ahhhhhh I'm at Lisa's house and on her family's laptop and dannit, some of the keys are really hard to push esp the space bar key!!! bhbvh o yah and we're about to have chocofondue or something or other. and lisa was carrying some stuff from the table to the kitchen and her cat was in the way and she kicked him! he jumped and crashed into the wall. evil whore lisa-mum! poor cat-thing kimba. I like lisa's house a lot. Esp the kitchn because the counter-place strectes over to the familyroom(?) and you couldjump onto the counter and crawl over to the other room. her house is neato. okay.EVIL WHORE LISA is arguing with me about hr kickign her cat and hr keyboard sucks n; I didn't kick him I nudged him with my foot a little more heavily than I intended, and he was just going to sit there and let me trip otherwise. Also, Connie is a stupid whore liar!!
YAH RIGHT. tBC, i need to eat chcolate.
9:38 pm ### 20020525
tip to quiz-makers: always remember to end all of your tags when you provide HTML for a result.
12:39 pm ### 20020525
argh, my comp keeps logging off today for some reason. and it's going slower than normal, too. my mom just bought some wincleaner or whatever to delete junk and make our comp go faster. It's doing the OPPOSITE.
AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! GODDESS YOU CRACK ME UP CENNIE!! HAHAHAHahhahaahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
QD: breathe! breathe!!
C: 9_6 hoo...hah...hoo...hah...
Cennie, if you're having trouble *cough* on deciding *cough* who is better...then AKIRA all the way!! I mean, he's REAL! And as far as I know, he's free. And maybe he's a little of pedophile, so he could fall in love with you. :D
Cennie: *beats her up*
C: X_<
and...oh my goddess x_x the brian-brain thing. I was right in making you get a blog ne! *stalker pants* YOU ARE MY HAAAAAAAAAAAPPY PILL!!
QD: BREATHE!
C: HUFFHUFFHUFFHUFF
QD: ehhh~ u_u; DON'T BREATHE!
C: why not?! is it because I'm a homicidal maniac and I breathe funny?!?!
QD: YEESSSSSSSSS
uweh! Yah, That Girl did come and bother us again. I think they just oh~! get off on this. She's real annoying. She doesn't even know me, but she tries to grab my notebook and write "I'm sorry" anyway on it. I doubt she's really sorry. And I don't like people I don't know grabbing my notebook and wasting my precious paper.
Okay. That incident of today was only mildly annoying compared to other experiences ;p so I don't have a lot to say on it. ...la dee da...
Find your emotion!
I got "content" the first time I did this quiz. uhm...and why is the result telling me what to do? what if I don't care that I'm "unpleasant"?
You are 60% evil! [?]
ooo, lucky me.
*laughs and laughs and laughs and laughs*
Wasn't there a "rip yar lips off" kiss? *smiles prettily* And all these quizzes were got from Lian's blog. uweh.. would it make you feel any better if I told you you get the better quizzes first?
lian: .......................
QD: ......................
C: I sorta made an upside-down pyramid! :D
lian: wtf?
QD: where?
C: you ruined it, punk ;p
lian: WTF
QD: YOU'RE THE ONE TYPING ME DUMMY
C: how do you know who I'm talking to? ^^;
QD: RARG!!!!
lian: GR!!!!
C: *ends post*
QD: aga
4:45 pm ### 20020523
bwaha :D I can be like Akira!!
Cennie: his hair is BLONDE now!!!
C: or was...maybe he dyed it back!
Cennie: we! ..ramen! <3<3<3
C: XDD
Celina-at-computer: OMS!!!!
7:33 pm ### 20020521
I'm exceptionally artistic! Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.
HA.
I am the undyingly dead ByrdTri! Find your whimsy character at kelly.moranweb.com.
I die a lot. A lot. o_o
alice went through this.
I took the What Mythological Creature Are you? test by
COOLIOS mon!!
6:04 pm ### 20020521
Of course you're not referring to ME when you're talking about some "Connie look." And I told you Plastic Tree is kickass! :D
ryutarou: ...roasting a dog...
and yar blog page is all messed up for some reason. Unless you're sizing it for the thousand resolution you have.. but that doesn't explain why your text in some places are real small!
