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Saturday, December 6, 2003 :+: hideness

Mood: Frustrated and satisfied at the same time...
Listening to: Sotsugyou, from ep. 123 (?) of Inuyasha
Plug of the Moment: Nareiko, whose layout is kawaii!

I just made the cutest most adorablest hide layout ever! It's for this blog. I really want to put it up today, but I feel horrible because this is such a kawaii blog layout too! Hmm... maybe I'll wait a while, or maybe I'll change it today. I don't know. But it's a really cute hide layout.

However, does anyone know where the hell I can download 'Pink Spider' by hide? I've looked everywhere! It's supposed to be his greatest song too! My upcoming layout is based on it. The lyrics are cute but sad. It was released before his death. Some people claim it's a farewell song! *cries* That's so sad!

/UPDATE/ AOL Hometown is being a bitch and won't let me upload the layout right now, so it'll have to wait a while. But ooooh you are going to love it!

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Friday, December 5, 2003 :+: About hide and Yoshiki...

Mood: hide-obsessed
Listening to: LEMONed I Scream, by hide
Plug of the Moment: Lady Kira, who has such a great Marikku shrine ^^

This is for all of you clueless people who visit my blog and wonder "who the HELL is hide?" And of course you, Baku, who don't know who Yoshiki is... XD

Yoshiki and hide were both members of X-Japan. Yoshiki isn't that hawt, frankly he looks like a girl a lot during his X career (but then again, many Jrockers look like girls). But he was like best friends with poor hide.

Go here. It is a bio I wrote about hide (as part of my fanlisting). It features a lot of information about him (I know that Slavegirl wants to know... XD...). And Baku, might I add, it has the saddest interview with Yoshiki that took place after hide's death. I cry when reading it. I don't know about you though, because your just... Baku... 0___o; But it'll give you wondering peoples some clarification. ^^;

You know what's sad? After hide committed suicide, a lot of his fans did. One girl actually killed herself by hanging herself to the doorknob of her bathroom with a towel, just like poor hide. I can't get over the fact that he's dead; he was just such a cute and funny person. I have clips of him giggling hysterically (kawaii!) and cooking and all sorts of cute things. And he was a really nice guy; he looks like he was nice too. And he was hawt! ^^;

I miss you hide... ever free... *sniffle sniffle*

Okay, that's enough depression. Wait, no it isn't. Now here's the story of my life today: I had a math test, about graphing parabolas, hyperbolas, circles, ellipses, and imaginary numbers. And I found out we couldn't use our graphing calculators five minutes before the test. I was screwed; I studied with calculators, I worshipped the calculator. Sucks for me, I think I did very badly. And to make matters worse, I was fifteen minutes late for history class. My teacher was pissed. I have history after math class. No da.

Worst part is it's snowing. On a Friday. What's the point in snowing on Friday when you can't have school cancelled the next day? T__T; It always snows on Fridays. Just my fucking luck.

My school is 35 minutes away... on a good day. Which this wasn't. I got home after an hour and a half of driving. I amused myself by watching the frozen water droplets drip down the windshield. Fun.

And this bitch of a sophomore yelled at me today for no reason. She was all stressed and took it out on me. This was during the five minutes before the math test, where I was freaking out over the lack of calculators. I almost cried when she yelled at me, it was that bad and I was that stressed. That's right, Shiz almost cried. But I didn't. Instead I called her a fucking asshole and sat down to take my test. Not bad eh? (My ass is grass when we go back to school on Tuesday...)

Imma go visit that site I told you about in the last entry. Maybe near-nude Gackt pictures will cheer me up... *evil laugh*...

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Thursday, December 4, 2003 :+: Eheh. Eheheh.

Mood: Eheh...
Listening to: Hi-ho, by hide (after having it stuck in my head all day)
Plug of the Moment: Erm... Baku because her site URL takes the least amount of typing...

Eheh... I found a very nice site just now. Erm, ~~parental guidance suggested~~... it features some... stuff... ^^;... sort of R-rated...

This site features some rather... hawt and sexy pictures of all that is good and J-rockish... *cough*GacktandYoshiki*cough*... Erm... it features all of the hawt J-rockers shirtless... (a.k.a. semi-nude). Oh yeah, but there are a few disturbingly nude pics in there... -____-;... (Istumbledonafew)... 0___o;...

