omg. why am i always late. i'm LATE once again, even when i'm gonna take my PSLE results. WHAHA. when i reached school everybody was like leaviing already. LOL. so yea, got my results. ask me if you wna know! then went home, to tuition teacher's house. then went back home. then went to westmall to meet ning, ry and ning's cousin, adelbelle. ahaha. she laugh a lot! LOL. she's cute. watched shutter. WTH. there's one part that's damn scary. LOL. anyway, after that went to ning's house. had fun there! haha. i was late AGAIN, when meeting ning. LOL. so yea, take care all!

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came in here on11:01 p.m.x

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sigh. i admit, i do miss sixgrace. and about Singapore Idol, i can't belive Olinda's out! i mean, i thought taufik will be out. no offence guys. cause i'm a taufik-hater. HHA! no offence to taufik's fans alright! but phew, sly's in! went to IMM yesterday with mom, bro and sis. i wanted to buy clothes! then my mom keep getting me those stupid small jeans. i'd prefer BAGGY! then i wanted to go to hang10 then my mom protested. OMG. hahaha. cause i passed by that shop hell lotsa time then when it's abt to go home then i suggested. WHAHAHA.my sis bought her school bag. then my bro and mom bought jewellery. WHAHA. my bro bought a necklace. err, cost abt $400+. my mom bought a ringg. haha. then she bought a pair or ear rings for my maid. and i bought NOTHING! she asked me if i want but i rejected. WHAHA. i'm guai kia! anyway i don't even wear those. LOL. then was supposed to go causeway point today. but went to grandmother's house instead. ahh~ i miss that place! LOL. so i'm going to causeway point tomorrow to shop for clothes! JEANS, TOPS AND SKIRTS! im coming!! ahahaha. btw,I CHANGED MY LAYOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!do give comments!

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blogging now again. wells, today had the friendly match with 6Peace again. felixANDirvin won 6peace.tht was REALLY an exciting match! wee liat and joel played VERYVERY well! mygod. wee liat improved hell lot. like WTF! whahaha. the match was veryvery interesting. then meANDpy vs cc. AHH. we wre like, leading at first? thn they catch up. then now it's 8:10. they're 10. but nevermind. hahaha. hmmm. then went back to klass. watched Shrek2. felix brought the CD to sku. WHAHA. was nice. at teh starting there's 'Accidentally In Love' by Counting Crows. whahaha. then went to practice badminton aftr sku. WHAT THE HELL. we were supposed to practice. but we ended up PLAYING. hhaa. playing daidi too. for a while onlyy. lots of people wre there. felix, irvin, andrew, me, py, ruey yuan, chan ning, chloe, enwei, edmund, hong liang, gui yong, teck chye and jun ping. did i miss anyone out?!?! haha. i hope not. tht's all. BYE. take care peeps.

DEDICATIONS TO SIXGRACE
Six Grace, 2004, Bukit Timah Primary. We were all from 5grace. Then, moved on to 6grace. Times we fought and quarreled.. I will miss those times. I admit, i didn't cherish our times we had together when we wre in Primary5, or rather, this year too. But now, i've started to regret. Why? Cause it's just two more days and all of us will go our seperated ways. I will really miss everyone of you. I know we'll not be able to meet up often as we'll be busy with our school works etc. But promise me, we'll at least be able to meet up trice a year. And don't forget to keep in touch no matter what!

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came in here on07:00 p.m.x

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yay! i'm blogging now again. told meliaJIE tht i'l blog MORE often! HAHAA.yup!a gurl of her word.AHAHAH! LOL!!! i'm hyperr(x wheeehaaa! ok whtevr. anyway, went to edmund's birthday party ytd. whahaa. met py at westmall's KFC. i was late! haha. about 20mins late! LOL. then went up to the arcade to find the guys. YUPYUP! hahaa. then playANDplay. played air hockey. meANDpy vs edmundANDryan. guess who won?! of course it's thm -______-" OBVIOUSLY RYTE! hahaha. but nevermind. we had FUN! but my mom's so unreasonable. i wna cryy living under this house. i want my daddy here! ): come back! hahaha. i want him BACK in sg! urgh. this suck. she said she isn't gonna pay my hp bills. cause its WAY UP TOOOOO HIGH! evil mom. she don't even allow me to go py's party TODAY! so i've ROTTED at home just now. AHAHA. wnt out to eat jus nw. haha. i WANTED sakae sushi. but they want teh OTHER restaraunt. i'm rebellious. haha. tht's whyy i had a quarrel with my mom. BLEAG. actlly, not my fault. AHAHAA. =X this entry's gonna be a LONG one. anyway, i wna change my skin. buh i dno which type t cre8 ler. someone gimme any ideas?! PLEASE.. hahha. i dnt wnt t crack my head too hard. it'l CRACK! LOL. wtfuck. wht rubbish am i spouting now. GAHH! oh crap. i gna miss sixgrace. *burst into tears* AHHH. I LOVE SIXGRACE!

