[feeling: damn touched!] ha! i've gotten back my wallet! how? cos the kind person actually bring it to my doorsteps for me! oh my. im truly touched now n very delighted. :) it's really warm to noe tt outside ur circles of frens in tt cruel n realistic society tt there r actually ppl who r still so kind-hearted. i dunno how to put my feelings into words but i really wanna thank tt person. really. oh my. from deep down in my heart. thank you! tho' i may nv get to see the person in my life again. but i really hope my heart-felt gratitude can reach him in someway or another. really. i believe in hao ren you hao bao. :) hope he'll lead a blessed life. thank you lord. for answering my prayer. thank you so much. ::1104hrs::
[feeling: totally depressed] shesh. i lost my wallet. along wif my ic n ezlink card. hias. im so damn unlucky. hias. really dun feel like blogging. no mood to do anything now. just hoping n praying tt i'll get my wallet back. ::2353hrs::
[feeling: so-so. tired.] today. i really dunno y. i dreaded going for oac. i pratically dragged myself there. but as the activity goes on for a while. i realised im still ok wif it larhs. i dunno how to describe my feelings larhs. very messy. i tink the main reason y i dun really look forward so much to oac anymore it's bcos i dun have my grp members wif me liaos. ok. not dun haf larhs. but a lot of enthu ones left liaos. only left a few of us. really very sianz larhs. hias. n this sat got activity. we'll be separated into our new grps liaos. hias. really wonder who'll be in my grp. hias. really hope tt my new grp is not bad. else. i tink i'll really lose all my enthusiatism of going down. cos actually i dun really care abt the activity lorhs. even if it's very tough. it's ok for me. as long as there're pple there im close to im ok with it. bcos now im so unsure of myself in oac. my mind is whirling again. im wondering whether i shld join hse rep or not. ha. i noe im really very indecisive. one moment i said i've already decided not to join. n the other moment i say im deciding again. hias. seriously. i dunno larhs. i need to tok to some ppl. tink i'll look for miss wong n oso my oac seniors who r oso in hse rep larhs. they r really coping very well. ok larhs. for some not exactly very well larhs. but still ok enuff i guess. so i was tinking i can @ least give it a try first. n like i said just now. i really dun mind all the commitment n stuff lorhs. i just need someone to go all out wif me. :) yep. really hope i can find tt someone soon. teo huimin says she wanna join. hopefully she means it. then i can run with her n hopefully both of us get it. ha. oh my. im tinking too far. i haven't even decided whether to run or not. ha. k. i'll tink abt it carefully. :) hope i can make up my mind soon. i hate being indecisive. ::2225hrs::
[feeling: depressed] deep down in my heart. yearning to see him. seriously i tink. it's not bad being good frens. tink. i'll give up soon. ::2220hrs::
[feeling: delighted. but still a bit lost.] hehs. today went paym dismantle the comp parts. ha. qt fun larhs. hehs. had fun toking rubbish as we work. orh. we refers to me chris kiwi alicia. yep. alicia is right lorhs. chris is so funny nowadays. ha. but i guess he's always like tt one larhs. ha. toking rubbish n everything. ha. still can't believe we got such a low enemy rate. tink it's totally wrong. ha. shld be 99% i tink. they missed out one 9. ha. well. after tt we went eat lunch. b4 tt we went up tt dunno wat shopping centre. ha. i saw a toy so cute! hehs. i love action city. they always sell this kinda cute toys. ha. it was a pig with no hands n no legs. hehs. just the face n the body. ha. soft soft one. hehs. like it a lot. newae. i spotted it when they were playing hide n seek with me. yes. being so damn childish. i already saw them walking away liaos lorhs. sorry. it's rUnning away. ha. din bother abt them. just stayed there look @ the toys. ha. but it actually reminded me of tt day when me n my classmates were @ taka. me n my classmates were hiding from this couple [ha. not couple larhs. just very good frens.] then we were going in circle. but they spotted us soon. ha. we r all so childish. hehs. newae. after tt we ate at bk. hmm. nth much happened there larhs. just ate n tok abt rubbish lorhs. ha. dunno how come it's always so fun toking to them. hehs. :) newae. later we walked to the bus stop. ha. as chris was walking on the overhead bridge. we decided to go n play pool! ha. so kiwi called chris n chris look so ha. funny. he's always so comical in his every action. ha. so stoopid. [hehs. can imagine his face as he read this.] newae. we tried to catch his attention so many times but he just refused to look over. ha. stoopid pig. newae. so we decided to go clementi to play pool. but thanks to stoopid kiwi who tot tt 75 [or is it 57 or 77. hias. short term memory.] can go clementi. we took it. but nvm larhs. @ least it goes to bukit timah [somewhere near skool]. ha. so we went there to play. then somemore better i tink. cos it's really cheap there. so spent ard 2+ hrs luffing like mad lorhs. haha. stoopid me. bump my head against the stoopid wall. until now still damn painful. esp when i press on it. just now i had much difficulties washing my hair. how am i going to sleep later? sob. pain. hias. im always so accident prone. newae. tml we planning to study together. really hope we can meet n study together. ha. then can ask kiwi all those qn i dunno. ha. :) then can see them again. i'll be very happy. just to have their company when im studying. tho' they can be really nosiy. ha. cos when we have study session. we dun really study. we keep toking. ha. :) but im qt ok larhs. im able to shut myself outta the conversation n concentrate. just hafta plug music into my ears. ha. music works wonders for me! hehs. :) which reminds me of linkin park. man. they r damn talented! ha. the best rock band on earth! [hehs. larc~en~ciel oso of cos!] hehs. :) I don't know what's worth fighting for ::1139hrs::
[yesterday*110403*fri] [feeling: lost] hehs. went out wif my class 2 days in a row. went out with eunice shiwen yewtze huijun guanfoo on thurs. then today minus eunice plus jiayan n shaopin. ha. i love my class now. no doubt it's not as fun as the prev 03s23. not Yet anyway. ha. i believe in the future we can surely be more united one larhs. the ppl in my class r all very nice actually. just tt now. there seem to be a spilt in the class bet the prev 7b n 7d ppl. hias. sure hope we can join together soon. well. hopefully the food n fun fair can bond us together. hehs. we seldom get a big event coming on our way. so. really hope we'll make use of this chance to bond! we r gonna face each other for 2 years newae. hehs. so really hope we'll all be happy wif one another. lost. im lost. i wasn't in the right mindset today. did chem prac. was suppose to add acid then i go n add water. then i kept spilling the stoopid acid on the table. hias. din get to finish the stoopid prac in the end. even calculated the mr of the stoopid acid wrongly. then whole qn wrong. whole day. i din noe wat i was tinking abt. my heart is not with me. y? i really dunno. hmm. actually. i tink i noe. im just trying to hide away from it. trying to run away from it. i seriously dun wanna tink abt it anymore. but it doesn't seem to help. cos no matter how hard i try. i can't get my brain cells not to tink abt it. hias. damn. wat's wrong wif me. newae. tok abt funnier things. gp. i got mr yee [i tink tt's his name]. ha. dunno whether he nice tcha or not. but today played this survivor game [which every other class played]. ha. suppose to tink of wat post u wanna be so as to bring abt the development of this deserted island. well. i chose to be a water provider cos w/o water we can't survive right. ha. then 1st round of voting was to vote for big n small chief. dunno y. [fortunately/unfortunately]. i was chosen as big chief. ha. wonder who voted for me. other than shiwen [cos we made a pact to vote for each other. ha.] then next round to vote for 5 to eliminate. n the next one to vote for 5 to stay on the island. ha. it's really a lame game larhs. some ppl looked qt sianz. but i had much fun luffing. thanks to this joker in class. i tink his name is yinghao. yep. ha. tink my gp class qt nice. hope we can get along well for the hmm. is it 2 years? or will we change class after 1 year. sure hope we dun. just the tot of separating really depress me. boo~ [back to today] [feeling: still lost.] later. going paym to dismantle comp parts. ha. hope i wun fall asleep dismantling the comp half way. well. not the whole of rubbish is going down later. but nvm. still look forward to it. cos still got chris kiwi n alicia mah! hehs. well. i really have to start mugging. ha. im so damn it behind. if i dun catch up now. i'll NV have to catch up liaos. so tml. hopefully the paym thing wun last until very late [actually i oso dunno wat's very late]. then i can come home n study. pls let me keep awake. slept in class again yesterday. i tink im really testing miss wong's patience. shld i really go see a doc for this? hias. it's been i tink 1 yr liaos. keep falling unconscious w/o noeing. ha. wat can the doc do for me newae? give me medicine. ha. does it really help? wat if i bcum too dependent on the stoopid medicine. well. nvm. i tink i'll just take the vitamin b pills regularly first. see whether it helps or not. hias. sure hope it does. ::1216hrs::
[feeling: not very good] Y? cos i just realise tt i got miss cross [is this the way to spell her name?] as my bio tcha. hias. pls lorhs. at first i got miss loh. fierce she may be but at least she noes how to teach lorhs. hias. sian larhs. gonna be dismissed later at 1430hrs. hias. had chem lecture just now. was totally falling asleep lorhs. ha. din get more than 4 hrs of sleep last night. hehs. hopefully tonight i'll be more disciplined. hope i'll mug. or at least be able to turn in early. later meeting rubbish at 1440hrs. hehs. can't wait. it's the only thing im looking forward to lorhs. hias. so sian. later still got lesson. im so hungry now. it's lunch break but we can only go canteen from 1210hrs onwards. yes. wat rubbish is this? ha. nvm. i'll just look forward to meeting rubbish later. :) ::1147hrs::
[feeling: mixed] first i wanna say. hehs. yest went evan's hse. ha. really very fun! ha. enjoyed myself tremendously. :) yep. hehs. i really love rubbish. im not kidding. everyone of them. ha. :) newae. toDAy skool reopen. ha. i've to wake up in 4hrs time n im still here typing away. tis is rubbish i noe. but i just feel like typing out wat i feel larhs. well. just now we were like trying to see how compatible we r to each other. ha. total rubbish larhs. except maybe for the horoscope one. well i dun deny. i really dun. tt horoscope can be really very accurate sometimes. but if u really really love the person. wld u care so much? dun tell me u start falling in love wif this person u'll go home n check ur horoscope n see if u all r compatible. if not then change target. sorry. but to me tt's qt ridiculous. nope. im not denying tt i do believe in horoscope. i do. to a certain extent. but i agree wif wat chris said. "its very stupid to let some horoscope thing affect ur real life behavious". yep. i agree with him. i mean. can't like possibly eVERyThING u do u also refer to the horoscope first right. ha. k. tt's all. im satisfied. i wanna sleep now. p/s" hope pitas work. cos nowadays i can't enter any entries. hehs. ::0047hrs::
[feeling:damn happy yet again!] hehs. today went out celebrate serene's bdae. tho' only buddie weiting serene seeman n me turned up [cos most ppl grounded @ home. hias. stoopid sars]. it was still very fun! ha. i realise i really miss them a lot. we went pastamania (j8. yes my 2nd time there this week) to eat. hehs. the cheesecake's very nice. die. i've a craving for cheesecake everywhere i go. growing fatter n fatter can't stand! ha. then later we went amk central play pool. oh. hehs. play with them more relaxing. ha. cos i dun mind embarassing myself in front of them! ha. ok larhs. it wasn't as bad as i tot. at least i got some balls in. hehs. the best i tink was being able to get a ball in when i tried the .. eh how 2 describe? nvm larhs. ha. 4get it. wasting connection time trying to find a term. ha. wat kind of blogging is this?! ha. nvm. ha. playing pool is very fun! hehs. i only realise it once in a while when i play with ppl im comfortable with. hehs. nvm. cos some ppl too expert liaos then u play wif them like. they get all the balls in liaos u still have like 5 left! ha. tt's how bad i can get. sob. hehs. newae. really hope can meet them again. hehs. soon i mean. then can go out n play pool again? ha. actually anything is ok. i just wanna go out with them. :) hehs. well. i guess frenship is really a very impt part of my life. wat lufang wrote in my book is very true! "i think you value friendship very very much, then you might forget other important things" the other impt things she was referring to is studies. ha. how true. too true. very true. extremely true. ha. well. w/o frenship right. i tink not only me but most ppl wun be able to survive. but im really very dependent on my frens. i tink. esp emotionally. yep. hias. when im down i always hope tt there's someone there for me. yep. nv will i confide in my parents cos i just tink it's too awkward. yep. i'll look for a fren to be there for me. :) hehs. so therefore i alwiz hope tt my frenship wif ppl can last forever. esp those tt r very close to me n have went thru a lot wif me. i decided not to list them out. ha. can refer to "vip in my life" under "my loves". hehs. k larhs. shall stop here today. :)
i wanna heal ::2256hrs::
[feeling:so-so]
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[yesterday*040403*fri] [feeling:damn happy again.] well. went ikea n tried. note it's tried to study with rubbish. hehs. ok larhs. thanks to kiwi i sorta. note it's sorta get the basic concept of electronic structure. yep. hehs. tink i'll really qi4 si3 ta1. ha. well. i guess it was really basic n i shld have got it larhs. ha. really have to buck up liaos larhs! after studying we went anchorpoint n queensway tried to look for sth to be our grp id. a fruitless trip. hehs. after tt we decided to foresake the place n we went habour front to have our dinner. man. im really ulu lorhs. hias. today's the 2nd time i've been to ikea n anchorpoint. 1st time i've been to queensway n habour front. ha. there's not my forte! my area is of cos the area near sn stretching from woodlands to bugis? ha. n they must be places near the train station larhs. else i oso wun noe the place. ha. wat rubbish?! chris is right [in his blog]. habour front is a nice place. quiet n everything. ha. less crowd = less sars virus ard. ha. but yarhs lorhs. no neoprint machine. i was practically sleepwalking liaos. trying to search for it. ha. the non-exsitence neoprint machine. we've been saying we want to take neoprint since dunno when! hehs. hope it can come true soon. actually we haven't really set the date to meet every month. n actually i hope we can meet more often. other than tt day we set. like wat chris said [hias. him again. dunno leh. he's the only i've discussed this topic wif so far tt's y. else i wun even wanna mention his name. ha. i can see him fuming now. ha.]. newae he said. if we have common lunch or wat we can oso meet for lunch. n can oso go out after school or wat. hehs. possible. but we'll really be very busy when school restarts. n will we really still have the commitment n everything to meet? hias. really hope tt we will. hias. i tink nowadays every entry i always say the same thing. hehs. cos i tink it's wat im really wishing for now. [rubbish] actually the dreamcatcher is only a material thing. if u all really wanna fulfill my wish for me. fulfill the newest one i just added. :) thanks in advance. sorry. it shld be u r welcome. ::1037hrs::
[feeling:damn happy] ha. today went chris house. god. his house is damn nice lorhs. hias. :) love his room. hias. if only my room is half as nice n hmm neat. ha. well. guess we accomplished quiTe a lot today tho progress was damn slow. really damn slow. 20++ slides took us like one whole day to complete?! man. hias. hmm. guess it's cos we r all perfectionists. n we r trying to make the slides as nice as possible. but then. hias. still tink it's too much a waste of time. yep. hehs. ha. we told each other wat we tot of each other. hehs. well. obviously everyone r nice ppl. but i guess hmm. well. no one's perfect in the world. how can anyone be perfect right? hehs. so of cos there's bad pts abt everyone. for me right. well. they really haven't seen the other side of me[other than kiwi i guess. but wat he's seen is just such a mild part. ha.]. yep. went pasta mania [j8] to eat. hehs. really feel like a glutton. out with them forever only one thing. eat. n somemore not very cheap again. hias. 4ever like tt. i tink i really have to start saving up. hias. wonder when i can buy my linkin park cd/ avril lavigne cd/ 5566 cd etc. hias. save money dear. u have to start saving up! ::2303hrs::
something wrong yesterday. couldn't enter my entry for april fool's day so here it is: [yesterday's yesterday.010403*tue] had fun @ kiwi's hse. well. we were supposed to like do the presentation larhs. but in the end just totally slacked. yep. ha. we cook our own lunch. well main cooks were evan n peiling larhs. it actually turned out nice! :) hehs. alicia was there oso. really miss her a lot. hope can meet up with her more often! hehs. hmm. she likes her present a lot! ha. i was shocked larhs. cos they bought a dreamcatcher for me. n a stress ball too. ha. i really din noe tt aNyoNe will take my wishlist seriously. hehs. :) really very happy. god. i tink my oac frens r right. im really easily satisfied. ha. oh man. i really hope we'll just remain like this forever. be frens forever. hias. just the tot of separating totally kills me. really. hias. it's really so hard to get to know a grp of ppl as nice as them. n i feel we can just clique together so comfortably. hehs. tho'. yep. i dun deny at times i do feel a bit out larhs. but in general it's still ok. oh my. i need a reassurance. someone to tell me confidently n truthfully tt rubbish will alwiz stay together. hias. maybe in the future when school reopens we wun have as much time for each other. but i hope in everyone's heart there'll still be a space for rubbish n a passion to keep in touch. will there? there will right? [today] hias. not in a good mood. again. i dunno y. i dun wanna tink abt it. hias. hope it'll be gone by tml morning. if not how to. hias. shesh. y can't it just go away.
I wanna run away ::0023hrs::
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