5:21 pm ### 20020521
I think my mom forgot about me! It's 9:50 and I'm STILL HERE!!! ..Not that I mind, cos I could stay here forever but I..uhm...want to go to sleep...or something. okay.
ahh!!! Miranda's underwear is still in the sink!!! Boris (MY AGENT!!!) is all screaming about it and stuffs! haha :D and just like cennie said we were looking at kickass plastic tree stuffs and laughing so hard!! I mean there's Takashi REALLY does look like GEORGE HARRISON!!! The asian kind, anyway. And Tadashi...I like him okay, but sometimes he looks scary like a skeleton in some pictures ^^; I guess it's being 31+ years. you all prolly know already, but I like the hypochondriac. :D yah yah! go ryutarou!
and lian is over in her blog babbling about random lyric things that are really weird. that jeff guy made cennie scream out in horror and I don't really like this keyboartd ecven though iut makes such a nice nicers ound!!!!!! AGHVENHS c
9:50 pm ### 20020520
TODAY I woke up "LATE," which is what my mom thinks when I was really pretending to sleep to avoid awakened life and so I could read Drawing Blood in PEACE. My mom thinks that I woke up LATE because I was DRUNK
ONE THING I HATE ABOUT MYSELF IS HOW SOMETIMES I PITY OTHERS. WHAT made ME SO high and mighty enough to THINK that way? And how OTHER people do it? LIKE FOR MY BROTHER. DON'T MESS WITH HIM.
CASEY? You remember that time when I told you "I can't imagine you any other size" and you you answered "Thanks, a lot" sarcastically? What I MEANT was was that you were NORMAL to me.
PEOPLE WHO KEEP COMMENTING ON HOW I'M SO SKINNY: you want to know WHY? You want to know HOW? As I EAT I CUT MY STOMACH OPEN AND TAKE THE FOOD OUT OF MY STOMACH AS IT COMES. It's BLOODY but it WORKS. I hope you don't die.
Lian, Drawing Blood was on my kitchen table when I came home. It was a ghost. Most likely my mom's dead dad. Maybe he's paying me back. I think it was him that took my new year's money, after all. And my LA book project that disappeared into the empty street.
For the purposes of what I'm about to write, to me "talking behind someone's back" is defined as being FAKE and nice or whatever to a person, and then later, when you're not in the prescence of that person you talk SHIT about them.
From what I read in Lian's blog people on the other end of the table were mostly talking about other people, who "deserved" it anyway. To me, NO ONE deserve it. If someone makes an ASS of her/himself, that's her fault for screwing up her own life. You don't have to add to it. You would get mad if someone else was pretending to be nice to you and then talking shit about you later, wouldn't you? I would. Everyone is supposed to be EQUAL. I wonder how Mike feels. Or maybe we're ALL wrong and Rosa and everybody and whatever really do like him okay. You don't know.
Casey again: what did you think I was going to do to your cell phone? Break it? I've encountered these strange machines known as "cells," okay? Don't you trust me?
Lisa, I didn't know you felt that way. Like what I MEANT to say to Casey, you look normal to me. I'm not trying to control you "subtly," though. If you want to lose weight and if it'll make you feel better, go ahead.
And like Lian, everytime Casey kept talking to us to tell Them we were joking, I didn't WANT to. At those moments she'd remind me of my mom in her angry don't-make-sense repititive moods. I KNOW she just doesn't want us to be beaten up or ridiculed. But I will FIGHT BACK. I'm NOT going to let them confine me. I'm NOT going to let them CONTROL me and make me PARANOID about whatever I want to DO. THIS IS ME. STAY AWAY. DO NOT TRESPASS. I'm kicking anyone's ass who thinks they should do otherwise. LITERALLY. FOOT + ME + HOMOPHOBE = KICK IN HOMOPHOBIC BUTT! A lesson for you anybody: legs hurt more than hands. There is more strength in your legs. If some idiot tries to mug you, stomp on his foot and break some bones. Big heavy shoes = plus.
Celina, I love you very much. No matter what, I will always be your friend.
If anyone was hurt in my explosion, I'm not very sorry. If I didn't explode, I would just CRY and act STUPID again.
8:37 pm ### 20020519
I spent an hour typing my godfreaking shit and then pitas fucks up and now it's all gone.
8:35 pm ### 20020519
o yah! I remembered what I wanted to say!
I was in my mom's bathroom trying to curl the ends of my hair at least, since I was *koff* quite unsuccessful in spiking parts of it...and I heard my mom's footsteps. Earlier I was hiding from my mom and her friend and didn't answer when she called me name, cos I didn't want to stand there fidgeting while my mom's friend commented about how I looked and the like ^^; and now I really didn't want my mom to see me yet either, even if her friend already went home (she probably saw me when I ran across the hallway to my own bathroom to do something *sweat*). So when my mom stepped into the bathroom, I screamed "AA!!"
mom: ?!?!?!
C: *grin* ^^;;;
mom: You scared me!! Connie, what are you doing?!
Then she says something about how a bug bit me and put some salve on it and then I went to my own bathroom again ^^; Did that make sense?
and Lian's saying she kept thinking she heard ppl knocking on her door. All this morning I kept thinking someone's car door was slammin in our driveway and I thought I heard the sound of the garage door opening. un.
6:14 pm ### 20020518
okay, couldn't quite style my hair the way I actually wanted it. *sweat* But the mousse makes my hair smell nice so.
...
I forgot what I wanted to say.
...
I hope I don't trip over the back of my dress.
..yeah.
