go try this out n see who u r!

hey hey. today's thurs again. i always get very excited on thurs cos got music station! eh. at first still got nice jap show n amazing race. now dun haf liaos!

hmm. today's shuying's bdae so suppose to go out later. hehs. can see s/m again. hope we'll enjoy it later. hias.

oh. i realised i nv mention abt the class outing. hmm. it's qt fun larhs. esp when we got together n played the games. :) yep. really gonna miss everyone like mad. boohoo. hope to see everyone soon. perhaps we can have a class outing like real soon next year!

ok. end here.

happY xMas everyone!

well. tml was the end of my sqd chalet. really had fun. :) tho there was actually nth much to do there. totally like 'watch' our time away again. like last year.

well. this year we watched mvp. ha. real nice! :) i noe some pple just hate it so much. they tink it's boring. n i noe tt some parts they actually copied some korean show (hey cher/huey! they copied my sassy girl. u noe the part when the girl went up the train n the guy came down. yarhs. tt part! but in mvp it's a bus.) but nvm. it's still damn nice n touching.

hehs. this year got lotsa xmas cards:) thanx to all who bothered to send me one. :)

well. it's one day nearer to skool reopen. 8 days more to be exact (including today) hias. really hope everybody will enjoy their new school. i doubt i'll tho. i just like checked the stoopid page of nj n i tink they dun offer 'bio chem econ cmath' as a combi. sux lorhs.

well. hope i saw wrongly. any kind sole can pls help me check again. arigatou.

ok. haPPy xMas!

im going NJ!

sad.sad.sad.

i wanna go hc! *sobs* but.

but. nvm larhs. at least got humunk n xinyi going there. at least got frens. hias. dunno whether i would still wanna go hc after the first 3 mths.

dun even noe whether i can get in! oh no.

another sad thing is i can't go for the xmas party at yishan's house. so sad. cos i got chalet on tt day. *sobs*

double sadness.

im going NJ!:(

another boring day half wasted. i tried to tidy my room today. hmm. cleared my supposedly study table (cos it's so damn it cluttered with rubbish i couldn't even put a book on it properly). tml i'll clear the other table (this table i requested in my room so i can use it as a study table but in the end it too got so clogged up with rubbish i gave up). at least i'll try clearing.

in a very funny mood now. like blank blank one. dunno wat to do. dunno wat to say. have this empty feeling in my heart. i dunno y oso. feeling slightly negative now. hias. i really dunno y.

hmm. recently found this BAnD bôa. not tt girl boa. yep. really nice band. discovered it cos it sang the theme song for the anime lain. lain is confusing at first but it's really nice. :) shld watch.

duvet is the theme song. it's damn nice! must listen to it k. :) Jasmine Rodgers is the lead singer.

Duvet
Lyrics by Jasmine Rodgers
Music by bôa

ok. end here.

[yesterday]

me n my family (or is it my family n i? i can nv get it. hias. tt's me. bad command of eng.) went to jack's place for lunch. eh d: the food is so ek. perhaps i chose the wrong meal. n we had to wait so damn long for it lorhs. hias.

but i was pretty happy cause this is our first family outing in dunno how many years! since p6 i tink we haven't been going out together at all. hias. so happy!

[today]

nth much. my uncle got the comp working. he said act there's nth much wrong. but i dun really understand why he just click here click there n he's online n i can't do it. i mean i really tried so many times!

hias. i really wanna read the books by philip pullman. i tell u all it's damn nice lorhs! it totally captures my attention. i spend 2 days reading the whole book n yarhs finished it. i mean u all noe how slow i read n tt book is thick lorhs. so u all shld be proud of me. n be convinced tt the book is tt good. the only other book that can capture me like tt is harry potter. n if u consider comics as books(which of cos they r) then them too. yarhs. so. my conclusion is just go n read the golden compass(or another name is 'northern lights') yarhs. hmm. but i warn u first larhs. it's sorta like a kinda trilogy n shilin says it suppose to have 5 books. it's still running. but trust me. it's worth the waiting n everything. im sure u can find it at the library cos i've seen it there before.

yep. ok. tt's all. hmm. i'll go dream abt my malfoy now. :) ha. n look forward to wed.

hmm. well. grad was on the 28th Nov. can't believe tt time passes so fast. [i've been saying this for the whole year.] eleven months has been wasted. 30 days to 2003. to a new school. a new environment.

hmm. cher u told me to try. i did. n well i was rejected. how do i put it? i mean. im not good at words. hias. she can't even grant me a photo on our grad nite. i tink. perhaps. i'll just let it go.

reluctantly of course.

i'll just let it go for a while. leave her alone for a while. hmm. until the next time we meet. i mean not recent time. maybe like when we meet a few years down the road. she would be able to forgive me at last.

so. for the time being goodbye. all the memories tt i've of u i'll keep. deep in my heart. until the time when u can accept me again. as ur fren.

i've learnt not to cry. i'll nv cry over this again. it really doesn't matter in the end. cos even if im crying blood she wun come back. so.

sayonara.