.oO 290905.thu Oo.

[feeling: tired]

Sadness
People see sadness in your eyes. You seem to be
hurt deeply. You may be unhappy because you are
alone or feel like no one cares about you. Or
it may be because something very awful has
happened to you. Whatever the cause, you go
through each day just waiting for night to come
with sweet relief in the form of your dreams.
But you may have even lost hope in your dreams.
Chin up. Things should get better for you and
there is always at least one person who cares
about you. Have hope.(Image copyrighted to
Tasuki-no-Miko of deviantART)

What can people see in your eyes?(great ANIME pics)((IMPROVED!!!))
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how true o.O

newae went shopping with meiyun after guitar lesson just now (: haha yay bot a brown skirt from bysi (: im in love with brown clothes now. ps basement having mad discount haha but have not much money left in my account so better dun spend too much! haha.

my right eyelid is still jumping everyone now and then haha.

looking for my way @ 0037hrs
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.oO 270905.tue Oo.

[feeling: sleepy]

haha got damn little sleep last night cos stayed up and study for today's tests. haha psych was ok larhs (: went thru the test in the tut straight after the lect. hmm 100 mcq. i got quite a number of them wrong and i realised i din study hard enough larhs. ): there are somethings that have basically just slipped my mind haha.

for history im so gonna die. choose 6 out of 10 short answer qn and 1 out of 3 essay. i din study finish the last chapter lorhs then it's like for the short ans i was forced to ans the first 6 question cos i've totally no idea wat the last 4 was asking about! haha. then for the essay i totally crapped my answer out lorhs im like so gonna die ><

hias my right eyelid keepsjumping. i've asked ard eve and regina said cos i lack of sleep haha i tink so too. but can't sleep yet still have to do japan and spore tutorial.

newae went for 1st expedition log comm meeting just now. wa liao pls larhs it was so embarassing lorhs. we were supposed to meet at a4. for those who dunno 1st and 4th floors are for guys. 2nd and 3rd floors are for gals. ok newae so 1stly it was weird for me to be waiting on tt level alone larhs. our comm supposed to have 4 pple. me 2 other guys and the head. the 2 guys were like damn late lorhs ): it was so embarrassing waiting alone so i went to look for the head. for goodness sake he was still sleeping :l i knocked on his door to wake him up and we spent some awkward moments tgt waiting for the 2 guys to come. cos he had nth to say and i had nth to say also.

i was about to burst with impatient when the 2 guys finally came. after scolding a string of fucks at them the head told us we can go liaos cos he just want to see our faces. waha thanks lorhs.

i miss my maldives trip log comm so much ):

looking for my way @ 2148hrs
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.oO 260905.mon Oo.

[feeling: still sianz]

haha really enjoyed myself with terra 6th today. (: we went out to celebrate big fat haogen's bdae [23rd sept]. before that i met eunice to pass her some notes haha really miss her so much! hehs. (: so happy to see her.

we went waruku a jap restaurant at marina square for lunch. (: haha the food there is not bad only larhs but the ambiece and service is damn good. (: and the lunch set the gals ate was not very ex lo $12 haha. (: the guys alwiz order very exotic things haha. fuqiang's order was so damn big and haogen kept commentting he's was damn small compared to his. hehs.

after tt we went andersen's ice cream for family fondue (: haha so nice! i love chocolate fondues. yummy! haha but then of course it's damn fattening hehs :p really miss them a lot so long nv see them already. just sitting around talking crapping joking around with them and being able to suan them esp big fat haogen is just simply so fun. (: haha. those times in nj when we went thru those damn stressful yet fun times brings nostalgia. hehs.

we went suntec arcade to play bishi bashi haha tink it's our favourite game tgt. (: we got reminded of big fat haogen dancing para para the last time we played tgt at ps haha. then we played panic park and teo kept screaming her head off pls larhs so embarassing everyone was staring at her lorhs >< haha. linx had to go liaos cos her one sick she had to go visit him. after she went off haogen and fuq played some shooting game and me and teo tumbled to our favourite drums! haha. haogen came to join us halfway pls larhs it's his first time playing he's like damn good larhs haha. (: stoopid haogen realised he's like damn good with arcade games! haha.

