Wednesday, June 18, 2003

Music: The Juliana Theory- Top Of The World

heids
Magic Number12
JobSporting Great
PersonalityRainy Day
TemperamentCool And Calm
SexualIf I Have To
Likely To WinAnother Gold Star
Me - In A WordCompassionate
Colour
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What kind of job is 'Sporting Great'???

Apply the Penal Code... @ 08:42 p.m.

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

Music: Tatu- Not Gonna Get Us

Werd. So I skipped Chem. That is why I'm home so early XD I really didn't want to spend another day in that classroom. I hate the end of school... T_T

funerals
You are a mopey goth. You probably spend your days
listening to Sisters of Mercy and The Cure. You
probably dont go out very often and dont really
have a life,but hey,not having a life is the
best life to have. I have sympathy for you. I
am proud

Are you an ignorant goth?
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You are indie goth
You are indie/goth. Yeah, you like some of the
mainstream bands and also Placebo. Don't
bother with clothes or wild make-up & are quite
happy to go to normal clubs, student places. A
sensible life in the future beckons.

Are you goth, cyber or Industrial?
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Heh, check out that freaky picture XD

Saves The Day!
You are Saves the Day. Pure emo!

What 'Emo' Band are You?
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saves the day
You are SAVES THE DAY. Young, heartbroken and
angry.

What popular "emo" band are you?
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Emo--You're a whiny, sad, pathetic little loser that needs to understand that NO ONE CARES SO JUST STOP OR KILL YOURSELF!!
Emo--You're a whiny, sad, pathetic little loser
that needs to understand that NO ONE CARES SO
JUST STOP OR KILL YOURSELF!!

The I am not Emo Quiz
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The Angry Princess
The Angry Princess

What sign of the Black Zodiac are you?
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HASH(0x86a6f5c)
Angel of Love.

What kind of Angel are you?
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Boobies!! XD

Apply the Penal Code... @ 02:59 p.m.

Monday, June 16, 2003

Music: Mrs. Elsdons announcements.

My Classes for next year thusfar:
Semester 1:
Period 1: Chemistry 30 (not taking this, probably changing to Foods 2 so I can have a class with my Kristen)
Ms. Krewson
Period 2: English 30
Mrs. Nesdoly (satan in a bra)
Period 5: Math 20 Applied
Mr. Tschritter (booya)
Period 6: Art 21
Mr. Jesse

Semester 2:
Period 1: Biology 30
Mr. Grad (great...)
Period 2: Social 30
Mrs. Perrin
Period 5: Art 31
Mr. Jesse
Period 6: Math 30 Applied
Mr. Tschritter (double booya)

Exciting. My new house is so nice... It's way too big... And it has a enclosed deck with a hot tub... I can't escape the stupid hot tubs.. Suckith...

Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:16 a.m.

Tuesday, June 10, 2003

Music: The Seatbelts- Cats on Mars

Kelsey... Call me... I'm worried about you!

Today was alright, I got to casual view a bit. He was walking behind me all the way to T.A. it was cool... Then we had a fire drill and I got a look then too. When walking back into the school with Carlie (the one stairwell right by the pit bathrooms), I caught his eye going through the doors... I was so excited...


Romantic movie! You probably won't star in a porno
anytime soon. You seem to be really into the
whole "love" thing...romantic sex
with perfumed sheets and candles all over the
place. You're probably a hopeless romantic. You
value sex and respect your partner too much to
do anything like porn. AWWWWWW! <3

What kind of porno would you star in?
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good to know...

Apply the Penal Code... @ 05:33 p.m.

Monday, June 9, 2003

Weezer: Slob

I just had a 1 1/2 hour talk with Kels on the phone. We talked about guys... and how we want one of our own. I just feel the need to reiterate how bad I have it for mysteriouso, there you go I have it BAD. I just can't stop my eyes from welling up lately, today was especially bad. I just don't understand some people. How can one person promise you something, but then feel totally unguilty about blatently not doing it. I mean if you think that I don't have a chance, don't spare me at the expense of my feelings. I feel totally lead on and stupid. I don't know where I get my crazy hope from. I've never once had a feeling that he's attracted to me, or even noticed me... I just don't think that people are ever going to like me in that way. I'm not there to date, just to look stupid and be stupid. I'm in such a slump right now, I let myself slid today, up untill now I think that I've been doing a good job at hiding the way I really feel. But someone noticed today (I think you know who you are)... I guess I was being really obvious at lunch... With the whole sighing and such. I'm usually so good at hiding stuff. I just don't want to bother anyone during exam time.

I don't know what love feels like.. God Dammit... Why did my heart (ick) pick someone so.. so... 'Squall-esque'... I just need my sense of mystery... So I find someone who is so wonderfully afraid of girls!!! I'm kicking myself... I've fallen for someone who is afraid of girls... and I think it's cute...

Apply the Penal Code... @ 09:21 p.m.

Friday, June 6, 2003

Music: None, except the sound of stress

What does stress sound like? An ever present pounding in my head.. Or is it more like the sound of car tires squealing on gravel in order to avoid hitting that pedestrian who just decided to cross the street? I don't really know if stress has a sound, or if I'm the only person that can hear stress. All I know is that I can hear it, and it stresses me out even more... So theres about 8 days of school left. I have eight days to let down my fricken security wall and talk to him. Do I even know what to say?
Hey I'm Sam, I've been your stalker for 3 years now. Do you want to get coffee sometime...
Somehow I don't think that is going to work... I've never felt like this before, I don't even know him... Meh this is too weird. I should just stop liking him. Then it will stop hurting.

Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:24 a.m.

Thursday, June 5, 2003

Music: Emily Bindiger- Flying Teapot.

Naru's back!!! Yey yey!! That makes me happy!!! XD XD!!!

Apply the Penal Code... @ 08:10 a.m.

Monday, June 2, 2003

Music: The loud fan in the library computer room.

Hmm... How many days of school are there left? Like 12? Wow, that sucks. I know that I'm being hypocritical here, especially since I dislike school so much, but I really don't want this year to end. I realy feel like I've found a place in my life that I would ike to stay for awhile before I have to grow up and start to act like an adult or before I have to go away and get serious about school. I know that, that is still a year away, but I hate change and I'm just preparing myself for it. Another reason is one anyone who has a part in my life should know. Yes it has to do with a certain someone... My little fairytale is ending, it was fun watching you from afar for three years, but every fairytale has to end. I understand that I'm pathetic in the way that I can't even talk to someone that I like. I'm pathetic in the way that I sit here and pine away for that one person, but never do anything about my feelings, of course one has to have a spin to do these things... I'm a poor invertibrate in a world of the vertabrateible... making up words now... Or I just don't care to take the time to search my brain for real ones... with real spelling.

Apply the Penal Code... @ 11:39 a.m.

Sunday, June 1, 2003

Music: Robbie Williams and Jane Horrocks- That old black magic

You are Trinity-
You are Trinity, from "The Matrix."
Strong, beautiful- you epitomize the ultimate
heroine.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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Apply the Penal Code... @ 04:07 p.m.

Wednesday, May 28, 2003

Music: RHPS- Rose Tint My World

LAYER ONE:

-- Name: samantha
-- Birthplace: medicine hat, alberta.
-- Current Location: my house, in the basement.
-- Eye Color: greenish-brownish-greyish.
-- Hair Color: dark brown.
-- Height: 5'8"
-- Righty or Lefty: lefty
-- Zodiac Sign: saggitarius

LAYER TWO:

-- Your heritage: british, german, gypsy (don't know where from though... i am serious though, i'm part gypsy 1/16th)
-- The shoes you wore today: my wal-mart safari sandals
-- Your weakness: a certain guy, baked goods, art supplies.
-- Your fears: rejection, getting hurt, not measuring up, feeling useless, not being good enough.
-- Your perfect pizza: i guess pepperoni and cheese.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: ummm, venture out of my safety bubble... and talk to someone. (these are short term goals... not life goals, i'm not that pathetic).

LAYER THREE:

-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: XD
-- Your thoughts first waking up: i just want to sleep...
-- Your best physical feature: none, not good enough.
-- Your bedtime: around 10pm if i have school, 1-4am when i don't have anything to get up for in the morning.
-- Your most missed memory: being a kid with tons of self-confidence.

LAYER FOUR:

-- Pepsi or Coke: coke coke coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: mmm burger king... i could go for a greasy burger right about now...
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Adidas or Nike: neither
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton brisk iced tea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla.
-- Cappuccino or coffee: hot chocolate.

