| you shouldn't sell the dream you should be keeping pure and simple every time |
lalala...bunky just really pissed off hardy on big brother XD. Bunky (who's gay for the uninformed) just claimed hardy as being bisexual and portraying a lot of stereotypical gay traits...hardy wasn't happy XD. Cool. Anyway, I wouldn't watch big brother if my mom didn't all the time ^^;;. It's addictive after a certain point. Anyway, I really have nothing to talk about. I did really poorly on my Chem. assignment today because I can't do label conversions in my head >_<. Actually, it's cuz I can't do math in my head. I get too confused, even if it's really really simple stuff >_<. rin-chan's making a new website, and it's looking really neat ^-^. I picked out my name for japanese class, so now I'm Ishikawa Mika (last name first ^_^). You know, maybe this isn't keeping with anything else in this post, but it really annoys me when people say stuff like "hey, I really like your pictures, but you should draw more *insert something here*." You know, it's kind of common sense that they are MY drawings, and it's MY hobby, and it's MY talent and time that's put into them, so I'm not going to draw things I don't want to draw unless it might help me learn something better. I don't draw a lot of realistic stuff, but when I find good references I'll draw stuff besides anime, so it's not when people mention stuff like that to me that annoys me. It's more like "you draw to much of this character, draw more of this person instead." Huh? Why would it matter what I choose to draw or if I draw more of one type of thing than another? O_o Lalala...I guess it's not really that important. Some people just need to learn to think before they say stuff, let alone type it. By the way, though no one's ever voiced any complaints about my entries, if I end up offending you with my language or topics or word choice or whatever, don't waste your time trying to tell me. I won't listen. Personally, I like my views, and I don't really mind if people get pissed off at me ^_^. I like Bunky, he's so cool! Aaaaw ^^. Poor baby. And he's married! To a guy! YES! That is soooo cool. though most people right now are wondering what's wrong with me ^^;;. I just think that's soooo sweet, though ^_^. My email's running slow tonight >_<. My kiss doll of Duo's coming along well now ^_^. His hair is finished now, and he has some clothing (aaaw, darn). My mother's running herself ragged from all the stress she's collecting. It's just amazing, she's always stressed out and tired, and even though she's got a cold right now, I think it'd get better faster if she stopped worrying about it so much and maybe just calmed down a bit. She's always on a hairpin trigger with her mood, and she'll raise her voice at simple comments or innocent questions. Everytime I try to explain what she's doing and that I'm worried about her, she claims I'm critisizing her >_<. WTF? Then she apologizes profusely when I say something like that so I'll stop. anyway, I'm done. I hafta go get ready for bed now (I'm gonna go to bed early tonight, I'm tired ~_~). Damn...now it's late O_o. The title comes from Lightning Seed's Pure.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Tuesday, August 28, 2001 08:40 p.m..
R&B singer and actress Aaliyah died in a plane crash last night along with 8 other people O_O. I admit I'm not thrilled with her music, but that's insanely depressing. Even having never known her, it's still sad. Dying in a plane crash ranks really high on my list of "really freaking scary things," right up there with drowning O_O. This...is just making my day crappy. I have nothing to do today. I went to a talent show last night, and I must admit, I'm evil. We (my dad and I) critisized almost everyone up there, if only for the fact that they couldn't hear us ^^;;. There was this one girl, I don't remember if she could sing or not, but she had a huge butt O_o. She wore leather pants, which made it all the more distracting and icky. There was this one african american (how PC) girl who sang Amazing Grace insanely well. It was...mind blowing. She only got third place though :(. What's kind of funny is this girl who really couldn't sing (well, she could sing a few high notes, but it seemed like she must have had a really limited voice range ^^;;) went on right before the Amazing Grace girl. It was..pretty sad to see ^^;;. She wore these really annoying tight black spandex pants or something >_<. Eww. There was a lot of interpretive dancing, which ends up just being insanely boring. One pretty good girl danced to a song called Damaged by Plumb ^_^. It's a neat song, especially the remix O_o. Good. A friend of mine won the senior division. She hits some pretty amazing notes O_o. One of the coolest acts was this guy singing "Light My Fire" while playing the acoustic guitar really well ^_^. He didn't sing very well, but who cares, I liked it. Then there was this one group of guys who played some punk music. They were really out of place, but they put masking tape in the shape of letters (I don't know what they were though O_o) on their amps and drums and stuff ^-^. It was a neat act, if only because it was really load and had some good rhythm. They played well too. Neither the Light my Fire boy or the punk guys won anything, but it doesn't matter ^_^. I liked 'em :). Anyway, I'm off to do...stuff now. ^_^
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Sunday, August 26, 2001 02:01 p.m..
