 Monday, January 21, 2002 | 09:22 p.m. np: Xenogears : 'Balto' Ohh. Today was fun. We went and drove around and raced and flicked each other off and much fun it was XD Even if Mirae decides to take 280 SOUTH to get to Shoreline. Har. Har. Har. XD I think I excercised enough for the rest of the week. Mmm. ^_^ I'm not that evil... Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com  Sunday, January 20, 2002 | 11:48 a.m. np: drone of some plane outside o_o Hi. Uh, portfolio Day was yesterday, and I basically had the same experience as Kenji while I was there, but when I got home, 9:00 naptime actually became bedtime... So here I am, about to explain a strange, strange dream I had last night. The part I remember it starting out with was we were all at AX, and we were in a big giant suite, but it wasn't the same as the Hyatt. It was supposed to be the first day of AX. I remembered that everytime I went down to socal, I'd die and pass out for 15 hours at a time or something. So we were all in the room and supposedly we had gotten all we wanted to do for day 1 done, and everyone was just hanging out in the room. So then I look over onto one of the beds and I see pekkle sleeping, and he's like naked. And then I see Kix sleeping on top of him, and then I see Mirae sleeping on top of her. And they all look so peaceful. And I do a double take. And I turn to the guy next to me who I can't remember who it was and I say 'SOMEONE GET A CAMERA!!' And we don't have one. At AX. Strangely enough. And the next thing I remember is I go to sleep and when I wake up Mirae is talking about some strange term and she's explaining it to some other person in the room. I don't know what this term is, but while she's explaining it to that person she starts demonstrating this term on me. Basically, I'm half awake and she comes onto the bed and uh, um, bites my ear and er, starts necking me. And at this strangely I don't care. In my dream I think I may have even liked it. Because all I do is turn over... and the rest of the dream is in some setting that I've had a previous dream in before and it involves removing a ring off a small boy because the ring is possessed (LoR influence?), taking the stuff, stuffing it in a heavy bag and finding a place to get rid of it. I end of dropping it in a swimming pool (which is REAL smart) but that was basically the dream. And needless to say, it got me thinking for a bit. Actually, I woke up 4 hours ago and since then I've been thinking. But now all I wanna know is where everyone is. Friday, January 18, 2002 | 10:54 p.m. np: Trigun : HT Moaahhhhh! I waked up 1:15 this afternoon to get my butt out of bed to go worked. So I did worked with Kix from 2-8. Heidi-chan show up. Then Mirae-chan show up. And Tom-boss be playful and we got icky tax forms. Yuck. So Tom-boss allowed us to take all the food we wants. So tomorrow in SF it is bentou. And we go to arcade. And I play 4th mix. And I feel like go killing spree. I GOT WORSERRR. Cryness. Tiredness. And then I finds out. Dad leaving for Japan tomorrow. Again. And I need to punch out a damn-#$(*ing WISHLIST. AGAIN! GODDAMMIT I'm so pissed off because I have no FRICKIN MONEY for JAPAN OR dad, and tomorrow's SF plans have also been screwed and now it'll be all WEIRD and all NOT COOL and no CREPES and... I need sleep man. I slept at 8 am this morning. Not cool. Friday, January 18, 2002 | 01:23 a.m. np: Ali Project : 'Peony Pink' *_* had a nice one & a half hour shower/bath time all to myself. Bweee~ XD But then I woke up 6 hours later. And here I am. And oddly enough, shoulders still be stiff as rocks. After finals too, with 2 hours straight of essay writing and having my pinkie cramped up! Itaiiindesuuu! ;_; And I had drawers block the entire ROP period too, so I punched out... nothing. ^_^ Buuut we went to pick up slides! And mine turned out really cool :D And then we raised our Shiawase meters during lunch! XD Banana Split chu~ BUT FINALS BE OVER!!!!! YOSSHAAAAA!!!!! And we'll party~ all day~ all night~ lalala~ Wednesday, January 16, 2002 | 11:33 p.m. np: Sakamoto Maaya: 'Mameshiba' Kenji and Lisa??? You guys are FREAKS! XD Stop debating with me because you know I'll lose! Of course I don't believe our future is destined. I was answering someone who apparently wanted to see life that way. Lisa, I haven't understood love since I was 13, for not having touched it again for 4 years. The only thing I remember are the bitter remnants of it, but that won't stop me from trying it again. Affection is a drug, but it's not all bad. Not bad at all. And what Kenji said is very true~ I don't want the end to come. I wish to stay youthful forever and be happy and crazy and stupid with my friends. Because that's all that matters! What was that one Sakamoto Maaya song? 