LAYER FIVE:

-- Smoke: gross
-- Sing: all the fucking time.
-- Take a shower everyday: yep.
-- Have a crush(es): *nods* yep, one.
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes.
-- Want to go to college: yes.
-- Like(d) high school: yeah i do actually... weird.
-- Want to get married: not really
-- Believe in yourself: *raises eyebrow* no, i don't.
-- Get motion sickness: if i read too long in the car when traveling.
-- Think you're attractive: fuck no.
-- Think you're a health freak: depends.
-- Get along with your parents: most of the time.
-- Like thunderstorms: fuck yes.
-- Play an instrument: i like to pretend that i do.

LAYER SIX:

In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: no.
-- Smoked: no.
-- Done a drug: no.
-- Had Sex: hell no.
-- Made Out: i wish.
-- Gone on a date: i wish.
-- Gone to the mall: yes.
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nope, but i ate 6 of those pastery things that you can buy at superstore.
-- Eaten sushi: nope.
-- Been on stage: no.
-- Been dumped: no.
-- Gone skating: nope.
-- Made homemade cookies: no.
-- Gone skinny dipping: uh no.
-- Dyed your hair: no.
-- Stolen anything: no.

LAYER SEVEN:

Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: no.
-- If so, was it mixed company: no.
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope.
-- Been caught "doing something": eh?
-- Been called a tease: eh?
-- Gotten beaten up: no.
-- Shoplifted: nope.
-- Changed who you were to fit in: ew.

LAYER EIGHT:

-- Age you hope to be married: i don't expect on getting married.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: i don't have any. and i don't plan on getting knocked up either.
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: weird.
-- How do you want to die: immense helium intake.
-- Where you want to go to college: u of a.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: something artisty. or a historian.
-- What country would you most like to visit: japan or greece.

LAYER NINE:

In a guy/girl... [aka: the superficial files]
-- Best eye color? green.
-- Best hair color? no preference.
-- Short or long hair: in between.
-- Height: taller than me.
-- Best weight: skinny and lanky.
-- Best articles of clothing: school uniforms or something clean cut like that... or something funky... as long as it's clean its okay.
-- Best first date location: something fun, maybe go out for coffee or something...
-- Best first kiss location: something romantic.

LAYER TEN:

-- Number of drugs taken illegally: none.
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: three.
-- Number of CDs that I own: too many.
-- Number of piercings: 4
-- Number of tattoos: 0
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 5 or 6... for honors and such.
-- Number of scars on my body: about 13.
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: too many to count.

The end. Meh.

Apply the Penal Code... @ 06:00 p.m.

Wednesday, May 28, 2003

When approaching a topic such as World War One (or the Great War) one must consider all of the possible questions one can ask. One such question could be ‘Was World War One inevitable?’ Because the Great War is such a diverse and intricate topic, it is extremely difficult to describe in the utmost detail on how the events of the World War One era actually unfolded, or what ultimately lead to war. But one thing is for certain, people believe in one of two things; they either postulate that the Great War could have been completely avoided, or that the war was wholly inevasible and that it couldn’t have been stopped. Both sides have liable arguments. Those who believe that the war was stoppable do so, because they trust the war-prevention ideas. They assumed that if people just followed the laws correctly than the war would never have occurred. On the flip side, you have the people who prophesied that the war was inevitable. They think that with all of the bottle-up tension that had been occurring for centuries over in Europe, that the war was bound to happen sooner or later, and that it couldn’t have been prevented. History has awarded an answer to the question of whether or not the Great War was inevitable, and the answer is yes.

The tension in Europe was building, and so was nationalism. This culprit can be blamed partly for the inevitability of the Great War because it blatantly placed the idea that one's country is better than another. Don't get me wrong; nationalism can be great for a country, but only in moderation. With the Triple Alliance, and the Triple Entente you get triple the nationalistic pride and trouble, and instead of two countries simultaneously duking it out, you have six; six extremely nationalistic countries, one continent. Of course these six countries didn't see a full out world war in the future, they only thought that what they were doing was right. If one of their 'friends' were getting picked on, they would back them up. So what was thought to be a sure fire plan proved to be a seriously detrimental situation for the whole of Europe. These alliances derived from a very sticky situation; Russia vs. Austria-Hungary. There was a time where Germany was aligned with both Russia and Austria-Hungary, this cause some discomfort between the two Slavic countries. The Russians wanted to protect and give the Slavic-speaking people in Austria-Hungary their freedom. They wanted to be responsible for them, and take care of them; they wanted to liberate them. But as luck would have it, the German ruler (Wilhelm II) decided that since he was the newly appointed Kaiser of Germany, he would decide not to renew the three-year contract with Russia, he thought that Germany didn’t need Russia and would be weakened by the countries lack of resources, and weak military. Thus this leaves Russia looking for a new friend. Now France is feeling a little hurt nationalistically and Germany is the wrongdoer. The two provinces of Alsace-Lorraine were annexed to Germany as a result of France’s defeat in the Franco-Prussian war (1870-1871), and the French were ready for their revenge, they wanted that territory back, and they were willing to do anything to get it. While France was scheming to get their territory back, Russia was still scouring Europe for a friend to align itself with. Thus, the French-Russian alliance was born, and Europe was one step closer to war. It took some convincing on the part of Russia and France to get Britain to join and fight on their side, but it was done, and the Triple Entente was about to take-off. But you can’t have a Triple anything if you have only two members, so Germany and Austria-Hungary decide to recruit another country

