one year n 7+ mths have passed since i became an NJCian. haha. so many things have happened yarhs. well. being a hse rep cost me a subject. (: haha. dun ask me whether it's worth it or not. haha. i really dunno. all i've to say is that i do not regret joining hse! (: yep.

well well. now im in on the last lap of my jc life. haha. i really must run hard. work hard now. i can't give up now. i dun wanna let myself down at this critical time.

hehs. reading one piece makes me very happy. haha. cos it's very funny. n at the same time oso very touching. i realised that manga alwiz have some hidden meaning behind the fun n laughter it provides. it teaches us something. haha. one piece teaches me to work hard for the things that i want. just like the different main characters in one piece. they come tgt. (luffy-pirate king) holding diff't dreams in their hearts.(zoro-best swordman) hoping to achieve their dreams on the voyage to find one piece.(nami-world map) they perserve on n hold on tight to their beliefs.(sanji-all blue) n tt's how i believe they'll succeed in finding one piece.(usopp-brave seamen) (: n also succeed in fulfilling their dreams.(chopper-cure-all medicine)

one piece reminds me to strive for wat i want n not to give up halfway. just cos the road is tough. or just cos im tired. i've already let myself down once. im not going to do it again.

i've to score 3As n i hope at least a B for my GP. haha. (:

jiayou orhs!(:

[feelin: lost]

damn it!

dunno larhs. life hasn't exactly been very good nowadays. :l hias.

i missed the aj concert n i know i've let down shiming xiumin n seeman cos they did invite me to go but i failed to turn up all thanks to the stopid bio consolidation which i attended but was having a terrible headache from the bio mock pratical i was doing just minutes before that n i wasn't paying much attention at all.

im going to miss the hc fair today because i signed up for the stopid career talk not knowing that it was on the same day n i ended up making jia angry cos she gave up for the same talk just so she can go to the hc fair with us.

there r piles n piles of homework to do n there's a chem theory pratical test on monday tt i haven't studied for n later cos im going for the stopid talk it's another day wasted n i'll end up with no time to study again. the teachers just throw tons of work on us but they do not bother to go through them with us at all esp for biology n i really dun see the point of doing those freaking pieces of work if they dun even look through them at all.

n the worst is i can't get to see kiwi very often nowadays n i feel so bad cos he has to give in to my study schedule n in the next few months the situation will just get worse as my time runs up n i'll have less time to spend with him. :l

damn it.

life freaking sux now.

[feelin: qt stressed]

haha seriously actually today i really have no time to blog cos like tml there's so many things to hand in there's bio regulation n control revision n there's also the photosynthesis one then i need to finish complex no remedial work oso. arhs. haha. but i promised ranjay i'll come n blog. haha. cos he say my blog is dead so im suppose to be here to prove to him that im not not free n im here to blog. haha.

n i oso promised jiayan i'll blog. haha. to tell everyone about the stopid thing that she did. :l today we were eating in the canteen then i dunno wat tt idiot did larhs her prawn tail flew across the table n landed onto my plate. :l haha. tt stoopid idiot really trust her to do such things.

haha. i love my class really esp my clique haha there's huizhen ranjay jiayan zhuren shaopin. (: hehs. n eunice oso. yep. (: thanks for all the wonderful time u've given to me. my 2 yrs in this grey boring skool will nv be as colourful if not for u all. haha.

yarhs n not forgetting buddies from both my cca house n oac. (: haha. dunno wat to say larhs no words can really express my haha thanks? haha sorry bad bad english.. :l

ok needa go study liaos... :l

p/s: dear i miss u :l

[feelin: a bit better]

hope tml will be much better. some test reasults..

A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven
albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality.
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.

Your Personality type is the only type that would
like this cool online gothic Game:

www.life-blood.vze.com

What kind of girl are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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[feelin: not very happy]

dun ask me why im not very happy. i dun really wanna tok about it.

newae found this on jia's page. very cute leh! (: haha. cheer me up a little..

Ippon Seoi Nage, Morote Seoi Nage, Drop-Knee Seoi
Nage.
With your size and level of training, you
should be working on Seoi Nage. The shoulder
throw will allow you to slip under taller
opponents with ease, taking them by surprise as
you suddenly disappear and throw them.
Remember that speed and timing are key with
this throw.

What Judo Throw Should You Be Using?
brought to you by Quizilla

hehs. me dunno anything about judo.. anyhow do the quiz. seejia is this very difficult to perform one? u teach me can? then i can perform on u. haha. (:

newae for your info im feeling much better n should be returning to school on monday. eh. dun worry tink the doctor made a mistake im not having chickenpox. phew. BUT. haha. dunno larhs. will go visit the doctor again on monday confirm with her wat i may have. haha. ok meanwhile while im still alive n kicking pls appreciate me.

dun wait till it's too late. u dunno now i may be here but the next moment i may be

gone.

[feelin: terrible]

god i feel really terrible. yesterday dunno how come suddenly temp shot up to 39 degrees Celcius. damn. :l then very dizzy and got headache. so today nv go to school.

went to see doctor liaos. the doctor said she can't be sure. she say most prob is chicken pox. cos she can see little bubbles on my skin. :l either that it's dengue fever. arhs. i dunno which one is better dun ask me i tink both oso very serious. :l arhs. why do i have to kenna chicken pox now. during my A levels year. arhs. still remember when i was young i prayed n hope i'll only kenna chicken pox in those un-impt years in which there's no major exams. just great.

if it's really chicken pox. :l god i'll have so much to catch up with. arhs. sianz.

newae thanks ppl for your concern me very touched. hehs. esp from dear haha. u all no need to worry too much about me larhs k?

i will survive. (:

[feeling: dunno why not very good]

eek. the fishes my dad was keeping all died. yucks. really disgust me out. the sight of the fishes overturned. stomach facing upwards. :l yucks.

tmr got oac camp eh. hehs. no larhs it's not because of that that im not feeling happy. really. it's my last camp liaos hehs. really plan to just enjoy myself. haha. yarhs yarhs i noe it's a training camp. opps. hehs. (:

eh. haven pack my bag yet sian. :l hias. maybe im really sian cos i wun be able to see him for another week eh. :l boo. then can sense that he's also not very happy. hmm. sorry larhs dear. hias. after i step down then wun have so many things liaos.. (: hehs. then after 'A's liaos will really be free then can pei u liaos.. hehs. hope u wun be unhappy.. just a few more weeks before i step down..

*hugs*

chpt 01 & 02 are gone

chpt 03: i+find+bliss+in+ignorance

chpt 04: .::numb r my feelings::.
+March & April 2002
+May 2002

chpt 05: it'sNotEasyToBeMe
+June 2002
+July 2002
+August 2002
+September 2002
+October 2002
+there's no November 2002
+December 2002

chpt 06: p|@cE.4.miE.heAd
+January 2003
+February 2003

chpt 07: uPs]dE_d0Wn_wOR|d
+March 2003
+April 2003
+May 2003
+there's no june 2003

chpt 08: ho|d 0n to mY h@nDs
+July 2003
+August 2003
+September 2003
+October 2003

chpt 09: why did you let go
+November 2003
+December 2003

My 2003

chpt 10: thistimeround[no regrets]

chpt 11: run! run! run!