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i don't want a dead blog anymore! YEAA! keep this blog ALIVE! whooohoooo! i'm soooo damn fucking hyperr! WHAHAHA! yay! say HEY! "HEY!" LOL!!! guess who makes me so HYPERR.it's..IRVIN!my bestbestbest bud! he's a GREAT PAL! whooohooo! ahahaha.i'm crapping with ning and enwei.making them as hyper as me! WHOOHOOOO.enwei doesn't knw how t spell my SURNAME!she suck! AHAH.joking! bleah.if you're hyper,say I DO!whooo.i heard soooo many "I DOs"! yeaaa! tht's teh way! WHOOO. whtevr. let me blog bout tday and yest.
yesterday
was SUPPOSED to go out with irvin and quek.for badminton.but i got locked at hme! by my mom. =(( she's evil. *SIGH. anyway, yea.then i was BANNED from teh comp!till 8pm.yeayea.that's ENOUGH! lol. okok.no more yesterday
TODAY!!!
had the friendly match thingy.calvin won yuzheng. both of them was really good.whahhaa.anyway, was really very happy whn calvin won.words REALLY could not describe my feelings then.anyway,we lost evrything to 6p wht.haha.so we can just depend on our doubles! WHEEEE. i wna have anothr friendly match with christine on singles.WHAHAHA.thn played 'names' with UNO.was FUN!fun fun fun fun fun ffun fun!YEA! we mde the MOST noise.ahaha.ahh.that's all.CYACYA! tke kre al! PEACE OUT!

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came in here on06:54 p.m.x

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ok. here i am blogging. sorry for not blogging for a long time uh? just a short one though. will blog longer tmr. lost in friendly match agn.haha.we're losers.(: went t watch princess dairies2 today. haha. with py, irvin, andrew and justin. i thrw popcorn at justin and andrew. hahaha. halfway watching i'll just thrw some popcorn over. LOL! SO FUN! then keep touching irvin's face with my hand cause it's COLD! ahaha. then shopped for present. haha. bought for qq. tht's all for tday. hahhaa. will blog more tmr. so cya peeps. take care and PEACE!

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came in here on07:57 p.m.x

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stop asking me whn is teh competition.its on either tuesdayORmonday.find out urself.cause i dnt knw too.

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came in here on07:06 p.m.x

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i'm dead beat.badminton;singles today.wasn't even doubles.doubles is on monday.ahh lazy.later then blog!HAHA.ning look!there's something right!ENJOY YOUR READING.hahhaa.good luck to 6grace boys fer tomorrow's soccer!!MUST WIN K!

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came in here on07:13 p.m.x

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hey! i'm like blogging so late today? haha.i will keep my blog updated everyday! haha.anyway,went to play badminton just now.hmmm.after school,went 7-11.haha.then stayed there for a while,then went to play badminton and the badminton court near andrew's house.surprislingly,i met a lot of people there.mostly from 6J.thsoe guys and girls from 6J went to train.hahaha.guys training guys.then me and py were fooling around.HAHA.there's one thing that was horrendously funny!HAHA.bertrand wanted to smack then gui yong was infront of him.THEN HE SMACKED GUI YONG'S HEAD!haha!i'm damn unlucky today LA.first,gio hit the badminton racket right onto my cheeck.then,the shuttle cock hit me nose there.one in school,the other one outside.then,while i was playing with py at the badminton court(outside school),her badminton racket hit my shoulder.AHH.and now,my toe seems to be growing blister.went home for a while,then meet up with candice for badminton again.till now.i kinda stink!LOL!oh yea,today mrs lee told miss tan about yesterday the Cresent Girls school thing.then i kinda 'debated' with miss tan about who's right and who's wrong.i STILL think mrs lee is wrong.anyway,mrs lee is the 6C's form teacher.i know her name already.then miss tan went with me to clarify with mrs lee.about did she warn me to stop talking or not.then her attitude totally changed.yuesterday she was like shouting and talking in a sacarsm way.today,in front of miss tan,she was like talking SO NICELY.then i still have to apologise to her AGAIN!fuckfuckfuck!AHH.but nevermind.don't bother about that anymore.let's bygones by bygones.LOL.i'm so kind.HAHAHA.anyway,i can't belive the competition is tomorrow and my wrist is pain(i think due to how i serve.so now i'm changing my style of serving) and there's blister growing.OMG!hahaha.but nevermind.taking part in doubles and indivisual.candice said that she think indivisual is like,helping yourself.not for class.hmmm.that's all.bye.

