Apply the Penal Code... @ 04:02 p.m.

Wednesday, May 7, 2003

Music: Lisa Loeb- Underdog.

BASICS THAT BORE YOU

First off, what's your name?
Full name? Samantha Ellen Rose Heidinger Why did your parents name you that, and do you wish they hadn't?
My dad and brother had a little crush on 'Samantha' from 'Growing Pains'... and the rest is history... (my mom wanted to name me Holly XD)

How old are you?
16

How old are you emotionally? (As in, do you think you handle your emotions pretty well and have sorted through most of them) How old are you mentally?
Umm emotionally, maybe a few years older than I am... Like 18 or something... I think I handle situations pretty well... Mentally: about the same...

SEX, ETC.

Let's get this one over with- have you ever even had sex before?
HA HA HA... Nope.

If you're a virgin, do you plan on having sex before you get married? Why or why not?
I guess if I find the right person yes... I don't really want to get married..

Are you straight, bisexual, gay, or lesbian? Have you ever questioned whether you really are this way?
Straight, although there was a time when I thought that I was bi... But chalk that up to being obsessive-compulsive...

Do you feel comfortable talking about sexual things or uncomfortable?
That really depends on who it is... I get really uncomfortable otherwise.

Do you feel comfortable talking about sexual things regarding your own experiences, what turns you on, etc.?
What experiences? You are talking to the worlds least experienced 16 year old here... +hasn't even held hands+ *._.*

On a scale of 1-10, one being the least, and ten being the most, how perverted do you feel you are?
Now this is my kind of question... heh.. prolly a 7 or 8.. depending on my sugar intake.

If you're a teenager, are your hormones making you undoubtedly horny?
No...

Are you flexible, or do flexible people turn you on? (If you don't understand how this question is sexual you probably never will.)
I'm flexible.

Did you lie on, or avoid answering any of the above questions?
No

LOVE

Do you believe in love as a concept? Why or why not?
Yes. Love is like oxygen, All you need is love!! Heh... heh...

Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? If so, who?
No

Do you love them? Why or why not?
WTF, I told you I don't have one...

How long have you been together?
blah.

If you answered no to the first question in this section, do you have a crush?
Is a basketball round???

Do you love them?
Infactuated yes.. You can't really love someone you've never talked to.

On a scale of 1-10, one being the least and ten being the most, how important is your boyfriend, girlfriend, or crush to you?
8 maybe...

On a scale of 1-10, how important is the way your boyfriend's/girlfriend's/crush's family feel about you to you?
7... Yes, I really care what people think about me... *its awful*

If your family hated your crush, boyfriend, or girlfriend, would you still go out with them? Why?
I would, then end up regreting it. Usually whenever my parents don't like a person, they end up being complete ass-holes and such.

DOES your family hate your crush, boyfriend, or girlfriend?
They would need to know him..

Are you physically attracted to your crush, boyfriend, or girlfriend? Why or why not?
Yes, because he's tall and skinny... I like my lanky guys... He also has a very sexy jawline... nice eyes and lips... *^_^* yes, I could go on but I'll spare you...

Do you think The Beatles were high when they wrote the song, "All You Need is Love?"
Hell no... X3

How do you know when you love someone?
I would have to know what it's like to answer that...

Is love worth it?
Once you find the right person, yes.

FRIENDS

Who is/are your best friend/s of the opposite sex?
Jesse... I guess...

Who is/are you best friend/s of the same sex?
Natalie, Kelsey, K, C, and Dal...

Name one or two people you know you would die for.
All of the above and my mom and brother... and my dad I guess.

On a scale of 1-10, how important are your friends to you?
9.5

Have you ever fallen in love with a friend? How did that work out, if you did?
Nope.

How well do your friends know you? Do you think they would still be your friends if they knew EVERYTHING, no exceptions, about you? If so, which friends?
If they were true friends, then yes.... I fully trust most of my friends.

Ten years from now, which friends do you hope to still be in touch with? Why?
C, K, and Kelsey. Why, because those are the three that I doubt I'll see much after school ends. C is going away to Uni, I don't really know about K, and Kelsey... Fuck me if I know..

YOUR PSYCHE

Do you have any diagnosed mental disorders? If so, what?
Yep, I'm borderline obsessive-compulsive.

Do you have any undiagnosed mental disorders? If so, what?
I don't think so...

