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300405.sat~*

[feeling: accomplished]

haha very happy now. finally got my 2 stars kayaking award le! (: haha have been wanting to do 2 stars ever since i finished 1 star but only managed to do it now. hehs.

the fun-nest thing about 2 stars is the eskimo bow rescue in which we capsize and have to roll up to the surface ourselves again. (: haha. there's a technique to it larhs once u get it it's quite easy. but sad to say i can't ensure a 100% success rate everytime i do. haha. the last time i did i can't flip back up and then i had to exit the kayak. :l so embarrassing. and since it was near the end of the day le so the instructor just towed my kayak back while i hanged on to my friend's kayak and they towed me back. (: haha. very nice but very slack larhs.

newae. me shuying and serene have signed up for the 3 stars course and it's starting next week! haha very fast hor~ hmm. it'll last for 2 weekends 7th 8th 14th & 15th. haha. so fun i really can't wait to go for it! haha. (: then 4 stars and 5 stars have to take in malaysia larhs haha. cos the water in singapore not choppy and dangerous enuf. haha. well well shall see whether i've the chance to go take or not. it really seems so fun haha.

yeah. i love kayaking! (:

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280405.thu~*

[feeling: concluded]

i will put the energy into practising my guitar. (:

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240405.sun~*

[feeling: damned]

why

am i a gemini?

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200405.wed~*

[feeling: haemorrhage]

im not a perfect person
there's many things i wish i didn't do
but i continue learning
i nv meant to do those things to u
and so i have to say b4 i go

tt i just want u to noe
i found a reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

im sorry tt i hurt u
it sth i must leave with everyday
and all the pain i put u thru
i wish tt i cld take it all away
and be the one who catches all ur tears

tt's why i need u to hear
i found a reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you

im not a perfect person
i nv meant to do those things to u
and so i've to say b4 i go

tt i just want u to noe
i've found a reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

i've found a reason to show
a side of me u din noe
a reason for all tt i do
and the reason is

you.

the reason - hoobastank

after all these years. i din realise it still hurts so much.

it alwiz so easy to tell ppl to let go. but then it just so difficult. i tot i did it i really tot i did it.

i really tot i did.

i tot the tears were dried i tot the emotions were gone. but i realise u r right. u've alwiz been right.

emotions - our worst possesion.

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130405.wed~*

[feeling: amused]

haha just came back from electric guitar lessons. hehs. me not really advancing much larhs. just advancing slowly that kind lorhs haha. cos me really quite slow. and most imptly haven't buy an electric guitar yet. opps. haha yep now practising using a classic one only. eh. hopefully hopefully pray hard and cross fingers that i can get by this week larhs hor. (: haha.

newae these few days have been slacking at home and yarhs wat else watching full metal alchemist (: ahh so nice. haha. and today went to look for job with huiz. only went one place actually. haha. we feel that we kenna cheated that kind leh. cos they refuse to tell us the salary. and must like go for some orientation before we receive another interview. kao and the place is like in redhill. the person said wherever the manager goes we must follow. which means we'll have to travel around the whole island. er. well. if we are desperate enuf.. just hope that tml's newspaper will have good jobs. (: haha.

any other interesting thing happening to me? hehs no i dun tink so. i just miss him. :l haven't seen him for almost a week le bah i guess. go he went for field camp. :l

boo.

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080405.fri~*

[feeling: excited]

Best Birth Order Marriages
Only child and youngest; first-born and youngest; middle child and youngest:

Gender plays a role here as well. If you want the absolute best match, it's female only or first-born marrying a male youngest child who has older sisters. The last born with older sisters is going to be the sort of person who brings out the maternal instinct in women, and the oldest sister is likely to have great maternal urges. He would have grown up with girls who have doted on him. This is similar to the treatment he seeks in a wife, and the best place he'll find it is with an oldest sister. The match works both ways. The first-born needs someone to show her pleasures of sunsets, rainbows, and to remind her that it can be fun to let her mind wander and do something mad or different. The last-born needs someone to show him that while having fun is a wonderful thing, it takes hard work and perseverance to make those daydreams into reality.

extract from http://www.ivillage.co.uk/relationships/famfri/family/articles/0,,163_559971,00.html

haha! yeah. im a first-born female and kiwi's a male youngest child. isn't that nice? hehs. i guess sometimes it's just nice to indulge in this kind of little somethings to make us feel at ease noeing that our relationships with other ppl are going on the right track. (: hehs.

haha yes yes im easily amused.

