Wednesday, March 3, 2004 */;; Homophobia and AIM

Firstly I have a new AIM s/n! xD I managed to sneak behind my dad's back and install it ^^ But anyhoo, my new AIM s/n is hawt pinku (xD I couldn't get anything better... @@) But yeah, I've lost most of your s/ns so please IM me/comment with your screenname :3 And plus I'm gonna be online more now because with AOL I couldn't since my dad had AOL Guardian set up and knew whenever I logged on. But with AIM I can just hang out online forever! ^^

Secondly, no Sarah you aren't the person I'm mad at. @@ Lol

Thirdly, my parents are becoming increasingly homophobic. They used to dislike homosexuality. Now they hate it. Which makes me want to rebel even more.

You know how much they hate it? Well this morning the radio starting talking about gay marriages.

My dad gasped, switched the channel, and said loudly "The trash this country's getting into. Ridiculous." Those are the exact words. They've been haunting me this whole day. I can't believe it. My parents hate homosexuality. To the point where they are ready to totally ignore it all together. I consider it prejudice. I do.

But you know, when I say I want to rebel I don't mean I'm planning to walk up to a random girl and make out with her. @@; I mean I just hate my parents. Xx;; I'm still straight. --; I think.

Errr... yeah. So IM me people! *runs off to watch this morning's Inuyasha episode, the cute one!*

Tuesday, March 2, 2004 */;; Gah just gaaah

My dad is taking away my AIM. Actually I use AOL but he doesn't wanna pay for it anymore. I dunno when, but soon I'm gonna be AIM-less! *cries* You guys have to promise to email me frequently or something! I don't wanna lose my best AIM buds, especially Baku since that's like the only time I talk to her @@;

Also, I'm sort of mad at one of my online friends. Let's just say I like being unique and when someone takes away my chance of being unique I get pissed. So yeah. I'm saying no more; I'm not telling the person either. Just try not to take away my style from me. --;

And also, *huggles Rinnzi more for helping with the guild webbie* xD And thanks Josie for helping me poketh Rinnzi into doing it xD But yeah, Rinnzi added some kick-ass CSS to the site, daa.

Oh yeah xD Nareiko dear don't worry about the Ayagure listing. I mean, don't feel bad about accidentally deleting it lolz we've done it once and we can do it again. @@

Errr... yeah. :3 I think that's it? Oh yeah, plug to Rei (no Cloudsy, not your Rei xD) for having her birthday soon! *huggle*

Monday, March 1, 2004 */;; NOOOOOO

JOHNNY DEPP LOST! AAAARGH! *rams head into wall continuously* I am officially boycotting the Oscars from this moment on! AIEEE! He so deserved that award! Screw the Pisstic River shit, Johnny Depp was kick-ass! And I think his lines from PotC will be the most quoted in movie history. xD My reaction this morning when my mom told me he lost:

Mom: Your Pirate-man lost.
Shiz: *blink*
Mom: You know. That Pirate-man?
Shiz: *blink* *sudden realization* AIEEEE!
Mom: What?
Shiz: No. Nonononono. No. NOOOO!
Mom: *blink*
Shiz: "Why is the rum gone?" "One, because it is a vile drink that turns even the most respectable of men into scoundrels. Two, that signal is over a 1000 feet high. The entire royal navy is looking for me. Do you think there is even the slightest chance they won't see it?" "But why is the rum gone?!" Etc.
Mom: *rolls eyes* Not again with the recitations.
Shiz: ^^;

-/END CONVO WITH MOM- Oooh. Dearest Aku is having her birthday coming up (next week) so everyone make sure to tackle-glomp her before then. Or on her birthday. xD

Err, I have to do an ultrasound on my tailbone every day now. You know what sucks? I have to do it at school during my free time, in the trainer's office. There are like 5 guys there at the same time. And then the Head Trainer (a man) has to pull down my pants a little and spread gel on my ass, and then rub it in with the ultrasound machine thing. *blushes furiously* It's so awkward. He covers most of the parts with towels tho. @@;

Um, I made a new site. *cough* That's 18 sites now. Xx; But it's for my guild at Neopets. Apparently no one else is willing enough to help me. No one knows FTP and stuff. Except Rinnzi.

Which is why I'm dedicating this whole paragraph to poking Rinnzi until she agrees to help out (minimally at least) with the webbie. *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi* *poketh Rinnzi*

*cough* Yeah. So methinks that's it? *thinks* Oh yeah, I finished the layout for my upcoming fanlisting. ^^

Saturday, February 28, 2004 */;; Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Lotsa stuff to rant about errrr...

Yesterday I had to go over the house of my former ex-friend. You know, what one I got pissed at because she told me off for liking the song "Pink Spider" because she claimed it was hide's suicide song. *glares* That still pisses me off, mind you.

But anyhow, I have to do a duet with her for violin so we have to meet a bunch. Xx; But actually, it was awkward at first since we hadn't spoken since the argument. But then we started getting friendly again. 0o; And then she showed me her X-Japan stuff! xD YAY! I was childishly excited. She has the DVD of the last concert at Tokyo Dome and stuff! Plus all these photos! Yay! And she has Malice Mizer CDs too! Xx;

Then we played this video game. *is too stupid to remember what it's called* Xx; It was on Gamecube and the last word in the title was "Online". Ring any bells? But anyhow, we created our own characters! I made a hide and she made a Yoshiki! It was so cute! We kept kicking ass together! But of course, me being clumsy with video games... let's just say that hide kept running into trees and such. Xx;

Of course, we practiced the violin too... 0o But she also has an electric guitar!! With an amp and everything. It kicks ass, she's so lucky Xx;

So I'm trying to pretend she never said anything about Pink Spider... Xx; I'd do anything for Jrock; re-making friends with her is one of them. Xx; *stares at her Jrock collection*

Secondly, this morning I woke up to the most awkward sound. The sound of music. But not just any music. So I walk downstairs.

Lo and behold, my mother is cleaning and listening to X-Japan.

I mean dammmmn, I knew my mother liked X-Japan, but to sneak into my room, take my CD, and put it on the CD player to listen to is just amazing! Xx;

Okay, now ends the fun stuff. Okay people...

From this point on, my life will be pure hell.

You see, I'm going to be very busy from now on. Meaning I have to go to school at 6:30 AM and arrive from school at 6:30 PM. That's 12 hours in school. Aieee! And after that I'll have shitloads of homework to do! I'm going to be fucking stressed. So what am I trying to say?

Don't mess with me. I'm busy. I'm stressed. Don't like it? Sue me. Xx;

I might not blog much. (Meaning I'll blog the average amount for a normal person Xx;) I have three projects to do for Monday, I haven't started any. Shit. Shit shit shit shit shit.

So yeah. BTW, one day this blog will be moving to log.rocket-dive.net. Methinks.

Oh yes, and plug to my InuKag fic again xD

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Friday, February 27, 2004 */;; I finished my InuKag fic

That's right, Shiz wrote a new fanfic. It's another InuKag fic and in my opinion is much better than my other one. I have so many plans... *schemes*

Let's see, I applied for another fanlisting *sweatdrop* Y'all knew I wouldn't last for long with that "I won't make anymore sites now" attitude. @@

I am quite pissed off. Just a half hour ago, I checked my inbox. I had 21 (I'm not joking; exactly 21!) of those fucking spam-virus things. I deleted them all tho. But god damn! And some stupid-ass fuck-face has been going to my InuKag fanlisting daily and pressing the submit button, without filling anything in. For the past 4 days. V___v;

The Math quiz and NSE were actually not that bad! I mean, the math was pretty hard (we're doing hyperbolas, oblique asymptotes, and stuff like that) but I think I might have scraped a B?... @@

Oh yeah. My History teacher kicked everyone out of the class. He was teaching normally and no one was really listening; everyone was sort of staring into space. Then my friend passes me a note to pass to another friend, and as I'm passing it, he notices and kicks us all out. But he was pretty pissed off at me! I was an innocent victim to fate. If I had not been sitting between those two friends I wouldn't have had to pass that fucking note! Aieee! I hope he doesn't go an ruin my already poor average. ;____; Fucking bastard.

Thursday, February 26, 2004 */;; Quilting Bee

*evil laugh* That is my brand new quilt! xDD I made the layout. I made my patch. :3 What do you think? xDD I made the patch with hide! xDD That's a chibi hide that I made! *grins* It took a while and it was pretty tough (for me) but in the end, all was well! xDD And I also made that bee image from my layout! ^^ I really want to trade patches so if you have a quilt, email me!

Also, 0o; My mom called my Biology teacher yesterday and told her that I've been really stressed and depressed lately! My Biology teacher is probably the nicest person I've ever met, I luff her! ^^ But anyhow, today she set up an appointment with me and started "counseling" me! At first I was feeling "eh" about it, but she really made me feel better! She kept hugging me! xD *huggles her Bio teacher* :3

Also about my Bio teacher, she got 2 new Madagascar hissing cockroaches as class pets. @@ Making a grand total of 5 cockroaches having ever lived in our classroom. *shudders* They scare me. Especially when they hiss. @@

Anyhoo, I'm making a new InuKag fic now so wish me luck!

xDD Also wish me luck on my killer math quiz and National Spanish II Exam tomorrow. ;____;

Wednesday, February 25, 2004 */;; Radadadadadadada

I owe you guys a big apology. I just realized it, stupidly, in the middle of school. I'm being horribly selfish. When I blog. I shouldn't make you guys worry about me so much. I always rant so depressingly! And then you guys email me with hugs and gifts! I have the greatest friends, really. But I always worry you guys!

I'm so sorry for making you worry (again). But when I'm so depressed, I just wallow in self-pity. And rant about my poor sorry-ass. @@ Yes I know, pathetic. But I was seriously sad yesterday. I still am pretty down, but not that much. So don't attack me with hugs. @@ xDDD *huggles everyone* Leave the huggly-attacking to me. *schemes*

But yeah, I was crying a bunch yesterday with my parents. I'm really stressed out. I have so much to do! Err, MeiMei and all the other people who want layouts from me, I'll try my best to finish them soon! *stares at her pile of schoolwork* But unfortunately school is priority, so ya know... >>;

Hey! I made a new fanlisting! *everyone sweatdrops* I've been working on it for a while though. I didn't really have much to do today. Yes, so begins my 17th site. And the great part is now I have no more sites to complete! Actually I do. @@ I'm planning more fanlistings. @@;; But anyhoo, that fanlisting is the approved FL to the rivalry between Tamahome and Tasuki of Fushigi Yuugi. And it's hosted at rocket-dive! ^^ *is proud of herself for being able to host sites at her domain, finally*

Yeah, thassit. Methinks. **;

Tuesday, February 24, 2004 */;; Shiz is in pain

Ouch. Guess what?

Remember how I fractured my tailbone in November and am getting therapy for it nowadays? Well, I participated in gym yesterday; we played this soccer-like game. (Football for you strange people out there. :3) And today I was feeling the after-effects.

I can't walk. I've never felt so useless in my life. I mean, I can walk, it just hurts so much! My bestest bud ever was carrying my books for me. Thank God I have her. I was almost in tears at times. It hurt so bad. But I'm Shiz, I try not to get emotional in public. So I didn't burst out crying or anything. 0o But in the girl's locker room today when there was no one there I started crying sort of. Tears of self pity. But honestly. I've never broken anything in my life! And to suddenly have my life turned around like this all at once?!

The whole past year I've been working so hard at tennis. I've been doing intense tournament training. Why? Because I wanted to get on the Varsity Tennis team. But I can't now. Just because of some fucking tailbone that mysteriously broke in mid-November. My hopes are destroyed. Here I thought I had one chance to prove to myself that I could do something. I don't think I can even get onto Junior Varsity now. And hell, even if I did, I'd probably tear up my pelvic bones. It feels like they're in pieces right now. Obviously they aren't really, but it hurts!

My parents aren't home yet; I'm sure that as soon as they step in I'm going to start screaming and crying and having my usual fit. I feel so horribly useless. I mean, after one small insignificant little gym class, I can barely walk?!?! Why me?! Why the hell did this have to happen to me?!?! And it's not like I broke my tailbone after kicking a winning goal in soccer or anything like that. I don't even know how it happened. That's the worst part. I have to endure this pain without even knowing why.

In addition to that, my grades are slipping steadily. In the past two weeks, I've gone from straight A's to barely hoping for straight B's. I'm in total shock. I've never gotten a bad grade in my life. Until now.

Here are my averages in each subject (format: before -> now)