following that was adidas and nike shop. haha at adidas haogen asked us whether a pair of shoes were nice. both me and hl said it's not nice and sad to say tt's the pair of shoes haogen bot recently :p haha well it looks quite ok on him larhs just tt it doesn't look tt nice on the shelf really. haha.

we walked teo to city link and she left while the remaining 4 of us went esplanade. we went to the shop which sells a lot of movie stuff (: haha cos haogen just moved house and he tot he's wall was bare so he wanted to buy posters to decorate his wall. haha rich kid larhs hor. (: haha then huiling wanted to take a video shot of the esplanade so we went to the bridge linking to one fullerton and we sat there for a while toking rubbish. i demanded haogen to bring us to the underground pass from one fullerton to fullerton haha.(:

he's right larhs it's so damn luxurious. such a short distance and there's a travelletor there. :p haha my first time to fullerton felt so embarassed so underdressed. we literally visited the toilet to see how nice it was cos according to haogen we can fall asleep inside. haha. fullerton is really damn nice i wonder whether i can have my wedding there next time haha. :p

last stop home. haha parted ways at raffles mrt. now im back at home hias still have essay assignment to write and tests to study for so sianz how tell me how to finish? :l

happy times alwiz pass so damn fast ><

looking for my way @ 0103hrs
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.oO 240905.sat Oo.

[feeling: bored]

hias. yesterday met tor yuan at the central lib to research for our stoopid japan and singapore essay. hias so sianz lorhs we looked through endless magazines and scrolled through i tink at least a dozen microfilms with the help of jeremy. but then we weren't able to find anything tt was the least bit useful. can u believe it? i went down to school [read: all the way from yishun to clementi] just to waste let's see near 5 hrs of my precious time. ):

hias i just hope i can faster get this essay over and done with. i really wanna start writing but there's no materials to begin with. argh! how? ):

sianz.

looking for my way @ 1238hrs
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.oO 210905.wed Oo.

[feeling: on the bright side]

waha. quite behind time cos psych is seriously taking up a hell lot of time. ): but then haha dunno leh quite hyper now cos there's this song tt makes me very happy whenever i hear it. it's pride theme song. in case u have no clue. pride is a jap drama serial starring takuya kimura! waha so cute.

i was born to love you
with every single beat of my heart
yes, i was born to take care of you
every single day

i was born to love you
with every single beat of my heart
yes, i was born to take care of you
every single day of my life

you are the one for me
i am the man for you
you were made for me
you're my ecstasy
if i was given every opportunity
i'd kill for your love

so take a chance with me
let me romance with you
i'm caught in a dream
and my dream's come true
it's so hard to believe
this is happening to me
an amazing feeling
comin' through

i was born to love you
with every single beat of my heart
yes, i was born to take care of you
every single day of my life

i wanna love you
i love every little thing about you
i wanna love you, love you, love you
born to love you
born to love you
yes i was born to love you
born to love you
born to love you
every single day of my life

an amazing feeling
coming through

i was born to love you
with every single beat of my heart
yes, i was born to take care of you
every single day of my life

yes I was born to love you
every single day of my life

go, i love you babe
yes i was born to love you
i wanna love you, love you, love you
i wanna love you
i get so lonely, lonely, lonely
yeah, i want to love you
yeah, give it to me

i was born to love you - queen

looking for my way @ 0946hrs
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.oO 190905.mon Oo.

[feeling: unaccomplished]

have been trying to study my psych t/b today but im advancing very slowly. hias so sianz. another day of the extremely short mid term break is almost over and i've not accomplished much. help. maybe i should consider studying with someone so that he/she can keep me awake! waha. (:

but who?

looking for my way @ 1922hrs
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.oO 170905.sat Oo.