| "Under the angel dust and the terminus~" |
yay! jump little children songs ^_^. Anyway, I added some stuff to my page, and now you can get my winamp skins at my website instead of here. I also added some little disclaimer thingies to make it all look very "official"...and because I thought it needed a little something at the bottom. Aaah, nothing like some legal crap to spruce up a page. I'm so happy it's saturday, but the new episodes of digimon don't start til next weekend ;_;...and I'll be in Cedar point with rin-chan that weekend ^-^. Anyway, I've gotta go get ready to face the day...even though I'm really *doing* anything today. Oh well.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Saturday, August 25, 2001 10:32 a.m..
| it's ten years later again, and I haven't a clue... |
Nathan's a biznatch >_<. Yes, the same one I ranted about down there somewhere. He said my ramblings were annoying and that he could make a better desktop theme today O_o. Um..he doesn't HAVE to read my blog if he thinks I'm annoying, it's not like I'm doing this to cater to him. It's my friggin' journal/diary thingy O_o. What else am I supposed to talk about, it's not like my life is super interesting ^^;;. And what the hell? Desktop theme? That picture isn't a desktop theme, that's MY DESKTOP. There's no downloading about it, just some winamp skins, which even if he *could* make them, I doubt they'd be as pretty XD. Snobbish, but true. I didn't make the background, and I didn't make the icons, thus why they don't match ^^;;. Geez, what a dork. I hope he reads this, now that he feels so big and mighty about knowing my friggin' URL (I should give him a prize!), and because now my l33t skillz produced a webpage inferior to his incredible webdesigning, surely. Well, him and his oh-so l33t haXoR skillZ can go screw a tree, cuz it's not like it'll stop me from ranting about him on the internet. By the way, everyone should go out and buy the album Blender by Collective Soul, cuz it's neat ^_^. Youuuuu, you speak-a my laaanguage. Neat. We're having pizza for dinner tonight, and there's a new episode of invader zim on tonight ^-^.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Friday, August 24, 2001 05:48 p.m..
| it's late, and my head's melting away. |
I'm supposed to be in bed, but I don't feel like it O_o. You'd figure when I tell pitas to save my password, that it would, but it doesn't. blah. I should probably archive this stuff soon ^^;;. Somebody actually voted *against* azalea on otakuworld ;_;. It wouldn't be so bad if my first two dolls got 100% ratings, but I worked so much harder on azalea than the others! I know people liked Blue-chan a lot, but it's hard to say she's better than my new doll O_o. She's cuter than Dragonfly was, but I wouldn't say she was even better than that. Azalea isn't flawed anatomically, and I just can't find reasons to dislike the doll like I can with my previous ones...I sound snobbish don't I? O_o I've been studying for chem. I have to remember 17 elements and symbols. cesium (Cs) and bromine (Br) and antimony (Sb) are giving me the most troubles. Weird. My cat was about to fall off the counter...but she stayed on. how interesting. I have to go sleep now.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Thursday, August 23, 2001 10:07 p.m..
I'm back in school, and I'm fearing for my privacy by the day. You know, it was nice during the summer; I could stay up late and no one would bother me, but now my mom goes to bed the same time as me. There's no time to listen to my music, and it's weird going to websites >_<. I mean, I've got such a big-ass monitor now, so it's not like it's hard to read what I'm looking at or typing. Grr, it's just evil. I think my dog's playing with a bug outside O_o. Anyway, school blows. Quiz on katakana tomorrow in Japanese, an essay due Monday for English, the people in orchestra are shallow and boring (and they all look alike O_o..the freshmen this year just must all get their make-up tips from the same magazine O_o), and I forgot all my stuff for algebra II today because I'm not used to having a class during fourth hour (last year I had lunch instead ^^;;). I ended up using a late pass and running/fast walking/looking like a complete geek to my locker on the other side of the school to retrieve my homework. Lucky thing my locker worked today after I figured out there was something wrong with the combo yesterday and fixed it ^^;;. Then I had chemistry, which wasn't bad at all, and my lab partners turned out to be meator and this kid that knew my cousin. Sweet. Anyway, after that I had study hall, which is awful and boring, and I still didn't get my homework done O_o. Last I have Sewing, which kicks butt ^_^. Finally I'll be able to make clothes that fit me a bit better O_o. I'm such a little munchkin ^^;;. I had lunch somewhere in the mess, which I have with rin-chan, nissa, lindsay, meator, maymor, and some other people ^_^. It's neat to have so many friends in one lunch. I feel like a geek, though, cuz I have to carry my backpack with me everywhere >_<. I mean, how else can I possibly make myself look any shorter? There's no choice though, my locker's nowhere near any of my classes, so I only visit it during lunch. I had guitar lessons today, but it's really hard for me to play acoustic(sp?) guitar >_<. I ended up borrowing one of his little electric guitars ^-^. It's cute and just my size...if not very heavy O_o. It's so much easier! It's hard to play softly on an acoustic, and the sound of the pick on the strings seems to get amplified and grates on my nerves >_<. I'm no guitar expert, but I still think it's easier on electric. My uncle Sam is still in the hospital, but he's getting better. My new kiss doll is finally up at otakuworld, but people w/out subscriptions keep emailing me for the doll because "it's not on your page." It IS on my page, it's just on my NEW page, not my old one. I added a nice big heading to my old page that says ">>NEW PAGE<<" with a link. I don't know, maybe the hint isn't big enough. Mom's watching Carrie. Cool. Go buy Mono's album Formica Blues (that's where the title came from).