But there wasn't any hide... *sniff*... but then again, I can't imagine hide posing shirtless in front of a camera... -___-; There were some uber-kawaii Miyavi pics though... I've never listened to his music, only heard about him from Baku...

Ooooh, special thanks to Lady Kira for joining my hide fanlisting! ^^ Thanks.

By the way, I'm serious, I had 'Goodbye' and 'Hi-ho' by hide stuck in my head all day! I almost died from thinking about him too much today...

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Wednesday, December 3, 2003 :+: It has been done

Mood: Gleeful
Listening to: Beauty and Stupid, by hide
Plug of the Moment: Mucho apologies, but my new hide fanlisting because I want members so bad...

It's open! Ladies, gentlemen, and Nurikos (^^;), please join the (soon-to-be) official fanlisting for "Beauty and Stupid", sung by hide. Clicky and go join! I want members! Unfortunately, as far as I know, only Baku and Lady Kira of my friends are hide fans (who'd better join... *grins evilly*). I dunno about Rin, Belle, and the rest. Feh. Me wonders...

By the way, at the fanlisting I just ranted about, I wrote a hide bio. I recommend everyone read it. It is pretty sad towards the end, for obvious reasons. I included Yoshiki's comments about hide's death- they're pretty sad, I was sobbing when I first read them.

Please joineth! Anyhow, a lot of sadness in my life lately. First of all, one of my bestest friends has been in the hospital for over a month. I just found out why. Anorexia and manic depression. *cries* And to make matters worse, my dad (a doctor) tried to make me feel better by giving me a doctor lecture. Apparently the majority of manic depressive people are suicidal. So my friend has "probably tried to take her life. But don't worry, she'll be under close watch at the hospital." Some father, eh. But oh, I hope my friend gets better soon. T___T

Also, my back is worsening. My whole tailbone is screwy now. I can't fucking sit. But I have to. Yech. They still can't tell if it's a fracture. I think it is though. I mean, when vertebrae show up crooked in an X-ray and the patient has only just developed the pain, how the hell is it not a fracture? What is it supposed to be, a friggen birth defect? 0___0; Dumbass doctors...

My other good friend as Lyme disease. Imma not sure, but that's pretty bad, isn't it?

And I am even sadder than I was before about hide's death. I think posting that Yoshiki interview did the job. Waii! I want hide!

To conclude with, please join the listing. Please. ^^;

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Monday, December 1, 2003 :+: New site, go clicky!

Mood: Psyched!
Listening to: Nothing
Plug: None

I made the fanlisting! Clicky to visit the kawaii "Beauty and Stupid" fanlisting, to the great song by hide ^^ The layout is adorable, because it features hide. ^^ I'm proud of myself... I made it... XD... You can't join *yet* because it's not finished, but I'll tell you guys when you can. But go check it out for now... Oh yeah, and the version is called CENSORED! for a reason... XD... it's nothing too bad though...

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Monday, December 1, 2003 :+: Kuso!

Mood: Downcast, depressed, disappointed
Listening to: LEMONed I Scream, by hide T__T
Plugs: Baku and Belle who are always online

I spent this whole day looking forward to now. I just got back from school. And I was eager to check TFL.org. Why? Because ever since yesterday, I have been obsessing over a guy, someone we all know (and better love). He's on the top of my bish list, beating Nuriko and Gackt and even Yuki! Who is he?

Poor hide of course. I am obsessed with him. I mean, I am even more obsessed than before. And he's dead. That's what sucks.

But that's not what I'm so damn depressed about. I'm depressed because I wanted to make a fanlisting to him. But there's already an approved one. And I feel like I'm too late.

(Erm, don't you dare point out that I'm already 7-8 years late. Or I'll bite you.)

I had plans and everything. You know what. Screw the approved listing. I'm making a hide fanlisting. Pish, so what if it won't be "approved"?

And anyhow, I could be sneaky. There are two approved Gackt fanlistings out there! TWO! One for Camui Gackt and one for Gackt. Feh, I can do that too. Somehow. -_____-;

Methinks I'll call it Pink Spider. After his song. T____T

Hey! Maybe I can get an approved fanlisting for one of his songs...

