Friday, November 21, 2003 -
This morning.
Iruka: *stands in the bus, going to school*
*a dark-haired, (instantly) handsome man either in his late twenties or early thirties, dressed in a black suit, a long black trenchcoat and wearing dark sunglasses enters the bus*
Iruka: *STARES*
Man: *sits down*
Iruka: *stares, than spots an empty chair near him and sits down. Continues to stare for the next 10 minutes.*
Man: *goes out on the same stop as Iruka*
Iruka: *FOLLOWS. He's going the same way she is, anyway.*
Man: *walks*
Iruka: *follows. Eventually arrives in front of her school.*
Man: *continues walking*
Iruka: *stands in front of the school, still staring at the man*
Man: *goes around a corner*
Iruka: ;_;

D'you reckon I could be developing some kind of fetish for black business suits?

Scary. You're probably better off not knowing. But I swear, I didn't go look for it. XD  I was just visiting this site and clicked on the link... ^^;;  (which you can find in the ".........." part of the last post XP)

- 04:30 p.m.

Thursday, November 20, 2003 -
..........
Holy fucking shit. I'm scarred for life. Especially since I couldn't resist reading the other articles... Hmm, so it's Hell for you if you masturbate (pray! PRAY! "Satan Never Gives Up!"), and not when you dig out a corpse and cut off its head, hands and legs to make it easier to carry around...? ("There is no greater experience for a virgin than having his/her virginity taken by a corpse!") Uhum.

- 20:00 p.m.

Thursday, November 20, 2003 -
*slightly insane* Omfg the terrible school day is finally over yessssss~!! T_T *tears of joy*
Thought of the day: Homemade pizza rules. XD~~~

And finally I got some amusing referrers! Yay. XP
Hellsing Yaoi Fanart
Yaoi in Hellsing...? Did I miss something? ^^;;
Fuuma, Seishirou, ice-cream
Gotta love that scene.
gravitation tainted love music video
Oooh, is there something like that? Wanna see~
seishirou attractive to subaru
*rotflmao!*

Woo, happy birthday, Seguchi Tohma! X3 Oh, I wanna watch more Gravitation...
And yes, I am so pathetic to keep a list of anime characters' birthdays. And if you think that's bizarre, I blow my nose at you, you sons of a silly person.

- 03:49 p.m.

Wednesday, November 19, 2003 -
Two exams tomorrow. *sob* Don't want toooooo. ;o;

Quick quiz before I get back to studying, yesh~ XD

You're an Angsty Uke. For you, the glass is always half empty. No one loves you. And even if they did, you don't deserve it. Cheer up a bit, huh?
What Type of Uke Are You?
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*clutches at her angst* Optimism? What's that? XD

- 06:46 p.m.

Monday, November 17, 2003 -
............. I got a C on last week's Croatian essay. *goes in a dark corner and dies*

- 04:37 p.m.

Sunday, November 16, 2003 -
What an idiot I am. *sigh* When messing around with the HTML the other day, I (God knows why) switched the image codes to "iruka-chan" instead of "iruka_chan", so that's why the images didn't work. Baka. ^^;;;

The family lunch went all right. There were 13 of us, even though some family members didn't come. Than it'd be like 25. ~_~ It lasted only 4 hours. ¬_¬ Anyway, we went to a restaurant and... I ate frog. I ate a poor little frog's hinder legs. It had little bones and everything... *cries* I feel bad about it because it was tasty. XD

*SOB* My satelite reciever doesn't work for a week now, and I was unable to watch X in Thursday and the re-run today. T_T Hopefully my grandfather taped it for me at his house. ;_; It's episode 13, with beginning-to-be-evil!Fuuma, already-angsting!Subaru and beginning-to-angst!Kamui. Oh yeah, baby.

- 07:50 p.m.

Saturday, November 15, 2003 -
*stares* ... Why won't the images show? *stares some more, confused* And AIM hates me, too. Mou.
Tomorrow will be such a bad day. ;o; I have to go to a family lunch. Gaah... Nooo... PLEASE, God, if you are reading this, spare me. I don't care how, just help me. >_<

Been on Muraki-high today. It's just because he reminds me of Seishirou, though. XP
I'm a terrible quiz whore, yes I am. I can't help myself. XD


Non-con Pervert You just love it when the uke squeals and cries.
You're one of those Muraki fangirls, right?
What type of Yami no Matsuei pervert are you?
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Your ideal man is ... *SCREAMS* Kazutaka Muraki!
Ahk! You like sadistic, evil, perverted,
underservingly good-looking guys! Eugh. You
must like it kinky in bed, ne? Muraki is a
doctor, who takes pleasure in other people's
pain. If you go for that, then consider
yourself lucky. O.O
Who's Your Ideal 'Yami no Matsuei' Man?
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- 08:18 p.m.

