Wednesday, March 13, 2002 | 07:52 p.m.
np: Secret of Mana : Fear of the Heavens

Well Kenji told me Seiken Densetsu actually IS the Secret of Mana, so rest assured that my memory fails me not! :D

To those of you who want to know, I thought my mom was going to die last night, hence I had a lot on my mind last night and couldn't sleep. Not until very late anyway, but Mirae stayed the night with me and I ended up not even having breakfast and sleeping in. When I woke up at around noon, my parents already came home and my mom is now alright, though she has a tube connecting to her bile duct draining whatever it is out. So far, all we can see is blood and we're still all worried. Yesterday she was supposed to be home from her 6:30 am appointment at Stanford hospital but went into critical condition and had to stay the night. I got twenty billion phone calls last night from church friends and relatives and other friends offering support and the like, but of course I turn to my closest friends. Thanks Mirae for being there.

Apparently the shock is still affecting my apetite as all I've had today was a few bits of a chocolate chip cookie, a crepe, and some chunks of chicken. I'm still not hungry, and I'm starting to get worried about myself. I'm trying to keep my mind off of everything right now by working on my costume, which I'm happy to say, is getting halfway done.

That's it for now.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Tuesday, March 12, 2002 | 10:49 p.m.
np: a special track from Shen Mue

I guess for events that happened today, everyone can check the corresponding entry on Mirae's site. Pretty relaxing two days, since I got a lot of cosplay done. I've finished the pants, the belts, and some random painting here and there. I'll get this done in maybe a few more weeks. In the meantime, I also need to manage Yuna, Tidus, and Auron. It should be okay.

After all, I'm probably working harder now that I'm trying to keep my mind busy. Mirae's staying the night tonight, yeah? I'm thankful. Today's been a pretty hectic day for me, I hope tomorrow is better than today.

Do you ever think you want the future to come quicker, like move to college sooner, or be independent ASAP? I just think everyone should take the time to appreciate the now. Because it won't ever come again. It's kind of why I do documentaries, so I can cherish what WAS now, later. Right now I feel as if I should have lived each day like it was my last.

Or someone else's last.

I leave it all in Your hands now.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Sunday, March 10, 2002 | 10:37 p.m.
np: Kenshin : Hiten Mitsurugi Ryu - Amakakeru Ryu no Hirameki

Esh long song title. *rubs eyes* Had contacts in for 12 hours now, ouuuch. But I did have the most productive Sunday I've ever had in a while. I mean, instead if wake up, church, eat, computer, cram, it was:

-wake up 10:30
-go hiking with Kix, Mirae, and Kenji-poo
-drive to get Jamba Juice for lunch
-pick up pekkle
-study white trenchcoat pattern
-cosplay at Kix's house
-eat at Miyabi-tei
(even though they didn't even get my order) -rush to church!
-rush back to Kix's for more cosplay
-eat minimal dinner and pick up Kenji
-come home~

I need to get rid of this nasty gut I have. And just for the record, I do NOT have skinny legs so can you both just please stop trying to blow my head off?

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Saturday, March 9, 2002 | 10:45 p.m.
np: Seiken Densetsu : Electric Fields

Okay. Well. Fatigue makes me do strange things. Like weigh a bag of takoyaki. That has a bar code on it. Yah yah, thank GOD I'm home now. I got myself a Special Bright Card! One down, 15 more to go. ~_~ Stupid X cards.

Tomorrow we'll go a runnin'. Oh yeah, did I forget to mention? I hate the X anime. I thought Yuuto and Karen were COOL. But apparently NOT. Am I speaking in past tense? Yes I am speaking in past tense. WAN WAN. WAN WAN WAN. Gooo Clamp Gensaku.

Wan wan.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Friday, March 8, 2002 | 10:49 p.m.
np: (cackle*

I don't believe it... I thought I'd get KAREN but apparently not! lol Thanks for the link Aya-onee :D

You're Shirou Kamui!
Congratulations-- the Power of God is in your hands. Well, maybe not, but you do occasionally feel as if the weight of the world is on your shoulders, and sometimes you just want to run away to escape it all. You mean well, but you are sometimes short-tempered and don’t necessarily think things through before you do them. Friendship is very important to you, as is loyalty. You have a lot of growing to do, but deep down you really are a good person.
Which Dragon of Heaven are you?
Quiz by Kerianne

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Friday, March 8, 2002 | 09:06 p.m.
np: Einhander : Thermosphere

Whoopty doo! I just got back from work and saw Carl and Steph there too :D Mirae also dropped off her monies, so I'm feeling all organized and on top of everything. Yay for Lent Friday's, as I'm enjoying a dinner of fried cod, squid, and edamamefuzzybeans. But no really, it's quite good. ^_~ I'm going to be going off to cosplay after dinner. GOOO cosplay, must get all our asses moving yes? Oh yes, discussing skits already! YAY!

This very moment, two people are sniffling at the same time.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Thursday, March 7, 2002 | 08:38 p.m.
np: Cynic Project : Beach Visions

I got so burned today. I actually made it through five periods and two tests, and even managed to take everyone out to lunch. However, I still think it was quite obvious that I wanted home sleep rest and didn't make sixth and seventh. I came home and napped.

I did receive my Combination book and CCD CD package today though. The CD itself is probably the fruitiest thing I've ever heard in my life, and has the "Mokona Ojousan no March" song on it. Uh... But it was printed in 1994 and also happened to come with the ORIGINAL Japanese CD-rom version of the King of Fighters game, which was printed in the same year. Which was a pleasant surprise. I wonder if it will install...

And I don't know if I want to be collecting Combination. From the looks of it there are two entirely different prints of it? One involving CLAMP and one which only credits Leeza Sei... So.

I think I'm going to eat something before my stomach starts eating itself.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Wednesday, March 6, 2002 | 08:11 p.m.
np:

Two years ago I dragged my mom to a UCLA school of Fine Arts informational meeting to show her I wanted to attend an art school. She said "I'm happy you know what you want to do." One year ago I decided I wanted to go to art school. Then suddenly it wasn't okay. They ask me why is an art school better than a UC? I say, I've told you everything I know. If you want to know more, won't you go talk with my art teacher? And my mom says "No, I don't need to talk to him." Then what the FUCK is the point of my explaining to you if you don't fucking BELIEVE me in the first place?

5 minutes ago that same mom, concerned with what Dad felt about my going to art school, wanted to talk to my art teacher.

And is blaming me for feeling irritated at her.

I should be fucking THANKFUL she says. Once again this supports my statement of my having to be perpetually happy and speak like a fucking dumbass 24/7 or I get it.

Fall couldn't come any slower.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Wednesday, March 6, 2002 | 12:00 a.m.
np: the water fountain

Oh no I missed posting yesterday by a minute! ^_^ Well first things first. Happy Birthday MIRAE!!! Darling turns 18 and is treating herself to an account at Aesthetecism or however you spell that Yaoi place that I regret introducing to her. ^_~

I officially am accepted into Riverside. They sent me a big fat packet. Not as if I'm going there. Daddy also came home today safe and sound! :D And he brought back BOOKS! And my X Trading cards! T_T I'm still missing all the rare ones so it means I need to buy yet another box. =P But I got all the Kaiki Genshou Kenkyuu Kai novels and that new Oshiroi Chouchou novel. I had no idea it was so thick.

I spend the past 5 hours working on Heidi's pitas. Go check it out :D I'm actually quite satisfied with it, so I think that's a good thing. ^_^

I have a shitload of homework to do tomorrow ^_^ ^_^ ^_^

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy