Love, me

Thursday, June 5, 2003
12:18 a.m.

I really love this ring. And this, as well. Though it's somewhat (only somewhat?!) pre-mature. He shouldn't keep bringing this topic up! Even though it feels like a much longer time, it's barely been two months. It's anyone's guess, what the future will bring...

Tuesday, June 3, 2003
07:35 p.m.

Bumped into Lian Koon and Lewis while Kane and I were in the Sony store in Bugis. Got quite a big surprise because it just so happened he was stealing a kiss (one of the many) in front of this display set. Haha. They were like, "Aiyoh Sarah, don't be so obscene lah!" Stuff like that.

I never really liked it when couples made out in public. I swear it wasn't sour grapes, honest. But it kinda seems my viewpoint's changed quite a bit now. q:

This entry is Friends Only in my LJ because most of my real life friends wouldn't want to know about this. q: And even if they did, I wouldn't want them to know. *grin* I'm putting this in here because of those friends who aren't LJ users, and therefore can't see the entry there. (:

Saturday, May 31, 2003
12:29 a.m.

He called, just when I was feeling really upset and uncherished and unloved and un-missed and un-thought-of and oh wells, everything negative you can think of. And we had a lovely chat, I finally got to unload. Told him I ~~thought~~ knew I was a very emotionally demanding girlfriend but oh wells. Faizal said it's normal for a girl to be in constant need of reassurance.

And I love him for somehow knowing that I needed to hear his voice, right at that particular moment in time. (:

Thursday, May 29, 2003
10:20 p.m.

Alright, I've got a new address. http://www.livejournal.com/users/blueandgrey. Think I'll update more there from now on, though this journal won't, by any means, become defunct. I'll rant a lot more in here, I promise. Haha.

Thursday, May 29, 2003
10:02 p.m.

Ah wells. Just got back from another spot of shopping. I swear, this has got to stop. Was supposed to go to the gym today but felt too nua to move. Ended up going to school to get the referral letters which, incidentally, were pretty lovely! *beams* They truly meant what they said too, and weren't simply recycling old testimonials for me. Haha. Except Dr Z, she edited and added on to mine, right in front of me. q: But anyhows. I didn't stay out late today, I'm really tired out. Think I've yet to pay back the sleep debt accumulated over the chalet! Speaking of which, let me ramble on some more about it. *grin*

Was a pretty good two days, I got to know them more, and goodness, they're full of crap. Didn't have much worries about making small talk because they're experts at talking rubbish. Heh. The night cycling was fantastic, too! Didn't know I could ride for hours without feeling tired. It must have been the crisp air and the absence of pesky little people that did it, really. Kane and I got a tandem cos I didn't know if I had the stamina to cycle continously, but Liming wanted to slack, so I took Mingxiang's bike and Kane took hers. And after a little while, the both of us kinda sped ahead and left the rest of them behind. q: It was great good fun too! Till I made the mistake of following his sudden turn just as we were whizzing down a slope. Couldn't brake because the brakes were faulty and I knew I'd fall head over heels if I attempted to stop. So I crashed. Have a graze on my palm, a big one on my inner elbow, and a HUGE HUGE bruise on my left hip. It's 10cm by 5cm and looks absolutely disgusting! I've also got a series of scrapes on my thigh, and a cut on my forehead. Bleh.

Anyways. As there was surplus cash, they got loadsa food for dinner on the 2nd night. Stingray, chicken wings, satay, cockles (DISGUSTING!) etc. There was a cake too, in honor of our surviving 3 years of school! Was quite touching in a funny kind of way, because they were reminising over how they met one another.. And most of them were good friends since Year 1. That made me realise that most of my good friends back then aren't close to me anymore. Others have moved in and taken their place. Oh wells. Fact of life and all that, so move on! (: We played stupid games after that, forfeits was tequila-sprite concotions. Went out for a walk because some people were turning red, haha. By the time Kane and I got back to the chalet, most of them had already conked out, so the few remaining ones finished the bottle of tequila while playing uno; rather uproariously too, I might add. q: Anyways, we finally decided to crash, only to realise there wasn't much available space, there were 6 of us squished breadthwise on two beds! My injured arm kept on scraping the edge, and I nearly rolled off a few times. Oh wells. People don't expect to sleep much during chalets anyways!

