Tuesday, February 19, 2002 | 01:37 a.m.

np: Gravitation : Super Drive

It's taken me FAR too long to make a new layout.

And I still haven't made one. Its an old one. I am getting far too lazy for my own good.

I did try to draw a new picture though. After many hours of working on it, I decided I didn't like it. So I dumped it. And Kix got mad at me. Not surprising.

Let me see if I can even remember what happened?
-acceptance into UC Riverside and CSU Long Beach
-Valentines Day chocolate making session with Mirae and Heidi
-work
-the anniversary sale at work
-oh. I bought Shirahimeshou reprint, DNAngel 6, and March Asuka. And a crapload of X trading cards. :D
-bought the AKG domain FINALLY! XD

And so yesterday was spent working on 'stupid CLAMP project #1'. Like it? Hot glue gun action! I'll stick it on my car whenever I get a new one. I hope nobody steals it. Stay tuned for 'stupid CLAMP project #2'! I also worked on cosplay. Mom is doing her spring cleaning and dumped on me about 20 belts. LUCKY~ I spent three hours painting one orange. I'm pretty satisfied with how it looks.

THANKS again, SO MUCH AYA-ONEE!!! She's the BEST! She offered to help find cloth for me in LA when here in Silicon Valley (the bubble) I can't find ANYTHING! ^_^ So much thanks to her and wishing her luck with her cloth. Ganbatte on your costumes, Aya-onee and Wayne-nii!

And so today was AKG day. A and K came over and we schmoozed doodled got emails scanned photoshopped screamed laughed listened to music had ice cream lunch dinner and talked about the future. Quite fun. I was happy we actually were productive. So tomorrow Kenji comes home and I share some memories of AX 2001. Hm. Need to get all my documentaries done. Uh oh. How am I going to balance documentaries, work, cosplay, and AKG?

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Thursday, February 7, 2002 | 11:44 p.m.

np: uh...

I guess it doesn't only apply to parents when dealing with the "i-must-be-happy-24/7-or-else-people-get-mad-at-me-for-my-'attitude'".

Still here, don't know how long I will be, but thanks so much Jack for last night. So things have actually taken a sudden drop, I'm losing health, people, etc. and now the paternal parental unit has suddenly ordered that there be no internet access past 12 a.m.

Today was the first rain of the month or so, and we all know what that means. It means slippery roads, bad memories, and paranoia for me. On the way to Mitsu, some damn kids were bouncing a rubber ball and lost it into the street. Kenji swerved to avoid them but those damn indian kids continued to run after the fucking ball, so what else could I do but go HOLY SHIIIIIIT!! and slam the brakes? The tires screeched, skidded, hydroplaned etc. Damn those kids. I really should have fucking run them over.

It's only one more week until break. My current worth is 425 dollars.

I need to make two new layouts.

I wish the house would quiet down.

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Monday, February 4, 2002 | 09:46 p.m.

np: ...

*looks at layout*

oh... my... o_0



-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Monday, February 4, 2002 | 06:58 p.m.

np: Inu Yasha : "My Will"

Uwahhhhh!!! I'm FINALLY done with it! I FINALLY got it back! And after SCANNING it SIX $#@^ing times and piecing them ALL together to make it look SOMEWHAT decent, I'm DONE!!!

DEKITAAA!!!!!

My arms are sore from all that editing. Why does it have to be 15" x 20"? Maybe I should ask Kinko's for a really NICE scan since it's so big, afterall, I might not see it again after AX. I hope it sells.

So today was a reasonably good day. All the teachers were super nice to me after being sick for 8 days, and I don't actually have that much to make up after all. *_* Go senior year! But I will need to cram in 2 chapters and take the Econ test tomorrow, but if I start now, that should be no sweat ^_^ During ROP, we all excercised and had lotsan lotsa fun fun fun XD It was pretty cool. Mr. Post liked my cartoon character *_* so happy! And afterwards, Kenji and I went to Fantasia just to chill out and work on our pastels (just because I didn't want to go home yet) and we happened to meet Mirae and Connie there too! So we had nice time. I also had a nice talk with Kenji and I think from now on, everything will be alright for him. *nudge kenji* just don't do anything stupid ya hear? ¬_¬

