one year n 7+ mths have passed since i became an NJCian. haha. so many things have happened yarhs. well. being a hse rep cost me a subject. (: haha. dun ask me whether it's worth it or not. haha. i really dunno. all i've to say is that i do not regret joining hse! (: yep.

well well. now im in on the last lap of my jc life. haha. i really must run hard. work hard now. i can't give up now. i dun wanna let myself down at this critical time.

hehs. reading one piece makes me very happy. haha. cos it's very funny. n at the same time oso very touching. i realised that manga alwiz have some hidden meaning behind the fun n laughter it provides. it teaches us something. haha. one piece teaches me to work hard for the things that i want. just like the different main characters in one piece. they come tgt. (luffy-pirate king) holding diff't dreams in their hearts.(zoro-best swordman) hoping to achieve their dreams on the voyage to find one piece.(nami-world map) they perserve on n hold on tight to their beliefs.(sanji-all blue) n tt's how i believe they'll succeed in finding one piece.(usopp-brave seamen) (: n also succeed in fulfilling their dreams.(chopper-cure-all medicine)

one piece reminds me to strive for wat i want n not to give up halfway. just cos the road is tough. or just cos im tired. i've already let myself down once. im not going to do it again.

i've to score 3As n i hope at least a B for my GP. haha. (:

jiayou orhs!(:

[feeling: restless]

haha. feeling quite hyper now. cos tml's the last day of this race~ (: haha. there's so many things i wanna do after As. haha. i shall make a list and then post it online. not now tho. haha. me will go off soon to study my biology for the last time! (: haha.

newae. yesterday kiwi pass me a webcam! (: haha. really hope i'll have the money to pay him soon. dun really want him to pay for me larhs. it's really quite bad to ask him to buy everything for me. hehs. newae. he oso have the same webcam! haha. then we can play with it tgt. when i tink of him can ask him to go online. (: hehs. but that is if he's at home larhs. if he's in camp then cannot le. and sad to say tt's like most of the time. haha. but well it's ok larhs.

newae. i made a promise to myself tt i'll tell my parents about kiwi after As. it's so that they wun have to worry about me not doing well in my studies cos of him. not as if i've been doing very well. but it's really not cos of him. just dun want them to relate my studies with him. it'll really be quite unfair.

so now. tml'll be the last day of my battle with As le. hehs. find it really hard to open my mouth. i mean. how am i suppose to tell them? just tell them like tt meh straight in the face: "papa mama actually i've a boyfriend and i've been seeing him for more than a year liaos." hias. dunno larhs. very paiseh one leh! :P haha.

newae. haha. (: very happy eh. the standard chartered marathon person called me just now! im selected for the expo packing thing! (: hehs. really very happy cos can earn a bit of money from this. hmm. but dunno whether my classmates are going or not. really hope they are leh. else it wun be fun anymore one.. :l yep.

ok larhs. nth much to say le. hmm. after exam i'll furbish this place up! (: hehs. trying to dream up a design now. the last few designs are all quite plain. and sad to say i've only been shifting the textbox around. cos too lazy to do anything nice. :P shall try to concoct something better. haha. (:

meanwhile. i'll go study. last 10m le! (:

[feeling: *yawnz*]

damn tired now. haha. dunno why le. nv really study much today. hehs. =P feel quite bad cos the others have econs. but i dun. haha.

newae. math was a killer today. :l hias. really hope tt i'll still be able to get my 3As leh! cos i really have to get into NUS. overseas is not an option. it's too expensive le! :l hias.

pray hard!

the race wears on..

[feeling: damn it disappointed]

im not angry. can't u tell. im just diappointed.

dis·ap·point·ed [adj.] Thwarted in hope, desire, or expectation.

[feeling: a tinge of worry]

im slacking too much now. after 2 papers yesterday i came home to slack. n im still in the slacking mode now. cos the next hurdle seem too far away. n there's no sense of urgency in me to start working hard again. damn im such a procrastinator. :l

just hope the race finish soon. so tt i can spend more quality time with dear bčn bčn.

[feeling: damn tired]

haha. only 3 papers down n im like damn tired liaos lorhs haha really dunno how to survive arhs~ :l haha. just went thru a torturing day today.

the torture began with the bio paper. there's so many things to write but so little time. hias. my hand nearly totally lost feeling and dropped off. it was burning hot and it induced me to write slowly so i ended up having to rush my last essay out in 20 mins. hias damn. just hope i can at least score a somewhat decent grade for this paper n hope that my next paper will be better! (:

the torture continued in the afternoon with the pure math paper. haha. tink the questions are very funny leh. hias. then i managed to do almost everything but i really have no idea whether they are actually correct. and hias. tink i left out around 24 marks already lorhs. :l hias. sians. really hope the stats paper will be able to pull my grades up! (: haha.

the race continue..

[feeling: miserable is an understatement]

totally.

i mean it totally screwed up my chem prac. kaoz. i really dunno wat got into me today lorhs. i tink i wanted to like do the whole prac faster so i din read the instructions carefully.

fuck.

forget it. shall not describe wat happened. just totally disgusted with myself. guess i'll have to work harder for the rest of the papers right. hias. :l

n the moral of the day is: "read labels n instructions carefully"

finish ranting le. shall return to my studying. tata.

[feeling: tired]

*yawnz* had a tiring day in school today. tho today only got 3 lessons. haha. sians arhs. nowadays really got a lot of things to do lorhs. :l endless worksheets piling up. hias. just like before prelims. the teachers are throwing tons n tons of revision at us.

im not saying it's not good larhs of cos. haha. they r really good practice. but then i've no time to study if i've to do all those! haha. :l sians yarhs. really hope As will be over soon. but then hias. i dread the coming of As oso. haha. how ironic yarhs. :l

newae hias. im growing fatter nowadays x( tt's so sad. i really have to start exercising more. but then hias too busy with studyig oso. then oso like no mood n no strength to do any exercise after battling with all the monstrous revision. :l hias. sians.

newae. now im really at the last 100m mark liaos. have to run very hard now! x| sorry if im gonna be absent from here for a damn long time. promise i'll revamp this place after As k? (: give it a nicer coating or sth. haha. take care peeps [those who actually bother to read. haha.]

chpt 01 & 02 are gone

chpt 03: i+find+bliss+in+ignorance

chpt 04: .::numb r my feelings::.
+March & April 2002
+May 2002

chpt 05: it'sNotEasyToBeMe
+June 2002
+July 2002
+August 2002
+September 2002
+October 2002
+there's no November 2002
+December 2002

chpt 06: p|@cE.4.miE.heAd
+January 2003
+February 2003

chpt 07: uPs]dE_d0Wn_wOR|d
+March 2003
+April 2003
+May 2003
+there's no june 2003

chpt 08: ho|d 0n to mY h@nDs
+July 2003
+August 2003
+September 2003
+October 2003

chpt 09: why did you let go
+November 2003
+December 2003

My 2003

chpt 10: thistimeround[no regrets]
+January 2004
+February 2004
+there's no march 2004
+April 2004
+May 2004
+June 2004

chpt 11: run! run! run!
+July 2004
+August - September 2004