First-borns
Positives: They are natural leaders and often high achievers. The majority of politicians, spokespersons and managing directors are first-borns. They frequently live with a sense of entitlement and even superiority. They often come in two flavours: compliant nurturers/caregivers or aggressive movers and shakers. Both are in control; they just use different methods. As a rule, first-borns are picky, precise people - they pay attention to detail - tend to be punctual, organised, and competent. They want to see things done right the first time. They don't like surprises.

Negatives: They are often moody and occasionally lack sensitivity. They can be intimidating, particularly by pushing people too hard or refusing to take no for an answer. Sometimes they can be a bit 'know-it-all', and often they are poor at delegating - largely because they don't trust other people as much as they trust themselves. They also tend to be bossy, perfectionists and overly-conscientious.

haha. sad to say i think it's quite true. esp the negative parts haha. :l

extract from http://www.ivillage.co.uk/relationships/famfri/family/articles/0,,163_559974,00.html

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[feeling: blank]

from cher's blog. tot it was quite interesting. (: haha. i've very little talent for music yarhs haha. hopefully it'll be better in the months to come as i try to perfect my guitar skills. haha.

You scored as Interpersonal. You enjoy being around people, like talking to people, have many friends, and engage in social activities. You learn best by relating, sharing, and participating in cooperative group environments. People like you include salespeople, consultants, community organizers, counselors, teachers or any other helping profession.

Interpersonal

61%

Visual/Spatial

50%

Intrapersonal

50%

Bodily/Kinesthetic

46%

Verbal/Linguistic

39%

Logical/Mathematical

36%

Musical/Rhythmic

21%

The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
created with QuizFarm.com

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080405.fri~*

[feeling: satisfied]

haha was watching anime just now. the first one is beck. haha very cute anime [actually i tink the dog in the show which is named beck is very cute larhs haha] about rock bands. (: introduced by one of my fellow guitar classmate. haha.

the second one is full metal alchemist. how should i put it leh. it's really very nice larhs haha and im totally into it now. (: haha. well im really having fun just slacking at home leh how. really can't imagine working again. just sitting in front of the comp watching anime the whole day not tinking of other things. not worrying about anything. one word.

shiok. (:

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060405.wed~*

[feeling: slack]

damn my internet explorer. i typed one whole chunk of rubbish and it was gone in a second thanks to my lovely explorer.

newae i was just saying i quitted my job at hsbc last friday cos i really can't stand that stoopid bitchy boss of mine who tinks that she's still young and pretty and flirt around with all the guys that step into our office. in reality she's old and haggard and she still goes around clubbing almost everyday and in the morning her mood is damn bad and she goes around everywhere pulling her face looking like a horse. :l she pushes everything to us to do and she'll alwiz be slacking in one corner talking on the phone with her fren planning where to go in the evening. she scolds us when there's a mistake when she's the one at fault and when in the first place she was suppose to be in charge of the stoopid thing. :l she goes for one plus hour lunch for herself and she doesn't even care whether we've taken our lunch. she just keeps pushing us non-stop treating us like some machines. like her slaves. pls larhs. she's just a little fucking bitch i really can't understand why the company hire her lorhs. :l *pukes*

newae i really miss my colleagues. rama and vivi esp. (: haha they are the nicest in my office le and they really take very good care of me and huizhen. haha. (: newae they're like the only reason why i still tink about that place. :l really very sad for them that they still have to suffer under that witch. hias. sianz. wat to do tt's reality right. we are only temp staff we can quit whenever we want. but they are perm staff and tt's like their rice bowl le. :l so sad. hias.

newae it's really nice slacking at home. watched tv the whole day yest. and i've been in front of my comp ever since i woke up today. haha. it's really nice to be able to wake up late and take my time to brush up noeing i dun have to rush for work. haha. but well i dun deny it can get boring at times. haha. therefore im looking for another job le. (: tho' not actively larhs haha just gonna call up an agency and let them find job for me. (: haha. slack.

well now really nth to do larhs just slacking waiting for posting results to come out. really hope can get into nus larhs. nowadays i nv really tink abt it le. but when i do. im still very worried. haha.

sianz. why can't life be simpler?

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