6:02 pm ### 20020518
whoopsie la. corrected the two links below.
and lian the punk thought I HADN'T skipped chinese school today, which I did T_T which is pretty bad and immoral on my part. This is the third week I skipped, and I told Jie Yi and Joanna that'd I'd be going.
4:39 pm ### 20020518
spent the better half of this morn being told to eat chicken noodle soup and looking for how to do feathered hair, which when I saw what it actually was I changed my mind ^^; I'd thought having feathered hair would be like having Kirito hair. So when my guess was wrong I went to ritz's place instead to look at kirito pictures. I want to spike the ends of my hair like that.
so after my shower I'll take my mum's mousse and attack my hair and we'll see how it goes. (ryutaro: psycho garden~!)
11:56 am ### 20020518
Oh, I like you, hypochondriacal singer.
8:24 pm ### 20020517
You're the HREF tag- you need someone to lean on and take care of you. You can be shy but you shine in difficult situations.
What Dir en grey member is most like you? Find out here! by
:D
take the damn thing yerself. by T3kk0!
jiro wa wai kawaii desu ne. :D
Depressing and suicidal, there's a good chance you might even take drugs or suffer from alcoholism. Even if you don't, you still live in your own little dream world, and most likely have quite a vivid imagination. In any case, you're still rather soothing, in your own bizarre little way. You're also rather angsty. |
I need to listen to them.
hello yoshi!
5:21 pm ### 20020517
oh man...I came back from school and I smell like the school's bathrooms. reeky freaky. and now all I have to do is finish the timeline and what in the whole wide world happened in the world whilst W.C. Fields was still alive. Hopefully not a lot of things. Then I have an excuse not to write a lot.
*smiles prettily* I'm not a lazy bum!
Celina is learning the italics (< i >; eliminate spaces) and br (< br >) and strikeout (< s >) tags! I have also recently brought upon myself to mark the Celina's journey in learning HTML!
Celina: OMS no!!
C: yanno, everytime I type "oms" I keep thinking about pms...^^; and uhm, I need a new layout. I keep NOT doing it but I can't stop thinking about it.
QD: Don't you have something to do?
C: Why, do you?
Celina: is that a doll?
QD: ...
Celina: Is he like Chuckie? :D
QD: 'Chuckie'?
C: HECK no u_u;;;;
QD: who ees thees 'Chuckie'?
C: *ends post*
QD: O
3:23 pm ### 20020517
OMS!!! my other half cracks me up so much!! she's really crazy, you all know that? XD BECAUSE WE ARE CENNIE! CENNIE H'TO! CENNIE CENNIE CENNIE! o yah, Cennie, you also have the "i" in yar name too. We share the "i." We have one "i." We are "i"!
QD: o_o
ahhhh, and I'm here blogging instead of working on W.C. Fields. Actually, I'm supposed to "relax" and read the life & leisure section of the newspapier ^^; that first, THEN research and finishing my outline and the like. This time, I will not be distracted. *holds up fist* POWA TO ME!!
and I think Celina (Cennie? Yukki?? @_@;) is going to live in her blog. It's her world, anyhow :D lalala
3:05 pm ### 20020515
technomancy pairing: tony/kuang hu
and if I go to sleep now, I will get a good night's sleep, as recommended by doctors in white or flower print pants everywhere.
W.C. Fields is dead. And I have to do a biography project on him. It's due monday. aw hell.
9:09 pm ### 20020514
my posts are getting longer and longer :D oh well, this is going to be a short one.
for mutter's day I made my mom mad and then happy ^^; First we got in a fight...and I made up for it by making her laugh when I did the silence dance. My brother and my mom were yelling at each other and I shut them up by dancing. fear the power of the dance!!!! *booms*
mmm yah, that tiramisu looks nyum. When you first said tiramisu, I thought you were talking about the Sorcerer Hunters gal. but after looking at the picture and reading 'recipe,' was enlightened. powa to me!
and why didn't you come to school today?!?!? Did you have a hangover?!
I'm still surprised that Liz got back with Eric o_o; I'm not too excited about the dance thing either. I wasn't going to go in the first place. But I want to spike the punch and I have a cheongsam to show off now :D
4:28 pm ### 20020513
I used to be so psycho!!!! What HAPPENED to me?!?!?! I USED to be so INNOCENT...
QD: you grew up.
C: oh! but that's so sad!
Yusuke: *point finger* and you don't keep in touch with US anymore.
C: *sniff* that's sad too.
Kurama: You don't write about me anymore.
C: Celina-dad likes you.
Kurama: oh?
C: She thinks yar hair is pretty :D isn't that right, BABA?!?! XDD
Celina: shut up!!
Hiei: Hn.
Caeli: Hn.
Hiei: Hn?
Caeli: Hn!
Hiei + Caeli: *tearfully say 'hn' over and over again*
C: Tears of joy, family reunion!
QD: I thought you said you weren't making Kurama and Hiei the dads of Caeli anymore...