[feeling: a bit of both positive and negative]

hmm waha early morning [read 0030hrs] we had our 1st eusoff expedition meeting (: waha. well im in log comm. haha din get to see all my sub comm mbm yesterday though but i've a very bad feeling im the only gal in waha (: hmm. really happy i got into the expedition cos i've alwiz tink tt helping ppl is a really happy thing. and furthermore my maldives cip trip in jc yr one was great! really hope this one will be nice too! (:

i guess whether it's nice depends a lot on who's going with u. hmm i haven't really got to noe everyone yet. but first impression is that everyone seems easy to get along with.. (: hehs. yay really hope everything will turn out great!

come october we'll be having lots of fund raising events. hehs. (: hope tt we'll be able to reach our target waha. there'll be the eusoff bazaar and also movie screening [goal!] haha.

eh later going down to tamp home. for those who still dunno tt's my cca. haha im in community service club and im under tamp home. im part of the sub comm along with 4 other gals seejia nagoor lora boon song haha and our head is terrence - the only guy. haha (: ok actually boon song is a guy of course but we choose to treat him as our sister (: cos he acts and behaves like one. haha.

hmm. 2 of the residents are suspected to be down with dengue fever and they are hospitalised. ): seejia is oso sick leh im really worried about her. she got 39 degress celcius fever today and can't go for the bangkok trip in the end. jia dun be sad larhs k? (: take this chance to really have a good rest ok? (: and u still got me over here in singapore im sure tt's more than enuf to make u feel good! (: haha okie have to go le. (:

looking for my way @ 1321hrs
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.oO 160905.fri Oo.

[feeling: melancholy]

just finished watching the course video salaam bombay for south asian studies. the prof showed a bit of it during the lecture and i tot it was quite interesting so i decided to finish watching the whole thing. it's a feature film on the children in bombay. how they are put through child labour and child trafficking.

they have totally no rights at all and they have to roam the streets looking for jobs. they work damn hard and are only paid a very meagre sum of money. ): the story is about this boy who has no family and he roams the street of bombay trying to earn enough money to return home. however it's virtually impossible for him to return home cos he earns so little everyday and he is being cheated of money by his boss and his fren. ):

i dunno how to describe my feelings now. im overwhelmed with sadness. of cos not all the children over in south asia is suffering but there are children over there who are. over here in singapore i just feel that we are so lucky to be able to go to school to have a family who loves us food to eat and a shelter to stay under. somehow the government over there just isn't doing anything to help these poor children. cos there are simply just too many of them and it's really quite impossible to be able to find an authentic source of income for them. according to the prof.

overwhelmed with sadness now. i just hope tt these children will be strong and tt they will be able to find their happiness. isn't it sad tt there's nth we can do for them at all?

and they are not the only one who are suffering over in india. there are many poor families roaming the streets because they dun haf a permanent home. and women over there are still considered inferior and treated like some slaves. there's still the caste system in which the untouchables are discriminated against. there is absolutely near no human rights for them at all.

i din noe about all these before i took up this module. at least i din noe it was so serious. ): god if u are listening pls bless all these people. pls let them find their happiness soon..

looking for my way @ 1408hrs
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.oO 160905.fri Oo.

[feeling: much better]

waha wanted to blog about c block initation night (:

waha it just simply means ragging from the seniors larhs waha (: hmm. it started out with a "talent show" in which all freshies have to perform sth they tink the seniors can't do. waha cos too many people dunno wat to do then in the end it became name the seniors session. basically it's just to see whether we could name the seniors. ): sad to say i couldn't do it then the forfeit was to drink bittergourd juice. >< yucks can u imagine how disgusting it tasted? no! cos u must taste it to noe how yucky it is!

haha next we were blindfolded and firstly they led us to the toilet. we entered in pairs [i went in with lay hoon] and had to duckwalk around ): waha. then they let us face each other put our hands in mayo and asked us to draw turtles on each other. waha dunno how come i won and they took my hand and shoke talcum powder all over lay hoon.

after that we were led to a chair. it's either u asked the seniors a riddle or they asked u a riddle. if u get the answer to their riddle or if they aren't able to answer ur riddle or if they tink their answer is very good, u wun get the forfeit. but then actually right no matter wat happened. there were already someone with a pile of water waiting behind u to pour water all over u. waha. (: so bad right?

lastly it was supper waha dunno how they did it but they prepared a lot of food! waha it's really a lot of food larhs (: and very yummy oso. but i din really eat much larhs waha. hmm. finally leh feel like im more part of the family now.

and i got into eusoff expedition. it's a cip trip to cambodia larhs waha (: so cool. then now we have to start by raising funds first i tink. waha. hopefully through this project i'll be able to get to know more people and feel more attached. (: i mean actually if i were to choose to live in a hall again i'll choose eusoff no matter how many times over. (: waha.

yay eusoff rox! (: c block rules!

looking for my way @ 0117hrs
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.oO 150905.thu Oo.