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came in here on07:59 p.m.x

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oh fuck! AHH! i'll talk about in the morning first LA.played badminton with irvin,ryan,justin and john.then PE.played doubles with ry and chan ning.chinese period was bored! we did the 'Hao Gong Ming'.damn bored! 2 period of that and 1 period of video.Watched 'twiis effect'.LOL.continued from yesterday LA.damn nice!then after recess we had the Cresent Girls talk.damn lame.i don't intend to go there anyway.LOL.then actually me and gio can skip the talk.but someone told the teacher that me and gio were not present.so py and enwei went to call us back to the hall.WTF.i hate 6C's teacher.she kpkb a lot.like,i was just talking.since i told her that i'm not interested already.so i was joking around there.I DID NOT PLAY WITH THE BADMINTON RACKET AND CREATED NOISES!then she called me and scolded me after the talk.wtf.she's a bitch!almost ALL the P6 girls were talking and she picked on me ONLY.she likes to pick on my class,eh?!fuck her.I MEAN,even dog doesn't wants to fuck her.run away when they saw her.AHHH.and she demanded a apology from me.when i did NOTHING wrong to her!FUCK.then i have to write a report on what i did and give it to misstan tomorrow.ok.look what she told me.
Her:That girl there (points to me) come here.
Me: What!
Her:Come here come here.What's your name?
Me:Bernice.
Her:Bernice what.What class?
Me:Bernice DERMAWAN.(says proudly).6Grace.
Her:Who's your teacher?Miss Tan izzit?
Me:YEA.Miss Tan Hui Teng!
Her:Ok.I'll tell her about it.
Me:But don't you see that there's lots of girls talking too?Why you caught me ONLY?
Her:Cause you were joking and laughing the most and you were using your badminton racket and hitting the ground.
Me:Yeayea.I did not use the badminton racket and hit the ground.
Her:Something like that la.
Me:Yeayea. Whatever.(going to walk back)
Her:So must you say?
Me:(gives her that look)sorry(in a very 'bu shuang' manner)
that's the whole fucking conversation.she's sacarsm a lot.i feel like taking a knife and stab it right at her chest.or worst still,torture her first.pour acid water on her face.then dig her eyes out.then cut her tongue.and slap her.then ask tons of guys to fuck her upside down.Anyway,in the report.i will give my COMMENTS.about how bias she is and whatever craps.she's soo damn fucking kpkb.i sweaR i'll piss her off when she talks to me or whatever next time.you could've heard the tone she used to talk to me.so damn sacastic.and she LOVES to critisize my class.and saying HOW GREAT her class is.great my foot!even if her class IS great,i pity her class fer having such a teacher.she sacarsm around.she has a attitude problem.like,so what if she's a teacher? that gives her the prevellage to boss people around? the prevellage to scold people whenever she wants. and fancy her saying that i'm rude.she says,'didn't your teacher taught you not to talk when someone is talking?the person up there is the pricipal of Cresent Girls!You're so rude.OH WHATEVER.her class is talking too and she didn't say a single thing.HOW MANNERED CAN HER CLASS GET! i think she should get a specs or whatever.she's everything you don't wish to know.i don't know how can she be a teacher.and a EM1 teacher some more.i hope the car bangs her tomorrow.that's her retribution.hope that she's crossing the road when the car suddenly bang her.or when she's cooking and the whole oil splashed to her face.whatever it is,just make her get outta this school.i shall not complain about her anymore.if my dad's in Singapore,i would complain to my dad and ask my dad to talk to the principal about that bitch.ugh!anyway,the competition's on thursday!let's train everyday.

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ok! back to update. didn't have PE today.i thought there was.and i went telling Calvin that there's PE.haha! sorry! but there's PE tomorrow.badminton agn.HMMM! and now, i'm missing him agn.hmmm! chatting with pera now.hahaha.where's lowell?!thought he would be online! this entry will be back to my NORMAL self! the cheerful one! no more sadness.no more.forget about everything! enjoy life to the fullest! YEAAAA! but everytime i feel sad.i don't know why.just have that feeling. and everytime when i wna cry out loud,i can't.i want him to know how much he means to me.ohhh WHATEVER.played UNO today.WAS SOOOOO FUN! we played heart-attacked with the UNO cards.actually the one whose hand is on top isn't the unlucky one.the one whose hand is BELOW is the unlucky one.you know why? this only happens to my class.LOL! the one on top will press their hand so hard that those below will start the feel the hurt.LOL! stupid felix,weijie,irvin and sometimes,edmund.miss shamila suck.she doesn't even know how to control the class.we're playing badminton when she had gone to the Staff Room fer whatever thingy.LOL.i mean, not WE.but some.supposed to play badminton today but due to lowell NOT wanting to go,all of us cancalled it.oh yea! i was late fer school tday! YAY.hahaha.once i went to school Miss Fion Tan started shouting at me. -______-" my socks AINT even ankle.and she said that it's ankle socks.it's HIGHER than ankle ok! A LITTLE HIGHER! but wait,it's still not ankle right! LOL.then when i stepped in the gate then she was like,Bernice! what socks are you wearing?! pull it up before you go up to the hall!.UGH.hahaha.but Miss Tan didn't breathe a word about it.thenthenthen we watched CRAYON SHIN CHAN! WHOOOHOO! damn funny! we were like laughing.especially BRANDON!he keep laughing! HAHA.we watched during Mdm Seah's lesson too! HAHA.she had something to attend that's why she didn't stop us.but she said that there will be twoperiodoflessonsANDoneperiods of watching tomorrow ONLY!AWWWWW!actually,we should've protested! LOL! the group that i played with o heart-attack is the NOISIEST one.it's always like this.LOL.and more voilent one!HAHA.gays in my class are sooo funny!you just can't stop laughing when they does their 'gay actions'.like what weijie did to edmund!HE SQUEEZED EDMUIND'S BUTT.what the fuck!EEEEEKS!we can't stop laughing!HAHAHA.imagine that!that time weihao(weijie's twin brother) touched quekqi's butt too.haha!but he suffer MORE.cause quekqi keep whacking him.quekqi's voilent.stay away from him! HE'LL KILL YOU MAN! err alrights. shall end here. good luck to all my friends that are taking their exams alright!and ermm,to those seconday friends that will be taking back their report slips,results.GOOD LUCK!hope you all won't drop to NA or get promoted from NA to express!

putting a happy front infront of my friend.but deep inside my lies.all my uunhappiness.i'm bottling up everything.just wait till that one day when i can't take it,then i'll most probably explode.so friends,bear with it if this day comes alright.love ya all.THANKS FER BEING THERE!

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private blog updated!ask me fer the url if you want to know.(:
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hmms.now i wna say something bout sg idol.hmmm.i thnk Maia is really a good singer.but she got out.wtf.and christopher's in.what's wrong with singaporeans.they voted fer him cause he has the looks?i seriously think that this is not fair at all.i think they should cancel the vote thing.but well,nevermind.didn't went fer badminton today.actually,i really wanted to go.really.but..it's not that i can't.it's just that..i don't wna develop a stronger feeling fer him.oh shit.whatever.LOL.nevermind about that.i'm going tomorrow instead.with lowell,irvin,ry and her sister.it's not a good thing either.at least he's not there.sometimes,i wonder.so what if he's there or not.i don't talk to him anyway.he don't talk to me either.what's the use.that's why i'm really trying very hard to give him up.loving someone and not to be loved return is the worse feeling ever i swear.PE tomorrow AGN.NOOOOOO!hahaha.hmmm.i miss him.yet,i don't wna love him.oh nevermind.AHHH.I MISS HIM!!!fuckfuckfuck!i need irvin to cheer me up!vin!whr r u!