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Thursday, August 23, 2001 07:40 p.m..
| I can't feel my feeeeet!! |
Blargh. I went to chicago today, and it's back to school tomorrow. I spent from noon to almost seven in chicago, we took the train in, and then walked for almost two hours thru a giant chunk of the city (dad got lost, I swear). We passed the house of the cardinal in chicago, and I took a picture cuz I thought the side of his house looked neat ^^;;. I'm dead tired, I can't feel my toes, but I came home with neat stuff. I got collective soul's new cd and mono's cd, plus the spinoff of jonny the homicidal maniac, Squee!. Right off the bat I got four prismacolor markers, three Tria markers, and a 100pg sketchbook from an artstore for under $20 because everything was 30% off. I would've bought more markers, but they were running low. Anyway, I'm tired and have some stir fry to polish off on my plate, so I'm gonna give this up now and go take a bath and sleep until the evil call of my alarm awakes me at the crack of dawn tomorrow morning ~_~. later.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Tuesday, August 21, 2001 08:07 p.m..
| "so giiiive me tomorrow~" |
song of the moment's peach union's give me tomorrow. good stuff, it's like techno but more interesting ^_^. I really have nothing to write :P. I still have to write aly's letter, I was gonna do it yesterday, but I can't think of anything to write >_<. I'll just have to break down and rambling on for a page or so and fill up the extra space with drawings instead ^_^. lalala...I'm just killing time right now til my lessons. blah.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Monday, August 20, 2001 03:33 p.m..
| "tell me whhhyyy I don't feel the same~" |
I'm rather cautious about posting today, my last posts gave me enough trouble ^^;;. I'm listening to Collective Soul's Why Part 2. I say everyone should go and listen to it, cuz it kicks ass *nods*. Tis true, tis true. I finally got around to transferring a counter to my new page. Not that it'll matter much, cuz I never check the counter, but I do check my page a lot. I'm kind of wondering about the lead singer (or writer, whatever) of collective soul right now, because in the song "Vent" there's a line that goes something like "I love it when you're such a prick." O_o I did a double take at that one. Well, if you don't know why I think it's rather odd, then I'm not explaining it @_@. I'm eating spaghetti. I was going to make a peanut butter and marshmellow fluff sandwich (because they're good ^_^), then I was gonna make a tv dinner (stuffing baked turkey :9), but I decided on heating up some leftover spaghetti from dinner last night out of lazyness. I nuked it on a paper plate, which kind of turned it a funny orange color. I'm still alive so far, so I guess all's right with the world despite my strangely colored plate. Right now I'm doing anything and everything to avoid practicing for lessons. evilness. my muffins are still sitting on the stove and are nice and cold and gross now. Top of the muffin TO YOU! I liked that Seinfeld episode :). Why is it the majority of pita users are anime fans? Did we just flock in here before everybody else or what? Okay, I'm gonna wander the internet in a vain attempt to disover how to make time freeze so I never have to go to lessons (you can find anything on the internet these days!). blah. It's so freaking cold in my freaking house! erggghh!
