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I GOT MY LICENCE TODAY!!! YAY!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!! Ok. I can believe it, because I'm a good driver. I can't wait to drive alone. Go where I want, when I want and with whoever I want. I can take my friends to the movies. It's gonna be so cool. I saw David today! I was so happy to see him. It had been like 6 months since I had last seen him. I gave him a BIG hug. He asked if I had lost some weight and I told him yes because I have. After seeing him, I figured out that in one year and five months, I lost 34 pounds. That's another reasaon why I'm happy today. Today has been a great day! Monday, December 18, 2006 07:41 p.m.

I know it's been a LONG time since I've written on my blog, but now I havwe time and something to say. Right now the guy that I really like is going out with a girl. The problem is not that he has a girlfriend, the problem is his girlfriend. She's the worst person ever! She's such a B!@+c#! I wouldn't care if he was going out with almost any other girl, but why does he have to go out with her? She's not attractive and as far as I've seen, she treats him like $#!+. He's way too good for her, both in his personality and looks. He's even too good for me, but I still like him and always will. Even if he's still going out with her at my party next week, I'm gonna kiss him on the cheek. If he brings her to my party I'm gonna kick her out cuz she wasn't invited and I don't like her! Well that's all I have to say for now. Later. Sunday, December 10, 2006 02:26 p.m.

Today was really cool. First from 9 to 2 there was a car wash for Drama. It was pretty cool because of the fact that there weren't that many cars. Total we had less than 30-40 cars.It was sooo unlike the Disneyland carwash. The Disneyland carwash had almost 100 cars (I think). It was cool when Diego, Eddie, and I were holding the banner. Diego started doing a crazy, funny dance that we think might have scared away customers, not bring them in like we were supposed to. After the car wash, I went to the last of Community Day (which was from 10-4). When I got there these little girls and some little boy, were doing Mexican/ Spanish dances. After that Jenny and I went to the place where the FFA (Future Farmers of America)(that Jenny had to work at). It was fun talking to the people there. Right next to there, there was a kareoke machine. Ashley (I think that's her name) was singing alot and she has a good singing voice, but the songs she sang, were not songs that went with her voice. I sang a song on the Kareoke machine. The song I sang was "Thank You" by Dido. I was pretty surprised that I had more courage singing alone in front of people than ever before. I got some complements that made me happy. There were people that wanted me to sing more. When I found a song that I would've sang, Jenny and I had to go. But you know what they say, "Leave 'em when they're wantin' more." That was pretty much my day. Saturday, October 15, 2005 07:00 p.m.

Happiness and sadness just will not go together. Friday was a happy day. It was homecoming so there was a lot of fun things. To show your school and class spirit Seniors were supposed to wear black, Juniors were supposed to wear red, Sophmores were supposed to wear yellow/gold, and Freshmen (and Freshwomen, who totaly ROCK!) were supposed to wear white. 8th period was pep rally. It was cool! When I got there Sammi, Eddie, and Estevan called me over and told me that I was the Freshmen representative. They said it was because I was important to the Freshmen class. When they were announcing all the Presidents, Vice Presidents, Secretaries, and Representatives I was last and they didn't know my name because they just told me and not them so they called me "Their Rep." just because they didn't know my name. It was OK though. The Freshmen had won the Jello Toss, but the people said the Seniors won but the only Jello they got was picked up off the floor. The Freshmen did win the Bobbing for apples, but this wasn't a regular bobbing for apples. You had to eat as much of the apple as you could. Thanks to Omar having a big mouth, which isn't bad, we won. After school was the parade and it was so much fun. WE WON!!! Now Freshmen should get their respect. After the parade I chugged two water bottle before we even passed Mountain View.

My family went up to Apache Lake. I had a wonderful daydream that I was at the Homecoming Dance and HE asked me to dance. It was a fantastic daydream. Too bad it was only a daydream. It was fun! I almost flipped on the Bonzai. My tio didn't knock me off except when I was with my dad. When I was alone the boat was going about 60, 70 mph and the Bonzai goes 10, 20 miles faster than the boat and it was so much fun. I dove off a cliff and that was funner. And there was a cute little girl that before she spoke to my Tio Heno she said "Excuse me Sir." She was so cute.

