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into.the.mirror version 6.0 !! OMG it's HIM again !!! ( so said my brother ) Yada yada so sue me :P Cover boy is no other than hyde ; vocalist of the Japanese rock band L'Arc~en~Ciel and his own solo project. I don't care if you're married hyde-kun, I will still STALK youuu !! XD XDD

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phui-mun a.k.a. aya. Born December 15th. Year of the dog of Lunar Calendar. Chinese. 100% Malaysian but was mistaken for people of other nationalities at good times. Every other time, most probably looked like a starved panda that WWF overlooked. Final year student in a university surrounded by the not so nice view of dead palm tree plantations and many many construction sites in the middle of nowhere. Short and underweight. Sleep deprived. Excitable and short tempered. What do YOU think?

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Wednesday, April 28, 2004 @ 01:40 p.m.

Being in the internet cafe in my hometown trying to check my results and empty out my bloating mailbox makes me feels so .. JUVENILE. I'm surrounded by schools kids after school ( or before .. I cant tell anymore since they're all in their uniform anyway ) playing RAGNAROK ONLINE and many other online games that I'd already lost contact with since I last touch my Beta version of RAGNAROK ONLINE last year.

Anyway, the blog is collecting dust I know. My dearly beloved modem at home with sucky connection decided to die on me YET again ( seems to happen everytime when I'm at home away from any broadband connection .. grrrr ) I terribly HORRIBLY missed STREAMYX yo ;_____; I'm so backdated with anything and anyone online that I fear most people that doesn't keep in mobile connection with me will think of me as DEAD ;___; Can't help it, my mobile phone is with me 100% of the time and I don't have the luxury of super fast internet connection anymore that now, I can totally choke on these slow 28.8kbps that my 56 kbps modem gave me before it totally died off

Welp, results out. I'd OFFICIALLY graduated since I didn't flunk my papers whahaahahhahaahah XD XDDDDD And THANK GAWD for that =D Many things had happened since I last got online with my offline life and it's just too bothersome to type it all our amidst the raging swords clashing SFX , poring killings environment all around me.

And just the same as a few weeks ago, I still have totally NO IDEA what to do with my life at this point. *sigh*

dare mo .. oshiete kudasai yo ~~ X__x <--- I *heart* the Laruku dead smiley XD

 ♫ Ragnarok Online BGM =_=;;;;
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Sunday, April 11, 2004 @ 05:43 p.m.

I love it when it rains. As long as I'm cozy inside my room -- which is the case at the moment

So here be it. There was a MI-Tea Party on Friday afternoon. Right after the last presenter of the year presented her works to the panels of lecturers. It's nothing grand nor big like the FA Nite yesterday .. But I really appreciated what the lecturers did for us this time . Giving us a lil' small farewell party of some sort before everything ends. Well, actually ... everything in this chapter called Uni days ended on Thursday after my final paper -- in which I'd reported in that friggin' long post below XD;;;; But until the party, the realization didn't really hit me with an impact yet.

So far, it was just the feeling of "Hell yeah, project's done, paper's done .. now what ?"

But with that small tea party, everything feels .. complete. Sealed at least. You know you're over and done with your work and life here in Uni ( unless of course, I *cough* flunk my papers ^^;;; ). There are video edits of footages took by Mr. Kenneth of us during our PD Trip ( heeyyy labrynth :D ), our presentation and random footages of classes and course mates and stuff. I was all okay and dandy until the last video that they showed of still footages every students and their works in slow transitions and those melancholy music playing in the background T___T

Thank goodness I'm not PMS-ing else I would had been crying my eyes out for the past few days. And every songs playing away on my speaker, no matter how happy it sounded makes me feel melancholic and sent me off to angsty-reminiscence-mode ( okay okay I was joking about the angst part )

I just realized that I'd grown to actually *like* this weird Uni in the middle of nowhere a lot. It's so different from the past holidays where I complained of having just a measly 3 weeks break from this place. At least then , I have my friends to look forward to when I come back .... and now  *sigh*

To all my lovely fellow Folie a Duexians -- thank you for making my 4 years here such a wonderful and ... interesting experience XD With you guys, I can be who I truly am without worrying that I have to submit to some or any sort of weird rules and expectations by others. Admit it, we're all freaky and weird people in our own small/big way and it's just GREAT to be with a bunch of people, who can never really agree on ONE single voice on anything -- but yet ; can enjoy and be with each others company overlooking all differences. We're all very different in personality ( on some cases ... except for mah psychic twin though ; who seem to be able to read me like a book sometimes XD;;; ) but we all fitted in like some big chunky Tetris blocks. All different sizes, colors and shape. But it works. We clicked.