[feeling: heart broken]

tt time i read on newspaper. some women tink tt being able to love only once in their lives and stick through with tt one and only love for their entire life is a kind of blissfulness. to them it means tt they have lived their lives meaningfully and they tink tt they are the luckiest women on earth.

however in fact they are just being disillusional. cos to make this come true they have to bear with all the pain and all the heart breaking moments with this one guy. no matter how bad how sad how shitty the relationship is. they'll tink it's ok to stick thru. they tink it's all worthwhile.

sad to say i believe im this kind of silly woman. but for you i dun mind being a silly woman. ):

i really dun mind at all.

looking for my way @ 2308hrs
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.oO 140905.wed Oo.

[feeling: tired]

haha just now played badminton for ifg [inter-faculty games]. waha i was like the lousiest player there larhs. dunno why leh maybe cos i was too nervous it's like most of my serves did not cross the net! mer so sad haha. i was playing women singles with lay pheng as my partner. she's quite good a player really haha. (: all my fault leh i feel waha. the score was pathetic.

newae dunno whether it's my technique or wat i alwiz can't manage to hit the shuttlecock across the stoopid net. either tt or it'll just pass the net only. ): mer. tink badminton is really very fun but i seriously can't make it larhs ): mer mer mer. haha next time got time shall go down and play more often! (: waha.

i like hanging out with lay pheng and jing jun they all haha. reminds me of those arts camp days waha when we were all still playing around. (: they alwiz give me a very relaxed feeling haha. quite bad influence arhs haha but then dunno leh just enjoy being with them (: haha.

newae later in the day got recruitment drive for sub comm members (: haha well shall drag someone to go down with me to see see look look(: maybe i'll sign up for charity cell bah. really wanna do sth for arts club but then dunno whether it'll be too heavy leh =P haha.

ok larhs shall just take one step at a time (:

looking for my way @ 0251hrs
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.oO 120905.mon Oo.

[feeling: still pain]

hmm. dunno how come so coincidental the dj on 933 talking abt love problems. hmm. she was saying just cry all u want and then after tt forget everything.

sadly to say it's not tt easy.

not at all.

and she was saying we must still treasure the friends around us and not like have a stead le then neglect them. i tink tt tt is so true. cos when there's trouble in ur relationship it's alwiz ur frens ard u supporting u and bringing u thru the difficult period. and i really must thank all my wonderful frens who are there for me when i need them. so sorry nowadays really very busy i may not have the time and energy to talk much to you all to keep in touch. but i really would like to thank all those who are concerned about me. who make it a point to come and visit my blog once in a while to see what's become of me.

thanks so much. my life would not be half of wat it is today if not for all of u all (:

looking for my way @ 2017hrs
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.oO 120905.mon Oo.

[feeling: pain]

somehow i really feel that you and me aren't as close as before anymore. you say you r tired from army stuff and therefore nv really call me nowadays. tt's ok really i understand cos when im tired i dun feel like toking to anyone oso.

but when i called you to tok to you somehow. i feel that sth is wrong. like i dun feel that you actually feel happy tt i called you. it seems like you are just receiving a call from a normal fren. or perhaps a call from a normal fren will delight you more?

i really dunno maybe im tinking to much but it really hurts me because i dunno wat's wrong and i dunno wat i can do. can you pls tell me how?

looking for my way @ 2154hrs
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.oO 120905.mon Oo.

[feeling: stressed]

haha i haven't been visiting the ivle for quite some time then suddenly got so much things there to dl! arhs! haha. and i realised that the japan and singapore forum is flourishing with comments just because the forum is counted in the ca marks. wat rubbish right. ): so fake leh everyone just go there and comment just for the sake of getting marks one le. i mean of cos i dun doubt there are pple who really ask question cos they are really in doubt. but we can't rule out those who go there and tok a lot just to get marks! haha.

so stressed leh everyone seems to noe a lot. seems to have done all their readings and stuff. i feel like im so way behind time mer. help.

looking for my way @ 2034hrs
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.oO 100905.sat Oo.