Yesterday I was sick from school and today I cryed because stupid Coach Lukow wouldn't let me go to the game. I drew a picture an eye, under a tear, under a volleyball, under a dagger, and under a heart. It meant, I cyr because of volleyball which has created the pain in my heart. Oh well now. At least I gave HIM a dollar, He gave me a hug and said "I Love You." Even though it was just because I gave HIM a dollra. Well Today I wrote a poem and I wrote two poems last week and I'll write it on this page. I'll go from most depressing to most happy. OK here comes the first:

September 15,2005

STRESS

I'm only a teen with so much stress.
Why can't I have none or less?
Why must classes bring me down?
Why must I feel I'm about to drown?
Why must days be filled with pain?
Why can't everything wash away when they say my name?
Why must life be so hard?
Why can't people relax in their yard?
Why must something always be on your mind?
Why can't everybody be kind?
It's because life is full of stress,
But everyone does progress.

Now the second:

September 27,2005

VOLLEYBALL BLUES

The day fells lost,
But this is the cost.
Not going with my team,
This feels like a bad dream.
So many tears to cry,
But keep them in I must try.
Loss of time, loss of sight,
Loss of all things good and right.
Loss of hunger and happiness,
I must relieve this stress.
My heart is in pain,
Cold blood in my vains.
When I was feeling cold and blue,
HE said the words "I love you."
Even if it was for a dollar,
It released the stress from my collar.

Now the BEST (at least 4 me) for last:

September 15, 2005

LOVE

Love can be so harsh in this place,
The guy I love plays a bass.
Does he love me? I need to know.
If not my tears will show in sorrow.
Oh please say yes.
Then I won't be depressed.
Days come and days go,
Ireally need to know.
Does fate not approve,
And shall I foward move,
Or shall I await a better day
And finally be with my beloved Jay.

That one really cheered me up. Well I have nothing more except Coach Lukow is stupid. L8R. Tuesday, September 27, 2005 06:57 p.m.

Today we played Nogales (our rivals) in volleyball and all three teams won!!! It was soooo awsome and my throat hurts now. Freshmen lost the first game 27-29 and then we won the second game 25-16. The third game we played to 15. We won 15-11 and we took the win. The JV team and the Varsity team won 2 rounds in a row. This was the first time that all three teams won. The freshmen record is 4-1, the JV record is 4-1, and the Varsity record is 2-3. Well I'll write more later because tonight is a school night and it's all ready late. I wrote some poems the other day that I'll put in here later. Later! Tuesday, September 13, 2005 10:26 p.m.

I'm so sorry for not writing for a long time. Well I'm in volleyball and at first I was complaining because I never even wanted to join volleyball. My parents said I fell for peer preasure and what was I going to do when they wanted me to do drugs or drink, but it wasn't peer preasure, Yaeren was the only peer that wanted me to join volleyball. First my dad wanted me to join, then people told me Coach Lukow wanted me to join, Dora Meza also wanted me to join, and Ms.Manuz was always talking about volleyball during class. So see it wasn't peer preasure it was adult pressure. The first week I felt like I was in H-E double hockey stix. The very first day I pulled my hamstring muscle and it really hurt and it took a week to heal. The football players said that volleyball isn't as hard and not even close to as pysical as football or basketball. They said all you do is stand in one place and hit the ball so there's not that much running. WRONG!!! Volleyball is just about as hard as basketball and it is pretty physical , sometimes we actually run into each other. In volleyball we even have to do push-ups. We don't always stay in one place and last week we had to run 9, I repeat 9! laps. I'm glad today's Friday so we don't have practice 'till Monday. The thing right now that is weird is that I didn't want to do volleyball and now I'm worried that I might get a C in science, and when I get a C, plus or minus, my parents will take me out of nwhich ever sport I'm in. See how things can change in 2 weeks? Well this year we're Freshmen (AKA Freshmeat or for girls Freshwomen). Progress report grades were turned in today. That's kinda a bad thing. My teachers are Ms. Bristow (Who's going through Kemo Theropy and is very funny and nice-English Teacher), Ms. Moore (Who everyone thinks is on crack-Science Teacher), Ms. Manuz (the nice one that we do not know how she goes on with heels on all day-Math teacher), Mr. Lopez (Our youngest teacher-Geography Teacher), Ms. Concanon (Drama Teacher) and Ms. Sandoval (the good nice teacher with 7 cute dogs and 2 snakes-Spanish Teacher). On Wednesday I go to Freshmen club with Mr.Rodriguez (Who girls think is cute and some other girls and some boys think he's gay). I also joined drama club. I'm in the costume department and I have to go to school tomarrow for a meeting from 10 to 2 but I'm leaving at 1 to go see Ms. Scott. Well that's all I have to say for now. Friday, August 26, 2005 08:21 p.m.