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Monday, August 20, 2001 01:31 p.m..
| "I'm just a maaan, in a silly red sheet~" |
Bah. Damn, pitas didn't post my last entry. figures. maybe I'll add paragraphs this time around.
holy crap! rei linked my blog ^_^. I'm a geek, but a happy one :).
what did I talk about before? O_o I can't remember now. I woke up early today ^^;;. Like, Eric-and-Kathy-on-101.9-still-chattin'-away early O_o. I haven't woken up early enough to hear my radio show in two months or so O_o. It was trippy...actually I was woken up by the phone, but whatever. Oprah wasn't on for another 2 hours by that time ^^;;. Lalala...I'm going to chicago tomorrow :). It's about an hour away from where I live, so we go a lot if the moolah permits. Apparently it is this time, so we're headin' up by train. spiffy-ness. I made muffins this morning...banana nut from a mix ^_^. They tasted bland and disgusting! yay! So much for my cooking skills O_o (that's pretty sad considering it was a mix ^^;;). I'm still in my pjs: a tank top and some shorts (not as pajama-ish as my big floppy disneyworld shirt and my floppy blue snowflake pants, but oh well). I'm getting as bad as meator, staying in my pajamas all day (though I don't spend my extra time playing diablo ^_^). It's cold in my house..and very dark. where'd the sunlight go? O_o my dog got annoyed with my loud music and left the kitchen ^^;;. She's acting depressed (and my cats are all avoiding me and acting annoyed O_o). It's nice to be surrounded by mentally disturbed animals when no one else is around. it makes me feel loved. I'm listening to cheap trick's I Want You To Want Me. "Didn't I didn't I didn't I see ya cryin'?" Anyway, school starts on wednesday...Suiyoobi? Damn, forgot my Japanese days of the week already ^^;;. It's cold, I'm gonna go take a hot bath before I can't feel my toes anymore ^^;;. Violin lessons tonight. Blah. Later days.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Monday, August 20, 2001 11:19 a.m..
| lalala..pitas is being evil. |
fine. if it won't delete my entries, I'll edit them! How come I get the feeling I'll come back later and they'll both be gone? I still need a bath, and now it's lunch time! food O_o.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Monday, August 20, 2001 11:04 a.m..
| he's a legend unto himself... |
I went shopping yesterday ^^;;. I noticed a lot of posts have revolved around shopping lately, but that's because school's a-coming, so it's that time of the year :). I'm gonna use my duo maxwell folder for japanese ^_^...to make everybody jealous XD. Anyway, I got two pairs of pants from the gap (because that's the only place that carries pants in my size), a pair of normal jeans, and the best fitting pair of khakis I've ever found. it's nice.
The title refers to the jump little children song "15 stories." It's a great song ^_^. They're finally planning on putting out their next album *is happy*. Vertigo's coming out in september I think, so everybody go check out their site, and their music, then go buy their new album when it comes out like I'm gonna do *lol*. I'm so happy, their new song, vertigo, sounds great ^_^. It's kind of depressing though, because they got cut from Atlantic records a few months ago after the little appendage record label of Atlantic, Breaking Records, got cut. Lame-ness. They're such a wonderful, interesting band too >_<. I think in all the world, of all the people ever, they deserve their fifteen minutes of fame more than anyone. The cello background, the great guitar parts, the vocals, the wide range of music. If there's any band ever that I find that I like more, I'll cry. They'd have to be rediculously good. I'm learning to play B-13 at my guitar lessons, and it almost makes me want to tune my guitar the way the guitarist of JLC tunes his just so it sounds the same ^^;;. I don't know, I'm obsessed...with something wonderful.
Violin lessons tomorrow, and my last day with Mrs. Kallay. yay! I really like to play the violin, but I don't like classical music and don't plan on pursuing it in the future, so I think my orchestra director will help lead me on a path that makes me happy ^_^. I want to strike out and be different, create my own style instead of just playing the same crap that everyone else is and has been playing. Why is it that I have to play classical music just because I play the violin? it's not like there aren't any other options. Well, I better go to bed now, seeing as I have to try to wake up early tomorrow to get back into routine. g'nite ^_^.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Sunday, August 19, 2001 10:21 p.m..
yay, I have nothing to type! I watched zim last night. it was a new episode. it made me happy. yay. I'm really kind of out of it today...it's more or less still morning for me anyway ^_^. well...1 PM is pretty morningish ^^. I downloaded all the gravi episodes available so far :). email me for the link though, cuz I feel bad about giving it out here for some reason O_o (yeah, I'm a dork). lalala...okay, I'm done. I have nothing more to say. bye.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Saturday, August 18, 2001 12:53 p.m..
| I have no life! yeeeaaaah baby! |
YESSSSSSSSS! I finished adding ALL my art to my new site (over on the side, it's called cheshire) PLUS a new kiss doll ^_^. I'm so special. I've been too productive this week for my own good O_o. It must have something to do with school starting again next week >_<
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Thursday, August 16, 2001 11:48 p.m..
