends about the con. Raf and I might go, but we'd have to share and room. We'd learn modesty issues really quick if that happens....

In other news, I'm back to doing North Carolina Student Legislature, or NCSL as we call it. There's a good chance that I will be in charge of the High Point delegation simply because I have the most experience. Let me advise everyone that if you don't want to see the ugly and often gray side of the world that is called politics, I suggest you stay ignorant of the whole thing. Believe me, you will change and see the whole world differently when you step into politics...and for some people, it's not worth it.

Wednesday, August 25, 2004
09:32 p.m.


Today was my first day of class...and I swear, I thought the day would never end. Thankfully, it was only two classes, but since it's so late, I'll have to do my homework tomorrow.

Went to see the hypnotist show last night...I had a good time, of course, it was at the expense of those who were hypnotized. I swear...the things these people did and acted while they were hypnotized was amazing. I hope to do some research into this to explain what really goes on with a hypnotized mind.

There will be a trip to Wal-Mart tomorrow, followed by a trip to the Oak Hollow Mall on Sunday...I signed up for both. Now the only problem is, how to find someone to talk to who isn't Japanese. We have several Japanese students at my school, and naturally, they want to be together. They seem nice enough...I just can't seem to connect with them like Raf and Sarah can...

Monday, August 23, 2004
02:00 p.m.


A compromise has been reached in the utter chaos between the mods and france's group. I'm still pissed at them for what they did and said on the Bent Lounge, but I'm not going to bring innocent people like Torrent, BlackWind, or even Silver Dragon into this...

I offered france the link where she can have an Invision Free Board so that her RPG can grow and be stable...other ideas have been brought to her attention, and I hope this brings a period of calm to the Lounge. BTW, Ken can lick my pussy for all I care...he's not worth shit in the grand scheme of things, thus his words mean nothing.

On to real world news, I bought my textbooks today. My History of the Middle East Class had FIVE Textbooks...I want a good education as much as the next person, but FIVE textbooks is a little too much. Sarah, Mark, Jason, and Raf are all here, and it's starting to feel like school already.

Either tonight or tomorrow night, there will be a hypnotist performing at my college...I really want to see if you can really control people...should be fun to see what happens...

Saturday, August 21, 2004
11:15 p.m.


This just fucking pisses me off! I HATE rats, I swear, I will kill Cleo for this! For someone who roleplays as Cye's sister, that is low. I don't care if she or any other Clanball person reads this, I am fucking pissed!

I guess this proves how much loyalty we have on the Ronin Lounge, rats, they fucking court marshal rats in the military...

The Ronin Lounge is about five seconds away from from falling in on itself, and I can't stop it from falling. People complain about the rules being to strict, well guess what, YOU DON'T HAVE TO FUCKING BE HERE AT THE RONIN LOUNGE! Nobody forced you to join, you came to this Lounge of your own free will! Second of all, the language restriction thing, while most "members" can't understand it, I do...I have swore and said every foul thing under the sun, and you want to know what, my parents correct me, why, because the real world doesn't tollerate that kind of shit...if I said one foul word when I was working at Wal-Mart, they would have had my head, if my father did the same thing at his work, they would have had his head too. There is a restriction on what you say in society, and thus, you need to conform to what society says. You don't like it, tough, the real world doesn't give a fuck about what you as a person thinks. You want to make a change in society, then work within the system...

There's also something else people have fogotten while I'm at it...it's called LOYALTY! You just don't ditch a group when something doesn't go your way...you stay with it until the end. If people give up every time they something goes wrong, then nothing would have happened in History!

Since so many people don't seem to have the spine to endure hardships on the board, much less follow the rules, I have no more to say...

Thursday, August 19, 2004
05:13 p.m.


Yesterday was my last day of work, and while I should have felt upset or sad, I just felt numb. It sounds strange, that I felt nothing when I left a place I liked and would work again if I have the chance. I guess in the long run it means nothing...I just has to get this out of my system.

I leave for school tomorrow. Mom and Dad have forbidden me to take my computer back to school, but I was ready, and I saved those Link Lists onto my school e-mail account.

I've been talking to Sarah via my Yahoo IM System. It's good to hear from her, even if I'll see her again soon. I can't wait to see Mark, Jason, Lexi, Raf, Sarah, and all my other friends. I can't wait!

Sunday, August 15, 2004
12:26 p.m.


I really don't know how to take this, so I'm just going to tell it like it is. Yesterday, one of my co-workers, Richard, told me that he liked me. This came as a total surprise for two reasons. One is because I'll be leaving work on the 20th of this month, which is the Friday of this week, and second of all, no guy has ever told me that I was pretty or that he liked me. I really don't know what to say...any advice?

Thursday, August 12, 2004
08:29 p.m.