If you do in fact have a diagnosed or even undiagnosed mental disorder, describe what it feels like and/or your personal experiences with it.
It was really hard to figure out what was wrong with me, and why I was thinking the things that I did. I found it really difficult to function normally like everyone else... I was always worrying about something, and I thought that I was really weird in the head... Scary.

Have you ever been to a therapist, psychiatrist, or psychologist before? If so, were they helpful to you?
Yep, and yep. I am on medication now, and doing so much better...

Do you think your dreams are a window into your soul? Or do they have any significance at all? What?
I don't really know... I wish some of my dreams would come true.

How would you describe yourself mentally and psychologically?
didn't I already answer this question???

Do you feel insecure with your own person? Have a self-esteem problem? If so, why do you think you do?
Yep, because I'm never good enough. Fuck me if I know why.

Apply the Penal Code... @ 07:59 p.m.

Tuesday, May 6, 2003

Music: Annie Difranco- Untouchable Face

The sweet light no longer strikes against your eyes. Dante's Inferno Hell Test has banished your shade has to... the Fourth Level of Hell!

Fourth Level of Hell

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Just before the river Styx is the Fourth Level of Hell. Here, the prodigal and the avaricious meet their punishment, as they roll weights back and forth against one another. You will share eternity with others who either wasted, lived greedily and insatiably, or who hoarded their fortunes, . The demon Plutus dwells here.

Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Heh heh... I never claimed to be generous... I'm a hoarding bitch!!

Apply the Penal Code... @ 05:31 p.m.

Monday, May 5, 2003

Music: Beck- Devil's Haircut

It's been awhile, hasn't it... I think that I have to take matters into my own hands concerning mysterioso. I really apprieciate what Dal said she would do for me, but I'm just not seeing any results. The year is almost over, and she has a boyfriend, and she is going to try to hook Kristen up with Trevor... What about me??? Am I just getting tossed off.. Old news??? I know that I sound extremely whiny, but I can't help it. I really do appreciate that she has taken all this time out of her busy life to do me a favour... But I'm just not seeing any results... I'm becoming impatient... I know that I really sound ingrateful, but I really can't wait any longer... If I don't do anything now, I'll regret it... I will never see him again unless something good happens... Something good will never happen unless I make it happen... But I don't know how to make it happen... I am totally clueless... What should I do or say? I'm in a real rut here... I could use some help.. Is this really that unrealistic? Do I even have a chance? Should I take this at a clue? Meh.

*points* HENTAI! *whap*

If you Ruled the World...
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I honestly didn't think that I was being too pervy when I took this quiz... XD

You are Beast! You are brilliant and extremely clever. You can
handle almost any problem swiftly and
efficiently. You are devoted to philosophy and
are always up for a good discussion.
Sometimes, though, your anger gets the best of
you and you upset those whom you care about.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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Sweet...

I'm just a cool person. People like me.

Why do people read your Livejournal?
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Heh...Fonz..

You are guilty of Envy! All you do is worry and
worry about people being better than you. Be
careful - or Satan might put you in freezing
water!

Which of the Seven Deadly Sins are you most guilty of?
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Apply the Penal Code... @ 04:14 p.m.

Monday, April 28, 2003

Music: Eminem-Sing for the Moment

Music courtesy of my brothers computer. I'm comtemplating whether I should wear my fucking sweet pleated skirt tommorow... With blue knee-high socks and my "sweet vinyl deejay" t-shirt I bought at bluenotes in Edmonton... It looks pretty fucking awesome... but do I have the guts to carry it off... Not likely.

Well, u-- um, can we come up and have a look?

What Monty Python Character are you?
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Well, u-- um, can we come up and have a look?

Booya!

Apply the Penal Code... @ 09:02 p.m.

Tuesday, April 22, 2003

Music: Ani Difranco- Back, Back, Back.

I'm sooooo bored... I feel like I've been sucked into the vacumn of stunted creativity. I'm iching to draw, or write something, but I just can't. On a side note, I'm going to Edmonton tommorow, I have three-hundred bucks to waste on stuff, and yeah. I'm really tierd. I need to pack. I really ment to finish Final Fantasy VIII, but... Yeah.

Dr. Cox

Which Scrubs Character are You?
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Scrubs rocks!!!

Apply the Penal Code... @ 12:41 p.m.