Yay, I made an Invader Zim winamp skin! You can download it on the nice little box thing on the left ^_^. Isn't it perty? Dad forgot my violin lessons yesterday :). I shouldn't be happy about that, but I am. My teacher never answers my questions! Oh well, he told her that I'm gonna start lessons with my orchestra director instead (which we have yet to set up, but I'll talk to him ^_^), so we have to get this all worked out and then I'll be happy. I have the coolest orchestra director :). He's great. It's already 3 PM. The dog isn't walked, the cats aren't fed, and I'm still in my pjs ^^;;. I still have to finish my kiss doll too :P. I figured out why it won't work, but now I'm really worried about the palette. I'll be so pissed if it doesn't work >_<. Oh well, I have guitar lessons tonight, so I better go take a bath and get the dog taken care of so I can practice. Yayfun.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Wednesday, August 15, 2001 03:17 p.m..
Okay, nathan IS that bad. Bitch and moan all ya want, darlin', but I'm not going to stop complaining about how much you make my life a living hell. I only tell the truth about these things. Violin lessons. Damnit.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Tuesday, August 14, 2001 04:07 p.m..
| catch a falling star and put it in your pocket... |
I'm a dork, I've been walking around my house singing that song all day *points at post title*. It's catchy, can't help it. Yesterday the song of the day was "You Are My Sunshine." Yes, I like singing, and I do it quite frequently when not in the company of others. Mind you, there aren't many things I sing well enough to make me happy, but one of my faves is "Dream a Little Dream of Me," and "Summertime" comes in right behind it. You know, it's funny, but if file sharing and mp3s didn't exist, or if my conscience got the better of me and stopped me from downloading anything, just think of all the songs I'd never enjoy. My taste in music has changed so drastically since napster started (and ended ^^;;) that I'm amazed, and much happier, I admit. I do love drawing, but I think the love of my life would be music even more. Speaking of drawing, my art groove has been thrown off, apparently at the same time as Aly's ^^;;. I have to write her a letter, and I have such a hard time bringing myself to do it. I just never feel like I have anything to write to other people, which is why I avoid passing and writing notes to people. I guess I never feel like I have anything so incredibly important to say to other people, like most of the stuff that I feel I really need to say could be said to anyone, not just someone specific O_o.
I feel rather depressed today, and I can't figure out why. I hate being depressed, because I can't explain it. Like, sometimes I get into these...moods. I'm not happy, I'm not sad, but I'm just...there. Well, for example, I went walking in the rain once. It felt really nice, I was all alone and it felt really nice after the hot weather, but at the same time I felt kind of..bored. Normally I love to walk around on my own and just think, but for some reason even though the rain made me really happy, I just didn't feel it. It almost felt like because there wasn't anyone there with me, there wasn't any reason to..show it I guess. I mean, sure I walked down the street with a big grin on my face, but without someone else there, I just didn't feel like doing anything else. If I had someone with me, it's almost guaranteed that I'd be skipping down the street and yelling or something. I hate feeling like that, but I just...have lately. Chalk it up to PMS, or probably just some need for being around people at school for awhile. damn hormones...
Damn, dork boy nathan found my site and email. I'll be forced to threaten to kill whoever gave it to him XD. And no doubt he's now going to read this blog, which means I'm not going to feel as good about pouring my heart out to the world. But, you know, maybe it's because I haven't been around him in awhile, but he's not *that* bad, I just can't help but shake off the feeling he'd rather idolize me than just...be friends. You know, I guess I just feel weird about disliking some people, because you go through life and people get all these false impressions about you, or end up hating you for some reason or another and you can never figure out why. I've never known of anyone who actually hated me, or spread slander about me, but considering I know myself pretty well, if anyone ever did spread something bad about me, I'd be so confused. And even if I knew the person who spread the rumors, I'd probably still be nice to them, cuz I don't think I'd know what else to do. It's not that I'm particularly bad at dealing with people, but so many situations have never popped up in my life that I just don't have as much experience as other people. What the hell am I talking about anymore? It's 1 AM. Damn, didn't think I was on this thing this long ^^;;. some part of me is not fond of the idea of sleeping tonight, I've got cramps and whatnot, and sleeping is just a pain because of it, plus I guess it's some vain attempt at holding onto the summer a little longer.
