Tuesday, December 31, 2002
11:48 a.m.

Phew, after much shuffling of schedules, planning and getting confused with conflicting statements; overlapping plans aside, my New Year's Eve is pretty much fixed. Sam wants me to show him around town. Meeting Kevin after that (he's generously rescuing me from spending hours with Sam and in turn, I'm generously helping him spend his pay - on himself though, haha. Rather unfortunate but well q:). Watchnight service and the rest of the night with the twins and Prameeta. As it has been for the past 3 NYE's already, it's become a tradition of sorts. (:

All too soon, the year draws to a close yet again. It's really rather appalling, the way time passes so quickly. I always feel as though I ought to grab on to every precious second, savouring it before it slips away. And the more I frantically muddle to hold and cling to it, the faster and more deliberately it slips out of my reach. Like water cupped in my palm. Leaking out from the edges, spilling onto the thirsty unforgiving ground. Like quicksilver falling from moonbeam. Disappearing...

Sunday, December 29, 2002
10:23 p.m.

I'm rather cautious to say this because it's rather premature, but I think I like Wesley Methodist already. Kevin and I attended the Prayer & Praise service this morning, and the Traditional one right after that. Heh. I shall reserve further comment for future visits because I don't want to get my hopes raised up too high (again). Anyways, I bumped into Shaun right before the first service, talk about weird. Kevin had the cheek to say he was (too) fair and looked like an ah-gua! And that his features weren't nice and he had girly eyes. Bleh! Coming from someone who'se been called gay by many people, I think that was a bit rich.

Anyways, we met Xiulan later and attempted to get Yongyi and Limin something for their birthdays. Couldn't decide on Yongyi's cos he's really boh-chup and won't appreciate anything we settle on. We took the easy way out for Limin and figured a $50 Esprit voucher would cover most things. :D Anyways, we tried on prom dresses again. I swear, the more I put on the black satin one from I.S. the more I love it. It's really simple in front, with such lovely criss-crosses at the back. The only drawback is the asymmetrical hem, everything else is perfect. Sigh. Dunno if I ought to get it cos it's rather premature, I don't want to buy it now and regret later if a nicer one comes along. Decisions Zyschisions. And oh, I shouldn't have tried on the Dorothy Perkin's maroon top again, it really is such a dream. Kevin took one look at me and later said, "It's lucky you didn't wear it for longer cos I would have fallen in love with you." Whatever, he's such a flirt!

I really should stop talking about pretty clothes and guys and giddy frivolous things like these! It's just the unbelievable post-Christmas sales that get me in this crazy worldly state of mind. Really, I will sober up and be sensible once school reopens and work starts piling up. Not like it isn't already accumulating! (;

Saturday, December 28, 2002
09:13 p.m.

I'm rather disappointed. Shaun's together with Tisha! Words spoken right from the horse's mouth so it's true. Bleh. Heard they were going steady, knew they were very close, but I've never really believed it because I've been 'observing' them, (secretly) watching the way they treat one another and how they act. And they certainly don't look like they're a couple, honest. I mean, they don't touch each other more than a friend would. Not that they ought to/ should engage in PDA and grope all over the place; they don't even have to hold hands if they don't feel comfortable doing that in full view of the world. But subtle pats, changes in tone inflection, little gestures of affection, all these are missing when I watch them together. I mean, these are seemingly insignificant expressions but one can tell so much from them!

The way the both of them behave towards one another is like how Yongyi and I act. Platonic friends, with a touch of sibling fondness, if you will. Damn, I've got a soft spot for someone who'se taken. And Tisha too! Of all people... Not that I don't like her, I don't exactly have anything against her. I guess I just never expected him to like someone like her, if you get my drift. And no, I'm not in love with him, I don't have a major crush or anything along those lines. I guess I just thought he had potential. What I saw in him really attracted me.

Sigh. There goes the sweet frumpy guy (with the long eyelashes). Another one bites the dust...

Friday, December 27, 2002
09:09 p.m.

