Friday, May 3, 2002 | 01:12 a.m.
np:

I took care of all make up tests today. But I still haven't made up homework. I came home today and I was tired. So I went to bed.

I slept for a long time. I dreamed a long dream. I woke up at midnight.

I have forgotten my dream.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Wednesday, May 1, 2002 | 09:10 p.m.
np: Round Table featuring Nino : Let Me Be With You

Nekoi-sensei likes this song a lot. I do too. I just checked out the CLAMP site because ^_^ they updated. And it looks nice even though the front page illustration is a bit iffy. But I like it anyway, naturally being me. So let's start.

I spent 7 hours straight yesterday reading a 26 part S&S fic that ended up with Subaru losing it and that didn't make me feel very well at ALL, but seeing as there was some funny innuendo stuff after I read it it made me feel minimally better. We did go out to ice cream after school today, and I never thought I'd say any of the stuff I did today. *lick* I think I'm corrupting my mind. So I'm taking a break from studying with a really long post because I have so very much stuff to make up with my week and a half long absence from school. That includes an econ test, econ homework, econ video quiz, japanese quiz, myth test, myth vocab, myth journals, myth quiz, and a surreal painting assignment which involves using city scapes. Naturally, I will make Tokyo my subject. I'll be twisted enough and include all the famous landmarks and kekkai that I managed to take photos of while I was there.

Keiichi: I've got some good news and I've got some bad news. ^_^ Which do you want first?
me: Uh. The bad?
Keiichi: I'll give you the good news first.
me: oh. okay.
Keiichi: Gouhou drug will be serialising in ASUKA starting with June issue! And there will even be a postcard book featuring Kazahaya and Rikuou. Isn't that great?
me: THat is so uber cool *_*
Keiichi: Gouhou drug #2 will also be out early summer. CLAMP even added new gifs on their site. Did you get them yet?
me: Did you even have to ask? *_* Now what about that bad news?
Keiichi: Oh. X is officially starting to wrap up!
me: ... How can you be so damn happy? Are you like this in real life too?
Keiichi: ^_^
me: You MUST be... the only comic you star in is wrapping up and you're happy about it?! How many more issues does it have left?? X_X
Keiichi: um... a few. But don't worry. Next few issues you'll get these wonderful Fuuma, Kamui, and Subaru spade card furoku that you get to keep.
me: Oh... *mutter* I suppose that makes me feel a bit better. But not by much seeing as how they also included a cute X phone strap with the Wonderswan game and seeing as I don't HAVE a Wonderswan and I have to go out and spend mOre money since there's still Chobits 5 to get and the anime Guidebook hell where am I going to get MONEY for all this... *bawl*
Keiichi: *pat pat* cheer up.
me: easy for YOU to say... -_-

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Monday, April 29, 2002 | 06:55 p.m.
np: Round Table : Let Me Be With You

Um. I have to rest. I have to get better. I hope. You know, stomach pains, fatigue, all that good stuff? No more "amusement". Concentrate on school. Actually keep B's. Or draw. Hopefully no more doctor visits. Must study.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Sunday, April 28, 2002 | 11:16 p.m.
np: HAL : Epilogue

I still have a messy room to clean. I'm not sure if this is safe, but ever since my car accident I haven't been able to feel that thing called hunger. I've kind of just gone by 20 hr days without food, not because I'm trying to starve myself, don't get me wrong, but simply because I forgot to eat. I'm not telling my parents that I'm still feeling that way, you know, them worrying like they do, but it kind of hasn't gone away. Let me explain:

Wendsday: bite of egg in morning, hot dog for lunch.
Thursday: Hi-chew. water. I think. Oh and bowl of rice.
Friday: Mcdonald's small french fry's. Coke.
Saturday: Wow I ate! a little more. But no dinner.