Monday, April 21, 2003

Music: A mix between Weezer- Dope Nose (comming from my computer), and Cradle of Filth... That one song that they covered.. It was is a Iron Maiden song... anyway its comeing from my brothers computer

Heh... That is a crazy combination... Going to Edmonton on Wednesday. Going to have fun rooting around in Warp 1 comics... Don't worry I'll think of all you poor people stuck in Medicine Hat while I'm stuck buying piles of manga, and perhaps another Astroboy t-shirt from Sanrio gifts at the West Edmonton Mall... Heh heh heh.

You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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Heh, wow that totally echos the way I was feeling about myself yesterday... Fucking moodswings I tell ye!!!

hug from behind - you like to feel what the other
person is feeling and see things how they see
them. you tend to be serious and emotional.

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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Now, I'm sure that I've taken that test before... Oh well, it's cute, I'm in a cute mood... *sighs wistfully* Hmm who IS that cutie who is hugging that chick on my results??!!! He looks like a bloke if you ask me... Hah..

Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:07 p.m.

Sunday, April 20, 2003

Music: Over the Rhine- Latter Days

Hmmm... I am so bored, I want to call someone, but I'm scared to interupt their Easter Supper... I had mine yestertag... I'm in such a rut right now... hmm, I think that I ended up crying myself to sleep last night... I have no clue why... Well, I know why. But that is for me to know, and no one else to find out. I'm sure that anyone close to me can guess... I'm that shallow, and predictable. If your looking for any kind of substance, don't look here. I only care about myself. I'm materialistic and extremly shallow. I've been fooling anyone who ever thought that I was kind, or caring... Actually in all truth, I'm sick of it. Sick of it all. Hmmm, now people are going to think that I'm going to commit suicide or something. Nope, not happening. It's totally useless to kill yourself. Not only are you being completly and totally selfish by not thinking about how much this will hurt and effect everyone around you, your also destroying something that is so precious. Don't think for one minute that you are anything special, just because you feel down, it doesn't mean that you have the right to take your own life. Think of all the people out there who are dying of incurable diseases, or that can't get the medication they need, or have just been murdered by some crazy fucking homocidal maniac... Don't you think that they would love to have the life you want to give up....

I hate when I think about things that depress me.. Meh... Oh well, in a few days I'll be back to being my usual self.. or at least pretending to be... I don't even know if my usual self is real or not anymore... ohwell... I wonder what Christiana, or Katelynn or dal are doing...? hmm...

Edit

Ok, I'm over that lack of sanity... For now... Heh heh.. I've been on an emotional rollercoaster lately. My brain is currently being used as a storing place for all my thoughts on a certain person... I'll give you one guess as to who.

Lucida Calligraphy - You tend towards the arts.
You tend to stand out in a crowd and have your
own style. Be careful not to be too aloof,
however.

What Font Are You? (Standard Fonts)
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Heh.. Aloof...

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

What kind of kiss are you?
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Well... I'll have to try this one day on someone... >:D

Apply the Penal Code... @ 06:01 p.m.

Monday, April 14, 2003

Evanesence- Bring Me To Life.

They are one of the most amazing bands I've heard in a long time, well besides Coldplay and OLP *huggles Raine*. It's really kind of sad. I should be all packed and ready to go to Thailand tomorrow, but of course, our trip was canceled. Argg... I feel like I could cry. I can only imagine how excited I would be right now if we were going... T_T Not Fair.

You're nothing, really. But you're nice.

What type of music are you?
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You're nothing, really. But you're nice.

Isn't that the truth... I'm nothing really... but I'm nice... HA ha ha ha ha... Werd... Katelynn is my hero, she so kindly told me that there is a picture of... mysteriouso ... at the Hat High web page... *squee* So cute!!!! :) Thank you Katelynn... I checked it out... X3 Yummy!

Renton! *swoons* Your out of the toilet, moving on,
going striaght and choosing life. Go you.

Which Trainspotting charactor are You?
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Trainspotting is such a great movie.. Yummy ewan...

Christian! *faints*

Which Ewan Character Are You?
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Colin Mochrie

Which 'Whose Line is it Anyway?' actor are you!?
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Yesh, Colin's the best.. and he's canadian!!! Woot!

Apply the Penal Code... @ 04:45 p.m.

Friday, April 11, 2003

Music: Kare Kano- Yume no Naka e

Blah. I am so tired, time changes really hit me hard.