HOLY CRUD!!!!!!! I haven't written since January!!! Wow! A lot has happened. First of all for Basketball Season we had one of the best seasons ever! We went 10 wins and 0 loses. On the tournament we won our first game against Emily Gray *25-6. We won our second game against Old Vail *26-9. We played in the championship game. It was a close game. We thought we were going to play against Saharita, but we played Desert Sky. It was intense. The final score was 42-43. We had lost our first game. Everyone was in tears except Coach Ramirez and the manegers. We got 2nd place and when we were crying we made everyone cry because they felt sorry for us. Well the basketball team can play in a tournament in Douglas on Saturday, April 23rd,and we're going to probably start practicing this weeek. I don't know who we'll be playing against, but we'll probably do good. The musical has been progressing, but Dr. Capodicasa and Ms. Walker are stressing out. The musical performance is in less than two weeks. I'm ready, they want us (the Fum Sisters) to be PERFECTLY together in our moves. That's Impossibloe but they don't care and frankly I don't care if we mess up at the performances.And one bad thing is that Estevan "Jack" won't be there on Friday of the performances. The performances are on Thursday the 28th, Friday the 29th, and Saturday the 30th. I Luv Jay!!! He might like me!!! See, yesterday when we were on the activity bus and Tisha was talking to me. First she just asked if I was in band. And I said no but I wish. She said why. I said because the guy I like is in that class. She know that I like Jay. She had said "Oh," and she asked if we were going out. I said no. (I really wish we were though.) Then she asked if he likes me. And I said I don't know. Tisha said that she thinks that he does like me because he talks about me on the bus. After I heard that, I went under the bus seat. I yelled, I need to call Jenny!" because I needed someone to talk to. We had the AIMS test this week. It was easy except the reading part. Disneyland Trip is coming up. There's 18 days untill we leave. Before we go to Disneyland I have to ask Jay to ride the Matterhorn with me and I will!!! At Disneyland I'm thinking about kissing Jay on the cheek at Disneyland on the Peter Pan Ride or during the Fireworks show. But I don't know yet. I'm saving money for the Disneyland tripand I have about $35 so far. But I'll have more. I won a DVD player at school and I sang the National Anthem at the closing ceramonies at Youth Hoops. People at school that had never spoken to me told me that I was their Idol. Well that's all I have to say for now. Bye. Saturday, April 16, 2005 05:57 p.m.

