it's spastic hour
not for long
STILL today.. oro? it's 12:38am? ok, july 17th then
sound: Crucify My Love -X, on repeat

seriously, do you expect anything perky from someone who's been listening to Crucify My Love for the past hour?

though so. well, tough, bear with me

weee... (right, now it's "wee"?), i got a mood indicator. tis fuuuuuuun.... T_T .....

sorry... um... you know that feeling, when you've been listening to Crucify My Love and reading sad hide-chan fics for an hour... and when you think back to a year ago and realise... last year i was still a "recent" j-rock convert and... agonising over hide-chan fics. mwaaaaaaaaaa.... maybe i should call this the "Yoshiki mood"? so tortured, it would fit him and his drama queen poses. (seriously, i admire Yoshiki. but he is what he is and i doubt even hide-chan can change that.)

so to end this conversation... since i was on a trip for 2 weeks, i now have 30 hours online to use up in 3 days. so...nee-chan, you up for a X hours conversation?

*tired grin* i'll go to bed, maybe dream about hide, maybe feel a bit less blue/lonely

SpAStiC......

learn
fuuunny
same bat-day, same bat-hour (same slow bat-connection)
sound: same bat-music

and now time for another bat-test *cringe*
i like bats though. such pretty creatures.

I see-stormy Baltic sea with grey, crashing waves
I find-that i don't want to know my future
I have-a lot. i know it and i'm grateful but...
I wish-i could know my past lives
I hate-bananas, history teacher and not being strong enough
I miss-Poland
I fear- my dentist appointment
I feel- l-o-n-e-l-y
I need-frankly? love. and money.
I hear-hypnotic Pink Floyd... try it!
I crave-hide hide hide.... and Kyo
I search-for my old photo album
I wonder-if i'll ever find my" true love" *smirk*
I regret-nothing. i tend to forget events that need regretting.
I love- friends. music. music. friends.
I ache- loud music, headache
I long- for another pack of gummi bears. oh, and for true love.
I care-the truth? for many people and things. but i hate saying it.
I always-feel happy around friends *kisukisu*
I am not-courageous in public
I believe-that you cannot force anything to happen
I have faith-in friends. and no one else
I dance- at home cuz i'm broke
I sing- all the time
I cry- i promised myself i wouldn't anymore
I do not always- follow through to the end
I succeed-in skipping 80% of the semester and still passing ~_^
I fail-to realise it when i do stupid things
I fight-too often, too hard, and it's not even worth it
I write-what i feel
I give-to those i love neee....
I win-sometimes
I lose-sometimes
I confuse-my cousins' birthdays
I listen-to music. always. always. aways.
I am- not able to approach life seriously
I will- find a job next summer. meet Kyo. have many little Kyos with him *henta~i*

and...

1.Make up a name for yourself. Niimura Akiko
2. Where were you born? Europe
3. And when was this? last days of Spring
4. What are you parents named? Adam and Eve
5. And what is your favorite sexual position? eeeeehhhh...... ask tomorrow.

see? now you all know me like a bald horse *laugh* that's a polish saying, "to know each other like bald horses". well, since bald horses can't hide anything.... logical....
my dear Watson...i'll see you on the dark side of the moon (Pink Floyd)

skin/scan/skinned
so good back home
july 16th, 1:18pm
sound: Pink Floyd, "Dark Side of the Moon" album

Dai-kun! soooo... how are you? ('cept for the bored part.)

urhhh.... last night shadows formed a cross right over my bed. i'm not religious but i'm supersticious so.... *shivershuddershake* T_T and i had some WeIRd dreams to go with that.... time travel, dimension travel, evil people and me as a waiter on a boat, trying to find enough forks for all the guests.

O.o... hum... maybe i should lay off the gummi bears before bed, ne? *bright smile*

nee-chan *jumps up and down-gets headache from jumping* so happy i could talk to you yesterday!!!!!!!! ^________^ i missed you ^______^ kisuuuuuuu and hugs ^^
as to my move, yeah, i'll want to, but in a li'l while. have a few things to do before and frankly, being back on the net feels weird.

#_# yeeeeah.... that's right... *laugh*

took this "test thingy" from nee-chan's blog

MORNING
1. What's your favorite breakfast cereal? don't like cereal
2. What's the first thing you do upon waking? look for reasons to stay in bed
3. Coffee or orange juice? tea
4. Stop to smell the roses or rush to work/school. hate rushing
5. What is your morning bathroom routine? too long
7. Toast or pop tart? neither
8. Sex in the morning or at night? hmm.... morning&night?
9. Do you have normal sleeping habits? yeah...
10. How many hours of sleep do you average? summer:10 hours school: 5 hours
11. Do you get on the Internet before work/school? nope
12. Do you change your underwear regularly? ha~i (what kind of a question is this? ~_~)
13. Sing in the shower? yup
14. Flex in the mirror? nope
15. Butter or Margarine? butter (but very little)