It's all cheesy but really, thank you everyone from MMU ( hey, this includes you Nazi-tutor ) and off ( bwahaha ~ the MAAO gang which I never really attended much of the meetings ) for making my 4 years here a wonderful one. And extra thank to you too for keeping me awake chatting away on Y! Messenger when I'm trying to keep awake doing work ( and for being able to put up with my J-Rock obsession although I don't think you understand half of the rantings I have most of the time XD ) I shall forever look back to this period of my life with a small smile ( or even, horrified embarrassment of the WEIRD WEIRD stuff that I'd done and said XD;;;; ) and say : "Heh, Life's all Good. Bet you'd never spent a night/morning filled with mosquitoes under the stars and the moon on top of some hill sharing a pear with your pals and NOT feel like an idiot. HAH !! )

Damn I'm corny, I'll never ever be a writer ( and someone made one of my crank-work HER final year animation. The embarrassment of seeing it on the big screen damnit ! >_< ) And geh, I hope no one will *just* remember me as RABID!HYDE!FAN!

 ♫ Siam Shade - Yume no Naka e
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Friday, April 9, 2004 @ 01:13 p.m.

Bad me. Bad me. I think with the long stretch of time of not blogging -- I'd forgotten how to do it already T____T I find it rather hard to string up a full paragraph without using some sort of weird sound effect ( like wheeee ~ ) and to think of what to say next. Hmm ....must get brain to function properly again

Anyhooo ~~ I'd just finished my last exam paper YESTERDAY -- which sorta .. I think, explained why I *disappeared* again. Hopefully, I don't flunk it -- and I don't have to re-sit for the SUB paper ;____; Things are getting a tad confusing for me at the moment as .. ermm ... well .. I'm sorta unofficially a "fresh graduate" at the moment isn't it ? But hell, I'm freaking scared of the prospect because I'm still pretty directionless ;__;

I dunno what I friggin' wanna doooooooo ! I don't want to plan for a vacation because I don't think I deserve it and I don't wanna use my money for some vacation that is NOT Japan at the moment -- since I'd rather saved it up and THEN go to an actual JRock-concert-splurge when I'd saved enough XD;;;; ( Sad case da ne ? ) Many advised that I should take a few weeks of break and just think about it after I'd rested enough. Maybe I should do that too -- but I don't wanna be freeloading off my parents for too long IF I'd actually graduated. Gahhhh !! The confusion !!! THE BLOODY CONFUSION !!!!! *tears hair*

I'm not the type that actually plan ahead of what I wanna do for like --- in 5 years time. I got freaked out when a loverly friend and I were discussing about this whole bye bye MMU thing. I really DID. It's rather sad isn't it to think that I'd never planned ahead of what I wanted to be and do ? Hell, even being in MMU taking the course that I do now is like -- a total chance and luck stuff if you know the whole story ^^;; I guess I'm the type that actually take a step at a time in my life. I'm too laid-back about my life. To quote Onion, we're shallow ^^;;; ( But hell, at least she's doing better than me at the moment handling this I think ^^;; )

Gaaaah ~~ this gives me MUCH HEADACHE yo T____T I don't want any busybody relatives/ex-classmates parents to be poking around my life after finishing studies. I don't mind it that much since I can just turn my anti-social mode on and IGNORE ( I'm an A+ student for that, trust me XD ) But I don't want them to be hounding my poor 'kaasan

That aside .. I think I have a bunch of social blogging to catch up on ^^;;; The comments for the previous entries are wonderful <3 <3333 Though it seems to run from the original topic of the votes after a bit *laughs*

 
Nana : Yo ! Thanks for stopping by ! You wanna pursue your master degree here in MMU ? <3 In what courses ? There're 2 different campuses for MMU here. The older one being in Melacca and the newer one in Cyberjaya, Selangor ^^ What coursee what courseeeee ??? :3 And gomen ! I have no idea who is Ramon Fadli ^^;;;;;;;;; *hides* I'm a horrible person oh yes ... cuz I never seem to be looking out for local entertainment industry AT ALL ^^;;; ( The closest I'd in researching about local artistes was for a music video project that our lecturers STRONGLY emphasis that we MUST make a video for a local band/artist ^^;; )

nere : I hear you toooooooo ~~~~~~ But my bleeding purse got it worse last month since GLAY and L'Arc~en~Ciel are both releasing their FULL ALBUMS yo ;_____; Thank goodness a wonderful wonderful friend offered to get me L'Arc~en~Ciel's SMILE ( super thanks to Masaki-kun! ) -- when I thought I'd saved for that -- I actually went on ahead and spent on Siam Shade's V7 Live in Budohkan ^^;;;; ( and now I'm dying to buy Siam Shade V8 since I'm totally IN LOVE with their GORGEOUS performance in V7 ^^;;; <3 DAITA )

You know, I wish I'm THAT loyal on my obsession the way you are nere-san ;___; Then I wouldn't be spending on so many bands >_<