C: Then they're crying tears of madness?
Hiei + Caeli: *beating each other up* >O!!!! WTF!! I THOUHT YOU FRIGGIN DISAPPEARED, YOU LITTLE BRAT!!! The HELL!!!
QD: Yeh.
Kuwabara: *makes stupid noises*
C: KUWABARA!!!! YOUR VOICE IS EXQUISITE!!!
Kuwabara: heh heh! fo SHO!
C: Your american dubbin is so friggin horrible. May you never hear it. ...I just wished some good stuff on Kuwabara! :D
Casey: *proud* Oh my Kuwabara baby!!
C: I remember Karasu. XD
Kurama: He's still a stain. *mooshes karasu-stain into the carpet* And no one will understand the stain part unless they've read your Karasu rant-fic-thing, that you took off your current page...
C: Maybe I'll put it back up, I just gotta find out who did the Karasu picture I used in there...uhm, I still think the picture is cute o.O
Kurama: u_u;
C: my mom's listening to some chinese singer sing in the background. she has a million bootleg vcds :D
singer, my pov: uwaaahhh~uaaaahhh~aaaahhhh!
C: heehee, she sounds funnnnnnnnyyy. But not enough to sound like she's wailing in pain ^^
Caeli: *huffhuff*
Hiei: *huffhuff*
Caeli: *huff* why *pantpant* are you *chokegasp* here again anyway?
Hiei: *pantpant* stupid...ningen...
Caeli: *growl* I'm not a ningen..
Yusuke: *as Caeli* I'M NOOOOOT HUUUUUUUMAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!! *screams*
Caeli: ...*strangles Yusuke's merry little brains out*
Yusuke's Merry Little Brains: *high-pitched voices* Free! Free! We're finally freeeeee!!! *dance around rather...bloodily o_o*
Kuwabara: YUSUKE has MULTIPLE BRAINS?!??!!?!??!?!?? BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
Kurama: sweet Inari u____u;;;;;
C: I guess they had babies inside his head ^^
Kuwabara: *ha!* so that's why he's groping Keiko all the time.
C: for a second there I almost forgot Keiko's name o_O
QD: stop this madness!!!!
C: Had enough already? *throws him into the pool* :D have some fun!!
QD: *bloats up* >O
2:58 pm ### 20020512
you don't sound stupid at all, mum. love ye lots.
I was woken up today round 9:50 am or so, was cranky and FORCED to take a shower. blahblahscobavitch! *curses like a sim* Then we went to Chinatown to pick up my grandma, then went to Empire Buffet in New Jersey to see my aunt and my cousin and food and the like. The place reminded me a lot of Sonia's restaurant. So I was a confused for a moment, thinking it actually was...
voice in the head: I coulda SWORN I SAW SONIA'S MOM!!!!
QD: I thought I was the only voice in your head!
voice in the head: you hoitytoity boobaflubber! *curses like a sim* you were too bloody conceited to notice me, you gobshite!
QD: gobshite??
voice in the head: something she picked up from Sad Bastard.
me: I like it lots.
QD: gobshite?
me: the book.
anyhow, we had a great time there...I think. o_O What I remember the most about is is that I brought 30+ dollars to look round the mall in NJ (ppl from RL: the mall?! are you feeling okay?!) but only spent 75 cents. 50 cents for a sticker machine in the buffet of which I was hoping to get some INTERESTING sticker cos the display had Metallica and Godsmack stickers and things like that. There was this one sticker I was hoping to get, but I forget whose band it was. My cousin Jonathon said, "Are you really sure you want to do it?" as I put 50 cents in the slots.
I, unaware of the forthcoming horror, said YEAH!
me: *push in slot*
another slot: *spews some flaps of cardboard which betwee its holy cardboard lips the magic random sticker*
me: *open*
n*snc: *stares up at me*
me: *screams*
mom: *looks at me funny. again.*
I spent another quarter on a mini bouncy ball machine, which gave me a little orange bouncy ball that I bounce around lots and is real fun and I love it even though it rolled round most everywhere and is kind of dirty and linty now but that's okay I will keep it forever and EVER AND EVERRRRR unless I LOSE it of course!
in the end, I think I spent my 75 cents well. I gave the n*sync sticker to Jonathon who has either given it to his sister or made her buy it off of him by now. So...that 50 cents contributed to someone else's happiness...sorta. And the other 25 cents is on the carpet behind me. lalala
Then we went home! But first we had a detour to Chinatown cos my mom and grandmom wanted haircuts which lasted way longer than 20 minutes. I stayed at the store where Yishuyan was anyway even though she had said she wouldn't be there cos she had to go to a friend's birthday party ^^; watched some Chinese movie thing about a doctor and his cocky (Yish: what an ass! *laughs*) student, and drew. Mom came back from haircutting, complained about its quality and about how the other hairdresser she normally went to was going through pregnancy, waited for grandma to finish her haircut so she could drive her back to her apartment(? or just some place for old people to have). FINALLY started home. For real. Mom went to vietnamese supamarket, then to McDonald's cos I had to pee really really bad. Waited in line for french fries and a burger for a looooong time. Had a jerk say "Excuse me, excuse me" to my mom, then "damn!" to my mom because to him, she was put on earth that very day just to stand in his way in McDonald's. He also obviously thought saying "excuse me" twice was one too many. My mom didn't even know he was talking to her.