NOON
1. What's your favorite fast food place? ghhh.... dunno....
2. Take out, drive thru, or eat in? eat in
3. Bring your lunch or eat from a vending machine? depends
4. Eat in a group or alone? with friends
5. Would you like fries with that? sometimes
6. Gossip? sometimes >.<
7. Do you brush your teeth after every meal? >.<
8. Chew Trident ? nuuuu
9. Are you eating anything right now? gummi bears 'n wheat crackers
10. Ever had, how do you say, a nooner? oro? yeah, yesssss
11. Favorite TV Dinner? prefer home cooked
12. Favorite candy bar: mars (the one with almonds and nougat ^_^)
13. Favorite chewing gum: excel
14. Does loud chewing bother you? yup
15. Do you talk with your mouth full? no

NIGHT
1. What is your favorite sleeping position? on side, hugging pillow
2. Do you dream in color or black and white? dark colors, unnatural ones
3. Do you sleep alone? y-e-s
4. Have you ever been in a bar?ha~i
5. How about a gay bar? no
6. Do you drink? ha~i
7. Do you drink and drive? no car, can't drive
8. How about drugs, do you do those? no
9. Do you carry condoms? no
10. Tell me a recent dream: waiting for a time portal to open before i got killed
11. What are you doing next Saturday night? no idea
12. What do you sleep in? Winnie the Pooh PJs.... *laugh*
13. Kiss and tell? no

*thoughtful*

no dentist-me happy
will be less happy in 2 weeks
july 15th, 3:13pm
sound: Polish music ^_^

yeah, no dentist today! bless my weak, tired body and the lack of train pass money! ^_^ i'll suffer in 2 weeks, but that's in 2 weeks, neee ^___^
as you see *cough* i'm tanned (well... sort of, as much as i can tan >.<), been wearing a skirt for the past 2 weeks so i feel gIrLyyYYYYYYYYY!!! 'sides, the other colors were too depressing >.<
funny, during the first few days of my trip i missed my blog so much i started keeping a regular diary but after a few days... just gave up. #_#; *shrug* oh, well...

question: have you even seen a cat wider than longer?
i have. monsteeer!!!! the owner of the house (on Lake George), has a 16-year-old cat. 23 pounds!!! *laugh* looks like a black, oversized football with head, tail and paws. bah, the head looks too small, like a dinosaur's (those dinosaurs with huge bodies and tiny heads- yeah, that's about it).
i swear, that's not a cat.

nyan nyan

i'm back
content and sunburnt, i guess
july 14th, 11pm
sound: what sound???

i'm back!!!!!!!!! *laugh* i guess i should write that in bold if i was really happy but since i have the dentist tomorrow... *shudder*
but since i'm feeling a bit sick i think i'll skip that too and feel very happy. (yup, 'm terrified of the dentist but that's not the real problem: problem's that i have to go the day after getting home.)

'k enough about that. how've you all been??? 2 weeks without any contact with friends and it feels as if i'd been away for a year. or maybe not at all?.... weird time tricks... but...

overall the trip was ok, i got a sunburn (i'm itching like crazy all over cuz the skin is finally strating to come off. well, xept the back of my legs, that just DOESN'T tan). it was looong though, too much time with my family. and sharing a room with my cousin (one out of 3 cousins >.<). no privacy, no music, and the house had an overpowering old man smell.
but that, you get used to after 3 days. mosquitoes, flies that bite and everything else that flies/crawls/bites.

and a forest filled with fireflies.... incredible. so beautiful. although.... they scare me a bit, i'ts eerie, quiet forest filled with bursts of greenish light.

again, apart from that, i saw Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon *is in love with Lo, crying over Li Mun Bai, pitying Shu Lien *laugh* typical*, and Austin Powers (both movies). 'twas... shagadellic, baby, yeah... @.@, ok, i saw too much of that. >.<; let me forget some of it, quickly! hum, also, i developped a taste for macaroni and cheese (ha, i used to hate it), and been living off of oreos the past 5 days.

*pause so that i can scratch both arms, legs, cheek, back of neck, elbows, back.... and mosquito bite on my palm*

the lake (Lake George) was beautiful but cold as hell since it's spring fed from the mountains. beach was a bit small but not very crowded: it was a private beach for those who were staying in their cottage houses in that particular "village". some kids, some angsty teens, some moms, dads, older people, but overall my cousins were the ones who made the most noise.

yeah, that makes it ok... >.< oh god, so happy to be back home! i'm definitely calling the dentist off tomorrow, i'm not up for a 90 minute open mouth-can't swallow-will die any moment now session.

and... i'll write emails... and... and....

i really feel as if coming out of a different time zone. don't want to think about html, pages, emails.... need to get back to work though >.<.....

at least i wrote! not as much as i wanted to, but, still *big grin* and i have a twisted idea for a Kyo fic ^_^ all thatnks to the fireflies

wah, i'm off to scavenge in our empty empty fridge then look for a few fanfics. i missed reading!!!!!!!!

by the way, half of our plants died. 2 weeks without watering... T_T