Thursday, November 13, 2003 -
Right now I feel so very, very... uke.

Had to share it with the world. XDD

- 08:56 p.m.

Wednesday, November 12, 2003 -
I hate winter. It's cold and icky. I wanna hibernate! T_T

So. We had to write an essay in school today. And boy, did the themes suck. ¬.¬
1. My trip to ________
2. Love
3. If I could travel to ________
I chose the love one. Oh the irony. XDD Anyway~ I just blabbered about some random crap. Some of the words also mentioned were "homosexuality", "sadomasochism", "Bible" and "God". Go figure. Naturally, the essay was inspired by Seishirou and Subaru lemon fanfiction and Yami no Matsuei vol.4. "If it [homosexuality] is really unnecessary--- Why would God grant these feelings to his people?" I quoted it almost exactly. But the teacher won't know. XP XP We didn't have much time (90 minutes) so I rushed it and didn't write it very well... ;o; I was so upset about it I was shaking. Just stopped an hour ago. ~_~

- 06:36 p.m.

Sunday, November 9, 2003 -
I have an urge to write something but don't know what. Hmm. Something like "oh tomorrow is the deadline for that essay that I didn't do"? Oh joy. Must keep my mind off that...
*mind is blank*

Why doesn't it surprise me that you got Black...? XP Hmm, pain. When you don't have control over the pain and if you hate it, surely it can make you want to die...

- 10:35 p.m.

Sunday, November 9, 2003 -
Pain is good. Pain makes you feel alive.

- 10:48 a.m.

Saturday, November 8, 2003 -
I'm in a such a terribly crappy mood. Again. My eyes hurt. They're so weak. I'll poke them out one day.

Went to draw something. Mission failed.

The more I look at the X manga, the sexual tension between the characters seems to grow... XD
You, Kamui, stop touching Subaru like that. >_<# Go get Fuuma back or do something useful. -_-
... Wow. It just hit me that Kamui is completely useless. He's only here for the Final Battle and for the fan-service. Bloody hell.


... Mmm, maybe it's just me, but... this...

CLAMP is EVIL. They give out hints and hints, but when it comes to something serious they don't show it clearly. Like Sorata and Arashi's kiss or when Seishirou licked Fuuma's ice-cream... ;_;

I should go cry. That'll surely help my crappy mood get better. Now, where did I put my X16...?

- 10:46 p.m.

Thursday, November 6, 2003 -
VIVA doesn't work. Can't watch X. Kotori dies in today's episode. Damn. Damn. But they're showing it in Sunday also. Good.
Flip through channels and stumble upon another soap opera. Resist the urge to throw the remote control at the TV.

Soap operas are one of the stupidest things on this world. Sure, everything is totally black and white. You can immediately see who the "good guys" are and who the "bad guys" are. "Good guy" cries for his beloved every 20 minutes. "Bad guy" cheats on his pretty wife (who is also "bad", mind you). "Bad guy" ends up punished for his eeeevil deeds. "Good guy" ends up happily married to his cute cute beloved. The end. ¬.¬
Uh, no, not really. Why do people watch this crap? I'd rather see Subaru kill Seishirou. That's life. Exaggerated. But still.

"LOVE" doesn't magically fix all problems. Wake up, sweetheart.

- 06:45 p.m.

Wednesday, November 5, 2003 -
Wow. The math test was 14/100. I thought you only get these kinds of bad grades in Sailor Moon... Politics was 9/12, and she gave me a C. Bitch. That's a B! ;_;

A Subaru-day again. That means I'm obsessing more than usual. Other's reactions? You bet. "Eh... why are you wearing gloves?"

A lot of people told me I was acting cute today. o.o;; Like-
"Aw, you look so helpless and cute~"
"That innocent, are we? That's cute."
"You were cute in the theatre last night" - the Croatian teacher. O.o
... What the hell?? XD Stay back, I'm radiating cuteness! Uh...

Oh. XD Well, since you just said "that song", I figured you meant TL. PWYC is the best song for Seishirou and Subaru evah! XP  D'you have that TB music video? Subaru is just too adorable in the Tokyo Babylon OVAs. ^.^

Hm, I didn't know that Marilyn Manson did it too. I'll probably download it out of curiosity. XP *likes the song much*

A little hyper today, hmmm? ^_^;; Probably from listening to Gravitation's Rage Beat too much.
Do--ko ni mo tomaranai~! Mitasanai Emotion shikato kimete oiko--se yo~!