Back to the thing about idolization. I meant to talk about it quite a while back, but didn't, so now I will. You know, I just can't fathom why anyone whould want to be like me. I've gone through my whole life wanting to be like other people, and when I finally found who I was, I was pretty proud of myself. But, considering I *was* pretty insecure and innocent for so long, it's kind of funny to think anyone would look up to me. I've never done anything amazing in my life, I've never saved orphans in third world countries, starred in any big hollywood productions, or saved the world from alien invaders: I'm just me. I draw, I sing to myself when I'm bored, I like spending time by myself and walking the dog. I have three cats and a dog, I'm more or less pretty intelligent and mature, but just silly enough to not care about much of anything too much. I have friends, and I like making them laugh. Why would anyone want to be like that so much? It's not as if I was given some incredible above average personality, I'm just kinda quirky. People are just weird, I can't understand 'em in the least. I'm very fond of my handwriting, it flows so nicely when I write that it just makes my hand feel very happy and comfortable.
New Invader Zim episodes on Friday at 8 central time. Shaweet. Saw The Others on Friday, and it was not only very creepy, but also very intriguing and creative. Great flick. Saw Princess Diaries today with Rin, which got me on my "catch a falling star" kick. It was a really sweet and cute film, and I'm kind of glad that dispite her change in appearance, she still stayed more or less the same. The guy she ended up with is uber-hot. I like him. I like him a lot. Sweet guys are the best. You wanna hear my boy ramblings at 1 in the morning? Of course, everyone does. I've never dated, but I know what kind of guys I like the best so far ^_^. Sweet guys are at the top of the list (you know, the ones that don't make it *obvious* when they're staring at your boobs, but act nice and are fun to talk to ^_^), and manners just make me all giggly ^^;;. I'm a sucker for having chairs pulled out, or little compliments (provided they aren't shallow, or *too* frequent, then they become kind of annoying...or as long as they aren't about my boobs O_o). In terms of looks, I like hair ^^;;. A guy could have the most butt ugly face, but I'd still like him if he was sweet, had good manners, was fun to talk to, and had nice hair...which qualifies pretty much as *having* hair. Easy enough. I hate pervy men *points to profile*. Normally, I wouldn't care, but I'm not the most *cough* flat-chested girl in the world, and it's not hard to notice on such a little frame like mine ~_~. But, it's almost worse this way. It has it's times that really boost my confidence, but sometimes it makes me feel like guys are just...staring at them. Even when they aren't, it's still something I'm just really paranoid about. Want to know what to do to piss me off really quickly? Talk to my boobs more than my face. I don't care if someone drops a comment about them, but it pisses me off when people stare...even just looking like they're staring. yeah, I'm very paranoid, but it's not like I'm not allowed to be. Hm, modest aren't I? Talking about my breasts in a blog XD. I guess I've been hanging out at Kimiki's BBS so long that it doesn't come to my mind as bragging or being innapropriate. Wanna know my measurements?! I'm proud of being built like a curvy post ^^;;. anyway, I think it's about time I go to sleep and stop freaking typing...but I don't want to. My new kiss doll is SOOOOOOO close to being done, but WSCV or whatever the hell it's called is being a bitch about the little bitty cells O_o. Damn program. Okay, I'm going, I have to sing now to make myself happy again, but I haven't been able to concentrate on the lyrics (yeah, I only know the first few lines of catch a falling star, so sue me, I get distracted easily ^^;;). Later ev'rybody. G'night moon, g'night stars. I got a Duo Maxwell folder today at K-mart with Rin. Yayfun. Sleep. Sing. Eat. Cat. Zim. Draw? No. Kiss doll. Pain in the ass. Violin bitch.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Tuesday, August 14, 2001 12:47 a.m..
| "the candy colored clown they call the sandman, tiptoes to my room every night~" |
Does everyone want to hear about my wet-your-pants rediculously exciting last few days? I'm sure. Anyway, none of this is relevant, some of it is extremely depressing, and I'm sure everyone wants to know all of it.
My uncle (well, ex-uncle) Sam is in the hospital up in Chicago, and my mother and I are both going insane over it. He went in to have some small patches of cancerous cells removed from his esophogus, but ended up with a staff infection (damn, don't know how to spell that...the staff part, not the infection ^^;;). Apparently, you can get them from bacteria in hospitals, and it can be deadly. Right now he's in a coma, and it's not sure if he'll pull through (as if it ever is). I don't know my uncle that well, but I know he's a really great guy, and it's just so depressing to think he might die. So many people have died recently (well, obviously, people die all the time, but these were people *I* knew...yeah). Depressing depressing depressing. Now for some lame rambling.
I made pudding yesterday. It was tapioca, but it gives me a stomach ache to eat. Go figure. Auntie Flo came to visit yesterday, and she'll be gone in another five days (I won't explain this, figure it out on your own >_<), and therefore I barely slept last night from my back ache >_<. Lame-ness. I got new anti-perspirant today. Everyone cares. It's Sauve, and as my friend said once, "It smells so good, it makes me want to lick my armpit" XD. Ah, good times. We also bought new shampoo (Herbal Essences ^_^).