Got home...and since procrastination either runs in the family or likes both me and my brother, my dad made me "help" my brother ("when he needs you to") and my brother came down post-crying cos he had been upstairs crying about it or the like. He had to do some magazine stuff and it was due Mon. I have to research W.C. Fields. But I've got a week. *cough*
Friday night, went with mum, grandmum, aunt, uncle, brother, Yishuyan, and some other old people to some place on Broadstreet to see "The Sleeping Beauty" ballet. We had seats WAAYYYY high up and THEY cost round 40 dollars! Well, at least we weren't below the humongous chandelier-thing and weren't in danger of it possibly falling down and killing us all. >)
Watched the ballet thing. No one spoke a thing! But since I have experienced the Disney Sleeping Beauty, I knew how the story went. Except Yish and I couldn't really figure out who the faeries were in the beginning...but in the end just found out it was just one purple faery in the ballet that...uhmnr, represented all the faeries in the movie we were used to ^^;
The only parts I liked about the ballet was the evil faery parts (she got to blow stuff up!!! XD coolios, mon) and the cat-people parts. The cat-couple were real funny, and I couldn't really see from where I sat but I like the cat-guy with the red hair XD He kept trying to feel up the cat-girl's leg and she always smacked him off. Which reminds me of the orchestra pit! I liked how the cello players jerked their head from side to side as they played. rockin! :)~
I also liked...those guys with turban-like hats or something on their heads. Their hats were yellow. They jumped round a lot when they were dancin. And one thing I noticed!: it was mostly the guys who got the cool music! The girls just mainly had the floaty twiddly happy music >P sucks.
We all watched the thing til 10:30, then all went home and went to sleep. Yishuyan had asked me if the ballet "was my thing" and if I had liked it. I was bored and cold. I don't like sitting for round two hours doing nothing. You can compare that with me sitting at the computer, but I get to PICK what I do on the computer. And there are (almost) always the X buttons to click out of.
okay. I'm done.
11:10 pm ### 20020511
today during gym, instead of playing outside matball we (L + I) sat out instead. We were sitting on the grass and writing in our notebooks like good little girls until two girls from our class, also sitting out, call to us. "Are you guys gay?" say one of the them.
I was sitting out in the blinding sun toasting with long dark pants and they're asking us if we're gay. "Why, are you interested in me?" I shout back. They say We just want to know! Do we "do" things? "Are you a voyeur?" They titter at each other and I think they thought I had said lawyer. Well, now they run over to us on the grass.
"You guys are lesbians?"
"We're bi," says Lian. The girls proceed to titter and make "ew oh my god" noises.
them: "REALLY?"
me: "Yes."
them: "OHMYGOD, INCEST!!"
lian: (to me) "Why is it that everyone thinks that all asians are somehow related to each other? I mean, this one kid kept asking me if I was Chantel's sister. And if I was related to Bruce Lee. And if my cousin was Jet Li."
The two girls go tell our gym teacher, and he goes "That's their business." Then they come back anyway and start to harass us.
them: "Have you guys, like, ever done it with each other? Are you guys really lesbians?"
us: "Yeah..."
them: "Can you guys, like, prove it? Lian, rub her leg or something. Or kiss. Kiss for us."
me: "Pay us."
lian: "Casey still owes me six dollars!"
me: "I already got my six dollars."
them: "No, like, by having her rub your leg is like paying you. We're not going to pay you!"
I just write in my notebook. One of the girls just keep talking and talking.
One of Them: (smacks my arm) "Hey listen to me! I told you to rub her leg or something!"
me: "Why do we have to prove this to you? I don't have to prove anything to homophobes."
them: "What? What did you say?"
me: "'Homophobes.'"
One of Them: "What's that?"
the Other of Them: "It means we're scared of homosexuals...but that's not right! We're not scared, we just want to know!"
me: (thinking, yeah, right.)
lian: "We don't have to show you anything."
me: "We don't make you prove you're heteros."
them: ('hetero' must be another big word for them) "Huh?"
lian: "We don't make you prove you're straight."
them: "Yeah, but..."