- 03:26 p.m.

Tuesday, November 4, 2003 -
XDDD
I just returned from that theatre play... It was awesome. We laughed out asses off... XD

I found out that there is an anime character with the name "Iruka". I never knew. In Naruto. The thing is... He's a guy. *dies* Not only that, he's no bishounen at all. That so sucks. XD XD ......Great, I've been walking around under a man's name for over 2 years. -_-;;

Oh yes, we DO talk often~ *glows* XD I'm saying it in general. Ano, one would think that people get the idea when you don't talk to them for so long... Oo;; I hope someone will beat some sense into me if I ever act stupid like that. -_-;; And hai, this song's good for Seishirou and Subaru. ^^ I love you though you hurt me so~ Actually, in the beginning of the making of the layout the song was "Lovefool" by The Cardigans, and somehow got changed to "Tainted love" in the process... XP And, so cool that your Japanese classes are starting soon. ^^ I should get up and find some place here where they teach it, too...

- 10:59 p.m.

Tuesday, November 4, 2003 -
Randomness!

- Math sucked bad. Eh, I guess the result will be about 40/100. ^^;;
- Oooh. I'm going to the theatre today. I hope it's a good play, or I'll kill the Croatian teacher. ~_~
- My mad seeing-Subaru-in-everything-I-look-at ability made me see him in two teachers that were dressed in black trousers/shirts and little red jackets today. *dies*
- My other mad ability is to psychoanalyse myself to bits and pieces. A new thing I just discovered yesterday is that I always feel so bad because I think nobody wants me. Hmm. Which gets me to:
So it seems I helped you yesterday night? God, you have no idea how much you helped ME by asking me not to leave. I was in shock, and so happy I could have died right than and there... ^^;;
I think you know who you are. XP

- 14:39 p.m.

Monday, November 3, 2003 -
You have to trust Seishirou and his great taste more. XP Subaru is always beautiful. But I agree, there is something about him that makes him even more attractive when he is hurt. (*sings* I didn't wanna hurt you, but you're pretty when you cry~) Still, I'd sell my soul to the devil if I could hug Subaru only once. And give my body and my little brother to The Tree if Seishirou would amuse himself with me just a tiny bit. XDD (of course, he could just feed The Tree with us without even bothering. Damn.)
*end stupid fangirl talk, quickly goes back to studying math*

- 20:04 p.m.

Monday, November 3, 2003 -
Surprisingly, Politics went well. We made the teacher tell us some answers, some answers I read from my hidden notes, some answers I made up. XDD
Math test tomorrow. *doesn't know anything* x_x

Was forced to go to the cemetery. ~_~ Gah, boring. I hate it when people think that you didn't love someone much if you don't come to his grave often. If he's out there somewhere, I think he's smart enough to know that his daughter thinks about him even if she doesn't come to the place where his bones lie very often. Feh.
Aha, that's why I dislike IM-ing people. You never know what that person is doing, and if they want to talk to you. I'm terribly afraid of being annoying. ~_~
God, I don't have time for anything these last couple of days. *twitches* I'll reply to your e-mail soon. ^^;;

- 18:17 p.m.

Sunday, November 2, 2003 -
I have a test from Politics tomorrow and didn't learn for it. I mean, I did, but didn't learn it good enough. That's just great.
And, I've been in a pissy mood all day, resulting in yelling "Are you retarded?!" at my younger brother, while we had some guests in the house. It wouldn't be so bad if one of the guests wasn't really retarded. -_-;; Hey, my brain was on vacation today.
Ernest died in today's episode of The Candidate for Goddess. God, it was one of the most touching death scenes I ever saw. Mostly because of his potentional shonen-ai partner's screaming and crying.

What a bad day. ~_~ *kicks the woman that writes the horoscopes*

- 12:47 p.m.

Sunday, November 2, 2003 -
I feel so hot, I'm dying... x_x Strange, because I'm always freezing. Maybe I'm getting really sick... >_> I'll have to go check my temperature.
My horoscope for today says that the stars are smiling on me and that I will be on the Internet a lot. -_-;; That was supposed to be written yesterday. Today I won't be online a lot because my mother is at home. And I have to learn because next week I have 3-4 tests. Stupid horoscope.

- 13:13 p.m.

Saturday, November 1, 2003 -
First entry~ ^^
God, I finally managed to put up this layout... ^.^ It was killing me, since my HTML skills are so lame. XD
... *has nothing better to say*

- 23:10 p.m.