Speaking of shopping, we went school shopping today for clothes and supplies. Bought clothes at Kohl's (a department store, to the unedjyuuumacated), and I bought a nice white polyester (dear lord, the humanity!) button up overshirt dealy, a nice yellow tank top turtle neck thingamabob, a red 3/4 sleeve turtle neck knit top thingy, a neato purple zip up sweatshirt thing, and some underwear that I had to buy from the leetle girls section (of course, my butt's too small for anything else ^_^). Oh well, it's still cute. I also found some neat blue and green plaid pants that I want, but they're expensive, and in need of hemming in the worst way, plus they have big ugly flares >_<. BUT! They're cute, and I convinced my mother of this...too bad they're so damn popular >_<. Normally I wouldn't ramble about clothing, but I just did, so sue me. We also bought school supplies, and I ended up with three harry potter folders and one cuddly kitten one ^^;;. The only other ones they had were of barbie or nsync (mind you, I wouldn't mind having joey smiling up at me during chemistry, but I don't think many others would find this acceptable ^^;;). Here's my schedule for those who care, my locker's upstairs: japanese II (downstairs), english (three doors over), orchestra (other side of school, upstairs), algebra II (second year of algebra, downstairs, other side of school), LUNCH! (upstairs), chemistry (right near lunch room), STUDY HALL! (other side of school, downstairs), Fashion and textiles technology (sewing, upstairs, same section as study hall). That's it. That means 3 1/2 classes that require actual thinking (japanese only counts as 1/2, and if you took it, you'd know why). This is going to be such a pain in the ass >_<. Up down up down. my biggest problem is getting from orchestra to algebra, but it shouldn't be too bad.
Fanfiction.net is *still* down, and I'm having withdrawls XD. I need my harry potter slash! damn. Sam's still alive! yay! My kiss doll's almost done. All I have to do is make some bags, stockings, socks, barettes, and belts...then code the damn thing O_o. lameness. g'night ev'rybody, I'm gonna work on me kiss doll now.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Sunday, August 12, 2001 10:12 p.m..
| "Satan Cat Love for enemies of friends." |
*lol* I love that title ^_^;;. It's off of engrish.com. Ah, good times. I feel very special, for I have accomplished something in the last hour (it's a miracle, Dipper Dan!), I made chocolate pudding! It's already 10 PM! I washed my dishes! The pudding is still very hot, despite being in the fridge for 20 mins. or so! Yay! I am eating it with a spoon! Truly, no one leads a more thrilling life than I *nods*. Oh, I'm "borrowing" my cousin's geetar...and I think I just wiped pudding on my face O_o. Anyway, it's better than the one I have now, which happens to be an acoustic guitar and from the 40's or so, whereas his is semi-electric (I have no idea O_o) and sports a very annoying looking *plastic* rounded..um, underside? bottom? ah, very teckneekal geeetar talk, thar man. Anyway, I still think it's kind of ugly, but hey, a free guitar's still a guitar ^_^. Yay! My pudding's cooling down :D. happyness. damn, school's coming up so quickly, and I *really* have to go school shopping. my wardrobe consists of two pairs of jeans (my only pants! O_o), two pairs of shorts (both are pretty old now ^^;;), um..about 4 shirts that I'll actually be seen in public in O_o, four tank tops (three spaghetti strap), and two polo shirts (in oogly colors >_<). so..that makes ten tops, most of which are hideous (my mom brings me home clothes on occasion..eww), and four bottoms (not as in butts, mind you, that's just a playin' God there). My pudding has SKIN! anyway, so I have to go shopping. talking about clothes, is it just me or are clothes made for pre-teens and younger gettin' kinda...slutty? Heck, most of these girls dress like they're twice as old as me O_o. Craziness. And it's all in gross psychedelic puke-ish colors. Personally, I'm fond of earth tones and greens and reds myself (along with blue and orange, my fave colors ^-^), but everything now is in crazy gross pinks and lime greens O_o. gag. What the hell has this entry turned into? Pudding, guitars, and clothes O_o. the first two fit okay, but the last topic makes me hope that it's not becoming more true when my mom's said "you're so normal!" eewww, creepy. who wants to be normal anyway? please excuse the absense of proper grammar and spelling in this post ~_~. it's late. no capitalization for me! or, as I like to say, capitalation! yeah baby! Weezer's neat. "Oo-wee-oo, I look just like Buddy Holly." Really? that's freaking fantastimisticalistic. I made up a new word. yay. pudding! yum. yam. yip. need sleep. gir. moo. meep. spew. And on that note, I shall be leaving!