You know, I strongly suspect I don't have much of a life. I mean, it's the holidays, it's been the holidays for the past six weeks, and I've gone back to school every single day (except on public holidays and the eve q:). From 9 - 5 (or later), more often than not. It's so aaaargh. And boring! Partner and I are getting thoroughly sick of the lab. We also think the entire 7th floor is jinxed because most of our friends, ourselves included, haven't been getting favourable results. Anyways, a few of us swam today during the incubation time. Saw Ryan and Leroy there (and I didn't recognise them because I'm half blind without glasses), horrors!

You know during the ferry ride to St John Island, Xiulan saw a hot guy and pointed him out. Lianne took a look and agreed. When I glanced over, I thought he was pretty cute too. We were rather amazed that we all managed to come to an agreement because we have vastly (and notoriously) different tastes when it comes to guys. Really. And when we got off and were lining up for the activities, we got to talking and realised we were all looking at different people. HA. Anyways. My point being... Ryan was the one I thought was cute. Ahhh, embarrassing! *lol*

(Very courageously) braved the crowds after school and I got me a white long-sleeved Mango top. A basic essential la, my U2 one is about 3 sizes too big now. Wanted to get a black skirt but my friend said it looked like something a "slutty secetary" would wear. Erm, erm. Checked M&S out, they don't sell Waterlily perfume. /: Think I'll switch to White musk. I think I ought to stop going on about toiletries and clothes and shopping. I'm really not as materialistic/ vain as I come across. (:

Thursday, December 26, 2002
11:21 a.m.

*evil laughter* Legolas is mine, all mine! And I didn't cheat either! The Two Towers was fantastic, though I didn't really enjoy the bits that deviated from canon (like making Faramir want the Ring and the Battle at Helm's Deep; though I thought it was rather cool and I cried at quite a few places, I just thought the discrepancies were a little much). And I didn't exact;y like Eowyn either, she's such a flirt! Even if the white peasant dress was so beautiful. (I'm just jealous, can you tell? Heh) But it was well acted and the suspense was drawn out artfully, bonus points for the pretty scenery and Treebeard! While I think Aragon's yummy and ever so sexy, Legolas was like, Ooh. He's too georgeous to be true! It's a definate must-watch-again. Though as three different people have asked to go with me, it depends with who. Alright, the person who pays for my ticket shall have the pleasure of my scintillating company! *lol*

Anyways, today's a day made for lazing around but I'm meeting Kevin and Xiulan later. Damn, I lost 2 kg when I was flu-y last week (and kept it off by some miracle), but it came back in the space of the past two days! I suppose having brownies for breakfast doesn't help either. Pardon me, I'm off on another obsure meaningless tangent. Again. (: Happy Boxing Day!

Wednesday, December 25, 2002
03:23 p.m.

Christmas, Christmas, Christmas. Just when warm and fuzzy feelings fill my heart with joy and laughter (and it's about time it did, too!), Christmas is almost over. I just got back from prata with my family, had to wake up so early just for the soundcheck and tuning (played for CNLWE). Wanted to attend the service at my parent's church but I felt really bad leaving Shaun all alone (all the other 4 flautists refused to play today) so I, being the super nice/ sweet person that I am, sacrificed my beauty sleep AND the service. Haha. I don't know why though, but I would be extremely hesitant if it were any of the other flautists that were 'stranded'. Shaun's just really adorable and sweet la. (:

Didn't get that many presents this year, I miss being a kid! When all the relatives would come over and we'd eat ourselves silly and rip open huge colorful gifts. I remember how my mom would make my sis and I pick out stuff for our cousins and church friends. And how she'd insist on getting them storybooks because she knew (from first-hand experience) that we never really appreciated toys after the initial frenzy and excitement passed. And now that everyone's gone and gotten themselves grown up, we haven't been meeting for Christmas dinners anymore. It's rather sad... But oh wells. Recieved many sets of bath lotion and body moisturiser this year from friends. I like them, but ah. I think it's rather erm, excessive. I mean, how many showers can I take? q: Hope they didn't mean it as a not too subtle hint, hee. But what I really want is the Waterlily Eau de Toilette from M&S, I want a signature scent instead of switching around.

On the other hand, all I want for Christmas is you. Now, if only I know who you are.