I don't know if I should be worried or not, but I'm worried enough to eat when everyone else is eating, at least I still have my sense of self preservation. But even that is bad I think. I start eating only when I get these really really sharp pains in my stomach. That happened when I was reading S&S fics, and I was at the good part and I couldn't even focus on what I was reading. And it was 4 am. So. I kind of didn't go to school the next day. That happened again after Fanime last night, and ... I didn't eat. I think I lost weight. My PJ bottoms are kind of falling off me.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Sunday, April 28, 2002 | 09:56 p.m.
np: HAL : Violation of the Rules

Oh yeah. I was so in for it after Fanime. I mean. I did get to meet lotsa people and get to see Wayne again and the USA Musume group DID win something in Der Cosplay, but ... yeah I got screwed over. So no more going out late or something like that. Today I just got back from church and napped for 4 hours so that makes about 15 hours of sleep. I have mucho things to make up and yes, just like my parents tell me to, I'm prioritizing homework and school and college stuff first. Until I get all my forms done, I can't do anything else but sit at home and work on my documentaries and things like that. Work too. I can't spend anymore money. I spent so much money lately and my parents are giving me a major guilt trip about that so...

I was considering selling all of my CLAMP goods but I don't think I want to. Dad says it'll be all useless later but I'm keeping thing because one, they've got way too much sentimental value in each and every book and CD, and two, because it's all artistic reference for the future. So not even thinking about that again.

Lots of homework to make up. An extremely messy room to clean.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Friday, April 26, 2002 | 07:31 p.m.
np: HAL is stuck in my head...

We ditched class to go to Fanime and I saw Jen and Tiffy and Genri and Kix was being whiny scared little thing again and we went in the dealer's room and I bought the X calendar and 3 CLAMP singles and yaoi doujin and all the MKR LD's which at first I felt bad about but then I put it all on my list again and it took up a lot of space and now I feel much better because before I must have been PMSing but I'm not depressed anymore so that's a good thing isn't it?

I spent $195 today. Poo. But I got lots of yummy stuff especially *nudge mirae* the 'I'm' doujin.

XD I'm going to finish cosplay now.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Wednesday, April 24, 2002 | 10:37 p.m.
np: ...

CLAMP-NET.com shukushou chuu, takusan no mail wo itadakimashita. hontou ni arigatou gozaimashita. subete, 4 nin de haiken shimashita.

sakunen no natsu ni okotta koto wa, ironna hito wo kidutsuke, soshite kanashimaseteshimaimashita. keredo zannen nagara, mada "kaiketsu shita" to iu ni wa, tooi joutai ni arimasu.

watashitachi ga ichiban kanashii no wa, ayamachi wo tadasou, nantoka "nani ga mondai nano ka" wo wakatte moraou to isshoukenmei datta houhou ga, totemo, totemo kiduiteshmatta koto desu

kono mondai wa mada owatte wa imasen.
mohciron, watashitachi dake no mondai de wa arimasen shi, sousaku, soshite parody to iu genre ni kakawaru hito tachi ni totte wa, zutto kangae, ishiki shi tsuzukenakereba naranai kotogara na no kamoshiremasen.

soredemo, sukoshi demo mae ni susumou to ganbatte kudasatta houhou no okage te, kaze ga fukimashita. toppuu ni kanjita hito mo irassharu kamoshiremasen. soredemo, nagaku yodondeita ba ni, atarashii kaze ga fuki, sono kaze wo okoshita hito tachi ga itakara koso, sukoshi zutsu desuga, mae ni sundeiru to, watashi tachi wa kanjiteimasu.

kurikaeshi ni narimasuga, mondai wa mada arimasu.
keredo, zutto kanashii kimochi ni toraware tsuzukeru koto mo, yahari tsurai koto desu. ganbatteiru hito tachi ga, ichiban tsurai omoi wo shiteiru koto wo, watashi tachi wa shitteimasu.

dakara koso. mondai ga aru koto wa wasurezu, sore wo fumaeta ue de, tanoshii koto wo hajimemashou.

"jibun no sakuhin wo tsukuru koto wa, taihen dakedo, hontou ni tanoshii koto nanda"
"jibun no sakuhin wo dare ka ni mite moraeru koto wa, hontou ni ureshii koto nanda"

sonna, kantan de, demo ichiban daiji na koto wo, kore kara mo wasurenai tame ni.