/UPDATE/ I just applied for the official "Beauty & Stupid" fanlisting! XD it's the kawaiiest song ever, by hide, no da ^^ I lurrrv it, and I recommend that all of you download and listen to it because you'll love it too ^^

/2nd UPDATE/ I meant 5-6 years late. -__-; I can't add. For shit. He died on May 2nd, 1998 and it is 2003 now. Get a life Shiz, really. -___-;

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Sunday, November 30, 2003 :+: Shiz, the great

Mood: Amused
Listening to: Celebration, by X Japan
Plug of the Moment: Belle, the queen of layout-making...

XD I have decided that I will do a little description thingeh for each of my plugs... ^^; I've been doing it for that past few entries, if you haven't noticed. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, move on to the next paragraph. Hell, I have no idea what I'm talking about so I'll shut up and move on to the next paragraph 0_____o;

I have discovered this great and amusing thing to do if you are filled with boredom. I don't really know how to explain it, but come up with "titles" for yourself. It's almost a stress-reliever. And it's fun. Imma gonna do it right now for myself...

Shiz, who has more on her mind than necessary. Woah, brain overload.

Shiz, who has a brain. Really.

Shiz, who has the tendency of ranting pointlessly even if no one is listening and if they are listening then oh well because it is really pointless what they are listening to and there is no sense of listening to something you don't understand because you don't understand it and...

Shiz, who is so stupid it's ridiculous.

That was fun. The purpose of that exercise is supposedly to relieve stress and get to know yourself. Feh...

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Sunday, November 30, 2003 :+: Blech!

Mood: Annoyed
Listening to: My dad watching James Bond marathons downstairs... >___<;
Plug of the Moment: Mizu who has such a pretty layout ^^;

Freewebs is being a bitch. It was down all of yesterday, and now it loads so fucking slowly. And half of the stuff doesn't even load to begin with.

And why is this a problem for me? Because all of my sites are on freewebs (with the exception of this one, thank the gods, if this site was down I'd probably eat my computer.

Damn you freewebs, work already!

Side note: It seems that there are many crazy people out there... *cough*BakuMizuRin*cough*... who actually like that green Kao Ani...

*shrugs* Well, at least it is loved by somebody...

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Sunday, November 30, 2003 :+: Yech...

Mood: Aggravated, frustrated, etc. (Damn Animation Shop)
Listening to: Nothing (because there are too many windows open for that, lmao Baku...)
Plug of the Moment: TotallyChibi.com (not that I actually know the webmistress or anything, but it's a great and kawaiiful site.

I *attempted* to make an adoptable kao ani today. Eheh... it was adorable... until I saved it... *falls over*... damn Animation Shop turned it green... but if you want to adopt it, here it is anyway:

LMAO see what I mean... -___-;; But if you do adopt it, save it to your own server and link back here.

Here are better looking adoptables I made...

Aww kawaii Nuriko and Tasuki...

But check this out... I adopted a Kao Aniyasha... (*laughs at her pun thingeh*)... Check him out...

Ain't he kawaiiful... *glomps*... I got it from TotallyChibi.com... aiiie and it inspired me to attempt that horrid Kao Ani of mine... e___e;

This was a pointlessful entry, but knowing me I'll blog about something or other later...

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Saturday, November 29, 2003 :+: The Madness...

Mood: Overcome with self-conflict
Listening to: Goodbye, by hide... *sniffle* come back my beloved Jrocker of doom, I miss your wonderfully pink hair terribly...
Plug of the Moment: Lady Kira, whose layouts are just as good as mine ^^;

Must. fight. the. madness. GYAH!

I am having the urge... to make more sites. *kicks self* They may be coming soon, but here's the inside scoop... here are some site's I want to make...

Wild Fire: The (Official?) Hate-listing for Flames and Flamers- idea sprung from a comment from Rin (blame the madness on her... XD)

Fiery Emotions: The (Official! ^^) Fanlisting for the Tasuki x Miaka shipper from Fushigi Yuugi. They are so cute together. And by Ra, the man has fangs. Let us take a moment to drool over fangs.

The Power of the Bish: A site explaining "the power of the bish", the power that should not be abused. A fun thing really. Just because I get so pissed when people contact me saying "Seto says he loves me and he thinks you're ugly so give it up!" Pah... Seto-san loves no one, not even me. The power of the bish should be handled wisely... *rants* Rin should understand the concept of the power

Awwww...: The (Official ^^;;;) Fanlisting to all that is cute and fluffy. La-di-da...