I'm rambling! Sure sign of tiredness. Alrighty, gotta go, it's another long day tomorrow.

Wednesday, May 28, 2003
12:29 p.m.

Just got back from the chalet and I'm so so tired! Ended up staying for all 3 days, and while it wasn't quite as bad as I thought it'd be, lets just say that I don't like noisy loud people at the crack of dawn. Especially when it's 7am and Kane and I just got to bed (we were keeping watch over the 15 bicycles cos everyone was either sleeping or watching the sunrise), and they, who've been dead to the world for the past few hours, clamour and wake every one up, insisting we return the bikes asap because they don't want to watch over them. *ROLLS EYES* This, and a few other incidents, has really made me realise how selfish people are. How inconsiderate and well, unwilling to spare a thought for others, loath to go the extra mile for someone who's supposed to be your good friend. Pah. YY and XL are two people whom I used to consider pretty good friends, they used to be persons I wouldn't mind helping, even if it meant I'd have to go out of my way. But seeing how they simply left like that, when they knew how bloody exhausted Kane and I were, just to go home an hour earlier... *snorts in a rather undignified manner* Okay, I'll elaborate later. Need to try and get some rest before I fall asleep here.

Sunday, May 25, 2003
09:39 p.m.

Whew, I think I'm just as busy, if not busier, than I was before school let out. Today was the first time I had dinner with my family in the past two weeks! I feel kinda bad too because I wake up when they've all left for work/ school, and they're asleep (or about to fall into bed) by the time I get back everyday. But I suppose I'm just making up for lost time. Catching up on all the fun and light-heartedness I've missed out for so long! I mean, of course I went out pretty frequently during term time, but I always felt as though I had something weighing over my head. Like there was always something else I had to do, somewhere else I had to be, someone else I had to meet... And most of it was school related stuff. So the situation's totally different now, I've been gallivanting like crazy without a care in the world! *grin* Unless you count not knowing what the hell I want to be when I graduate from uni, that is. And the whole issue about whether to study overseas or stay in NUS/NTU still remains pretty much unresolved. Though I guess it's quite confirmed I'll be staying till next year.

But jobs are so scarce, and I'm so broke! Taking full advantage of the sales everywhere! I've borrowed WL's FFF card so often I use it more than she does, and thanks to me and my shopaholic friends, she has over 300 points in her account. *beams* I love saving money this way, really I do! Though some might deem the term "savings" a whole lot more "appropriate" if I didn't spend money at all, to me, this is saving. These days, I get my thrills from good bargains, I feel happy knowing I thwart and outsmart the money-grubbing fashion industry. q: Though I really ought to stop all kinds of shopping till I get some form of an income! And things aren't gonna get better over the next week, there's a chalet from tomorrow to Wednesday. Don't quite feel like going since it's organised by the group of pseudo ah-lians, and, while I do know everyone who'll be there, I'm not exactly close to any of them. But they're Kane's good friends and I know he'd like for me to get to know his friends better. Blargh. The things I do for my dear silly boy! Ha, just kidding (not quite but never mind that, heh). I'll be nice to them, honest I will, I'll put in every effort to make small talk. But there are so many "Eh, what're you gonna do now that we've graduated" you can ask, there are only so many complaints one can make about the blistering weather, before things get stale and everyone starts shuffling their feet. I'm gonna bring a few books to read, perhaps I'll stay in the room and enjoy the air-con while I pretend to keep an eye on the stuff. *angelic beam* We'll see how it goes!