5gatsu 1nichi. "Clamp=net.com" wo renewal shimasu.

minasama ni mata o ai dekiru no wo, isshou ni tanshimeru koto wo, CLAMP ichidou, tanoshimi ni shiteimasu.

CLAMP
Igarashi Satsuki . Ookawa Nanase . Nekoi Mikku . Mokona Apapa

--------- Are they referring to 9-11? Anyone wanna help me translate that? My mind doesn't seem to be functioning. *zukin*

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Wednesday, April 24, 2002 | 10:00 p.m.
np: CC : Dancing Tokage

... aw helllll no...
And I just updated my missing list too! I don't wanna spend my money on THIS!

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Wednesday, April 24, 2002 | 09:23 p.m.
np: HAL : the starry sky karaoke

Hi everyone I'm back. Let me just spit it all out in a nutshell...

Japan was great. Busted 1300 dollars or 180000 yen, whichever. Got down and naked. Fat and now poor. Documentary coming soon.

Came home on the 22nd and inherently went back in time which resulted in head getting messed up. Head got even more messed up when three hours after returning home was involved in a car accident (that was the complete fault of some HS juniors) which resulted in a slight concussion.

Which also resulted in being konked out for 20 hours afterwards, hence not going to school or making up 3 various tests that I was stupid enough not to take before my spring break. So now I don't remember what to study.

I did today, though, catch up with friends and go to school and waste the whole day catching up people's blogs, websites, email (which was at critical capacity) cleaned all that junk out, surfed my old websites because a week and a half without internet access just happens to do a bit more damange to my head, which resulted in my getting to the CLAMP site, which updated a wee bit after I left.

Which brings me to this.

I really really am not sure about the identity of this broad shouldered young man and I can't tell from the tiny picture, but excuse me for asking...

but what the fuck is Sakurazuka Seishirou doing in a Catholic bishop's outfit?

It could be Fuuma... but really what difference would that make?

I forgot to mention I finished updating some various inventory lists of mine. They are here.

http://www.akgstudios.net/g/mangalist.html
http://www.akgstudios.net/g/cdlist.html
http://www.akgstudios.net/g/videolist.html
I WANT THESE.

***I am not a freak. I am not the 8th dragon of Heaven. One more word about glowing halogen bulbs and you will be smitten.***

I'll be back... soon, maybe, after I figure out this Fanime mess. At least I'm happy to be going.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy

Friday, April 12, 2002 | 05:47 a.m.
np: Brink of Time : To Far Away Places

I was thinking of making a new layout before my Japan trip. However, considering that I've only just finished packing...

obviously not.

But yes Kenji-dear we'll take your advice, but we can't say much about that Wonderswan ^_^ And I'll try my best, Jack, and Mirae, I'm sure you'll survive.

Because if you don't, you'll die in college. ^_^

We'll call as often as we can (and this time I'll be calling to talk to Mirae!) and we'll try to make you feel less lonely, and I'll actually be keeping a live documentary, like I'm blogging every day. In fact, I finished today's blog, so here it is.

It's 5:30 in the morning and I haven't actually … well, I was going to say I haven't finished packing, but that isn't the case anymore, as I've actually just finished. But I've finally finished packing after a whole day of going out, shopping for omiyage, cheering people up, setting things straight, dealing with parents, all the works. And so naturally after all that I end up starting to pack at 11 or so. And I end now.
Aren't I just the most organized person in the world?
Of course, I also feel like the most unprepared… but it's only natural that I should leave something at home, I just can't think of what. Well, I'll find out when the time comes. Pekkle's dad is supposed to come pick me up at 8:00 in the morning so we can get to SFO at 9, the designated meeting time for our flight. Of course I dread seeing Takahashi in the morning, that lazy-fat ass with absolutely no respect for his students/non-students. But we'll get there soon enough. I finished packing, typing up my shopping lists for people, destinations, addresses… I wonder if I'm going to get any sleep.

… nah.

-+> I thought I was just a little bit happy