You are Cio Cio San from Puccini's "Madama
Butterfly"! You're quiet, unassuming, and conventional. You
don't like to make waves and so you are always
deferential and polite. But don't let yourself
be a doormat--you have needs too!

Which DIVA are you?
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Apply the Penal Code... @ 05:13 p.m.

Tuesday, April 1, 2003

Music: The sound of 30 computers 'thinking'

At school, in T.A. with nothing to say. I really want to write interesting things in this blog of mine, the problem is that I can't think of anything interesting to write... Blah blah. I'm wondering whether I should study for that Africa File final that I have today in Social... No. I don't need to, I know my stuff. I think.. heh. Yep, I feel kinda listless today. I don't really have anything to say. hey, that rhymed...
Friday will be fun, going down to Lyon's park with Dal and a few of the people she works with to play hide-and-go-seek in the dark ^_^ I havn't done that for ages, I'm really excited.. It's going to be pitch black down there, no lights, no anything... We'll have glowsticks, but thats about it... ^_^

Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:19 a.m.

Wednesday, March 26, 2003

Music: Coldplay- Politik

Wow, it's been quite awhile hasn't it. I have had no time lately to blog, my life has been one huge whirl-wind of homework and the displeasure of being sick. Yep

Scary. You are the threatening WOK OF PAIN. I'm
frightened. I'm *very* frightened. *Runs away
from evil KILLER RABBITS, as wisely suggested*

Yes, I am the evil wok of pain. I sugest you take this test to find out what equally evil and disturbing weapon you are!! Mwash mwash!!Yeah. So Billy Boyd night was really amazing. I got to touch a hobbit!!! XD XD It turns out Hailies mom had some connections (she knew the guy who was introducing him at the film festival) and so she mentioned that we would like to meet him. So yeah we hung out for awhile with him before he had to be interviewed for the Calgary Herald. We got pictures, and autographs... It was really awesome. I had fun. The end.

Libertarian - You believe that the main use for
government is for some people to lord it over
others at their expense. You maintain that the
government should be as small as possible, and
that civil liberties, "victimless
crimes", and gun ownership should be basic
rights. You probably are OK with capitalism.
Your historical role model is Thomas Jefferson.

Which political sterotype are you?
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Heh..

Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:21 a.m.

Thursday, March 13, 2003

Music: None- except the ever-present trumpet playing in my head

Heh heh! It's Billy Boyd day!!! I shall let out a over-excited cheer for joy!!! KNOOOAAAAAAEEEE!!! I feel like I'm going to vomit all over the place! ^_^ I'm so happy and excited... I want to explode!!!
When I returned from Mr. Eastly's T.A, I found to my amazment, Mysteriouso was there! *another jump for joy!!!* I get to stare at the back of his head for half an hour. I'm so pleased! Heh.. I feel like such a stalker, but I'm not... No... Me? A stalker... Heh heh... So anyway, I want to scream at the top of my lungs!!! Today has been so great sofar!!! My hair is curly!!! Wai, it went all frizzy but thats ok, I love my curly hair!! XD XD... I feel like I've been on too many drugs.. None of my sentences make sense anymore. I'm just flitting around like a small child on ten gallons of ice-cream... Wheee!!!!

Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:32 a.m.

Turkey Tuesday, March 11, 2003

Music: Katelynn on the P.A. system

Neat quiz thinger I found on Andrea's blog.

I am not: A man
I hurt: Everywhere
I hate: Narrow-mindedness
I fear: People
I crave: Love, and pink lemonade
I regret: Things I had a chance to do, but never did them *cough cough*
I cry: All the time
I care: More than I let on
I long: For pink lemonade and Billy Boyd ^_^v
I feel alone: Not too often
I listen: Too everything (indie is great)
I hide: Behind my hair
I drive: A bob sled
I sing: Way too much
I dance: To the music in my head
I write: Really badly
I breathe: Helium (ha ha ha)
I play: Final Fantasy VIII and Suikoden 3
I miss: My black pleated skirt :(
I search: For manga in Fernie (to not find any ._.;)
I learn: Nothing in CALM
I feel: Kinda lost...
I know: I like Pink Lemonade
I say: "Fucking Todger"
I suceed: In making a fool of my self in front of certain people whenever they are around... *smacks self*
I fail: Chem tests
I dream: About things that will never happen
I wonder: If things were to happen, what would happen?
I want: My personal basketball updater *^_^* heh heh
I worry: About my friends, if they are really okay
I have: Too much CALM to do
I give: Not enough
I fight: I don't
I wait: Patiently (sort of)
I need: Music, Pink Lemonade and manga
I hope: Stuff works out
I will: Like who or what I want

Yep

Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:16 a.m.

