[feeling: bored]

at first suppose to go huiz's house play mahjong. :l but then in the end we ended up at jiayan's house signing up for ntu. :l so sians. there's nth to do now. boo.

newae. i can't stand my officer now. she's such a bitch. me and huiz are planning to quit soon. but i need the money and rama and vivi will still have to suffer under her. hias so sad for them.

i hate reality.

[feeling: sad]

just showed my parents my results. my parents they dun really understand the system one larhs. they nv study in college before. newae my father said huh u take 3 sub only arhs? then he continued toking to my mom then those ppl in raffles who took 8 sub and got all As must be very clever larhs..

i din hear the rest cos i escaped to my room. dunno larhs i just feel so bad. like i can't even get a single A tho i only take 3 sub. i can sense the disappointment in his voice. :l luckily my mom said nvm la those are extra sub just take the essential can le.

still i suddenly feel so damn it useless.

like i've totally let them down. :(

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[feeling: worried]

all Bs.

chem B bio B math B gp B3

wat kind of lousy grade is this?

i tink so too.

hias. ppl in tis category. like me and xiumei. all we hope for is not 3 As or even 2As u noe? it's just 1A just to let ourselves feel better. cos 1A is better than none right? :l and if we get 1A at least we noe we've a higher chance of getting into the uni we wanna go.

damn worried now and sorry just let me rant all i want in one entry and i won't tok abt it again. i noe there are ppl who got results not as good [yarhs right it's not good at all] as mine but then there are so many more ppl who got much better results than me. :l like stoopid ming feng who got 7 distinctions.

im happy for these pple really no hard feelings at all. (:

but im really very scared now. all i want and hope for now is that i can still get into nus. hias. i wanna cry but i can't seem to cry. dunno why my tear glands refuse to respond to my prompting. i noe a lot of ppl tell me can one larhs i can definitely get in one. i just have to wait for a while cos i wun be the first few to be accepted. i dun mind waiting. :l

but im just really scared it'll be a futile wait.

how how how. im so damn fucking scared now.

[feeling: excited]

hehs. had my first electric guitar lessons just now. it's like so damn cool lorhs. my teacher mr rosli is a very nice and cool guy and he makes the lesson really very enjoyable. (: haha.

currently just learning the basics only. hopefully next time will be able to strum the guitar like some expert. haha. that'll be so cool! hehs. now im still trying to get use to all the chords. really difficult but will try my very best to master it! haha.

newae my classmates all look so expert and all of them have electric guitar at home le! haha. me meiyun and seejia look quite out of place esp me larhs! haha no music bg and no guitar at home. haha. i've to borrow from jia. :l haha. really thanks a lot jia for lending me the guitar! (: wait till i buy my own guitar i'll return u. haha.

but an electric guitar is like damn ex larhs dunno when i'll be able to buy it. hehs. nvm shall see how first.

friday is drawing near. boo. taking results. good luck everyone. hope everyone will be satisfied ya! (: hehs. for now im off to find the reason tabs. hehs. cos next lesson we playing that! haha. so cool.

chpt 01 & 02 are gone

chpt 03: i+find+bliss+in+ignorance

chpt 04: .::numb r my feelings::.
+March & April 2002
+May 2002

chpt 05: it'sNotEasyToBeMe
+June 2002
+July 2002
+August 2002
+September 2002
+October 2002
+there's no November 2002
+December 2002

chpt 06: p|@cE.4.miE.heAd
+January 2003
+February 2003

chpt 07: uPs]dE_d0Wn_wOR|d
+March 2003
+April 2003
+May 2003
+there's no june 2003

chpt 08: ho|d 0n to mY h@nDs
+July 2003
+August 2003
+September 2003
+October 2003

chpt 09: why did you let go
+November 2003
+December 2003

My 2003

chpt 10: thistimeround[no regrets]
+January 2004
+February 2004
+there's no march 2004
+April 2004
+May 2004
+June 2004

chpt 11: run! run! run!
+July 2004
+August - September 2004
+October - November 2004
+there's no December 2004

chpt 12:anti*cipation
+there's no January 2005
+February 2005