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came in here on11:21 a.m.x

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yay!today's my birthday!hehe.hmmm.my dad's leaving tomorrow fer work.AHHH.they went orchard just now.i didn't tagged along.cause i went to play badminton.as well as meeting him.haha.met irvin and lowell there as usual.i was late!HAHA.as usual!LOL.they were kinda scolding me.then i keep fooling around with them.LOL!made me laugh till i've got stomach ache.saw him there when reached badminton court.haha.he's soooo cute!YEAAAAA.i know he doesn't likes me.AHH.forget about it.stayed there fer awhile nia!bout 3hr+.haha.suddenly it rained.then me and lowell watched them played soccer.irvin,him and his friends.was crapping with lowell LA.i took his carrot cake!he was eating carrot cake.HAHA.i ate twisties!TWO THING THAT MADE ME LAUGH SO DAMN LONG.i took the cup and blow air into it.LOL!making irvin and lowell.HAHA.cause there were three cups.LOL!then i keep making.secondly,IRVIN'S PIZZA WAS LIKE SHIT.hahaha!the ingredients all dropped.HAHA.DAMN FUNNY.i think cause i shaked it while carrying his pizza fer him.LOL.lowell,him and his friends doesnt even find anything wrong.LOL!wtf.damn funny LO!i shall not be SOO irritating anymore.i'll try not to talk to him as much as possible.yupp!
berr loves him forever

thanks those who wished me happy birthday!thanks.muacks.

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came in here on07:13 p.m.x

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back to update!hmmm!let's see.had ONEandahalfhour of PE just now.badminton!hahaha.yup!hmmm.played doubles with Chan Ning,Ruey Yuan,Charrissa and Christine.haha.was kinda fun.but tired.i drank 3 bottles of water!keep buying and buying.LOL!chinese lesson was pretty funny.fool around.but wait,mdm seah is STILL teaching.she taught as 'Hao Gong Ming'.i mean,what's the use?haha.oh shit.i didn't bring my chinese worksheets home!i left it under my desk.hahaha.anyway, we had art.it was kinda fun LA.but on the other side,BORING!although PSLE's over,i think that we've got nothing to do.except for playing cards and watch videos.and not to forget,PE,computer lab and art.but wait,we don't go computer lab THAT often.i think 6H goes MORE often.they went there like almost everyday.even when PSLE's coming!and their teacher IS damn blur.haha.after school,went 7-11.my daily routine!hahaha!i missed uncle's joke!fool around with him.larry's as funny as ever!that monk!hahaha.it's raining just now.me and enwei took the LONG WAY to Andrew's house.did nothing there.played UNO and used about 5-10 minutes of computer.then told irvin to come to andrew's NEARBY badminton court to play a game of badminton.hoping to meet him also LA.but he didn't came.Andrew's sick.i mean not THAT sick.but physically sick.he's down with flu and a slight fever.that's the reason fer him not coming to school today.SEVEN absentees.fuck.quekqi's nick..why must he be so fucking stubborn.i mean,i have absolutely NO relationship with irvin.we're friends.very good friends!he's funny.he's my best pal.so what if i talks to irvin everyday?oh whatever.none of his buisness anyway.LOL!hahaha.i mean,i've got nothing to do with quekqi too!i think irvin and lowell is my best male pal.with a lot of others too LA.actually,males are better than females in a lot of way.like keep cracking jokes that makes me laugh till i get stomachache.hahaha.going to play badminton tomorrow!anyway,i won't be surprised to find out that he doesn't likes me.anyway,it's obvious.err nevermind.shall not say everything here.in my private blog,perhaps?so yea,i'll end here!cya guys!take careeee!
Peace

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sigh.euminl and weilei broke up.like why must this happen.like i said,no love in this world is perfect.i doubt i haf the chance.he refuses to tell me who he likes.i think the person should be someone from his school.-cries-
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hmmm.went to the badminton court near andrew's house just now again.was kinda boring.but at least i gotta see him.but didn't talk.and now,i would say i'm sooo in love with him.hehe.went there at 2.30pm till 4.30pm.me and vinnie keep fooling around.and i spilled my green tea!LOL!i miss him.he went to attend a wedding dinner.anyway,i want to know who he likes.but he refused to say.vinnie and me are going on saturday again.to train me!haha.he'd better train me how to save the 'smack' before the competitions start.or else i'm gonna kill him.actually vinnie's a good friend.my very good friend.lowell too!he helped me like asking fer the number and stuffs.but in the end the number turned out to be a fake one.and now,i don't even know his REAL number.so saddening.it's so bored now.school starts tomorrow.anyway,nothing to worry about.since i pratically got nothing to do in school except play,watch videos,PE and art.haha.these will be my life routine.and going to play badminton on Saturday and Sunday.more like to see him there.haha.-sticks out tongue-YAYYY!im really getting mad over him.wheee!but vinnie's free only at 3pm on Saturday.he has got piano lesson.from 2-3pm.so if jl's going,thn lc go.if not,i'll be meeting vinnie at 3pm.i'm almost broke.haha.but whatever.who cares.my dad's leaving Singapore fer work on this Saturday.so i'm celebrating my birthday on Friday which is tomorrow!haha.oh shit.maybe i have to see him to the airport.it's just a MAYBE.i can't bear to watch him go.but mum says that perhaps we'll go there and visit him on december holidays.OH YAY!HAPPINESS!im so happy.he's not going to attend the wedding dinner anymore!YAY.chatting with him on msn!WHOOHOOO.-smiles- yipeeee.ILOVEHIMforever.