I wish my neighbor would just fucking drop dead. Again the dumbfuck brings his dog close to our fenced in yard and lets him run loose. I swear, if he riles up my dogs one more time, I am going over to his house and give him a piece of my mind. He has no control over his dog, and should put him on a leash. I am so sick of him, but mom and dad tell me to be polite when I’m around him. One day…I swear I will kick the shit out of him for his stupidity. Maybe I can find a way for him to have a convenient accident while he’s out in his yard…

In other news, my Tabi Socks have arrived. I had only one word to say when the FedEx man delivered my socks…YEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! The Tabi Socks fit perfectly, and they go very well with my kimono. Now my kimono outfit is almost complete. Mom said she would make me a drawstring purse to match my kimono, but otherwise, the kimono outfit that I wear on my body, excluding my purse, is complete…^_^

The Opening Ceremony for the Olympic games starts tomorrow at either 7:00 PM or 8:00 PM EST. I want to watch the ceremony in all its festive glory, but I will be working. Not only that, I seem to be off every payday…>_>

My parents and I got into fight earlier this evening. They want to teach my brother responsibility, but nothing ever gets done. If I don’t do something, then the place becomes a pigsty. They don’t want me to do the chores so that my brother can learn responsibility, but in the long run, they want the chores to get done. I fail to see the logic in this, but I guess with the onset of this fight, I’ve now come to realize that my parents and I don’t see eye to eye very much anymore. It must be a part of me getting older and getting ready to leave home…

Tuesday, August 10, 2004
09:52 p.m.


I got an e-mail saying that my Tabi Socks will be at my home on the 12th of this month. I'm so excited...a full a Japanese outfit, that even has the approval of THE toughest clothes critics in my family...my Boxers Casey and Sunny! Yeah, they're dogs, but they each have a quality and personality that is...well...unique.

I finally got Sarah's Yahoo IM Account, so we can IM each other. I still have no word if I can go to that Con that is supposed to take place in Virgina in Nov. If anyone knows the name of this Con, then please tell me.

If I do go to this Con, I'm going in my Kimono...^_~

Sunday, August 8, 2004
08:48 p.m.


Two days ago, my mother surprised me with a wonderful gift...a KIMONO!

I also got a pair of matching sandles to go along with the kimono, so all I have to do is wait until my white Tabi socks come in from JapaneseGifts.com. This site has been approached and gone through the BBB, even though it is not a full memeber of the BBB. It can be found within the BBB Database, and all issues within a three month period have been resolved with this company.

Tonight, my mother and I were working on the sash, due to the fact that it needed adjusting. While I'm at work tomorrow, my mom will work on a button and a tie for my kimono.

I can't believe my mother did this for me...she said this was supposed to be a birthday present, but it just came in two days ago...I really don't know what else to say...

Saturday, August 7, 2004
11:09 a.m.


I just sent in my two weeks notice that I will be leaving Wal-Mart to go back to school. While I'm sad that I will be leaving Liz, Mama, and all my favorite co-workers, I guess it's just a part of life.

While working at Wal-Mart, I seem to have developed a strange work ethic. It's listed below if you want to read it:

1. You CAN be friends with your boss.

2. A smile at work always brightens people's faces.

3. DO NOT take for granted the shift that works behind the sences. They're the one who make your job possible!

I'll write more later.

Saturday, July 31, 2004
03:19 p.m.


If a Gemini is said to have two different sides within one personality, I have come to the realization that the darker side of me could be quite deadly.

Normally, I’m an easy person to get along with. I don’t mind cracking a few dirty jokes, laughing at crude humor, talking with my friends, or even smiling and saying hello to someone. However, there is also a darker side of my personality that can be quite deadly.

I’m not a bad person…in fact, I could be that greeter at your local Wal-Mart, smiling and saying hello to you at the same time. I would be handing out stickers to children, tagging a person’s returns, or even making the Goth Kids smile. But at the same time, I can be a cold, emotionless person that will have no problem pushing my emotions aside and even somewhat enjoy beating the shit out of someone, or stabbing someone with a knife or pair of scissors if anyone I care about feels threatened or harmed.

Because of this darker side of my personality, I can’t do Karate or other Martial Arts, I’m scared to pick up a weapon of any kind, and…there are sometimes that I don’t know my own strength. All the stories I read about people who have darker sides to their personality, say that you have to confront your darker half to be yourself. The problem is…I’m too scared to do that. Does that make me weak? Does that mean I’m trying to push back negative emotions so I won’t be able to accept what’s within me?

Wal-Mart gave out free stainless steel scalpel knives yesterday, during my work hours: 6:15 PM to Midnight. It was so tempting to go up to the Men’s Department and get one for free, but I could also see myself using that knife on someone if they tried to take Liz or Mama hostage. What in the name of God’s Green Earth is wrong with me?

Thursday, July 29, 2004
07:30 p.m.


I am about five seconds away from killing my asshole neighbor. That jackass is really grating on my nerves, and the thought of killing him is growing stronger by the day.

Our beloved neighbor has absolutely no sense of manners or regard for us. The asshole has his own dog which he lets loose in the woods. He thinks he has control over his dog, but he doesn’t. That dog has come very close to our gate, that there have been barking matches between his dog and our two dogs.

What makes matters worse, is the fact that he’s burning wood without a permit…and the smoke permeates the whole neighborhood. He’s done it TWICE, and my parents are threatening to call the Fire Department to get his sorry ass.

Now that fucker was cutting some of OUR trees with Casey and Sunny outside. Not only is this guy a jerk, but also, he has absolutely no concept of time and/or place. I hope he burns himself, cuts himself, or gets arrested...