Stupidity: A list of everything I have ever done that is stupid... should be fun ^^;

Hmm... this is gonna be interesting, daa...

On other news, I joined Go-gaia.com, a great anime RPG site. Rin referred me there and Baku helped mucho. My username is ilukaiba. If any of you blog readers join it, would you be so kind as to say "ilukaiba" referred you? XD I need the gold...

Oooh yayness, my Yukiru fic at Fanfiction.net is a success... ^^;... I just lurrrv Yukiru... go... here... to view my fanfiction... it's all Yuugiou, Fushigi Yuugi, Fruits Basket, or Harry Potter. Shoo.

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Saturday, November 29, 2003 :+: Oii...

Mood: Not so pissed
Listening to: Perfect World, by Nuriko
Plug of the Moment: My new Yuki fanlisting because I've run out of friends to plug... -_- pathetic I know...

Eh, did a little bargaining, I was able to watch the new dubbed eppy. Was it just me or did Tristan sound very gay when he said "You go girl!" to Serenity.

Anyhow, like I said in the last entry, Belle and Baku are always online! It's scary really, whenever I'm on, one or both of them are on. I envy them for there online time... XD... lucky people... *can't get over how they are always online!*

I was talking to Belle last night (as well as Baku but anyway...) and she said she likes my blog layout. That was pretty scary... even scarier... she went on to say she doesn't like any of her layouts that much with the exception of her Behind My Eyes layout (which is quite beautiful). But I was stunned, because I love all of her layouts, and here she was saying she didn't like them and she liked mine. That was quite an honor really (lolz) but it was pretty scary as I said before. Me talented at layouts... sheesh... took me like an hour to figure out how to slice the friggen image...

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Saturday, November 29, 2003 :+: Kuso!

Mood: PISSED OFF!
Listening to: Fuck you!
Plug of the Moment: Get your own damn plug!

I'm pissed (woah, that's some mood swing, I was Sohma-fied like 3 minutes ago...). My fucking father's being a fucking loser and I fucking hate him. Why's he being a fucking loser? He came into my fucking room while I was fucking working on my project and started fucking talking with all of his fucking friends and relatives and he wouldn't fucking leave! So then I fucking told him to leave the fucking room (without the "fucking" parts of course) and then he wouldn't. Said he couldn't hear himself speak in the phone in any other room because of the fucking humidifier. So I told him to turn off the (fucking) humidifier. And he just stayed in the room fucking talking for a half hour, just to piss my fucking ass off. So then I yelled "LEAVE MY ROOM!" and threw his stuff out of my room. So he got pissed and grounded me.

FUCKING BASTARD! How could he how could he?! I HATE HIM! I can't watch the fucking new dubbed episode. I don't even know why I bother watching the dub, but now I'm pissed, because I wanna see the fucking new episode!

Meep... *calming down now*... I've never used the word "fucking" so much in my life... ^^;... should do that more often...

Anyway, Imma gonna (fucking) plug Baku now... Baku... just for the sake of plugging something other than my hair-dryers damned electrical socket... I used it to dry my hair, nothing else I swear... don't worry, I didn't aim it at my dad and pretend it was a gun or anything oddly childish like that...

More about the sexy Sohmas some other time when I'm in a fucking better mood... ^^;

BTW, I just noticed, why is it that Belle and Baku are always online?... XD

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Saturday, November 29, 2003 :+: The sexy Sohmas...

Mood: Sohma-fied...
Listening to: Random Yuki sound clips...
Plug of the Moment: Emi

I've just realized that between last night and now I've managed to miraculously fall in love with every single (male) Sohma. *drool* I mean, check out Yuki... I've loved him for eternity (*cough*3 months*cough*) because of the sexiness of his dark grayish hair, and violet eyes. But Akito... looks almost exactly like him! I mean, ahem, *drool*, it's like a friggen two for one special, if ya like Yuki ya like Akito. I mean sure there's that minor downside that Akito's a cold-hearted bastard, but hey, all that matters is the looks, riight?

Now let's move on to Shigure... he's a pervert... but a hawt pervert, and remember, hottness is all that matters in the world of Shiz. Sure he's 27 or something like that in the series, but he's hawt. He's hawt.

Aya Aya Aya... Ayame is funny and cute and fun, me lurrvs him...