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just a short entry.saying what i did the past few days.actually it's nothing.i just went to andrew's house or his nearby badminton court.yea.practicing badminton most of the time.and fooling around with them.i have no mood to joke in my entries anymore.and i mean it.everything's not alright.everything's not going smoothly fer me.why is it like this.i hate the way it is now.mum told me that she's gonna choose a new car these days.my dad's going overseas to work again.and i hate this.he's going fer 3months.three damn fucking long months.first time was twoyears in america.now it's going to b3 three months.i can't bear to be seperated from him again.i burst out in tears yesterday.and now,going soon.first came a guy whom i love that doesnt love me.and now came my dad.what's going next.tell me..i want to know all the bad things now.right now.my life wasn't a pretty good one since young.almost most of the families prefer my sis and my bro to me.but my dad has never shown favourtism.and now he's gonna be gone.three months isn't a short period!why must it always be ME ME and ME getting all these 'luck'.cant it be someone else?the person i love..i don't even think he would pay even a little attention to me.a glance of him is not enough everyday.it's really not enough.my life is always full of tears.here's what my comments about love.you can take it as you like.it's kind of about my life anyway.
I thought love should be a beautiful thing.Now, all the facts proved me wrong.People getting hurt by love.I always thought that love is the thing that gave people happiness, warmth.but now,i could even say that less than half of the people whom i know is so called 'sucessful' in that.no.they aren't!aren't love something sent by God to make our life more beautiful?Adding more colours to our life?I always thought this to myself.Why can't i just get a perfect love.It's always full of whys in my life.I'm always imagining things.And things are always bad for me.The person whom i love so deeply now,doesn't even know.I can't even get his number.I'm really a failure in everything.To me,life's just so useless.As plain as a piece of white sheet.That's my life.I always used to thought i have a beautiful life from young.But as i grow up,the colours fades.Slowly fades.I'm not what i used to be anymore.
sighs.crying is what i can do now.it's only crying and crying.what else i can do other than crying.i know it's no use.no more cutting in my life.really.no more.cutting myself is just as hurting people around me.i mean friends.i just need him.him and only him.is this asking for too much?i goes there everyday, just hoping that i could meet him.i sacrifised.i did.but after all i did,i could only get a glance of him.i'm selfish.yes,i am.i want more.i'm greedy.i want more than a glance of him.i want more,i need more.i want to be more than JUST friends.MORE THAN.not just good friends or whatever.

i miss felix.i miss ting.i miss jolene.i miss amelia jie.i miss giovanna.i miss franciso.i miss jayne.i miss amanda.i miss huijuan.i miss debra.i miss ken.i miss daanish.i miss hazel.i miss peiyun.i miss all my sec1 friends.i miss yee wee.i miss sara.i miss pera.i miss jill.i miss joy.i miss my friends.i miss anna.i miss euminl.i miss weilei.i miss kenny.i miss trina.i miss rhian.i miss seline.i miss weixiang.i miss onix.I MISS EVERYONE.PRATICALLY EVERYONE.most of all.i miss him.

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FUCK.imisshim!!!i will update on my private blog.ask me if u wnt t know.

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came in here on08:52 p.m.x

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and now,I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.imisshim! DAMN IT.i'll update tmr about it in my private blog.IMISSHIM.really!FUCK.im so deeply in lurff!HELP MEEE!!!!hope he does accept.

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came in here on10:39 p.m.x

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im everything you don't wish to know
im dead.im hafing a sore throat.a bad one.im hafing a headache.im hafing a slight fever.and my legs muscle hurts cause of 2hours or badminton.i could hardly even tok!SAVE ME FROM THIS FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!!imisshim.ilovehim.iwanthim.ineedhim(:
someone save me from this fucking piece of idiotc crap.

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came in here on12:59 p.m.x

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hmmm.met andrew,irvin,py,naomi,justin,
zhen,jayneANdaloycious.thn jayne,zhen,alloycious and my bro wnt t watch movie.so teh othrs and me headed t westmal t meet ken,euminl,debraANDamanda.haha.thn sat mrt.was plyg and plyg in teh mrt.haha!me and irvin ran here and thr!LOL!frm one side of teh mrt t teh othr!WHOOO.so fun LO.thn we fke teh age.haha!euminl,debra and amanda faked their age.thy said tht their childrn!HAHA.hmmmx.thn i lost my money in teh first ride.LOL.$40.so andrew called teh ride teh money stealer.HAHAHA!SO FARNIEH RIGHT!LOL.was kinda boring in escape.thn eugene tan came wif his frnd.LOL.followed by qq and larry.thn silvia.larry was soo farnieh!HAHAHA.i slapped him!AGN.thn while plyg teh 'mini roller-coaster',cause i was eatg my lolipop!THN larry was sitting BEHIND me.so i kept putting my lolipop bhind t let him see.thn he hitted my lolipop awy!DURING TEH RIDE LO!my poor lolipop!AHHH.i asked him t buy fer me anothr one but he refused.how kind.thn he wnt t his frnd's bday partieh.aftr tht wnt t teh bowling bside escape.wnt thr fer fun?!haha.plyed teh 'photo hunt'.aftr tht wnt t teh shopping mall called 'white sand'.plyed arcade.eugene,hisfrndANDirvin plyed lan.hahaha.thn me,irvin,andrewANDeugene met silvia outside teh MRT cause she was stil in escape while we were at teh shopping mall.thn we wnt bck t escape.whn we were walkg thr,it was drizzling.thn slowly teh rain got bigger.so we sat taxi t andrew's hse.teh first taxi was soo STUPID!teh uncle said tht he knt fetch 5child.so we sat teh othr one.HAHA.teh uncle was frndly.eugene crapped alot.andrew,eugeneANDirvin keep sayg sevil.LOL.wtf is tht man?!wnt andrew's hse fer 5min.thn plyed badminton at teh badminton court near his hse.thn wnt bck t his hse.haha.dint styed fer long.thn me,irvinANDsilvia went home.left eugene tan.meANDsilvia wnt t haf our dinner.while irvin wnt home.thn sat taxi home wif silvia.hmmm.whn i reached home,i forgot my present.LOL.one was wif andrew.teh othr was wif gene.LOL.nvm.thy gna gib me bck on friday anyway.haha.tday was fun but smehw boring.yupp!tht's al thn!toodles~