I write in my notebook again. One of the girls, the one who thinks she's especially cute and cool and popular, bends over to read.
her: (reading slow) "'You want to know...what...I can...do...with...thin...wires?'"
lian: (laughs)
me: (writes)
her: "'Wrap...them...around your...neck...and make...you...bleed.'"
her: (stares at me) "You what I can do? I can take my fucking fist and punch you in your fucking nose."
me: "So can I."
her: "I bet I'm stronger than you."
me: (thinking, what the fuck is your problem?) "You shouldn't bet."
her: (tries to read what lian's writing)
lian: (covers it)
her: "What are you writing?"
lian: "Stuff."
her: "Is it things about Connie?"
lian: "No."
her: "Is it about things you do with Connie?"
lian: "No."
her: "Is it about things you've done before?"
lian: (laughs) "No."
And they keep rattling on about what we do and WHY we're bisexuals and Did you ever have sex Do you use dildos Have you ever wanted to have sex with a boy OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD!
The homophobic nosy bitches won't go away. And they keep saying You're bullshitting. You're bullshitting us! cos "you guys keep smiling and whispering to each other." We never whispered to each other. I mouthed "I want to punch their boobies" at Lian and she laughed even though I don't think she read my lips that well ^^;, but that was not whispering. But I'm being technical now.
Non-homophobic people will accept that we are not heteros and will move on, not dig into our life and see what we have done and we do. It's like we weren't human and they kept staring at us like we were there on display for them to prod and question.
This is why I don't like to care about a lot of people, especially what they THINK. Because they are NOT going to confine me in what I'm going to DO or LIVE or LIKE. We don't even KNOW EACH OTHER, other than the superficial. But this whole interaction was started by this guy I know. And what was so fucking ignorant about it was that he'd tell people we (L + I) were lesbians just for the shock and show and attention. We aren't exactly closets, but I don't want people like him talking about us like we're show. HE DOESN'T THINK.
3:08 pm ### 20020510
I was hoping I'd get tfu tfu. I have THAT font, and I love its brains out! But at least THIS quiz result isn't as bad as some OTHER quiz saying I'm HELLO KITTY.
MOM, stop LAUGHIGNIGNJFNUIGHING at me already!!!
9:50 pm ### 20020507
You mean I *AM* feminine?!
9:47 pm ### 20020507
Amelie music is so beautiful.
Today in math class I shouted BOSOM BOSOM BOSOM BOOBIES! which may not have been the most mature thing to do but it scared people and I liked shouting so. People kept crying about their 'innocent' ears and I was just saying it over and over again and shouting that my mum's spanish teacher stared at his girl-students' boobs! and things like that and the substitute, the sub for my math/homeroom teacher just said Hey. Men will always be staring at your chest, so get over it. The sub was a girl. I didn't like what she said. More guys stare at girls' boobs than girls staring at guys' penises. WHY? Because everywhere EVERYWHERE girls are STILL seen as INFERIOR. Girls aren't allowed to do this or that, you can't show this, you have to wear this, where you going you can't go there! we men can do this because were better and superior and arrogant clutch pigs! HA. I didn't like what the substitute said because I will not just let them ever look at me like that. (mum says I don't have to worry about that really but I'll get mad anyway if it happened even if not to me). If I catch anybody, especially a teacher! you teach, not look for fantasies in your girl-students if you can't get laid!, staring at a boobs, there will be a few teeth knocked loose, because that's just ignorant. That's not respect.
9:17 pm ### 20020507
I saw merc come on o_o but he went off real quick. I don't know if he read the email I sent to him a looong time ago. If he did, he's probably wondering how do I know all this stuff about him or thinks I'm a weirdo stalker freak (nothing new).
6:05 pm ### 20020507
terminator: I'll be back.
5:01 pm ### 20020507
find your element at mutedfaith.com. <º>
her boobies are very very pointy!!! o_o
9:44 pm ### 20020506
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! some chinese advertsing lady just called and called me "xiao jie"!! being the sheltered chinese girl that I am, it makes me feel very special, because I feel like zhao wei in huan zhu ge ge!!!!! @_@ *compulsive salivation*
QD: geh!! stop drooling!!! you're like a big baby!!
C: yah I know! that's why I have you to take care of me!
QD: I'm a doll, you dummy!!
C: oh why do you put yourself down u_u
QD: u_u;;;
me<-------downloading OLD pierrot old songs.
me<-------happy with old songs >P
me<-------listening to AGITATOR
me<-------thinks it's marvellous
me<-------likes bouncy flippy notes
me<-------likes everybody's old weirdness.
have you pierrot guys beaten up that music arranger yet??
8:46 pm ### 20020506
Are you seme or uke? Find out!
uhmm...trying to think of something witty to say here...uh...aa... u_u;
I am Lynx; I am the embodiment of the Fate computer system. I am after the object known as the Frozen Flame, so I can do bad things...*sweetly* I took a bad guy quiz, too.
What Psych-Ward do you belong to?
9_6
6:09 pm ### 20020506
"Politeness is insincerity."
7:09 pm ### 20020505
I'm supposed to be going to dis mobot place and finish my biome food web thing for science that's due tomorrow, but I'm procrastinating again. And prolonging my procrastination to abdomination by writing in here and rhyming ation ation ation.
