[feeling: aching]

today we went to sent seeman off at the airport. so the time has finally come for her to fly back to hk. (: she's gonna take her uni course there. really wish her all the best. tears streamed down some of our faces when she entered the departure hall. man though i haven't really been toking to her after we left st nix but i'll still miss her big time. :l hias at least last time she was still around in singapore and singapore is like so small quite easy to meet up marhs. but now haha. she's around 3 - 4 hrs plane ride away.

newae. i nv told anyone but i was really happy when u msged me on my bdae (: but today when i tried to tok to u find things to tok to u abt i realised tt it's still so hard just to strike a conversation with u. :l i wonder when it'll sink into me maybe nv. i just dun wanna give up trying. just read ur blog. i dunno if it's meant for me but sorry i din noe my apology will make u feel even more appalled.

newae really hope can go out again with squadmates soon! (: miss them so much le. today nv spend much time tgt at all.

[feeling: tired]

hey! haha i din realised i've been missing in action here for so long le. :l mer so sorry to those who alwiz come here but see nth updated. newae last week i just went for the arts camp. and i really must agree with hock tt arts camp is the best man! (: haha no offence to the other faculties ppl i hope haha. but i seriously enjoyed myself thru the 5 days. and i lost my voice screaming away. haha. i guess tt's a proof of how much i enjoyed the camp (:

i've a great orienation group named saada [originated from the name sadako haha.] well ogl is weiliang aogl is bianca coucillors include mayi [haha yarhs now i noe another person called mayi so funny haha.] carol giang denise phyllis dyana members got me zhaoxiu zhenying shuying kaori peihong kay daryl jiahui wes. yep. 18 ppl altogether in this fun and superb group! (: haha. i really miss this ppl a lot man. cos we spent almost all our time tgt from mon to fri then suddenly can't see them anymore leh. mer haha. really looking forward to 4th jul! we'll be having an og outing haha(:

newae im so not looking forward to going back to work after i've played so much. haha. :l but i still do feel bad cos poor weimin is slogging away alone. mer i hope the others got help her while im away. haha. i miss my workplace frens too. haha. (: nvm still can see them for almost everyday for the next 1 mth. haha.

hmm i just applied for nus hostel. eusoff as no 1 choice. hehs really hope i can get it. (: wanna at least experience one sem of living in a hall. haha. well i haven't decided wat cca i wanna join haha. shall see how larhs. newae haha next month there'll be lotsa things to settle. medical checkup matriculation o-week haha. so many stuff. (: so exciting. hehs.

i love ARTS! (:

[feeling: mixed]

happy - mon was my bdae hehs and i feel that im really very lucky to be surrounded by so many good friends who cares about me. (: was flooded with many msgs wishing me happy bdae and im really touched that all of them remembered my bdae. and im really grateful for all the presents and well wishes i got from them as well (: hehs. thank you so much ppl! love ya all hehs.

tinge of regret and sad - hmm i've to say this. time really passes very fast. 2005 is already into its second half and i realised i've not accomplished much this year at all. and im already 19 this year. can u imagine next year i'll be 20 already. man 20 sounds so old. it starts with a '2'. i'll no longer be a teen anymore haha. sounds quite scary. to tell the truth i really dun dare to look into the future. i dun dare to step into the adult world cos that is definitely not a nice place to be in. lots and lots of responsibility. :l help.

tired - these few weeks have been doing ot till very late. haha nowadays better larhs at least not so late anymore but then dunno why leh i still feel very tired. and somemore weekend i still have to go kayaking and have to practise my guitar somemore. haha. tink i really have to try my best to complete 3 stars before school starts else i really dunno how im gonna manage. haha. newae there're lots of upcoming camps hias. dunno whether to go for them or not leh. it's like hias have to take a lot of leave dunno whether they'll allow or not? hehs. i'll try my luck bah haha. :p

ok tt's abt all for now. well thanks again to those who remembered my bdae hehs. (:

chpt 01 & 02 are gone

chpt 03: i+find+bliss+in+ignorance

chpt 04: .::numb r my feelings::.
+March & April 2002
+May 2002

chpt 05: it'sNotEasyToBeMe
+June 2002
+July 2002
+August 2002
+September 2002
+October 2002
+there's no November 2002
+December 2002

chpt 06: p|@cE.4.miE.heAd
+January 2003
+February 2003

chpt 07: uPs]dE_d0Wn_wOR|d
+March 2003
+April 2003
+May 2003
+there's no june 2003

chpt 08: ho|d 0n to mY h@nDs
+July 2003
+August 2003
+September 2003
+October 2003

chpt 09: why did you let go
+November 2003
+December 2003

My 2003

chpt 10: thistimeround[no regrets]
+January 2004
+February 2004
+there's no march 2004
+April 2004
+May 2004
+June 2004

chpt 11: run! run! run!
+July 2004
+August - September 2004
+October - November 2004
+there's no December 2004

chpt 12:anti*cipation
+there's no January 2005
+February 2005 +February 2005 +February 2005