'The future is the future que sera sera. We can make some sense of it all when we get old. Let's do something stupid.' Here's the main meat of the song: It's all in english btw. Life is Good: 'Life is a canvas and the pain is hope and promise. The world is ours, no one could ever take it from us. The sky is blue, the day is new, the sun is shinin' down, you know Life is Good, we've got each other and that's all we need.' I'm using this song for a summer layout ;D Wednesday, January 16, 2002 | 12:19 p.m. np: humming to myself ~<3~ <3 In reply to your entry: You're 14. Have you ever experienced love before? I could be horribly wrong, but you don't know until you get yourself a boyfriend/girlfriend and experience this wonderful thing called 'affection'. See, this affection is a drug, and once you try it once, you always want more. Its why some girls get themselves screwed because they just can't get enough of it. And wether or not you beleive in 'destiny' is up to you. If you believe God is out there, then you should probably believe that whatever's coming your way is either 'destiny' or whatever God has planned for you. So take it as it is. And I don't think you'd want your life to be like X. They're destined to die for the end of the world, and you make it sound as if that was a much better place to be. ^_^; They are not destined to neck each other :D they're finding consolation in each other and fangirls happen to find amusement in that. ;D As for having your family be fated with rotten endings in life, what about me? Wouldn't that mean that I was 'destined' for a rotten ending as well? :D I'm sure your mom thinks I had a rotten upbringing too, because she think's I'm a bad influence on you! So doesn't that mean people have their own perspectives? So that means everyone has a different definition of 'happy ending'. And if we really are destined for that ending, wouldn't it be interesting to just see what happens? Just follow the current of things. A happy ending is only happy if you want to make it happy. (Some people are happier without happy endings) Smile, or you'll start looking like your mom. My mom even. It seems I didn't get enough sleep again. ^___^ I did however, get my slides shot. Wee~ Wednesday, January 16, 2002 | 12:30 a.m. np: ? I should hit on girls with this picture. Mirae: I'll TOTALLY be all GIRLYGIRLY for you if you'll be my BOYFRIEND!!!!! Phi: Sorry. ;D See this sign? Mirae: eh? Phi: Property of KIX! Mirae: >_< NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! ...is THIS what you meant by 'chick magnet'?! o_O Tuesday, January 15, 2002 | 10:23 p.m. np: whirrr of my computer... or is that my stomach? *cry* My feet hurt. My eyes hurt. I'm tired and I wanna sit down and cry and go to sleep. I got only 7 hours of sleep. Since Sunday. And I finished the Japanese and Gov finals today and should be keeping my B's. I came home today and took a nap as planned... it was freezing cold. 50 degrees. Brr. And afterwards was work, which got me a bit more hyped up because Heidi and Mirae and Connie were there studying and keeping me somewhat company, plus I had coffee. Or else I'd probably be dead right now. And now I'm a whiney mess and I need to take some shots of myself, then its off to bed for whiney me. I need huggling! *sniff* Oh btw you guys, why am I a 'chick magnet'??? *flattens hair out* Monday, January 14, 2002 | 05:46 p.m. np: Ayashi no Ceres : 'Against the Light' Today was most uninteresting. I woke up at 6 and oniichan brought me to breakfast before I went to school early to watch a dumb gov video. I finished my picture of the pocketstation for ROP and we had another