 
RAETHES : Community of rabid hyde fans ? LOL. That's a good one XD XDD I'm an obsessive hyde-fan and I never denied that :3 My friends think hyde's name and being is synonymous with mine in their conversation everytime the word H-Y-D-E pops up ^^; And .. hohoo .. I'm a Gackt-fan in denial XD XDD Because I never thought I actually fit in the .. norm of Gackt's legion fans. Yah I'm the weird adopted child in Gackt-fandom I tell you

Whoo-YESH !!! I'm from Cyberjaya campus <3 <33 If you'd seen a weird redhead walking around with a folder with HUGE hyde poster at the back in a crappy sling bag that says "ROUTE66" ( Damn I'm still missing another "6" >_< ) That's meh !

 
labrynth : THANK YOU !!! *glomps* Well .. I still dunno about the current status .. hoping that I don't flunk anything is nothing too .. optimistic I hope ^^;;

 
ju-chan : ju-chaaaan !! Your blog'd been down for AGES oh yesh ! @.@ *glomps* welcome back. And yesh, I'd finally read Kagen no Tsuki

 
kikie : Hisashi oh yesh ~~ our lovely pretty Hisashi. Me love his current laid back and toned down image a lot -- although I do missed his wild blue bangs ^0^

 
Onion : Go for Madoka and leave Kei to me XD XDDD Oh remember to bring Ping Pong or any of the other girls along too if you come :D We have all have a Tokimeki Memorial Girls' Night In XD

I REALLY REALLY missed our crazy Folie a Duex outings ;____;

 
Ugh my hands hurt from typing so much at one go. And oooh ~ and much love and thanks to you yo for the account, Block 6 is uber freaky but I CAN'T. STOP. READING =D

 ♫ Hellsing ED - Shine
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Friday, April 2, 2004 @ 09:19 p.m.

I'd been missing in action for so long and well, just to let you know I'd spent the last few weeks dying a repeated slow death over my final year project. And the most pathetic thing that I found out is that other than missing my family muchly during this whole period ; one of the many things I missed doing ( other than good food and gaming ) is I actually MISSED blogging XD XDDD;;; I'm saaaaaaaaaaad ~~~

I'm sorry for those you'd been commenting on my last entry m(_ _)m . I'd been missing for .. err half a month and last month has just 2 entries ~ XD Can't beat her record yet anyway =P ( one a side note .. WHAT THE HELL are you doing in the studio this afternoon ARGHHHHH ;___; THE EMBARRASSMENT !!)

All I wanna say for now is that : *deep breath*

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH

AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

WTF !!!!!! IT'S OVER !!! DONEEEEEE !!! KAPUTEDDDDD XD XDDD I *know* I screwed up at some point ..... BUT I DON'T BLOODY CARE ANYMOREEEEEEEE !!! I JUST WANNA GRADUATEEEE WAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *dies out*

Spent first 2 hours after my FINAL presentation going around in a dazed of pink fluffy cloud. As usual, normal sleeping time is out from the *normal* routine of my life for gawd know how many weeks. Finally when the pink fluffy shiawase-ness died ( oooh I should be shot for bastardizing languages .... ) out; I felt totally worn and exhausted -- and all around DEAD. So I finally does what I had been craving to do for so many many many days -- "SLEEP". Not one bugger hour of a *nap* But an all around time knock out SLEEP. But I think my body clock is so messed that all I can managed is a one and a half hour of ... another nap damnit T___T

I'll catch up on everyone's blogs and what not *eyes the evil mobile phone* in a bit after I'd straightened out my brain cells. But ~~ for now : doode; I'd been itching to change my blog layout XD Indeeth, I have to resist every second of my entire work time not to get my itchy fingers to stray ufufuuuuu ~~~ hopefully with the project over means that I can graduate ... well .. if I pass my Econs, Mgmt and Acc final exams anyway >_< SO ! Hmmmm .... choices choices .... who should be my new poster boy ? Go spam my comment box with yer votes !

[1]. hyde - L'Arc~en~Ciel
duhhhhhh ~~ my username is NOT without a reason ( Reason?WAHT reason??!! )

[2]. Jing - King of Bandit Jing
Jing baybeeeeee ~~~ I still want that artbook damnit T___T

[3]. GLAY
They deserve a turn damnit ! Plus mwah ! My album had arrived at home 2 days ago ~~ SWEETNESS !!!! I just hafta go home and get it now .. along with my Siam Shade V7 *heart heart HEART* )

[4]. *insert J-Rocker name here*
I cant believe I still adore them jrockers even after my stupid project wahahahaah

[5]. DUDEEEEEE , surprise us for once !
Yeah yeah .. I should try my hands on something else that is less .. predictable non ? Jive had been telling me that no matter who the subject matter is ~ I'll still ends up choosing the same one =_=

Come vote, spam meeeee ~~~~ as I shall go spam everyone else's blog sooooooooooooooooon ~~ fear meh !! XD XDD

 ♫ TAKUI - Power to the Music
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