>_<

Holy sh*t... I'm a receptionist at a theological school, I always knew that meant that sometimes I had to work as a psuedo-counselor and listen to the students gripe, but.... O.O; some woman just called and spoke to me for 36 minutes and I know more of her life story than I ever wanted to know and I couldn't hang up on her because you're not supposed to hang up on potential students and I couldn't transfer her to someone else because everyone's at lunch and I must have missed like 20 other calls while this lady was spilling her guts. ^^;;

And she had the nerve to wonder why the hell someone with my degree was sitting at this desk in the first place instead of going on to other things. >_< Look, lady, just because you've been in therapy for 20 years doesn't mean I'm going to be explaining to you why I have chosen to be a receptionist for right now.

^^; That was just the freakiest conversation... I sure hope she never calls back... but I have a bad feeling about this one...

~inky 12:24 p.m. Tuesday, October 16, 2001

RL has been getting in the way of blogging and writing lately. ^^;;

Just wanted to tell hase that Kenta's name was "Electric Desire." ^^;;;

~inky 09:16 a.m. Saturday, October 6, 2001

*squeals*

oh...

<.<
>.>

^____^ Okay, that was really undignified, but no one noticed.

SE Night's Keisuke is SO CUTE! *^^*

I really liked my FFVII djs by SE Night, but I ended up selling them to a friend to support my Cid'n'Vinnie habit. *sniffles, then huggles the Ini-D djs* But these aren't going anywhere *^^*

Wish I didn't have to work now, I'd scan them for the list... I could do it tonight... ...but I'm going to get in trouble if I don't fic a little tonight. ^^;; (I don't know about these you-have-to-fic-to-see-my-fic deals... now two people are doing that to me ^^;; ) I have a whole bunch of Wataru screencaps that I have to do html for too... at least I can do that at work.

*looks through catalog that also came in the mail today*

Hmm... I don't need a fuzzy sweatshirt with "FUN" in huge letters across the chest, but I can think of a few Ini-D boys that I would give it to (especially if they had matching pants with "FUN" across the backside). ^_^

~inky 10:43 a.m. Monday, September 24, 2001

Rewatched Second Stage eps 1-10 last night. Got 1,154 new screencaps to wade through. ^^;; (I wonder how many of those are from when the key got stuck and I couldn't make it stop... ^^;; ) I know that I finally got some nice Wataru ones. ^__^

Haven't been writing... my mind's been clogged... that and I seem to write best at lunchtime, but I got my lunch break just once this week. >_<

I do have the major plot pivot points worked out in my head. And this morning I started thinking about the 5 major characters and their motivations, what drives each of them and how those bump and crash against each other. I need to work on the timing of a couple events that take place after certain episodes... and then I should be ready to just write. If I ever get the time. ^^

The other thing hindering me a bit is the smut factor. ^^ I was worrying that things were happening too fast for our boys. But someone made a comment on one of the MLs I'm on that has changed my mind. It really isn't so far-fetched if most of the boys have a "let's screw now, work on the relationship later" attitude.

Heh... I don't think Kei, Kyo or Take would ever talk about "relationships." Yeah, I still want love and "happily ever after" but even I have to say "happily ever after" must be boring. That's why the stories end with it. It means "yep, nothing more interesting happens." ^^;; Let the boys have good sex, good fights, and a certain unwillingness to tell the other to get lost. ^_~

~inky 10:13 a.m. Friday, September 21, 2001

Well, hase, I'm still considering the KeiTake issue. I have this bad feeling that if they don't end up happily ever after in this fic that I will wind up writing another. O_O

Everything is Takumi's fault. Suddenly, I begin to see the need for Natsuki *shudder* or Wataru.

As I sit here typing, the fic bunny grows an impressive pair of fangs and bites me. Genetically altered fic bunnies... O_O;;

I think I see a way to make this work. *ponderponder* Yeah... I think it would work... Arg, why does this keep getting more complicated?

Oh, I found my bowling ball, my bar-hopping shoes, and my suitcase while cleaning. ^^; I don't want to explain how something as big as that suitcase could be lost.

~inky 06:46 a.m. Tuesday, September 18, 2001

*feeds the poor lil fic bunnies in hase's cages steroid-laced carrots*

I didn't write at all this weekend. ^^;; Got distracted by Escaflowne on Saturday and YYH on Sunday. ^^;; Mmm... Folken... fits so well with my beautiful men with metal arms fetish. ^___^

*shoves him in a room with Vincent, Vash, and Sydney Losstarot*

Talked to Mizu about my ficcie... I think I see the shape it is going to take now. O_O;; Too freakin' big. I still really want to write Kei/Take smut, but I'll have to decide whether it belongs in the main story or a side story. The way the fic is moving, Takeshi and Keisuke don't live happily ever after, at least, not with each other. ^^; But who in their right mind would break up with Takeshi? Who cares about surly, he's still gorgeous. *^^*

Have to think that through some more.