Oh my gosh! I have had so many things happen in the past two weeks. On Monday, the 10th, the list for the people who made the Basketball team was going to go up and I was freaking out soooooooo much. I was jumping up and down, biting myself, running around in circles, and I was sitting and laying down on the wet grass. My back was soo wet before 1st period. In first period we had gone to the computer lab, and on the way to and on the way back, we walked by Ms. Ramirez's room to see if the list was up. On the way back it was up. I studyed the list carefully..... .....................................................and I WAS ON IT! I became soooo happy! That was all that happened on Monday, the 10th. Tuesday, the 11th, was just an ordinary day. On Wednesday, the 14th, I became soooo embarrased because on the bus I wrote "I (picture of a heart) J" on the window. On the way outside we were talking about it and the embarresing part was that Jay came out behind us. I ran and I didn't want to see Jay for the rest of the day. I ended up seeing him at lunch and Nessa asked him nif he had heard anything and he had said he heard alot. Plus, after school Jay had called me and I wsa so freraked out. He had just called to find the name of the Simple Plan CD's (the first one) title and song names. Nothing about what he heard came up. On Thursday, the 13th, Jay told me that all he heard the day before was his name. I also felt sick the whole day. My stomach was hurting all day and my head started to hurt just before lunch and it got worst because of Dr. Capodicasa. I had had practice that morning and I had to stay after school to try-out for the Musical Theater (as one of the Fum Sisters). All I had eaten that day was half of a lemon. Once I got home I threw up. I also threw up 2 other times that night. On Friday, the 14th, I was told that I made one of the Fum sisters. After school we were getting picked up because we were leaving for Flagstaff to go sleding. It was so much fun sleding (from Saturday, the 15th, to Monday, the 17th). I got soo many bruises. On Tuesday and Wednesday, the 18th and 19th, I had pretty normal days. Oh wait on Tuesday, the 18th, the wrestling team had their first wrestling match. On Thursday, the 20th, Stefanie Erikson was telling me that she thinks that Jay likes me, but I'm not really sure. Today we got our uniforms for basketball. Our first game is on Monday and it's away. We had an open house today for the after school program and we had to perform parts of the musical for all different people. Well that's about all for now. Bye. Friday, January 21, 2005 07:15 p.m.

This new year has been very, very busy. First of all school started on Monday. I was so glad to see my friends because the winter vacation had started to get boring. I saw Jay which made me very happy. Now my dad knows who I like because my brother was mad at me and he was being a blabber mouth. My mom already knew because Lauren the B***h had told her at the first band concert. Now my family, who I live with know who I like and my dad saw Jay on Friday. Anyways back to school. Basket-ball try-out have been this week, at 6 A.M. in the morning. Ms. Ramirez the girl's b-ball coach hurt her ankle on Tuesday morning (which was the first morning of try-outs) and she was cussing really badly. It was bad. On the up coming Tuesday is when the list for the people who are going to be on the Basket-ball team is going to be put up. I hope I make the team. O.K. now back to what happened this week. On Tuesday after school there was a meeting for people who wanted to join the C.M.S. Musical Theater. I stayed after and it was pretty fun. Exspecially the bus ride home. David, Yaeren, and Jay were on the bus and the bus was 20 minutes late and I walked home. I was almost home when my dad came to pick me up. On Wednesday I took Zona for a walk. It was a 2 mile walk, up and down hills. On Thursday I wanted to take the bus home after the after school C.M.S. Musical Theater, but my mom didn't let me since I was going to B-ball practice in the morning and she said I had needed more sleep. On Friday after school when I was on my way to the C.M.S. Musical Theater and Jay was on his way to wrestling we were talking. He had asked me why I was staying after school so I told him about the theater. He said that he had wanted to do the theater so bad but he couldn't because he was in wrestling. I tried to tell him if he would ask Mr. Mims if he could go to the Theater the first half of the after school program and he go to wrestling during the second half on days that he would go to Theater because we don't have to go everyday. He didn't say anything and he just went to wrestling. I felt like crying because he wanted to do something that he couldn't and if he would of joined the Theater I would have been able to see him more. Yesterday was the first day of Youth Hoops Games. I was there all there all day my feet were killing me by the end. That's all I have to say for now. Sunday, January 9, 2005 11:10 a.m.

Today we FINALLY got high speed internet. The mediacom guy has come three times, but we haven't been able to get it until today. My new e-mail address is hipoke@mchsi.com Oh my gosh! I have such a headache. My younger brother, Nick sat on me just because I didn't lend him my headphones from my new CD player. I couldn't breathe and I told him that but he was still on me. Now I'll be going to sleep soon. G2G. Monday, December 27, 2004 07:37 p.m.