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came in here on09:22 p.m.x

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today was a kinda boring day LO.really sorry edmund!really really sorry!cause our shuttle cork dropped at teh roof.nt really roof LA.thn we wnt t ask teh cleaner if she has teh longthing t help us retrieve it.and she called a guy t jump dwn and tke.actlly all of them volunteer.justin,johnANDedmund.thn larry told al of thm not to.thn edmund wnt.we tried t stop him but teh aunty told him t.sighs.sorry!i really dint mean it.i dint knw so many thngs wil happened.really sorry!thn klass party.damn boring.haha.had 3periods of PE.i got in t teh doublesbut NOT singles.i wna go into singles!but tcher said tht if all plyg doubles get into singles,it's unfair.thn she put me into reserve.AHH.nooo!hahaha.i thnk tht A GURL in singles doesnt play so well LO.haha.nvm.tke it as my luck.wnt westmall aftr tht.was kinda boring LA.cause thy wnt t shop fer present and i knt go.abt 1hours i'm lonely.not actlly.bout half an hour LO.thn xiaoxuan and karen came and look fer me.felt kinda left out LO.sighs.i hte tht feeling.walking ard westmall,seeing those unknown faces.i swear i wunt evr wnt t be left out agn.i would rather go home.HAHAHA.boringg.
7 more days to my birthday!

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came in here on05:32 p.m.x

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HMM!been sleeping ALOT these few days.sighs.yupp!thr's klass partieh tmrw!!WOOO!haha.i hvnt bought anything yet.ltr gna ask my maid t buy.haha.and yeah,tday's MELODY'S BIRTHDAY!
happy birthday melody!
bought a somethg fer melody.gna buy her bday present tmr.anyway i realised so many things happened aftr PSLE.bad as well as good.my bday's coming!23rd october.but celebratg on this saturday.i doubt he'll even go LO.hmmm.wnt comptr lab tday!!was fun but no,we knt surf othr website except fer MOREATONCE.COM.wtf right.kinda played badminton durg recess.was lke 5v2?dnt thnk teh 5person grp was gd.cause i was in thr.and i hardly could shoot.weihao keep shooting and shooting.LOL.nvmm.mstan gna test meANDgio badminton tmr.LOL.i thnk 6Peace wil win.haha.nvm.but i would at least lke t help our klass win smthg?haha.watched 3videos tday.
shaolin football
mr beanNNNYYY!!
a sassy girl
i dnt knw if teh title was correct.anyway,teh shaolin football was SUPER FARNIEH!and teh sassy girl was farnieh and at teh same time,kinda sad?hmmm.supposed t do art tday but our klass dint wnt.so mstan postponed it t nextfriday.haha.
yesterday
yesterday was kinda fun LO.too many things happened anyway.no more mood.byeee!

why wont you belive that i dont like him?i really do love you.come back

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came in here on03:40 p.m.x

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err.blogging so late.haha.ichanged the date!!HMM.was laet fer sku tday.hahaha.reached sku at bout 7.45am.thn walked t teh klassrm.whn im outside al of em saw me le.hahaha!thn started callg my name LO.thn whn i wnt in evryone was lke,WAHH!SO EARLY!hahah!thn had tht stupid english survey.wht kinda survey LO.wastg time only.but teh tcher was GOOOD!he allow us t tork!cause we done it in 30mins.thn at 9am,he asked us t hand in cause al of us were lke sleepg!LOL!thn we tork and we tork and we tork!so fun LO!thn mdm seah came.lecture us.hahaha.said tht teh tcehr was not frm our sku and whtevr craps.haha.thn we had teh psle bklet tday.i thnk it's so dumb LO!why bothr t gib it t us whn we hvnt got our results yet.hmm!and thr's teh how to choose your school wisely tork.i seriously thnk tht its LAME!(: haha.OH YEA!mstan asked if any of teh p6s wnts t go t teh ZOO.i thnk our klass mde teh most noise.we keep shouting and laughing.haha!haha.go thr just t see those animals?thn only 2 person raise up their hands.LOL!of course not frm our klass.haha.hafing klass party on friday.wooo!so fun mans.hmm!thn wnt 711.took 173 thr.too hot tht's why dint walk.hmm!suprised t see no one was thr except fer Gui Yong.haha!ate mash potato!YAYYY!haha.thn took bus home wif naomi.wnt home plyed comptr immedietly!wheeee!thn i was thnkg of sleepg fer a little while.and i ended up sleepg frm 4.30pm til 11pm!haha.and i stil thnk tht im kinda sleepy nw!SO CYAA GUYS.i gna sleep!and sleep!sleeping is heaps fun!call me a pig.i dnt mind xP.SO YEA.BYEE.
nights al.swt drms.