I'm writing more from Kyo's POV, even though I didn't want him in my head. Adding Shingo to the story could break Kei and Take apart when I need them to be... but... I don't think I want Shingo in my head either. ^^;; I don't have a good understanding of him. He does get to be less and less of a rat bastard, but still.... *shrugs*

All my couples in this fic fight with each other. Hmm...

Have to clean my apartment tonight. ^^;; There's going to be random inspections by the fire marshall tomorrow. Hmm. I'm pretty sure my bedroom would count as a fire hazard. ^^;;

(No, my whole apartment isn't like Kei's room. Not quite. ^^;; I don't think Kei would have a living area quite so crowded with quilting supplies, video games, and yaoi...)

I don't sleep in the bedroom, I sleep on a futon in the living area--a habit picked up from staying online way too late way too many nights. I thought I was moving in May, and the bedroom is full of half-packed, slightly unpacked boxes of books, empty boxes, old term papers and class notes, art supplies, more books, and anything else I've been too lazy to take down to my storage area. ^^;; It's pretty bad to neglect a room like that just because the hook-up for the T1 line is in the other room. ^^;

~inky 08:35 a.m. Monday, September 17, 2001

Profanity ahead ^^;;
Oh boy, I can't seem to write Kyouichi without a lot of swearing. ^^;; How has he become Cid Highwind in my head? ^^;; It is getting increasingly embarrassing to work at the fic during my lunch breaks. Sure, I may think these words a lot (Cid is my favorite sb, afterall), but actually writing them while sitting in a theological library? ^^;;

Today I thought I would try writing in the coffeeshop instead, thought it would be safer. ^^;; One of my friends saw me, thought I was journaling about current events, and wanted to chat. How badly do you think I was blushing as I tried to ever so casually hide this:


Ryousuke didn't even blush. Too bad, since he had looked so fuckable with his cheeks stained earlier. He just smiled that tight, superior, you'll-never-know smile. It still made Kyouichi want to fuck him--fuck that smirk right off his face for saying that he didn't like him.


^^;; This is pretty bad... I wonder how I should be writing Kyo.

~inky 12:41 p.m. Friday, September 14, 2001

I am avoiding thinking about things.

(I also archived in the middle of today's logs. ^^)

Instead, I will think about writing.

In one of the three books on writing I listed on this page (I think probably Orson Scott Card's) it talks about not settling for your first answer to any plot question. He talks about how all of us have our shelf of cliches we always turn to for answers first.

Here is a snippet of the Kyo/Ryou scene I was grumbling over yesterday. The one that got me all pissy 'cause it wasn't working. ^^


[Ryou has just found out that his cyberlover is Kyo. O_O;]

"...It's just, I don't like you."

"Are you finished with your tea?"

"Aa..."

Sudou threw a handful of yen on the table, grabbed Ryousuke's wrist and stood up. "You're done. We're going."

Ryousuke yanked his hand away and made to sit back down.

"You've got three seconds before I make a scene, lover."

Ryousuke changed his mind and followed Sudou out of the restaurant, hoping his murderous glare would go unnoticed by the other diners.


---
I'm not saying that was all that bad (though it certainly wasn't great). I realized last night that I had to tighten some stuff up. The "Self-Editing" book talks about R.U.E., "Resist the Urge to Explain." I figured that at the very least "hoping his murderous glare..." was something I should resist the urge to write.

When the boys got outside, they were supposed to have a little fun on one of their cars' hoods. I had Kyo push Ryou onto the LanEvo... things start to happen... and then Kyo just backed off. And I was stuck. Something was wrong and Kyo wasn't going for it.

Today, I tried working with Ryou's angry response to Kyo. Tried to force myself beyond that for another answer to how Ryou would react, hoping for a response that will move these boys farther along.

Here's the same bit as it stands now:


"...It's just, I don't like you."

"You finished with your tea?"

"Aa..."

Sudou stood, tossed a fistful of coins on the table, and grabbed Ryousuke's arm.

"You're done. We're going."

Ryousuke raised the cup with his free hand. He closed his eyes and sipped.

“You know. . . they have excellent tea here.”

"Three seconds before I haul you up, grab your ass, and give everyone a show.”

/Three... Two... Sudou's body will block everyone’s view... One... /

Ryousuke slid from the seat, put his hand on Sudou’s crotch and squeezed.

“Hands off me now or I stop being friendly,” he said quietly.

Sudou’s hand dropped. Ryousuke stepped around him and led the way across the room. He held the door open for the other man.

“Besides, I prefer private shows.”


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I hope it is a stronger scene snippet. I have better hopes for something interesting happening in the parking lot now. I think it captures Ryou's "always show them a calm face" attitude in a way that was missing before.

Well, if my 3 brave readers made it this far, what do you think? ^^

~inky 04:42 p.m. Tuesday, September 11, 2001