[feeling: not good again]

hmm. just now in the end still got shuying kaori and zhaoxiu joined us. (: haha. daryl performed live for us it was really beautiful. both his singing and playing (: haha. weiliang came after shuying and zhaoxiu left. haha. he's really the joker man. everytime he's around u'll bound to be in fits - from laughing haha(:

we were discussing about gays. they were saying got a lot of gays in threatre studies (: haha. the way he tok about them really very funny. i mean it's just him lorhs. most of the things he says and do is meant for entertainment (: haha.

newae sheesh there's this really acute pain on the left of my stomach now. somewhere there. i really dunno wat happened. my god it's so pain. ): but it can't be compared to the pain in my heart larhs. hias. it's really very sad that even my frens noe tt im very sad. just now it's like denise was asking me why my nick forever so sad. really thank so much for the concern denise! (:

but why does it seem like you dun give a damn about me at all?

looking for my way @ 0146hrs
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.oO 090905.fri Oo.

[feeling: happy]

at daryl's house now watching his childhood video. with him jiahui denise bianca. the rest haven't reached yet =P haha. really happy to see saada ppl again after all these while. (: don't see them around often cos diff't modules. haha (:

so hungry now hopefully can eat soon =P haha. can't wait for the rest to come (: haha.

looking for my way @ 2000hrs
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.oO 090905.fri Oo.

[feeling: accomplished]

yay finally completed my new layout. quite satisfied with it but then hmm. spent one whole morning doing it haven't study yet =P haha. okie larhs shall go study le.

newae i've decided tt im having a permanent pms now. feeling really quite down now. ): hias.

someone save me.

anyone.

looking for my way @ 1234hrs
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.oO 090905.fri Oo.

[feeling: bad]

really dunno why there's this sinking feeling in my heart. i really hope nth's wrong. ): haven't been toking to him for so long le. he's busy with his army stuff. but somehow. am i wrong to say tt i feel that we are drifting away?

i really hope i am. ):

looking for my way @ 0237hrs
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.oO 080905.thu Oo.

[feeling: not good]

dunno y in a bad mood now. ): arghs!

looking for my way @ 2337hrs
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.oO 070905.wed Oo.

[feeling: disgusted]

my god! hostel food is really getting from bad to worse. for those who dunno. it's compulsory to subscribe to food catering at nus halls. we believed they just changed caterer cos we complained tt the last caterer was bad. my god this one is hell larhs. ):

arhs. now i dread dinner everyday. breakfast is still ok larhs. not say very nice but then well still edible. but then dinner is undescribably and downrightly disgusting. i dun wish to waste food so i've to stuff the food down my throat every night. my god. feel like puking lorhs. ): arhs!

luckily jie qi got mooncake (: hehs. she cut one quarter for each of us [me regina herself geok] then haha at least got satisfying in my stomach now. mer really hope food will get better pls. else i can really just die eating the food here. my god i dun wanna die so early. i still want my honours.

):

looking for my way @ 1930hrs
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.oO 060905.tue Oo.

[feeling: hungry]

hungry for nice food
wah tonight's dinner is like damn disgusting larhs. hias. it's really the worst i've eaten in my entire life lorhs. soggy fish tough meat tasteless veg over salty tofu. eek! only the rice and the ikan bilis jie qi's mom prepared for her is nice lorhs. ><

hungry for time
hias. there's so many readings to do and i haven't done them. there's essay assignments to do which requires me to do research which i haven't done. there's my dear guitar to practise for tt i haven't touch for days. there's so many frens i wanna meet up with but i just can't find the time to do so. hias. regina is right man. if only we have like 48 hours per day. we can sleep for 10 hours and still have so much time for so many more things. but i guess if we did have 48 hrs. we being greedy human beings will still tink tt tt's not enuf. so well let's treasure the time we have and make the best use of it bah. (: but tt's so easy to say but so difficult to do. no?

hungry for love
so little time to meet up with kiwi nowadays. hias. we only meet up during weekends normally then it's like can only spend so little time tgt cos i have so much work to do. and im oso spending very little time at home. basically oso only during the weekend. really miss my parents and my little brother so much. everytime i go home now i feel so funny leh. like my room doesn't really belong to me like that. it has grown remote over these few weeks.

hias. wat's happening to me? am i living my life or is my life living me?

looking for my way @ 2245hrs
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.oO 020905.fri Oo.