Everything will be alright for me too. I've made it so that all but AKG, this bloggy, and cosplay are on hiatus. I dumped lots of projects out that I was planning to do, NOT simply because it's self imposed stress and I know I'll never ever get to them. I don't know when I'll continue them, I don't know if I ever will. But I know I tried. Maybe I didn't try very hard, mostly due to the fact that these web shrines or what-not simply didn't have a high priority in my life, but I know that after reading many other, much more talented individuals' blogs, shrines, etc, I think they can say exactly what I feel better than I can. Using writing, rants, making a fancy html layout, profiles, etc to express myself isn't my thing. It also doesn't satisfy my need for attention. Everyone wants attention and I'm no exception, but I'm no good at those. I've tried ranting, it wasn't very GOOD, I've tried writing, that wasn't so great either. And I'm not great with HTML at all. So I decided to just stick to my random art as a tool to express. It doesn't offend as easily as words do, doesn't cause so much conflict as rants do. With a picture, you can't as easily make enemies. But pictures do however, express what I feel, maybe not specifically, but much better than words can. To me, art just has much more to say.

Personally I beleive that you express things to let others be aware. But other than venting feelings, why do you rant unless you want something to change?

Nani ka ga kaeru, kaeranai, atashi wa dou demo ii.

So does this mean the end of all debate, arguement, and all rant for me? Pretty much. Or I'll at least do what I can.

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Friday, February 1, 2002 | 02:24 p.m.

np: Chrono Cross : Time's Scar

'Playstation ban terebi anime X:

terebi anime 'X' no pureesuteeshion senyou sofuto (3d kantoku akushion geemu) ga hatsubai saremasu.'

MOMMY! ;_;

I want Seishirou to kick Subaru's ass! Again! And again!

This will be quite interesting. I will not know which character to choose. So I think once I get the game, I will just use all of them.

I wonder what will happen to the time I reserved for cosplay?

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Thursday, January 31, 2002 | 08:07 p.m.

np: humming of my laptop

I'm sick again. And I got much worse today. It hurts all over just to cough. So I spent the day finishing up some work and playing with oil pastels. It was a reasonably productive day.

I've just watched X episodes 12-14. And I have to say, my liking for the anime just went down several knots. Once again, I'm a terrible writer and I'm unable to support what I have to say, so I'll just say what I know.

Maybe Studio Pierrot still has the anime rights to the CCD characters, so they didn't use Nokoru as the Clamp Campus rijichou. Kotori's death didn't take place at the pool. Kamui barely had any time to think or decide, he picked a side just walking back to the room and that was it. He also didn't get very bloody at Kotori's death scene. All Fuuma did was bind him up and pierce his hand. It varied a lot from the OVA and the lighting was different.

Overall, I feel the anime is moving much, much too quickly. Kotori goes crazy, CLAMP rijichou arrives, Kamui picks a side, Fuuma turns bad, Kotori dies, and Kamui goes crazy all happens in ONE episode. If we take a look at the tv episode to manga volume ratio, we're at episode 15 of the anime, and volume 10 of the manga. At that rate, X is going to have about 30 episodes, maybe 40 tops. Did I forget to mention that Kakyou already gave away the ending during his talk with Kotori? What's all his talk about 'Hope' then? aye. I'm getting kind of disappointed. At the rate the anime's going, I'm expecting some crap ending, because trust me. Mokona Apapa-sensei does NOT draw manga that quickly. We don't even get Asuka that often. Aiee.

I don't like the way Subaru looks. I don't like the way Subaru acts. I really didn't like part where Subaru brought Kamui back. And he passed out before Kamui got back. aiee.

I think it's safe to say I'm going to stick to my manga.

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Wednesday, January 30, 2002 | 09:01 p.m.

np: Kirara : Power of Love

*_* Oooh. Today = big day datta wa yoooo. First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONIICHANNN!!! >D he be 19 today yahhh!

So today I fell asleep at approximately 5 am in the morning, pretty dumb when I have class at 10 ya? So ended up more sicker than yesterday and I came to school anyway. That and those situp/pushup contests with Michello yesterday really gave me HURRRTING ARRRMS! OOH we so out of shape ya? *_* Here we are, Heidi, Kix, Michelle and I trying to get in shape for Japan/Fanime/AX and ooh >_< Seniors don't take PE oh nooo. So after 50 pushups and about 75 situps (real situps) My arms be HURTING today! X_X I couldn't even drive without hurting owww! But we will prevail ya! And we will lose 10 pounds! XD yeeeaaahhh!