Apply the Penal Code... @ 11:13 a.m.

Tuesday, May 20, 2003

Music: None- no one in particular.

So yeah, at school right now. Waste of time, we have tomorrow off... Yeah.

Homework
Who: Narodna Odbrana ‘the black hand’ religious terrorist group in Austria

What: The assassination of Archduke Ferdinand and his wife Archduchess Sofia

Where: Sarajevo, the capital of Bosnia

When: June 28, 1914

Why: To make a statement for the independence of Bosnia from Austrian control, Gavrilo Princip was growing paranoid with the Empire and he decided to assassinate the Archduke to try and shatter the country, in order to

How: Two shots fired at Archdukes vehicle, first one hit Archduchess Sofia in the lower abdomen killing her and her unborn child almost instantly, the second hit the Archduke piercing the skin close to his heart.

Archduke and wife Assassinated.
Let freedom reign.

June 29th , 1914

Yesterday by the actions of a Serbian student, our fellow Serbs in Bosnia are one step closer to achieving their well deserved political freedom from the Austrian empire. What was to be a routine inspection of the manoeuvring of the Austrian troops stationed in our proud city turned into a decision that the Austrian government will live to regret. The Serbian student turned hero, Gavrilo Princip, was part of the freedom fighting organization ‘The Black Hand’, who upon hearing of the Archduke’s visit, began planning their attack. Their plan was to be executed in a series of stages. Each of the members had a specific post they were to attack from if their chance arose.

Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:12 a.m.

Saturday, May 17, 2003

Music: Robbie Williams and Jane Horrocks- That Old Black Magic

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
CategoryYour Score Average
Self-Lovin'88.3%
Never taken out of the packaging
63.2%
Shamelessness100%
78.1%
Sex Drive 100%
76.3%
Straightness98.2%
Just go fuck something, okay?
42.3%
Gayness 98.2%
Repressed, are we?
81.3%
Fucking Sick96.5%
Refreshingly normal
88.9%
You are 95.4% pure
Average Score: 71%

For all of the perverted test scores I usually get... This is weird..


You're the classic starving artist. You thrive and
take pride in the pain that you turn into art.
You've probably had a very traumatic childhood
and now confide in paper more than people...
You have trouble remembering where you put your
damn pens... all the time.

What type of artist are you?
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Apply the Penal Code... @ 01:08 p.m.

Friday, May 16, 2003

Music: Robbie Williams- Something Beautiful

I do realize that I seem a bit preoccupied with Jared Basketboy. This is only because I don't feel comfortable saying it anywhere else... I know that people read this, but.. Meh... T_T Fuck it. I'm done.. I'm going to spam now.

I took the McDonalds test, and guess what I got?


You can take the McDonalds Product Test by Matio64 here!

Is it wrong for me to like these...


Which ParaKiss Character Are You? Brought to you by Kira
I'm confident... No I just come across as confident or aloof... Oh well... *love love George!!*

you_are_perverted
You are Perverted!

Which Stereotypical CLAMP emotion are you?
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I'm really not as perverted as these quizes make me sound... Well... heh..

Bright Shield Rune
Which Suikoden True Rune Are You Compatible With?

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You are most compatible with the Bright Shield Rune. You are likely a very considerate, caring person. You work to protect the innocent and those you care about. In your view, the way you go about accomplishing your goals is equally as important as actually realizing them. Unfortunately, you may miss the big picture at times, and oversimplify things. You would probably rather lead a simple life, but are willing to rise to the occasion where you are needed. The current owner of the Bright Shield Rune is Riou, who lead the Jowsten Army to victory against the invading Highland forces. When he found his childhood friend Joei who had lead the opposite side of the war, beaten and dying, rather than kill him so that he could claim the other half of the Rune of Beginning as Joei had requested, Riou used the Bright Shield Rune's hidden power of "Forgiver Sign," to heal his mortal wounds.