Yeah! Today is Christmas and we had Christmas Eve at our house for once. My cousins spent the night and it has been so much FUN! I got quiet a few gifts. It's funny, for my birthday I got Now 17 and Now 16 and for Christmas I got another Now 17, 2 other Now 16's, and 2 Now 4's. I can return the extras for the Nows that I need. I'm probably going to get Now 3, Now 10, Now 12, and Now 15. I'll be complete an my Nows after that, until Now 18 comes out. Well that's all for now. Bye. n_n Saturday, December 25, 2004 11:37 a.m.

Sorry that I haven't writen in a while. I should have written last Satrday and I should have wished Jenica a happy birthday on that day. O.K. weel I'll just say HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JENICA. Basket-ball try-outs were this week and the winter concert was this week too. Ms. Ramirez, the basketball coach told me that I have a good chance of making the team. I did good at the concert and I got alot of compliments. Dr. Capodicasa got pissed yesterday. She kicked Sammy B. out of the classroom. She also said that I was talking when I was singing and all I said was, "What?" and "Yes," but Dr. Capodicasa had to be a B***h. Anyways, yesterday was Vanessa and my birthday. She's older than me by 3 hours, JUST 3 HOURS. Oh well. Well after school some of my friends and I went to the Pizza Hut and the movies in celebration of Vanessa and my birthday. The people that went to Pizza Hut and the movies were my mom, Marcos (my older brother), Nick (my younger brother), Vanessa, Jenica, Yaeren, David, Jay, and me. At Pizza Hut we were telling jokes and we were laughing sooo hard. When we in the car on the way to the movies Jay was going to tell a joke but first he had asked David if hell was a bad word (David is really consientios, how ever you spell it, about bad words). David had said it wasn't. Jay asked if the only way it was bad was when someone said it like go to hell. My mom said that that was just giving directions. Everyone busted out laughing after that. At the movies Nick, David, and Yaeren went to go see "Lemoney Snicket's: A Series of Unfortunate Events". Marcos, Vanessa, Jenica, Jay, and I went to go see "Blade: Trinity". Jay kept moving seat throughout the movie. That didn't bother me but this one guy that kept walking in and out of the theater with his cell phone and he was always walking in front of us. That was sooooooooooo anoying. Anyways, the movie was so AWESOME! When we were taking everyone home we were moving around alot in the car. When we dropped off Jenica everyone got down and looked around. Jenica's mom had just got a new puppy that morning. It was a chiuaua and it was soooooo cute. Jay and David climbed a tree in front of Jenica's house that was sooo high. We almost left Jay and David at Jenica's house because they didn't want to leave. On the way to David's house there was an argument about Yaeren's life it started to give me a haedache. I got alot of gifts from my friends alone. Last night some of my parent's friends came over to play cards. Yesterday was alot of fun. Bye. Saturday, December 18, 2004 03:54 p.m.

I HATE LAUREN!!!!!!!!! Every time I saw her when she was in band, she was hanging out with Jay and no one else. She knows I like Jay alot. I think she is trying to take Jay away from ME! She is such a B***h. At the dance I felt like a totally different person. I was dissin' Lauren without even insulting her or really talking to her. At the dance I was so happy. :D I was so nervous and I didn't know if I should have asked Jay to dance but I didn't have to even ask him. There was a Mexican song on and I had just raised my hand to wave it and say hi and Jay came up, grabbed that hand and he started to dance with me. When I was leaving I was saying bye to all my friends. When I said bye to Jay he grabbed my hand again and started dancing with me again It made me feel sooooo happy!! :D Tomorrow I get to see Jay again because the parade had been reshcedueled for tomorrow. YEAH! n_n G2G. Bye. Friday, December 10, 2004 09:03 p.m.