1:28 pm ### 20020505
i'm a pup.
what kinda pet are you?
quiz made by muna.
aiyahh~?
9:35 pm ### 20020503
I LOVE you, mummy.
clueless bystanders - I'm the bird-thing-which-I'm-sure-but-not-really-is-a-tucan!!
6:58 pm ### 20020503
WHAT. THE. HECK? I just downloaded two recent Pierrot songs (both of which I've gotten rid of already -_-;) that have weird and complicated names. I don't even know if Kirito is still singing in Japanese. It sounds weird. But worse of all, it sounds...happy. It sounds happy and like bright cheery sunshine and like cliched metaphors. What happened to your sound?!?!? You don't sound like JROCK anymore! You sound like...well, reminds me of mountain chants or something like that. But it's GOTTA be that music arranger that crawled from GLAY (I don't know if they're still sounding poppy >P uweh) to YOUR band!!
Be yourselves again...beat up that music arranger!!!
6:44 pm ### 20020503
oh no fair! susan and lian get animals and I get txt! (mum'll understand this)
4:01 pm ### 20020503
Day started out rainy. Purposely left behind the blue duck umbrella mum took out for me, cos I didn't want the trouble of opening and closing it as the bus arrived. It would take too much trouble and I didn't want to make the bus wait and I didn't want to embarass myself. I would only be out in the rain a little whiles, anyway. And the rain falling onto my hair would sorta mask the oil in it. Sorta.
Went to school with my bad mood grumpy of the dwarves tshirt I got from my other mum. Felt okay...I guess. Went through science, social studies, art, language arts, chorus, lunch okay. Then I had gym. We (L + I) got to sit out for it cos mostly we were playing dodgeball anyway and Lian was the one asking and I think the gym teacher likes her like the science teacher likes Brent so he let us off the hook. We sat on the table near Lauren B and Christina and just talked and talked. I slid down against the wall and made my default faces where I just stared at things and didn't move my eyes or lips. A few times while Lauren B was talking I moved in front of her face so she would look at me cos she wouldn't look at me, but she freaked out and just laughed.
lauren b: talktalktalklaughlaughtalktalk
lian: listenlistentalktalklaughtalk
me: listenlistenlistenlistentalktalklaughsmile
christina: listenlistenlistenlistenlistentalksmile
The period was almost over so I just went into the locker rooms to change, and I felt crazy because I kept feeling like I would start crying in front of everybody. In math I held my eyelids down with my fingers because I thought I could stop any tears that way, but when I opened my eyes I had to wipe away puddles anyway. I really felt crazy. I thought I was a depressed freak. I kept telling myself to shut up and stop feeling pathetic, but I kept feeling wrong and insane. Sometimes I hate life so much.
3:07 pm ### 20020502
Wondering if I should get off to scan the picture I want to use for the new layout of this blog...
I have everything planned out, as usual(?). I just need to actually do it, as usual(un).
iming with me mummy. love her lots. I still need a neon bra for Casey and some fishnet and some boots. But at least the otakon registration is SENT. oro~ 9_6
I love erode, 24 cylinders, zomboid, garden, macabre, children, raison detre, mask, [kr] cube, little of yokan ~reverse~ that I have, yokan, yurameki, cage, the domestic fucker family.
I'm so bored.
8:16 pm ### 20020430
O yah!! I have to go to that Brandywine art thing, to look at my art and lisa's art and other stuff. Lisa's calling me demented over my art. I am not. I LIKE molding different coloured eyeballs in clay and drawing half-naked people with their heads hanging off the edges and a monkey tail coming from between some belts. I LIKE drawing mannequins and "Dr Muse" and needles and pills and pixelated green dogs with a cigarette butt on its tongue everywhere. lalalala. I don't care what you say about your angel picture, I'm going to look at it.
Meanwhile, lian's getting a little pissy about her obsession(?) with her blog. It's okay if you write twice a day or more. We get to crawl inside the sides of your skull. We get to read all about you. We get to virtual stalk you and become obsessively obsessive with your bloggin life. Rockin!
Checking mail Celina's sending me... did you know we have a name together? Together combined, we are CENNIE H'TO!
CENNIE CENNIE CENNIE! CENNIE H'TO!
6:43 pm ### 20020430
yare yare ;p I have to go to some piano festival thing today and play for some judge-people to judge my playing. I also have to wear a dress. *grumblemutterhiss* *GRUMBLEMUTTERHISS*
QD: people've been through worse than you.
me: I know.