My Romance Meter
Optimist 65%
..
35% Cynic
Close 59%
..
41% Distant
Long Term 69%
..
31% Brief
What does my romance meter read?

I just need to find someone to share these results with...

Apply the Penal Code... @ 04:48 p.m.

Friday, May 16, 2003

Music: Catherine Zeta Jones- All that Jazz

Well now, this may not seem like a tremendously big deal to anyone out there, but I don't have to work tommorow.. I am so happy. I get to sleep in. Yey. I should rent some movies tonight... Hmm...
Things I need to do this (long) weekend...
1. Clean my fucking room. This is a neverending task. I clean my room one day, the next it looks as messy as before I cleaned it the first time. Great. Maybe I should pack some of my stuff up. It's too cluttered.
2. Finish Art, and CALM module one and two. Bah, I've been putting this off for way too long. I guess I need to get a good start on it. I have the lineart done for my art, I just need to make my inkwashes, and apply them.
3. Play Final Fantasy VIII, I need to finish this before the Summer, I plan on playing Suikoden 3 then.. XD I wonder how long I've been playing FF8? On and off for about 6 or 7 months?? Oh well, I'm in Lunitic Pandora right now. I'm trying to get energy crystals to make pulse ammo so I can upgrade Squalls weapon to the Lionheart. XD XD *love love Squall*
4. Draw. I really need to get a start on my manga. I have the first page done roughly, but yeah. I've totally changed the storyline. The other just wasn't working for me. Maybe I can use that one for a co-written story thinger. Yep.
5. Make a new CD. Robbie Williams here I come... XD I need good workout music.

I say that I need to do these things now, but I know I'll just end up sitting in front of the computer for the whole weekend...

Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:16 a.m.

Wednesday, May 14, 2003

Music: George Carlin- Dunno the name, on a comedy CD

Bah, boys really suck. Recently (i.e. Yesterday) I noticed something while I was walking by mysteriouso, he looked over. We both did the same thing, I looked over and quickly looked away and noticed that he did the same... Another time, right before exams, I didn't have German class becasue it was a 30 level course and he had a spare, we locked eyes for quite a long time... Then he looked away. And almost everyday after Social I lock eyes with him in the hallway... Blah.
I'm probably looking into this WAY too much, because lets face it, he was probably just looking at the clock or something... or just looking at people that he past in the hallway. Because why would.. Meh.
This is all I seem to write about. Blub.

On another note, Naru, where have you gone??? T_T I'm going to e-mail you when I get home... I can't right now, because I'm at school... and stuff. If your even reading this. At all. People are such mean jerks, especially on the internet.

Yep.

cancer
You should be a Cancer, Intuitive, sensitive,
responsive, aware, family/home oriented, shy,
understanding, feeling, imaginative,
dependable, conservative, loving, but can be
moody, touchy, prikcly, hostile

~*What is your TRUE Zodica sign?*~
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Heh... I'm prickly.

IAmAGiantMutantKitten
I am a giant mutant kitten. Not strange at all.

Which cute or possibly strange kitten are you?
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Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:12 a.m.

Layout featuring Katsuya from Persona 2! Yey, he's such a cutie X3!! I should make a plushie... Of him... Heh


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Culprit:
Name:Samantha Heidinger, a.k.a. Heids.
D.O.B:Dec 2, 1986
Gender:Female, last time I checked.
From: Canada baby!!! XD
Zodiac:Sagitarius, bullshit if you ask me...

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Likes:LOTR, anime, manga, movies!!!, Harry Potter, my dog, mysteriouso (convection current ^_~), my Ps2, RPG's, manic laughter, and fantasy novels.
Dislikes: WORK! Being late, people being late -_-, smaller versions of adults... I think that they call them 'children'...

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Anime and Manga: Paradise Kiss, Mars, X/1999, Ragnarok, Imadoki!, Angel Sanctuary, Cowboy Bebop, Kare Kano.
Games:Suikoden series, Persona 2, Final Fantasy VIII.
Music:U2, Sarah Slean, Coldplay, Ivy, Rocky Horror Picture Show Soundtrack, The White Strips, Cowboy Bebop Soundtracks


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Contact Me:

bolshephobia@hotmail.com

My Mediaminer Account

The Usual Suspects:
CiM
Gojita
Christiana
Andrea
Naru
Daniel
Katelyn
Mel


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