I can't believe what I did today. I think it might have been an instinct. I don't know though. See what happened was I had stayed after school for the homework helper and HE stayed for wrestling. When we had got on the bus HE just called me like he wanted to talk to me so I said, "What?" Then HE asked, "Do you still like me?" So I just said, "Yeah! Why?" After I had said that I felt this kind of sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. I don't know what it was. Ohh! even before we had left school I could think about is how Ms. South was a B***h. She always is. Ohh! On my binder this morning I wrote, " I HATE LAUREN THE SLUTY B***H!" And someone wrote Dido next to it asin they agree with me. That's all for now. Bye. Monday, December 6, 2004 07:05 p.m.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I am just soooooo frustrated I just feel so mistreated and treated unfair. I'm the only girl between me and my sibblings. I'm also the middle child. Today my brother, Nick went to the movies with his friends and my mom and my other brother, Marcos went to the movies right now. My dad doesn't care that he didn't get to go to the movies but I CARE! Today the christmas parade was supposed to be in Nogales, and the CMS band was going to be in it (HE is in band), BUT the parade was canceled because of the STUPID rain. The only good thing that happened today was that I started and almost finished Nessa's B-day Present. I really wanted to see HIM. I really like HIM but I don't know how he feels about me. I want HIM to tell me how he feels about me. I've asked him in a letter but when he wrote back it was a stupid letter about how HE doesn't like to write and that whatever I have to say I have to say to HIM but I can't. I'm just to scared. Should I ask him if he likes me at the dance on Friday? Well I don't know. Yesterday Lauren got me so F***in' pissed. She had said that HE was flirting with her on Thursday during band. I don't believe her because Nick and I told HIM all the bad things about her and I know he'd believe us and not that skanky B***h. Yesterday night I babysat Emily who is Mr. Poling, the principal at Mt. View's daughter who is about 5 or 6 months old. She is sooooo adorable! If you don't know who HE is or you didn't find out who HE is from the last entry I'll tell you who HE is. HE is Jay Ceballos. Well, see ya later. Saturday, December 4, 2004 06:34 p.m.

I was so happy this week because the Jazz Band had 8th grade lunch Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. Today the Jazz Band a Jazz Festivil in Nogales and they went to McDonalds for lunch so I didn't see HIM today except for this morning before he left to the festivil. Yesterday I hung out with Jay =D and David at the band meeting last night. I really want to know how HE feels about me. I wonder if HE's going to the Christmas Dance. If HE does do you think I should ask HIM to dance? Well never mind. I owe my cousin, Frankie, a happy birthday so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANKIE! G2G. Bye. Thursday, December 2, 2004 07:51 p.m.

Thanksgiving was pretty good, except for the fact that I threw up. *Yuck!* It was so much fun!! We do Secret Santa with the children and people usually find out who picks them. It's usually because my BLABBER MOUTH cousin, Dominique (I hate the fact that her name sounds alot like mine; mine is Monique) always finds who everyone gets and tells everyone. Last year she got me and she came up to me and said, "Hey, I got u." It was so annoying. This year she hasn't done anything. Yesterday we went to the movies and saw the Incredibles. We had to take Chen, my cousin's neighbor who we think is the devil because she is always fighting and hitting people. She is such a little B***h. At the movie theater she had gotten into a fight with the candy cashier and we could hear her from the movie theater. After the movie we went back to my cousins house and we ate dinner there. While eating dinner we were saying raise ur hand if u don't like _______. We'd fill in the blank and once quietly we said the name of my cousin's neighbor's name and we lifted our cups and said "Cheers" and that was us raising our hand. Then my cousin's neighbor lifted her cup and said "Cheers" and we laughed hard. Then we played outside and we threw limes at my cousin' neighbor and it was so much fun :)! Today we started to put up Christmas decorations. I'm tired right now so I'll talk to u peoples later. Saturday, November 27, 2004 06:25 p.m.

YEY!!!!!! This is my very first entry. Yey!!!!! I've been tired all day. But today was a pretty good day. I saw HIM because it is a blue day. See Ya Later. Monday, November 22, 2004 06:22 p.m.

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