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Wednesday, August 8, 2001 10:39 p.m..
| strawberry kool-aid rocks my world, swidge-mo |
I have no life...and these people make me angry >here<. I have nothing against Christianity, I consider myself one for the most part, but fundamentalists still scare the bejesus out of me O_o. There's a part in everyone I guess that needs to be devoted or believe in something, but you have to live too, ne? It never made sense to me to put all the effort I have in life toward God, and I'm sure he'd forgive me for thinking so. The Bible'll only get you so far in life, but it can't tell you how to live. Beyond that, the morals it teaches are only good if you use them, and use them logically. Not everything in the Bible is practical anymore, and it all applies to people in a different way. The people at this website need to open their eyes to the world and get their heads out of their butts, cuz they're giving Christianity a bad name >_<.
Summer's been pretty lame this year :P. I feel like I should be out doing something, staying away from this damned computer and just..frolicking? Enjoying the weather, being happy. Nope, I've spent most of my time within my house. how awful >_<. oh well, next year I'll finally get off my butt and take driver's ed, so maybe I'll have somewhere to go ^^;;. On a nice happy note, here's a picture to look at here. yay, I wanted to draw all the characters I hadn't drawn yet, so I drew all their heads instead ^_^. Cute. Gijinka Palmon looks a little trippy, but Gijinka Tail/Gatomon looks cute ^_^. I even added in Sora >_<. How dare she rush in and take Yamato! Couldn't she see how much Taichi liked him? *evil grin* I interpret these things as I want *nods*. Boy Meets Boy is one kick-ass comic :). I'll link it later though ^_^. I'll put up more art from time to time later.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Wednesday, August 8, 2001 04:46 p.m..
| damn them, damn them all to hell! |
sorry for the title, I saw planet of the apes a few days ago. wow, that was completely different from the original O_o. of course, i'd only ever seen bits and pieces of the originals, but oh well ^_^. still not too bad of a movie. ending was rather unsatisfying.
on another note, my violin teacher is an evil psychobitch hellspawn (who needs hyphens? surely not I!). why you ask? she made me cry...after lessons..in the car. she never answers my questions! "I need help getting this note in tune." "oh, then work on it." "I need help with my bow hold, there's too much tension in my wrist." "well stop it then. there's nothing wrong." "I need help with my vibrato!" "then you need to practice." ha, no wonder my practicing's dwindled down to once a week >_<. I don't want to practice something wrong and get into bad habits, plus I hate classical music. why can't I play something kinda jazzy or the blues? heck, even oldies rock would work (it's fun ^_^). I swear, she's just way too..close-minded. Plus, she's hardly ever approving, even when I do something well. I can't wait til school starts so I can recruit my orchestra director for a teacher. he's so awesome. damn.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Wednesday, August 8, 2001 11:59 a.m..
| holy flaming weasels, batman! |
I had nothing to do, and fanfiction.net is down for a time, so I decided to rant and rave and ramble(cuz R is a good letter...yeeeess). it's been confirmed on the star wars website that the name of ep. II is gonna be "attack of the clones" O_o. gag. what a horrible title >_<. It sounds like some horrible sci-fi movie from the forties or some horrible goosebumps book (anyone remember those? guess R.L. Stein wasn't that cool for long ^^;;). eww, I don't like that title >_<. TWP's tryin' to turn me into a porn monkey! hee hee. silly :). I'm eating chips and dip. this is so incredibly relevant to everyone's lives that I just had to say it. It's ranch dip. yum.
I registered for school today ^_^. well, it wasn't really wonderful or anything, but it got me out of the house and forced me to wake up early :P. Rin-chan and I went running through the halls looking for ryan ^_^. Marco! there wasn't anybody else there anyway :P. Our lockers are right near each other! yep, this is all horribly important. damn, I have to finish my page so I have some way for people to read this I suppose ^^;;. I'll write more interesting things in the future (of course). never see jurassic park three. worst movie ever! yay!
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Tuesday, August 7, 2001 03:16 p.m..
I hate html sometimes >_<. I have nothing at all relevent to say today :P. I just hope this posts. it never posts >_<. I have violin lessons today, and guitar lessons tomorrow (tommarry! ^_^). I'm looking forward to the guitar lessons, but not the violin :P. My wrist still hurts from practicing, and I KNOW that's not good. yes, that's definetly *bad*. oh well, guess I'll have to stay off the computer a bit to help it...nah.
invader zim yelled "computer, take me to the WEASELS!" at Tuesday, August 7, 2001 01:52 p.m..
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