So after ROP today (just about the only period I was well enough to attend, even mistah sackman that ol' fart said I didn't look well o.O) Mirae and Kenji and Kix and I all went to Hakone Gardens, and was freeeeezing! But we saw the turtle's all gettin' kinky with each other ^_~ so was pretty cool, and since we all on killer diet yes? All went to Jamba Juice for foodies! XD Kenji's choco shake thing was so good *_* must get that next time I go! So afterwards then it was kickin' it at Kixnouchi~ and we talked and talked and talked. We even stretched too! Was so nice talking again. Massive bonding time w/ Kix-darling today ^_^ Even though I cried to her because I was still not over last night. But I think I am now ya? ^_~ It was really nice too because Kenji got better too! So everyone all happy, genki de shiawase ne? Minna sabishii nara boku mo sabishii na no yo. ^__^ But everyone's all happy now. Kix let me borrow lotsanlotsa CD's so I won't be bored for a while *_*

So today I realize new things. I know nobody's a real friend till you name at least 10 really bad things about them. And Kix today named about 75! But it doesn't really count cuz they all were sorta related to each other ^_^ But I know my weaknesses too. I always take things too personally, I always never let things go, let things out, and I'm overly sensitive. I don't know if those are bad things, but I guess in this case, I just have to learn to let go! We got lotsanlotsa future plans. Dare ni mo tomerarenai zooo! And we'll kick them ALL into action!!! ... As SOON as I'm done with all my AISC stuffs! XD XD XD

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Saturday, January 26, 2002 | 02:08 p.m.

np: Sakamoto Maaya : 'Pocket wo kara ni shite'

...or at least thats what I think the song is called. I really can't hear it all that well. Head is all clouded up, hurting all over, and coughing got worse. I feel gross. I don't feel like doing anything... I SHOULD be doing stuff but... I'm all sickified up. *whine*

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Friday, January 25, 2002 | 06:19 p.m.

np: X : 'sadame'

-ore wo misadameru nara shinu ki de koi tte itta hazu daze.
-omae ni nani ka atta toki wa kanarazu omae wo ore ga mamoru.
-anata kamui chan? sou deshou?
-wai, neechan ni kimeta sakai.
-dare mo jibun no sadame kara wa nigerarenai.
-itandane, inuki... chanto omae ga mieru hito ga.
-onna no ko wa karada wo hiyashicha dame desuyo.
-douyara honto no oshimei ga kichatta you ne.
-tatta hitori wo omoi tsuzukeru koto wa itainda kokoro ni shika dekinai.
-kono yo ni 'zettai' nante nai wa yo!
-kimi ga shinu mirai ga mietemo... boku ni wa nanimo dekinakatta.
-tsui hayaokishiteshimatte... toshi deshouka.
-taikutsu ne, ningen wa honto taikutsu.
-ii inu da na... kawatta inu da ga ii inu da.
-anata no nozomi wa, boku wo korosu koto desuka?
-karada wa ningen daga kokoro wa nai...kanjou ga nai no da.

injichan: phi has skery info.
Konton no Tenshi: ....no kidding O_o;
injichan: this is what happens when you're sick and you're bored.
Konton no Tenshi: I think someone was a bit too bored and dellusional @_@
injichan: i think someone got a little too many CLAMP books in one day *_*
Konton no Tenshi: I think someone should let me borrow their CLAMP books so they can not be so dellusional ^_^
injichan: >) nice try buddy, niiice try >D >D >D
Konton no Tenshi: hey it was worth a shot ^_~

And if you're REALLLLLY wondering, quotes go in this order: Kamui, Fuuma, Kotori, Sorata, Arashi, Yuzuriha, Seiichiro, Karen, Subaru, Hokuto, Kakyou, Yuuto, Satsuki, Kusanagi, Seishirou, and Nataku's grandpa.

Hey. The doctor said Lots Of Fluids. *glugs 9th mug of tea* >D

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Friday, January 25, 2002 | 01:45 p.m.

np: HAL : 'The Starry Sky'

Wai! So much I wanna share. First of all... I did the whole wake up at 6:30 and decide throat wants to turn inside out on me thing, and so I must go see isha-san in a half an hour. I even was able to catch Kix-darling on her cell on her way to school and we talked about fun things *_* And I also even called in work today to tell Mike-the-senile-cantonese-|34574|2|) that I was sick today and have a doctor's appointment at 2:30 ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ And of course he was a fool over the phone. But BEFORE THAT. DADDY came HOME today *_* And he brought me GIFTS! These included the:

Wish zutto isshouni ite hoshii artbook w/ a special ending in the baaack ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
X First Contact which shows photos of alll the voice talents AND a free promotional collector's card ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
The second X novel (I haven't even started on #1 btw)
The special fatty X ASUKA #3 with the X TV series merchandise inventory list AND a free promo card ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
Chobits #4! With the fatty Chobits mini Schedule book! It's official *_* *_* *_*

Now for the last one I'm at a complete loss, since Heidi-chan got me a CUTE ORANGE planner for my 17th birthday and I'm currently using THAT one... But... but... it's CHOBITS... it's CLAMP... Y_Y And if I don't use it mommy wants to steal it away for herself! HAuuuuu doushiyouuuu??? But! *_* Chobits keeps on getting BETTER and BETTER and BETTER, I don't think I could stop now even if I wanted to. ^o^ ohohoho. I think it's dumb to say that though, considering it's CLAMP... But! Au. So sad. I finished reading it already >) When I was supposed to be sleeping. *cackle* HAUUU UEDA-san is 39 years old!!! *swoon* okay! I've updated my CLAMP book inventory which will take a while to update itself. :D It makes me super happy!

I do believe this weekend I have things to catch up with a certain friend of mine, I shall start my essay for AISC~ and I will work on AKG... sit back... drink tea... and somehow obtain nodo ame which I have run out of.

Yes, I think I got a LEEETLE bit too much sleep. ^_^ ^_^ ^_^

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Thursday, January 24, 2002 | 06:46 a.m.

np: the radio *gasp*

Yeah the radio wakes me up in the morning so that I can wake up to voices and not the irritating *beep beep beep* of the alarm clock. Good solution? I think so. But I guess I woke up for nothing today because it turns out I'm not going to school. Why? =( Because Kix-chan got me sick. It's not her fault, really. Even my stats show I have the lowest constitution out of all you guys. Byouki-san just decided to blow out full force today. So now I've run out of nodo ame, tea, and my throat still hurts, my head's been hurting since yesterday -_- And now my neck is somehow worse than before, and I don't know if I have a fever or not. In other words, kibun ga waaarui.

Thanks for evvverything yesterday you guys. =) I really enjoyed dinner despite things didn't go too smoothly and I was having super-nasty headaches and coughing fits. Hmph. Of all days to be sick. But YAY! I'm FIIINALLY SEVENTEEN! @_@ Now it's officially legal for me to go read NC-17 stuffs ^_~ well... not like being 16 ever STOPPED me... >_>;;

I slept at 10 something (or 9 something?) last night and I was so tired at 3 am I couldn't even get up for some water. The result? I feel like I'm running around in the desert. I sound like it too. I don't think I'm going to even TRY to make ROP today. Luckily we have no homework due... I'll work on AKG for Kix-darling, who actually worked on it. ^_^ I'm proud of you darling~

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.



Tuesday, January 22, 2002 | 08:40 p.m.

np: HAL : 'The Starry Sky'

I forgot to say! HAPPY birthday Albert! And HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MICK NEKOI!!! Both their birthdays were on the 21st, so now that that's out of the way...

4 more hours 4 more hours...

And tomorrow we found out that Todai's was going to be closed. =( So that got me really down but we've just figured that out, and we're going to go out for pizza! And then Ice cream! And it'll be FUNNN! XD

More good news! I got an A in Myth! So I said 'NOOOOO! I have to buy Kix-darling CREPES NOW!' But then KIX GOT AN A TOO!!! So now we BOTH owe each other crepes! Gyahahahaha! And even MORE good news!!!

I am the BEST TAKOYAKI CHEF!!! XD YAAAAAH! Mirae-chan and Heidi-chan came to take me to Mitsuwa to get my paycheck, which was a whopping $160 *_* And mommy also gave me $40 for my birthday~ So I got the TAKOYAKI PAN!!! For only $15!!! YEAH!!! And I came home and made it and even sent my second batch over the Mirae and Heidi as brain food, because my poor darlings are studying for finals this very minute. (even though they're not answering the phone) So yum yum. I ate lots of takoyaki today ^_^ I think 17 in all. Oof I'm stuffed, but I'm so happy they liked it! And mirae gave me a CLAMP bunny for my birthday too ;_; And Kix-darling got me Amaguri-chan stuff! I love you alll~ *sniff*

I'm finally going to turn 17!

-+> I wish the promised day would come sooner, so that I can see his true face again.