QD: So stop whining, person!
saa...well. Woke up at nine, played FF Tactics for three hours, went downstairs and ate "rice porridge," read some Sunday comics, watched tv a little, practised my pieces on the piano, took a shower, opened the garage door for the guinea pigs which my crazy psycho pop put in the garage (well...at least they're all with their mum now) and now I'm on the comp trying to be biologically attached or something to my blog. lalallalalaala
I really need some boots. And fishnet. And I need to finish watching the fourth tape of Fushigi Yuugi *salivates*
QD: >P
2:11 pm ### 20020428
Oh my. It seems that it was Kaoru saying "I'm going to kill you. I'm going to blow your head off, like raspberry jam" all along, not Kyo. ...I knew that, of course. *koffkoff* *I* know the DIFFERENCE between KAORU'S english and KYO'S! I mean, the english at the beginning of berry is so good and nice and englishy, while the other times Kyo talks in english it's a little garbled! I KNEW that!! Course I did!!! *gets beaten up for the sake of Kyo's engrish*
I still like his burblin. I know he's not SUPPOSED to be cute, but I think he's so cute, like kid-cute. baby-cute. Especially when he sings "mister fucker m".
6:43 pm ### 20020427
I'm aliiiiiiiiiiivvveeeeeee!!!!!!!! And I have to go to Chinese school, which I don't think I'm going to pass because I've missed five weeks or something. Or I might because I did very well in the first semester ^^; arafrrraarrgggg!!!! Much of my life has consisted of jambling my fingers across the keyboard to write out nonsense lately. just like THISHISHibnvjkbn87T^Tc m, / DSlnkl.?? !.m
do you understand?
My site is finally up, but I want to change the layout already. Not that I don't like it. It's okay. But I have something better on my mind...and it's going to last a long time, if I keep on with it long enough.
everyone is so colourful.
12:18 pm ### 20020427
man, something's wrong with the melifluous server today. It's so slow. I was actually DOING things too. I was going to BRING IT UP, BRING I ALIVE, YEAH YEAH YEAH -- *gets shot*
And for some reason I keep SHOOTING myself today.
I don't know what to SAY about today. I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SLEEP. Argh.
...
I don't know what to be feeling.
10:22 pm ### 20020426
I hate when I have my period. It's when I think WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE ANYWAY, WHAT'S THE POINT OF DOING THIS and when I have my cramps, I think IF CHILDBIRTH IS GOING TO BE WORSE THAN THIS...THEN I DON'T WANT TO GIVE BIRTH.
lianlianlian
5:06 pm ### 20020425
Oh yeah. We got guinea pigs.
...
bye.
9:22 pm ### 20020423
I need to hire a hitman. Anyone got any numbers?
9:14 pm ### 20020423
Sometimes I really really hate him. He was really adopted. We found him on Hawaii island on a freshly erupted volcano. He was covered in black ash but not dead.
He's trying to spy on me typing or something. I doubt he can see this far from the stairs behind me. Anyway, what a hypocrticial little kid. I
9:10 pm ### 20020423
Everybody listen. My brother's name is Terence To, and he is really really annoying and stupid. I hate him a lot. That's why...
9:05 pm ### 20020423
*laughing at The Domestic Fucker Family*
3:49 pm ### 20020423
Which British Band Are You?
Oh waow darlings! I'm not getting any work done today, apparently. ONLINE QUIZZES ROCK MY WORLD. Or maybe just my obsession with them. Hold on...there's gonna be more.. Oh my SUZAKU, does mum have billions connections to quizzes. I think she gets them all from auntie susie.
I'm not getting anything done today. ____ is bothering ____. lalala
I'm not even getting bad habits done. spread spread spread
6:23 pm ### 20020422
Take the Affliction Test Today!
coolios, man.
6:11 pm ### 20020422
dgnjksghdnjkghdnjksafhjkahsa baHMAB!!!! otakon REALLY IS IN JULY. YISHUYAN won't be able to come with me after alllllll...*grumblemutterhiss* *groanmoanspit* She's picking China over me... *pouts*
QD: Well DUH!!! If it were YOU, would you want to go to CHINA or NEW JERSEY?!
me: NEW JERSEY. BECAUSE THAT'S WHERE OTAKON IS. IT'S GOING TO BE MY FIRST CON. Besides, my dad probably isn't going to let me to China ANYWAY. He wants me to go to VIETNAM.
QD: Cos your family's there.
me: Just his side. And why don't they come here?! Here is better than there. Even if they get to keep live animals in their backyard and have climbable coconut trees everywhere ;p
QD: hn.
I'm going to beg and beg Celina and Casey to come with me.
4:17 pm ### 20020422
WHAT IS WRONG WITH SOME PEOPLE? LEAVE MY DAUGHTER ALONE.
10:27 pm ### 20020419
"indigo ink pearl" is such a pretty colour name.
9:24 pm ### 20020419
yeah. okay. I was looking for a (the?) fetish quiz, but it's not up there (or anywhere) anymore. And I have to help do the Music Man Jr. At 6. AGAIN. I don't know what possessed me to audition in the first place.
...well...the applause was nice.
ROCK ON, KYO.
5:34 pm ### 20020418