[yesterday]

woo. we were all celebrating teachers' day. :) went ard giving presents to my beloved teachers. tt's crap larhs. i tink everybody did that. aiyo. shO many pple came back. i wanna come back next year oso.

ehh. yesterday after celebration went out to eat lunch with shuying, buddie, weiting n jingyi. hmm. really did enjoy myself. after shuying went off. the four of us went to popular [jubilee] to. hee. read books. we just sat on the floor and read and read and read. aiyo. carn believe nobody came n chase us out.

then we went long john. sat there. eat n crap a lot of things. mostly i think. near the end. about our ambition. hmm. i really dunno wat i wanna be when i grow up. for now. i wanna be a doctor/someone working in the SAF[hopely not administering side/or worse: cooking?!/definitely not cleaning] hias. dunno larhs. let me work hard for o first lorhs. :)

ha. then we went to a nearby playgrd to play. very childish? but who dun like to swing? crazy lorhs. they were swinging n shouting wat they wanna achieve in their life.

then buddie n weiting went to climb tt stoopid thing. dunno wat it's called larhs. newae. i din dare to climb wat. got phobia of height. :p in the end they forced me to climb.. ok larhs. maybe not force? then all of them helped me up lorhs. lalala. felt quite useless. carn even climb a single thing like tt. when im already in sec 4. a li'l girl was climbing beside us lorhs. she climbed all the way to the top n down. hias. unlike me who dun even dare climb the lower steps. zhen1 shi4 shi1 bai4.

newae. qt happy. @ least she got tok to me larhs. a bit? maybe. i dunno how to put it larhs. newae. i noe i really still care a lot about her. the only reason y i ignore her when i see her is cos i dun wanna be the one who is ignored. it's devastating. to get ignored by someone whom i love so much. ok. i noe it's a selfish way. tt's y i wun do it liaos larhs.

or at least i'll try my best. i mean. i really do care abt her. maybe it's my pride getting in the way. i shld. put it down. i dunno when's the correct time to. [i tink there's no correct/wrong time act. everyday is an opportunity.] newae. i tink i'll try getting to her. at least i'll feel better cos i noe im doing sth. :)

gambate!

came frm my gbk. ok. i've decided to take lotsatoothie advice. since i dunno like wat she's doing to me. y must i do wat she's doing to me to her n make myself seem like a big bad wolf?

ha. finally. ive found the ans.

maybe ive alwiz had it. jus tt i jus carn stand being sho sad at the end of the day. hias. nvm. tt's in the past.

yes. it's definitely.

in the past~

[yesterday]

went serene's house. oh no. carn stand her. room forever sho neat. n clean. n nice. ricky was very scary. but very cute oso. am sho glad she's ok n is going to skool on Mon. oh God. pls continue to bless her. thAnk you.

dun ask me y. i oso dunno y i acted sho strangily. in front of her. aRH! i really din mean it. i swear. i din mean to ignore her. but. but.

i dunno. i really dunno y i did wat i did. arh. tink it's because. i was thinking since everytime we see each other. then she'll start to 'turn cold' first. then i might as well be the one who start it. was tt wat i was tinking? i tink so. i tot by doing so then in the end at least i wun be sad abt her being cold towards me.

but. i was wrong.

obviously i still got sad. n i felt worse than ever. cos i dun even noe whether wat i tink is actually correct or not. tinking back. actually she hasn't really been very bad to me these few weeks wat. ARh. i really dunno wat im tinking larhs.

i just noe i dun wan dun wan to be the one who get hurt at the end of the day. becos. in the end. it matters.

who say it doesn't? it does.

big time

[today]

:)today is National day.

HaPPy BDaE SINgaPorE~

tink the NDP was very nice. :) esp the fireworks. sho happy i live in S'pore. i tink everybody is too. rite?

me very patriotic rite. ha. newae. today. n yesterday. totally slack man. woah. wonder wat'll happen to me next week. die.

tink that's too mild. 6 tests lehs. dun play play arh.

had a tok with Cher on the fone. wow. very enlightening leh. maybe she's rite.

i tink she's totally rite. just carn decide wat to tink. wat to feel. cos. i can no longer control.

how i tink.
n how i feel.

hias. treat it like nth's happen b4? treat her the way she treats me? like. i dunno larhs. i just getting totally sians by the whole thing.

sometimes i tink hard work doesn't pay off. ok. i noe ive done NtH much oso larhs. to save our relationship. but then. just carn stand the way she pushes me away.

nvm.

nvm.i'll try my best to forget abt it.

jus hope my tears will zheng1 qi4. n stop rolling down for no good reason.

i really hate it when my eyes' all swell up. ehh.

arh. it's august already. few more weeks to prelim. n o is drawing even nearer. even closer. die lorh. me still lazing ard. actually hor .wat leong leong said make sense wat. if we r still sho relazed now. something's really wrong.

yes. something's really wrong wif me. next week sho many tests. n i wasted another day today. i mean yesterday. arh. wat kind of sec 4 am i.

a lazy one i guess.

great. everyone. u all haf one less competitor during o. cos tis person typing tis crap here is not studying @ all. no sense of urgency @ all. still lazing ard as if she's still in sec 1. yeah man. tt's how lazy she is.

tt's how lazy i am. lala.

la.