speaker come in today who actually showed us portfolio slides of HIGH school students instead of people in their first term! And all those self portraits AUGH~ as Kix would put it, *ZUKIN* ::clutches chest:: aughhh they were so good. T_T Either I didn't have enough sleep or enough tea, but somehow I fell asleep. All I remember is Connie yelling about hating me for one reason or another. So oniichan went with me to go get slide film today and slide pockets, and afterwards we went to get lunch. Those are fatty nachos, from Baja Fresh. Makes Taco Bell look gayness. Spunky was whining so much while we were eating, I fear she has an attachment for mexican food. Spunky might even be from Mexico! ^_~ The dreams have stopped now, so it's back to a normal life. After finals tomorrow I have much work, and I promised oniichan I'd take him to Q-cup before he goes back to SD on Thursday, so I hope people can accompany me ^_^ After the Gov and Japanese finals tomorrow, all I have is Myth left. All I need is a D on the final in Gov, and I don't even know what's going on in Japanese. At this point I don't really care. I can afford to get a D on the Myth final and keep my B, or I need to struggle for a 95% on the final to get my grade to a 90%. Kix has a low low low A, and knowing her, she'll get an A in the class. See, if she gets an A (which she beleives she won't) she has to buy my crepes on Saturday! :D And If she does get her B, then I hafto buy them for her. Either way she gets crepes, so I think I've left her pondering over whether to try or not. ^_^ I finally got to show oniichan my tree picture today, the one I'm so proud of. ^_^ I'm so happy he liked it. He said it looked very 'Disney', but he really liked it and told me to frame it. I think I will, as soon as I finish getting my slides shot. Sunday, January 13, 2002 | 02:23 p.m. np: Tales of Phantasia : 'Youkan' ii yume wo mita. Ima zenzen wasureta kedo, ii yume da to omou yo. tomodachi ga minna shiawase datta, to iu koto ga kanjiru. ii na, kowakunai yume wo miru koto ga. I have a big giant project involving lots of people to plan, I have much homework to do, I have finals starting the day after tomorow (2 art projects due, 4 chapters of government to read, questions to answer, 15 myth stories to review, Japanese kanji and vocab and essay formats to catch up with) and I need to sleep early. And yet, nanka shiawase. Sunday, January 13, 2002 | 12:57 a.m. np: Ayashi no Ceres : 'Heavens and the Earth' I finished the layout, as I promised. Otsukaresama. I just thought that 'Kuuki to Hoshi' was a really nice song, and when I finally paid attention to the lyrics, it seemed even more fitting for the layout. I sat in art one day just listening to it with my eyes closed for half an hour. It calms me down. I need a lot of calming down. I first want to recap on what has happened since the last post, but to tell the truth, I don't remember much. I just know that for the past 2 weeks, I've been having dreams that I assumed were bad because I wake up every morning feeling so scared and insecure I beg my mom not to go to school. But I still go, and once I go, I forget about it. I'm beginning to figure out why I'm so scared now. All the dreams involved my friends, my dog, my mom, going away or getting hurt. I don't know the details, but dreams are dreams- you don't figure things out, everything is just given. The most frightening part is that I can't remember anything. I cried a lot during the sleepover last night. And I cried when I got mad at Kenji, and I cried again when Mirae called me. And each time, I don't know what it's about, why I'm feeling so bad. But I've decided to forget about it, forget everything that we've figured out thus far. Because dreams are dreams, and it's all just a coincidence. It doesn't bother me anymore. But I don't know why I still cry. I just want to get away. I feel as if I'm going to break down again any minute. ...Where are you? |
Ø g.r.a.v.i.t.y v.10 features yours truly. If you'll notice the background, it's my own world. Welcome. The theme song of the current layout, "Kuuki to Hoshi" by Sakamoto Maaya, can be found on the album 'Lucy'.
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