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came in here on12:03 a.m.x

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FUCK!i accidentally closed teh entry i just typed.ugh.nvm.hmmm.msn isnt workg fer me,ya?i tried on both of my com.it dsnt wrk.i guess my comptr is a little crazy or whtevr.needs a checkup.LOL!im stil missing my wallet.my beautiful pynk OP wallet.-sighs.wif thousands of neoprints,letters.and my 'hard-earned' cash.but luckeh fer me,i stil haf anothr OP wallet.greyANDpynk.yup!but it stil knt be compared t my old wallet.my wallet gna be sooo thin tmrw.lke it just lost tons of weight.poor wallet!im depressed fer my old wallet.my money!i gna beg my parents fer money.i hppe thy'll gib me.but most probably,npe.ive been spendg SOO much these few days.my .greyANDpynk wallet wif nth inside.HOW NICE!nth inside except fer some cash.and i mean SOME.-sighsnvm.i knw it's no use fretting ovr it.cheer up berr!it's just a wallet!OHHH.and t quekqi,if ure readg my blog!dnt hlp me buy a wallet k!i dnt need it.i haf already.in fact,dnt haf t spend so much LAS.kk.thanks btw.
i created a new blogskins.lotsa comment tht teh colourr dont blench.but stil,im lzy t change.forgive me guys.i gues tht's abt al fer tday.wil blog bout tmrw fer sure!cyaaaa guys!toodles~

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came in here on06:43 p.m.x

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i lost my freaking fucking beautiful wallet whn i playedm para..AND MY MONEY!ahhh!wtf.HELLLLL!i hpe tht person who stole it get fucked by a cow.LKE HOLLY SHIT.how can i evn lose it!i mean,how can thy steal it LO.it was in chloe's bag!URGH.but was kinda happy.i saw lene!in lot1.i was talkg thn suddenly she ran here and held my hand.haha.she's so sweetchioANDsexy.hmm.her dear and herr's damn loving.lke thy hold hands and things.haha.i stil knt accept teh fact thT I LSOT MY WALLET.fuckfuckfuck!fuckit!forget it.thr's so many neoprints.and letters.andd MONEY.URGH.whtevr.-cools down.
i hate irritating copycats that just knt stop copying people.thy shud rlly get a life.or slap thmself.whn wil thy stp?just fuck off LA.fer godness ske,she just treat me lke a 3yearoldkid?she knws how t gib excuses evrytime.lke hello?!im going t be 12!EXCUSE ME!can you find a btr excuses?if not thn fuckoff.i wil nvr blive you.maybe last time,ido.once,twice?it's more thn enough.ask yourself and stp denying.
life sucks evr.i broke down and cried whn chloe got off.why must this happen t me?lke,evrything bad happens.nvm.forget it.just pray tht teh person wil haf retribution.fun day playing wif gio and chloe.thanks yea.

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came in here on08:17 p.m.x

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finally im blogging.haha.tday was nth much.since it's stil so early wht right.hmmm.woke up kinda late.HAHA.so nice!haha.hmm.should i haf doodleboard or tagboard?haha.someone please tel me k!
yesterday
haha.yesterday was fun LA.me,gioANDsilvia wnt t woodlands/causewaypoint.cause silvia wnted t get bck her hp.[she sent it fer repair thr]thn ltr we wnt t jurong point.was fun LA.but sort of boring.meANDgio wnt t choose clothes fer silvia.we choosed fer bout..1hr+?and in teh end she doesnt wnt any clothes.thn me and gio bought clothes LO.thn we wnt t ply arcade at jurong point.HAHA.hmmm.thn shop shop shop.and ate claypot rice.haha.saw chloe,beatrice,yunweiANDliza in jurong point.thy dint saw us btw.haha.WE RANN!bought icecream and headed fer westmall.supposed t meet xiaoxuan and keren thr.but thy were tkg their time in sakae sushi.so we wnt t ply ARCADE agn!haha.CAR RACING!SO FUN LO!i got 1st straight in THREErows!WHOOHOO.haha.silvia kept banging me.>< BOOOHOOOO!haha.but i stil got 1st wht!haha.thn we wnt buying clothes.hmm!silvia FINALLY thn bought a t-shirt.i thnk tht teh t-shirt is rlly nice and pretty.haha.thn we've lke,got nth t do.we wnt shopping and shopping and shopping.CLOTHES CLOTHES CLOTHES.haha.neway,OP hafing sales yesterday.haha.hmm.thn sat taxi home cause rushg fer time.my dad called.sat taxi wif gio.thn we both were discussg how our parents would punish us.HAHA.hmm.reached home,qq called.tok fer a while.haha.hmm.tht's al.fun time yesterday.(: going out on friday too. :D

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came in here on11:47 a.m.x

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lene!imsohappyforyou!happy forevr k!hah.