[feeling: dunno]

another beautiful yet very sad song

海的思念绵延不绝 终于和天 在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远 应该也会跟幸福相见
承诺常常很像蝴蝶 美丽的飞 盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言 就像一定会来的春天
我始终带着你爱的微笑 一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角 就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠 只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好 但就是谁都替代不了
在最开始的那一秒 有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑 真心会和真心遇到

遗失的美好 - 张韶涵

looking for my way @ 1655hrs
_____it's a long long jouney_____

.oO 020905.fri Oo.

[feeling: aching in my heart]

watch project superstar on my laptop just now. haha quality a bit bad but still managed to see derrick and junyang! (: haha so happy. eh weilian won in the end. i dun tink it's much of a surprise really haha. dun really tink he sings very well i tink kelly did better than him in this time round haha. but well it's all up to the audience to decide. who's ever fan base has more money than it's a guaranteed win for tt singer. haha (:

newae last guitar lesson my teacher taught us never say goodbye by bon jovi. listening to it now it's a really sad song and tt's why there's this aching in my heart. haha. well i love sad love songs although they make me sad. haha. well maybe im just born a pessimist or sth?

as i sit in this smokey room
the night about to end
i pass my time with strangers
but this bottle's my only friend

remember when we used to park
on butler street out in the dark
remember when we lost the keys
and you lost more than that in my backseat, baby

remember how we used to talk
about busting out
we'd break their hearts
together forever

never say goodbye, never say goodbye
you and me and my old friends
hoping it would never end
say goodbye, never say goodbye
holdin' on we got to try
holdin' on to never say goodbye

remember days of skipping school
racing cars and being cool
with a six pack and the radio
we didn't need no place to go

remember at the prom that night
you and me we had a fight
but the band they played our favorite song
and I held you in my arms so strong

we danced so close
we danced so slow
and I swore I'd never let you go
together forever

never say goodbye, never say goodbye
you and me and my old friends
hoping it would never end
say goodbye, never say goodbye
holdin' on we got to try
holdin' on to never say goodbye

i guess you'd say we used to talk
about busting out
we'd break their hearts
together forever

never say goodbye, never say goodbye
you and me and my old friends
hoping it would never end
say goodbye, never say goodbye
holdin' on we got to try
holdin' on to never say goodbye

never say goodbye - bon jovi

such a beautiful song. with a very nice guitar solo near the end. (: how i long to hear you play again.

looking for my way @ 0222hrs
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huizhen
janice lee
jelvin
jingyi
kangchiat
linx
lydia
maldive
mayi
oac clique
peihong
peiling
peishan[oac]
pingyu
ranjay
rosli
sara
seejia
seeman
serene ang
shiwen
squadmates
teo
wei
weimin
yishan
yongxin
yuanie
yuwen
zhuren/minghui
victor
zhaoxiu
ziming
.oooOOooo.

.oO looking back Oo.
chpt 01 & 02 are gone

chpt 03: i+find+bliss+in+ignorance

chpt 04: .::numb r my feelings::.
+March & April 2002
+May 2002

chpt 05: it'sNotEasyToBeMe
+June 2002
+July 2002
+August 2002
+September 2002
+October 2002
+there's no November 2002
+December 2002

chpt 06: p|@cE.4.miE.heAd
+January 2003
+February 2003

chpt 07: uPs]dE_d0Wn_wOR|d
+March 2003
+April 2003
+May 2003
+there's no june 2003

chpt 08: ho|d 0n to mY h@nDs
+July 2003
+August 2003
+September 2003
+October 2003

chpt 09: why did you let go
+November 2003
+December 2003

My 2003

chpt 10: thistimeround[no regrets]
+January 2004
+February 2004
+there's no march 2004
+April 2004
+May 2004
+June 2004

chpt 11: run! run! run!
+July 2004
+August - September 2004
+October - November 2004
+there's no December 2004 and January 2005

chpt 12: anti*cipation
+February 2005
+March 2005
+April 2005
+May 2005
+June 2005
+July 2005
+August 2005

chpt 13: .oO lOSt Oo.