Kyo has orange hair. I love orange hair *cough*Tasuki*cough*

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Friday, November 28, 2003 :+: Analysises

Mood: Bloggiful...
Listening to: Meccha Hajikete Gatsu Tobashite, by THTC
Plug of the Moment: Belle

Wow, I'm feeling very bloggish today... *shrugs*... Oh well...

In this entry, I shall do some of my famous analysises... (what the hell is the plural of analysis?...)

To begin with, my analysis on the word "plug". As in I'm "plugging" Rin... why is it "plug"? And not "bulb" or "chair"? (XD... I'm chairing Rin... riiight...) Hmm... it confuses me... why in the name of Seto Kaiba (*bows head and puts hand over heart*) is it plug?!

Think about it, and answer my question. You'd have to be much smarter than me to answer that question, but then again, that shouldn't be too hard.

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Friday, November 28, 2003 :+: Stupid...

Mood: Stupid
Listening to: Beauty and Stupid, by hide (*points* Kawaiiful song, really...)
Plug of the Moment: ~~Stupid~~... 0.o;... Baku

/UPDATE TO ENTRY/ While I was re-reading this entry, I noticed that it seems like I'm calling Baku stupid in the POTM thingeh... well I'm not... I was just joking around because I said "stupid" in the title, mood, and listening to sections, so you'd expect that I'd say it in the next section thingy... *sighs*... Baku isn't stupid... I'm stupid... yeah...

Eheh... if you haven't guessed yet, I'm stupid. Really. Really really. I have this essay I'm supposed to be doing now on the glorisome Bible (which I mentioned in the last entry). I haven't even typed up a whole paragraph yet... I'm stupid... damned fucking writer's block from hell... *stabs at a random pillow* DAMN FUCKING WRITER'S BL-

*sigh* I don't know what to write about. *sigh* I'm ranting here now, aren't I... schmuck. That's what blogs are for, no da...

*cries* Today I shall rant on the world of flames. Not happy, fun, pyro flames that you point at and go "Oooooh", I mean the hardcore mean kinda flames that you get in your fanfiction review section and your guestbook. Me hates them. They make me cry... no they don't... but they make me sad all the same. Hmph, and they make no sense...

Example from one of my Yu-Gi-Oh! fics:

From the Anti-Fangirl
Aw, what a sweet little lovey-dovey fangirl. If there's anything I hate more than fangirls, it has yet to be discovered. It's hard to believe that some people, who are clearly gifted writers, waste their talent writing about their lovesick obsessions with anime characters, don't you think?
/END OF FLAME/

Hah, I know it's rather stupid of me, but I feel sad... waii... to know that the meanie who wrote that review doesn't like me or my fics... I mean... first of all... it wasn't even a fan-girlish fic! No OCs or self-insertions, strictly SetoxAnzu... (shut up you don't like the pairing!...) And yet she flamed me

This is stupid I know, but I'm stupid, and this is a pointless rant! *points to title* Now whaddya expect in a blog entry entitled "Stupid..."

Calms down. Gyah, I should make an anti-flames fanlisting

*cringes* NO! MUST STOP THE ADDICTION! No more website-making for a week... I just made a Sohma Yuki fanlisting, hope it becomes official one day... ^^; Yuki's hot, and Yuki's in my current blog layout. Doesn't look that hot in this pic tho...

I'll shut up now... I HATE FLAMES!... Woah just had to get that outta my system...

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Friday, November 28, 2003 :+: New layout

Mood: Excited
Listening to: Nada, zilch, nothing
Plug of the Moment: Rin

Koban wa minna, so what do you think? It's a Fruits Basket one, with drool-worthy Yuki and glompable Momiji, Kyou, and Shigure ^^ You can still view the third version by going to the Archives and clicking "Version 3".

By the way, Rin should be thanked muchly for revealing the great commenting servicy thingeh, she is so nice and thanks Rin ^^ Me must see the December layout waii... but I can't get on AIM... *cough*email it to me*cough*

Hope y'all had a great Thanksgiving (yeah right). Mine sucked... I had an orthodontic appointment the day before so I couldn't eat anything really... damn... not that there was anything good to begin with but hey...

I have to go write an essay about The Bible (how fun... gyah...) so see ya around. And comment please, I wanna see how the thingeh works...

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Friday, November 28, 2003 :+: Woah...

Believe it or not, Imma gonna change the layout in T minus 3 seconds...

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