Monday, March 10, 2003

Music: Six Pence None The Richer- Love Letters in the Sand

Heaaaaa... I'm so sad right now. I feel really lifeless, kinda like I'm not even here. I'm sick and tired of pining over someone when I know nothing is going to happen, but I can't stop. I still have a very small flame of hope in me. Sounds really cheesy, but it's true. I just can't see how he could like me. At all. I'm not all that special, I'm not extrodinarily good at anything, I can't do much of anything right. Lately I've been feeling kind of off... I don't really feel like myself if that makes any sense. I'm really upset with my Chem mark right now. I really need to bring it up, I just don't understand some of what we are doing in class. It really depresses me, to think, the stuff we are doing right now is 'really simple', if thats the case, I'm going to be screwed. I really want Chem on my transcript, I really want to do well. I don't want to have a shitty mark. I don't want to stress over everything. I'm just having a bad day today, I need some REM-sleep.

On a happier note, Billy Boyd (yes the hobbitses), is coming to Medicine Hat!!! I'm so excited... I wonder if he would mind if I asked for his autograph?? I'm so nervous. GAH!!!! I'm going to take one of my LOTR: FOTR movie books and see if he'll sign his picture for me... *is scared* Anyway, it'll be exciting... I feel like I'm going to throw up. X'D

*le sigh* I feel kinda stupid.

Apply the Penal Code... @ 08:48 p.m.

Wednesday, March 5, 2003

Music: Maaya Sakamoto- Gravity

Things I need to do before I go to Ferney:

1. Pack, I'll warm clothes. Sweaters and such, I'll take my gray and black hoodie thingers as well...
2. Get entertainment suplies. 5 hours is a long time to be in the car, hopefully I can con my brother into letting me borrow his PS1 and screen thinger that makes it portable. If not, I'm stealing his gameboy advance.. So that means that I'll need to take games... If there PS1 games they can go into my CD wallet..
3.
Burn CD's. I can't live without music!!! So I need to make sure I have enough batteries and such...
4. I guess I'll take my sketchbook. You never know what can happen when your far from home... I'm might get to work on my manga... Since Christiana will be there.. she can help me.. Heh heh...

So it turns out that 12 people are going. There is going to be 3 boys, all under the age of 15... Great, boys at their most perverted stage... And C and I have to share the basement with them... This will prove to be very interesting... On a side note, I get to sleep on a blow-up bed XD Not enough room in the cabin... I hope I get to see a big animal or two whilst there... I'm starting to get excited... I shouldn't have to do much of anything, provided that my teachers are kind and don't give me much homework... I can count on chem, but I don't think I'll get much, if at all, Social. Thank god for 3rd period... I wouldn't get any homework done if I didn't have that class...
I wonder if I should take my art with me... I have been slacking off royally in that class lately.. I'm starting to feel bad... Well, not really... heh I'm a slacker... XD

I physically ran into my convection current the other day... I mean literally ran into him.. I was so embarassed... My first words to him were, 'Opps, I'm sorry', and they weren't even properly formed words either... I kind of croaked them out, (I still had my sexy man voice that day)... Meh. I'm listening to Gremio's theme from Suikoden 1 right now... so sad... T_T I still rememeber when... T_T Now I'm all depressed... I should listen to the Chicago soundtrack, that makes me happy.. Especially the press room rag.. XD XD Great fun...

Apply the Penal Code... @ 10:16 a.m.

Sunday, March 2, 2003

Music: Rocky Horror Picture Show- Sweet Transvestite

Ok, so the re-vamp is taking longer than expected... I just can't get modivated enough to actually finish it. All I really have left is to finish adding the info about me on the left, and my url's to the actual layout pictures... Almost done. Maybe I'll have it up next week sometime.
We got a scanner!!! WOOT! I'm happy, I can upload real media arts now! Heh heh heh... Maybe take blackmale pictures this weekend in Ferney... And post them... Heh..

Which Ringwraith are You?
By Lisa

This was the funniest test I've taken in awhile... XD

Apply the Penal Code... @ 06:24 p.m.

Saturday, March 1, 2003

what's your cowboy bebop theme song?

Apply the Penal Code... @ 08:35 p.m.