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came in here on09:50 a.m.x

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THIS WORLD IS FULL OF HEARTBREAKERS!
LOVE SUCK.falling in love wil only lead t miserable life.tke precautions no mtr wht u do.lovehurts.ting,my only wish is t see you cheer up,and be teh ting i used t knw.teh cheerful one.wif a radiant smile on her face.but not tears.i knw ur feeling now.don't be sad ovr tht.i wil be here,here fer ya,no mtr wht descision u mke.i wil be a listening ear.i wil be supportg ur descision.don't care bout wht ppl thnks.wht mtr most is,wht u thnk of it.we're your friends.we'll support you.i wnt t see a happy ting!not a sad one!u nvr knw how much i care fer you.hw much i love you.how much you rock.take care and God bless.iloveyouu.don't bother bout gab and whoevr already.

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came in here on11:36 p.m.x

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sighs. to evryone who has a blog: dlt ur iwebmusic.thy haf virus or whtevr.so rmbr k.im not jokg or whtevr LA.cause i dlted mine too.if uve already experience pop ups and whtevr,thn faster dlt LO.tday's science.it's so damn fuckg difficult.i thnk i'l fail.i told my dadd.really.it's difficult.i dnt understand alort of tht qn.psle's ovr.iloveit.i miss alot of my friends.jamous called me just now.sighs.i dnt feel in teh mood tday t blog.sobye.

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came in here on07:35 p.m.x

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sorry fer tht entry yest.was pissed off by someone.dint mention teh name and wunt mention.yupp.tday's math.yeayea.naomi was lke,it's so easy!easier thn prelims and whtevr fuckg shits.thn get A LO!since its so EAAASSYYYY.i find it quite difficult.i got teh last qn wrg.and she's lke,teh ppr is so easyy! easier thn prelims u knw! teh last qn ans is 150.i asked alort of ppl,thyve got teh same answer.yeayeayea.craps.
bullshiting.teh ans is 216 i guess? fer A LA.thn while walkg t 711,iasked her.
me : u say teh ppr very easy wht, so u kan get A right?
herr : no LA.i mean easier thn prelims.maybe only can get 60+.
me : really meh? easier meh? then you must get higher LO. i dnt thnk its easier LO.
herr : tht's wht u thnk wht.
yeayeayyeaaaaaaa.ASSS IFF I BLIVEEEEE~! i'l be a fuckg fool.sorry fer those vulgars.im not in teh mood.tmrw's chinese.dead.my internet is a lil..uhhh.LOL.crazy.
ihtecopycatshelllot.thy're full of craps and..lalala.haha.gta study MORE chinese ltr.maybe it's rlly a last miinute workk done.ilovemykennykor!he's teh best.haha.no LA.not best.haha.he's mkg me JEALOUS.bout tht he kan play those games.LOLS.and cal his hp t listen t moosic!HAHAHA.

hope u knw im referrg t u.ure a bitchh.copycat and whtevrr shits.haf some ideaaa frm urself.u kan get so much fer ur prelims but uve got no brains fer this.UMMM.i hpe u fail evry subj drastically :D so purrlease,fuckk off.ihteyou.youstupid pieceofcrap.

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came in here on08:39 p.m.x

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i hate copycats
i hte thm!i really do.WHATTHEFUCK.IM PISSED.copycats copycats!WHR ARE YOUR ORIGNALITY!FUCK OFF.FUCKKK OFF.GEDDIT!FUCK YOUR ASS OFF.COPY IS AL U KNW.GO FUCK A COW!

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came in here on06:50 p.m.x

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i won't be blogging much now adays.so,yeah.psle's coming.but maybe i'l keep my blog updated.haha.hmm!im not in teh mood tday.reason?URGH.my dad and bro left t teh movie without me. >< how evil.my dad wnted me t study at home.instead,i wnt t play com once he's OUT!actlly,he kept teh com plug.but i wnt t seaarrrch!ahaha!hmm.actlly,i dnt haf much t revise.i revised al teh pprs i brought home alr.perhaps i'l go study some math qn ltr.i was dng some othr hmewrk whn mstan explained thru teh qn.ahaha.cause i left 4qn undone.hmm.i knt blive psle's coming.BAHH!but aftr psle,it's gna be fun,funANDmorefun!HAHA.GREAAAAAAAAAAT!im gettg irritated by qq.he cals me evryday and sms me evryday.DAMN IRRITATING.IM DAMN IRRITATED I TEL YOU.urgh.perhaps wil blog ltr.

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came in here on03:20 p.m.x

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added some piktures.teh smal ghurl thr rght.shud credit t AMELIA!(((((((((((= hehe.
happy birthday ting!
happeh birthday t you!
happeh birthday t you!
happeh birthday t tingting
happeh birthday t you!!
helpyoupray* heard tht you'l pass your exams wif flyg colours and remain in express!may al your dreams comeTROO andandand..ummm.let me thnk ah!i dno >< hahaha.

sku was OK tday.did science and math.hmm.hafta revise ltr on.TWOmoredays.im dyg.yeayeayea!haha.i swear,ihateedmund.he's mkg me hte him.he spouts al those nonsense and whtevr shits.tht mkes me dislke him.thn,he whacked my frds fer nth,tht mkes me HATE him.

thereasonisyou__*

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came in here on01:09 p.m.x

i lurbes`
him +
01friends +
02hearts +
03stars +
04lolipops +
05handfones +
06beach +
07glitter +
08nite +
09hotpinkk +
10pinkk +
11sweets +
12chocolates +
13dreamms +
14fun +
15trust +
myDEARESTmarmieh<sub>comma</sub>
myDEARESTdaddie <sub>and</sub>my<sup>FUTURE</sup>brother-to-be
dislikes`
heartbreakers`
two timers`
hypocrites`
flirts`
copycats`
sluts`
bitch`
jealously`
betrayals`
backstabbers`
arses`
stress`
being cashless`

iremembered the first k i s s youga ve m e